#csa m/

[letitrainathousandflames]

Attention!! If you get this message in your inbox and you are triggered by topics of sexual assault, csa and similar topics, do not read it and delete it right away.

I don't know if this person is a scammer or if their plight is genuine but their message talks about these themes with no trigger warning whatsoever and it hit me a bit hard. I'm making this post in the hopes of keeping someone who might be more sensitive from getting hurt by it.

This is not a hate campaign against that blogger! It's just a heads up for those who need it.

[pawberri]

Do you personally see a difference between lolisho and people who are into cnc? I'm just curious because they're similar in terms of being capable of reinforcing real world dynamics under the disguise of kink or "pretend" but I'm pretty sure I once saw you post that you actually don't have anything against cnc so I was just curious if maybe your stance has changed

Fundamental difference is one is playing pretend about your own body and life and is well studied and largely harmless per that data and is a broad topic in media in terms of sexualization and and one is simulated images of children's bodies made by adults that I've gone into my issues with the culture of previously and also are tied to my own abuse so I have personal beef

[winchestersickness]

Season 2 + csa interpretation

2x05 // 2x10 // 2x21

[evilneo]

looks around. so is anyone else seeing CSA allegory from Folly or is it just me. <- guy who sees a CSA allegory in anything that moves like. read The Cleave. this poem. that comic of Folly getting some alone time. (you can find all of these in the image gallery of Follys wiki page btw) Im Seeing It

[transmascutena]

Okay a bit related the awful discourse happening right now I would like to say that interpreting Anthy as thousands of years old is just... okay I wouldn't say it's impossible but it feels like such a strange thing to be so ubiquitous in the fandom as opposed to a niche interpretation. Anthy is Utena's age when Utena first meets her. I've never seen a reason for why she's Utena's age in one flashback but is somehow eternally 14. Anthy and Dios's flashback is probably the main reason this reading exists at all, but I think it's safe to say this scene doesn't tie itself to any specific time period and is also not completely literal? I think timeline of the series is actually extremely condensed compared to most peoples interpretations when you consider that Tokiko (who got to age and is still alive at the time of the main plot) and Mikage worked on the perpetual motion machine which plays a huge part in the duels.

Am I making sense?? Does this cohere?? I just hate how gross Anthy is able treated by some fans while they defend it with an incomplete headcanon that doesnt even suit the series very well. My main problem with the reading isnt even the timeline, its that it does Anthy a wild disservice! Shes a child! Shes not an immortal being whos existed for centuries, shes 14! Akio isnt either, for that matter. Propping him up as an all powerful god of patriarchy actively works against the series' conclusions about him as a pathetic manchild who can only have power when its as a figurehead chairman. Thanks for listening to me ramble a bit!!

thank you! just saw this take too and it's one of my most hated interpretations of the show. "anthy is a 1000 year old in the body of a child" as a literal take (as opposed to like. she feels that way because of the nature of her abuse) is so . bad. always used to justify hating her for some shit that is very easily explained by the fact that she is a child. or to say that her and akio's age gap doesn't mean anything. or to say that there is a weird age gap between her and utena when, like you said, they've been the same age in every scene they're in together, including back when they're children. taking the flashback with dios and anthy completely literally as taking place hundreds of years ago, while simultaneously arguing that all of akio's current abuse is strictly metaphorical is just. an incredibly stupid way to read the show.

[mech-pilot]

fury hours (beware this is messy and mean and i don't really care)

i'm so fucking like. i keep thinking abt that fucking cisbian chaser who interacted with this blog bc i have transfem in my bio and like. i don't know how to tell you you will never earn the slightest modicum of my respect. transfem separatism is objectively the correct political course of action because literally no one except other transfems can actually be fucking respectful or non-objectifying about our bodies.

i think about the csa post i read earlier, i think about the trafficking, i think about the way there's no real boundary between what defines as physical abuse and sexual abuse when your entire body is owned. i think about the ways in which every fucking square inch of me has some invisible scar-- i think about how i will never truly have sex the way i want to, for trauma or for agab reasons, i think about how there's a surgeon who could give me what i want right now but they can't because of purely frivolous reasons.

i think about my jaw, i think about my nose, i think about the way everything fucking hurts, i think about the way everything is too sensitive, i think about the way i flinch and recoil at everything, i think about the ways my mind has been shaped around my abuse.

i think about my place in discourse, how much of myself is contingent on the other person being ok with recreated forms of horrific sexual abuse, how much of myself is me playing with the shadows cast on the wall and begging anyone to see me as anything other than pathetic or dangerous. i think about how i fear some people around me will read this and infer the worst and then subsequently abandon me.

whatever this is incoherent.

i think about the ways in which my body will never be free from an objectifying touch, how i'll always be in despair about what i have and what i do, even though his hands haven't touched me in years, he's always going to be on me.

[batz]

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[muddsludge]

There is no better day to post Hisoka headcanons than Easter, don’t you think?

Content warnings for CSA, SA, abuse, sex work, and typical Hisoka coded content

Hisoka spent the earliest part of his life in a den of iniquity, calling it a brothel would be very generous.

It was an operation consisting mostly of women uncomfortably young or uncomfortably old, few in between. In other words, women with no other options left to them.

It is unclear who his biological parents were, the most likely explanation being that one of the younger girls had him on accident and the main lady running the operation decided to raise the child herself. However, there was a popular rumor that Hisoka's conception had been immaculate, that the devil had been attracted to the sin of the brothel and forced one of the girls to carry his seed.

The madam of the house was not a kind woman, she was cruel, dishonest, and hostile to everyone under the roof of the establishment. Hisoka was not well cared for, lacking a private room, regular meals, clean clothes, and other basic necessities. He also completely lacked any level of education for most of his childhood.

Sometimes, when the madam indulged in alcohol she would seek out his company and tell him many stories. For all her flaws she was a good story teller and Hisoka would listen quiet and attentive. She also taught him card tricks and other sleight of hand maneuvers.

Due to the environment of his early upbringing Hisoka was exposed to many forms of hedonism from an early age. Yes, he was touched inappropriately fairly frequently, and his “mother” was not above selling him to depraved visitors especially as a form of punishment for perceived misbehavior.

Hisoka was selectively mute for many years. Most people assumed he was just stupid. No one can explain why exactly he decided to start talking, but it was at around 10 years old right before he left the “brothel” to live independently. Even after he began speaking he did not say much, preferring silence.

Most people could sense that there was something off about the child. No matter how much abuse he experienced he seemed unfazed and his airy smiles were incredibly disconcerting. Usually the working women avoided him. On occasion a few of the more bitter ones would “tease” him for being the “man” of the house projecting some of the resentment they felt for their circumstances and the men who mistreated them.

One of the youngest girls seemed especially afraid of Hisoka. She was deeply religious and believed the rumors that he was actually the devil's son. She claimed that his uncanny yellow eye color supported this theory. She avoided being alone with him, and sometimes murmured prayers under her breath if she happened to be exposed to him for prolonged periods.

The first time Hisoka killed another person was a regular john with a reputation to be extra rough with the women. No one wanted to service him so they forced the young religious girl to entertain him. Attracted by the sounds of pain Hisoka snuck into the room. Spotting him, the john became angry about the “pervy kid messing up his fun”, and turning his belligerent fist on Hisoka. Using a pair of shears, which he’d stollen from the madam’s office, Hisoka repeatedly stabbed the man in the neck.

The commotion attracted some of the other women working nearby. The scene revealed a laughing Hisoka, straddling the john’s chest, covered in blood and repeatedly stabbing the man gurgling his own blood (for many the laughter was the first sound they’d ever heard Hisoka make). The young girl in bed was white as a sheet and shrieking.

Clever enough to know when to make an exit, Hisoka merely stood after a few more stabs, he dropped the sheers, gave his audience a final eerie glance, and jumped out the window, he would not return to the brothel for many years.

[dateamonster]

just had a rly weird experience. might go into it later but right now my only real thoughts are like. why does it seem like being interested in monster stuff online so often gets me caught in this bullshit fandom culture war between people who think putting horror elements in romance/erotica is the work of the satanic groomer boogeymen vs people who talk about wanting to explore complex and dark themes and then turn out to just be obsessed with "lolisho" and incest porn

call me batshit fuckin crazy but it rly feels like i should be able to just exist without having to worry about getting conscripted into the puritan v sex offender wars because i followed the wrong person on twt

[mech-pilot]

i think i'm gonna just post the "first draft" raw and unedited and messy and like. leave it to y'all to pick at and look through as you see fit. tw Bad Things

edit: i Almost posted this on the big blog at one point. maybe someday i will make it fit

obligatory I Want To Hear From You If You Read This.

i think the moment that broke me into writing this was. i realized how close i was to being like her. not exactly, but like... i could've been killed at any point during my abuse. and what would i be to anyone now? much less than my killer, i know that.

[inhvshedwhispers]

...bc im literally only reading the novel for her: heres how to include jiang yan in the blossom series.

utc bc theres. so much trauma mentions here (tw csa & child abuse + suicide mentions). her backstory is just... incredibly tragic.

her whole backstory stays the same—she was given to li yaoniang/li tiaonian by song yichun, who abused her physically & emotionally to the point where the girl attempted suicide multiple times. she was then married off to some man when she was still young & then basically sold off to someone else by him.............. yeah her story is just. a trauma conga line. the girl was mostly raised by her uncle, li liang, & was fond of him bc he was the only one who cared abt her. (li tiaonian/li yaoniang was his sister btw.)

since both song han & yichun die in the series, this is where things diverge for jiang yan. she comes into the story at a point where zhaomo couple are living happy.

im assuming song han was 18-19yo which makes jiang yan that age too, since the child swapping happened w these 2. song mo is still the older brother.

in the novel: chen jia was the one who found jiang yan by orders of dou zhao (she was suspecting the girl actually lived & didnt die prematurely like in the series); he found her by random chance while investigatinv (iirc?) & took her to a temple, then called zhaomo couple over. in the series, it can go just about the same: they both found her by random chance one day, bc she resembles late madam jiang so much & so painfully—yan tang & dou zhao start investigating and find out that yes... this girl is unmistakably the song daughter that was presumed lost.

cue them plotting to break up a'yan's engagement & find out that what happened to her all those years ago was... fucked up :))))) so murder isnt enough for the fuckass li & he families :)))))) zhaomo make every single man & woman in the TWO families go to bad, downright shady places without any name or clan registry—they effectively strip the two families of everything they own.

jiang yan gets taken to yizhi hall (or wherever zhaomo are living) & officially adopted as a jiang family member. she gets introduced to society as song mo's cousin to avoid opening the song yichun child swapping case—& besides, the man is dead... so she IS a jiang bc her mom was jiang huisan & her uncle was jiang meisun. she has no father that can acknowledge her song heritage (not that he ever did in the novel). she now lives w zhaomo in a separate courtyard w her own servants.

...she also has a whole lot of trauma & depression + generalized anxiety disorder to unpack—the girl's always overthinking BREATHING & LIVING, let alone simply existing as a jiang. her fight or flight instinct is always on FLIGHT. shes literally one word or action away from a week-long mental breakdown. she always thinks shes the fault of every fucking situation ever, even when it has nothing to do w her. she doesnt like it when ppl stare at her (bc she looks like the deceased madam jiang), she doesnt like it when shes alone w anyone she does AND doesnt know, she doesnt like socializing at all. shes also deathly terrified of marriages (for good reasons! literally the source of her 2nd trauma!!) but still wants to love someone... oh yeah she also has really, incredibly, painfully low view of herself bc shes a widow & sa victim. yeah...

shes also illiterate. & doesnt know the prices of anything, ever.

simply put: shes a fucking mess but!! she still has that inherent jiang-family courage & kindness—she was ready to die to some bandits trying to kidnap her as long as her servant got to run and survive the attack. the minute she heard that chen jia was in trouble (a lie, he wasnt; dou zhao just wanted to prove a point to song mo) she immediately ran to beg her older brother to spare him... knowing full well how mad said older brother wouldve been if she told him she wanted to keep in contact w her uncle, li liang......

(for context: she approached chen jia to tell him to send a message to her uncle saying that she was all fine now & asking him abt his situation etc, & bc of her bad childhood she didnt know how much is too much money & nearly gave li liang 200 silvers-worth bracelets... which chen jia refused to accept & said he'd pay out of his own pockets instead. which jiang yan said shes gonna repay him for... chen jia never got the time to explain properly abt not needing the repayment either so. she kept sending him like,, 10 silvers every month. as a repayment.)

also speaking of chen jia: im glad he ended up getting married to zhangru in the series. hes like,, in his 20s or smth in the novel which makes his whole romance w jiang yan very......... yeah..................

2nd season of blossom but it just focuses on the jiang family please... theyre very supportive of each other & especially of jiang yan and its so 🥺❤ bc she deserves that. its so badly needed for her.

if a romance had to happen w her, it can be w wu shan/wu dezhen—yeah her (& song mo's) cousin-in-law, jiang lizhu, is already married to a wu family member in the novel but. idc abt it; lizhu's marriage can just be erased bc its never really prevalent + wu shan would treat jiang yan so well... i know he will.

all of this can take place post-s1 of blossom but before zhaomo's child being born bc jiang yan was, in fact, present during that whole thing in the novel & its the cutest fucking thing ever 🥺❤ doting aunt!! (its also one of the very, very few times where shes actually not on the verge of a panic attack—she has so much fun holding zhaomo's baby & playing w the baby that she can talk freely to her brother w/o stumbling over her words & panicking over his intentions).

[genderkoolaid]

expand on ur "mental asylum Marxism shit" thing about children & grief?? from what you've said im pretty sure i will relate from my own experiences as a grieving child. also it sounds interesting!!

so i was thinking about how weird it is that, when a child has to deal with the death of a loved one, they say something like "no child should have to go through this! no child should have to even think about death!" which strikes me as weird because i was a child who dealt with the deaths of multiple close family members, very close together. the first was my great-grandmother, who i lived with and who was my best friend. death was never foreign to me (my mom has always been very death-positive on top of all that). grief was just part of my life like everything else was.

but i realized that its because people think childhood should not have any flaws. you should be 100% happy and fulfilled all the time. any time a child experiences anything painful, its bad. not "children should have access to love and support," but "children should not have basic life experiences because the idea of childhood being anything other than fluffy purity scares me."

because children in society are fundamentally not people. especially in a society structured around christian beliefs in natural law theory, that what is natural = what is good, healthy, and Divinely commanded. so on top of children being the property of adults, they are also forced to be the symbols of Nature. whatever is the most useful to whoever needs them. which means we built up this idea of children as tabula rasas, pureness incarnate. like a magic mirror where if we look into it, we'll be able to catch a glimpse of the true face of humanity. every single thing children do can be scrutinized for some grand truth about humans as a whole. and then, the ways children are treated also reflect how we think humanity should interact with its own nature.

example: the idea of humanity as inherently sinful and wicked, with that urge needing to be suppressed through state violence (hello hobbes) = the idea that children are annoying and shitty on purpose and need to be forced via punishment into being Good Citizens.

this is also why children cannot be trans, even though all trans people must prove that we were trans children. being queer must be unnatural; and even if not, its inherently sexual, and sexuality is dirty and bad. so children can't be trans, and they also can't read books on puberty until their parents decide when and what exactly they are allowed to learn. child victims of sexual assault only matter to the extent that they can be used as a symbol of a cultural threat; calling Jewish or trans people pedophiles means saying that they are foreigners attacking basic human nature, and indirectly, Divine command. if you aren't the right kind of victim, or when you inevitably reveal yourself to be A Person with complicated experiences and opinions, you are no longer of use to the agenda.

it sucks that bad things happen to anyone. aspects of youth can exacerbate the pain sometimes, but sometimes it does the reverse: I wish I could have spent more time with the family members I lost, but I know other people who are glad they loss family members young, because they weren't really hurt by it. I think the main thing is that, even sometimes when we talk about our past selves, we project this cultural idea of Child As Purity and ignore the actual person having the experience. when we "empathize" with children by projecting Purity onto them, we aren't actually connecting with them.

[batz]

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[bisexuel]

it looks like people just didn't notice but this post (w/multiple additions underneath) was made by notorious friend of pedophiles demilypyro

[fiercestpurpose]

I was watching a YouTube video on online pedophilia advocates, but it was a weird experience because the woman making the video censored all spoken uses of the word “sex” or “sexual” or “rape.” It was so extreme I had to quit watching because I couldn’t even follow along with her argument.

Is she worried about the video getting flagged as inappropriate by YouTube? Does YouTube really flag videos for discussing these topics?

And how on earth are we ever supposed to have a conversation about the harm of sexual assault or rape if we can’t even say “sexual assault” or “rape”?