#it really is never that deep
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one of the most liberating things about getting older is realising nothing really matters, and i don't mean that in a 'everything is pointless and futile' way, i mean that in a 'it's really not that deep, you'll be fine' kind of way. things feeling overwhelming and impossible is purely because you haven't developed the tools to deal with them yet, and in a couple of years you'll have those tools and look back and go 'oh what the hell, that was nowhere near as complicated as i thought it was'. and far from that feeling frustrating, it's liberating. it's a joy to know you're always learning and getting better and getting stronger and the path to where you are now has been paved with many mistakes but you survived them because honestly? none of those mistakes really mattered in the long run anyway, you got through them, and so you'll get through whatever comes your way next too
#i'm really feeling the 'i am almost 30' thing these days but in the best possible way#it really is never that deep#it feels like it at the time!!! but then you look back and it's like eh#i get frustrated with how i dealt with a certain mess 2 years ago but like#i had no other way of dealing with it bc i literally did not have the tools#the fact i HAVE the tools now is directly correlated to me going through that situation and coming out the other side#so instead of being frustrated#i'm like hell that's rlly cool i have grown and learned#idk man getting older kicks ass tbfh#the moment you stop being scared of it the more incredible you realise ageing actually is#sarah rambles
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better this way, you say
#i like my old man yaoi messy and terrible for both parties#i personally love the idea of spamton having genuine feelings for tenna after a while#but he's too focused on his end goal that he either simply refuses to acknowledge them#or buries them so so so so so deep down they're in hell#but whenever those feelings do pop up#whether he wants to realize they're gay asf or what#he just pushes them aside again#and never allows anything to go deeper or to mean anything deeper#(a relationship? with your business partner? REALLY tenna? you crack me up!!)#only ever indulges it halfheartedly#thinking of the relationship only as it is and the romantic stuff as bullshit to pass the time with#a “what the hell sure” mentality to cover up the horrors i suppose#to the dismay of tenna (and himself but dont tell him that)#the prophecy just makes it worse#because what else is he supposed to do when his repressed gay thoughts are directed at the man whos bound to die#can you really blame him for not wanting to acknowledge them?#i sure can#also look closer at the text in the last panel for a surprise#deltarune#spamtenna#deltarune tenna#tenna#tenna deltarune#ant tenna#mr ant tenna#spamton#spamton g spamton#fanart#my art
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'Not now, not in front of--'
#fenhawke#dragon age#dragon age 2#fenris#garrett hawke#las!art#how was your holidays break las?#pretty great#chased the broodiest of elves#managed to get some kisses in the end#drawing them older#because i adored the blue wraith design before really knowing fenris in general#man i've been in DA fandom for a decade now but never really got around to REALLY play let alone finish DA2#so happy i finally managed#i'm SO DEEP#also floppy ears are my fave thing#last drawing of the last year hahah
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O displaced soul, where does your path now lead?
#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr fanart#dan heng#hsr dan heng#dan heng hsr#stuff and things#userpharawee#the caption is a line from the (ingame) poem The Last Veranda by Lipos (an amphorean poet)#and hhhh don't mind me I'm just once again neck deep in blorbo feels#thinking about how dan heng and tb have been stranded in amphoreus for months now#and how dan heng has never really spent that long in any one place#(apart from the luofu but obviously most of that time was spent in the shackling prison so. not very home-y#and the Express ofc which is cool and definitely a place to call home especially with the fam there#but... it's also a space train that's always on the move. and he literally sleeps on the floor in the archives lol)#so amphoreus must start to feel at least a liiiittle bit like Home to him#to a point where he even started to connect to the waters there#I'm sure that's also part of the reason why he's so invested in protecting the people of okhema and helping the flame chase journey#AUGH I love him sm
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rafayel who starts off all innocent, arms wrapped around you, his body warm against yours. but you can feel it. his cock. pressed up against your ass, hard and throbbing, twitching every time you shift even a little.
“you’re hard.” your voice is a quiet whisper, teasing but acknowledging the obvious.
rafayel lets out a breathy chuckle, pressing a soft kiss against the back of your neck. “yeah? who’s fault do you think that is, cutie?” his hands are resting on your waist, thumbs rubbing lazily under the hem of your shirt. “just… let me feel you. just for a second, yeah?”
before you can even respond he’s already pushing your panties to the side, not even bothering to pull them down. the blunt tip of his cock nudges at your entrance, and he groans low when he feels how warm and wet you are.
“just the tip,” he murmurs in a promising tone, pushing in just enough to stretch you open.
and at first, that’s really all it is. just the tip. just barely inside. not even fully sinking in. but very slowly he shifts a little closer, grinding against you, sliding in just another inch. then another…..and another. slow teasing and thrusts just barely moving but still pressing deeper, pushing in inch by inch.
it’s only when you finally realize how full you feel that your breath catches. “rafayel… you said just the tip.”
he hums as if pretending like he’s considering your words but the way his hips roll against you says otherwise. “mm, i did, didn’t i?” his voice is smooth, almost smug. “guess i got a little carried away.”
#just the tip and rafayel really don’t fit in the same sentence#this is not a just the tip kinda man#it’s all or nothing with him#ID TAKE IT THO AMEN#TAKE IT LIKE A CHAMP HY#18+ mdni#mdni#mdni blog#smut#writers on tumblr#love and deepspace#love and deep space rafayel#love and deepspace smut#rafayel love and deepspace#lnds smut#lnds x reader#lnds mc#lnds#lnds rafayel#rafayel x mc#rafayel x you#lads rafayel#rafayel smut#rafayel x reader#rafayel x y/n#i would get so freaky with him plz never let him around me istg i’ll bounce on it crazy style
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theres no going back for me im afraid
#it followed bumble hehe#bumble's gonna forget to feed it they have to take it away to prowl#i feel like in the show bee never really showed appreciation for animals unlike prowl so i like 2 think prowl starts-#getting bumble into that softer side by showing how. fragile these helpless these things are#will ofc compare them to sari for better results lol#i really. want to expand canon in so many parts of the show...#bumble's kind for sure but nowhere close to gentle unlike prowl and that last scene of the ep of-#teaching bee stillness was really cute. but sad bee never recalled back to it later eps. so having a temporary pet would be nice for that#i can;t be thinking so deep about them already man what the hell#bumblebee#transformers animated#tfa
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He [Henry] knows that this is the most meaningful relationship that he's ever had. And he's probably been the happiest he's ever been in his entire life. And Alex knows that too because he knows him in and out now. - Taylor Zakhar Perez | TV Insider
#rwrb#rwrbedit#red white and royal blue#firstprince#alex x henry#userninz#chrissiewatts#userveronika#usersteen#userclara#lookstevie#userlang#mine*#had to pause and take a long deep breath when i heard taylor say this#he gets it so bad.#please i never want him to stop talking about this little film :(#'happiest hes ever been in his entire life' :(((((((#yeah!!!!!! and alex did that!!!!! they did that!!#this is an important part of their relationship. alex caught up to really knowing henry. ALL of him. the good the bad and the ugly#and he loves all of him for it. on purpose!!
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#hacks#hacksedit#deborah vance#deborahvanceedit#mine#edit#*#callback*#i love callbacks#evidence*#p r o o f#tag meta#something so... sad? about this to me#like i'm sure it really was in part chosen for the business/legal aspect#but at the same time - deborah isn't marcus. marcus was so crucial to her business /for a reason/#deborah makes emotional and fear-driven choices and the fact that she chose singapore#which she had JUST been told was a demographic of people who appreciated her#when she's scared and afraid and needs her fix of laughter. she finds a venue where the data suggests she'll succeed#and it's the perfect amount of backslide for her i think - she's still not walking back her choice of ava over the show#but she also isn't ~brave enough to just forge ahead with a new path. she needs familiarity and security#she needs her old comedy and her old audience and her old carefree attitude#she can get the first two back and the fact that ava irrevocably changed the third is a big part of why she's spiraling so hard#how do you reconcile deep love of the person who made you someone that can never be satisfied with your old comforts again?
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One thing I like is that the only people who really truly see Shinichi in Conan, the only people he drops his guard around enough to act like himself, are like: 1. Hattori, best friend, one of the first people to discover his secret, the human equivalent of a puppy dog. And 2. the Detective Boys, the literal young children he spends time with mostly against his own will.
And it's so funny because he TRIES to keep his guard up, he TRIES to act like a regular, boring child, but Shinichi/Conan has one fatal flaw that prevents him from pulling it off: he's too much of a perfectionist, he's too much of a completionist. Once a mystery has his attention he has to solve it, he has to get to the bottom of it, he has to solve riddles, he'll spend the entire day and night thinking about it because he NEEDS to know.
Hattori knows that because Hattori Gets It, he's right there with him, and he understands that the obsessiveness is what makes Shinichi a good detective.
But the Detective Boys do Not get it, they just know that sometimes their weird buddy gets strangely intense and normally it's because murder is involved but sometimes it's about a stupid map to treasure that he finds stupid until he finds out he doesn't get it and begins to obsess over it until he does get it. And sometimes their weird buddy starts laughing maniacally and they're all a bit concerned, but hey, maybe that's just how weird friend expresses himself? Sometimes weird buddy seems to pretend to be stupid, like he just spent fifteen minutes explaining something only to turn around and act like he's three. And this bothers them because, like, what? What's the purpose? And how is anyone convinced???
I love the Detective Boys plots, they are all Conan thinking that it's stupid only to then get way too into it. And just imagine how Inspecter Megure feels! This child yesterday explained the hows and whys of a gruesome murder, only to then be like "how does a clock work?" Like, bro must be SO confused. He and the Detective Boys are over there like, "I know Conan isn't stupid. You know Conan isn't stupid. Conan knows Conan isn't stupid. And yet, somehow, Conan just said the stupidest thing I've ever heard in my life. And now he's back to not being stupid, what was the poINT-"
All this to say, I like that Conan's friends know about Conan's interests and obsessions and accept those interests and obsessions as part of him, and even try to give him things to interest him and get him to spend time with them. Which is just something we never really see with Shinichi because Shinichi's only real friend seemed in the beginning to be Ran, and Ran in the first episode seemed caught off guard by the fact that Shinichi spent nearly an entire trip to an amusement park talking about Sherlock Holmes.
#the inane ramblings of a madman#detective conan#conan edogawa#shinichi kudo#detective boys#ran mouri#ran has a lot of times where someone'll say something about shinichi#and she'll basically be like 'that doesn't sound right'#'but i don't know enough about shinichi to argue against it'#i am NOT dissing on ran#i AM dissing on shinichi for being the type of friend#who apparently just almost never talks about his own interests#and/or he gets sidetracked by murders so often that ran just never had the opportunity to know how bad it really was#my favourite thing about shinichi is that if he one day decided to commit crime#he would win#nobody could ever outthink or outsmart this teenager#except his parents and we all know yukiko would be nothing but supportive#hattori and the detective boys would join shinichi in crime no questions asked#ran would be confused but he'd just go 'please 🥺' and she'd join in too#shinichi already has connections to the crime world#he also knows way too much about the fbi#what i'm saying is that shinichi would win#the universe is lucky that his morals are so deep#long post
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pediatricians are hard to find.

you aren't broken and other important things a triangle needs to hear



#gravity falls#book of bill#non euclidean geometry au#bill cipher#pyramid steve#billford#parent au#rip doc mc buggins#you won't be missed#ableism#pyramid steve is too young to really understand what's going on here which is Good#ford would be here for the checkup but bill simply has more inter-dimensional contacts on his side#also far far FAR more medical trauma to work with#not that ford doesn't#but i think his problems were always rooted in more SOCIAL problems#while bill got the fun cocktail of childhood bullying AND medical abuse AND parents couldn't/wouldn't help him#he should not be a parent#he IS trying#he is trying so hard#he will not share these worries of course#why worry ford? bill's a GOD clearly he's got this#...bill is deep down terrified he ALREADY screwed up pyramid steve#he probably had more to do with him existing as the power half of the couple-#anything wrong IS probably his fault-#he doesn't know what he's doing! did?! how does his own body even work let alone-#whatif-what if he put him together wrong. what if whatifwhatif#thoughts he will never EVER say outloud#pyramid steve is a perfect little angle#anyone who says otherwise is dead wrong#my art
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SEVERANCE 2x10 | "They give us half a life and think we won't fight for it."
#severance#severance spoilers#severanceedit#myedits#as someone who is still pretty new to gif making i would like to whinge about the red light#it looks fabulous in the show - it is a nightmare to try and edit#that last one nearly fucking broke me i do not know how to noise-reduce any further than i have without making it look shit#because the red reflects off her face and then is actually ON her face and then asdalsdnlasknlaksasdkjk#i've seen gifs that have done it way better than this - someone teach me how to do that plz?#also i've never tried black and white and i'm not sure how i feel about it i 👏 have 👏 no 👏 idea 👏 what 👏 i 👏 am 👏 doing 👏👏#i don't think black and white really works with the flickering fireplace light tbh#but this is where we're at i guess and i'm not changing it now i need to go to bed#but also hi hello i need to yell about this show with somebody#i have no severance fans in my life and it is a PROBLEM because i need to make a lot of noise about it#i'm having a GA next week and i'm pretty concerned that i'm in so deep thinking about this fucking show that i'm going to wake up#and just instantly start talking fucking gibberish about innies and outies and ortbos and goats#apparently i woke up from a GA once and just started reciting a cookie recipe and refused to shut up#anyhow#someone come be my severance buddy because i need to discuss but fyi: i am firmly team#innie-mark/helly (but also outie-mark/helena because it's spicyyyy) and i love gemma but i'm ... okay? ... with how the season ended?#don't @ me - i contain multitudes#and for better or worse i will unapologetically chose helly in every universe#and in closing can i just say what a win this season has been for the hand-porn enthusiasts we are winning my friends#also cobel's hair looks like a bad wig for some reason okay goodnight everybody enjoy the internet
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how about a slice of pie?
#lokius#lokiedit#mcuedit#marveledit#lokitvedit#lokitv#lokitvsource#marvelgifs#mcugifs#mcu gifs#marvel gifs#loki laufeyson#mobius m mobius#loki tv#loki series#loki disney+#loki season 2#the way loki scrunches his face in agreement#also the multiple deep breaths that mobius has to take to calm himself i---#can't believe we're gonna get more of this scene soon i'm so excited i could cryyyyyy#okay but loki doesn't actually like (or really eat) the pie but he does it for mobius#and yes mobius is a stress eater and uses food for comfort (always has always will)#but now he gets to eat with loki's company#gosh i love just how well loki knows mobius#'are you okay? i've never seen you like this before.'#knowing that pie will help#wish i could be normal about them#(no i don't)#mine: gifs
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almost summer time tum
#is me!!#ate bread today and it made me extra squishy#(im more bloated than usual ok. i do not need stinky anons telling me YOIRE NOT EVEN SQUISHY!!)#i am squishier than i once was and and and. Well. i just had surgery a couple weeks ago and im being very unkind to myself#but would it really be an eff post without a shit tonne of self deprecation??? no#BUT ALSO HAHAHAHAJ MY HYPERMOBILE ASS FINGERS WHYYYYYY#listen ik they look goofy as shit but if you have a problem w how my bendy fingers look#we can discuss it while i am knuckle deep inside u :)#fave fuck boy summer pose. wish i had abs to really sell the whole Fuck Boy image i so clearly have going on#(been masc dom sadist top for months and idk if it’ll ever go back the other way LOL)#idk idkdkidodk if this flops i might never post again so.#where are all my pretty femmes who need a bf with a cunt?? im right HERE#my proportions are just weird i have a v small waist and v wide hips and v wide shoulders and a PHAT ass and big fucking tits.l#HELP#ill post more when i like myself again ok. this is forced and horrible
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montresor is such a fascinating villain to me I need to study him in a lab. he is deep seated fear, coated in self loathing and insecurity, coated in rage and bravado, and he's a monster and he doesn't know how to be anything else. he was told he was worthless and despicable his whole life and he decided if he would never be good enough he may as well be the devil they told him he was. he needs to pick fights he needs to be hated he hates being ignored he needs to control people but hates being genuinely loved he can't show weakness he is deeply insecure in his masculinity he took his religious trauma and started dressing as a preacher to fleece people at cards and seduce random women he killed a man on instinct to protect a dog he often laughs uncontrollably and I am blowing him up 1 million billion times with my mind
WHAT'S THE BLACKMAIL ANNABEL. I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HE TOLD YOU I NEED TO KNOW WHAT SECRET COULD DESTROY HIM
#montresor nevermore#sorry i never thought I'd be the kind of person to make posts like this about characters#but I'm like two weeks deep in the nevermore hyperfixation and growing more insane by the day#had to get the words out#nevermore#nevermore webtoon#nevermore webcomic#i hate his fucking guts. can't stop thinking about him#need to see more of his religious trauma. hope he has a really intense sexuality crisis. fuck him up worse and more#AAAUHGRFHTHGFRGSGF#mine#it is 3 am#exploding#REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE THE MONTESORPOSTING PERSON BUT HE'S IN MY BRAIN RN#i hate him i hate him i hate him#posts that are NOT about cask of amontillado sorry people who follow me who don't read nevermore (you've suffered greatly these past weeks)#haha read nevermore tho#anyway why do y'all think he doesn't have a gun in nevermore. you'd think he would have his revolver in his luggage#just keep that with him at all times#but no gun in sight. only lenore gets gun privileges#maybe the deans just don't want anyone to have anything as easy as a loaded gun#too boring for them#sorry this is way too many tags i for real cannot sleep
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it hits me in the head sometimes that if byler is endgame, stranger things is gonna go down in queer history big time. Like it already is, but imagine if two of the main characters are queer and in love and we get mike’s internalised homophobia and will’s fear of being too much or too gay and there’s a grant love confession and they save the world fuelled by the love they have for each other and each other only? Like it’s always been Mike and Will, Will and Mike.
That’s gonna be one of the most realistic portrayals of queer struggles and queer love in modern cinema and it’s gonna be epic and if the duffers or netflix or whoever is in charge can’t see that, they just lost a chance at changing the course of cinematic history for queer people.
#no because i get so emotional thinking about this#i really hope we haven’t been queerbaited#because this is gonna be so bad#like so so fucking bad#because it’s gonna be another fucking confirmation#that queer love is lesser or too much#and the world isn’t ready#the world is never gonna be ready#ever#but that’s not gonna erase our existence#the world is gonna keep spinning and shit but queer people are#just gonna have another finger pointed at them and saying#hahaha yes yes you’re gonna have to dig real deep to get what you want#because that’s not happening in the real world#like FUCK OFF#byler#byler endgame#byler nation#mike wheeler#will byers#miwi#antimileven#byler is canon#byler brainrot
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never change, man !
#phantom of the paradise#potp#swan potp#nightmaretheater#65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp#Look into my beautiful mind boy#Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw#but i had to push a specific look for this piece#hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look#Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan#I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That#as awful as he is he desperately needed help#it might seem like vanity on the surface#but i think its… more than that#long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry#It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again#i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems#he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away#anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal#sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick#i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad#*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha#sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please#adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse#to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like#the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this#sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol
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