#interaction bellatrix and remus

[purebloods-mudbloods]

Una carcajada escapó de sus labios al ver como el contrario se le enfrentaba —¿Te crees muy valiente no?— expresó bastante divertida para después conjurar unas llamas en su mano para después lanzarlas contra el chico.

Estabilizó la pierna de un niño herido. Esperaba llevarles a un sitio seguro. Al menos hasta tener más información sobre su alrededor. La fría e indescifrable voz, le hizo elevar la mirada. —Sigan, encuentren un sitio seguro —les susurró, volviendo para enfrentar a la figura, no la dejaría avanzar.

[brazilian-girl02]

Flower little Girl (yandere platonic!Marauders era x fem!Reader)

🍀 Imagine, you are a girl who is in your 3rd year at Hogwarts and your house is Hufflepuff. You are very skilled in the area of ​​Herbology and adored by the house elves in the school kitchen, who even taught you some of the recipes;

🍀 In addition to you not being so well known by other people, having a cordial relationship with your housemates;

🍀 One day when you were in the library going to study, you ended up having to share a table with an older Gryffindor student. She introduced herself in a soft voice, her name is Lily Evans, she helped you with some things in your studies and you got closer;

🍀 Within a few days, she became your friend and I introduced you to her group of friends. First it was Marlene Mckinnon and Mary Mcdonald, two other Gryffindors, and lastly it was a Slytherin named Severus Snape;

🍀 The girls are like the older sisters you never had. Lily, the mother hen, Mary, the tough but kind sister, and Marlene, the punk and protective "aunt". Severus is more discreet than the girls, he helps you with potions and treats you calmer, but he is still very protective;

🍀 Little by little you didn't feel very lonely. until one of the days when you were studying with the girls, more you, Mary and Lily than Marlene, you were approached by the Infamous Marauders;

🍀 You were aware of them, the girls and Severus had mentioned them before. James Potter, the boy with glasses, started making cheesy pick-up lines to Lily, who promptly ignored him but with a slight blush on her cheeks. until a boy full of scars on his face, Remus Lupin you think his name is, seems to notice you entering the girls;

🍀 He smiled slightly and introduced the group to you. After that the Marauders began to keep you company frequently, much to Severus' disappointment;

🍀 For James, you were initially a way to get closer to Lily, but he quickly became attached to you, even if you didn't like Quidditch he would explain everything about it to you. For Sirius, you were an encyclopedia of Herbology, he loves it when you tell random facts and both he and James would spoil you a lot, after all money is not a problem for either of them;

🍀 For Remus, you are a person who needs protection, he has become a worried father when it comes to you, he distances himself when it is close to the full moon out of fear and concern that he might harm you. and for Peter, you were a mirror of himself, a quiet person who was surrounded by extroverted people, he accompanies you to the school kitchen and just like Remus always has a snack, Remus having the sweets and Peter the salty ones;

🍀 Unfortunately, your friendship with the Marauders has drawn attention, both because their clashes with Severus have become more frequent. Having you let yourself be led by the Marauders, your house monitor, Alice Fortescue, begins to "take care" of you... she only joins the girls to take care of you;

🍀 You know that Sirius's family discovered his friendship with you, even though he no longer lives with them, and how do you know? His younger brother simply stares at you as if he were going to disintegrate you;

🍀 Regulus Black never had any interaction with you, but he knew you from the few times Severus accidentally let something slip. He started watching you from afar, but after a while he warmed up to you, he researched to try to prove that you were pure blood and maybe talk his family into adopting you;

🍀 Speaking of the other young people in the Black family, Narcissa proclaimed herself as your "teacher" to teach you everything a Black lady needed to know, with a Bellatrix following you around and hexing anyone who came even remotely close to you that she thought didn't deserve to be in your presence. At least the letters from Andromeda and her husband, Teddy, an ex-Hufflepuff who helped you in your first year, managed to calm you down a little, besides the many drawings of little Nymphadora;

🍀 Now you hope to survive this tug of war until your senior year, so it's going to be a long school life.

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First of all, I do not support the author of Harry Potter, and I hope you enjoy this reading. I also only know the basics about the Marauders era, so feel free to correct me if I've mischaracterized anyone.

[velvet4510]

Drarry Horcrux Hunting Fic Rec: Where The Shadow Ends on AO3

Where The Shadow Ends by @thewitchwholivedao3 is a newly-finished Drarry rewrite of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, canon-divergent from Chapter 11 onwards - starting when Remus leaves Grimmauld Place. It is an epic, 65 chapters long. (It is locked on AO3, so only those with an account can read it.)

This is seriously not only the BEST Drarry Horcrux Hunting fic I’ve EVER read, but it has replaced canon in my head. This is Deathly Hallows for me. It doesn’t have NEARLY enough hits or kudos, so I’m spreading the word here because it deserves ALL the love and attention from anyone still sore about Draco’s lack of canonical redemption and the canonical lack of Drarry!!

Draco’s character development, relevance to the plot, and relationships with the Golden Trio are expanded and fleshed out so thoroughly here. Everything JKR ignored, this fic focuses on. You’ll be AMAZED at how beautifully it’s all developed.

Some specific details I must single out for praise:

Draco actually feels like a true Slytherin here, in the BEST ways. His role in the Horcrux hunt brings out his cunning intelligence and remarkable resourcefulness in surprising and satisfying ways. His skills at Potions, Occlumency, and Memory Charms prove invaluable not just to the hunt, but also to the Golden Trio’s safety multiple times. There are so many moments where you think, “wow he’s a GENIUS.” He wasn’t 2nd only to Hermione in school for no reason!!!

Draco gets a really special Patronus.

There is a recurring parallel between Harry’s visions of Voldemort and Draco’s continuous PTSD nightmares about Voldemort. This proves to be a source of intimate empathy and bonding between them that makes the Drarry of it all so profound and believable.

There’s some incredibly sweet scenes where Draco introduces Harry to classical music and to the beach for the first time.

Besides his chemistry with Harry, Draco unexpectedly makes amends and bonds with Ron and Hermione in different ways. Their bad history is not forgotten; they acknowledge it, and it continues to haunt their interactions. Yet they slowly but surely grow together. By the end, Draco feels like a true and unanimously-valued part of the group, and we know he has earned Ron & Hermione’s eventual approval as Harry’s BF.

The four of them share a genuinely heartwarming makeshift Christmas celebration in the tent, at about the halfway point.

Romione still get their special moments, as well as a few beautiful new moments. (Their first kiss is unchanged, don’t worry!)

Dobby, Fred, and Remus are all spared.

#NotAllSlytherins comes into play brilliantly leading up to and during the Battle of Hogwarts, as Blaise, Theo, and Pansy want nothing to do with the Death Eaters and instead help our heroes.

Draco has some truly awesome moments where he finally stands up to his parents, Bellatrix, and even Voldemort himself. (There’s one moment during the final battle that is the absolute 180 antithesis of young Draco’s terrified first reaction to seeing Voldemort in The Philosopher’s Stone.)

Dumbledore and Snape are not idolized or completely forgiven at the last minute. Their flaws are not swept under the rug in the finale, and Harry’s feelings towards them remain complicated, as they should.

Harry becomes master of the Elder Wand through an act of love from Draco, not through combat defeat.

Harry’s NDE is altered in the most beautiful, heartwarming, and tearjerking way. I won’t spoil it; you’ll have to read it for yourself. You’ll find yourself unable to deny that this is exactly what that scene SHOULD have been, and needed to be.

There are some incredible Wolfstar crumbs toward the end, brief but profound.

The fic itself is Harry’s POV, but there are two “spin-offs” that retell two major chapters from Draco’s POV.

A few fair warnings for explicit-Drarry die-hards and canon experts:

Draco and Harry’s slow burn is in fact SO slow that they never technically get together in the fic itself - but they will in the ongoing sequel Where The Light Begins (which updates every Wednesday and Sunday.) Yet one of the upsides to that is it makes the fic feel all the more “real” in terms of fitting established canon - like this COULD have been the official 7th book, if JKR hadn’t hated Draco so much or been so homophobic. The subtextual growth of their feelings is still rich and layered.

Also, several canon plot points are changed, moved around, or omitted entirely due to Draco’s presence. But the alterations are great in their own way, and nothing of substance is lost.

PLEASE check this fic out! You will not regret it!!!

If you’re already familiar with this fic, I hope you’ll back me up here on how phenomenal it is.

[sevinagreatergood]

I'll be honest people. I have nothing against ships. I have been shipping since I was 12. Now I'm 22. Ships were nice and if it wasn't my ship, I'll just scroll you know?

Many things happened once I entered harry potter fandom.

For liking snape. I was called a Nazi, racist and fascist

For hating lily. I was called a mysoginist and incel

I've also come to hate ships. In particular, jegulus, wolfstar and jily.

I know ships can exist. But I hate the people behind these ships. Many of them are snaters. I will explain to you why many of these have Snaters.

Jegulus:

In this ship, there are fans that steal Snape his canon position of slytherin. And claim regulus was the gofer of Severus Snape. THE Regulus Black? And other purebloods allows one of their kind to be treated like a slave? Yeah, no. I know fanon exists, I know but it's just how the fans claim that it could be canon or might as well be canon.

Also, they often steal Snape his role as a spy. That he changed for the greater good. And people saying that he canonically did. Bitch, he changed for a racist af house elf. Not to mention that James, whom he never ever interacted with, swoops in to save the damsel in distress.

Also, I dislike the way they hate lily. Many Snape fans see how lily has flaws. She was a bad friend. Jegulus somehow either hates lily because she's a woman or love her because she's a woman. No other reason whatsoever. That's so messed up. Women have flaws and a personality too you know?

As people mentioned. Jegulus is the ship for cowards. I bet Sirius would think, "why my brother when you have me? The best version of house Black? " While he holds a knife against his brother's throat, questioning James. 😂

Wolfstar:

Let's go to wolfstar. This ship ⚓ like the titanic. I have no idea why, how, when, where, who, why (I know I did why twice, leave it 😭) that ship. It's wrong on so many levels. This ship becomes fanon, more and more with each crappy thing the people make up from this.

You see. I dislike this ship. Because often, wolfstar writers see Remus as the victim of that prank. He's a co-victim at best. And they have a whole ordeal about Sirius apologizing to Remus and so on, but where is Severus in this story? Nowhere. Severus is even painted like the bad guy that doesn't need an apology.

Which is why I hate this ship. Fuck it. Fuck the people too. Recently, I've come across headcanons where Remus wore 2nd hand robes, is a Slytherin and has to deal with Sirius his stalking behavior (you know, the -like a dog that scented a rabbit- thing). Bitch, that's Snape. Just say you love a poor snarky git victim with a rich good looking Classist bully, enemies-to-lovers trope. Which is jeverus and snirius at best.

I hate this ship for all the brain rot the shippers have, the hatred towards Snape, and the nerve to justify Remus and Sirius by walking over Snape. Not to mention the immense mischaracterization. Since when is Sirius a crop top, mini skirt, lipstick, mascara wearing bastard and Remus is a hot daddy cowboy that gets lapdances from Sirius as if Black is a stripper.

The Remus that couldn't even look a child of 15 in the eyes as he himself justified James? That Remus? The Sirius that is basically Bellatrix her twin, gives lapdances? That it's fanon, alright, but please, if you can't paint Snape good in your fanfics, then don't touch him at all. That's why I hate wolf star shippers. I just know, Sirius would actually put more effort into trying to kill his FEM Sirius version by none other than Remus. Yeah, Sirius is so unhinged he would try the shack incident a 2nd time.

Jily:

Now, my favourite. Jily. Hey, I know its canon. Just because it's canon, doesn't mean I can not hate it. You see. Many fans of this ship, JUSTIFY James and Lily. Yeah, you read that correctly. There has to be a few screws loose in the head to justify a Classist aristocratic slightly racist bully. And a woman that willingly gave her hand to that type of monster.

Worst part is, similar to wolfstar. People don't work on Snape at all. Giving him some 2nd hand basic bad guy dialogue. To justify James his bullying and Lily her backstabbing. And similar to jegulus, for potter to swoop in and safe lily. Severus was the victim! He was the victim of James, Lily, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Teachers and Slytherins.

Lily had good friends she made WILLINGLY. James also had a good friendship circle that he made WILLINGLY. Meanwhile Snape is left there to rot. Same fans will say Snape was an incel, Snape would've been a pedophile is Harry looked like her.

Bro, Snape didn't even have sex because he could die at any given day. Keep your perverted thoughts to yourself please, snater. That's the jily fandom. If jegulus and wolfstar loved Snape as a carpet. Boy, Jily makes Snape a red carpet to walk on all of his sorrow and misery.

Worst of all, people here either mischaracterize lily a lot. Telling others she is this saintly, empathic girl, when she was nothing but a backstabbing prick. Or, they like her because she is a woman married to the almighty James Potter. So, involved with Marauders. Perhaps even also helping wolfstar indirectly. James is taken, Remus and Sirius get together and "Peter can go fuck himself because he's ugly anyway." - some snater

That is why I hate wolfstar, jegulus, and jily. Now, I am honest here. I haven't put much thought in other ships outside Snape and the ones I hate. So please don't ask me about dramione, Drarry, Tomarry or whatever ship exists out there. As soon as I see these three ships on TikTok, I dont immediately act. Especially when their comments are empty. But I tend to lash out more often on the shippers of these 3 ships.

It's ships like these that create more snaters by the day. So if they have no Severus content on their page but lots of marauders content (yeah,I check their pages and followers and their pages). I make sure they know who the character is that they idolize. Until now, this theory has yet to be proven wrong because all jily, jegulus and wolfstar shippers I've interacted with are snaters.

Now, I'm not advising anyone to do this. This is simply my hill to die on I guess.

[miss-lily-evans-potter]

The marauders rp!

Hosted by yours truly :)

In this rp, we shall be diving into the marauders & co’s school life in the muggle world. Through relationships, fights, friendships and laughter, we will navigate through their lives!   The school hierarchy in a nutshell as it is a boarding school AU: ‘Pure bloods’= rich kids that can afford to attend via payment, ‘halfbloods’= ones that can also attend via payment but are lower than pure bloods, and ‘muggleborns’= kids who attend on scholarship!

The cast ~~~~

@bellatrix-carina-black - Bella, she is sweet bjt scary! (Used to be scared of her in yr8)

@sunshine-and-rosiers - panda, such a sweetie! 

@hestia-farida-jones - hes, she is underrated! Such a kind girl

@blacksheepoftheblackfamily - sirus, cool dude. Can be annoying (sorry, not sorry) hoe. Do not interact with that bit- watch out y’all, Sirius ‘perv’ black is on the loose! (He’ll pounce on you 💔)

@fartybartyjunior - Barty, I… I have no words. Can be nice sometimes 

@prongspotter-s - Potter,  he’s alright, I guess. Annoying.

@bitterandbruisedsev  - sev, childhood bestie! He’s nicer than y’all think.

@moony-lupin-rjl - Remus, THE ONLY SANE GUY. I love him <3

@w-o-r-m-t-a-i-l - pete, love him. Super sweet!!

@acelovesremuslupin - Evan, he’s…peculiar.

@marlz-mckinnon - Marlene, love her OH MY GOD

@marylicious -Mary, such a sweetie! Everyone needs a Mary.

@cissa-swans - narcissa, she’s kind, funny!

@little-star-regulus - regulus, terrifying but I think he may be sweet!

@xenophilius-the-strange - xeno, he’s really sweet! Shy but if you get him talking, he’s a good laugh!

@gorgeous-golden-gilderoy - lockheart, he’s the epitome of being full of yourself…

and of course me, @/miss-lily-evans-potter !!

[remus-poopin]

There's this underlying theme of motherhood being under-looked in Harry Potter - Voldemort underestimates Lily, Molly is seen as this frumpy housewife, etc... and JKR thinks she's blowing everyone out of the water by then making motherhood the single most important thing i the story!

Yet! Not a single working mother! In the entire series! "The struggles of motherhood" is JKR's favourite card to invalidate trans women's experiences, and yet she seems to have an (unsurprisingly) narrow mind when it comes to what motherhood can look like.

Here's an example that comes to mind: in the context of the second war, with Remus being a man persecuted by both the Ministry and Death Eaters for his condition and position in the Order, there was no reason for him to marry Tonks. I'm not talking about "building a family" or "being together", I'm talking about signing wedding papers.

Personally, I think JKR places a weird amount of value on traditional marriage, and upholds the ideal of a nuclear family above all things. She could not have Tonks giving birth a baby without being married to a man first.

YEP!

For the Tonks/Lupin issue you can’t even blame this fully on the fact it’s being written in a children’s book because JKR’s description of their relationship later on pottermore falls into the same traditional (and honestly puritanical) traps. And like you mentioned, this doesn’t even make sense for their story/relationship. (there’s an implication that they were only just friends until that confrontation in HBP and were never actually together or even hooking up. Most remadora shippers, like myself, tend to not like this version of events because it makes their whole marriage/relationship look a bit ridiculous. Tonks’ behavior in HBP comes off a lot different if they never had any romantic interactions at that point. It also seems odd that they would get married in less than a month of being together if they were strictly platonic up until that point)

And yes her view of motherhood is incredibly limiting and a bit revealing. In general it’s used as a tool which to measure her female characters by: The non maternal/improperly maternal women are clearly marked as villains (Rita Skeeter, Umbridge, Petunia, Bellatrix, Marge), the maternal ones are seen as demonstrating proper femininity and are therefore good (Lily, Molly, Tonks), women who were looked down upon previously get a redemption arc focusing around this (Narcissa) (Fleur can also fit into this category as she takes on a Molly like role in DH) and the women who don’t have kids but are still supposed to be seen positively look after kids to some capacity (McGonagall)

Her use of motherhood in the terf rhetoric she spreads is stemming from a similar idea. Gender essentialists tend to highlight female suffering as their primary justification for their exclusionary behavior, whether this suffering be biological or societal. Suffering and pain is used to define femininity itself. Suffering, female suffering, is noble, divine, inherent, and honorable. Motherhood, like you mentioned, is one of the biological sufferings they reference for their argument. The pain of giving birth and the sacrifice of your body and the rest of your life is noble, divine, inherent, and honorable.

In the books motherhood is suffering and motherhood is sacrifice. A woman who accepts this role of pain achieves righteousness. A woman who rejects it is selfish and wicked.

[marauderspolls]

REMUS LUPIN /// BELLATRIX BLACK

Welcome to the very final poll of this bracket! Thank you for staying with this silly game and interacting with every single one, it means a lot haha!!

Vote for YOUR favourite character at this very moment in time!

{{ remus art by @.evixart bellatrix art by @cutegirlsart }}

[jf-potter]

hi

i'm james/jamie/prongs!

i'm a fair man. i'm a dangerous man but a fair man. shout out to lils <3 emmie <3 and marls <3 !! hurt them and i hurt you. ( @lillies-and-heavens @im-your-wild-girl and @emmeline-of-sight )

don't get involved with the assassins and the blacks. whatever it is, it's not worth it. ( @roses-killing @cute-but-deadly-rose) regulus, well, he's another story entirely ( @drowned-at-last)

don't not get involved with sirus? get involved at your own risk i fear ( @caught-a-fallen-star)

when i say don't get involved with the assassins, really, DON'T get involved with bellatrix bloody black and barty fucking crouch jr. unless you have a death wish ( @warrior-in-the-stars and @i-could-poison-poison)

xeno's chill ig, but i wouldn't get on his bad side ( @xeno-ware)

don't know much about dorcas but marlene sure does ;) ( @nightmaregazelle)

don't know much about peter either but he seems cool and his flowers are so good. ( @peters-plant-shop)

remus is a civvie that somehow keeps getting involved in shit ( @notquitemoony )

skeeter is, well. she's alright. wouldn't get on her bad side if you like your reputation ( @skeeter-writes)

ooc under the cut:

this is a james potter rp blog (obviously) my main: @insert-pretentious-bs-here

this is mafia and an assassin rp so its DARK dont interact if its not your thing!

run by: @marauders-assassin-rp

[gorgeous-golden-gilderoy]

Gilderoy Lockhart, at your service!

My pronouns are he/him, my teeth are perfect, I adore small rodents, and my acquaintances are many:

@moony-lupin-rjl Remus Lupin. I must admit that I've been trying to keep my distance.

@sunshine-and-rosiers Pandora Rosier, a fellow Ravenclaw, which I must give her credit for, albeit rather whimsical.

@prongspotter-s James Potter. Somewhat obnoxious fellow, á mon avis.

@hestia-farida-jones Hestia Jones. Don't know much about her and don't care to.

@w-o-r-m-t-a-i-l Peter Pettigrew. Skiddish bloke, although he can make entertaining company on occasion.

@cissa-swans Narcissa Black, member of the noble house of Black, so I suppose I ought to hold her in some degree of respect.

@marlz-mckinnon Marlene McKinnon. Excellent sportswoman, perhaps almost better than myself.

@little-star-regulus Regulus Black. Sirius Black's younger brother, I believe... I tend not to notice him. I don't think he wants to be seen- his brother steals all the spotlight anyway.

@miss-lily-evans-potter Lily Evans. She's nice enough, I suppose.

@fartybartyjunior Barty Crouch Junior. Rude kid.

@marylicious Mary Macdonald. Haven't interacted with her all that much, but she seems alright.

@bitterandbruisedsev Severus Snape. A slytherin if ever I saw one!

@bellatrix-carina-black Bellatrix Black. Same goes for Narcissa- we aren't accqainted, however I respect her.

@blacksheepoftheblackfamily Sirius Black, the rebel of the Black family. Quite the show-stealer.

@xenophilius-the-strange Xenophilius Lovegood, a fellow ravenclaw. He largely keeps to himself, which I appreciate, although he does strike as a little odd. Also back off from Pete

@dorcas-loves-the-sea Dorcas Meadowes, we haven't met, as far as I'm aware.

@the-better-evans Petunia Evans. One of the few people (apart from my dear Peter) to compliment my dashing good looks.

[lulublack90]

Prompt 5 - Operation

Wolfstar, February 5, word count 849

Previous part First part

One year previously

Sirius had decided that he didn’t want to just leave the family again. This time, he was going to take it down completely. But to do that, he needed time and to play the perfect little heir. So, he shut himself away from anyone he had even an ounce of attraction for. He couldn’t risk blowing everything because he needed a shag. Barty helped. He continued to hurl insults at Sirius to keep him from temptation. On the plus side, his good behaviour apparently had rewards. His parents had deemed it suitable for him to be in charge of the day-to-day running of the Black Star hotel chain, but only the ones in and around London. They didn’t want him straying too far. It came with the use of the secret penthouses above the ones they sold to customers. He utilised them as best he could, barely spending more than a night a week in his actual home. 

On an exploration of one of the City hotels, he discovered that there was a secret passage that led from the top floor all the way into the basement and up into the alley behind the hotel. He found he could slip out undetected. It was freeing to know he could have this one little bit of freedom where he wasn’t under the watchful eye of his mother's little minions. 

He’d found it strange that while the washers and dryer were always on, there didn’t seem to be anyone in the laundry room whenever he passed through it, but according to the staff list, there was someone in there every day. Different ones on the weekend. But the main one, a Remus Lupin, was supposed to be in there all week, but Sirius had never laid eyes on him. He’d shrugged in the end, the work was getting done, and if this guy wanted to slack off, who was he to judge?

It was the secret passage through which he and Barty met up in person to plot his family’s downfall. 

“No, Barty, we can’t leave anything for them to pick up. They could transfer everything to Bella or Cissa’s husband.” Sirius shook his head as he explained why Barty’s pan wouldn’t work. 

“Oooo, tall blonde and haughty, yes, please,” Barty purred. Sirius threw a throw pillow at him.  

“And here I thought you had an ounce of taste,” He gagged, thinking about Lucius Malfoy and his oily self-importance. “I have no idea why Cissa picked him when she could have picked anyone she wanted. Princess of the family and everything.” Sirius had always got along with Narcissa. They shared a love of over-the-top dramatics and a sense of humour. He’d watched as Lucius had quickly staunched that and had her acting like all the other stuck-up young ladies that he was forced to interact with. At least she still wasn’t so bad a Bellatrix. 

“Yeah, yeah, alright, calm down,” Barty laughed. “Let’s get back to Operation Black Hole,”

“Barty, we are not calling it that,” Sirius complained for the tenth time. 

“But it works so well,” Barty whined, but stopped when Sirius raised a brow at him warningly. Barty’s joy left him, and he slumped down in his chair. 

“You look so much like Reg when you do that,” He said quietly. Sirius put down his pen and hugged Barty. 

“Sorry,” he said softly into his ear, Barty’s soft hair tickling his face. Barty had moments like this. Sirius knew he tried to keep everything hidden under a bratty, jokey veneer, but Sirius knew a mask when he saw one and could see the pain hidden inside Barty.  

“What about you,” Barty said, breaking the sad silence in the room.

“Hmm?” Sirius hummed, unsure what Barty meant. 

“If we take everything down, what about you? What will you do for money?” He asked. Sirius shrugged. 

“No idea, but it’ll be fun figuring it out. I still own my flat, so I’ll have that to fall back on, and my personal savings can’t be touched, so I can survive on that for a while,” Barty nodded gently. 

“Good, I wouldn’t want you to have nothing at the end, not after everything you’re having to do to keep them happy,” Sirius hugged him harder. Barty was becoming so important to him. Not romantically, more like a more annoying brother than Regulus had ever been and one that he would quite happily throw in the Thames if it would shut him up for five seconds. “Come on then,” Barty chirped, his mask back in place. “Let’s iron out Operation Black Hole and get this show on the road.”

“For the last time, Barty, we are not calling it Operation Black Hole,” Sirius growled before jumping on Barty and knocking him to the floor as they wrestled. He wondered what the people below would think. Probably that the hotel had giant rats in its attic. Oh well, he thought as he pinned Barty’s arms behind his back and started laughing as Barty tried to squirm free. “I win this one, Crouch.” 

Next part

[evesaintyves]

Remus Lupin/Nymphadora Tonks, rated M, eleven 200-word drabbles. Warning for mentions of abortion.

 She must have fallen asleep. She thinks it’s a fly crawling up her neck, for a minute, and nearly swats it before she realises it’s his mouth. Her heart gives a squeeze that is aching at the same time that it is sweet—how little it takes from him, these days, to wring a few drops of nervous hope from that tired old thing. But she turns to him, anyway, and they don’t speak but he kisses her a little, and fuck, there goes her gormless heart again.

Read it on Ao3.

I wanted to say a few things about what went into this fic below - and I will be talking about abusive relationships and abortion from a secular, pro-abortion-on-demand perspective, so if that's likely to trouble you I recommend giving it, and the fic, a miss.

This story is set around chapter 7 of Deathly Hallows, "The Will of Albus Dumbledore," when Lupin and Tonks leave Harry's birthday party to avoid being seen by Rufus Scrimgeour. This period of canon gives us several glimpses into how Lupin & Tonks's relationship is going and it strikes me as a really scary and unsafe time for Tonks. Lupin's unhappiness is so evident even Harry notices it, while she's described as "radiant," - meaning pregnant, but also that they're clearly not on the same page. Around this time we see Tonks facing some of the disturbing realities of being married to Lupin: Bellatrix's pursuit of her in the battle of seven Potters, having to flee from her boss so he doesn't see them together. Tonks's mentor is dead (and we see when that happens that Lupin's not all that interested in supporting her as she's reeling from it), Tonks's family is pretty unhappy with her (according to Lupin), things are unraveling.

(I'd like to point you to two takes I really love on how off-kilter their interactions are right before this, around the time Mad-Eye dies: Fallen Warrior by @bikelock28 and Mandible by @saintsenara - both of these authors have had a huge influence on my writing and my thinking about hp canon.)

I've always been kind of obsessed with this particular moment between Lupin and Tonks - when we see Lupin seize Tonks by the wrist and haul her out of the burrow. It's an alarming interaction, to me, that suggests the possibility of a very frightening dynamic setting up between them. Tonks is an adult, she's aware of the consequences of being seen together. I'm not even convinced she had to leave in the first place instead of changing her appearance or just making herself scarce upstairs for a while. There's no argument that leads Lupin to grabbing her out of desperation - he just says bye to Harry and hauls her away. Not by the hand, like he's trying to keep her from tripping or something. By the wrist, so she can't let go, which seems even more likely to unbalance her. It's a dismissal of her autonomy at the very least, he's treating her a bit like a child, and it's probably quite embarrassing for Tonks. The way she makes excuses for it the next day, in the context of everything else we're seeing about this relationship, only makes it all seem unhealthier. If I witnessed this interaction between a friend and her new husband, I'd be checking on her.

And in the midst of this rapidly-disintegrating relationship with this escalatingly-discontent and reactive husband - Tonks is finding out that she's pregnant, something that will complicate things even further and tie her to a man who does not really seem to want to be with her.

This fic came to be as I was thinking about the way Lupin talks about Tonks in "The Bribe," when he reveals that she's pregnant and they've split up, in a way that respresents this development as something abhorrent and humiliating but also downplays his culpability for it: ...then Lupin said, with an air of forcing himself to admit something unpleasant, "Tonks is going to have a baby." And how devastating that attitude might be for a Tonks who is happily pregnant.

But we don't really know how happy she is to be pregnant. We never hear about it from her. We see her as radiant in an early appearance, sure, and the baby ends up getting born, but that's all we really have to go on. And I have to wonder what options Tonks might have had if she didn't want to be pregnant or wasn't sure. She'd have had access to a legal abortion through the muggle health system up to 24 weeks, but there's evidence in canon that wizards are fearful of and disgusted by muggle medical practices (e.g. Arthur's stitches in OoTP). And wizarding society seems pretty regressive in some respects: people get married and have children young, there's no mention of divorce or blended families or out-of-wedlock babies - and yes, that's also because these are childrens' books (and books that privilege a certain kind of familial love above all else) but this is the text and the universe we have to work with. Notably, the immortal human soul demonstrably exists in this world and I think it's pretty safe to assume that most people believe in it - it seems to be pretty common knowledge that a dementor can remove the soul from the body and that ability is encoded into the wizarding penal system. What does that mean for abortion access in that world? Do wizards believe that an embryo or a fetus is an ensouled person and that it would be murder, or something like that, to terminate it? Even if a magical abortion is legal, what are cultural attitudes toward it like under this belief system? How difficult or inconvenient is it? I'll leave the particulars of how the wizarding legal and medical systems function to someone smarter than me, but... I work in health care, and I've seen the ways that even vague or minor barriers to access - stigma, embarrassment, misinformation, wait times or travel requirements, the levels of executive function and emotional regulation required to keep multiple appointments and talk to a bunch of providers about a sensitive issue - mean that some people who need care won't get it. We don't really know if Tonks unreservedly chose to keep her pregnancy, or if she just didn't have meaningful access to another option, or if access was just hard or unpleasant enough that she didn't make a decision until it was too late.

There's a tendency in some Remadora fic— including one of mine, in a way I didn't think much about until later—to frame the hypothetical of Teddy being aborted as a regrettable tragedy, thankfully averted by the power of true love, and not as a reasonable response to the difficult circumstances and something everyone might have moved on from and been fine - and I think that's understandable. Teddy's important to trajectory of Tonks and Lupin's lives. It's okay to love these characters and want everyone to be as happy and whole as their situations allow. And I think that we have some (at least mildly gendered) expectations that of course our faithful Tonks wants to stay married, wants a child with the person she loves. But I wanted to depict this slice of their relationship with sympathy for a Tonks who is seriously considering ending her pregnancy - who has at least as much reason as Lupin to just want shut of the whole thing. I would have, in her position. I have seen friends locked into horrible situations with abusive partners by pregnancy.  I think you could argue that not having Teddy and getting out of that relationship might have meant a different outcome for Tonks in the battle of Hogwarts. And I think that it's entirely possible for Tonks to have wanted an abortion that she didn't end up getting - for whatever legal, cultural, or psychological reasons - and for Teddy to still have been a welcome and loved child when he was born.

Anyway, let me know what you think.

[image: from francis bacon, three studies of figures on beds, 1972]

[ithinkmyfatherwantsmedead]

Welcome bitches.

Italian Hoe.

Gay as shit, but also down to hit with girls.

I like he/him pronouns the most, but anything works.

Sixteen, so I'm illegal, which matches all the illegal shit I do.

Proud Slytherin!

My life goal is to disappoint my dad.

Probably autistic. And some insanity mental disorder thing. Don't know. Don't care.

People I know:

(Hi new people! So @evans-roses and @im-not-drowning-you-are recruited me because @bat-b0y-barty apparently can't access their sideblog, and is done with the rping. So hello everyone! Lovely to meet you. I'm getting these @'s from Regulus' intro post. Please correct my intro shit about you if it does not match the existing rp lore. This part of the intro will remain up for a week!)

Evan Rosier @evans-roses: Ti amo così tanto, Evan. He's amazing.. and crazy.. and that's what makes him amazing <3

Regulus Black @im-not-drowning-you-are: Bestie! He's a little shit, but he's great. Would kill for him.

Pandora Rosier @pandora-roses: Sweetheart! A little crazy. I can't wait to be siblings-in-law!

Narcissa Black @narc1ssa-bl4ck: Regulus' cousin. She cool.

Bellatrix Black @bella-donna-black: Honestly a queen. I heard she already has the mark- that's amazing!

James Potter @prongs-plural: A Gryffindor freak. As much as I want to, Regulus won't let me murder him.

Sirius Black @siriusly-loves-the-moon: He's an ass to Reg, and is an ass in general; luckily his job aspiration as an Auror, has a high mortality rate!

Remus Lupin @everyhouseishaunted: Interesting; a little quiet compared to his chaotic counterparts. Still a Gryffindork though; fuck that shit.

Peter Pettigrew @dumb-german-boy: The final Gryffindork of overly loud chaos. Meh. Could be worse.

Marlene Mckinnon @marlene-mckickin: A bit of an odd ball, but we cool. We smoked a joint together one time and it was lit.

Rita Skeeter @beetlethebards-second-coming: Gossip Queen; always has a notebook. Gives you the fucked up scoop if you pay her; smart business woman.

Xenophilius Lovegood @go-lonedove-xo: He's a weirdo; love that. Experiments with Pandora on spells sometimes.

Frank Longbottom @frank-n-bottom: Some Gryffindor, so he's probably a dick; don't speak to him.

Alice Fortescue @alice-the-fortescue: No fucking clue; probably the same as the other Gryffindorks.

Emmeline Vance @paintsandpencils: Who?

Euphemia Potter @euphemia-effie-potter: Again, who?

OOC: Rules and Notes about Roleplaying!

My main blog is @whatonearthisgoingon

Do not ask me personal questions on this blog; go to my main blog for that.

In terms of interactions, asks about anything Marauders related are appreciated, ontop of my listed roleplayer friends interacting! Honestly, you can do whatever you like.

If you are a roleplayer, who isn't in a community with me, still feel free to interact! Just state who you are rping as, is all. I will talk with anyone <3

I don't mind smut, angst, gore, etc. TW topics, just put a warning in your ask about it, because some people may find that uncomfortable.

A guilty pleasure of mine to read/write about, is super fucked up and dark pureblood shit within the Crouch family. I'm talking physical abuse, mental abuse, magical abuse (it's canon Imperius was used afterall). So if you want to RP and talk about that kind of stuff, I'm down, just again, TWs for people reading. Crying over the angst will be delicious.

Have a good day!

[maladaptivewriting]

marauders era characters and their favorite movies

if they lived in the muggle world circa 2024

remus: little miss sunshine brutal and disturbingly human, but intertwined with themes of love, family, support, and healing

james: talladega nights the theme of this movie is that friendship is magic. you know james was saying "if you're not first, you're last" for years after seeing this movie. also he tried to create a shake-and-bake thing with sirius

sirius: howl's moving castle "that howl is so fucking hot" "he literally just looks like you" "exactly" sirius sees himself as this main love interest (howl) and he sees remus as sophie, especially when she's an old woman that howl has to take care of. all he wants to do is take care of remus

peter: bridge to terabithia peter seems like the kind of person to find stories of tragical childhood friendships really compelling. he also loves josh hutcherson (who doesn't)

regulus: the secret life of walter mitty he relates to the main character - a man who is controlled and meticulous but longs to go on an adventure. he also wishes that sirius would pull him out of his monotonous life and into the unknowable but with complete acceptance of who he is.

lily: little women in the way that i feel like i've been shot every time i watch a movie involving complicated mother/daughter relationships, lily would be deeply compelled by stories about sisterhood. especially jo and amy who always feel second to each other

mary: princess mononoke she would relate to the main character and be very enthralled by ashitaka. definitely a comfort watch for her.

marlene: raising arizona or zoolander she loves absurdist comedies with lovable and endearing characters. she is also low-key attracted to nick cage when he was young, but don't tell anyone, it's a secret.

dorcas: arrival or parasite dorcas has unequivocally good movie tastes. she likes high concept stories with heavy thematic writing and devastating plots. she talks about them in detail for weeks afterward

pandora: midsommar and pan's labyrinth she loves movies with comically intense violence. she finds high control groups fascinating. she definitely loves pan's labyrinth because of the freaky monsters and the fact that it sounds like it could belong to her

xenophilius: the twilight saga he knows every detail and loves to examine the story from all sides. he and pandora bond over the fact that carlisle is a joseph smith archetype.

evan: deadpool evan sees deadpool as barty and loves the character because of it. he is also envious of the characters freedom to be himself

barty: the mummy he just thinks that everyone in this movie is really fucking hot

snape: pride and prejudice (2005) finds it super romantic and loves the way characters talk and deliver lines. he listens to the soundtrack as background music while he works.

frank longbottom: spiderman (no way home) no one was more excited than he was when the three spiderman characters interacted. he cried a lot when watching this movie

alice: narnia it was her sexual awakening ;)

narcissa: glass onion she loves a who-done-it story, she reads mystery novels all the time and she thought this one was the most exciting

bellatrix: barbarian or bones and all she watches bones and all like "when is it my turn to be happy?" and she watches barbarian like "what is it like to have a mother who loves you?" everyone thinks she's crazy

lucius: dune or the king he sees himself as the king. that scene where robert pattinson's character is slipping around in the mud and timmy's character is standing there unbothered - that's how lucius pictures himself and arthur weasley. he also thinks of his own family when he watches dune

also this came from a question that @wolfpadx asked in the discord and i just had to elaborate on my thoughts.

[lonely-parrot]

Masterpost/ Presentation

I haven't really presented myself, so here we are!

You can call me Sky, my pronouns are she/her, and I'm 18. I'm a history student, in France, and my main fandom is the Marauders (obsessed, if we're honest), but I absolutely don't support JK, because trans lives matter, as well as the ones of all the queer people <3

EDIT:

Coming back here due to the latest jk abomination.

I absolutely DO NOT condone any of that. Unfortunately, that fandom is also my biggest safe place these days, and i'm not ready to let it go.

I just want to be clear that i do not support jk financially speaking, i don't buy official merch, i don't buy books, do not watch the movies and do not plan on watching the reboot.

I want this space to be as safe as it can be, and i'm here for anyone who might need to 🥺

END OF EDIT

My ao3 username is the same as here but with a _ instead of a - !

And now, for a quick presentation of my fics:

My WIPs:

You're The Closest To Heaven That I'll Ever Be 3 chapters/?

So, this one is a Jegulus and Wolfstar ff, modern AU, without magic, and Sirius stayed with the Blacks for Regulus, and the fic is on how it impacted their lives, and how they get out. Reg is trans in this one, and misgendered for a while, bc he doesn't even know he is trans. Once he knows, pronouns are adapted.

I Do Amazingly Bad/ I Make Magnificient Trash 2 chapters/?

Barty is transmasc and starts going out with Lily :)

Finished works:

Don't Let The Sunlight Blast Your Shadow One shot/ 15k

It's a Sirius centric fic, with eventual Wolfstar. It takes place during the Marauders fifth year, and i didn't include the Prank, because I didn't want to.

Just Remember Lovers Never Lose 3 chapters/3

Sirius and Remus adopts a little werewolf girl. A little bit of angst, but mostly fluffy.

And I Thought Of Ma' And I Wanted To Get Back There 5 chapters/5

It's the continuation of Just Remember Lovers Never Lose, in which Sirius gets in therapy, and it's his trials before he find someone adapted to him.

When You Rock'n'roll With Me/ No One Else I'd Rather Be One shot

Sirius with a collar and a leash (wolfstar)

That's it, that's the plot

I, Carrion 8 chapters/8

It's a Regulus centric fic, where he is trans. There's no pairing in this one, but once i finish this one, it will be in a serie, and the rest should have a Jegulus pairing.

It's rather angsty, and we see the Black brothers rekindle, bc despite everything, Sirius wants to protect Reg

Stars That Burn The Brightest/ Fall So Fast And Pass You By One Shot/ 12k

Black sisters character study!

It's a canon compliant story, so it's angsty, but there's also exploration of who they are, them falling in love, falling away from each other, autistic and aro Narcissa, Sybill and Bellatrix relationship, Andromeda and Ted! a lot of fun :)

Le désir fou d'une minute enlacés 11 chapters/11

Sirius Black is an artist, Remus Lupin stumbles into him, they fall in love.

Pairings: Wolfstar + past Jegulus + present Jily

I Ain't Got The Power Anymore One shot/ 2k words

Sirius gets his hair cut as a punishment - muggle au, with a happy ending

So He Laid Me Down And I Felt Happy One shot/ 3k

Regulus is having a bad day, luckily, James and Sirius are here for him

Jegulus, and good Black brothers

Uncontinued because of a lack of time:

The Light Catches The Mirror In My Brain, It Gives Me Shade 3 chapters/?

70's without magic AU. The Marauders arrive in a boarding school all at the same time in their fifth year. Features BPD Sirius, ADHD James, good Peter, stammer Remus. Oh, and French Sirius, Desi James, Welsh Remus.

I really want to continue this fic, if anyone is interested in brainrotting this fic with me, dm me, I'm all for it!

And that's it (that's already a lot, I know)! Hope you can find one that you'll like! Don't hesitate to reblog if you think more people should see it (that's how the algorithm works, and i desperately need more people to interact with my ff to find the motivation to finish them 😭)

[andromedashoax]

Andromeda Black

hi I’m Andromeda Black

friend/family call me Andy or Dromeda

slytherin

french

head girl

17 years old

i’m single

lover of poetry, art, literature & music

fashion icon

mes amours:

Slytherins

Bellatrix, my crazy old sister: @the-queen-bellatrix

Regulus, my little cousin : @little-king-offical

Pandora, my prettiest cousin ever: @pandoras-nox

Severus, potions master: @severusprince-snape

Barty, chaotic, boozes, & flirting: @lifeofthe-barty

Evan, chaotic cousin: @whokilledevanrosier

Dorcas, she is that girl: @cas-not-the-band

Rodolphus Lestrange, emo boy: @rodolphus-le-strange

Rabastan, shiny: @feeblemortal

Persephone Lylia, queen of color- @daughter-of-spring

Anastasia Selwyn, a goddess in disguise: @anastasia-selwyn

Vidalia Carrington, gorgeous: @vidiadelafairy

Aelius Fawly, style king: @aelius-with-a-quill

Edmund Avery, chaotic thing 1: @averykissableguy

Bruce Mulciber, chaotic thing 2: @fire-allayer

Valentina Zabini, a show woman: @vszabini

Narcissa: @flowers-of-narcissus

Lucius: @malfoy-lu

Hufflepuff

Olivier, sev’s boyfriend??: @oxxen--free

Sybill Trelawney, fortune cookie: @sybill-patrica-trelawney

Imogen Morningstar, she seems cool:@imogenmorningstar

Adam Morningstar, he quite but really sweet: @adam-lukas-morningstar

Elias Smith, dove: @magandang-kaluluwa

Ravenclaw

Alex, il est vraiment chaud: @kingalexanderthegreat

Xenophilius, spiritual and whimsical actually pretty cool: @xeno-graphical

Theodore, he has it all: @tjsinclairofficial

Emmeline, besties: @emmelineandhervans

Lockhart, another fashion icon (please tell me your secrets): @mystical-magical-me

Rita Skeeter, please stay out of my business: @poison-penmanship

Gryffindors

Sirius, my go to person: @thebr1ghteststar

Remus, favorite future cousin in law: @looneymoonyy

Lily, iconic no need to tell you more: @lilyevensoffical

Alice, very sweet girl: @alicethekindon

Peter, is beth harmon: @wormy-loves-ch33se

Mary, sweet as sugar: @mary-mcdeal

Marlene, hottest hottie around: @marls-mckinn0ns

James, he very funny and Sirius best mate: @james-the-amazing-potter

Hestia, the hot cat mom: @hjonesworld

Phoenix, my gossiping buddy: @flyasaphoenix

Fabian Prewett, smooth: @fabian-with-an-f

Molly Prewett, so sweet @mollberryshortcake

School Papers

Newspaper: @hogwartsstudentconfidential

The Quibbler: @student-quibbles

to join dm @lixzey or @jennapancake!!!! this is my interpretation of the Andromeda so if you don’t like it don’t interact

[what-a-weird-rose]

November 3, 1981

Happy birthday, Sirius Black!

[cw: a bit of swearing, implied wolfstar, oct. 31, 1981 angst]

The moon hung fat in the sky, glowering over the world in infinite glory. Sirius could see how it curled around the angry clouds high above Azkaban. The sky was always angry looking, and he had decided one day, not long after getting here. A breeze passes through the cell, carrying the drunken smell of rot and death. He squints at the sky, some tiny part of him hoping that the moon might come down, places a soft kiss on his skin, and brings him home and back to James. 

Sirius licks his lips and tastes how the skin has cracked without water. The act does nothing; his mouth is even drier if one could believe it, but the feeling of the act grounds him. The feeling, as strange as it seems in this hellscape, of dragging his tongue along the cracks of his lips brings him back to his center.

The moon does not come down to deliver him to James. Instead, it continues to be full and happy in the dark, cloudy sky. Sirius wishes he could be full; even without the happiness, fullness would be enough.

He can hear Bellatrix down the long, seemingly ceaseless halls, the way she screeches, sings, and cackles at his dementor-induced screams.

Sirius breathes, forcing her out of his mind as though her legilimency could reach into his mind, tear through the hundreds of cells between them, and tangle through his memories like Mother had so often done in his youth. Her choking screeches become distant– as though her cell has begun freefalling through to the bottom of Azkaban– the idea brings a small, reserved smile to his face. 

He smells the dementors as they turn to lord over him, and he instinctively screeches—the memories of his family flooding into his mind’s eye are more than enough to drown out any and all joy that remained from the moment.

The floating creatures are gone faster than they had arrived, gliding away gracefully toward their next victim. Sirius doesn’t feel bad for the soul they try for next; he tells himself that they deserve it—he whispers it aloud in the cold confines of his cell. Azkaban is for criminals, he thinks, when the moon is covered by thick, slightly less-gray-than-usual clouds.

“Azkaban is for the worst of the worst,” he says quietly as the moon slowly reemerges, beautiful and blinding to his overly sensitive eyes.

He crouches and feels the way Padfoot’s fur overtakes Sirius’ skin. He revels in how Padfoot moves– the instinctive agility topped with reflects Sirius’ human body could never achieve. Padfoot was synonymous with freedom– as silly as it felt to be free in prison, the idea of never becoming Padfoot again was horrifying; the thought brought with it an intense sickness that caused severe remembrance of eyeing James’ corpse for the first time on the thirty-first of October, 11:17 P.M. 

Padfoot twitches. An insatiable itch erupts along his back and haunches that, no matter how aggressively he rolls and shakes, he cannot satisfy. The moonlight slowly consumes his cell, casting grand, white light over the crackling, ugly black stone. 

Despite the persistent itch, he retreats and rescinds himself to the shadow of the back wall below the barred window. 

He can hear it distantly– the distinct, guttural sound of Moony’s howl– the anger, resentment, sorrow, and anticipation that meld into one another to become the eye-splitting, blood-curdling howl that haunts him. Padfoot’s blood freezes, as it always has at the sound of a creature so far removed from the natural world that the idea of investigating -of interacting with it- made him shake. He reverts to Sirius and tries to suppress the memories of Remus’ screaming, which preceded the howling. 

He finds his fingers coiled tightly by his hair when he wakes later. The moon is out of sight, likely sitting high and mighty above the horrendously massive prison like some demented warden of tortured souls.

Somewhere far away, Sirius can hear one of the Lestranges yelling at his brother and the other Lestrange yelling back. He distantly thinks he can relate to it, but the reason behind the connection is lost. 

James is with him today; he thinks it was sometime after the yelling had ceased. He stands tall and proud in the corner furthest from the window–and from Sirius. The residual moonlight highlights James in a way reminiscent of something holy. 

“What are you doing, Sirius?” James asks, not accusatory but more distant. As though he has a checklist of questions to ask, and he simply wants to complete it as quickly as possible. 

“Sitting.” Sirius mumbles, looking at anything in the tiny cell but James. 

Something about this James makes him feel sickly– the way his eyes pierce with a ring of emerald laced around his irises like one of Mother’s doilies. 

“Why are you being so difficult?” James asks, but his voice has shifted from soft and uninterested to sharp and overbearing. “Why do you refuse to be helped?” James asks in Mother’s sharp, keen voice.

“’m s’rry,” Sirius says, quieter than before, and he vaguely remembers being small and young once.

“You should be,” Lily sneers, though her eyes don’t quite reach him. Her voice is James’, deep and rumbly, as though she had just woken up and had rolled out of bed to scold him. “Why are you here, Sirius?” She asks him, though James’s voice is gone and replaced with Lily’s. 

I don’t remember; he tries, but his voice fails him. Lily looks down at him and squints, looking vaguely toward his tattoos.

I did something awful. He tries again, but this time, his throat closes tightly, leaving him with a hoarse gurgling sound.

“Don’t lie to me,” James says. His arms are crossed tightly over his chest, and his eyes look over Sirius suspiciously before roaming up toward the window.

“I’m sorry,” Sirius says again, though James looks unimpressed.

“Do you know why Remus isn’t here, Sirius?” Sirius’ head begins to feel heavy, thick, and floaty with nausea. “I’ll tell you, hmm? It’s because he couldn’t stand it. No, he couldn’t,” James says, though his voice is thick as though his mouth is full of peanut butter. “He couldn’t stand to be lied to by you. You fucked with him before, you remember that?” James laughs loudly, and for a moment, Sirius worries the dementors will come for him next. “Remus could get you out of here, he could– but why would he when all you’ve ever done is fuck with him?”

Sirius nods. The words don’t quite sink in, but the feeling behind them sits on his skin and bites.

“I’m sorry, Prongs.”

“Don’t call me that.” James says quickly. “It’s your fault I’m here, you know– your fault you’re here, too.” 

Sirius rolls over, watching his hair fall limply in front of his eyes like a curtain calling for the close of a show. 

“I didn’t do it.” Sirius whimpers and doesn’t know whether he wants James to hear him.

“No, you’re right, Sirius.” James whispers from somewhere close to his head. “But you could have stopped it. You could have plead your case. You could have stayed with Harry. You could have seen through Peter. You could have known Remus would never betray us. So maybe,” James says quietly, oh-so-close to his ear, “you did kill us, Sirius. You killed me and my wife, and for that, I hope you rot.”