#fay speaks

[fayrobertsuk]

I've been on the periphery of this, watching with mounting horror and rage, then exhausted resignation and muted ire, as this person shows no signs of stopping acting on their insecurity and paranoia to persecute my friend.

Literally the only way to stop them has been resorting to legal protection for Daisy (and even then, they have barely stopped subposting and openly talking about how they intend to go back to harassment once the legal restrictions are lifted). And that legal protection is punishingly expensive. If you can support directly, please do, otherwise please do share.

And, if you think you know who this person is, please don't go after them or name them here. We don't want to give them any more fuel to go after her.

[nativefay]

the audio drama trauma (ADT) of realizing your mic wasn't recording the entire time...................

[fayfaygoes]

Her gun got you covered!

[faynthearted]

maybe I'm overthinking things, but whenever I see people talking about significant/transformative moments in tianshan's relationship (barring their fight, the kiss, the ear piercing, etc.), I'm always a little disappointed no one points out the scene where the boys are going through the cardboard boxes of random things from he tian's childhood and he tian says something to the effect of, "the entire world is out there but everything I've ever owned only fits in these two boxes" and then he discreetly places his hand palm-up between him and guan shan. and guan shan pauses for a moment before placing his glass in his hand. and then the chapter ends.

this moment is one of the few panels I've saved over the years:

like... it's short but there's so much emotion behind this scene, it's hard for me to put it into words succinctly. and it stands out to me because it's not particularly intense or climatic like their other big moments. it happens soon after she li assaulted guan shan on the riverbank — which was heavy on the drama and ultimately the catalyst for tianshan's relationship. he tian had also just been financially cut off from his family and guan shan had been physically and emotionally vulnerable/exhausted for some time. basically, things were still raw and hectic for both of them in different ways

so this quiet, subdued, and wordless interaction between them on the balcony was very interesting. I honestly think it's one of the first instances in which tianshan have a personal/intimate mutual understanding of one another without an outside force influencing it or the moment being interrupted. and somehow, it's both abnormal and very fitting that he tian didn't make a grand gesture in this moment. like, if you think about it, he simply turned his hand on the cushion and looked at guan shan. it wasn't obvious; he wasn't making a scene. but of course guan shan, hyperaware of him, noticed

and the fact that the chapter ends after that also stands out to me. again, if he tian was being his normal self, he probably would've said/complained outright that he obviously wanted guan shan to give him his hand, not his glass, or he probably would've grabbed guan shan's hand as he was placing the glass down because he tian always just takes what he wants and tames guan shan's defiance or embarrassment after the fact

but instead, the chapter ends. and it doesn't even feel abrupt, really. it feels complete. and it makes me assume that he tian accepted the glass as guan shan's response and didn't press the issue. he might've just held onto the glass in his lap (or drank from it while maintaining eye contact) and then moved his attention back to the group at large. and, again, that's both abnormal and fitting for him in this scene

and I know I just said "guan shan's response" but what's frustrating — and fascinating! — is that I've yet to come to a definitive conclusion about what the (unspoken) question/response between them was to begin with. of course, he tian had just finished talking about the paradoxical state of his life — about how he could have everything and yet he has next to nothing — so maybe his "question" for guan shan was as simple as: "even if I don't have/want anything else, can I at least have you?"

but I also think it's interesting to consider that jian yi immediately laughed at he tian after he finished talking, accusing him of being dramatic (and in jian yi's defense, he'd never really seen an honest version of he tian like guan shan had at that point, so I don't blame him for thinking he tian was just being melodramatic for attention as per usual). anyway, jian yi and zheng xi got a good chuckle out of it, but guan shan didn't. iirc, he actually looked a bit lost in thought before he noticed he tian looking at him, and then his hand between them

with that small detail, it makes me think he tian's question leaned more toward: "do you believe me?" or maybe "do you understand me in the ways I want you to?"

I'd like to think he tian wouldn't have offered his hand if guan shan had also rolled his eyes with zhanyi — poor little rich boy — and dismissed what he'd said. but then again, with the state of their situation/relationship at that point, I don't think there was a chance in hell that guan shan would've dismissed him. I'm sure we can all agree that he tian's intense emotional response to finding guan shan injured and subsequently taking care of him without expecting anything in return drastically changed guan shan's perspective of him. guan shan had a lot to process at that point in the manhua, and a lot of hard truths to start acknowledging. it was clear that he tian had a lot on his mind during that time, too

so guan shan placing the glass in he tian's palm might've been him saying, "I'm still figuring this (us) out... but my answer isn't no" (hence the reason why he tian presumably didn't push the issue further bc he was more cognizant of guan shan's boundaries by this point) or it might've been him saying, "yeah, I'm starting to understand you, and you're not what I thought you were but that's not scaring me away" (therefore affirming he tian's question so he didn't feel the need to pursue the moment or make a bigger scene)

in any case, although there's no continuation after that scene, I think they were both satisfied by the end of the evening. I don't think he tian was disappointed by guan shan's response, and guan shan would've known that too. in fact, I'd argue that guan shan wanted to reaffirm he tian's emotions in that moment. the worst (yet easiest) thing guan shan could've done is look at him, look at his hand, and then look away and ignore him — literally leaving him empty-handed. that would've left he tian in a sour fucking mood... or at least a bit wounded

but instead, guan shan chose the more honest/reciprocal route even if he wasn't 100% sure yet. and... I don't know. it really stands out to me and I think a lot more was happening in that interaction than what could've been expressed in words. and yet I've literally never seen anyone talk about that scene since it was posted — which, fair enough. it's only a couple of panels. but I think about it constantly!

[im-just-a-ghost]

How profoundly sad Verso looks. How he goes completely silent when they find out more about what's going on. How he's visibly hunched down from sorrow, his voice scratchy from lack of use.

Does he look like he knows something we don't? Definitely. But that is not how a man looks like if he was scheming to kill you.

[chthonic-cassandra]

Morgan le Fay from Women of Camelot by Mary Hoffman, illustrations by Christina Balit

[solokabuto]

[apollos-boyfriend]

CRUMB GOT FUCKING BANNED FOR HOMOPHOBIA HELP 😭

[deepspace-mens-socialarchives]

OHHHHHH

ON IT-

[fayrobertsuk]

So, uh. How's everyone doing?

Anyone need a hug?

[nativefay]

Announcement

Hi everyone! I wanted to give a huge thank you to all those who followed me. I've given some of you a follow back and will probably get around to the rest of y'all later.

I'm working fiercely on Phase 2 (pen's on fire as we speak), but I wanted to give y'all a little heads up. In addition to Moonpocks, I'm also a real-life folk occultist + research junkie, so I'm gonna be posting insights I get in connection to the audio drama and Native Fay (hence, the title).

If spirituality makes you uncomfortable or not's your thing, feel free to ignore, unfollow--a girl's gotta do what she gots to do. I'm just letting you know what this page's about.

Smooches, loves! Stay true.

Fay°•

[fayfaygoes]

I am sorry I am still shock

But I am in awe too

ZAYNE IS SUCH A GENTLEMAN

The way even as him "loses control" he is protecting her from discomfort.

Topping her over but making sure the edge of table doesn't hurt her in impact

Throwing the books away so SHE can sit comfortably

Because to him that is more important than any books

Pushing her against the wall but putting his hand first for her head to hit on

Also shoving glass away if you consider how that would be uncomfortable for both parties

it’s the way Zayne is always prioritising MCs comfort to ensure she doesn’t get hurt or feel any discomfort.

It was never him acting out of character . He is still the gentleman he would be in any other given moments omfg zayne

ZAYNE THE MAN YOU ARE .

[dizzydizney]

Do you think Uliana would've been Morgana if they didn't introduce Morgie, son of Morgana who wasn't even in the #%&*#^ Disney movie

[cosmicwolfboy]

found my nice copy of gatsby and remembered how gorgeous it was

[asotin]

Tales of Symphonia: The Animation (2007) United World Arc Episode 1

Even so, I like this world. That's why I thought, "I want to protect it." The sky. The air. The land. And you.

[0bscvr]

headcanon : for 67 years, renoir stood over @verleseau every night and repeatedly banged his cane of doom on the ground so the little tickturd couldn't sleep-