#bpd triggers

[professionallyunstable]

"I love your personality!" - thanks its a disorder.

[tear-stained-lenses]

*No reply*

Oh so you want me to kill myself?

[rainywhispersblog]

[borderline-buddies]

nobody will understand how badly it hurts when you wither everything you touch and lay waste wherever you step.

[perisbpddiary]

I've been dissociated like 24/7 for weeks now this isn't great

[thebpdcrybaby]

Say "your triggers are your responsibility" one more fucking time...

[personalitydisorderawareness]

"you're so sensitive"

like no shit, i have the mental illness that is compared to having 3rd degree burns.

[thefluoritebpd]

One of the worst things about BPD is the addiction to pain. You feel so hollow that when you feel any kind of pain, you want to continue it for no reason other than to at the very least feel something. I was just watching a triggering video and continued to trigger myself further, I started crying, and I still didn't stop. And now that I'm calm, I have no idea what to do with it, and the emptiness that came back, so I want to trigger myself again. Because even with all the mood swings, you're still hollow. That's probably why so many borderlines refer to self-harm as a coping mechanism. Love and pain are probably the strongest emotions I've ever felt, and that's probably why abusive relationships felt right in the past.

But also knowing this feels like people would diminish my pain, to he honest. I know it doesn't, and I still have trauma, I'm hurting, it doesn't matter who triggered me... but still.

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[learningfromlosing]

I'm so sorry, wait, you think it's funny that people are in such bad positions they don't even want to try to get help anymore bc they think it's pointless? That's... funny to you? I honestly don't know how that's funny, or why some think it is, but it's fucked and I won't be apart of that shit.

[professionallyunstable]

i hate myself a little extra when i open up to someone.

[tear-stained-lenses]

“I love you.”

No you don't.

[rainywhispersblog]

Hallucinations in BPD:

1. Hearing people call your name

2. Phone vibrations/phone ringing

3. People laughing/talking about you

4. Bugs that aren't there

5. Shadow people

[borderline-buddies]

am I the only one who wants a sign that lists out all my mental illnesses to be strapped on my chest so that people who can not handle me leave me alone

[perisbpddiary]

Make up your fucking mind before I lose my shit and cut you off

[unsaintness]

you're my sculptor, I am your one and only sculpture.

mold me into something you want, I'll bend to your whims, like an unpolished gem in your hands.

chisel away the vapid layers, shape me into your dream, turn me into a figure that you can love.

I'll endure the pain, let you carve away the unneeded parts of me - just so I can be your perfect vessel, a piece of art, something that you truly desire.

I breathe and live to become whatever you want me to be tell me, make me, force me. 

my one and only artist.

[thebpdcrybaby]

If they would just learn my triggers and avoid them, then I wouldn't be triggered. Then I wouldn't split and have an episode. But it seems to be a hard concept to those who don't have BPD.