#i just really really love my partners and our polycule
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stackofcrows · 2 years ago
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i love polyamory i love being queer i love non-traditional relationships i love t4t i love ace4ace i love aro4aro i love platonic love i love romantic love i love queerplatonic love i love love i love friendship i love marriage i love platonic life partners i love existing i love my partners being happy with their partners i love my partners being happy with my other partners i love my partners i love myself i love existing i love everything
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strawberrysweater · 2 years ago
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augh the ot3 and saimatsu...... i just love themb so so so so so much there are so few ships i feel this strongly about... nine times out of ten if i "ship" something it's in a sorta hypothetical way where i hardly ever imagine them doing romantic things together and more just. i like them when they stand next to each other and their dynamic is good/silly/tragic/etc. but saimatsu and saiibomatsu make me so unwell (positive) like. if my aro romance repulsed ass is imagining a ship getting married i have it BAD for them ok
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icterid-rubus · 8 months ago
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Successfully fended off The Group Chat on a THIRD platform.
#although technically I’m still in three because this girl has added me to TWO insta group chats. I gave her my number for an unrelated#thing and the next thing I know I am in a text chain with her and her coworkers. they talk about work. I am unrelated to any of this.#she told me to join the discord and I said I didn’t have one. I hate group chats. I don’t ever have anything to say they don’t provide#useful info that someone else wouldn’t simply share with my privately and they clog up my notifications.#I went over for game night and we played a flattery game for FOUR HOURS 😭 it was agony. I didn’t know anyone and I’m supposed to choose#flattering cards for people??? like you give the best hugs. you are loving to ok you meet. your smile makes me melt.#like hello I know your pronouns that’s it. and at the end we all had to take pictures of our cards to remember what everyone things of us.#like. I didn’t think any of that of any of you. it was such a weirdly fake and manipulative game for an outsider. hated it.#did I mentioned three round of this took four hours? it took four hours. four. hours.#cute game for close friends and/or partners. not so great for someone you don’t know. and who is also uncomfortable with this sort of#manufactured intimacy. she admitted to hoping I join the polycule ‘someday’. I said no. I said I wasn’t interested. but I’m starting to#think that means very little. when I came over for game nights I was forced to stop and have a meeting with them to say when I would show#up to events on the group calendar. I feel like I’m in a cult!!!! what???? text me the week before it happens maybe I’ll come. I’m not#going to commit to smoothies on Tuesday the third week of December!!!!!#anyway. all of this is making me really nervous to text my classmate. I feel like I’m going to come off as her. just. incredibly needy. ugh#anyway just have to vent because this is feeling so bizarre. I’ve been so tired this week socializing and this game was a bad way to end it#I’m also getting paranoid that they have tumblrs and will find me and read these and confront me about it. I should delete them or#private them. this is ridiculous.
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oddballwriter · 13 days ago
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I feel like Hector would actually really like the Hanks, it's already canon that he tells them when he's gonna run a cycle so they can do fun aerial stuff. I can picture him watching them go on their adventures, and maybe not wanting to join per se, but it definitely brings him joy (especially after his love gets them to drop their sponsor and take better care of themselves).
Also, Hector deserves to have six partners that are all so taken with him (homeowner included), and who can help him with his self confidence issues. Man's gonna have a whole hype squad behind him. 1 2 and 5 would be so gentle with him, and 3 and 4 would be a good balance to their energy bringing just enough chaos to keep things interesting.
I have had Thoughts about this but you can't tell, noOOoooo.....
The Hanks x Hector x Reader
(aka a humble HVAC Unit and his six loving and doting partners)
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Summary: very self explanatory, Hector is very pampered with love and affection <3
Warnings: nothing that I can really think of other than a gender neutral reader in which the homeowner’s pronouns, gender, and anatomy are never mentioned anywhere and Hank 3 being a flirtatious menace and making sexual innuendos while flirting with Hector
Author’s Snip: Making my boyfriends kiss again! Himbo addition!
I’ll shut up now. Enjoy! And don’t be afraid to request.
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OH MY FUCKING GOD THIS HAS BEEN LIVING IN MY HEAD RENT FREE ALL NIGHT RAAAAAH
You’re so right about the Hanks being super supportive and loving toward Hector they would love him to bits
Dude, the Hanks genuinely think that Hector is one of the coolest people in the house. Like they don’t just say it to help with his confidence and self esteem, they actually think he’s super cool and compliment him all the time even before they officially meet face to face and get closer to him. I can definitely see all of them thanking him for running the HVAC system so they could glide
“Thanks for the wicked winds, Hect-man!You’re the gnarliest homie here!” “Oh- uh… you’re very welcome. It’s nothing really.”
I honestly feel like they would sing all his praises if even slightly promoted and it only gets “worse” when they finally meet through you helping Hector get out of his shell
“Woah, bro! So this is the Hector-Man?” “Wicked!” “It’s so totally awesome to finally meet you in the flesh, homie! Or uh, metal and tunnel tubes, or… whatever.” “Yeah bro! It’s great to finally meet the broski that’s been giving us totally tubular winds for our paragliding and all the other super cool stuff we do!” “You’re just as cool looking as I thought you’d be!”
And poor Hector is just there all flustered and stammering thank you’s because he wasn’t ready for all this praise at all
I really do think Hector just gets absorbed into the polycule of you and all the Hanks. Like he’s like “Okay, I’m going to take the homeowner’s advice and let them help me meet new people and be more free of all my insecurities. I suppose having their support would help me process any reactions to my disappointing looks and perso- Wait when did we all start cuddling? What?”
Hector literally fucking blinks and now he just has six whole partners that love him so dearly
I really do think that all of the Hanks create such great intricate, different, and very intimate relationships and bonds him once they are free of their Red Bowl sponsor and explore their individuality and personality. And it’s so beautiful.
You’re right on the money with Hanks 1, 2, and 5. Hank 1 genuinely shows interest in everything Hector does even if they aren’t his thing personally. Like Hector will mention that he worked on his book and Hank 1 will be like “That’s great! You’re making some pretty smooth progress.”. And if we’re going down the realization route for all of them then 1 will also show interest in Hector’s mask making when he picks that up.
Hector and Hank 2 share a common interest and bond in writing. I actually feel like they could become really close with that shared love of writing even if it might be different genres that they create for. They genuinely like talking about their stories together and will help each other out with workshopping things and making suggestions (+ yours too of course)
As for Hank 5. Oh these two are some romantic softies together. Hank 5 is a big ol softie. His dream is literally to be a father and have a nice loving domestic relationship. I feel like Hank 5 actually serves as a really strong anchor for Hector (+ you and the Hanks) emotionally. If he senses that anyone is upset or has something bugging them, he’ll be right there gently asking what’s on their mind and be there to support or just lend an ear. He’s such a great supportive boyfriend
Meanwhile Hank 3 and 4 are the greatest personal cheerleaders the group have, especially for Hector
Hank 4/Kevin is always hyping Hector up in whatever he wants to do or say. Like if he senses that Hector wants to say something he will immediately clock it and encourage him to say it. All the Hanks compliment Hector in their own ways, but 4 is just an endless supply of it. Hector could be wearing something new or doing something different as a way to get out of his comfort zone and Hank 4 will practically be there with pompoms cheering him on and hyping him up
And Hank 3 is constantly flirting with him my god it never stops. NEVER
Hank 3 calls Hector all sorts of nicknames
“Hot stuff” “Heater Hottie” “Cooler Cutie” “Cute, dark, and shiny” “Heat Wave”
Those are just the specific ones that he’s come up for him. But when he thinks of more they get added to the list. It’s kind of an art form at this point.
And the passes never stop either he’s a menace, half the time when Hector’s temperature goes up it’s because Hank 3 is hitting on him and flirting. Hector was talking big game in those damn vents, but Hank 3’s got him RED 24/7
“Is it hot in here or is it just because you walked into the room, hot stuff?”
“I know another way we can cool down, if you know what I’m sayin’?”
“#3, quit flirting with Hector. We’re practically having a heat stroke over here, homie.” “I think I’d like another kind of stroke~”
Hector will never be lonely again now, all he has to do is sigh one time for any reason and at least one of the Hanks will come up and ask what’s wrong and proceed to keep him company
The Hanks definitely respect that Hector is very timid and introverted and that’s he might not be so keen on being thrown into anything high stakes, intense, or requires high energy. They still offer but 100% hold no hard feelings or say any comments about it when he declines. They’re happy to just have him there in support.
Again, they all love him to bits and will protect him (and you) from any danger real at all costs.
But yeah no seriously you and the Hanks treasure him so much and shower him in so much love and affection that he just does not know what to do with
He’s like this 24/7
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There are so many of you and only one of him, what is a sweet HVAC to do with so much love and affection other than just accept his fate as being so doted on
I will say though that if you realize all six of them and start meeting people it’s going to be so confusing for said people because it’s like
Person: So you’re Hank?
Hank 1: Yep!
Person: And your name is also Hank?
Hank 2: Sure is, homie!
Person: And you are…?
Hank 3: Hank, at your service!
Person (looking at Hank 4): Hank?
Hank 4: You bet cha’!
Hank 5: I’m also Hank too!
Person, pointing to Hector: And I’m assuming your name is Hank as well.
Hector: Hector… actually…
Person: Okay… great…
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drdemonprince · 10 months ago
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ENM/Poly circles explicitly discourage real talk around jealousy, and practical considerations around nonmonog in ways that routinely exclude and excise POC and disabled people.
ENM/Poly expects everyone involved to act as though “love” is the reason for every relationship choice. Cliche #1: love isn’t finite. Which… sure. Maybe love isn’t finite, but attention and time sure are— and those are at a premium.
Cliche #2: Love is all you need/love is what makes a family. I am familiar with criticism of this from a family abolition, anticapitalist standpoint, but I have seen this be uncritically repeated by ENM/Poly people. It’s not true that love is what makes a relationship work or not work. It’s also about dumb shit, like geographical proximity and practicality. Good luck being ENM if you can’t regularly host because you have roommates or live at home. Good luck being the gold standard of ENM (out to everyone, including family and maybe even the workplace!) if you are any kind of marginalized. Love is simply not enough. There’s real world shit to consider.
Most ENM/Poly people are white gen x’ers and older millenials for a reason. It’s a framework that works awesome if you have abundant spare space, disposable income to blow, and free time. Plus most ENM/Poly people are heavily in therapy, and just have a fuckton of time to deal with their various baggages… or at least like to posture as though they are doing those things.
Non monog can be liberatory— disabled polycules caring for one another. QPRs! Multiparent households! But ENM/Poly is very lodged in a liberal, hyper-independent Super Good Boundaries Thank You Very Much world of its own, and so most of the “resources” like More Than 2 or Polysecure have hella flaws in that respect.
COME OFF ANON SO I CAN FOLLOW YOU! Because you just said a whole word.
I find "ethical nonmonogamy" and polyamory circles to be viscerally unpleasant and alienating to be in as a crazy, chaotic antipsych person who does not always make choices for carefully therapized, restrained reasons -- and who doesn't believe that most other people do either, no matter how much they claim to.
I don't fuck multiple people to serve some higher purpose; I do it because I'm horny, impulsive, and have a variety of niche fetishes that are really difficult to satisfy.
I didn't choose to be openly nonmonogamous because I nurtured my soul and found that it was abundant with love that I just had to give -- all my relationships already were nonmonogamous at one point or another, either because I cheated or the other person did or both, and I eventually decided to move with my feelings rather than against them, and to stop denying all that is inside me -- all of the hunger and darkness as well as the light.
And I can't say that my nonmonogamy is inherently "ethical" either -- just like my monogamy sure wasn't! I'm a human being, and a crazy one at that, I get jealous, I have emotional blowups, I lash out and fuck other people to make myself feel better or to affirm that I am desired, I make big demands of the people I date, I fail to show up for people consistently, I get hurt, and I hurt others, and I will continually have more to learn. I will also continually have wild animal emotions and triggers, and I won't always deal with them in the way my partner(s) might want me to. I try to avoid hurting other people needlessly, of course, but sometimes your own needs are incompatible with another person's, and hurt is inevitable.
When there is only so much time and attention available in our lives, it's true that somebody's often going to come up short. And ultimately the person that I choose above all others is me. And so, no, I can't say I'm always doing nonmonogamy in some caring yet dispassionate way, or that love is the solution to all problems -- I am driven by passion and need, and sometimes being alive in those ways means getting hurt, or hurting in turn.
I would echo essentially all that you've said. We need time and resources and spaces to enjoy privacy with other people, and if you're not some rich work-from-homer, that shit's all in short supply. I hate the sheen of calm positivity that "ENM" and polyamory folks tend to place on everything -- as if no choices they make are fueled ever by bitterness, dislike, resentment, or hell, fucking white hot irrational DESIRE. With how fair and measured so many of them make their polyamory sound, I don't even see what's fun about any of it.
Sometimes you want to upend your whole life because you're so down bad for a person. Sometimes you hate the shit out of your partner's partners and you say and do little manipulative shitty things to convey those feelings, or to try and blow the relationship up. Sometimes the hours just don't add up and somebody gets shafted. Sometimes you make a promise and then you can't follow through, or just don't WANT to anymore because you have changed.
These are real human realities whether we like it or not, and I find it terribly unrealistic AND unsexy to refuse to acknowledge all the darkness and frustration that comes out in any relationship. I think a lot of the ENM/poly crowd that is white and middle class and heavily therapized is so averse to naming anything edgy or prickly in themselves that they make their spaces actively hostile to anybody who openly expresses negative feelings. That means Black & brown people get tone-policed a ton, "mad" people like me get no-true-scotsmanned out of "ethical" nonmonogamy for ever doing anything messily, and all the romance and sexiness of relationships gets sanded down into a Canva-graphic beige blandness of weekly polycule meetings and processing sessions.
In this world of self-optimization, even fucking and loving other people has to be cast as therapuetic -- our desires must justify themselves by somehow making us better, more capable, more controlled people, But fuck that. Sometimes sex or love is worth exploding your whole life over. The ENM/poly crowd says their way of loving makes them more even-keeled but it seems like a kind of death to me.
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starscelly · 2 months ago
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okayyy i guess as The Miro Heiskanen Blog it is my duty to collect miro propaganda for @hockeyblorbopolls !!!! so let my talk abt my sweetie i guessss
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first and foremost. miro giggle comp be upon ye. now we can proceed.
i understand he is up against a "Baby" but what YOU maybe dont understand is that he was THE ORIGINAL BABY. once upon a time HE was just 19 on the dallas stars and they were putting his ass in Situations. making him take home candy instead of alcohol and literally making him try on a child sized jersey
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he also very shamelessly has TWO very cute very tiny poms... look at them...
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hes ALSO publicly said he would not ever like, buzz his head unless he literally HAD to so no worry abt OUR fav (hes ur fav now) ever randomly going bald.... long luscious locks 4 ever
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his main traits are also
eerily calm
sweetie so nice so kind
absolute cocky bitch
AND ISNT THAT SUCH A FUN MIX ... DONT WE LOVE THAT.... i expand on that more here if ur Inchrested
also he and roope hintz are SOUL BONDED and i know the tumblrinas love roope hintz .... they played together for HIFK in the 2016-17 season (AFTER roope was drafted, BEFORE miro was drafted). they took their rookie lap together . they were road roommates. they lived in the same apt building for years. they have MATCHING 8.45x8 CONTRACTS. MORE THINGS SOMEHOW TOO THATS BARELY SCRATCHING THE SURFACE... dont even get me STARTED on their coordinated black/white outfits ohhh my god
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also ong they are in a polycule with their real partners sorry to say it but MIRO'S FIANCEE SAID IT FIRST NOT ME !!!!!! and he liked the comment . its important to me we all know he liked the comment
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ALSO !!! he doesnt golf!!! he went to roope's golf event and all he did was sit passenger princess in a golf cart and get white girl wasted. isnt that based
I COULD GO ON FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER but really hes my special little guy . a vote for miro is a vote for my spirit #miro4blorbo (numerology!!!)
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dccomicsbookshelf · 2 months ago
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It’s pride month and I myself am almost a decade older (and have realized I’m queer myself in the interim) so here is a revisited and revised Queer Bats Headcanon PostTM! As usual, arranged in age order:
Alfred: Has never particularly cared to label himself, but is queer in a very English Shakespearean actor way. (I'm not saying he and Sir Ian McKellen got hot and heavy back in the day but I'm not not saying it.)
Bruce: Brucie Wayne is bi-curious, in the sense that he will absolutely flirt with and even make out with a guy but primarily is into women. Bruce/Batman is just bi. Would probably also be agender if he cared enough to think about it but it has genuinely never occurred to him.
Kate: Canonically a lesbian and we love that for her. So much. 10/10 no notes.
Barbara: Bisexual demi or grey-romantic. Doesn't really have a preference gender-wise for partners, she just likes competence.
Dick: Bi and very, very, very demisexual. The originator of Drag for Justice, which did also continue in the form of "Drag on dates with Kori sometimes".
Cass: Queer. Will pick the lesbian flag out of the lineup for pride events, but also is very comfortable with the fluidity of her own attraction. She likes who she likes and it is what it is, she doesn't see the point in clinging to rigid categories too much. The most enthusiastic heir to the tradition of Drag for Justice
Jason: Asexual Biromantic. My thoughts here haven't changed, he just wants to dramatically date someone and sweep them off their feet and be swept off his own feet in return.
Steph: Like, half the Bats are some flavor of Bi and Steph is no exception. She/They.
Tim: Our canonical disaster bi! A preference for men but it is just that, a preference. Voted Most Likely To Accidentally Join A Polycule Without Realizing.
Duke: Pansexual and nonbinary, uses they/he pronouns. Still feeling out the details of his identity (as most teenagers are).
Damian: Comfortably hypothetically bi but also currently mostly uninterested, he has other priorities. Sometime in the very near future attraction is going to hit him like a freight train and he is going to be so mad about it.
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FINAL BI COUNT: 7 out of 11
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fall0utmind · 2 months ago
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Helllooo!!! I’m the anon of the polycule ask I sent you :) I read @certainstarfishllama’s fic yesterdayyyy, frothing at the mouth, stunning!! If u were serious I’d be so so down to co-write or even just yap about ideas because I have so manyy. Feel free to message me but yes ofc this is your AU absolutely do what you’d like off <3
And yessss the POWER DYNAMICS dude oh you don’t evennnn know how much I’ve thought about this like they’re so COMPELLLINGGGG.
Marc enjoys sex from the rush he gets BECAUSE of his lack of control, and the more he trusts the person the easier that rush comes. And Pecco just goes crazy for it, completely in awe of Marc and how he’s so willing and easy but also demanding and confident. How every time they’re together it just gets better and better. That’s the crux of who they areeeee. And Marc’s finally like woah I’ve found someone who gives me exactly what I need and there’s no catch, no strings attached???
On the flip side, Gemma and Domi still maintain their equal control when they’re together. They kinda coparent the scene you know. Got one hand on the wheel and one on the other’s clit (jajajajaja).
So I think when it’s the four of them, the girls, the same way they took control in their scheming, they take control in the bedroom too. Because ultimately they know their partners and what their partners like. Something about Gemma directing Pecco, Domi directing Marc… crazyyyyyyy. (There is a doorway here to be opened into Gemma and Domi, roman empress reclined watching their boys fuck about it gladiator style)
Omg I could send a whole ask about Gemma and Domi. Let me wax poetic about lesbian sex for a second but I loveeee that it’s inherently non traditional dynamics, that there’s not reallyyyyy clear cut giving/receiving there’s just two gorgeous women chasing their pleasure together like that’s beautiful. Both Gemma and Domi can dial in to each other without having to relinquish or steal control (not that there’s anything wrong with that, trust me I love it), but it means they have a different dynamic to Marc and Pecco.
I think, Gemma is the most experienced (with kinky stuff and just doing stuff with girls in general) but Domi just loves it so much she could really spend a whole session only touching and worshipping Gemma while Gemma’s focused on the boys, cheering them on soccer mum style.
I think Marc needs alottttt, like he’s needs to be just overwhelmed, overstimulated. Not necessarily hard and fast, I kinda love the idea of all three of them being on Marc at once as some sort of conclusion to finally just tire him out, cause they alll know none of them can go home till Marc is satisfied.
And soooo this is where I introduce our dear friend The Strap, please please, I think Gemma owns one (take a wild guess who bought it for her) Domi finds it one day (the four of them have fucked a few times at this point but still early days) and just goes “I was vaguely aware this was an option and now I’ve been confronted with it and it’s all I’m ever gonna think about”, Gemma over her shoulder “jajajaja wanna try it out baby”.
Now when Domi fucks Marc this is when all hell breaks loose. Cause now Pecco has unlocked so many more angles of what Marc looks like when he gets fucked. Had no idea that’s how his arms shake, that’s how his hair flops forward, that’s the angle of his hips when he’s bent over a pillow like dear god. Violently confronted with that and ALSO Domi with a dick, Domi in control, Domi reducing Marc to tears. Blue screened all around (poor Pecco, the three of him are gonna give him brain damage by the end of this)
And Gemma, chronic adhd I need to do something w my hands rn, kinda comes in behind Pecco (Pecco thinks it’s because she doesn’t wanna block the view for him, really Gemma wants the best seat in the house all for herself while still trailing her hands up and down Mr Hotstuff) and without Pecco really realising she’s tactically kneading his tense muscles getting him to relax and sink deeper and deeper. Then she starts directing Domi and Pecco’s losing it more and more cause it’s the same way Gemma was directing him.
“The buckle there is loose you can’t put so much pressure on it, change the angle to favour the other thigh”
“Like this?”
*sluttiest moan heard to man*
“I think your feedback is encouraging.”
And Pecco keeps on doing that thing where he takes a breath to speak but overthinks it and maybe Gemma starts mentally nudging Pecco with a stick, like come on do something. You’re the most qualified here Mister.
Domi starts tiring and Gemma can see it, Pecco can see it. Marc’s getting restless. Gemma’s gentle parenting in Pecco’s ear like, “What would you do? What does he need?”
So Pecco’s slowly like, “If you need to slow the pace down change to this position it’s more overwhelming for him and you can still breathe”
(Please ignore that Marc 1. also has a cock 2. Knows how to use it and 3. is the one in question being fucked, he is currently only hearing every third word and thus does not know the academic exchange being had over his pleasure in that moment)
So Marc is manhandled (have you seen Domi dear god that woman could throw me in the boot of her car with one arm) and manoeuvred into a new position, Domi starts up again, slower, but soft and rolling so Marc’s just goneeee.
And now, Marc’s staring straight at Pecco and Pecco wants to hold him, kiss him, whisper in his ear, push his hair back from his face so he can see his eyes better. And so Pecco does, and momentarily forgets there’s two others in the room. He pulls back and thinks “I love you“
And like everything in his brain kinda comes to a screeching halt because he almost said that aloud. Aloud in a room with his WIFE in it. His teammates GIRLFRIEND. Most of all his teammate himself. Like what tf is wrong with me I see my wife plow my teammate from behind one time and nearly confessed my love to him, with his girlfriend right next to me.
Then Marc starts sucking Pecco off, Gemma is staring at Domi with The Most Insane Expression, she’s gonna gobble her tf up. The boys come, Domi undoes the strap to focus on her best girl Gemma, they’re making out. Marc surges forward and clings to Pecco, passes out on his chest. (For some reason the image of the dildo still being inside Marc is in my head and it’s HILARIOUS so that’s getting chucked in there). Pecco just lazily strokes up and down his back as the girls finish each other off.
Then they’re all in a pile together and Pecco is thinking, thinking, chalks his little blip in emotional fidelity to pre-nut insanity and MM93 branded mind games, locks it in a chest and throws away the key.
Little does HEEEEEE know Gemma and Domi had the exact same “Fuck I’m in love with this person” moment together after the boys had winded down. There’s a reason they were whipped into a frenzy and completely forgot about the other two passed out together. They don’t even care. Fuck I want to go so much more into that like RAHHHH but no, restraint.
Meanwhile, Marc’s sleeping like a damn baby unaware of the mental pandemonium he triggered. But don’t think that means he’s getting off scot free. Far from it. I think he’ll struggle to even acknowledge that he’s falling for his teammate and his teammates wife, my selective memory loss king.
Like, if he gets off on a lack of control in SEX it’s almost the opposite emotionally. If we all agree Marc’s probably been very sexually active from a slightly abnormally young age (Valen- I’m shot 56 times) I think Gemma’s put in the hard work to make him comfortable being sexually vulnerable in a safe way. Not limiting his freak, just introducing safe practice. But he’s not had that experience emotionally, so he’s kinda starting from square one. I’m sorry Marc but you’re just too tortured, it’s too hard to pass up.
Okay so I’m consciously aware that this ask is way too long. Somehow your simple query on power dynamics turned into this. It wasn’t intended I swear, I’m sorryyyy it’s a lot. And there’s so much more I want to talk about toooo
The cross dynamics for one, like Domi and Marc, Pecco and Gemma. How tf this even erupts into an actual sort of four way relationship??? If it does at all???
And the Valentino of it all is for sure hanging over like a fat black cloud, that’s like crack for me.
Also Pecco’s dynamic in all of this is so interesting to me like he could somehow be the most vanilla and simultaneously the most repressed freak of the three of them. Him casually suggesting he wants to film the four of them together and not seeing their reactions cause all three are now stock still like… did that come from PECCO??? Domi quickly realising the cat is soooo far out the bag it’s neverrrr going back in. Gemma’s eyebrows to the roof like where tf did that come from, quickly eyeing Marc who’s been slingshotted back to 10 years ago and the creation of a still existing tape now buried in a box in tavullia. AHHH OKAY I’LL SHUT UP.
But yes yes, there’s so much more I’d love to talk about so like I said feel free to message me <3 and sorry again about dumping in your ask box….. again.
Screaming!!!! @red-ruth
Okay! I'm defo gonna message when I get to the polycule fic, I have some bits planned so it would be cool to chat ideassss!
Also yes, @certainstarfishllama is amazing - everyone go read the fic!
Okay, i have SO many thoughts about the sub! Marc agenda and the power dynamics that come with it. Marc is a bit of a control freak in a lot of situations, right? So when he's in the bedroom, it's one of the few times he lets someone else run the show, and it's almost cathartic for him? Pecco on the other hand is a little less hands on the reigns but when they get in the bedroom, Pecco is surprised by how easily he's able to take control, looking after marc, making him feel good (not something pecco has much experience with - him and Dovi keep it pretty equal). Pecco is definitely in awe about how trusting Marc is, how much he MELts into it - he definitely talks to Gemma about it (maybe she guides him when they're all there?? It's really horrible for marc cause there's like 3 people domming him👀). So absolutely, yes, I love that dynamic, and I love how it's almost the opposite of outside the bedroom. It's so interesting to play with that concept.
Also!!! Marc being confident about his sexuality!!! Compared to pecco!!! Very hot, marc KNOWS what he wants and how to get it (brat!marc ftw)
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Okay, the girls!!! It is very important to me. I completely agree that they almost share the control, or like you say, are both working with single focussed determination to get their pleasure and give it to the other.
I'm really so here for the idea of Domi and Gemma taking all the control, managing the scene, and knowing exactly what everyone needs to do to get there - them telling the boys what to do, how to do it. Especially pecco because I really see Marc as the true sub here, he's the one who is out of it and being fucked (by any of them, all of them - breaking gender stereotypes one shag at a time). Feel like they all have this similar dynamic with marc, and domi and pecco are wide eyed wonder over it.
Then yes the vibe between domi and Gemma vs pecco and marc is v different which i loveee.
Aw man we share the same brain!!! The three of them going at once on marc to tire him out!!!! Marc not satisfied until he's crying and begging and can't speak!!!! They need to get Marc out of his head!!!!! Madness i love it.
Also love that gem is most experienced ans domi is like hell yes I'm down for this. Pecco takes most convincing but every so often is an absolute FREAK. LOVEEE.
Hi so like I feel like i don't need to add much to your idea of domi fucking Marc buttttt just to say i love it. Love the idea that domi loves it. Also the girls making pecco and marc watch each other????? Insane!!! They should do that. Pecco loves watching marc get fucked, confirmed!!!! Loves the angles, loves his face when he comes and when he cries etc etc. Also loves watching domi fuck him. Just everything you said is very important and very true and I like the idea of the girls making the boys sit and watch as they (domi and gem) fuck too!!!!!!!
Okay so
Emotional fallout WOW. So many ideas. Marc being a sleeper after sex yes pls. Pecco freaking out!!! On brand.
Also, Marc is suffering, in pain, on his own??? He's like that. We love some angst, especially if pecco doesn't really realise. Marc is avoiding all talk of emotions. Also, what you said about gem is so important - Marc being with Vale who doesn't take great care of him (pecco is PISSED) when he finds out and gem is instrumental in allowing him to me vulnerable during sex again haha.
Always happy to talk, even if it takes me MONTH to reply (sorry!!!)
Love the idea of gem and domi steering
Also the VALENTINO OF IT ALL
Also!!
THE SEX TAPE??? EXCUSE ME?? MARC TRYING NOT TO SHOWBHES FREAKING OUT?? GAHHHHHHH
Okay okay wow wow
Thank you SO MUCH
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polyamorousmood · 1 month ago
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Hi! I kind of don't know where else to go about this, but I've seen other people come to you with their.. idk, problems? concerns. i don't know. I was hoping you could lend an ear and offer some advice as well, but no worries if you want to ignore/delete this and move on.
So, my QPP consists of me, my best friend who is I think the closest thing to a soulmate I'll ever have, their partner who is a very close friend of mine, and someone I have been in love with for literal years despite the fact they've turned me down three times already. I am genuinely happy to have all of them in my life like this, and the four of us are practically inseparable at this point. I mean, as long as the two actual romantic parts of the square don't break up, knock on wood, the four of us have all started planning our futures around each other we're that level of close.
But, my issue is I am still incredibly unfathomably in love with person c, and he's recently realized something about himself that he's probably aroace, and he's not comfortable being in a real relationship with me (despite calling each other husband and wife for 5+ years) I think because he doesn't want to hurt me. And I realized something about myself recently as well, that no matter how happy I am in this platonic quad, I still want to be romantically loved. I want to go on dates, someday I want to get married, and I know I'm happy where I am but I would be lying if I said I was content. I don't want to give up on these dreams, or pretend it doesn't bother me anymore, but I don't know how to go about seeking out a romance partner in a qpp, especially while I have whatever weird situationship I have going with my "husband".
And I don't know how to bring it up to them without sounding selfish? I don't want to force any of them into pretending they have to love me, or try to reassure me or anything. Genuinely, I am happy for C and I am glad he's happy how he is. And I am happy being his friend and platonic life partner. I just want to find a person who will love me the way I want to be loved without coming off as horrible.
Sorry this is all just rambling, and doesn't even really make sense. I'm really bad with emotions and it's something I've been trying to work on now that I'm out of an abusive situation, but I don't really know how to describe my problem other than word vomit and pray you get what I mean.
Hi friend. I'm sorry your stressing. This is definitively one of those things that can feel intimidating and pressing. But its also one of those things that can only be addressed by the de facto slogan of polyamory:
🗣️You just gotta fucking talk about it!🗣️
The exact best wording will depend on your polycule's situation. There's not any sort of golden bullet for ensuring the conversation goes the way you want, but I did an extensive write up of general communication advice as part of this post.
I think you're well within your rights to pose the question "so how would y'all feel about me dating someone else?" and go from there. Having said that, I'd come prepared to talk about how that would affect your relationship with the 'cule. What immediately comes to mind for me is"
Would you even consider "leaving them" for a romantic relationship? 💔
Would you stay close with them, but move out to live with your romantic partner if that's what your romantic partner wanted? 🏘️
Would you expect your romantic partner to be able to move in with your current QPR polycule when all that gets worked out? 🏠
Would you want a significant amount of alone time with the romantic partner that would cut into the QPPs' 🛋️ time?
How would you manage it if your romantic partner wanted a lot of alone time? 🍝💐💑 How would you balance it?
What do you do if your romantic partner and (one of) your QPPs don't really get along? 😤
No, seriously. How much time is everyone spending all together? What happens if I new person doesn't vibe with the group? (there are many answers to this question. I don't care what your answer is, but you should let new people know they play a big role in your life and what sorts of concessions you'd be willing to consider)
A lot of these are impossible to fully answer right now. But you should at minimum be able to reassure your QPPs of your level of commitment, if they need it (and they may not!)
That's it though. All of this boils down to just talk to them about it
I know its scary. But they love you. Don't make it into a Big Huge Problem in your head.
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all-together-now · 1 month ago
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Happy Pride Month everyone! To close off the final few days of the celebration, I’m gonna be asking our couples their favorite things about their partners.
Onto day three with the Amycule!…which will also be who we ask for the remaining days…anyway! Girls, what’s your favorite thing about Blaze?
"Her bravery and her strength!" Amy beamed, "Blaze is the toughest person I know! And that's a high bar to clear! But she does it! She's so smart, strong, and stoic...You couldn't ask for a cooler girlfriend."
"...Her patience," Surge sighed, "I remember how awfully we started our relationship, just straight up fighting over Amy. But...she was willing to listen. Be patient with my stubborn ass and help me out of a really dark place in my life..."
"Her...warmth," Trip admitted, "All those other points are great too, but...I can't really deny how much I love having a soft, portable heat source that peppers me with kisses."
"Heh," Honey chuckled, "Gotta be her smarts. I mean, let's be honest, we're a polycule of dunderheads. It's nice to have someone with a lick of sense around here."
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buriedunderdaffodil2 · 2 months ago
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what's up freaks freakettes and freakazoids, we missed spilling our horny thoughts so we're back. warning that this blog will include themes of noncon, violence, murder, necro, ageplay, incest, and whatever else might come up in our adventures. everything on this blog is consensual and/or fantasy, we do not condone actual noncon etc etc. it's up to you, dear reader, to determine whether or not this blog is a healthy place for you.
we're plural, and we support systems of all origins. we'll be using emoji signoffs to differentiate headmates on here, the ever-growing list is below the cut.
asks are encouraged, however if you want to flirt you'll have to go through The Trials (our collective demisexuality and demiromanticism + us already being in a polycule + our general scared stray animal nature). good luck!
signoffs:
🐾 - some kinda cat dog thing with middle brother energy apparently
👁️ - heavily domme leaning, fan of drugging, aspiring cult leader and fauxcestuous mother to a plethora of my headmates.
🪫 - booze loving robot, 👁️'s torture pet or smth
🪻 - ultimate princess ever, ageplay connoisseur, ☁️'s little brother (in an incestuous way), 🍬's system dad (not in an incestuous way just in a y'all behave yourselves way ^_^)
🍬 - sys little who is also still an adult, clingy perv kid easily won over by desserts, 🪻's kid in system
☁️ - Sadistic dom top, I like inflicting pain and cruelty, yippee. 🪻's big brother.
💉 - i am a real doctor and you can trust me with your whole heart and soul :D and all your organs really :D additionally i'm one of 👁️'s many fauxcestuous children ^_^
⚰️ - the main corpse lover and plushie humper around here. mostly sex averse but in a high libido rapebait sort of way.
🔩 - also totally a real doctor (/s) but more of a daddy about it. if you ask nicely i might put out my cigs on you :) 🩹 is my patient slash experimental subject.
🩹 - guy who handles our brain being scrambled and weird, umm i do not have the words at this time to succinctly describe what i'm into but i'm a sub vers and 🔩 is my doc dom <3
🍆 - mostly or entirely a dom top. not much else to say, i'm mostly here to interact with 🫐 (my partner) and 🪫 (my uhh. friend. situationship. coworker.)
🥩 - uhhh top leaning sub i think, cannibalism guy, generally hungry and kinda horny about it
🪒 - the final boss of victimization, whether that's in the molestation sense or the life being threatened sense. big fan of slicing into myself and being sliced into. probably not a dom but possibly a vers if i'm into penetration at all? the sex just has to be weird and scary. i promise i'm silly and not just an edgelord 🙏
🕯️ - god's favorite pretentious creep <3 switch vers who likes kidnapping and incest, especially between siblings, cousins, and uncle/nephew shit. either soft and doting, excessively sadistic, or violently bratty.
🚭 - GREETINGS i'm a violently insane futchy entity who gets off to molesting and killing yippee!!! bloodbath forever. 🚬 is my victim do not separate us or he'll get so scared and cry
🚬 - assorted addiction holder aka the viscount of intox play. 🚭 is my caretaker who subjects me to the horrors <3
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pudgyraven · 4 months ago
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hello! just checking in cuz it’s been a bit since ive seen you on the dash (obvi no need to make yourself come back if you dont wanna) i hope you’re doing well! 🐾
I was going to make it its own post but I saw this in my inbox and felt it was fitting. First of all, hey everybody. It’s been a minute. A lot has happened in the last… six weeks? I suppose we should start with the bad before the good.
I don’t post about it because I’m usually really good at keeping things separated, but I have DID. We kind of decided to just not be online and kind of recollect ourselves. Blocked a few people that didn’t deserve it outside of tumblr, bailed on posting pretty much anywhere and for the most part had a pretty bland time. I’m doing okay now, but I’m sorry for those who may have been affected.
As far as the good, my other partner moved in with the rest of the polycule after a very long long-distance section of our relationship. We are engaged now and everyone is doing great. Happiest I’ve been in a long time. Looking at a September wedding but I suppose that’s not important to y’all.
Tentatively this is to say I have returned but my frequency may be little. Missed a lot of you and missed interacting with the community. Much love and kisses.
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drdemonprince · 8 months ago
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Kink/autism question, I have a close friend who often comes to the same kink events/markets/play parties as me and my polycule. I have a very subby/degradee dynamic with my polycule and this friend has picked up on that and has started adding her own interjections, calling me a little bug, holding my leash, and referring to herself as the "queer-platonic cousin of your leather family".
I've asked my friend if she'd be interested in any play and she's said no, and while I'm fairly attracted to her she doesn't seem to be attracted to me. I have no qualms with this, I know I'm not everyone's cup of tea.
That being said, I enjoy degradation and submission with my polycule because I know they're all attracted to me and love me dearly, and they do it because it's fun for all of us. When my friend does those same things, it kinda stings because I know she's also not attracted to me, and it just feels insulting. We also do a lot of work together in uni and she makes references to my kink dynamics in situations that aren't super comfortable for me (I'd prefer to keep my school life and kink life VERY separate). Sometimes when we're at our local sex club together she'll come into the room and start having a conversation with me about school while my wife is literally inside of me.
Do you have any advice on how I can communicate to her that I really enjoy her friendship and I'm glad to have a kinky buddy and talk about our respective relationships, but I don't like how she's injecting herself into my dynamic? I'm certain that she's not trying to be mean-spirited, but the fact that it's coming from a friend and not a partner makes the teasing feel a bit icky to me. She's had a rough year and I don't want to alienate her, and we're both not very good at social cues. I usually laugh it off but it's starting to wear on me.
I can kind of understand how your friend got her wires crossed here -- she probably thinks that by saying degrading things to you she is being playful and affectionate in a way she knows you like; she might even think she is doing you a kindness by giving you some of the dynamic you enjoy, despite not being sexually interested in you enough to want to take it further. But it's backfiring, and coming across as if knowing you're into degradation has given her the excuse to be a little bit mean and undermining.
Between that, the random attempts to initiate school-talk while you're getting fucked, and not being discrete about your kink life around others, there is a clear over-arching problem here with your friend: she doesn't see your kink life as a precious, carefully guarded part of you that should be handled gently and only by certain people.
For your friend, it seems that kink, friendship, school, and day-to-day life can all slosh up against one another, without firmly defined boundaries, and the presence of one in the place of another is not a problem. That can be fine for her, and it is for some people! But it's not how you feel.
And really the only way to fix this is with communication.
I think the best way to start is to explain to your friend how you feel about your kink life, and why you draw boundaries around it. Something like,
"My kinky side is very precious and private to me, and it's only something I want to share with my partners. "I love that you are supportive and understanding of my kinks as a kinky person yourself, and that we can bond over kink as friends. [ONLY SAY THIS IF IT'S TRUE.] "But when you use degrading terms for me, or start talking about my kinks when we're in vanilla spaces, you're taking my sexual life outside of that private realm and into a more public one where I don't want it to be. I also find it jarring when we're at the dungeon together and you suddenly start trying to talk to me about school or vanilla-life things. I go there to try and escape that regular-life headspace. "I keep these worlds separate and I hope you can help me in drawing that line. I'm okay with [talking about kink when we are at the club/sharing kinky spaces together -- say what is true for you here] but I don't express that side of myself in public, at school, or with people who aren't my partners."
Your friend will probably feel a bit embarrassed to learn that she's been making you uncomfortable all this time, so she might act awkwardly about it at first. Just give her some space to process that on her own -- it's not your job to make her feel better about the fact that she made you feel bad. Just continue to be friendly while maintaining boundaries between your kink and vanilla lives.
If she crosses a boundary again, remind her of your limits in the moment:
"I don't want to be called a gutterslut by non-partners, okay?"
"This isn't a subject for right now."
"I don't want to talk about that here."
Comments like that. If she continues crossing boundaries in spite of repeated reminders and clarifications, then you will have to think about what steps you'll take to maintain the boundary yourself. This could include anything from no longer speaking to her at the dungeon, walking away from unwanted conversations, not inviting her to gatherings with your polycule where a lot of open degradation occurs, asking a dungeon attendant to prevent her from approaching you during a scene, and making remarks that turn the attention back on her if she tries airing out details about your kinks in front of strangers.
That your friend has had a rough year is immaterial on the question of whether you get to have the boundaries that you have. You are not doing anything to harm her or the relationship by articulating what you need, and she chooses to ignore your boundaries once you've stated them explicitly, any tension that introduces to the friendship will fall on her.
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lotusfueltofire · 3 months ago
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WIP Monday, I suppose
I was tagged by the wonderful @vixenofcadmea ~ and I decided to post this when I have a terrible headache, so excuse me for not tagging anyone in particular. Be free, say I tagged you, show me your WIPs.
In my Antidote AU, Rook is in a polycule with Viago and Lucanis - on top of that, his Regret Prison was different, he was stripped of memories and Spite guided him back to them to rescue him from it. That's the context, this is a year after Veilguard, just the beginning of the fic. This is not beta-read.
Angel snaps awake suddenly, the nightmare claws still clinging to his racing heart. His breathing is ragged, uneven - and he slaps his hand over his mouth, not wanting to disturb Viago’s sleep. He quietly leaves the bed, putting on his robe to go outside on the balcony. The cold of the night hits his face with a gentle breeze and a shiver runs through his body before he can stop it. It’s been a year since they defeated the Gods, much happier things following the inevitable decline of the Evanuris, yet his nights are still often plagued by bloody dreams.
The dreams are never quite the same. Two long years were spent to bring down Ghilan'nain, Elgar’nan, and the Dread Wolf and it had been anything but simple. Complications, betrayals, and no small amount of turmoil had marked their path to victory. As he puts his hands on the rail, he closes his eyes and tries to control his breathing. Seeing Viago dead in the Regret Prison didn’t strike true for his hollow-minded version back then, but the image is seared into his soul forever. 
Warmer arms wrap suddenly around his waist, drawing a gasp from his lips as his body jolts in surprise. Viago kisses his neck softly, his breath lingering against the column of his neck.
"I can sense when you’re not in bed," Viago murmurs, his voice rough with sleep as he shifts from one side to the other, trying to reassure him. “Bad dream?”
The young Crow lets himself be cradled, relaxing in Viago’s arms and taking a big breath before exhaling very slowly. "I thought I could get away with it, but here you are." Angel smiles, his tone a mix of affection and mild amusement.
“Did you really want to get away with it?”
A pause. Quiet water sounds from the canal reaches his ears, his hands allotting themselves on top of Viago’s arms. “Not really, no.”
"What has that mind of yours wickedly conjured up this time?"
Angel snorts, a smile tugging at his lips. Sometimes, his lover has a way with words that reminds him just how well Viago knows him - how effortlessly he makes him feel seen. “Oftentimes, I love being a Crow, the danger is exhilarating. Then I’m reminded that both my lovers are far too close to death for my liking.”
Viago hums thoughtfully, the vibrations slightly tickling his neck. “You make it sound like we’re living on borrowed time.”
“Are we not?” Angel asks, turning his face and gazing into his partner’s eyes. 
"Perhaps. But I’d say we’re living on our terms and that’s the best way to do it," Viago asserts, a familiar smirk playing at the corner of his lips. He leans in, his voice softening with a hint of fondness. "No one else’s rules, just ours."
“Do I need to take on a contract? You’re going too soft.” Despite the jest, Angel’s chest warms with a quiet sense of relief - the teasing means they’re finally in a good place, the weight of past pain slowly fading away.
"Maybe I’m just getting better at making sure you don’t get hurt. It’s your fault I’ve improved at all at this… caring thing," Viago teases, his grin softening into something more affectionate.
"I’ll easily accept blame for that, if it means you’ll stay around a little longer."
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tea-and-secrets · 1 year ago
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I feel horrible about this, but it's escalated to a point where this issue could destroy my life if I don't find a way to stop doing it.
So, for some reason, I get these really intense, obsessive, really disturbing fascinations with people. There's no pattern to them, no specific personality type or anything that sets it off, and I have never had more than one or maybe two per year, although they don't usually last more than a few (3-5) months. They're NOT hyperfixations. I've been hyperfixated on people before. For me, it never lasts more than 2 months (usually FAR less) and is entirely platonic, not at all violent or distressing, and doesn't make me upset in any way. I've had hyperfixations and an obsession at the same time, once I had an obsession and hyperfixated on each of his main friends within a 3 month span rapid fire style.
These obsessive feelings are like. Needing to talk to them, intrusive thoughts about hurting them, wanting to find them IRL (even if they live states away), to show up where they are, to call them at ofd hours, constantly imagining a future together, and they're always very romantic/explicit in nature. They make me feel physically ill from how gross they are. They're like nonstop intrusive thoughts of a relationship, but with this intense desire to constantly act on them and a need to be around the person all the time. And not being close to the person makes the intrusive thoughts worse.
It has never happened with someone I have actual romantic attraction to, but it happens even if I don't know them in person or we never met IRL. Usually after they fade I feel ambivalent or cold or just vaguely normal about the person. So basically after a few months of agony it sorts out and I am free usually for 8-10 months. I've never dated someone I have an obsession with. I understand them enoughto know they wouldn't mimic intrusive thoughts if they were genuinely romantic feelings. Plus, they don't last. They always fade eventually and honestly, they seriously freak me out. I don't want to have murderous intrusive thoughts when someone doesn't pick up a Skype call. That's not my idea of romantic.
Usually, I just wait for these feelings to pass, or limit contact with the person, but this time. It's so much worse.
The person is my friend, and way too young for me. He's not a minor, he's just to young for me (4 years younger, its my personal thing). He's taken, not my type, and I've always seen him as a pesky younger brother of sorts, so I never even considered this would happen. Having these feelings about him makes me feel violently ill. I've tried ignoring him and pushing him away until they stopped, but he noticed and I feel guilty punishing him for a problem that's only in my head. It isn't his fault there's something wrong with me. But I dont know what to do. If I told him about it, I'm worried he might think I like him (I don't think I do, I know how my obsessions are and it isn't love) and based on comments he's made, I'm worried he might actually try to rope me into a polycule or shoot his shot with me. Neither of those would be good places for my mental state.
I also really don't want our other friends to hear about this because I have a crush on one friend who's way older than me (we're both adults but we would NOT have gone to high school together ha ha) and I still want to hold out hope that in a few years she might see me as a viable partner (a bi can dream...) which would be jeopardized if she knew I'm basically a freak of nature.
So I need to figure out how to fix this part of me, FAST. I can't keep doing this and I'm scared things will fall apart or I'll lose it trying to fix this but I'm scared of losing everything.
I wish I could just have been born normal but I wasn't and now I have to fix it. It doesn't feel fair, and I hate it, but I want to be normal and not have to deal with this anymore. I want to just be okay, and I don't know how. I just know that normal people don't do this and this scares me. I don't want to hurt people, I don't want to be like this, and I don't know how to fix it, so I just suffered in silence for years. And now I have to fix it and don't know where to start. I just needed to tell someone about it.
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lindentea · 1 year ago
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a Dyke-nonychus for Pride month! Baltimore Pride is tomorrow and i'm excited! it's my first Pride since coming out as a lesbian and i'm PUMPED.
(a longer-than-i-thought-it-would-be ramble about identity follows!)
i'd been out as bi for something like 25+ years (i just turned 40 three weeks ago). i thought that since i'm not a †3®ƒ and i'm attracted to women and nonbinary ppl no matter their hardware, and since i'm transmasc/genderqueer myself, that it fully excluded me from being able to call myself a lesbian. i've heard and internalized some really cruel takes (mostly on leftbook, ugh) from tankies screaming that no one can be a lesbian unless they strictly identify as a woman in a very binaristic sense, are only attracted to women also in a binaristic sense, and only use she/her pronouns.
what a crock of shit, amirite??
comphet got me real bad, too. i'd been partnered with an uninterrupted stream of men since i was 15 (also dated women/nb ppl during that time, polycules, yadda yadda). i was married to a man for almost a decade, then only a handful of months after we split up, i jumped straight into another almost-decade-long relationship with a man (lovebombing is one helluva drug). i'm still friends with my ex-husband but that latter partner was horrendously abµs¡ve and thank fuckin' Satan i'm no longer with him.
up until i escaped The Arsehole, the longest amount of time that i wasn't in any kind of relationship with a man (whether romantic or just a hookup) was only a couple months at most. the societal pressure to never say "no" to a man is crushing. to always seek validation from men, because if men don't find me attractive then i have failed at life. the pressure when identifying as bi and internalizing the message of "but if you're bi, why don't you want to date men? if you're really bi, you shouldn't exclude any gender(s) from your dating pool."
...and then i spent an entire year without having any sort of relationship with a man. and hooooooo-lee shit, y'all...!! i had an existential crisis that was.. honestly...? set off by Tracy Chapman's performance at the Grammys. i made a whole 3-hour long Spotify playlist of as many songs as i could think of that had made me feel the gayest. (the playlist is fuckin' siiiiiiiiick, if i may say so myself. but i'm sorry to non-paying Spotify folks, since i prefer to craft playlists meant to be listened to in a specific order. still slaps on random, tho.)
i spilled my guts to a few trusted friends (as well as my lovely nb partner), and i in a conversation with one of my closest friends (whomst, in the past, i'd had multiple deep-dive conversations about our identities as bi) i said, "so like... if i'm nonbinary... and i'm only attracted to women and nonbinary ppl who identify more with that 'end' of the timey-timey gendery-wendery gender spectrum...." and she told me, "Linden... Linden. that is literally in the definition of lesbian." and... that was that, then.
ANYHOW, i could go on and on, but..... uhhhhh HERE, HAVE A CUTE DINOSAUR! happy Pride!!
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