#if this one posts correctly im gonna explode

[kakushusband]

I updated my pinned and in doing that I wanted to add these little stamps right

But Tumblr is cockblocking me AGAIN and not letting me have ANY FUN so I'm just using arlong out of spite. You know like I always do when this website refuses to work.

[bookshelfpassageway]

i'm gonna be the one insufferable bastard on this earth that liked everhood 2, huh

[apenapaperandadoofus]

Part 7? If my mom reading tgcf. I forgot to keep doing these so uh- we’ve gone from black water to the Mount Tonglu opening now lmaooo

Loved the state of you scene, she thought it was so cute and sweet.

Felt so bad for SQX the entire time. I managed to get her to ship him with Ming Yi so uhhhh

Fucking d i e d at the coffin scene she was like oh my goodness 😳 the entire time lmaoooo

When PM asked then “why is the coffin so small” and then Juan afterward goes “if you’re worried about who’s dead why don’t you kill yourself” she EXPLODED like she had to take a moment

Also I don’t remember when she said it but quoting her: “Go Xie Lian! Go defend your man!”

She managed to connect The Reverend and Black Water being one, WHOEVER she did not expect the Ming Yi reveal.

She didn’t comment much the entire I’mSorry Ming-Xiong scene, just gasped whenever I read something and was quiet. I think she was quite flabbergasted 😭

Then they started making out and she laughed once again especially with Qi Rong and thought it was hot Juan sent him flying with one hand.

She said about Juan “I’m not mad I’m just disappointed”. But she understood why he couldn’t really do anything.

Later we were discussing it, and she said “it seems everyone here is morally gray doesn’t it? Like the white guy, half smiling half crying, everyone has a good and bad side” and I’m so happy and amazed she managed to gain the meaning of it SO quickly, like you see people demonizing so many characters (like SWD for example) who have read the ENITRE BOOK and still for some reason don’t understand that’s the point? And I’m so proud she got the hang of it and literally the whole smiling and crying mask aaaaaa

She actually doesn’t hate SWD and I’m glad. While she thinks it’s understandable why he did it, she still felt bad for both He Xuan and the Shi brothers.

Is very worried about SQX like “Where is he?! Please don’t tell me he’s dead?!”

At the ghost rut once again mother was going 😳

She’s SO worried about Guzi like “he just wants his dad and Qi Rong just wants to eat him”

When the whole Lang Ying reveal happened she was once again laughing like crazy, and I’m so glad she didn’t guess it was HC. Did get worried about Lang Ying for a moment but calmed down when Juan said he was safe.

Also the translation said he was boiling something and she says “YOURE NOT SUPPOSED TO BOIL THAT TOGETHER” mom 😭 bold of you to assume XL can cook but she’s also a Latina mom so as you can see the bad cooking almost gave her a heart attack

Also she has joined me in loving QYZ, she calls him the curly haired one or the one that threw the bed, and thinks he’s SO cute and we both love him so much he’s adorable

When Heaven’s Eye came in and he mention the lip Qi she was like OH WHATS JUAN THINKING RN.

Also when XL got mad she was like “YES GO TELL THEM. OMG JUAN MUST BE FANBOYING (yes she knows the term bc of me and she used it correctly im so proud) SO MUCH RIGHT NOW”

She was sus of Ling Wen from the beginning and when she ran away she was like “Oh no she made the whole place run didn’t she? It’s going to go up in flames” and she was right.

Loved baby Juan and was like “NO HE JUST WANTS TO PROTECT XIEXIE BUT HES SO SMALL HE JUST WANTS TO BE STRONG”

STILL AFTER ALL THIS TIME doesn’t suspect Jun Wu. She suspects MQ but not him and I’m so happy cuz that’s just going to make the reveal more flabbergasting for her and she’s gonna scream lmaooo

Did not think FX was the father, she thought it was MQ and was like SO THATS WHY HES AFRAID OF WOMEN

At the puppet part she says “oh so they’re into role play huh”

She then read on her own again, they’re in mount tonglu now. We’re gonna stop at that part and then watch the audio drama so she can see the brocade immortal arc from the revised edition and then continue to read onwards! Yesterday at a family party she was talking about it to my uncle who had also seen the anime and gave it a 10/10. So it’s mom approved 👍👍👍

Cough I also just posted a new ao3 work in case y’all wanna check it out here.

Part 6

[unending-vigil]

i'm bored. jonah pokemon team v elias pokemon team (im not super settled on jonah's team except for one pokemon so feel free to discuss with me). i gave them both 3 pokemon cause i cant see either of them being like, full-time battlers, and also i will think too hard and my brain will explode if i go for 6 pokemon. and can you tell i don't give a shit about region. this is turning into a concerningly long post so im gonna put a readmore here

so, jonah's team!

i think jonah probably would've probably favoured relatively flashy yet unassuming pokemon. his corvisquire isn't fully evolved into a corviknight and so is nowhere near as large and threatening as it could be, a meowstic isn't that large and is fairly cute, & while a hisuian zorua is sort of inherently threatening by way of being a ghost with its resentment taking physical form at all times, if jonah never acknowledges this, people can probably forget that... and i doubt it'd be widely known, anyway.

his corvisquire he probably caught as his first pokemon, seeing as rookidee is a very common bird pokemon, for companionship and self-defence. it's the one he's had the longest, and is probably his ace in battle. he was absolutely overjoyed when it evolved and treated it to some berries, but did end up giving it an everstone, apologetically. he needs to not seem threatening, not in this world of supernatural dangers, not until he's ready to. (i really thought jonah deserved some kind of bird pokemon, and there's not actually that many owls, but corvids are smart and do suit a younger jonah with their reputation of cunning.)

his meowstic he acquired to help him with research, as a psychic type. he didn't actually know what gender his espurr was, and was quite intrigued to see what form of meowstic it ended up as. as a fully evolved pokemon and one he's had a long time, it would be his ace, but it's not primarily a battler at all; it hasn't got optimal moves for battling, being a research companion, and it honestly doesn't enjoy battling that much. it'll do it, sure, but... not its favourite. (a psychic pokemon fit jonah's research goals, and honestly its appearance reminds me of jonah in a weird way. besides. autism pokemon.)

his hisuian zorua, however, was acquired far less innocently. it was the cornerstone of someone's collection, being both a rare pokemon in a regional form and a shiny. it... probably wasn't treated the best. jonah decided to liberate it; i think he'd honestly find it much easier to empathise with pokemon than people. how exactly he liberated it is up to you, i like to think it involved some amount of supernatural blackmail. the zorua decided to stay with him, and jonah happily kept it, though didn't let it be seen in public all that often, for worry someone might wish to steal it. it probably likes to help with jonah's research where it can, but definitely also enjoys to battle. too weak to be his ace, however. (i don't know how to explain this one. i just knew he needed one. it fit so perfectly in my mind. the illusion ability, disguising itself as another party member, also fits very well)

okay. elias's team now.

you can see that over time, jonah has developed more of an appreciation for the unassuming, with the exclusion of his zoroark (who is indeed the same as the zorua from his original team, as an immortal pokemon). his noctowl and his liepard are probably the more publicly-facing members of his team, and his liepard is the more unusual of the two, which is impressive because it's barely unusual.

for the noctowl, i think he did maintain a fondness for bird pokemon, and i think through his various bodies he's kept one on most of his teams. perhaps at one earlier point in the institute's history, he had a decidueye, as a publicly-facing ace and a pokemon well-equipped to cope with the supernatural, given its ghost typing. anyway, i digress. an owl fits very well, as the institute's logo contains one, if i recall correctly, and it's a very mundane pokemon. he's fond of it, treats it well, but... he's nowhere near as attached to it as his corvisquire.

his liepard is slightly more interesting; it would be almost more unusual if he had only normal types on his team, after all, and i'd assume that in this field, it's expected for most people to keep a dark, psychic, or ghost type on their team. liepard serves that purpose perfectly. and, while perhaps it could be viewed as suspicious... it would only be suspicious in hindsight, after things have been revealed. also, another feline pokemon. this one wasn't intentional, but i do think elias likes cats. they're familiar to him, and. well. all cats are fuelled by autism in their own unique way.

now! his zoroark, now his ace, if he needs to go all out. i think it probably evolved around the time jonah first bodyhopped. and on that note, while i've not given them nicknames because frankly that seems like it would be insanely difficult, i think his zoroark gets a new name each time jonah bodyhops. as the only surviving member of his original team (with the others likely dying of old age or sickness), he is very fond of it. of course... he doesn't exactly let people know about it. i imagine most hisuian zorua and zoroark returned to the wild with the deaths of their trainers... it would be awfully suspicious for him to have a hisuian zoroark in the modern day. he's definitely more fond of it than he is most people. (i think it probably likes jon a lot, too. harasses him affectionately in s4 while elias is in prison, until he takes it onto his team.)

also, i haven't touched on it much but i think, both as jonah and as elias, he very much enjoys fussing over and slightly spoiling his team. brushing the fur of his pokemon with fur is probably the most relaxing thing he can do other than paperwork. soft enough on them not to stop them sleeping in his bed. (a hisuian zoroark's breath in your face first thing in the morning must be awful. elias lets it keep happening anyway.) et cetera.

maybe i should do one of these posts for jon lol

[robiinurheart33]

Thanks for the tag @sergeantwoods !! I went a little crazy on the questions lols,,,

1. how many works?

Honestly no idea lmao (if ur talking on ao3, I don’t have an account there, but I’ve been thinking about it.) (14 wips atm)

2. Total word count?

Again, no idea LOL! My actual works have been around 1K ish per post? So id say in total maybee 10k?

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Currently, COD. I wanna expand more soon though, so stay tuned in the far, far future

4. top 5 fics by kudos?

I’m gonna list down my fav fics of all time (multi fandom) if im reading this correctly

1. Anything by buzzcut_season really. Their writing is spectacular and made my heart clench on so many occasions. My personal GOD of writing fluff. And the person that got me through the hells of teenage puberty.(for the record, i am still in puberty lmfao) my firsts in the tag tooth-rotting fluff and the magics of slow burn. (Sk8 the Infinity)

2. Neon Void by sugarpastels. The creator is here on Tumblr with the same user so if you wanna check her out go ahead!! FANTASTIC writing, villain Leo au with heart pounding scenes that leave me dizzy. A fic has never made me breathless and needing to pace around my room more than this one (special shoutout to her sister as well who is writing a mutant mayhem fic that unfortunately didn’t get added to the list but is still super well written!!) (ROTTMNT)

3. Anytime You Need Me by thirteenbullets. I really don’t need to elaborate more. Character analysis + fluff + non sexual intimacy + long fics… it’s the perfect series for me. I felt like a stuck gold when i read this. (COD)

4. The Eldest Brother by dEBB987. Classic 2012 x 2018 crossover, but it doesn’t have ooc and is just such. A. Fun. Read. Made me giggle and kick my legs more than one occasion and good family feels all around. (TMNT)

5. Mutant Ninja Midlife Crisis by a_platypus. Old Leo comes back to the past after the events of the movie to readjust to new life. The right amount of drama with the perfect amount of slice of life. This fic actually gives the old turtle a break but also not letting go of the teenage angst and everything that comes with seeing your dead friends young and alive again. Would have been higher on the list but it’s not completed sadly. The author does write for COD as well though, and it’s worth to check it out! (ROTTMNT)

5. do you respond to comments?

Yes!!! I love love love it when people comment and try to interact if possible.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably the panic attack Ghost fic. Haven’t written much angst if im remembering correctly. I’m a major fluff person

7. fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oh god i really haven’t written a proper fic at all helps. I’m frantically swiping through my robs ramblings tag and just realising most of the ghoap stuff i write is about their undying dedication to each other. Jesus. Happiest ending is probably one of my blurbs cause every time i try to write actual fluff i overheat and explode.

8. do you get hate on fics?

Nope

9. do you write smut?

Nah. I don’t think ill ever write smut honestly not because im asexual its just that I don’t think I can write one accurately if that makes sense. Also im a minor I don’t think im allowed to do that

10. craziest crossover?

None yet

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Thankfully not, but if i have i would take it as a sign that I’ve made it as a writer. Unless it’s more popular than the actual post in that case burn it with fire.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

Unfortunately and fortunately no. I would LOVE to collaborate, don’t get me wrong. But i would get so anxious about not disappointing the other person or procrastinating and motivation and all the works and just. Yeah I don’t have the mental capacity for that rn.

14. all time favourite ship?

Ooooooh

ghoap, renga, ineffable husbands, solangelo (Off the top of my head rn)

15. what’s a wip that you want to finish but doubt you will?

THE SECOND PART TO DRUNK SOAP. OH MY GOD I NEED TO GET IT DONE ITS BEEN 2 MONTHS

16. what are your writing strengths?

I would say making everything just too dramatic and emotional

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Dialogue. I can barely talk irl how am i supposed to write witty banter

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

Love it. As a bilingual myself i love seeing diff languages it’s like a bonus secret for that language user

19. first fandom you wrote in?

Rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles. That was when i was in my “i think this is so cringy of me and i hold myself back because of it” because wow. I reread some of it recently and it’s horrible it will stay and rot in my notes app. Although i will say it’s so nice to see how far I’ve come in terms of writing and just posting publicly in general

20. favourite fic you’ve written?

The drunk soap one and the Ghoap one where they’re on stakeout together. I didn’t like the second one initially, but i think slaving over it worked. I love how I managed to balance the quietness and mutual respect and fondness of each other.

If you couldn’t tell, i had a lot of fun answering these questions haha

If you’ve made it this far, congratulations!! You know more about me than the average online follower 👏👏👏

[vampiressmaiden]

Hi guess who is currently working on another layout for the 3rd time today HXĶDIDNPDKTSJD save me 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 anyways please listen to "A Records Odyesses" && Nautikas theme !!

I can't stop listening to regulus's record.... it's so beautiful and everything about it is perfect ♡♡ ok now I was gonna end this post before a random rant but DAMN IT I cant help myself...;(

Okokokok wtv etv uhhhmmm so I've been following reverse 1999 when their ads were the only thing I got on, whatever I watched, was a pre register but unfortunately it never downloaded on my phone bc my phone doesn't have the storage for video games .. and I also wasn't aware It was released by the time it could've downloaded.. couldn't play it on my old laptop even if I knew because It also didn't take any form of games aswell 😭😭 but a month after version 2.1 (forever my favorite side story) I saw a video of argus and she caught my eye right away.. I never have clicked on a youtube video SO FAST. the way I watched it all right away LMAO I went to see if the game was avaliable on pc right after watching it and the second I got home I was already downloading it. The style of reverse 1999 is so unique, it sparked my new favorite Genre of gacha games... visual novels... woah so scary !! The desgins are so gorgeous and ethereal, the representation it has is amazing. I'm glad they do their representations in a respectful and accurate way ♡♡ (it's so refreshing to see a game that doesn't just have american voices) this is also the first game where I don't think all the men are ugly THANK U REVERSE 1999 !!! I'm so happy vertin isn't a self insert it's really nice :D (no hate to self insert mcs, I still love them) the lore is written so well and all have the characters have such amazing backstorys and wonderful personalities it's hard to get bored by anything in the game. I also ABSOLUTELY LOVE the monthly events. They all have such interesting stories with so many plot to explode, everytime I play one I can't keep my eye off the screen and want more when the event is finished LMAO.

I dont know how it went unnoticed but I had spathodea since I started?? Idk if I had a free 6 star thing but I don't remember doing it. But I also can't remember if I lost a 50/50 and got her... (funfact : anjo nala was the first banner I pulled on. Unfortunately haven't gotten her.) and sotheby is such a cutie ♡♡♡ idc if her gameplay still confuses me SHES SO ADORABLE MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERRR I'm sothebys number 1 fan. Matilda is also so fun to play, my silly french, super lesbian queen 😭😭 i just wanna squeeze and eat her, I relate to her so much my darlingggggg. She was my first maxed out character !! The main chapters too. oh my god. I could rant about how much reverse 1999 has altered my brain chemistry and how happy all of the chapters have made me (they also bring me the worst pain known to man,all this game does is trade my happiness for suffering and doomed yuri with the peakest content ever 💔💔) I'm also isolde ... argus ... anjo nala ... nautika .. hissabeth ... willow ... madam z ... ms grace .... they'rr alk just like me fr. (I love my savior complex , mentally ill lesbian , fear of failure queens) (MADAM Z IM CRYING I LOVE HER SM SHES SO ME U DONT UNDERSTAND. I WISH SHE WASNT JUST AN NPC) madam z pls be playable PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.. anjo nalas story was the first character story I completed and will forever be my favorite character story alongside argus ♡♡♡♡ always my favorite chapters are the one with baby vertin ( to be more specific , the ones with the ring guy and if I recall correctly , it is the chapter before 37, 6, 210 & sophia show up !!! ) the music never dissapoints me and I don't think I've ever been this impressed with a visual novel 😭♡♡ there is so much more I want to say about this game and how amazing it is but I fear this post is already 2 long and it is late for me so... im gonna go run away !! Bye boss ! (Shoutout to those who read the whole thing) (this was gonna be a appreciation post but idk if it can be called it as I've just been ranting (ofc abt what I love) Which is a appreciation post, right

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[onemorecupofcoffee]

k so once a complete unknown comes out idk what i'll do. first off i have no idea if ill be hyperfixated on bob but it's been a LONG hyperfixation so yknow. maybe. and it's honestly only probably gonna be a year bc theyve made us wait sooo long and theyre done with filming and theyve recorded most if not all the songs and post production shouldnt take long bc theres not like huge cgi shit so. which means theres a good chance itll be out before winter 2025 . now i have irl friends who are timothee fans who want to see the movie when it comes out. so a lot of timothee fans will def go see the movie, but the general population?. i honestly dont know its def marketed more towardsa general audience but like its not like wonka was the biggest movie of the year or anything or the songs went off the charts. but my prediction is that one dylan song that wasnt as popular before will trend on tiktok or something bc timothee covered it and timothees version will become more popular than the og. idk which song bc im honestly not sure if theyre gonna do just any bob song or only the era presented in the movie. if its the era in the movie i think its gonna be an another side of bob dylan song bc that entire album is pretty underrated, except for my back pages it's not that popular for dylan, and it has a lot of lyrically amazing songs. im thinking maybe i dont believe you she acts like we never have met, n it would make sense to play in the movie. but it could be any song , like if theyre playing all eras bob then probably one of his newer songs. But a lot of timothee fans are like ok someones gonna get an oscar for something and im like . ugh no. but its a possibility bc oscars suck so then it would obviously become even more popular. theyre not gonna depict dylan correctly though and then people are gonna believe a scene in the movie actually happened and its like NO IT DIDNT just like the doors movie holy shit i hate that movie . but it could be decent it could turn out ok despite the horrid casting . do i think theyre gonna play other songs yes!!! not just dylan other baez, other folk songs definitely it actually seems like they paid attention to some things. the fashion was not it but the set decorators did an amzing job actually so it seems like there was SOME work that went into this movie. now i thijk theyre gonna end it at newport folk festival but they should end it at motorcycle accident but whatever . but its gonna be like mainl dylan i think but they said its an ensemble piece meaning its also gonna be focused on joan and fake suze rotolo/sylvie/ whatever the fuck her name is. and pete seeger bc hes been in a lot of the paparazzi pics so?. hes there too. and maybe woody guthrie hopefully woody guthrie obviously woody guthrie and they filmed in new jersey so its kinda like yeah. but hes gonna be sick so theyre not gonna really show him but theyre gonna show dylan meeting him. i dont think theyre gonna really show dylans childhood, yea timmy went to hibbing but everyone knows dylan lied a lot so no one knows anything about his childhood really. i think the main romance plot will literally just be bob being like choosing between joan and sylvie or some boring shit like that and theyre not gonna understand the weird fucking relationship bob had with joan or anything. but its gonna be dumb straight love triangle bc the writers are boring and not like im not there todd haynes where haynes understood dylan was queer as fuck and made multiple references to dylan being queer insome way theyre not gonna do that. and timmy will NOT top cate blanchett ever but he might win the oscar even though cate literally deserved that oscar. So the world will explode if it gets popular and then someone will cancel bob dylan or something . and bob dylan dies after seeing it "the worst experience of my life" and theyre gonna botch and popify the songssooo bad but theyre gonna get so popular its so dumb everything is dumb and then bob dylan will have a dumb modern resurgence but by people who dont know anything about him

and wont care to learn aside from that dumb biopic im sorry im welcoming new fans but i feel like theyre just gonna not actually wanna learn about him aside from timmy biopic . And its like. come on. but his records will get more popular and more valuable i mean gen z listens to a lot of physical media maybe his tour might be more popular too if hes still alive so in general people are like hey this guys pretty good or something but then everyone will kinda forget about him but sokme people will stay. i think . and then its like some weird shit gets out about him again he says something out of pocket about the biopic and then everyones like thats Odd. and the biopic keeps getting memed out of context maybe a bob meme will become very popular .. and timmy clitoris fans will be like this is the best film ever and petition for it to win best film at oscra s or something dymb andits all dumb stupif shit and then someones like Hey bob dylan was a fuckign faggot and everyone realises bob WAS fafuckin g faggot and its finally recognize d anf then people boycott the biopic bc it erases queer history rightfully so and then some people who dgaf about bob dont like the biopic and then timmy clitoris apologizes saying he didnt know and hes not queer though even though hes a fuciing twink and then bob slike yeha i had gay sex with george harrison. so what and everyones like Ohhh i knew it but those stupid people are like wtf? bob dylna is GAY? and then itslike ok open your eyes and then at the oscars timmy clitoris has to apologize again saying he didnt know bob dylan was queer and everyones like oh its ok but inrreality we hate you and cate blanchett knew it the whole TIME! and then the biopic is burned people burndown their copies of it and its INSANE and everyones INWSNE and then traveling wilbyurys biopic comes out and theres a sex scene with george and bob in like 2030 bc of the beatles biopics too ! and timyms like dsaved is my fav bob dylan album and he triesto join the fandom but everyone boos him and he dies before bob dies and alos never meets bob

[discosss]

If ur gonna write that Unique x Wimpin short story, I have a theory 😈

If I remember correctly, Catfeine was helping Unique be more creative with stuff, and I think there's a reason why, and it's not because they just wanna be more creative, but a different reason.

Unique wants to do something for Wimpin in hopes she falls for them.

They don't want to do anything big that would scare Wimpin, but they also feel like one simple "I love you" wouldn't be enough to express how much they love her.

They need to be creative and they know it, which is where Catfeine comes in.

She tries to help them be more creative so they can have an idea on showing how much they love Wimpin.

Thanks for listening to me yap about something I'm probably wrong about :3

THIS IDEA IS SO ADORABLE IM GOING TO EXPLODE??

JUst so you know, the reason they are trying to improve their own creativity is related to Wimpin, just...problably not in the way you think it is 😭😭

Really tho HOW DIDN'T I THINK OF THIS THIS IS SO CUTE??? THIS WILL CERTAINLY INFLUENCE THE WAY I END UP WRITTING IT IN SOME WAY BTW, I JUST GOTTA FINISH THIS USELESS LESBIANS FF AND I'LL GET TO WORK 🙏🙏

...Also talking about lesbians, there might or may not be some apocalypse frowning critters x smiling critters story cooking in my mind, I'll see if I post it 😋

[beatlblog]

#New York and John being ‘great’ are soo…… 😐👍 (via @big-barn-bed)

#i think the last part might be#“and past it”#:( (via @i-am-the-oyster)

#prev I might be French biased but I've always read the second thing as Claude François#a fat Claude François with shiny disco suits#idk if we know when this was filled?#cause then both Elvis and Cloclo died like...6 months from each other (via @crumblingcookies)

#am i allowee to call john lennon a fag (via @sidneylumet)

always

#John was consistent in his dismissal of George and this post always annoys me#was he still mad George wouldn’t let Yoko *sing* at the Concert for Bangladesh?#sometimes I like John but he gets the *genius pass* for nasty behavior too much#and this seems like ridicule but it wasn’t the first time#too bad the positive changes he was striving for ended with his murder#seemed cruel to call Elvis fat#I don’t care if it was true he didn’t have to say it. (via @bewareofsnarkness)

#i would really like to know this too because i think john had kind of a hate boner for Elvis at this point lmao#apparently he really went in on him when they met irl#though paul tried to soften that by saying he's not sure he's remembering correctly#makes me wonder if the original word(s) were harsher (via @good-to-drive)

#love that every except Paul gets one (1) syllable. and Paul gets 5. (via @fleetwoodmess)

#i can read it... it says... asparagus (via @iwannabeyourman)

does it so

#ELVIS FAT?????/#ELVIS JOHN LENNON LOSE WEIGHT BITCH OK ELVIS SNIFFLE JULIA LENNON THIS AINT BUILD A BITCH#??????/ (via @spiderman616)

#EXTRAORDINARY…..I HATE HIM#the George lost 😑 (via @kickittothekerbe)

#why is George lost#where’d he go (via @beatlesmenrock)

#extraordinary#im gonna explode that fag with my mind (via @20thcenturyfoxx)

#:/#don’t talk about ur maknae like that 😔😔😔 (via @bugsssssssssssss)

#elvis taxpayer george lost (via @finehostay)

John Lennon describing a name with one word.

[honkhonkrichard]

Theory: Stanley Uris was Murdered.

Tagging @vvanini I hope you can follow this okay it’s very word vomity lol

Okay So TW because this post will touch on Stan's death ad the methods behind it

I propose that Stan Uris was murdered. by IT. In his home on that fateful night. I think that Stan posed the biggest threat to IT and therefore IT felt the need to take him out before the battle even started.

Allow me to explain.

Okay, so, I need to lay out some basic "rules" or "facts" before I make my case. They are as follows.

- IT planted it's roots in Derry, and finds it difficult to leave, but still can at it’s own wil.  If you read the book (I honestly don't blame you if you haven't) You'd know that once the Losers kill IT for the final time, Derry (the Physical town) is obliterated. Buildings explode, sinkholes appear, things are flooded. The town is in ruins by the time that the Losers leave the sewers. The movies don't adapt this so If this is news to you thats fine. the bottom line is that destroying IT destroys Derry, like ripping a tree out of the ground with all it's roots. Because of this, we can make the claim that while it can Leave Derry (as it does every 27 years) it probably takes tremandous amount of power to do so, which is why IT only goes when the cycle is over. Why does this matter? Well, what if IT left Derry to get to Stan? The murders had stopped for about a week when they're all in the Jade of the Orient. Plenty of time for IT to cross from Maine to Georgia. Side Note: We KNOW IT leaevs Maine to elsewhere in the world because of King's extended universe all interconnecting. it's not far off at all to make the claim that IT is the same evil that haunts, say The Shining's Overlook Hotel, which is in Colarado.

- IT is omnipresent This is also a given, IT lives everywhere, and can fuck with time and space in godlike (or maybe eldritch like) ways. in IT: Chapter Two, when Mike claims "IT Doesn't know I know what I know" he's unfortunately wrong, because we know that IT can be in A) Multiple places at once, B) can manipulate anything on the drop of a hat (See: Stan being teleported away from everyone else in Chapter One, Everything about Neibolt, etc) and C) Knows everyone's deep fears. This is further proven by IT Saying things like "Beep Beep Richie" (although this is Horribly Horribly executed in the films, ugh.) and so on and so forth. On top of all of this, We can make the claim that IT can exist outside of Time as well, given that IT is immortal. SO, what's stopping IT from Knowing Mike was going to call them all back (Espically considering that IT TOLD Mike to do this?). Even if we keep IT's omnipresence to the location that IT inhabits (in this case Derry) IT would still have knowledge of where the losers are through Mike. And if you take the Lucky Seven/Chosen Seven route (oh my god I got theories on that too) you could argue IT knows where they are inherently due to their cosmic status.

- Stan is the "most Powerful" loser So, obviously all the Loser's are powerful, espically considering they're the ones who Defeat IT (Again going on to the Lucky/Chosen Seven theory). This next claim is going to be less focused on what the 2019/2017 Movies do because they are Bad Movies and that's a whole other rant. However, in the book, Stan is (to my knowledge feel free to correct me on any of this) the only loser to Actively ward off and 'defeat' IT on his own without running away. He uses his belief in this what is Real (birds) to ward off what is "not real" (IT). The other losers do manage to take down IT in their own Right, but Stan is ultimately the one to Really get IT. This is because Stan's character revolves around Belief and Willpower. These are, in some form or another, the ways to Defeat IT. the ritual of Chud is a battle of Wills. in the book, Bill takes IT down and Eddie does the final blow. In the Remake (ugh) the losers can defeat it Technically using the belief that IT isn't as powerful as it claims because IT's "just a clown" (Ihatethatfuckingendingsomuchugh). Stan being much more skeptical than the rest of the group in his ability to understand Reality vs IT's illusions is a powermove, and IT knows that ability doesn't go away as Stan grows up, but rather he gets more powerful. Stan is the Only loser out of the 6 who left that has any sort of knowledge about IT, where the other losers have nothing. Bev has nightmares, yes, but she still forgets them. We're told in his chapter (Chapter 3, Six Phone Calls (1985), Part One: Stanley Uris Takes a Bath) that he has some hazy knowledge of his place in the Lucky Seven, and even goes so far as to MENTION it sometimes, even if he doesn't quite remember or understand any of it, his knowledge of IT and Derry is worlds more prominent than that of the rest of the losers.

(page 52 of IT:  "Stanley, nothing's wrong with your life!"  "I don't mean from inside." he said. "From inside is fine. I'm talking about outside. Something that should be over and isn't. I wake up frmo these dreams and think, 'My whole pleasent life has been nothing but the eye of some storm I don't understand.' I'm afraid. But then it just... fades. The way dreams do." OR  page 45: He had been smiling a little. Now the smile faltered, and for a moment he seemed puzzled. His eyes had darkened, as if he looked inward, consulting some interior device which ticked and whirred correctly but which, ultimately he understood no more than the average man understands the workings of the watch on his wrist. "The turtle couldn't help us," he said suddenly. he said that quite clearly.)

So, Stan has some cosmic knowledge of IT and Maturin and his role in the battle against It. What does any of this have to do with his death? Well, let me point out some other things about Stan's death that always stuck out to me. - His death chapter is narrated by his wife, Patty, rather than himself. The other chapters - almost all the other chapters - are narrated by their respective Loser (the caviot for this is Ben, but Ben is also wasted out of his damn mind so its understandable.) - Stan's personality is few and far between in the book, but we know he has a weird little sense of humour and that he's incredibly logical. I think that this logical part of him would be able to understand that Suicide is Never Ever the answer, and that it would cause FAR more problems than it would solve. (the 2019 movie tries to reexplain his death and it's crap and i hate the letters i hate the letters so much im gonna explode) The other losers try to rationalize his death by saying "He would rather Die Clean than Live Dirty (Page 506, Chapter 10, The Reunion, part 3, 'Ben Hanscom Gets Skinny') but he had already BEEN Dirty when he defeated IT the first time, and I think he would've recognized that. - upon finding him, Patty (in her narration) notes that Stan's head is bent back over the edge of the bathtub, so from his sight she would have been upside down. If Stan DID kill himself, why would he be positioned like that? It's unnatural, like someone Posed him. - the cuts on his arms are two length wise cuts. I'm no expert but.. that's suspicious. That's weird. - IT is written in blood on the wall. Why? Why would Stan right THAT of all things? You know who DOES like to paint with blood? IT.

Alright, returning to my thesis statement, Stanley Uris was murdered. Do I think Stan genuinely was going to take a bath at 7pm (which we're told is weird for him)? Yes. I think that's absolutely a thing he could have done or planned to do. Do I think he slit his wrists and commited suicide so he wouldn't go back to Derry? No. Not even remotely.

Let me paint a New Picture.

It's May 28th, 2016, or 1985. Stanley Uris gets a call from Mike Hanlon. Stan is incredibly hesitant to go to, and says he needs time to think about it. Or tht he'll try. He can feel the starts of a Panic attack, and as he's remembering the circles of Hell he went through as a child, he tries to hold himself together. He doesn't want his darling wife to see his break, so he says "I think I'll take a bath" and nothing else before going upstairs. he hides in the bathroom. He closes and locks the door, because, well, he's panicking. Locking doors is one of The Small things he does. Is it usually the bathroom door? no, but still (OCD is a bitch, and even with medication, but this is a special case). He looks in the mirror and tries to breathe. This is fine. He can do this. They killed IT once before and they can do it again. He thinks about his younger self, the promises made, and how he could explain all of this Patty in time to catch a flight to Maine. It's terrifying, but if his friends are going to bite the dust, he wants to be there with them, wedding vows be Damned. Then he looks at his reflection again. A younger, rotted version of himself stares back at him. IT crawls through the mirror. Stan freaks out, obviously. This isn't real. This Can't be real. But IT utilizes this notion against him. It digs it's claws into his arms, and forces him to bleed out in the bathtub. IT then sets the scene nicely. Razorblades on the counter, a bloody signature on the wall, a horrible posture of Stan's neck. So on and So forth. and then IT returns to Derry. IT's a little weak, yeah, but Stan is dead. That's what matters. the Lucky Seven has now Officially broken, and the balance shifts in favour of the clown.

So that's the theory. feel free to correct me on anything or engage I have plenty of theories on this story and I like discussing this stuff :).

[andiwriteordie]

okay i'm finally reading i know better (but you're still around) and i also happened to be listening to this cavetown song on repeat

and it just reminded me so much of Mike in your fic ??

so the first part/chorus is Mike telling Dustin and Lucas about what he thought happened to Will and them basically thinking he's delusional and laughing in his face (Mike tends to exaggerate i get it)

and the “god i wish i was happy” is obviously wanting Will back bc without Will things have been... Not Good for Mike. he also mentions a few times that he feels incredibly bad and like the worst person in the world for giving up on Will (even though he didn't) and bc he stopped looking for him which i interpret as the “crushing me from above and underneath” line

from personal experience (and like the website says haha) i interpret this to be about “derealization and how a person can feel like they're not a part of their environment anymore” Mike often mentions how he feels he's watching things play out from outside his body and things like that

also in some cases grief can make meals hard (as we know), especially eating with people which, if i remember correctly, is why Mike mostly took his food up to his room and at times didn't eat at all. eating just feels like it takes up too much energy , energy you don't have so you just sink into your seat, stuff like that

nobody's listening to his theories about Will, also how he feels like he kinda ruined the party bc they're not as close as they used to be so no one to really listen to & understand his thoughts & everything about Will since they have an unspoken rule not to talk about it etc etc

okay the friend he's imagining is Will, like imagining Will is there or that Will can hear him when he speaks to him & stuff

okay these lines remind me of Mike so much. we all know he tends to explode when he's upset and say all kinds of stuff that he doesn't really mean and end up apologizing afterwards .

there were these scenes where he and Lucas were having a yelling match & this other one where he was yelling at Max & another he was yelling at Lucas and Dustin both pre and post saving Will from the Upside Down and he's saying lots of hurtful shit and yeah they get that he's grieving and hurting a Lot but also he kinda really hurt their feelings sooo

he apologizes (sometimes reluctantly, sometimes without actually saying the words “im sorry” but they're apologies nonetheless)

sertraline (y'know thr antidepressant that treats lots of anxiety/depressive related disorders) is a thing that i think Mike would need i mean obviously especially in this fic but the way his grief and pain is described ?

it's literally so fucking heart wrenching and excruciating for me the reader so i cannot even begin to imagine what Mike was feeling . so yeah sertraline's effective but the grief seems More than it and like even more effective which sucks.

um so yeah this is the lyrical analysis of this song you've maybe never heard of that you didn't ask for :D is this anything ? no idea i just wanted to share

oh okay

🥺🥺🥺

FIRST OF ALL. cavetown is very mike wheeler coded. like i can name 3 songs off the top of my head (home, idea of her, it's u) that are mike wheeler so. thanks? for adding ANOTHER ONE? to my list.

also yay!!! i hope you enjoy (well... that might not be the right word) the rest of the fic!!!

literally though this analysis is so good like holy shit, that's it. also like super honored that you resonated enough with the way i portrayed mike in that fic and connected it to this song!!! it's just like... this song is such a raw expression and explanation of grief and mental health issues, and you literally hit the nail on the head with the analysis and where i was trying to go with all of mike's thoughts throughout his journey in this fic!

where were you when i was writing the fic so i could've put this on my playlist (kidding but wow seriously wish i had found this earlier? i LOVE IT)

now this is me trying to find a way to include it in the sequel fic. thinking thoughts.

thanks for this ask, my friend!!!! ❤️🫂

[daonepiece]

Hey you precious little cute artist chwan! Its me from heaven! You know the cause of this. That Sanji art... how could you make it so freaking amazing? Do you know how people will die seeing it? Have you ever wondered how creative you are? Do you even know how blessed we are to have you in this community? I blushed like an idiot looking at him.

Talking about the Sanji art, why was it so perfect? I need you to explain for making him exceptionally Gorgeous. The concept... how did you get the concept of All Green and now you are making it my obsession. How did you come up with it? Damn that was so creative. I became crazy over that Idea. Im in love... in love... with you and also Sanji. Thanks for making that art. From next time don't forget to keep your signature. I don't want people to steal your art.

Eeeeeeee you keep spoiling me afhjkas hehehe what am I gonna do I’m about to explode >///w///<

So, you wanna talk about thought process? I’d LOVE to! Please prepare to hear me gushing about it. It gonna be veeeryyyy looonggg   ( ◕▿◕ )

Since Sanji was the first one to be designed, I was nervous at everything *wobbling novice sea witch at your service 👍* The first step is to choose what kind of fish. I like marine life but I didn’t like them that much to know more than a few common name. Initially I thought of dolphin, since they are very smart, and also a lil perv... And they blow clouds of water when they surface to breath, like someone’s smoking! So I started doing research to select a fitting species.

But while I was reading through various dolphin descriptions, two words caught my attention: FAST SWIMMER. I was like, wait who’s the fastest in the ocean??? So my research had come to a swift turning point, I abandoned the dolphin list to go through articles of “fastest fish in the world” instead. That’s where I found out about the Black Marlin. Things clicked in place even faster than Sanji’s Diable Jambe 😆

The second step is to choose what he would wear, I just knew it had to be a white poet shirt, because Sanji. 👀 Took a few more look at the royal family attire and I was like, “yup! poet shirt and waist band, flowy flowy in the sea, seal the deal!” (you can see that in the initial sketch) This soon went through more changes, but at later stage.

The third step is to choose the vibe, setting, pose he’d be in. 3 words stuck with me whenever I think of Sanji: sadness (you could say he’s feeling blue, you know?, blue! 🤓), curiosity, and dream. So here we had pre-timeskip Sanji, maybe even a bit younger, the viewpoint going up, Sanji looking up too, like how one kept wondering about the strange world above but couldn’t go there, stuck in the depth of the ocean. Adding a book because he’s definitely a nerd! It’s supposed to be a cookbook or the encyclopedia of devil fruits. The fourth step is lining. Troubles ensued! Lots of! The pose was haaarddd and I just couldn’t get the shirt hem to look right, it didn’t flow like I wanted, the tail design seemed bland, also his hair bang wanted to make me an enemy... I struggled, and the clock was ticking fast! So of course I did what an impatient one like me always do: Change the hard part. I got rid of the flowy hem, decided to tuck it neatly in a leather-like band, eased up the pose, switched to post-timeskip design, enlarged the fins for dramatic effect, in the first place there were a line of diamond shape running along his tail (the part that helps a fish sense water pressure and stuffs, if I remember correctly), I turned that into Sanji’s swirls as well. The chosen book in the end was “Noland the Liar” because I wanted to slip in a mer!Noland and see if anyone would notice hehe.. Strings at collar and waist was added last as an attempt to balance the amount of black and white on character. Background was simply a bunch of water flows and bubbles, I tried to portray a fast current, hushing our boy to swim away, back to safe home. The final silhouette and line of action wasn’t as nice as the sketch’s, but I’m not picky. *laziness will overwrite everything*

Finally, we crawled to the step I dreaded the most: coloring and shading... The tone was dark blue, giving of an even more ominous feeling I suppose? The next was this agonizing process of making the first thing to caught your eyes is his face, or better, his eyes, but definitely not his butt. TT_TT The black area was so strong, at one point I considered giving the (now blue) sea a plain black filling to neutralize the effect.

While taking care of the treacherous background, I pondered what Sanji’s All Blue would be, now that mermaid’s diet doesn’t include fish... 😂 Like, as a vegan cook, Sanji would want to get his hand on all kind of vegetable available in both world, sea and land? Then we must have the myth of a place, home to every plant possible? What’s the name?? All Green??? Yeah, All Green sounds legit. When the piece was finally done, I uploaded it so fast I forgot the extra step of slapping on watermark! XD

Annnnd that’s that! That’s the whole process I went through drawing mer!Sanji. Thank you for hearing me out > 3 < 💖

[ichor-and-symbiosis]

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis: What if Twice sees Natsuo and Tomura fucking reader and Twice is like, “Yo! Can I join?”

twice has first pick of which hole he wants then that’s just the rule

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis: Bro hear me out overhaul’s girlfriend gets taken away after they take his arms all all the dudes from the league just take turns turning her into a cum dumpster

gee overhoe’s gf why do you get so many amazing husbands who will give you more orgasms than your ex ever could and then treat you to amazing aftercare???

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis: honestly fuck them your thirstposts are always the highlight of my mornings since i can’t participate in them ( time zones are a bitch) so drinking my coffee and reading your blog? the perfect morning

you are a real one ily

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis: dude if kurogiri got together with reí,,,, does that mean that dabi also,,, does that mean tomura x natsuo x dabi x reader step brother kink,,, does that mean my head and ovaries will explode,,

yes naturally, unless dabi is too busy being balls deep in hawks, you know how it be

darkandlonelywater said to ichor-and-symbiosis: Tomura needs... no, DESERVES a lady love who is either immune to his quirk or had a totally opposite effect and they cancel each other out!

i think he’s so used to his quirk that he’d act the same way around an s/o who is either immune or not immune! he’s got dainty hand movements 

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis: psssst! I don’t watch the anime I don’t read the manga all I know about bnha is from thirst posts made by you and kazooli and those other beautiful thirsty, leud boos. So I previously had know idea burnin existed but now that I do my bi self is dying of thirst that woman is beautiful I would let her step on my face and I don’t even like that she just exudes that energy

your very welcome she is so gorgeous!! 

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis: Is everyone sleeping on dabi x reader x hawks or am i just blind

it’s a very sexy and very powerful dynamic, they’re just not my type (although i’m warming up to dabi the more i write him lmao)

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis:If I could follow you a million times I would people who leave just don’t know what they’re missing PS I’m so horny for those big boys fatgum is 8’2” and I am 5’10” so the potential to finally be smol is soooo nice for me

hhhhh <3 <3 thank u and waow i didnt know he was that huge???? sexy

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis:They unfollow because they're weak and can't handle your hornyness

it’s true i gotta weed out the weak 

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis:I just think some people can’t handle the thirst. Can’t say they didn’t know what they were in for if they had looked at your master list 🤷🏼‍♀️

all they had to do was scroll a little bit through my blog, or hell, look at my header picture aksdjfjh can’t get any more nsfw than that

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis:Ya know whai u lose followers? Cause ur too Amazing that they can’t handle u *shrugs*

im gonna SMOOCH U

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis:Your so lucky your short I’m 5’6 and everyone asks me “how’s the weather up there?” I wanna hear different question😭

thats not even that tall what the fuck??? unless you are surrounded by shorties like me all the time, but even still i never say nonsense like that lmao 

Anonymous said to ichor-and-symbiosis:Susurrus is a word I've literally never heard of before, so thank u for the amazing fic and teaching me a new word lol ♡♡

im pretty sure i didnt even use it correctly in that context but it had that same “sssshhhhhh” sound in my head like showerhead sprays so fuck english i’ma reinvent word usage (and thank youuu <3 )

[midoriyasbones]

look. im going off anon for this, which is something i never do tbh. i ship sk. i ship it like hell. but i like kl too, and when i saw that post, i laughed. it was a good joke, and tbh i was like "wtf why cant u see keiths hand maybe he IS holding lances hand". people go on and on about klantis, but there are sheith shippers who take it way too fucking far sometimes. you don't deserve hate or problems for that. you seem like a genuinely nice person who doesn't deserve crap for what you ship. (1)

¡you deserve as much happiness with your ship as we get with ours. as much as id like things to be canon, i realize that it might not be, and no matter what, no one deserves to be hated on or pestered because of what they ship. klance is a damn beautiful ship, and some sk shippers need to realize that by harrassing people over ships, they have sunk to @ntis levels. so you keep on shipping your great ship and dont listen to what anybody has to say about it. youre doing amazing sweetie. (2)

ALSO another thing that some sk shippers need to realize is that kl shipper =/= anti!! sure, it's definitely a thing (oh boy is it a thing) but just because someone ships kl doesnt mean theyre an anti! sometimes the sk side of the fandom can be pretty damn hypocritical too, and it pisses me off. sk is a good ship. kl is a good ship. one ship is not inherently better than another, even in regards to whether or not itll be "canon". just let people enjoy what they want! sorry for venting a bit. (3)

OH FRESHLY BREWED JUNIBERRY??

(for context, here’s the s8 poster shitpost in question, here’s me popping off, and here’s me popping off part 2 electric boogaloo i was MAD last night akdsjfjksakfj)

i’m gonna start of by saying that i don’t think this is actually an s/k vs k/l situation? because this behavior is NOT a thing reserved to s/k shippers, it’s just that as that ship has exploded in the past year so has the number of people who are s/k shippers doing this so it just feels like it, but i see it across the board. it’s not s/k thing and i don’t want it to be labeled as such. it’s just that because s/k has become so big you can find more examples of it than if you went searching in s/l, a/l, p/l, etc. could some of that behavior be s/k vs k/l? i’m sure you’d be hard pressed not to find at least one person like that out there, but i actually believe this stems from more of a non-k/l shipping fandom issue than anything else.

i feel like i should address what counts as ant¡ behavior, especially as an ex-ant¡ myself. but that’s probably a post i’ll make separately from this one though as i want to be able to word it correctly and make it so that people don’t feel like i’m coming for them or their ship. the fact is that some people genuinely don’t recognize their behavior for what it is because it’s almost been reinforced that they’re doing the right thing by so many for so long they’ve let themselves go unchecked and because of that it’s just spiraled out of control.

but yeah, just because someone ships k/l doesn’t mean they’re an anti! i think that sometimes people just jump the gun, and honestly i’m not going to make excuses for them anymore. the thing is it’s not even that every sha/adin shipper has been personally harassed for their ship, because statistically that’s just not possible. i really don’t think people are writing anons, @ ing in posts, etc to every single sha/adin out there. and before you come for me saying i could never know what it’s like, i have had my inbox flooded by both sides, i have been vagued about by both sides, i have had call out posts, sha/adin twitter memed me (briefly, but tbh im not mad about that IT WAS FUNNY), i was on vld.flops, and at one point i’ve had law enforcement involvement (to be fair, that was for ant¡s coming after me, not sha/adins) like i’ve been through that. that’s personal harassment. and yeah, seeing ant¡s post mean stuff in the tags, seeing them go after your favorite blogs or your friends, and in general just... their overall disrespect towards people in general is pretty bad, but none of that warrants you walking around with a chip on your shoulder or being able to just ‘go off’ at any and all times. even if you have been personally harassed once or even multiple times, you don’t get to do it back. that’s not how you enact change.

anyways, if you don’t like k/l and k/l shippers that much, and seeing them reminds you of bad things, i don’t blame you at all, but that really doesn’t excuse shitty behavior. as we say in the pro ship side of things, blacklist is your religion, and if you need a more heavy duty option (that removes the post entirely from your dash, as in the whole ‘this post is blocked because xyz’ won’t even show up the whole thing is just gone), xkit is free! if seeing it bothers you that much, don’t go scrolling through the tags, don’t go scrolling through blogs, don’t go after people bnf vague, and if you do see something, just scroll past it. in all honesty by commenting you’re just worsening the already oozing, festering, cluster fuck that is this fandom even if that post in question is by a hateful person, and that’s the at best scenario. at worst, you look like a dumbass who takes everything way too seriously by picking on a person who just made a shitpost for fun.

thank you so much for the encouragement, it really means a lot especially knowing that you’re part of the s/k fandom. having that support and knowing that not everyone is just going to think i’m a raving, rabid k/ancer uwu for getting upset over constantly being unfairly jeered at does help a great deal! im just... tired of feeling dread when my ask box lights up, or my stomach getting sick when i scroll through my activity feed. i know im usually a low sodium blog (and we will be returning to low sodium hours shortly) but i think this is something that needs to be talked about. people shouldn’t be able to get away with this behavior.

[kyunsies]

Hello Mädch ahsdjaksdh <3 !!

how is college going? dw, I hope you are settling in super well and feeling optimistic about school and all the amazing things I know you are going to achieve this year! I am excited that you are starting your rotations now! you are going to do awesome, I know it! I'm sorry that you didn't get that ICU first like you wanted but hopefully it's all part of the plan so that you get it at the right time for you <3 let me know how they go, of course. I hope they go super well.

the week has been a bit weird to be honest, in my team I had a semi argument that was properly tense for the first time with someone and it was just so unpleasant. you know those people where they aren't horrible but you know that you'll never completely see eye to eye with them? i think it's just one of those things, where we'll never just completely read each other or get each other? and it's not, like, a massive issue or anything that we can't deal with, but I feel like usually I get on really well with people or not at all (all or nothing person I guess haha) but with this person I've just got to admit that we're always going to be a bit in the middle? like, we talked it over, and I've still found sometimes we misunderstand one another? so things are still good in work and clients, but with workpeople it has been the more difficult battle? hopefully we should get some more cool media stuff with the K-pop people soon, so that's an up?

OMGsh your coworkers are so much older than you! [lease do post a picture of your room, I am 100% confident that you have made it so dreamy and pretty. Thank you sm for telling me more about these operations though! I feel like everywhere is on red alert at the moment when it comes to health and care and making sure that people look after themselves and not put others at risk, you know? the doctors that to talk to me about my potential surgeries too have said the same but it's nice hearing it from a friend, you know? so thank youuuu <3 <3

I was the same as you, I would get so so so anxious and stressed if I wasn't studying or working or anything like that? but my mum is like your mum and grandma, where she gets up early too! but I feel like I need to do the late night thing instead? but then once I got into this crazy spiral where I would wake up really early and go to bed really late and like nap in between so I ended up like having two hours of sleep either side? that was peak wth at the time haha XD so now I try and let myself wake up a bit later really XD ha ha I'm in barely adulting! like I work so much but I don't earn a lot ha ha – I don't think that's very effective adulting? or like, I don't know I guess for a lot of people my age there's a work hard and hope it pays off thing in certain industries? so you're definitely more effectively adulting than me right now! like, you're going to do stuff that's gonna actively help people and you'll see that right in front of you, you know!!? sometimes my work gets out there but I rarely see directly if it gets to make peoples lives better you know? so the path you're on is so so admirable <3 <3 <3

I get you though, do you find that you thrive under the pressure even though it's sometimes a lot? I find that sometimes it does help me, but sometimes I forget to identify the times when it isn't helping me? or, sometimes I take it too far? so please look out for yourself and take care of yourself <3 and when you're worried if you're on the edge know that it's enough for you to take a rest and not be super perfect. i sometimes tell myself to except that I'm probably gonna make two or three stupid mistakes a day? It sounds kind of silly but it means that it makes it easier for me to accept when I mess up, idk, I think it helps me balance the pressure sometimes? i 100% understand what you're saying - at school do they have people that can directly help? or like peer supporters so it's not as stressful or official feeling as a therapist? if you ever want me to come off anon to help lemme know <3 i'm always here for you <3

oh my gosh your grandparents have been able to live long too! all my grandparents lived close to 100 before passing, and one of my grandmothers had the same as your grandfather. he sounds so sweet and so kind though! i love that he knows how to FaceTime you! Some of my aunts and uncles still don't properly haha. it sounds like he knows that he's super loved though, he's very lucky <3 <3 i've been thinking about all this really lovely stuff and how it grounds you when stuff like careers can stress you out and feel like the most important thing when it shouldn't be? what are the personality differences between the different areas of the US? my East Coast friends seem to straight talk a lot more than my West Coast friends? like they're a lot more realistic as opposed to being, I don't know laid-back or if not laid-back sometimes just more comfortable with superficial stuff? Not like my West Coast friends are superficial people, but I think they accept it as part of the world a bit better? my friends on the east coast will rail against that stuff a lot more, like they buy into the influencer bullshit less? but I guess these are all sweeping generalisations anyway... I might have to travel a bit in europe soon... I got asked to go to otaly for some work today, and to holland next month. Idk if it will end up happening though, things change all the time? I have to keep checking quarantine rules all the time with countries! but YAY and YES Europe tour trip one day :D !!!!!!!

you know what? when I first saw you compare bowling and golf I was like, wait, what? but now I totally get it! i know a golfer and they talk about how physical and strenuous it is on the arms and stuff all the time which I don't think always comes across when you watch it and it makes a lot of sense with how you describe how you trained for bowling! i used to cox in rowing and I always used to find it really funny that I said that was the sport I did because honestly I just sat in the boat all the time and steered XD

obligatory YES WTF ARE COTTON SCENTS! quite a few shops in the city where I live have been closing down because of Covid but our Jo Malone is still going strong! I love that lots of already classic clothing shops have now gone out of business but for some reason the people where I live cannot live without their perfume XD I think I'm gonna go in later this week or next week to take a look! with all this travelling I kind of want to buy something new? also, my hands have been acting up with injury so I have to rest my hands more anyway – so might as well look for perfume right? do you have any recommendations or would the blueberry one you've just gotten be at the top of your list?

the exciting thing is that I'm doing a bit less this week! I need to wait and see if that job wants me to fly out to Italy within the next 48 hours, if not next week, but if not I think I'm gonna figure out how to rehabilitate my joints a bit and get my brain okay? It's been existential Covid crisis week haha - I think a lot of me and my friends have been feeling like we've lost so much of our lives and potential during this time and I've really tried to hold in and ignore it for the past 18 months? i'm not one to ever feel lonely or to really really want to be in a relationship like some of my friends, but I've just been feeling it this week? like, I love my independence, but I wouldn't say no to a boyfriend right now you know? I feel silly saying that sometimes because I'm so against feeling like you have to have someone in your life to be okay, but I guess that's just a result of how the world is has been recently?? but I think all my feelings exploded around this stuff now so, I am trying to get back into a better place? so it's not as exciting as some of the stuff I've told you about before, but it's what's up I guess?

how are your mum and grandmother doing? are they doing good? [lease send all my love to them too. I'm glad these help you reflect on your week! they do with me too and I'm always happy to hear from you, no matter how long you might need <3 <3 hope you manage to reward yourself for working so hard these past days and that you remember you're always doing 110% so you deserve the best!

love you lots and lots - 💥

ANGEL HELLO !!!!!!!!! i told myself i would stay on top of this and swear in a timely manner but ;_____; a full week + 2 clinical rotations later here i am on a sunday, it seems this is always the case :( maybe my get back to you day will only be on sundays LOL i will try my best in the future babe, but ofc thank you so much for being patient with me <3

uni is going fine so far hun !!!! i've started clinical rotations as i've said on thursday and friday, and then my first exam is on tuesday so i read some chapters yesterday so i'm not squished for time lol :) and ,,,, what you said "hope it's all part of the plan" is very much my way of thinking lol wha is your sign? i'm a sagittarius and that's like, a philosophy i go by like everything is how it's supposed to be even if it's not what u want like everything will work itself out :') i'm wondering if we are one in the same !!!!! <3

and omg ;_____; conflict within the workplace is NEVER easy bc all everyone wants is to reach the goal you all are reaching and bc there's some bumps in the road it makes everything that much more stressful :( and i know exactly the type of person you are talking about LOL i've had to work with some of my peers in the hospital who really didn't treat me all that nicely , but i still have to partner up with them anyways bc we had to move a patient lol ; like they never do anything terrible to you but you just cannot come to a proper agreement with them? i know the feeling :( but i can tell you are doing ur absolute best ;_____; it's a tough situation ,,,,,,,,, but may i propose something ??? maybe since things are high stress in the workplace, would u be willing to meet them outside the workplace, like a quick coffee meet up and then discuss those issues? maybe talking about it in the work environment is way too stressful for both of u and it is hard to come to an agreement, but maybe in a calmer, more informal setting do u think maybe the both of u could be like "hey, what u were talking about i'm not really head over heels for but this is what i think and do u think we can do something where both of us will be happy?" im thinking maybe will opening up a means for more civilized discussion?? just a thought LOL :') let me know how it goes :( i hope u are all able to figure everything out !!!!!

about the surgeries !!!!! like i said i know it's super stressful to think about bc this is one of the very few times in life where things are absolutely out of our control and that scares us, and we as medical providers aren't supposed to give u a false sense of security, but i promise u everything will be just fine as long as u correctly follow up with care post-op :) we wouldn't want an infection !!!! >;( i remember last year i had a patient and she was going in for a routine colonoscopy and she was scared shitless ,,,,,,, but i was like "listen ma'am i know it can seem scary but i was just in there with the doctors and everything is super relaxed and they know what they're doing in there, you'll be out in no time and i'll be here waiting !!" and that seemed to help her a lot, after the surgery she was on me like flies on shit LOL she was like "THANK U HONEY" (but i think most of it was bc she was still drugged up hhh)

LOL us with our family members waking up early <3 literally this morning i decided to do my laundry at 8am (its only 10 right right now lol) but idk it just make u feel a little bit better doesn't it? but oh my gosh no i don't see u in this way at all ;_____; babe like you're already THERE in the world working and to me like ,,,,,, being an effective functioning person in society is like all i ever want i just want to be COMPETENT and the fact that u manage ppl ???? it's already a lot of responsibility but you do it everyday like you go to work u make food for yourself u pay bills like yes this all kinda sucks but you're there doing it and idk ,,,,,,,, like u being in this position is like yeah their surviving in the world and doing okay !!!! so that’s how i see u hun ;_____;

and i don’t think i necessarily thrive under pressure but i just kinda ,,,,,,, handle it?? like i think i handle my stress quite well !!! i think the reason why making mistakes scares me so much in my field is bc if i make a mistake i can like, kill someone or seriously harm them if i do something wrong SLKDFJ but i have to remember i’m still just a student and a lot of the things that i’ll learn won’t even be in these last few months of nursing school, but rather during my months of orientation on the floor i’ll be working on when i finally land a job ,,,,,, i know i just have to be patient and kind to myself, but it’s hard not having these high expectations for myself bc everyone else pushes themselves super hard (nurses i mean) so i feel like i should be too , ya know? ;_____; it’s a hard balance that i’ve yet to find but hopefully once i graduate i’ll have just a little bit more confidence in myself :’)

and omg your grandparents lived a long life as well !!!!!!!! a lot of my friends’ grandparents are really young still, so it’s hard for others to relate i think LOL but :(((( i’m really lucky to have them around still and like, i feel like my grandparents are the cornerstone of our whole entire family; once they pass i’m not quite sure what will happen ;_____; so i’m just trying to cherish every moment that i have with them even tho sometimes it’s stressful lol ; also BOUT THE DIFFERENCES FROM EAST TO WEST COAST LOL ; i think u described it really well actually :) like among the friends u have the are from different parts of the states, it’s very accurate in my opinion !! and again after all it is just a very broad assumption, in general east coasters have this “workaholic” attitude, they tend to be very realistic which i actually appreciate a lot lol, i’m hoping to live near the east coast when i move out <3 now where i am from it is considered the midwest even tho it’s more east than west if u look at it on the map LMAO and like, it’s really funny bc if u say to someone you’re from the midwest they’ll tell u our reputation is being “too nice” LSKDLFJSKLD and like that’s our thing, a happy medium between coasts with big cities but small towns too and generally just very chill and nice ,,,,,,,, the south of the US is also known for having that “southern hospitality” overall very cheerful ppl with personality and super kind attitude on life :) now the west of the US i’m not saying there aren’t nice ppl out there bc there are LOL but esp near lost angeles or hollywood ofc you’re going to have ppl very stuck up bc ya know they made it to big bad LA and they want to be trendy with all of the fake health shit (celery juice does NOTHING FOR U sorry lol) generally my view of the west is just very fake and i would never want to have my family grow up there LMAO but that generally like, california and washington but like, utah or wyoming or colorado are just absolutely gorgeous and they have small town ppl there bc there are a lot of ranches there ,,,,,,,, does any of this make sense to u ??? KLASFJ 

i’m going to skip a few paragraphs bc this is so long already LMAO but trust me i’ve read everything so far lol ; it seems like you’re doing a lot of traveling !!!!!! <3 i’m so jealous !!!!!!!! italy sounds so beautiful i would love love to go some day :( ALSO U SMELLED THE BLUEBELL PERFUME RIGHT ???? U LIKED IT ?????? doesn’t it smell absolutely divine??? no matter how many scents i smelled after that i knew it was the right one for me ldkfsdlkfj <3 i’m still so in love with it ;____; also about ur lil rant about feeling lonesome :( bub i can really relate to this and i feel the same way like my mom and the rest of my family never pushed me to meet anyone and i’ve always never had a problem making friends, but like, as i’m older and i realize i’ll be alone a lot more of my time once i graduate like i really do want to share my life with someone :( i have a lot of love and i want to be able to show it to someone i care about a lot but i just never really take the initiative to do that bc quite honestly i’m not confident in myself lMAO so ,,,,,,, i know we never feel like we need to be dependent on someone but sharing experiences with someone who feels very strongly for u seems nice, doesn’t it? i wish this for both of us really soon okay?? <3 i tell my friends i would LOVE to be engaged right now lskdjfslfjs :’)

but anyways !!!!!!!! my mom and the rest of my family is doing well <3 and i’m doing okay too !!!!!! i don’t want to bore u with how clinicals are going but if u want me to tell u just let me know LOL and angel i know i say it all the time but always thank u so much for being patient with me okay? u are the absolute best !!!!!! also as promised, here are a few pics of my dorm room LOL it’s a shoebox but it’s my shoebox :) enjoy !!!!!! 

[sakura-nyah]

hi, Nyah! first i just wanna say omg, im so sorry about your AC!!! i hope you can get your new one set up and cool down :(. it's been a particularly hot summer, and i just hope you're staying cool and hydrated and comfortable! i live in the northern hemisphere and even here it's been in the 100s, (fahrenheit)!! >.< again, i hope you're doing okay in this heat. D: i saw that ask you did with anon, and you said you believed in an alternate reality/afterlife where we're our F/Os F/O and AHHH ❤️💕❤️ THAT WOULD BE SO CUTE AND AMAZING!! can you imagine our F/Os selfshipping themselves and our S/Is or ourselves together with them? or like reading x reader fanfic about us or owning merchandise XD. it's so much fun to think about. i only hope AU Kokichi knows i love him just the same. even though idk if i'd ever wanna be in the killing game, Nyah, I feel like if we were ever in Danganronpa together or in some AU, i think we'd be friends like our F/Os are! 💗 if you're okay with answering, what ultimate do you think you'd be? or would you not want to have one at all?

anyway, as always, thank you for this blog, Nyah! though you don't have to push yourself to post everyday (your wellbeing and happiness is way more important!), it always makes me so happy to see you update your blog and catch you on my dash! <3 don't forget to stay cool! -💞anon

Hihi 💞 Anon! I missed yu :D! (Is that an odd thing to say..?) No worries about the AC! I got the other one set up pretty quickly so everything's good! Please make sure to keep yourself cool!! Please! I want everyone to take care of themselves correctly so they can all have a nice, happy, and healthy life!!

And yes!! I love daydreaming about me being NY F/O(s) F/O! It makes me feel even more loved hehe! That's so cute too tho! Omg!! My heart is gonna explode DX! Too cute!! And oh my gosh, AU Kokichi is so in love with you. He definitely carries around a little keychain or something that represents you!!

Also, we'd be best friends if we were in a killing game! I also feel like I'd be the Ultimate Friend! I feel like I'm a great friend to my friends! I always try to be the bestest friend I can be! If yud wanna answer, what Ultimate do yu thinks yud have? :D

Thank you so much too!! It really makes me genuinely happy whenever you or anyone says anything so nice to me!! It always makes me wanna take care of myself even better than I already am! And even tho you tell me such good things, please do the same for yourself too. Make sure you are doing good too, please.