#do other people really not understand what a consequence is?

[cosmicjoke]

I feel like this moment from episode 28 gets overlooked, but it tells us so much about Levi and what drives him.

Levi won't allow Pastor Nick to look away from the refugees flooding in from Wall Rose. He's forcing him to bear witness to the consequences, not only of the wall falling, but of his own refusal to share what information he has about what's behind the recent Titan attacks and how it is that the walls themselves are made of Titans.

This small moment really encapsulates, once again, the driving force behind Levi's motivation, that being his unwavering concern for the lives of others and his wish to protect those lives.

He asks Pastor Nick what it is he expected to see, before explaining to him what it is they're witnessing. He tells Nick to take a good look at the faces of people who have lost everything, before driving home that these are the faces of the people he and his church have abandoned by putting their traditions before peoples lives.

I think so much of Levi's life growing up in poverty and despair can be heard in his exchange with Nick in this moment. Of course Levi is trying to convince Nick to cooperate with them by appealing to his conscience. But Levi started his life as one of these people, as someone who hadn't just lost everything, but who had never really had anything to begin with. He understands the despair of having nothing and nowhere to go, no place to belong. It's what also drives Levi to tell Eren in an earlier scene, as they're riding to Ehrmich District, that he can't fail in Armin's and Hange's plan to use his hardening ability to plug up the hole they believe is in Wall Rose, and why he later tells Mikasa to protect Eren with all her ability and tells Eren to not lose his cool and stick to the mission. Levi knows what's going to happen if this mission fails. That people are going to start dying in droves if Titans have really broken through another wall and there's another, forced displacement of so much of the population. His words to both Eren and Pastor Nick are Levi's attempt to prevent a repeat of what happened five years earlier, when Wall Maria fell and so much of the population was wiped out as a result.

We also see Levi's disgust at the way Pastor Nick clings to something as meaningless as tradition in the face of actual, human suffering, refusing to let him turn away from it and pretend it isn't there. After all, Levi's life in the Underground was largely a result of society and the people who run it looking away and pretending not to notice the suffering happening right under their feet. The Underground City, the poorest and most destitute place within the walls, is beneath Mitras, the Capital and the richest district within those same walls. One of Levi's most consistent and meaningful character traits is his refusal to look away from the suffering of others, no matter what, no matter how much it hurts him, which, due to his deep empathy and compassion, it does immensely.

I think this moment really encapsulates what makes Levi so much of a genuine hero. His refusal to turn away from those in need, and his willingness to do whatever it takes to protect them from the same pain and suffering he himself has experienced, to ensure they live better lives than what he was able to.

[crownmemes]

Psychopath Sentences, Vol. 3

(Sentences for conversations with psychopaths. Adjust phrasing where needed)

"Why don't you kill him? You could always say that it was me."

"You are a very young sociopath-in-training."

"You know, what's funny is the experts say that torture doesn't really work."

"What are you worried about? If I wanted to kill you, you'd be dead already."

"Psychopaths are not crazy. They are fully aware of what they do and the consequences of those actions."

"Death excites you, doesn't it?"

"I can't believe you actually shot me!"

"When you speak, I feel like it's the Devil talking."

"Generally, if I have a misgiving or a doubt, I kill the guy I have a misgiving or a doubt about."

"I've never felt as alive as I did when I was killing him."

"Don't worry, I won't tell. I want you to kill her."

"There is something seriously wrong with you!"

"Despite all evidence to the contrary, I am a gentleman."

"Isn't ordinary death exciting enough for you?"

"Murder's not what it used to be."

"There's a bloodstain on your floor."

"I am, as you know, no stranger to killing."

"How do you do it? So easily cope with all the people we've killed?"

"Are you beginning to appreciate my lack of sympathy?"

"I think we should kill someone tonight."

"A rational society would either kill me or put me to some use."

"I am not the intelligent psychopath you are looking for."

"What makes you think you wouldn't pass a psych evaluation?"

"Did you tell them about the man you killed? The way you did it?"

"Do you think that one more corpse means anything to me?"

"In this world - my world - only the biggest monster survives."

"There's no such thing as right or wrong. There's no such thing as fair, or moral. Those are words men invented to scare and shame other men."

"I would just like to point out that the word 'sociopath' has not been used by any respected psychiatrist since 1968."

"Once you take a life, there's nothing like it."

"Tell me, did your heart race when you murdered her?"

"You have a very disconcerting gaze."

"Keep lying and I'll murder you in that chair."

"You've got a dark turn of mind."

"God, you really care about them, don't you?"

"Don't you understand? You caught me because we're very much alike."

"You just can't go around killing people!"

[adhd-community]

do you ever stop feeling like you’re too much? i’m 19 and have always, my whole life, felt like i’m too loud, too messy, too forgetful, too hasty, too obnoxious… you name it. does that feeling ever go away?

Does it go away?

Oof. Honestly, I dont think so. Self-doubt of any variety rarely just vanishes as we get older. Mostly it lessens or just rebrands (e.g. "I'm too old"). I'm in my mid-30s and I still get hit with feeling "too much"... but it is definitely better than it was for me at 19! I think mostly because I have learnt ways of working with my patterns of negative self-thinking through therapy etc, and also because I have worked on surrounding myself with people who don't make me feel like I'm a pain.

In terms of the negative self talk - I have some starter info and advice for you below based on my own journey with this recurrant thought.

Dealing with the feeling that "I'm too much"

... starts with understanding the thought process.

When you feel this way, you are likely collecting examples of awkward or uncomfortable moments in your mind and labelling them as "things that happen because I am built wrong".

So to get to this thought "I'm too much" your brain has to:

Perceive a situation as awkward or "bad"

Decide that this was a Big Problem with Big Consequences that needs to be worked on - not just a one-off, forgettable moment ("They probably hate me now")

Conclude that YOUR ACTIONS are to blame for the situation, and compare your actions against a hypothetical ideal ("It's my fault - if I had just done x, it would have been fine! Others would have done it correctly.")

Globalised the thought by saying that it's not just this one situation - it's all situations you have been in ("I always do this")

Made it personal to YOU, not just your actions (e.g. "I am 'too much' as a person. I am difficult to be around.")

Thats a lot of steps to take from the initial moment that started the thought process!

The important thing here is not to just take the conclusion "I'm too much" as fact and letting it eat away at us. We need to recognise the thinking, pause, and go back through the thought process, skeptically questioning each step.

E.g. "Do I KNOW it was awkward/ difficult for the other person, or am I just assuming? Is it as bad as I feel like it is or have I made it bigger in my mind?" etc

This is a habit and the more you do it, the more 'automatic' it gets.

When I am having an especially hard time with it, here are some things I find it helpful to remind myself of:

Social situations can be weird and awkward and uncomfortable. That's normal and that's okay. It doesn't mean you did anything wrong.

ALL people forget things, make hasty decisions they regret etc. We are just hyper aware of it because we know it's more likely to happen to us and so we put much more pressure on ourselves to avoid these situations. It's okay to just shrug, say "oh well", and move on sometimes.

No-one has ever fallen in love with someone and said "I don't know what it was about them... I guess they were just really good at not forgetting things - it set my heart alight." You are so much more than a single skill or trait.

People like different things. YOU see these traits as negative but others may see "loud" as life of the party, "hasty" as spontaneous, and "obnoxious" as fun and entertaining.

You don't need to be a different person in order to be liked - I don't know who said it first but "if someone feels like you're too much, they can go find someone less"

[magnificentempress]

if you were harsh i didnt realize it so dont worry. and i appreciate your curiosity and intellectual honesty.

i disagree that porn is a viable substitution for sex ed. in fact i think no porn and no sex ed is a far better combo than porn and no sex ed. what is porn gonna teach them? we already know this - women report being slapped and choked unprovoked because men saw it in porn and thought all women enjoy it. men use rough sex defense in courts, and where did that come from? from porn. sex acts like oral or anal were considered derogatory to such an extend that in some cultures wife could get a divorce if she proved her husband demanded it from her. in fact oral was reserved only for prostituted women because it was considered too humiliating to even bring up to your spouse. the question whether oral sex is inherently humiliating is up to debate for me, i think it differentiates. but porn promotes the violent kinds of sex that is based on violation. the most popular categories are barely legal as well as incest. again i am not making this up, this data is publicly available. there is nothing good that access to endless videos of women and gay men violated in all possible ways can teach anyone about healthy sexuality. i would honestly rather have teenagers awkwardly experiment with each other not ruined by porn. and yeah teenage pregnancies are an issue but again, 99% of porn does not feature condoms. in fact creampie is also a category. teaching about condoms is not some advanced sex ed... you can lack knowledge about 90% of reproductive health or how to make sex feel better but still know that condoms = no pregnancy (which is the case in many places in the world, i would assume).

i dont say that teenagers dont have sexuality. but they deserve it to be protected from porn more than anyone. it is not because i think they shouldnt have fun. but some things are in fact bad for them, and some things are worse the younger you are. if i may use an analogy, having a can of beer is not the same as chugging a bottle of vodka followed by a heroine injection. and i would compare porn to the latter one.

there are other healthier ways to explore sexuality if you really wish to do so. like, reading smut or looking at frisky fanarts. i am talking precisely about pornography.

porn is not necessary to explore anything. and i would argue that porn is actually anti-sexual because it is devoid of everything that makes sex actually good - the intimacy, the human connection, the kindness, being gentle and careful to someone. it is so abnormal now that it is labeled as vanilla sex.

>to understand that porn isn't real life

but it is. porn is real. the violence that happens there is real, and then it is emulated by real people.

and btw im not talking about criminalizing watching it. i dont think it makes sense, same way as injecting heroine is technically not illegal (but possessing is, as well as producing. but if you inject it then at this point you are kinda on your own with the consequences). like, you cant outlaw selfharm, i guess. but it doesnt mean that it should be promoted and widely accessible.

and yeah, as other reblogs said, boys absolutely do terrorize girls with porn, and porn fries people's brains. i do think we should make accessing it as difficult as like, buying cigarettes or alcohol (in some countries), because it is highly destructive and highly addictive.

may be a hot take but i think the fact minors can access 18+ content by just clicking a button that says 'yes im totally over 18 trust me' is like. totally fine tbh. its a non-issue. i dont care if curious teenagers are looking at porn. they've been doing that for as long as porn has existed. id rather teens explore their sexuality through images on the internet than rush into real life experiences when they're not ready for it yknow. the UK is trying to put stricter age verification in place (which in turn is becoming an online privacy nightmare) and like. for what. who is it helping. why is this a problem.

[takiki16]

the thing the thing the THING about corn sweat superman!!!!!!!

SO MANY of the people I follow whose opinions on Capes (TM) I respect and also so many beloved moots have said 'this newest movie GETS Superman. it GETS Clark Kent.' And now that I have seen the movie, it is TRUE. CORN SWEAT MY INCREDIBLY SEXY HUNKY ADORABLE RAY OF SUNSHINE YOU FUCKING DID IT, YOU MAD LAD!!!!!

EXTREMELY MILD NOT EVEN REALLY SPOILER THOTS UNDER THE CUT:

The thing that is Got (TM) about the character of Superman by Corenswet!Supes is that yeah! Yeah he's a demigod alien who's faster than a speeding bullet and is capable, SOMEHOW, of being powerful enough to defy a lot of basic trolley problems simply by dint of how OP he is. Yeah we the audience understand why people in-universe might be afraid of him sometimes! But Superman is so determinedly, sincerely, OPENLY loving and friendly as a person that other characters feel the need to protect HIM - both as Superman AND as Clark Kent. There's this scene in the movie that basically distills this thesis: Clark gets punched into the pavement during a battle, and a bystander runs over and tries to help Clark back up bc hey, that's the local hero who bought a snack off him once!

We, the audience, need to buy that. We need to be able to buy that moment where Mali of Mali's Falafels jumps down into a gaping hole in the pavement because that's Superman and he needs help! We need to buy that kids will run over to Superman when he lands after a fight, and their parents will let them because of course, that's Superman! We need to buy that these are things that HAPPEN TO SUPERMAN A LOT, and that Superman has earned that affection and trust with the way he acts, with the things that you have shown him doing onscreen. And everyone involved with the story needs to GET that, bc you can slap some happy crowd shots together on camera but the CORE THESIS of Big Blue needs to shine through or it won't work!

THANKFULLY, MISTER CORN SWEAT (mister David Corenswet I am so sorry but that post was too perfect) GETS THAT.

And thankfully, the movie as a whole took that Superman character thesis and extended it to his outlook on the whole world! Plenty of more articulate people than me yelling about how good it is to see Superman standing against genocide, lots of excellent discussion about the political metaphors of the movie, etc etc etc. It's not that Superman can avoid every trolley problem, and his choices do have very specific consequences! But seeing Clark Kent yelling 'PEOPLE WERE GOING TO DIE!' and acting anyway, caring so much about every single life, even the lives of his goddamn enemies, THAT'S SUPERMAN!!!!!

I want to apologize to the group in front of me in the theater, who definitely heard my muffled squealing and handflapping when the brass fanfare of the John Williams Superman theme played. It tugged at the strings of my heart in a way that only certain specific fandom nostalgia things can.

ALSO: a movie that cared about journalism as more than a plot device for superhero shenanigans. Rachel Brosnahan your Lois Lane will live forever - she is SO KEY to the believability of the Superman Thesis (TM) in the first place! "God, WHY IS HE SO TRUSTING!" Lois yells, and WE THE AUDIENCE understand EXACTLY what she means and why she is yelling it! THE INTERVIEW SCENE!!!!! I don't have any really strong feelings for James Gunn as a director in and of himself, but I LOVED that he included the most classic romantic Clois shot of all time because THEY DESERVED IT. I NEEDED AND DESERVED IT!!!

(also, on that note. I do still desperately need Corenswet!Supes to meet Battinson. Now that I have seen both their movies it is ABUNDANTLY clear to me that their correct World's Finest dynamic is Jack Aubrey and Steven Maturin (see these posts). I SIMPLY SEE AND PERCEIVE THE TRUTH. I know comic book bylaws state that every good teamup must be preceded by a fight, but the VISION is SO CLEAR to me. Once they get over whatever issues DC decides they are going to have, I want Corenswet!Supes up there with his open hopepunk heart, getting up and holding his hand out to the villain of the week even though he just got punched into the pavement. And behind him, God's Favorite Paranoid PTSD-Ridden Depressed Emo-Goth Vampire, bristling with open suspicion and 5 million contingency plans and Spray of Kill Gods on his belt, putting together a hit list because my friend might be too good and pure to smite your ass, but I was born over a hellmouth and I'm sure as hell not!)

(actually, that's the core of my Brosnahan!Lois thesis as well, which is another reason why she is legendary. I ENJOYED THE MOVIE, FOLKS. SUSPICIOUS AND ARGUMENTATIVE JOURNOS FOR THEIR HOPEPUNK LOCAL HEROES!!!!)

[badkitty3000]

I shouldn't even put this out there, and you guys are welcome to come at me with a flamethrower, but I actually really LIKE Five's conversation with Viktor.

He confesses about the board room because he needs someone to understand what the hell he's been trying to do. Not for sympathy, but for understanding of the great consequences everything they do has.

Do I think he'd really kill Viktor if it came down to it? No. But I think this is the only way Five knows how to get through to people.

And for sure comparing Viktor to a villain acting alone is hypocritical, but I also think Five thinks of himself as a villain. And he doesn't want to see anyone else becoming what he has become.

I don't know... I can also see the other side of this and that it's not really like Five to think all of this. But for some reason it worked for me.

[bad-at-metaphors]

truly honestly from the bottom of my heart believe anyone who voted red is genuinely unfit for society. I know that's the majority of Americans. I know this is not helpful. how the fuck can you think for a moment long enough to take the time to vote on it that the piece of shit would be better for you and everyone else than any other option.

[tavolgisvist]

Tell me why why why do you treat me so bad when you got the thing you wanted

‘Last year John said he wanted a divorce. All right, so do I. I want to give him that divorce. I hate this trial separation because it’s just not working.

(Paul McCartney, interview, Evening Standard, April 21-22, 1970)

I’d been able to accept Yoko in the studio, sitting on a blanket in front of my amp. I’d worked hard to come to terms with that. But then when we broke up and everyone was now flailing around, John turned nasty. I don’t really understand why. Maybe because we grew up in Liverpool, where it was always good to get in the first punch of a fight.

(Paul McCartney about Too Many People, The Lyrics, 2021)

I’d been keeping largely quiet about John and The Beatles split-up in the press. I didn’t really have many accusations to fling, but being John, he was flinging quite a few in interviews [with Jann Wenner for Rolling Stone]. <…> John would say things like, ‘It was rubbish. The Beatles were crap.’ Also, ‘I don’t believe in The Beatles, I don’t believe in Jesus, I don’t believe in God’ [Plastic Ono Band album]. Those were quite hurtful barbs to be flinging around, and I was the person they were being flung at, and it hurt. So, I’m having to read all this stuff, and on the one hand I’m thinking, ‘Oh fuck off, you fucking idiot,’ but on the other hand I’m thinking, ‘Why would you say that? Are you annoyed at me or are you jealous or what?’ <…> I was sort of answering him here [Dear Friend], asking, ‘Does it need to be this hurtful?’ I think this is a good line: ‘Are you afraid, or is it true?’ meaning, ‘Why is this argument going on? Is it because you’re afraid of something? Are you afraid of the split-up? Are you afraid of my doing something without you? Are you afraid of the consequences of your actions?’ And the little rhyme, ‘Or is it true?’ Are all these hurtful allegations true? This song came out in that kind of mood. It could have been called ‘What the Fuck, Man?’ but I’m not sure we could have gotten away with that then.

(Paul McCartney about Dear Friend, The Lyrics, 2021)

A: ...I’ll tell you what, if I’d ever done that to him, he would’ve just hit the roof. But I just sat through it all like mild-mannered Clark Kent. Q: This was hurting you, presumably. А: Not half. Q: When did you actually get a perspective on it? А: I still haven’t. It’s still inside me. John was lucky. He got all his hurt out. I’m a different sort of a personality. There’s still a lot inside me that’s trying to work it out. And that’s why it’s good to see that wedding-funeral bit, because I started to think, ‘Wait a minute, this is someone who’s going over the top. This is paranoia manifesting itself.’ And so my feeling is just like it was at the time, which is like, He’s my buddy, I don’t really want to do anything to hurt him, or his memory, or anything. I don’t want to hurt Yoko. But, at the same time, it doesn’t mean that I understand what went down.

(Paul McCartney, October 1986, intervie with Chris Salewicz for Q Magazine)

July 13th, 1972 (Teatre Antique, Arles, France): Paul sings ‘Best Friend’ in Arles.

PAUL: Tell me why why why do you treat me so bad, so bad / When you’re the best friend a man every had / Well tell me why why why do you make me so sad, so sad / When you’re the best friend I might have ever had / I wake up in the morning after dreaming about ya / I tell you little baby I’m blue / I wake up in the evening I’m still screaming out / Over you, over you / Tell me why why why do you treat me so bad, so bad / When you’re the best friend I might ever have.

[alicentflorent]

I didn’t sit here for years tryna stay calm and silent while listening to your bad takes on gale (who grew up oppressed, in poverty and then witnessed his entire district getting wiped out then rightly went to fight in the rebellion because it was his inlg chance of tearing down the system the wanted him and his family dead) being a “terrorist war criminal who is single handedly responsible for killing innocent people including prim and who is the REAL villain of the hunger games” just for y’all to turn and start stanning and defending actual facist dictator and child trafficker Coriolanus Snow because you saw a young hot version of him.

[dxxtruction]

So this feels sort of obvious to me but Armand doesn’t wish to use or want any power he wants control. Specifically he wants to be in control of his sense of security, safety, stability, and attachments, his survival and identity. He controls what others are doing really only insofar as they threaten the control of any of that, cause he doesn’t really want power over them. (Except maybe Claudia, but I’d argue that is still a control thing). He will willingly forgo using or being in power for control. He manipulates and lies not for power but control. He makes grand displays of his vampire powers or strength not on the central intent of having power over people but for control. He doesn’t back down from Madeleine’s turning to have power over Louis he does it to remain in control over himself. He submits to giving up power for Louis’ power because it feels like it’s all in his control, and disobeys Louis when it’s not. He doesn’t take back power over the coven because he has more control if he does not fight it. His choice is a matter of weighing up how much control he has between the two. If the reasoned way to have control is to use power he will use it. If he doesn’t have to use power to have control, or there’s simply more control in not, he is not going to use it. Of course you will note he is simply very powerful, he has the position and means for it, and his ability to have and get so much control is a power in itself, that power is baked into having control. But he is not like Santiago, who is power hungry and wants and uses any power he can get his hands on. Or Marius who is full of himself on his power and has a sense of entitlement about it. Or even Louis who seeks and uses dominance and capital as power for a means of getting and having control. Armand is going primarily always for control as a means in itself for control, and the demand of it is a very high bar which tends to look like he wants or relishes in using power. But from all I can tell he quite hates it really, submission to power is a place of control for him, but he will use and get power if it’s the most in control means to control he has.

(This is at least as insofar as we’ve seen of him in the show. You could say Armand will have a sort of love with power but then some kind of disillusionment with it in s3, going off what I recall of tvl, that puts him back into this state of needing control being above power which would’ve also been his way of operating with Santino and Marius.)

(Added note: I should say I do believe Armand is almost always aware of his position to his power at all times, it’s not lost on him he is very powerful and can use said power if he so wanted, but it’s a question of his control if he does. He understands power and how to use it or he wouldn’t have such great ability to have and manipulate all this control. Of course he’s not perfect in this either, and I do think a strong sense of powerlessness, and total loss of control can override all his sensibility about power. Anyhow, Armand understands power extremely intimately, from all sides of it, and yet places attention not there but in having control, for the things I described above. Survival for him ranking above concerns like that.)

[milfbrainrot]

i know other people are tired of female characters having stories revolving motherhood but god it is so nice to get stories about it that are actually... written with care? i imagine some of the fatigue around these stories is bc of how it's done with the assumption that all women must be or want to be mothers or it's done without any actual examination of the woman's characterization--and i also get tired of those! but there are so many female characters who specifically do not have or want kids as well these days, so i am glad that we can have a balance of ones who are fine without kids but also ones who are well-written as mothers??? idk. it makes me happy that we can have both, because parenthood will always be a thing, even if some people... equate their own preference of avoiding those stories altogether with automatic misogyny when a story does include it at all.

[femme-plant-mom]

@k1k00sss requested:

11 for Nico: "Inertia" by AJR

Oh boy, I was hoping I'd get to talk about this song! First of all, I love AJR for Nico. I think they have a really fun blend of pop and alt-rock that I just see him vibing with. And then this song is all about being stuck, but still trying to move, but also not being sure how to, I guess?? Anyway, it opens with "I've worn the same skinny jeans / Since I was 15; it's probably nothing", and it just makes me think about Nico's limited clothing for years and probably being stuck at a small size due to everything that happened to him. And the chorus is really interesting for a HOO Nico with, "I'm an object in motion, I've lost all emotion / My two legs are broken, but look at me dance / An object in motion, don't ask where I'm going / 'Cause where I am going is right where I am" because I think in many ways he comes across as just sort of riding through it all during those books. He does what he needs to in order to save Hazel, help the Seven, obey his father, but he doesn't really have his own trajectory anymore, doesn't care to make it, doesn't see a point if he isn't going to live long enough to see it fulfilled, and he very much assumes he's going to die young. And yet!! He does so much good for people, contributes to the saving of the world in some of the most important ways in the story—the dancing. And then there are some more literal lines that make me think of him like "But I'm fucking hungry, and screw you, I'm trying," "So why am I so tiny, and why am I so mad?", and "I'm stuck in this life, and I'm stuck in these pants," back to the skinny jeans of the beginning of the song. And I think it's interesting to see Nico as this constantly moving person as soon as Bianca is gone, but he is still tethered in some ways and places, even if he doesn't know what to do with that. He can never truly escape Camp Half-Blood or Camp Jupiter or Tartarus or the Underworld or the years spent alone (or Venice, even, I would argue), not really, so he has to live with that and figure out how to navigate it while he figures out what he wants for the future he didn't realize he would have. Inertia.

77 for Will: "Heaven's Gate" by Amélie Farren

The lyrics in this one are just, ugh, Will all over. Opening right with the lines, "'Cause playing god is funny 'til you have to choose who's dying first / I became the thing I feared, taking their lives in my hand / My innocence had consequences that I still don't understand" because he's out here having to make life or death decisions at a crazy young age. Sure, he has the power to save lives, but have you met a thirteen-year-old?? They shouldn't have to be responsible for that! And yet he is, and he learns just how serious it is so young. And then "my immortal evolutionary traits are still intact" is just such a good line for a demigod! "So, in '97, I gave up my future / I'd been raised to reject my human nature / in the hopes that I'd be praised" just works for him so well because ultimately what he's been taught is useful about him is his healing ability, which he gets from his godly side; it's not a human trait. Followed immediately by "I thought SOS meant 'save our souls' / Instead, it meant jack shit / 'Cause nobody came to help me when I told myself I'd quit", which just feels like the experiences he must have had in the suddenly empty infirmary, overworked and with no one older to take over. "I'll follow 'til I fly or 'til I'm dead" just reminds me of how he really has no choice but to keep working because, if he doesn't, others will die, so he just has to hope he'll make it and "fly", so to speak. And I feel like the plight of a demigod is really encapsulated in "so I'd hope for liberation, but that isn't what we teach" because even once someone leaves Camp, they aren't free of the monsters. There's also a biblicalness to the line preceeding it, talking of a "promised paradise" which I feel like (as a Southern gay myself) I see as recognition of the weird space he lives in where he knows he's going to the Underworld one day, and maybe he gets Elysium, but it doesn't look like the paradise he was told about by his Texas family. And then we end with, "They could tell me fucking nonsense with the knowledge I'd obey," which I love for Will because it gets his anger as well as his helplessness. Like, what else is he going to do but obey? He can't reject helping others—not really, not entirely. And the gods are not good, we know this (not necessarily bad, either, but Greek Gods are very much aligned with human nature and its fallacies), so he just has to trust that what he's told will help the world in the end.

Okay, my “Will Solace” and “Nico di Angelo” playlists both now have at least 101 songs each. Send me a number and a playlist name or “both”, and I’ll tell you which song is at that number and why I put it on the playlist!

[vaniliens]

Im not even sticking around for the drama that stuff gives me heart diseases im just here to see where this guys gonna lead us and to make fun of him if it ends up bad and ignore it if it was good

[kshaar]

i did not make the post complaining about datv plot that i wanted to when i finished the game but one of the bullet points on it was 'where is the reckoning to shake the heavens that flemeth promised? we lost kate mulgrew for this?' which is a bullet point that might make one realize that one's complaints are very niche and specific and thats not what people look for in 10-year-later sequels and you nix the whole post

and then almost two weeks later d*vid g*ider makes a post about flemeth & morrigan & how they were always so fundamental to dragon age [which he begins by calling himself out for older women being his type- i dont want to talk about it] and another about how the scene between morrigan & kieran & flemythal was written and shot for here lies the abyss, morrigan saying she would never be the mother [to kieran] that flemeth was to her 🥺which is STILL the most impactful thing from inquisition

then you see the messy cowardly bullshit fucking story we got in veilguard, the way that mythal's fragment is in there ultimately to absolve this man for killing her, and morrigan is only there as her mouthpiece and the only way to convince this man that he needs to stop is if people tell him 'its okay man' because thats our priority right. making him feel better. fuck the dwarves dreams and the blight and the-

i don't know, i don't really have a point

[yeonban]

Tobias shows very clear favoritism for fellow geniuses even when they aren't fun in any other way. Their intelligence alone makes them stand out enough for them to already be worthwhile in his eyes and they're sometimes the only reason he continues to maintain contact with certain organizations he normally wouldn't have bothered to network with

Any org ever: Geniuses are rare around here Tobias, already out the door: Same org: We've got one of our own though Tobias:

[cobra-creampuff]

i think a lot of people have never been in a truly desperate situation but think they have, and this causes them to pass really harsh judgment on people who made bad choices when either irrational or having no good choices to pick instead, and i really wish people could get some fucking self-perception and work on their compassion skills and not fucking do that as much anymore