#it's because you don't have anon enabled

[statementlou]

Tbh i am not surprised that a person who openly talked about having drinking problems since 1d days, because of how crazy 1d worked has been agressive. What surprises me is people being surprised (they never seriously saw drunk person?). But i am also confused about this whole book. Apparently Maya said that that book is not fully bout Liam but compilation about her exes and some of the worst parts are not about him. But recently she said that the book is “ofc about him” so what is true then? Or did she meant it that ofc some parts are about him or that whole book is about him?

Sorry, just confused

I also am not surprised- we've learned so much more about the real stories of things and about the guys' actual lives over the last years, and the story that has unfolded around Liam has been totally consistent throughout if you've been following it, and so the information Maya is telling us is shocking and upsetting but not difficult to believe. I got an anon yesterday saying they were worried about getting similar revelations about the other boys, like "if Liam could be doing this we just don't know, any of them could", and while in a way that's always true I guess, anyone could be doing anything in private like... that doesn't really concern me. Because none of these Liam revelations are coming out of nowhere, there have been many MANY steps along the way leading us here if you've been watching, and he has talked openly about both his mental health struggles and his addiction issues. So to answer that anon... to find out something similar about Louis would in contrast contradict everything we know about him and no I'm not worried about it. Is he an abuser or a loose cannon, well that news would truly shock me to my core, I will be honest. But anyway as for the book I don't find it strange that she was nervous when it came out and treading lightly and later decided, fuck it. In the absolutely on point tiktok she dropped today (YES👏GIRL👏FUCKING TELL THEM👏) she even mentions attempts to keep her from publishing the book, presumably by Liam's team, that I am riveted by and cannot WAIT to hear more details about actually- like I said I don't find it at all strange that she was nervous and downplayed it a bit then. But if she says now that it's just about Liam, well, I would say it's been clear from the beginning that the book is their story. Maya herself brought up the parallel of songs being written about stuff and I think it's the same thing; it's true (she was in an abusive relationship that involved certain kinds of events) but maybe not 100% literal (I'm sure details were changed to make the story work, it's not like a word for word timeline of their interactions or whatever).

[fitscientist]

What’s with all the “don’t tell anyone your plans just show them the results” in the tumblr fitness/glowup community? Do you only have haters in your life or something? It’s fun to share my plans with my friends and partner because they support and encourage me when I’m feeling low and celebrate my little wins with me which makes the whole thing a lot more enjoyable than toiling in secret and them not knowing why I’m acting differently and potentially taking it personally or worrying that I’m in some sort of mental health crisis/ED relapse.

Fantastic! I'm so glad you have supportive people around you!

[bandzboy]

i dont think theres anything wrong with someone spending that much on a concert ticket one time to see an artist they absolutely love...but when someone is buying multiple of those tickets and seeing that artist several times in one tour and maybe theyve even already seen them in concert before. yeah i completely understand thinking that maybe theres a better use of that money. like if theyre doing that and claiming they support palestine but theyve barely donated any money...yeah its weird

honestly, but this is my opinion, tickets should cost that much and i think it's absurd to me to spend that much money on tickets but again maybe it's bc i never had that much money to spend on anything so that's why i just find hard to believe that people in their right mind spend approximately 1k on a ticket.

it's incredibly worse knowing how most of this money is going to hybe while they are still employing zionists. a lot of people who said they were boycotting spent 600$ on concert tickets today knowing exactly this

[toothtalk]

a neurodivergent spoonie's guide to having teeth

LEGAL DISCLAIMER: This blog is for educational and informational purposes only. This does not constitute providing medical advice or professional services. Information on this blog should NOT be used for diagnostics or treating a health problem. Always seek the advice of your doctor or other qualified dental health provider regarding diagnosis and treatment of a dental condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read on this blog.

this is as close to a comprehensive guide to dental care as i can make. i'm autistic/adhd/ocd/chronically ill and i've worked in dentistry for several years. i want to use my knowledge to help other spoonies struggling with dental care. i know it can be really hard, but dental health is so important and we deserve healthy mouths just as much as NT/abled folks!!

being neurodivergent and/or chronically ill can make personal care tasks incredibly difficult. so many of us struggle with washing our hair, getting dressed, and cleaning up. but remember: hair will grow back if it's damaged, clothes can be washed when they smell bad, and a dirty house can be made clean again, but we only have one set of teeth to last our whole lives. those pearly whites are worth taking care of!

these tips are based on feedback/questions i've gotten from ND folks on tumblr and facebook, patients at the practices i've worked in, and my own experience. standard disclaimer that this information will not be applicable to every single person, just take what works for you and pass the rest on to the next person. i am also a resource for further information. this is going to be pretty rapidfire, so if you want me to elaborate on anything or have a question about something i didn't address in this post, my askbox is open and anon is enabled. i love talking about teeth and i would love to help my fellow spoonies take care of theirs!

without further ado:

on homecare:

any dental professional will tell you that having good oral health starts at home. taking care of our teeth can be incredibly difficult when our spoons are low, so i've made a list of strategies to make it easier.

best practice is to brush twice per day and floss once per day. this may not be realistic for those of us who struggle with habits and/or executive dysfunction. if you can only remember to brush once per day, brushing at night is the most important.

the ideal order of operations is floss, tongue scrape, mouthwash, then brush. but flossing and brushing are the most important steps in the routine.

brushing your teeth in the shower is perfectly acceptable! personally, i keep one toothbrush in the shower and one on the sink to maximize my opportunities to brush.

if you don't have the energy to floss, a toothbrush with fine bristles like this one is a good compromise.

you should replace your toothbrush or electric brush head every three months. the bristles get worn down and become less effective over time. set a recurring event on your phone calendar to keep track!

if you find it difficult to brush your teeth at all, use a washcloth to gently scrub your teeth until you feel that you've gotten the film off, then use a fluoride mouthwash. they also make single-use waterless toothbrushes like these. i like to keep them on my nightstand for really bad days when i can't even get myself to the bathroom to brush.

this is an excellent guide on proper brushing technique.

an electric toothbrush is an excellent investment. even a cheap one at the grocery store is a huge step above a manual toothbrush. personally, i love quip because they're more affordable than brands like sonicare, and they send you replacement brush heads on a regular basis.

be careful not to brush too aggressively; your brush should glide gently over the surface of your teeth. if you feel a lot of friction, lighten your pressure. brushing too hard can wear away your enamel and damage your gums.

if the mint flavor in toothpaste triggers sensory discomfort, try kids' toothpaste! it has less fluoride than adult toothpaste, but it's still miles better than not brushing at all.

mouthwash is used to neutralize bacteria on soft tissues. use an antibacterial or fluoride mouthwash for healthy gums and strong enamel. listerine original is the best, but they have lots of varieties including gum health, alcohol-free, and many more.

whenever possible, use a straw to drink soda or coffee so it doesn't touch your teeth, and rinse with water after you drink it. try to not sip sugary drinks throughout the day. switching to sugar-free beverages will make a huge difference in cavity prevention.

if you have any gaps between teeth, an interdental brush will help you keep the areas between those teeth clean and prevent decay.

i like to keep a package of floss picks in the living room so that i can floss while i watch tv. the best time to floss is right before you brush your teeth, but there is no bad time to floss.

this video shows proper flossing technique. this video shows proper technique when using floss picks.

dry mouth is a lesser-known cause of cavities. saliva protects your teeth from decay, so when you don't produce enough of it, you're at higher risk. dry mouth rinses like this one are a great defense against this!

remember, something is always better than nothing. brushing once a day is better than not brushing at all. flossing once a week is better than not flossing at all. be gentle with yourself.

on finding a dental provider:

finding a new provider and making an appointment can be confusing and overwhelming when we have low executive function. there are some ways to make it just a bit easier.

if you have insurance, they likely have a tool on their website to find providers in your network. you can usually find this information on your insurance card. this should narrow down your options considerably.

the absolute best thing you can do is find a supportive provider who you can open up to about your struggles with dental care. look up your options on google reviews and ctrl+f "anxiety". if these anxious patients have a good experience, it's more likely you will too.

you can ask for recommendations in your local community's facebook group or subreddit, both of which offer anonymity. specify your needs in your post. chances are, other people in your community have similar needs, and can help you find the right people to meet those needs.

a few people expressed that they avoid the dentist because of a family history of poor dental health, and the fear of having the same problems. i want to assure you that, while dental health does have a genetic component, it is far from the only factor. the most effective thing you can do to prevent dental issues is to go in for regular maintenance. prevention is the gold standard in dentistry.

a lot of us struggle with making phone calls. luckily, it's becoming increasingly common for practices to allow online booking and communication via email. look for these options on a practice's website!

if fear or executive dysfunction is getting in your way, phone a friend for help. sometimes things that are hard for us aren't as difficult for others. maybe your roommate can call the office for you. maybe your sister can drive you to your appointment. don't be afraid to lean on your village.

in the dental office:

a big issue with dental offices is that they are basically a sensory nightmare. while it's never going to be fully comfortable, there are some things you can do to make your experience more tolerable.

be open and honest with your dental providers. if you smoke, tell them (this includes cannabis; they cannot report you for cannabis use even if you're not in a legal state). if you've never flossed before, tell them. their job is to help you, not shame you. if a provider makes you feel ashamed, stop seeing them.

so many people have mentioned they're embarrassed about their anxiety and sensory struggles in the dental office. let me assure you that your providers see so many anxious patients every single day. they're used to it, and they're not going to be judging you. to help illustrate this, i'm going to cite some examples of patients from my practice and the ways we help them manage their anxiety and sensory struggles.

probably the most common concern among patients in our practice is a fear of the numbing injection. i have a pretty severe phobia of needles myself. our dental assistants are well-trained to manage this fear. they distract patients during the shot, and help them breathe through the anxiety before and after. this training is part of the dental assistant certification process, so it should be relatively universal.

you can bring a comfort item with you. be it a stuffed animal, a video game, a book, even a comforting person who can sit with you.

you know that lead vest that they lay on you when they take xrays? you can ask to wear that during your whole visit. it acts like a weighted blanket and it feels so nice and comforting. we have a few patients who do this at my practice.

headphones or earplugs are a lifesaver to drown out all the horrible sounds. i literally refuse to get a cleaning without them. there's even a hygienist at my practice that wears earplugs while she's working because the sound of the cavitron bothers her. there's no shame in it whatsoever.

if your practice offers it, nitrous oxide is a great option for anxiety. most people know it as laughing gas. it puts you in a dreamlike state so you're more or less unaware of what's going on. no joke, this stuff had me so relaxed i fully fell asleep while getting a root canal. you can even get it when you get your cleanings!

a lot of our patients request a specific doctor, dental assistant, and hygienist for their appointments. this is incredibly common. if you find someone that makes you feel safe, let the scheduling staff know that you'd like to see that person each time you come in.

dress comfy. there's no dress code for the dental office; show up in sweatpants if you want.

remember at the end of the day, your dental providers are not there to judge you if you don't have perfect homecare. their ultimate goal is to get your mouth healthy no matter your starting place. i can't speak for every dentist obviously, but the dentists at my practice are incredibly patient and sympathetic and have nothing but their patients' best interests in mind.

again: if you feel disrespected or shamed by your provider, find a new one who will be compassionate with you. you don't owe any provider loyalty, even if you've been going there since you were a toddler.

on recovery:

one of the hardest things to do is build healthy habits when you're starting from an unhealthy place. if you're dealing with poor dental health, getting your mouth healthy again can seem impossibly daunting. i'm here to tell you it is possible, but it takes work.

it starts in the dental chair. your provider should communicate what treatment is the highest priority, and they will start there. rather than overwhelming yourself with the big picture, focus your attention on the next step.

things like root canals, crowns, and periodontal treatment can be very expensive. unfortunately, in the united states at least, dental insurance is quite lacking across the board. if expenses are a concern, dental schools are a great option for having treatment done at a low cost. keep in mind that treatment will often take significantly longer due to the dentists being supervised students.

my job in the practice is treatment coordinator. this means that i work one-on-one with my patients to help them understand their treatment plans and make the process as easy and comfortable as possible for them. ask your practice if they have a treatment coordinator. if they don't, suggest that they create the role, and reach out to me here. my dream is to be able to help people manage their oral health. i will be a resource to anyone that doesn't have a treatment coordinator available to help you navigate your course of treatment.

any restorative work (fillings, crowns, etc.) that you have done has to be cared for, just like virgin teeth. cavities can still form underneath fillings and crowns. make sure you are keeping your regular hygiene appointments, and use the above strategies to effectively care for your restorations at home.

if you have a lot of treatment to work through, it may take a long time. we have patients that have spent 2-3 years working through their treatment plans with us. this can feel daunting and depressing. but remember, it's not forever. the majority of these patients who continue to see us for regular visits only have 1-2 new cavities at a time, if anything, once we finish their initial work.

there are very few dental problems that cannot be fixed. cavities can be filled, crowns placed, root canals done to save teeth that are severely decayed. gum disease cannot be cured, but it can be very effectively managed. i see patients all the time that come in expecting to lose all their teeth and need dentures, only to be relieved when we tell them only a few teeth are truly not restorable.

my job revolves around patient education, and it's always shocking to me how little we are taught about caring for our teeth. please be kind to yourselves; it is NOT your fault for not knowing or having the resources to take care of them yourself. once again, my askbox is open and anon is enabled if you have more questions after reading this guide.

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

I said I'm not going to actively engage in any public speculation or analysis and I'm keeping my word. And I also know what's best for gcs and what can be shared to an audience, however small it is.

But I do want to talk about priorities. And some harsh reality. And some perspective because it seems to lack so far with some people.

It is not and should not be my problem what anyone wants to do on their page. If they want to analyse apartments, timelines, label statements. You do you. But is incredibly telling that the first ask I receive the second I enable the anon feature is about my stance on jikook. Really? Out of all the possible things that should be discussed right now, this is high on the priority list?

I will generalize here for the sake of the argument and I will only mention the people who actually care about Jimin (the others are working against his image while I'm here writing this post). Some jikookers are worrying about the ship and where does that leave jikook? "Was it ever real?", "I still believe", "I don't" (but think 500-word essays). Some pjms are happy that Jimin is single (how do you know he is now?, lol), some are posting thirst traps on some weird trend about showing Jimin what he is actually missing (just yuck, really?), some are happy that this ended jokers (never other ships that include JM).

You get the picture.

Of course all these people and many others from these groups are also concerned about Jimin. Obviously. But why is it that for so many of these fans, that is not the main and perhaps only priority?

Shipping discourse and hetero-dating discourse means fuck all when this is such a serious situation that will not die down fast. And all the behavior on social media is not helping it.

The BH statement is protecting Jimin from a legal standpoint. Technically, he is not responsible for anything that happens or is being said/done from now on. But is it? Given the volatile behavior exhibited up until this point, how does anyone know what could be a trigger to then do more damage?

If she hurts herself, it will be considered Jimin's fault. If they try to settle this in private, she can then say they attempted to silence her. She can say Jimin did something to her back im 2020 and it will be her word against his. The word of a woman crying multiple times on her social media about how she's being harrassed by his fans. She won't even have to mention Jimin's name, all she has to say is "your favorite idol" and it will be Jimin's photo in the press the next day.

This entire thing can just go on and on, like an endless nightmare. And it happens in front of an audience.

It has reached a point where his public image is attempted to be tarnished, where someone who displays very questionable behavior is trying to pull the strings, all from the comfort of a platform backed by taekooker money. And Jimin is the one who has to behave, to keep silent, to ask people not to bully her. No one else is suffering in this situation apart from the one person who seemingly hasn't done anything wrong.

The SK press is ruthless. I'm sure many of us know what it can do to people. Even for minor mistakes or things that should not even get a high level of scrutiny. This is not a joke. This should not be talked through shipping discourse or rejoicing that Jimin is free from shippers or getting happy that he is single or whatever other ridiculous reactions that I've seen. I'm not gonna spell it out for anyone and I don't want my mind to go far, but the thoughts remain.

I do think he is mentally strong and has processed and moved over any past troubles he had during the early pandemic period. But it doesn't mean that one can be indiferent to what is happening now, even if emotionally, the door closed on something that took place 5 years ago. But I don't want to speculate more on Jimin's state of mind because how would I know? Maybe he won't share a thing for months and it won't be easy because ultimately we are just fans and we want to know if he's ok or not.

The only concern and priority now from anyone who cares about Jimin even a little, is his privacy. For someone who has kept parts of his personal life away from any fans/audience, who never shared his friends name on social media, who is even wary of mentioning a science show he is watching, to now witness everyone dissecting a part of his life that was shared without his consent, is absolutely awful.

[mikakuna]

babygirl jason anon here again!!

thank you so much your reply! i love hearing your thoughts about our babygirl, that's my princess, willis' little prince, gotham's darling, i love him so much.

to me, jason and constantine is so delicious in its potential, because yes begrudgingly fond asshole older man who recognizes jason's competence and intelligence is great. but i think magically, john would see something in jason that draws him in, and would be unabashedly attracted to him, and not hide that.

sladejay is my number 1 jason ship, not only for their chemistry and combined badassery, but in my mind, they've both been so through much that they wouldn't bullshit each other and they might hem and haw but ultimately they'd communicate because not doing so would be stupid and not communicating has never worked out in other relationships. jason is such an open and honest communicator and the reason people don't get that is because the bats are like communicating with either a brick wall (bruce) or gaslighters and enablers (everyone else). they deflet and disregard him because internalizing and acknowledging his concerns would uproot their entire world view, and they don't wanna do that work, even though jason has had to have those world altering internal dialogues alone with no support.

but n e way, my favourite flavour of sladejay is independent, happy, sexy jason and smitten, possessive obsessed slade. i am so enamoured by jason being spoilt, pampered, and being shown off in public, and slade is possessive but he also can't just keep his boy to himself, people have got to see his wonderful, beautiful, smart boy. i imagine him being so aghast that the bats underestimated and didn't utiliize jason's skills to the fullest. them going on joint missions that play to jason's strengths, just to see jason flex his stuff.

i also have so many ideas for dates they go on, and jason just being attractive and beautiful. them on a date to a book fair or something, jason striking up a conversation with a pretty femme girl about jane austen, her butch gf coming up to scare jason off assuming he's hitting on her gf only for slade to slide up behind jason pressing kisses to his neck and being all touchy, and jason introducing his partner to the girl he just had a lovely convo with. (he does not process that people think he's hot and is flirting with them/have people flirt with him. no thoughts only slade and books). jason becoming friends with the girls and expanding his civilian friend group.

i love jason being pretty and happy!!

HEYYYY ANON i always love to see you in my inbox <3

omg you get me on another level AHHH its like you've taken all my thoughts that i haven't been able to articulate and then put them into words so much more beautifully than i ever could. i ADORE when other jason fans envision the same version of him that i do like yes that is our baby girl sweetheart darling who deserves the world!!!

you've got me hooked on constantine! i remember his animated version and he was super cheeky, which i think fits well with jason. if you've got any fic recs, please lmk!!

your mini rant about jason-- SO REALLLLL!!! i agree on every point, especially the end. for the most part, jason communicates well. he articulates his feelings, tells bruce and the bats what his problems are, verbally confronts them (especially bruce), but canon and fandom tend to disregard that for a version of him who broods a lot and is stoic like bruce. just because someone isn't cla rk kent or di ck grayson level of personality does not make them the absolute opposite. the blame often goes on him for a lot of his conflicts with batfam because people deem him an unreliable narrator who's simply misunderstanding everything. but it's not being an unreliable narrator to take and internalize how your family outwardly treats you at face value. bruce's i beat you because i love you is supposed to make jason see the light???

ANYWAYS

WOO SLADEJAY they're one of my top jason ships because of the raging competency kinks so i love every bit of what you said. slade is a possessive lover who also wants to give jason every opportunity to show off yes yes yes!!! he likes being given new reasons to be possessive and obsessed with this young man he has no business dating but like hell he's ever gonna leave. he makes sure everyone knows how amazing and skilled his boy is. jason is somehow oblivious as hell when it comes to slade so he just slowly starts wondering why none of the bats antagonize him for his "inferior" abilities anymore? what happened to telling him not to rush in before every mission?

meanwhile slade's glad he no longer has to spend hours loosening the brat up before he can finally shove his dick in him because every time he comes home from working with the bats, he's tense as hell

YES GIVE THE BOY CIVILIAN FRIENDS!!!! jason needs friends of his own who only know him and not the bats as well. he needs to meet people whose opinions aren't coloured by the bats. these ocs are so cute!!!

i think jason and the femme gf (im gonna call her lila) become absolutely inseparable like they are texting 24/7 to the point slade has to tell her gf (rowan?) to take the damn phone away or something. lila brings out jason's feminine side <3 they paint their nails together and have cutesy sleepovers! jason forces slade to cater

[rini-yaki]

Please can you write a fluff one shot with Zoey and Female Marine Biologist reader

Forgot to read the rules sorry😥😥

Don't know if this is any better

Enabler at Sea

ꕥ first zoey post woooo!! and its okay anon, you fixed which means you get ur req anyway! you gave me not a lot of what you wanted specifically, so i'll just go off vibes, hope this lives up to your expectations!!

+ i have no idea what a marine biologist does or how it works soooo i just made some stuff up- don't cancel me please

f!marine biologist! reader x zoey, established relationship

200+ FOLLOWER EVENT

After copious amounts of begging and whining from Zoey, a LOT of schedule changes, sudden break then cancellation of said break announcements on all social platforms, around forty four notebooks, twenty nine sea animal sticker packets, too much PR meetings, packing and then unpacking big suitcases- it finally happened.

Zoey was finally joining you on your trips out on the sea!

She basically buzzed in your arms when you both met at the dock, squealing and nearly crying in your grip, saying a billion ‘thank yous’ and ‘i love yous’, she was flailing around the boat dock, the skies were sunny, the sea breeze blew comfortably against Zoey’s hair. She thinks she got a notification about the storage in her phone thinning out- but she ignores it.

The two of you met back in an aquarium back at Seoul, both of you buried in curiosity and knowledge of the underground sea world, faces and pages barely illuminated in the dim lights of the fish displays, anglerfishes swimming about inside the tank as you two got to know each other.

You mentioned your occupation and semi-regular trips out on the sea and Zoey wailed in jealousy, being an idol and demon hunter, she never had the opportunity to leave the cityscape she was assigned to because of her job.

So when you offered her as a plus one to a more visitor friendly tour out on sea, she basically imploded into a bunch of seashells, shrieking victory speeches made at the top of her head, hopping around the Huntrix penthouse for weeks.

And after some trials and tribulations, she is now here with you- standing behind the railing, the boat has come to a stop, you both have been out at sea for a few hours now, taking pictures and quizzing each other on random trivia related to marine animals.

“You sure you don’t wanna become a marine biologist too?”

“Pssh! Don’t praise me too much! I might start believing it!”

You just giggled and flipped to a different part of your notes, it was like this for when the boat was moving and you couldn’t quite see many animals yet. Every time Zoey thought she saw something, you’d laugh your ass off and pat her on the back and correct her, saying that whatever she saw wasn’t an animal- because it wasn’t, just some seaweed usually.

Her eagerness brightened your overall mood, she was such a light even when there’s no wifi (she usually looks up random- very rare and hard to pronounce phenomenons and animals at sea to test you, you’re always right.), you’re glad you brought her this time, it was worth all the trouble.

You didn’t tell her that you guys were going to be able to see her favorite animals: Turtles, you smirked every time you looked at the itinerary- which you hid from her, heh, you’re so smart. Here, have a cookie.

You guys were on the route towards Jeju island, first stop out of a few, you both were out on the dock, you lended the girl in space buns some binoculars to be able to see dolphins, she was started babbling about some random facts as she was searching for the silver stone colored animals.

“Did you know that when they sleep, they only turn off half their brain so they could still stay alert from predators?”

“Mhm.”

“Did you know that killer whales are actually dolphins too?”

“Yep.” You popped the P.

“In groups they’re called a pod!”

“Really?”

“Mhm! And some have follicles but others are completely bald- no hair!”

“Who knew?”

Fact after fact came out as you both gazed at the graceful, yet noisy animals, her head perked up and eyes focused on drinking the sight, your head laying on her shoulder, not entirely focused as she is- you can see these guys next time, but seeing Zoey this excited over he interests is something a little bit more rare than a few dolphins.

After half an hour of gazing from afar and you logging in some notes, you both were sitting on a bench, staring at the sun that was nearing the horizon, now it was time to go see some turtles, your grin a little too wide now, you were expecting an explosive reaction from her.

Well, the keyword is “were”. Because your bubble pops when Zoey says something.

“I can’t wait to see some turtles!” 

You pause, you didn’t show her the schedule pamphlet and made sure she wouldn’t see it so the surprise would remain a surprise.

The girl with microbangs smiled slyly at you when she noticed your reaction, raising her eyebrows, all smug. 

“What? Think I didn’t know where turtles reside around the Korean peninsula? Hah!”

You let out a soft snort, of course, your head rises from her shoulder and you look straight at her in the eye.

“Pfft.. I guess I underestimated your prowess Zoey,”

“You enable me [Name].”

this is the hardest one because i had to pull some ideas out of my old noodle

but i hope you like it anon !! :D

[benevolenterrancy]

Out of the three mxtx main couples, who do you think would be the most bearable to a third wheel for? My bet is on bingqiu because shen qingqiu would try to have some sense of shame when there's company around and it'll only be uncomfortable because luo binghe would be glaring the whole time lol. Xie lian seems like he wouldn't even notice how shamefully he and hua cheng act after being married for a while, and I don't trust wangxian to feel any shame at all

Interesting... see, I think I might be the exact opposite from you, anon. The one mxtx pair that I think I would LEAST like to third-wheel on is Bingqiu.

Hualian would reasonable, I think. Xie Lian enjoys meeting and chatting with people, and Hua Cheng is pretty much happy to enable anything that makes Xie Lian happy. The only time we see him getting somewhat tetchy about other people hanging around Xie Lian are other gods that Hua Cheng actively has beef with, and even then he keeps it tamped down when it's clear this is who Xie Lian wants to spend time with. If you ended up having, like, lunch with these two in Ghost City or something, I think it'd be relatively chill -- so long as you aren't being rude or threatening Xie Lian in any way (and why would you?? he is a sweetheart??) then I think you'd be in for a perfectly fine time, you might even get treated to lunch.

Wangxian would even be better, I think... it has the potential to be the best of the three options. Wei Wuxian is actively really social, he likes spending time around people, and seems to make new friends relatively easily. You found yourself spending time with these two for some reason? No worries, Wei Wuxian is going to be enthusiastically trying to drag you into trouble in no time!! Lan Wangji is obviously less out-going in that regard, but he's well-known for going out of his way to protect people (goes where the chaos is) and was generally raised in high society and is perfectly capable of getting through social functions in a polite way (even if he is a bit taciturn). He would be a perfectly civil person to spend time with and nothing bad would happen to you. I think if you ran into these two you'd end up having a very interesting chat with Wei Wuxian, hear maybe three nonconsecutive words spoken by Lan Wangji, and leave in relatively good spirits.

Bingqiu though... whether or not you have a good conversation with Shen Qingqiu 100% depends on how heavily he's leaning into his Aloof Immortal role. He is definitely not above acting distant and haughty to get out of hanging around some random NPC villager he doesn't feel like chatting with, especially given his previous status as NEET and as someone who views other people as background characters with static personalities. Even odds as to whether he views you as a person or a walking talking bit of scenery tbfh. As for Luo Binghe, you can tell that he's at least idly considered killing you just to leave with his Shizun sooner. How dare you waste his Shizun's time. How dare you look at him. Are you looking at him???

As for shamelessness... I think most of the pairs of shameless in the sense that they WON'T bother pretending that they aren't wildly in love with this person anymore, rather than outright really uncomfortable PDA. Hualian might be sugary sweet with each other, but I think it would be tolerable, and Wangxian I think would be fairly tame around strangers they're spending a bit of time with. Lan Wangji has a lot more to prove around his clan than some random person they found themselves sharing a table with.

Binghe, on the other hand, is marking his territory. He wants you as uncomfortable as possible so you leave sooner. Shen Qingqiu is not effectively reining that terror in, he is more than willing to enable his disciple and let Binghe run amok.

[bunny-jpeg]

hello! i’m here to make a bakery order! id love to see a croissant and loaf of whole wheat bread with a sangria as the side, served by daniel ricciardo! possibly christian horner’s daughter reader 🫣🫣🫣

bakery menu!

want to submit your own order? go wild with the menu! there's all kinds of items on there and i'm working tiredlessly to finish them all! thank you in advance for anything you send! as for this lovely anon, this captured me right away! i find so many love our danny ricc, so thank you for the order!

croissant ("i wonder if your father knows what happens during the off hours. if he knows you're here with me.") + loaf of whole wheat bread ("you're going to shut that mouth and take me.") + sangria (drunk sex) served by daniel ricciardo (formula one)!!

cw: smut/pwp, drunk sex, horner!reader, dirty talk/degrading language, doggy style, snark and sarcasm

daniel shouldn't have let the liquor run his mouth. he knew he should've kept this words to himself, it was so fucking stupid. but what he really needed right now was the devil on his shoulder, enabling his drunken ideas. and his good friend max verstappen was the perfect man in red.

"what colour do you think her panties are?" daniel asked as he turned max's head toward your direction, max was pretty much gone. currently you were seated with a drink in your hand. he knew you were drunk because you were flirty.

max looked at you for a moment and narrowed his eyes. he then chuckled before he took another healthy sip of his gin and tonic. he hit the glass a little too hard against the table and barked, "i don't know, mate. ask her!" then slapped his teammate on the shoulder.

but there was a small problem. daniel was driving for red bull and you were christian horner's daughter.

"what did you just ask me?" you said as you downed the rest of your drink, "do you have a wager or some shit with verstappen." you rested against the table a little, "are you fucking kidding me?" you got louder when you drank, just like your father.

he looked at you with those big eyes and asked, "can i see 'em anyway?" what should've been met with a slap across the face was instead met with him being pulled into an uber. the sound of max's laugh echoed in his brain.

you were both painfully drunk, this was a mistake waiting to happen. but while he couldn't make mistakes on the track. he'd be happy to flip his entire world inside out if it meant getting to fuck your sweet pussy.

"what about your father?" he asked before you made out him in the back of the car, your hands in his tie. his hand up the skirt of your dress, rubbing your upper thigh.

you pulled away and said, "danny. i don't care what my father wants right now? he's not even in the country." which surprised daniel before he pulled back into a searing kiss. you were both hands-y. when the uber arrived back at your home, you left another tip in case for the driver for all their trouble of transporting two drunk idiots.

your apartment was small given your status. but it was filled with charm. you both bumped into things as you tried to kick your shoes off. daniel's lips were on yours as you led him to the bedroom. your back clipped the door frame before you got both of you into the room. you were both stumbling as you got the light on.

"fuck, danny."

"i know, i know. i got ya."

"i'm such an idiot for letting you pick me up with that stupid line." you dropped to the bed and started to take off your dress. you looked so pretty, even drunk as hell with heat in your cheeks. you looked at him with want, "like jesus christ i'm stupid."

he took his tie off and took off his shirt, "well, call me curious. i want to know what horner's daughter wears underneath all those baggy shirts." he laughed.

you rolled your eyes, "fuck you, ricciardo. and stop mentioning my old man."

he pouted palyfully as he swayed a little in his stance. he could feel the alcohol ruining his critical thinking skills. he said, "i wonder if your father knows what happens during the off hours. if he knows you're here with me."

you huffed as you got down to your undergarments. cute baby blue boy shorts and a white bra with a blue bow in the middle. it made daniel stop in his tracks, his hands on his belt. you said in a stern tone, "if you want to keep talking to my dad, i can send you on a flight to let him fuck you." your words were biting.

he got the belt off and snapped it together threateningly, "don't make me gag you, princess."

"oh really?" you tilted your head to the side. the liquor you had gave you a sense of courage, "is someone worried that they're going to be shafted from the team? have to fuck me in a last ditch attempt to have a chance of being as good as max verstappen."

daniel laughed as he got closer to the bed. he got his slacks off and soon his underwear. leaving him naked, but he wasn't vulnerable. if anything there was a darkness that laid under him. the alcohol fueled something in his brain.

"oh sweet little horner. that's really sweet coming from you. at least i win, you can barely get past university. you'll be lucky to find a rich husband that can handle that mouth of yours." he got into bed with you, soon your underwear was off of you and daniel had you laid out under him. his cock pressed against your ass and his bulkier frame kept you pinned down to the bed. he held your jaw and said, "the horner name is only so good. i wonder if your pussy gives you any value. so, you're going to shut that mouth and take me. got it?"

you felt the alcohol flood your head more. you could barely form words, it was like daniel riccicardo melted any processing power in your head. you nodded and daniel slapped your ass.

"see, that's what i like to see. you feel so good under me.' daniel could already feel the heat on his back. his heart raced at the feeling of your soft skin under his hands. you were perfect for him. painfully beautiful. in all fairness, he forgot what colour your panties were, green? pink? whatever, this was more important.

he rubbed his cock up against you until he managed to get in between your thighs. getting right to your pussy, the feeling almost took the breath out of him. holy shit, you were perfect.

"where has your father been hiding you, beautiful?" he purred in a low tone which made your hips shift, "is that why he sent you to boarding school, so you wouldn't be a slut around the paddock." his words were poison and his thrusts were brutal, "i asked you what colour your panties were and you basically were sucking my cock." he groaned, "i bet if max came to you first, he'd be fucking you right now." he kissed at your cheek as he lifted your hips to get a better angle.

"never. god, never." you groaned.

"awww, is verstappen not good enough? get your bastard father and his bastard father in the same room." daniel chuckled, "in-laws from hell."

you groaned and kicked out your legs a little, "stop mentioning my dad, you asshole." but before you could say anything more, daniel had your head in the covers as he started to really work at your pussy.

"why? he's such a lovely man. zero issues with him whatsoever." he panted heavily in your ear, "i wonder if he'd know if you were here. if some loud mouth told him. that you were squirming under me, letting me use and abuse that pussy of yours."

you gripped onto the covers and moaned loudly. you felt your heart racing in your ears as you back arched. he kept you so nicely pinned between him and the best. there was no escaping out from under him.

"danny please."

"you beg so pretty." he said softly, "i should've asked you sooner. maybe i should've flashed them to max. i bet he would've liked to see what horner's been hiding from us." his words were liquid in your brain, frying any cognitive thought. the rush of everything made the liquor move through your head even more. you panted heavily against the covers as he continued to thrust inside of you.

"please, danny. fuck. i just wanted you. you stupid idiot!" you whined, "i wanted you and your dumb cock!"

"you like this don't you? you like having your insides rearranged by me." daniel barked a laugh as he continued to rut against you. he felt so deep inside of you.

"fuck." you groaned, not even able to deny it. it all felt so good, and you wanted to kill him for it. you hated that he polluted your brain like strong liquor.

he chuckled and kissed the side of your head, "see, being my good girl is always worth it. just let me take care of you." but he knew you'd be done soon. his words lived in your head and you panted into the covers.

"you drive me fucking insane."

"oh i know. i'm in your head all the time." he laughed.

"shit. danny." you whined as you clawed at the covers. your back arched like a cat and giving the perfect angle for daniel to fuck up into you. you held on for dear life as you climaxed around his cock. you panted into the covers.

daniel continued to move against you, using your hips to bounce you on his cock. you felt like a dream come true. his cock bullied your sweet pussy. he whispered in your ear, filth as he came inside of you. his hips against you a few more times before he stopped. he laid on top of you for a moment as he caught his breath.

your heart hammered in your chest as he eventually got on his side next to you. he bundled you up in his arms and held you close to him. there was heaving breathing between the two of you.

daniel pulled you in for another kiss, and the liquor in his head told him one thing. he wasn't letting you go.

-

"ricciardo." horner said. he sighed and crossed his arms. he looked like a disappointment parent more than a boss.

daniel put his best smile on, hiding the looming anxiety. why was he called into horner's office like he was a school boy in trouble. he replied, "yes, mister horner."

"you're a good driver. a good man. i hold a great deal of respect for you. so tell me why my daughter has to extend her time at university because she has asked for a semester off?"

daniel raises his eyebrows, "because academia is hard?"

"no, daniel. because according to verstappen you left a party with my daughter and now she turns up pregnant." he sighed, but kept his gaze on the man in front of him, "i hope you know if you skip out on her, you'll be in a world of trouble."

daniel swallowed at the news. he got horner's daughter pregnant. he. got. you. pregnant. the electricity of the news made him stand up, he said loudly, "shit. i have to buy a ring!" he wasn't letting his child go without! he looked to horner and said, "i have to go. tell your daughter to meet me tonight! i'll have a ring for her, sir!" before he high tailed it out of the office.

horner dropped his shoulders. at least the kid was responsible. while he didn't know the details of exactly how you ended up in bed with his driver. but it could've been a lot worse. as he rubbed his temples, it could've been worse. it could've been verstappen. <3

[trans-axolotl]

so im going into therapy (or social work, more broadly) as a profession (in school rn). i know that not everyone in anti psych would support that, understandably, and im not under an illusion that therapy isnt tied to the whole system and process. but i want to bring a liberationist, anti-racist, pro-mad, and abolitionist ideology to help who i can

do you have any suggested resources or reading recommendations or idk any insight on how to inform the way i go about juggling anti psychiatry in a profession that is considered going hand in hand with it?

Hi anon.

I think there can be ways that people working in the psych system can leverage power and resources in a way where they're acting in solidarity with psych survivors and mad people, but in reality, this very rarely happens, even among professionals who identify as radical or as having lived experience.

Fundamentally, the psychiatric system is one that perpetuates structural violence, and in smaller and larger ways, anyone who works within the system to legitimize it contributes to and is complicit in that violence. So I think that for anyone who is planning to work within the system, you need to be upfront with yourself that there is harm occurring and that isn't something you can just ignore or act like that's something you're separate from. Even if you're not working inpatient or facilitating forced drugging of someone, there's still a lot of ways that therapists can be complicit in psychiatric violence.

One of the most obvious ways is through mandatory reporting. I believe that in order to be an ethical therapist you must break the law--mandatory reporting is a dangerous way that mad people are surveilled by the state, and therapists must work to interrupt that and prevent it. There are a lot of therapists out there already talking about practical ways to avoid mandatory reporting and how to be upfront with clients about it, and I can link some of that at the end of this post. I won't say it's always easy, but we have an obligation to each other to do everything we can to stop psych incarceration from happening.

I think there's a lot of ways that even outpatient, therapists are asked to enable other forms of psychiatric violence. Even if in your practice, you're really focusing on liberation, respecting autonomy, etc, there are ways that other psych professionals might try to get you to help them perpetuate different forms of harm. And because of your degree and licensure, there's this power imbalance between you and your client that means you do have the power to enable these kinds of harms. The degree next to your name means that you will always be believed over your client and that is a lot of power to hold. If you're working with a client with an eating disorder and their dietitian gives an ultimatum that they have to be hospitalized or they're refusing to provide care, what do you do? If your client's psychiatrist is refusing to answer questions or let them switch to other types of medications, what do you do? If your client is involved in a court case and you're getting subpoenaed for their medical records, what do you do? If your MSW program requires you to do one of your internships in an inpatient program, how do you prevent that from happening? There are a lot more examples I can think of, but these are just a few things I wanted to highlight for ways that therapy is still entangled in the larger system.

Another thing that feels important to me is to make the distinction between being a "good therapist" and helping people, because I don't think those things are the same. I see a lot of "radical" therapists get fixated on this idea that they need figure out ways to make the psych system run smoother, to improve access, to overall make the psych system better, and that this is the only way to help people. It's really important to be able to separate those ideas. For me, psych abolition is a project of building up our capacity to care for each other while destroying the systems that currently enact violence on us, and reformist ideas about expanding psychiatric systems, increasing funding, and legitimize psychiatric authority gets in the way of actually transforming care. I think in order to help people, you need to commit to being a "bad therapist" in the eyes of a capitalist healthcare system.

One recommendation I have is to read Franco Basaglia's writing and learn about his approach of the democratic psychiatry movement. As a psychiatrist, he saw his role as a way to disrupt the system and deinstitutionalize. He has this quote where he talks about how they weren't focused on eliminating problems, but rather on how deinstitutionalization would create more chaos and new problems--and how that created so much possibility for transformation. I think he's proof that there are certainly ways that psych professionals can act as accomplices who actually are in solidarity with psych survivors, but it's rare.

Last point I have is that although you gain something from professional training and licensure, there's also a lot you lose. MSW programs often don't actually teach you the skills you want to learn about how to actually support people--there's a lot you're going to have to learn from continuing education credits. From my friends who have gotten their MSW, I've heard a lot of complaints about how surface level a lot of information is, and also about how a lot of the way that information is taught reinforces hierarchal ideas and doesn't respect patient autonomy. I'll also say that gaining licensure oftentimes creates barriers for radical action--I've seen so many therapists who then become so attached to holding onto and not losing that licensure that they weigh it above mad people's lives. I've heard so many therapists say "Oh I can't speak up against restraint because I'll lose my job/I can't ignore mandatory reporting because I'll lose my license/etc etc etc." And I think that can be a really damaging mindset that harms your potential to actually help people. There are several therapists I know who are in the process of intentional de-licensure because of this, but regardless if you pursue that path or not, this is a mindset you need to be on guard against.

All that being said, I think there is a need for more abolitionist therapists who are able to help support our communities, both in terms of creating that space for individual support and on a collective level. There are ways that you can leverage your access to resources and the way you're seen as legitimate in the system to help advocate for people, get them support, and interfere with psych violence. I have a therapist comrade who keeps working in inpatient psychiatry specifically so that they can continue to sneak in banned materials to the ward, prevent illegal restraints, be involved in court proceedings as an advocate, connect people to mad liberation resources, let psych patients use their phone, document psychiatric abuse with the plan to fairly soon release that information as a whistleblower, and more that I'm not going to talk about publicly. They still grapple with the fact that they are currently perpetuating harm at the same time, but to them, it's worth it to be able to sabotage things in that way. And I think that there are ways that you can take the information you learn in your program that is actually useful and find ways to bring that directly to your communities, and that there is good you can. I just think you have to be very intentional and aware of what it takes to actually do that, rather than just staying complacent with the label of being a "radical therapist" without doing anything to make that true.

For resources--here's my psych abolition drive with a lot of different zines, books, workbooks on different psych abolition topics. I really would recommend reading Psychiatry Inside Out by Franco Basaglia as an example of successful psychiatric resistance.

I would also suggest checking out Mutual Aid/Self Social therapy--the people who created this project are trusted comrades of mine, have both gotten their MSW or LMFT, and they have a lot of helpful insight into how to navigate things like avoiding mandatory reporting, de-licensure, etc. They have a discord server and also have regular online MAST meetings to train people on what MAST is and how to set up a MAST collective.

Genuinely wishing you the best of luck through school and appreciate that you're actively thinking about these things.

[pomniegranate]

Heh, heeey, uh sorry for disappearing for like ... 3 hours... without a word. But I'm way better than I was earlier! Just .. needed a step away; it wasn't that the anon was even being a dick about it, it was more... that I was already in a bad mood and things were mentally piling on me and to get an anon about something not once, not twice, but three different occasions now when I've said I do the best I can here. I try communicating to the best of my abilities in every front but I do fault a lot. Bad anons don't normally ever come around here; I like the anon option open because 98% of you are funny and respectful about it.

And you guys know me, I'm the most understanding person to a fault; I guess it was probably bad timing .. and I'm a huge advocate regarding turning anon off when people are being unruly - but it just doesn't happen here enough to justify keeping it off. I have for the past 3 hours while I was gone and am going to re-enable. Just know for any potential people in the future who still want to be able to see and interact with my blog, to be on your best behavior. To avoid this stirring me up badly like it did this time, I'm just immediately blocking. I don't know what it means for you other than being unable to send me anons anymore if there's other consequences to it.

But thank you to everybody that was concerned, I love you guys genuinely so much. I'm okay now; spent time with my kiddo, took a walk, took a nap and did other things to pass the time until I felt more grounded again. I'm hoping to get back on the saddle though, boys. We can't Red Dead Redemption this shit without a good head on our shoulders. ❤️💙

[soapyghostie]

Hi! It's the Chucky anon! Here's my request <3

Chucky has murdered reader, but now she is stuck following him around as a ghost. She isn't like... an unstoppable evil, she just messes with him since she has no other option. Something like...

Chucky, whispering: "Don't you fucking dare..."

Reader, looking at him dead in the eye: (shatters a vase alerting the potential victim)

She has a lot of fun teasing him even when he is not out for the kill, so they end up warming up to each other during the moments where she doesn't try to frustrate his schemes

Thank you again! <3

Sorry for when I had to reject your request because my inbox was closed at the time. Also, I’m sorry you had to wait so long for me to write your request Chucky Anon. I’ve been so busy with finals and finishing up the Track and Field season that I haven’t had time to write. 😫 However, I hope this was worth the wait. Hope you enjoy!

Charles ‘Chucky’ Lee Ray

It’s been several weeks since Chucky killed you. The police had already uncovered your body, ran tests, identified that it was a murder, sent you off to the morgue to get you cleaned up for your funeral, and buried in the ground. Now here you are in all your glory, haunting his ass for all eternity. At first your ghostly presence initially terrified him. You can’t blame him because wouldn’t every killer’s worst nightmare be getting haunted by their victims??? Anyways, however, as time goes on, he begrudgingly starts to enjoy your company, finding it less lonely than being on his own. 

When you discover that you have the power to manipulate objects, it’s all over for Chucky. You are constantly pulling pranks on him, like rearranging his possessions or making strange noises at night. Chucky would be like: “I’m pretty sure I left my knife right here… where the hell did it go???” While you are snickering, knowing damn well where you hid it (on top of the cabinet where his short midget ass can’t even reach it). 

You often play tricks on Chucky to prevent him from completing his kills. This sometimes even inadvertently saves his potential victims in the process. Such as when you accompanied him on one of his killing sprees and he caught you staring at a vase, knowing exactly what you were thinking. “Don’t you fucking dare…” Chucky whispered threateningly and you just stare him dead ass in the face, shattering the vase anyways. Let’s just say that his victim got away that day.  

Although you reluctantly accomplice Chucky and assist him in his schemes, you love to sabotage them for fun. However, You often feel guilty about the innocent lives Chucky takes and you struggle with your role in enabling his actions. Due to that, you sabotage his schemes whenever you can (you have fun at the same time doing it though).

Despite all the pranks and tricks, you and Chucky develop an odd bond through shared experiences and a dark sense of humor. He’ll often find himself venting his frustrations and insecurities to you while seeking your advice and your companionship in moments of loneliness.  

Despite the close bond you and Chucky created, you secretly long for peace and closure, hoping to find a way to move on from your ghostly existence. Due to that, there will always be tension between you two, as you never forgot that Chucky is ultimately responsible for your death.

[wisejudgedragonhairdo]

My side of the @holybibly dumpster fire.

Since my moots, especially @moilele talked about the whole Valerie aka @holybibly situation in their posts about her, it's about time I shared my side of this whole fiasco she caused.

Warning: Contains a lot of swearing, mentions of rape, bullying, harassment and other distressing things. And I will not hold back nor take back anything I say.

DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE.

Now that aside....

Valerie aka @holybibly, you mean to fucking tell me that you chose to start A SMEAR CAMPAIGN AGAINST ME and @moilele by making hate posts about us AND send your bottom feeding, lowlife, braindead, deluded cult followers to harass her and me all because we chose not to support your sick, depraved behaviour in how you chose to treat @moilele for giving you constructive criticsim on your work!?!?!!?!

REVOLTING.

@moilele as well my other moots stated the truth in how you use the word "rape" in your fics without even bothering to give proper warnings to readers.

You even did so in your post you made for me on my birthday where it literally says "raping you" in the screenshot below, Valerie. And WITHOUT ANY WARNINGS WHATSOEVER.

When I saw this part on my birthday last year, I felt uncomfortable reading it but I brushed it off to avoid coming off as "ungrateful".

Now I could not care less of your weak, fickle feelings, Valerie as to make matters worse, you made a hate post about me for your lowlife gremlins to attack me and put dirt on my name LITERALLY A DAY AFTER MY 22ND BIRTHDAY which was this Monday week.

Imagine being in my position, where you're out in your town with your parent on a Tuesday afternoon, THE DAY AFTER YOUR OWN BIRTHDAY, you open up to Tumblr after being in uni for over 5 hours and you see this smear campaign of a post about you, made by a blogger you used to have high regard for and her cult zombies making hateful comments about you based on the twisted, false narrative that blogger chose to create about you. All because you commented on how poorly they chose to react to being given constructive criticism on their work on the day before AKA YOUR OWN BIRTHDAY, the very day before that narcissistic filth of a post was made.

Oh and along with them playing the victim in your DMs + violating your privacy, which is a human right to have privacy, by the way.

As a result to all this above, I was so distressed to the extent I cried in my bedroom after hours of holding back tears.

And I do not give a bloodied dead rat's ass if your demented, narcissistic ass and your mentally decapitated followers say I'm an attention seeker, an attention whore, I'm "playing the victim" or "I'm garnering sympathy" for saying how your vile actions affected me as I am spreading awareness to other people in this community about how much of an awful, detestable, piss poor excuse of an individual you are, Valerie.

And to @swtblue, who made a hilarious claim that I "betrayed Valerie" when I unfollowed her + called her out for her actions. Talk about being delusional. I don't owe that bitch a goddamn thing. Besides we weren't even that close even though we did talk a lot in summer 2024. 🥴🥴🥴 Also to all Valerie's dull-minded enablers who chose to attack me on her hate post for calling her out + liking that post (including my former mutual @therealcuppicake who I have blocked), especially that anon who supposedly "knew there was somthing weird about me".

How laughably pathetic, talk about being deluded pitbulls for a lowlife who's using you all to boost her fragile ego. But sure, go ahead, feel free to pretend you have this amazing intuition that supposedly proves I'm "fake" if that makes you feel better about yourself.🤣🤣🤣

I dare you all to say all that bullshit out of your rotten, decayed mouths you all got from sucking Valerie's unwashed clit, without going anonymous. I'll just laugh in all of your faces along with reporting and blocking you.🤣🤣🤣

Also another thing, Valerie. The fact that you USED THE WAR IN UKRAINE to justify your actions truly shows that you are a deplorable, vile, despicable, WORTHLESS PIECE OF REVOLTING SHIT THAT EVEN PIGS WILL VOMIT AT THE PURE THOUGHT OF BEING ANYWHERE EVEN REMOTELY NEAR YOU AND THEY LIVE IN FILTH!!!

I wouldn't even spit on you and your cult followers if you all were on fire. As a matter of fact, I WILL MORE THAN HAPPILY WATCH YOU ALL BURN DOWN TO ASHES CAUSE THAT IS WHAT YOU ALL DESERVE FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME AND @moilele .

As for you threatening to sue us for standing up for ourselves against your disgusting, barbaric behaviour, I say BRING IT ON!! Let's see how anyone in a court room will take you or anything you say seriously.🥴🥴🥴

Especially since YOU don't know the true, dictionary defintion of manhandling;

Manhandling: handle (someone) roughly by dragging or pushing.

NOT whatever bullcrap you said in this screenshot below.

Your whiny tangent about you being this supposed "princess who's VIP in your job" is all lies and bullshit to make yourself look more threatnening and intimidating than you actually are, Valerie.🤣🤣🤣

You want to start a battle with me and the people I care about? I WILL BRING YOU A FUCKING WAR.

I am not even the slightest bit afraid of you and neither are any of my moots.

I do not give two flying fucks about your mental health being "ruined" by the "bullyling and harassment" you supposedly got when @moilele 's OWN MOTHER had to make a statement to get you to stop tormenting her.

That is how vile and horrid you are, Valerie.

You dare send yourself and/or your minions to harass me and/or my moots, you and you cult followers will wish your parents smashed your head with a boulder when they birthed all your abominable asses once you're dealt with it.

You and your sewage minded enablers can laugh and boast all you want, karma will come back to haunt each and every one of you, especially you Valerie.

It may not happen immediately BUT IT WILL COME KNOCKING AT YOUR DOOR and me + my moots (along with everyone who supports us) will be there to laugh at you and mock you + your cult minions when it happens to you all.

And don't you even bother to come to me or my moots (especially @moilele) to attempt apologising to us when you and your flying monkeys get exactly what you all asked for as we'll laugh and ignore you along with me using your fake apolo-lies (misspelled on purpose) to wipe myself from your grotesque energy.

I will make sure EVERY-DAMN-BODY IN THIS COMMUNITY sees you, Valerie and your cult minions for who you all truly are: a bunch of contemptible, immoral, miserable, vindictive vipers who snuck onto the earth from the abyss of hell to demonise and terrorise innocent people.

And if that makes me fake, a backstabber, a liar, A VILLAIN, THEN SO MOTHERFUCKING BE IT. I'll more than happily be the villain when you are a spineless, weak, narcissistic, insecure monster with a superiority complex who needs your empty-headed army of leeches to feel better about yourself.

Now that I have finally said how I truly felt about this whole disaster Valerie created in this community...

To all my moots and my anonymous supporters, thank you so much for standing by my side through all this, this week aka my birthday week has been hard, no thanks to that vindictive, deranged Jezebel, Valerie and her daft, demented welldwellers making worse for me when this week was supposed to be my happiest week ever.

To everyone in this community who does not tolerate toxicity: Mass block and report Valerie aka @holybibly for bullying, harassing me and @moilele and making hate posts about us so she'll be forced to face the consquences of her actions.

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meandering post about reading Orson Scott Card again

I've been offline starting at 9pm every day (except once. I was drunk at karaoke and asked for anons at 8:30pm) for six weeks, with the result that in befuddled boredom two nights ago I picked up Orson Scott Card's Songmaster from the house bookshelf.

I read Ender's Game and three sequels when I was a teen thought the books were mid. Since those are OSC's best works I assumed he had nothing more interesting to offer me and didn't try more of him for fifteen years, but Songmaster was compelling enough that I immediately afterwards picked up The Memory of Earth, the first book of a pentalogy.

TMoE is extremely my jam: after humanity blows itself up on Earth, AIs monitor thriving human civilizations in the planets that survivors managed to escape to, and suppress any tech that enables large scale violence by exerting low key mind control via satellites. But forty million years pass, many of the satellites break down, and the AI needs help from humans to restore capabilities. Because as its control wanes, people are starting to e.g. conceive of airplanes or bombs again, and override the injunctions against entering military alliances more than two edges of connection away.

The AI is worshipped as a god all over the planet, but the fourteen year old protagonist that becomes one of the AI's agents tells the AI from the beginning that he'll break with it if its morality seems wrong to him. I like the fourteen year old – unlike Ender or Songmaster's protagonist (adult minds piloting ten year old bodies), he's a normal gifted kid who's unpopular 50% due to his ego and big mouth and 50% because he's socially inept and offends people even when he's trying to be nice.

Songmaster is also partly about a permanent solution to large-scale violence, albeit through one guy who establishes a monopoly on violence and sweeps in pax galactica. Both it and TMoE are preoccupied with the eradication of suffering from evil / human violence, which is closer to my resonant frequency than narratives about defeating particular people or ideologies. At the moment I can't think of any other book with such an insistent focus on the matter than T.H. White's The Once and Future King. It's hard to make a compelling story out of, and I don't think Songmaster really succeeds, but TMoE's premise is well suited to explore that. (I'm also enjoying the matriarchal culture where everyone is expected to have multiple serial-monogamous marriages.) After reading 70% of TMoE last night I wrote:

Usually when I read fiction there's a small part of me going, how can I use this as fodder for my own growth, how can I remix or improve or react against this, how do the author and I measure against each other? (If the quality and content are at an anti-sweet spot, the small part becomes quite large and I feel all teeth towards the author.) But on occasion I read something so close that the absence of that measuring-feeling is its own sensation – ego departs, or at least is split across two bodies. There's just amity and recognition

And it's pretty interesting to feel this way about Card for, well, the reasons.

(If you're familiar with Card drama none of the following will be new to you; I'm coming to it fresh so the rest of this post is me going "uh... wow")

I vaguely knew he was a homophobic Mormon who'd gotten into fights about gay stuff, but I couldn't tell from the Ender books I read. But in Songmaster his issues spring off the page in such a weird way. Every fifth Goodreads review of this book is "Card, u gay?" because, well,

(One review, possibly from a fellow Mormon, that went "Card, it's so sinful of you to be this gay in your novel". Why did he write this book that would predictably make everyone mad...)

it's full of gay male desire. The protagonist (Ansset) is approximately a castrato and characters notice him sexually a lot. The first and only time Ansset has sex it's with a Kinsey 4-5 male character he loves, who's married to a woman but has fallen in love with Ansset. It turns out the drugs Ansset took to prolong his singing career painfully and only-kinda-figuratively explode your balls when you have your first orgasm and you'll never feel sexual desire again. (You'd think his loving teachers would have warned him of that, but, whatever, they didn't.) The other guy is literally castrated in punishment for inadvertently torturing a highly valuable castrato. It's pretty bald: GAY SEX IS ALMOST IRRESISTIBLY TEMPTING BUT YOU SHOULDN'T DO IT.

(Sidenote: both Ansset and the guy's wife are very close and have a "there's enough love to go around" attitude about the gay sex initially, before they go "wait Josif is a SERIAL MONOGAMIST... he can only love one person at a time... the moment he had the gay sex his marriage was destroyed". It's funny in a mildly stupid way that Card would set up this parable of homosexuality destroying lives and a marriage but almost everyone involved is peacefully ready to sail into an open marriage. I guess it makes sense if you want to say very clearly that THE GAY PART IS THE BAD PART)

which is fascinating to me, because... why would you tell on yourself like that

(81k also told me secondhand of an essay? interview? where Card openly says "we have to stand against legalizing gay marriage because everyone will get gay married and society will collapse", so that's informing my read of Songmaster as well)

I am pretty dang open about my personal life online but if I had a lot of feelings I thought were disgusting and immoral I would not write a novel dripping with those feelings before pointedly castrating the leads for them. Especially if it wasn't relevant to the actually highbrow themes of (checks notes) winning over your adversaries with kindness and never relinquishing your monopoly on violence. I would be so so so so embarrassed to let this go to print, it's so psychologically transparent, what was he thinking

(Well, I assume he's a very different person with different social incentives. For all I know, people in his church went "hey Orson we read your book and it's clear that you're gay but signaling strongly that you won't give into the gay feelings, we're here for you, it was really brave of you to publish this".)

[honey-star-glaze]

Abs Saja dating hcs?

A response already! This is spectacular. Cheers, Anon 💗. I was a bit busy today so I posted this later than I would've liked.

Little warning though - this includes a bit of angst (a mention of passing away) and a squint of suggestiveness - but you'd have to squint really bloody hard at a specific line.

Requests are also still open! Ask away while you can.

Dating Abby Saja/Saja Abby will include a great many things, so buckle in. This is after the whole Gwi-Ma saga because he would be far too focused on amassing souls and doing his bidding.

★ This is going to include my general perceptions of Abby, how he'd interact with you in the presence of others and how he'd treat you when you're alone; this will also be before meeting and after meeting you.

GENERAL

Seeing as his body is curated for mass sex appeal and to fit a 'persona' within the Saja boys group, Abby has taken to his task as 'the ideal body idol' with a single-minded efficiency.

★ I think that any thoughts or worries of objectification in the idol industry aren't even considered by him (since he doesn't have a soul or actual identity that would distinguish him from others in Hell Joseon, and he wouldn't suddenly gain one after entering the human world again). So not many insecurities will manifest your relationship from his end.

"Do I have problems with the idol industry? No, not really. It's just me and my abs up on stage when I perform... Huh? Oh, yeah. The boys are there too, I guess."

★ Literally no thoughts, head empty - except he does have thoughts, but doesn't dwell on them as much as Jinu. This is partly because he doesn't see it as his role to be the 'thinker' and isn't tortured by past memories. So, Abby would buy you something just because he thought it looked cool, forgetting that you have an allergy or mentioned not liking it until he sees your face fall and you backing away from him.

"Baby, look at this! Babe, wait, why are you swelling-"

Or, alternatively...

"Why are you running?! Why are you running?" He says, as he chases you down the street.

The boys in general are a mass of instincts and as the most physically intimidating, Abby would be one of the first to act upon stereotypes and perceptions others have of him with his desires as a driving factor.

★ He'd probably be the first to step up in a situation that calls for intimidation, no matter how minimal.

Is that door-to-door salesperson bothering you? He's staring at them like he wants to eat their soul from behind you, even if in actuality he's simply curious about their intentions. And is that person blocking the aisle with their cart whilst deliberating over two cans of the same brand? He's striding over to them before you can reverse and make your quick escape down a different aisle.

"You don't wanna go down this isle? Why? But there's food here that you like." He'll say, clueless as he tilts his head before pushing aside the offending cart with one broad hand. The poor person will probably be shoved into the shelves with the cart.

ABBY SAJA: BEFORE MEETING HIM

The body Abby has is taken care of due to a mix of Demon magic mumbo-jumbo and performances, so his looks are preserved with an illusion to keep you from ever guessing his natural appearance. Before meeting him, you'll seldom see him outside acting on his own. Acting human and pleasant ironically drains a LOT of his energy, moreso than fully enabling his demon form and actively hunting for souls.

★ He honestly fails at acting human at times. You'd most likely have to be in the position of a bodyguard or work as security detail for Jinu to let you remotely close to Abby or the others, but even before meeting him you'd probably pass by him at night and see him eating an excessive amount of food or nothing at all because he simply forgot to.

He also sucks at hiding information on interviews, and so interviewers target him the most.

Like, Tom Holland levels of bad at hiding spoilers.

"I don't eat as much as a person with my body should? I'm honoured, truly." He's grinning with a hand on his heart and sultry eyes until an inquiry about his eating habits stops him dead in his tracks.

"What. What do you mean you're concerned about my health? I'll have you know that I'm-"

The man is dragged away by the collar before he outs himself as a Demon on public television whilst you're sat at home with your head in your hands. Or, if you're the interviewer, laughing behind them.

ABBY SAJA: AFTER MEETING HIM

Finding out he was a Demon would honestly be child's play with how many unintentional mistakes he makes simply because he didn't think at the time. Eating would be a big one, since he'd probably be inconsistent with it (i.e. learning to act human again) and after practices he'd have no energy to do anything for a while.

★ I think that he'd actually just forget to reveal to you that he's a Demon once you're in the later stages of a relationship. Before being in a relationship, he'd be cordial and charming enough to plant little seeds of doubt despite seeing evidence with your own eyes that no human can jump that high, nor run that fast and a singular one cannot spin that amount of times in a second - no matter how talented.

"But Abby, how did you-"

"The physique, babe."

"But how did-"

"The glutes, sweetcheeks."

"But-"

"It's all me."

You'd actually have to corner him with sufficient thought put into trying to oust him as a Demon. Not to mention the forethought to separate him from the group. How you started dating is heavily tied to this - Abby himself most likely suggested dating out of desperation, after realising that he couldn't enthrall or kill you.

★ If you're a Hunter who's entertained by him, you'll probably let him live another couple of months and go along with it for the sake of seeing him more desperate.

"Wait! If you date me, there are tons of perks..."

"...that aren't your death? Name one."

"I thought we could... Give me a moment... It'll come to me, but for now let's just bask in the silence..."

Just as you raise your weapon, he exclaims aloud with his palms out and panicked, "I was joking! Joking. Ha. About- ab- oh! How about... these abs? Free access to them, all the time?"

Best believe that even with his life on the line he's bargaining with his body and a smirk on his face.

★If you're an ordinary human who's deluded charmed enough to see past the death threats and the potential age gap (give or take 200 years) then he'd be ecstatic that he has his own personal soul to accompany him around. He'd probably show you off like a trinket or a new toy he's gained to the others.

"Have you got one of these? No, I don't think so." Romance just looks at him with thinly veiled disgust and trades a sidelong glance with Baby.

"Look at what I've got! Look at my gift-" Mystery walks right past him as if he's an apparition.

Abby would be absolutely insufferable (and he knows it) and Baby would 100% trip him up in practices whenever you attend. He'd consider it worth it just to watch Abby try to reign in his temper and not send him flying.

★ Most of the relationship will be trying to keep these two dunderheads apart because they're always antagonising the other (Baby moreso than Abby).

★If you're involved with the boys as a Demon yourself, or as a manager of the boys that tends to stay out of the spotlight, you'd notice his little mistakes over time and question him on it. It could come across as helpful advice mixed with blunt observations, but you would definitely catch him off guard.

"Your marks. Did you get them before or after you joined?"

"Well, I actually, I-" Abby cuts himself off, leaning in with the intent of erasing your memories.

"I don't care." You duck down and grab a garishly bright pink leather jacket. "Here - wear this. The patterns disrupt the look you're going for as the cutesy supporting lover in the music video. It throws the whole scripting off. Now, go. From the top, again."

He's left gaping, staring after you like a sculpted statue.

Either way, he's asking you out first.

ABBY'S OVERALL DEFINING TRAITS: STRENGTH, CHARISMA, INTIMIDATION.

★ Can he cook? No.

★ Can he clean? Also, no.

★ Will he get you a ring? He'd forget.

I'm going to hold your hand when I say this, but you'd probably have to do the actual romancing yourself, and often have to go back to places for him to grow familiar enough to remember by muscle memory. Even when you pass away and eventually leave him, he'd still go there whenever he's feeling down or wants to celebrate. You'll be a memory that he revisits frequently, if he's allowed to keep them.

★ Anything that requires a quick and efficient kill or swift chopping in the kitchen can be handled by him, provided you don't stumble in on him eating the meat raw. Do not leave this man alone in the kitchen or you'll find him trying to eat cleaning equipment and raw food with the same gusto.

"Abby. Your lips are red. Tell me you haven't..." Will unfortunately be a common phrase in the household.

JEALOUSY, JEALOUSY (?)

★ Doesn't register on his radar. He's a being driven by desire and, as pride in his looks is a big one (leftover from the influence of Gwi-Ma and Jinu's scheming), he cannot fathom why you'd want anyone other than him in a relationship.

His past history is murky and his morals dubious, but he honestly will not see anyone as worthy competition for your affection. Perhaps the other Saja Boys, but he'll most likely let his Demon side out to ward them off to know you're off limits.

"Where'd you go?"

"Out."

"Cool. Wanna watch a movie later?"

★ Abby is very physically affectionate to the point of overwhelming you, but can fall short in the face of emotional intelligence. Give him credit where credit is due though, he is trying. He's just failing, miserably.

"You're sad? I know what can fix it for you," he'll grin and shift his hips, leaning in with his eyes hooded and shining lips a breath away from yours. Seconds later, he's staring at a tablet screen, baffled at the process that led to the position he finds himself in.

"What, you just wanted a hug? Can do. But... there are so many other options..." He'll trail off in slight disappointment and mutter the other options to himself with you content in his arms.

HIS PLAYLIST

He's an actual gym rat even without having to go to the gym, so his playlist will probably be these same two songs played back to back on repeat until you're on the verge of strangling him (and he'd probably let you do it, too).

I had a whole gym segment prepared, but I feel that's enough for now.

★ Overall, I don't think Abby's persona changes much when you date him, and you'll have to be the one to adapt to his mannerisms as he adapts to human culture.

[chromieclipse]

I don’t mean to be someone to tell you what to do but I think you should keep the post up, not for like owning up to it reasons but because it would be interesting to see vess reacting to the knowledge that something really REALLY bad happens to noelle that involves the player’s direct input.

I totally get that perspective, and I'm kind of split on it myself, but specifically for owning up to it reasons; on one hand, I don't want to pretend that wasn't the implication I got at first through the way the ask was worded - on the other hand, I don't want someone to see that post out-of-context, and maybe attempt to find whoever sent that ask and potentially harass them, anon or not. I've seen people go to great lengths to track down one person.

If someone asks what happens, I will not sugarcoat it, and I do have the original reaction of Vess saved (alongside the ask), but I don't want people to potentially get the wrong idea about what the asker was implying without ALSO having the context that I was wrong.

I've seen how small things like that can get out of hand if not handled appropriately, and I want to avoid the possibility of enabling potentially harmful behavior, even towards someone people can't know, because the asker DOES know. The anon, whoever they are, may still see the way people react to that and take it to heart despite them being misunderstood. That isn't fair to them, especially when it's a mistake that I made.