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Hey mod I wanna say a like a week back I sent a long ass ask. On the game Monark if you see it feel free to ignore it. I feel it was too long eve for me.
But to get on Monark again. The premise of the game is "Controlling the madness" and how far one would descend into madness for their own selfish ego and for the ones they love. Would they be willing to cause chaos in the world. As the game Monark shows in its main cast. Sometimes even kind hearted people will say screw the world for the sake of a love one.
While this is rightfully selfish you still find yourself invested and rooting. For those characters it's neat
-Villain anon
//Love is a powerful force, as powerful as hate.
//And it can warp you into terrible things, I don't think I need to explain how the whole reason Anakin became Darth Vader was due to his fiancee dying.
//Not played Monark so I can't really commend but I believe this is where Moral Mystopia can play into view as people tend to have double standards for the protagonists.
//I would say more here but eh spoilers for later but you will see how love can make someone go mad.
//And not just the yanderes.
#review anon talks#villain anon#yeah i deleted the other ask#since it was too long#and i wanted to do other stuff#but love isn't always a good thing#its a equal force to hate#but hate isn't always bad#and love isn't always good#as you can get situations#that reverse the two situations
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Do you ship BartKon or Timkon or something else? Really, who do you ship Kon with? Maybe I want to hear all your ships
Just say as much as you want really
there's evidence for both my bartkon and timkon affinities on this blog (and the much rarer, most refined of timbarts)
the truth is i like pretty much any ship as long as its got an interesting dynamic to play off of (and usually comedy potential) and kon is a great character because he has an interesting dynamic with basically everybody
the yj crew in general has kind of a perfect blend of defined characters and interesting dynamics that could create all kinds of cool story potential, romantic or not. but vis a vis Romances Specifically..... hold on you've got me thinking about this now im gonna do a thing one sec
ok now that ive successfully pepe silvia'd this
cissie and anita are such perfect foils for each other man.... if yj 98 picked back up where it left off, i think anita's parents should be aged up again pretty quickly, but in the interim i would love to see these two forced into a caretaking duo
anita + slobo, self explanatory. nobody knows whats going on with them except for them and i think that's beautiful. matching each others freak 4ever
i think most of them should have unrequited crushes on each other bc it would be funny namely the slobo>thad>kon clone crush conga line + the kon>bart>tim pining isoceles
greta queen of unrequited pining she is out here stalking she is out here threatening perceived romantic rivals she is ending the world she does it all and not having powers would not stop her
tim dating bernard is canon but i think it would be funny if they're both also into kon (plus ideally steph would lowkey be dating tim too + dating cass but that's batfam shit Whatever)
medium hot take i think kon and cassie should date sometimes bc they're best friends and love each other. just constantly walking the line of platonic/romantic and changing statuses every other month
love cissiecassie but i also think it's funnier if they've never kissed and just thought really hard about it and there was never a right time
cassie + rose self explanatory they should invent new and fucked up ways to murder each other romantically
i also want cassie chronically fumbling a rotating cast of civilian/villain/hero side characters bc she's got that peter parker syndrome where she can pull anybody and everybody but the universe is not on her side when it comes to being a good girlfriend (especially now that dc seems committed to tim no longer fumbling all of his relationships. gang we need a fumbler and cassie is right there)
i realize now i made a chart for romance but the only two i have actually dating is tim/bernard lol. the rest are either unrequited or "it's complicated"
#asks#tinytoadnamedbob#cissie and anita tho..... so much potential#like the way cissie is alienated from hero work and leaves the game at the same time she inspires anita to join it#anita forced out of hero work bc of unfair responsibilities vs cissie always being dragged back into hero work against her will#the way they admire each other for what they each dislike about themselves#listennnn#makes me lose my mind dude#also anita/slobo and cassie/rose are equal and opposite dynamics 2 me#in which slobo inadvertently allows anita to be weird and unapologetic and angry and violent because he's all those things and more#and thats lowkey why she likes him#vs rose provoking cassie to be weird and unapologetic and angry and violent because SHE'S all those things and more#and its 100% why cassie fucking HATES her#like anita finds freedom and joy in discovering herself and what she can do#whereas cassie has a more rigid sense of self#so when her darker impulses and tendencies are provoked she freaks the fuck out because she doesn't recognize herself in it#delicious stuff man
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''After everything, the Hollow Knight's efforts may not have been entirely in vain...''
aaaaaand chapter 10! the grand finale!!!
Thank you so much to everyone who has taken the time to read this fic! Hope you enjoy <3<3<3
#Thus concludes my fic exploring Hollow's time spent with the Radiance.#I don’t talk a whole lot about the Radiance on here#She is so vengeful and cruel and I've never written a character like that before it was difficult but fun at the same time.#and honestly a lot of the time it was easier than writing Hollow#that was the real challenge !!#Tbh the relationship between them is the most difficult thing#its so interesting.#Two people forced together#and they hate/resent each other but at the same time they want each other in some way#The Radiance is so terrified of being alone#And THK is equally afraid of failing and letting her escape.#So they develop this terrible co-dependent relationship.#Attempting to please the other/make them stay#but at the same time#They're each others worst enemy!!#Like#What is that#Idk its been fun#hollow knight#hk thk#hk pv#hk the pure vessel#hk radiance#hollow knight radiance#hollow knight thk#hollow knight fanfic#ink of void quill of gold
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happy pride month everyone!!!
i've been looking at microlabels because i was feeling kind of inspired and i have been HORRIFIED to realize that one of MY microlabels has the most GOD AWFUL FLAG ive ever seen... i'm going to put it under a Read More because it's so ugly and because this post ISNT ABOUT HER, but i redid the flag myself, using some flower knowledge!
so behold!!!
the NEW AND IMPROVED.... SAPIO FLAG!!!
people who are sapio will start to feel a connection based on their partners' smarts and intellect! whether it's their verbocity, their quick-thinking, their mastery of their skill or interests, their certainty and astuteness will amaze and befuddle their sapio partner (which, in this case, would be me!!!)
inspired by the noble and beautiful IRIS, an orchid which is associated with intelligence, connection, partnership, and equality (purple irises in particular are associated with passion, the mind, and justice)! I literally just color-picked and adjusted it to be easy on the eye
so if you're like me and you've been wanting to rock a sapio flag that doesn't look like dogshit, this one's for you! go forth and use it to signal your appreciation/love/attraction to your clever-as-hell partner(s)!!!
original sapio flag under the cut... and no, i'm not joking...
THIS is the original flag. and brother... this is a face that only a mother could love 😔✊💔💔💔
#citrus rambles#happy pride ��#ive got a couple other microlabels i found that fit me - but all of them actually have very nice looking flags#no one knows who made the original sapio flag - but i was forced to do a little research when looking into it...#... and apparently the original was made by someone on reddit who color picked from pepe the frog???? of course - that's anecdotal...#...it entirely possible that whoever made it had a specific reason for the colors and never posted to reddit but i...#...coudln't find another story for it so!!! hell naw!!!#also apparently BEING SAPIO itself was apparently considered classist and people tried to change the name of it...#...but to be honest i think that's whack as hell. im not going to change MY LABEL because of connotations that someone else...#... made up because they wanted to be mad???? it seemed like most people who were against the term in the first place were...#... mad because quote unquote ALMOST EVERYONE WANTS AN INTELLECTUAL EQUAL...#...which - imo - isn't really what being sapio is about. don't get me wrong - i think i AM equal with all of my partners - but they...#...possess a singular knowledge or wisdom about things that i can't grasp - and it's inspiring and interesting to listen to them talk...#...and i think THAT is more about what sapio is. plus - i DO greatly value intelligence and maturity in my partners!!!#I dont think it should be CONTROVERSIAL to not want to date/deal with someone who's an idiot. im not interested in...#... spending valuable time and energy and affection on an adult toddler who can't listen to reason and who treats debates like...#... a domestic world war III - i shouldn't have to explain to a partner that the world is round; slavery is bad; and literacy is...#... important because its easier to turn ignorant people into impovershed people than it is to turn...#...learned people into impovershed people!!! i got better things to do with my time!!!!#also. please dont piss on the poor on my post. i know this is a robot blog but i wanted to have a little fun today asdkljaskd#also also. if you dont believe me about the original flag. literally just image search it with the term sapio. its so horrible.#i know that another flag exists for it already - but i think its also connected to the quote unquote NEW NAME for the label so...#...im not interested in using it.#also also also. sorry if i seem frustrated - i had no idea how much baggage was sitting on sapios until i started doing research...#...i dont doubt that there are classist and elitist sapios out there that are sigma/alpha-ing the hell out of the term...#... but thats not what most people who identify as sapio believe in - and throwing all of us under the umbrella of being...#... snobish assholes who hate poor people feels like it's in bad taste - considering all the ways that society in general throws queer...#...people under harmful umbrellas these days :/#plus. me and just about all my partners came from poverty - and i believe that they're smart as FUCK. being poor doesn't equal...#... being stupid. it just means you have to work harder to get to the same places that your wealthy peers get to go...
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Hey do you think Jamil has trouble seeing people his age as peers?
Like, growing up having to be a caretaker to a guy literally a few months older than him, always expected to act like the adult in the situation, expected to work with adults and adopt their perspectives and pick up their slack. Do you think he just, forgets sometimes?
I mean we've seen him go into caretaker mode with other sophomores, and the only people I've seen him take seriously are juniors like Vil who also act much older than they should have to (his reactions to Leona look more like a trauma response and I don't wanna get into it here). People like Malleus and Cater still somewhat get the caretaker treatment. Like I just highly doubt that he subconsciously realizes he's actually part of his age group
Aaand that inevitably brings up Azul, who also acts like he thinks he's older than he is. Whether you're looking at it from a shipping angle or not, he reacts to Azul like an actual peer. With older students, he seems more in his element but there's still a status hierarchy which he compulsively reacts to. With Azul he doesn't acknowledge any status worth respecting or see him as someone who needs to be looked after. He just bickers like an equal, in a way that implies he actually does see Azul as a real peer, like subconsciously he's categorized this guy into the same group as himself, who was previously alone on that level (he gets like this more with the twins too, over time, but it seems to start with Azul).
And my favorite part about this is, while that response stems from them both acting more like adults in general, they elicit a pettiness from each other which drags them both down to actually acting their own age, and I just love that. Their characters are perfect foils for each other and it seems to make them both less isolated in a way.
#idk how to fully explain this thought in the azul department#but other than that its... yeah. forced maturity is so fucking isolating#I'm not surprised the only people he seems to hang around with are the fish even though he claims to hate them#since they seem to be in a similar boat with that#jamil viper#on a more shippy note:#I feel like Jamil NEEDED someone who he didn't feel the need to respect. in order to avoid falling into programmed behaviors#he's able to be a person around Azul in a way that nobody else can give him#specifically because Azul CAN keep up. but doesn't command his respect in any way that his employers would force him to acknowledge#and stubbornly refuses to leave despite Jamil being an asshole in his desperate attempts to feel some sense of freedom and control#which results in him wearing himself out enough to calm down and socialize while actually being treated with respect and equality anyway.#And it seems like Azul needed to find someone that he couldn't just attain or control from behind his own walls#he's desperate for the attention of someone who refuses to let him play the role he's developed to distance himself from others#so he has to treat himself more like a real person in order to get what he wants#which is a guy who challenges him enough to prove that it's not just him and the twins vs the ignorant masses#he's spent so long building himself a fortress of wealth and arrogance to protect him from the rest of the world#and now he's faced with the fact that he can't stay in there and still get what he wants no matter how many well practiced tricks he uses#and suddenly they're both just teenagers bickering in school with a peer like everyone else for the first time in their lives#this got off topic
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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic Characters: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead Additional Tags: Ficlet, Past Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Shirakumo Oboro/Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic, Horror, Canonical Character Death, Angst, Sleep Paralysis, Unreliable Narrator Series: Part 3 of Soft’s Twt Threads Summary:
There’s something dead outside his window.
#dipped my toes into horror with this one lads#and i truely mean dipped this one be Short#but its also kinda why im posting my threads#i can get such good prose in my threads that for whatever reason i just cant get the hang of for full fics#theres some kind of block in my head that only lets me do ‘proper realistic’ writing for fics#and something more experimental that i can tap into for shorter threads#i dunno#but im super proud of my threads and i hate that they just get buried on twitter#hence this series#i wish i had the bandwidth to extend this and make it a proper scene but i know i wont so im not gonna force myself to try#i still have so many things that i want to finish that trying to force something new when im already so stretched is just a bad idea#but im still super happy with this thread and thats good enough!#word count doesnt equal quality or worth!#it’s hard to be the bard#erasermic#erasercloudmic#aizawa shouta#eraserhead#oboro shirakumo#loud cloud#bnha#mha#go beyond plus ultra
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Oof.
Estryd's return to the temple of Bhaal was painful this time for different reasons.
Estryd's relationship with the temple and her father is a bit more complex in this playthrough. Though she did have a period where she actively resisted it all, she eventually fell in line.
She learned to accept the urge and try to work with it. The temple had, until recently, always been the only safe place she could return to when people learned her true nature and turned on her.
She hates her father but she loves her father. The urge comes from him, it's intrinsic to being the God of Murder. They are the only two beings who can really understand what that means and in Estryd's eyes, that gives them a closeness that she will never have with anyone else. And yet, Bhaal keeps her at a distance. She prays often, he rarely responds. Nothing she does is ever good enough. His control of her life is absolute.
Estryd's issue with the urge has never been about wanting it gone, it's been about wanting more control and independence in her own life. She is a-ok with being the bringer of end times. She has accepted that is what she must be. But until the time comes when she must enact Bhaal's plan, she wants to be allowed to choose not to kill people she doesn't particularly want to, whether that be for pragmatic reasons or because she cares for them personally.
That's it, that's all she's wanted.
When Estryd asked for this at the temple, Bhaal responded by killing her.
#literally chose an option at the temple that sounded like she was bargaining with bhaal#asking for a guarantee that if she accepted the slayer power Bhaal/the urge would not force her to kill her friends#and bhaal basically said she was a disappointment and did not deserve his godly essence#she's just wanted to be on equal footing with him this whole time :(#she doesn't hate him#(its ok though bc she's going to ascend with Gale and they're all going to have the most awkward family dinners in the outer planes)#evil estryd#estryd 2.0#becca no
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remmick and the vampires present a false dichotomy
Hogwood (the man who sold the twins the mill) and the KKK are very obviously bad, they are outright malicious bigotry, they use the n-word and plan to lynch the moore's and their community, they are so blatantly racist and hateful it's unavoidably obvious
remmick and the vampires however say that they believe in equality, say that they want to create a community, and yet remmick's goal throught the movie is to both metaphorically and literally steal sammie's ability for his own goal of reconnecting with his irish ancestors, a white man wants to harm a young and upcoming black man and use talents for his own goals without giving any regard to said black man's autonomy or agency
when sammie sings 'I lied to you' in the juke joint and calls forth the spirits from the past and future, it's a blend of cultures; west african, east asian, native american, and african american song and dance blend together across time and space to tell the stories of blues; where it takes its inspiration from, the music genres it then inspired, the complex history of black american culture and its intersections with other peoples of colour in the USA
when remmick and the vampires kill and turn the people in the juke joint, and then perform rocky road to dublin, only remmick's irish culture is on display, there is no influence from the black and asian people he has forcibly assimilated into his song, it's juxtaposition with the earlier scene is blatant, remmick is more than happy to assimilate people of colour into his 'community' of 'equals', and yet its only whiteness that is celebrated, that is normative
remmick claims that he's doing people a favour by turning them immortal, conviently ignoring that he literally has to suck the life out of them to do so, trapping their spirits on earth, he claims that he's the good guy, that the KKK were gonna come and lynch everyone at the joint in the morning anyways, conviently ignoring that he's doing the exact same thing; a white man leading a mob to kill a bunch of black people
in the final confrontation with sammie remmick repeatedly dunks him into the river, a forceful baptism. both the celtic irish and enslaved west africans had their religions suppressed and destroyed by colonialsm, had christianity forced upon them by the british empire, and in that scene we see remmick repeating that cycle, using christianity to inflict harm, and sammie reclaiming christianity, despite all the complex emotions he has arround it, as many colonised peoples have and still do, when he recites the lord's prayer
remmick and the vampires are no less racist than hogwood and the KKK, are no less predatory or evil, they're just less blantant about their bigotry, they represent the system, the normalised white supremacy that is seeped into the very foundation of culture in america, the point isnt that remmick would call any of the black characters in the movie the n-word, i dont think he would, the point is that his exploitation and desacration and inserting-himself-into-when-he-wasn't-invited of the juke joint is a microcosm of what white people have done to black american arts and culture since ever since there have been black and white people in america, and even before that
theres a reason vultures are shown early on in this movie
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gryffindor!gojo now has come to the sensible conclusion that you despise him.
you roll your eyes whenever he jokes. you look away when he comes near you. you whisper something your friends that makes him laugh whenever he says something stupid in class. and had it been anyone else he wouldn’t mind. but for some reason, he minds when it’s you.
and despite the fact that he’s racked through his mind to think about why, he can’t come up with anything.
but he thinks he gets a little closer to cracking your cold exterior when on an equally cold day he finds you waiting outside the transfiguration room, shivering, waiting for some of your friends. when you see him walking nearer you grumble something under your breath.
“cold?” he asks with a tilt in his voice, his blue eyes gleaming as he stops in front of you. your shivering, arms wrapped around your body as your teeth chatter. you glare up at him in annoyance.
“i’m actually a bit warm,” you mutter sarcastically resting your shoulder on the wall as you look away from him.
he takes this time to admire your features. the slope of your nose and the flutter of your lashes. had you not hated his guts he might’ve found you cute.
“you fancy a trip to madame pomfrey?” gojo asks and you snort.
you’re only wearing a sweater, clearly not anticipating the halls to be so cold. gojo stares at you a little longer, and you feel a little bit of heat rise to your cheeks.
“i should pay you for how much you stare,” you murmur, “an hourly rate.”
gojo smiles a little bit. at least you’re talking a little more now.
he goes to unbutton his robe, his nimble fingers working fast as they unhook the buttons from their hooks. you watch in silence as he shrugs it off of his shoulders, holding it towards you.
you look at him in confusion, brows furrowed and lips drawn in perplexity.
“i’ve got enough layers,” gojo says with a shrug, forcing the cloak towards you, not liking how still you’re staying.
he can see the fight in your eyes the way you look from his outstretched arm to his face and then back to the cloak. he sees how much you want to give in, to just give up for once.
but you shake your head, looking away from him.
“i’d rather freeze to death,” you say, looking at the transfiguration door swing open as students came pouring out.
you don’t glance at him as you make your way to your friends, a genuine smile making its way on your face as you greet them.
and gojo stands there, with his cloak in his hands, in silence. and then the silence brews. the olive branches he’s extended for no reason going up in flames as his usual happy demeanor cracks and a scowl makes its way into his face,
your feeling is now mutual.
#gojo x reader#gojo x reader angst#gojo x you#gojo drabble#satoru x reader#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jjk drabble#gryffindor!gojo
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Dani/Ellie as a member of YJ or Teen Titans.
The team is helping the JL with an all hands on deck apocalypse on earth. They are losing badly. She looks around herself, at the destruction all around her, squares her shoulders and says 'looks like it's time for the nuclear option... DADDY!!!!'
I didn't know if you've seen the post where a scary Danny got summoned instead of Klarion and everyone (heroes and villains) was getting ready to team up because of how scared/intimidated they were. That's the Danny I'm picturing answering his daughter's call for help. Maybe with an equally scary Fright Knight sword already drawn at his back.
The team was struggling with keeping the villains at bay. This was supposed to be a coordinated attack with the Justice Leauge, moving simultaneously on the other world.
Earlier yesterday, the Light had organized for reality to split apart, forming two worlds. One contains children, and the other includes adults, causing the opposite age groups to vanish before the eyes of horrified humans.
To the adults, their kids were taken in a flash worldwide. To children, their parents went missing in the same flash. It was chaotic, and if it had not been for Captain Marvel, they would have never figured out what was happening.
Dani was a little peeved that she was on the child's side, but despite being a princess of the Infinite Realms, her body technically did not form until four years ago. For all intentions and purposes, she is sixteen. So she stayed with Young Justice, following the kid's command and feeling alive.
She may request to be placed on the Team when this is all over. She sends an energy blast towards Klarion, watching the little Lord dodge with a laugh. He sends back a wave of magic that would nearly knock her out of the air if not for her gritting her teeth and digging in her heels within her ectoplasm.
She always hated dealing with the stupid Lord of Choas. They gave her Dad nothing but trouble whenever he called a court. Everything Danny suggested was a challenge on the grounds of attempting to "control" their disorder.
Honestly, Dani preferred dealing with them than the Lord of Order. They were a bunch of self-righteous uprights who didn't care about who was hurt in the process of their justice. At least the Lord of Choas admitted they were monsters.
Oddly enough, she was grateful Klarion wasn't treating her like the princess she was. It made work so much easier when he allowed her to attack him and vice versa.
"Echo!" Robin runs towards her, waving a hand. "Maneuver seven!"
She nods, abandoning her stance to shift her flight path into a large arch. Her hands clasp into a tight cup as she speeds back up into the air. Robin doesn't miss a beat, launching himself at her just in time to press his foot on her clasp hands, using them and her upward rise to launch himself clear across the field to land a mighty kick on Teekl.
It lets out a howl that quickly gathers the attention of the angered Lord of Choas. Seeing her chance, Dani fires more energy blasts, quickly forcing the witch boy into a defensive position.
She pinned him for a few seconds while Kid Flash raced toward the marking on the ground. Dani grunts to shift the ectoplasm in the air into a long beam, firing it straight at Klarion's shield.
A few cracks are forming around the dark red dome, and she is just about to break through when Teekl comes out of nowhere. A roar is the only warning she had before the blasted cat slams into her, claws digging into Dani's side, and she can only scream as the pair fall.
"No!" Kid screams somewhere behind her, but Dani can't turn since she is holding the claws of the large cat away from her and pressing into the ground to stop it from tearing her face off with its fangs. Its sneering face looms over her, snapping at the air, while her arms tremble with the force of holding the large beast at bare.
Getting her wits about her, Dani uses a ghostly wail to get the cat off her. Teekl is flung through the ai,r landing in a heap by Klarion's side.
The witch boy gasps, "Teekl!"
Dani heaves herself to her side, legs turn, and oozes a mix of red and green blood. Teekl had managed to claw at them during the fall, which meant she couldn't stand, let alone fight, for a good while.
Panting through the pain, Dani presses her hands to leg, attempting to put pressure on it. Her vision goes in and out as white-hot fire races up her legs and body. The Team struggles with an outraged Klarion just a few feet away from her.
Dani wishes, not for the first time, that she was a perfect clone of Dani. If she was, she would have all of his powers, including super healing and duplication. Instead, she sits like a heap, an utter liability to the team, as Klarion dances circles around them.
It pains her to do it, but Dani starts to drag herself away from the battle, realizing she needs to put space between herself and the danger. If the Witch Boy or his stupid cat realizes they can use her as a hostage, Dani will never live it down.
She is just about to drag herself to the tree line when she notices Zatanna raise her hand and speak in rapid-fire magic. A nearby bush drops its illusion to show a very familiar helmet. Dani's eyes widened in alarm, and she took it into her hands and slid it right on.
"Zatanna! Wait!"" She hears herself scream, but it's too late. The girl's body has become a vessel for Nabu, the champion of the Lord of Orders. She really hates those guys.
Zatanna rises into the sky, now dressed as Dr. Fate, flickering in and out of sight as the split realities mess with Nabu's anchor.
Klarion taunts him for it, seeing this as a chance to take down the ancient Dr.Fate, but Dani has other plans. Raising her hand, with every last ounce of strength she has, Dani aims one last good ecto-beam towards the crystal in the center of the spell runes.
It shatters the crystal in a thousand pieces, sending a shock wave of magic across the field. Klarion throws a fit, like the immature brat he is, before he calls back his stupid cat, and the two vanish into a portal. If Dani was feeling better, she would have chased after him.
Captain Marvel beams back into their reality, informing them the adult magic casters were all defeated by the Justice League. Everyone breathes a sigh of relief when Dr. Fate and Zatara med the two worlds back together
Superboy rushes over and leaves Dani in his arms, mindful of her wounds. She offers him a soft thank you, which earns her a grunt in acknowledgment. Not one for words, that Conner Kent.
She thinks about the Conner Kent of another universe, this one younger and more arrogant, running around in leather jackets and piercings but a Young Justice member all the same. One day, she should introduce the two. If the fabric of realities didn't fall apart upon their meeting.
Dani is snapped out of her thoughts when the pair get close enough for her to make out what Zatara is begging the Order Champion. Her mouth falls open as Dr. Fate refuses to leave Zatanna's body.
"Kent would never allow-"
"I have sent Kent Nelson's soul to the afterlife." Dr. Fate cuts off Kid Flash with what sounds like a coldhearted taunt to Dani. The way he uses Zatanna's voice makes her skin crawl.
"Take me," Zatara offers desperation in his voice. "My body is at its peak, my magic stronger than my daughters. Use my-"
"No!" Dani shouts, flailing in Conner's arms. Her ectoplasm boils in her veins when she points an accusing finger at the flowing Dr. Fate. "Nah-uh. This is against the law, and you know that, Nabu!"
"You know not what you speak of,child-" The ass tries, but Dani won't hear any of it.
"Long-term overshadowing of any living being is against Infinite Realms law." She sneers, facial features slightly less round and more uncanny with her anger. Around her, the Team is staring wide eyes.
Oh, right, this version of the Team has never seen her proper Phantom form. They only know Echo- named after being the copy of the great hero Phantom- who looked awful like her human form, just color flipped.
Her Halfa form was much more appealing than her entire ghostly appearance.
Dr.Fate crosses their arms. "Against a mortal will. This child willingly gave her body to me in exchange for aid in combat. I broke no law."
"Oh yeah! We'll see what the King has to say about that!" She screams, and finally, Nabu seems slightly worried, but it vanishes quickly as he jolts Zatanna's chin at him. Using her friend like some sort of meat suit.
The nerve.
"The King has better things to do than heed the call of an unimportant child." Nabu hisses, and yeah, she's going to make him pay for that.
"It looks like it's time for the nuclear option, just remember Nabu, the Lord of Order's Champion, you brought this upon yourself." Reaching out with a hand shaped entirely of ectoplasm, Dani launches a blast at Nabu.
The Team screams, Kid Flash's voice rising about the others. "No! Zatanna feels ever hit you land!"
"Echo, stand down!" Batman commands, but Dani doesn't pay them any mind as her attack lands against Dr. Fate's cross shield. She smirked, willing her glowing hand to rip a piece of the shield and fling it back towards her.
Conner nearly drops her as Dani slams the pieces into her leg, allowing them to cover up Teekl's magic. Wobbling her lips and letting the water fill her eyes, Dani lets out a whine and then a scream.
"Daddy, help!"
At once, the field is overflowing with death magic. Every living being in the area- including the animals in the forest- is brought to their knees as a fear unlike anything they have ever experienced digs its way into their very souls.
Conner falls to his knees dropping Dani in the process but she doesn't mind. She is too busy enjoying the way Dr. Fate's entire body has gone rigid as one glowing green eye snaps behind him. Zatanna small figure is no bigger then the pupil of the glowing eye, her body bath in the glow of it's green light and even the moon pales in comparison to the might of it's shine.
The eye quickly gainst a smile, stretched across a row of sharp teeth, then a second eye, a nose, and slowly Danny, King of the Infinite Rleams, forms in front of everyone's eyes.
The sweet smell of terror fills the air as Dani breathes it in.
Danny stares at the overshawed girl, eyes locked on Nabu who is resting just behind the layer of her skin, and glares. "You have brought harm upon my heir."
Nabu is too terrified to move, so Dani puts on a bigger show, letting tears roll down her face as she calls up, "He stole my friend too! He overshadowed her and won't give her back!"
Danny's face clouds with rage. "You have taken my heir's love. Release her."
Woah, hey now, no need to out Dani like that. Blushing, Dani ducks her head as Nabu quickly allows Zatanna to take off the helmet. Danny's large hand reaches towards the helmet, ripping out the spirit of Nabu, who wails in horror as the King drags him towards a portal. "You shall face trial for these actions."
"No! Mercy, your majestic, it was for the purpose of order!" The ghost cries, but his pleas fall on deaf ears as skeleton ghosts burst out of the portal, dragging the kicking and screaming ghost through. The portal slams closed with a loud crack, Nabu's screams echoing across the field.
Danny turns his large head towards the cowering group of mortals before the pointy-dark features of death melt away into a warm human face. It's a whiplash of change as the air shifts to comfort and personified sunshine when the King smiles. "Dani, I just wanted to let you know how proud I am you joined a hero team. Visit home a little more often and bring your friends."
"I will, Dad. Thanks." She beams back as Danny's large finger presses into her side, and his healing magic overflows her body. He does the same to all of her teammates and Justice League co-workers.
They are too petrified to move or thank him for the healing, but neither is Phantom Mind.
Danny nods, winks, and then vanishes like he was never there. Slowly, sound returns to the world- the leaves rustle in the wind, and animals begin to chirp.
"Well," Dani starts, climbing out of Conners's arms and dusting her outfit. "Who wants victory fudge?"
She gains a lot of round-eye looks, and when no one answers, she sighs, "I guess we can do victory pizza instead. But I demand one kind of sweet, or I'm going home to my father to complain."
#dcxdpdabbles#dcxdp crossover#Echo's Dad#Part 1#Young Justice Cartoon#Dani travels through dimensions#Liked this one and stayed#Never mentioned who her dad was#Danny is scary#Zatanna takes her up on that date later on#Robin kicks a tree#Don't worry Nabu is released on a warning but he won't take over someone life anymore#Danny is Dani father
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Chapter 1
series masterlist Summary: In the time between when he took you to now, something changed. His hands grew gentler. Your fear turned quiet. And somewhere in the stillness, love kindled. || angst, trauma, captor!joel, raider!joel, a little bit of dark!joel, kidnapping, dark themes, morally gray comfort, Pre-Boston QZ, slow burn, I know this is different than what I usually write but just hear me out okay, mentions of reader's body being thin / starved, promise she won't hate him forever ||
“Come here.” His voice commands. Though it’s…soft. Not cruel, not mean. Not anymore.
You move without hesitation, the old floorboards warm beneath your skin as you settle in front of him. The fire crackles before you—not roaring, not needed, but kept. For cooking, maybe. For comfort. For the hush it brings. Its glow paints you both in amber and shadow. His old armchair groans when he shifts, knees spread, a hand already reaching.
His fingers are warm and gentle when they gather your hair, no longer forceful or angry. The brush is missing bristles, its wood worn soft with time. He drags it through your hair from scalp to ends in slow, even strokes. It used to make your chest seize. Now, it soothes.
The brush catches slightly on a knot near the base of your skull. Your breath hitches. Slowly, his fingers work to ease it loose, and the fire shifts—another log settling into embers, sending a soft crackle through the room.
Your eyes stay locked on the flames as you exhale. They flicker and split, burning low and orange, lapping up dry pine with bursts of ember. You watch one flare brighter than the rest, then fade back down.
It’s calming, in a way. Destruction that doesn’t scream anymore.
You don’t scream anymore either.
“No!”
“Stop fightin’ me, you stupid girl.” he said, hauling you inside the cabin. Your fingers scrabbled for the frame of the door, nails catching and tearing on splintered wood. It bit into your skin, but you held on anyway, fingertips screaming in equal protest as your lungs.
“Please!”
You thrashed in his grip, every breath a sob.“I’ll be good—I swear—I swear—I won’t tell anybody, just—please—”
He slammed the door shut with his boot, and the sound echoed through the empty house like a warning.
Then he dropped you.
Your knees hit the cold wood with a sharp crack that made you cry out again, but he didn’t flinch. He stepped around you, unhurried, as if he had all the time in the goddamn world. He set down his rifle next to the dusty chair, peeled off his gloves, and sat down. Dust exhaled into the air as he made himself comfortable, knees spreading as he sat forward.
“Come.”
You did no such thing.
“Please–” your voice broke as you cowered away, “please, just take me home. I won’t say anything. No one will come after you.”
His face turned cold, lip curling into a snarl as he reached forward for you, hauling you between his knees.
“No!” you yelped, bracing your hands on his shins. But to your surprise, he turned you around, your back to him as he held you by the hair.
“Stay.” he said, voice deep and rough before releasing you.
He rooted through his bag until he pulled out a battered old hairbrush. You saw it coming and tried to move, but he yanked you back by the collar.
“Don’t make me hurt you.”
That stopped you.
The first pass of the brush was rough—tugging, catching, dragging through the nest of knots like they were punishments. You whimpered, tears falling down your face, but he didn’t pause.
He kept brushing.
“You think they give a rat’s ass where you are, girl?” he grumbled, the brush catching on one especially nasty tangle. He tried to force the knot to loosen, your head snapping with every brush through.
“I saved you from those fuckers,” he growled.The brush yanked again and your breath hitched, a fresh tear tracking down your cheek.
“You took me,” you whispered, voice shaking.
The man didn’t answer right away. Another brutal pass through your hair. Another wince.
“I did what needed doin’.” he said, low and final. “You were already dead there. Damn skin and bones. They just hadn’t finished the job.”
You didn’t understand. Not really. Not then. You were too raw—scared down to your bones. His words were smoke in your ears. Meaningless. All you knew was the pain. The cold floor biting into your knees. The sharp tug of each stroke through your hair.
“You’re hurting me,” you whispered. Small. Barely there.
But he paused.
His hand came to the nape of your neck, and you flinched—but he didn’t grab. Instead, he cupped your hair in his calloused palm, bracing it so he could brush again without jerking your head back anymore. It was still rough, but no longer violent.
Eventually, the brush stopped. You didn’t move besides the trembling in your body, tense in fearful anticipation.
He didn’t say a word. Just took your hair again, fingers scraping the back of your neck as he pulled it together. Goosebumps rippled across your skin. You squeezed your eyes shut.
The only sounds in the room were the pull of your hair being gathered and your own quiet sniffles, the rustling of his pack. He dug for something, muttering low under his breath as he pulled out a strip of some sort of material. He fastened your hair and let it drop back down onto your spine. Without thinking, you reached back to feel it.
Your hair was pulled neatly into a three-plait braid, tied off at the end with some kind of string—maybe leather. Maybe cloth. It didn’t matter. It was tight. Secure.
Your fingers lingered over it, uncertain.
“Look at me.” His voice cut through the stillness—quiet, but sharp. It made your stomach lurch.
You stayed staring at the cold, empty hearth.
“Look at me, girl.” More firm now. A command.
You sniffled again before hesitantly looking over your shoulder.
He was scary. Broad and thick and scarred. His worn, weathered face carved by years of hard living. There was a horizontal scar deep across the bridge of his nose. His jaw was clenched, the muscle twitching with restrained fury. There was a permanent crease between his brows, like the world had never given him a reason to relax.
He looked like violence wrapped in denim and flannel.
But God—He was beautiful.
Not soft, not safe. But striking in a way that made your throat tighten. His features were sharp and grounded, the kind of face you’d see in an old war photograph, kept in someone’s wallet long after the man was gone. There was something ancient in the set of his mouth. Something sad, maybe.
And his eyes. Hazel, a thousand colors flecked in them: gold, green, something earthy. For a moment, you wondered what they’d look like on a summer’s day.
Then he pointed to the floor beneath you.
“This is your home now,” he said, voice cold and sure. “You run, you try anything—I will find you. If you don’t do as I say, there will be consequences. Do you hear me?”
You swallowed, breath shivering as his words soaked into your skin like ice water.
“When I speak, you answer, girl.”
Your lips parted. You couldn’t think. Could barely form sound. The fear was still there—thick, in your lungs—but underneath it, something else was rising. Something wrong.
“Please, sir,” you whispered. “Why are you doing this? Please take me home.”
His face didn’t change. But his eyes—they dimmed a little. Like you’d said something that hurt.Or maybe something he didn’t want to admit was true.
For a long moment, he didn’t speak. Just looked at you.
And then, quiet and final:
“I saved you.”
The minute he stepped into another room, you ran.
It didn’t matter that your feet were bare, already torn open from the icy ground and jagged underbrush of late winter. It didn’t matter that every root, every thorn, seemed hellbent on keeping you close—slashing, snagging, clawing at your legs like the woods themselves belonged to him.
It didn’t matter that you had no idea where you were.
When he’d taken you, your panic had been so complete, so loud, that he’d had to knock you out just to haul you over his shoulder. You remembered the swing of his elbow. The flash of sky. Then nothing. Just waking up at the edge of this old cornfield, body limp against his back as he brought you here.
But now—now your hands were outstretched, heart slamming in your chest as the tree line formed in front of you.
Freedom.Freedom!
You could almost taste it. Cold air in your lungs. Your braid whipping behind you, your knees buckling but still moving, still flying toward the shadows of the woods, the camouflage it would give you. Even if you got lost. Even if you died of frostbite. You’d take that over this.
But fate had never been that kind to you.
A shadow surged behind you. Too fast. You didn’t even have time to scream before an arm looped tight around your waist, hauling you backward mid-step. Your body crashed against his hard chest, heavy breath, arms like chains locking you in place.
“Let me go!” you shrieked, thrashing in his grip. Your nails clawed at whatever you could reach—his arm, his coat, the skin beneath. “GET OFF ME!”
“Stop it—” his voice was a harsh bark in your ear. “Stop.”
But you didn’t. You couldn’t. You threw your elbow back, aiming for anything that would give. You screamed like an animal, legs kicking, dirt flying beneath you.
Then your momentum shifted and he lost his footing. You both went down hard, bodies hitting the cold ground in a tangle of limbs and breath and fury. He landed on top of you, the weight of him knocking the air from your lungs. You tried to crawl forward, to squirm away, but his hand slammed against the dirt beside your head, pinning you there. His other arm looped under your chest, dragging you back into his body as you bucked and sobbed.
“Get off me!” you sobbed. “Let me GO! You’re a monster—you’re a fucking monster—”
“I told you not to run,” he snarled, face pressed to the side of your head. “I told you.”
You writhed harder, but he held you firm. His grip was bruising. His breath hit your cheek in hot, angry bursts.
“Dammit, girl. I told you not to make me do this.” he growled, and suddenly his weight was off of you, but as you tried to pull yourself up, something hit the back of your head.
And suddenly, there was nothing.
Your head throbbed.
Not just pain—a pressure. Like the inside of your skull was pulsing against your skin, trying to split itself open. A migraine made of lightning. Every breath sent a bolt of nausea down your spine.
You tried to move, to shift onto your side, but something stopped you short. Your arms tugged, and a scraping sound echoed beside you. Your wrists were bound, fabric biting at tender skin, looped through the cold metal bars of the rusted radiator beside you. One good yank and you’d dislocate something—but you tried anyway.
Panic flooded in like water through a crack.
You kicked, scrambled, your back pressing flat to the wall, shoulder blades scraping rough drywall. The room spun too fast, too bright, too loud, and your stomach turned as you realized the weight of the restraint wasn’t going anywhere.
You screamed.
It was a ragged, broken sound, high and wet and animal.
“LET ME GO!”
No one answered.
You screamed again anyway, throat raw, vision doubled, bile creeping into your mouth.
There was a mattress in the corner, no frame, no sheets. A chipped dresser near the boarded window. A dusty mirror leaning against the wall, turned away. This house was dead, abandoned, stripped of anything good.
You curled tighter into the corner, knees drawn up, arms pinned awkwardly by the ties at your wrists. Your breathing was shallow, rapid. You were crying and you barely realized it.
But above the sound of your shallow sobs, you heard something more terrifying. Heavy footfalls on the hardwood, floorboards creaking, and you flinched when the door opened. It creaked on warped hinges and let in a blade of silver light from the hallway.
He saw you curled there, eyes wild, lip trembling, and his mouth twitched—but it didn’t turn cruel. Didn’t even turn cold. It was something else. Weariness, maybe. Or guilt.
You hoped it was guilt.
“I brought food,” he said simply.
You lurched backward into the wall as he moved towards you with a tray in hand. Your legs kicked uselessly at the floorboards, and your voice exploded out of you before you could stop it.
“Don’t touch me!”
He didn’t. Just crouched low by the door, setting down a dented metal cup and a chipped plate. Bread. Dried meat. A few slices of canned peaches still glistening in syrup.
“I’m not here to hurt you,” he said, slow and quiet.
“You did hurt me,” you spat, voice cracking. “You fucking hit me—!”
“I know.” His eyes didn’t leave yours. “I’m sorry about your head. I brought some painkillers.”
You didn’t believe a word of his sorries. But your eyes were already on the cup of water. Your tongue stuck to the roof of your mouth. You hated him. You hated him. But you were so thirsty it felt like your chest was full of sand.
He picked up the cup, took a long sip, then held it out to you.
“Not poisoned,” he said quietly, holding it toward you.
You didn’t move. Just glared. But your hands were bound, you couldn’t take it. So he inched closer, slow like approaching a scared animal.
“I’m gonna bring it to your mouth. Understand?”
You said nothing, but he moved anyway.
The rim touched your lips. You almost jerked away. But then—your tongue worked before your mind did, poking out to touch the cold of the rim of the cup. You nearly let out a sigh of relief, your mouth opening and throat soothing. The water was lukewarm and a little metallic, but it was clean. You drank, coughing halfway through but gulping it anyway.
When you finished, he set the cup down and picked up a slice of bread.
You clamped your jaw shut.
There was a long pause. He sighed, setting down the food again.
“What’s your name?”
Your head throbbed harder as your teeth clenched. He sighed again.
“I tied you up ‘cause I had to,” he said. “You ran. You wouldn’t listen.”
You didn’t respond. You just rolled your eyes, tears shining there, looking out into the sky that beckoned to you out the windows.
“You can live here,” he continued, voice quieter. “We can live here. It’s quiet. Ground’s good for crops. Don’t think this area gets many Infected. Found a well, too.”
Then his voice hardened slightly, just enough to cut through the quiet.
“But there are rules, girl.”
Your head snapped toward him. Your eyes locked with his in a glare that was wet and burning. His gaze didn’t flinch. There was no cruelty. Just seriousness. Like he was stating the facts of gravity.
“You don’t run. You don’t fight me. And you don’t lie.”
You swallowed dryly, throat raw. Then he started to stand, turning away from you.
Your voice stopped him. Barely a whisper. “Are you going to…”
The words died before they could reach your lips. Your stomach knotted hard, rising with nausea. You knew what you were asking. You just couldn’t say it.
He paused, back still to you.
“I ain’t gonna touch you,” he said. “Not unless you ask.”
And something in you snapped.
Your foot lashed out, catching the plate. It skittered across the floor and slammed against the toe of his boot with a loud, hollow clatter.
“Don’t go counting the days, asshole,” you snarled. “I’m not your fucking pet.”
He sighed. Not angry. Just tired. He crouched to pick up the plate, glancing back at you one last time.
“The name’s Joel,” he said quietly, and then added, “Goodnight.”
You didn’t eat.
Not the first day, or the second. He did move the mattress from the opposite corner to underneath you, though. And brought you a blanket. Small comforts. You still hated him for all of it.
He kept bringing you food—bread, dried fruit, whatever he could find—but you stared at the far wall, your lips tight, your arms limp at your sides. The knot at your wrists chafed worse now. The fabric was stiff with blood. But you didn’t complain. You didn’t speak. You wouldn’t give him that.
You were tired, but not hungry. Not for anything he brought you.
On the third night, he opened the door again. This time, the smell hit you before he even spoke.
Roasted meat. Maybe rabbit or deer.
Your stomach cramped violently, and you hated it. Hated the way your body responded, hated the betrayal of saliva in your mouth. You hated him. More than ever.
Joel crouched beside you, setting down a plate and a tin cup. You didn’t look at him.
He didn’t say anything for a long moment. Then: “You’re not starvin’ yourself,” he muttered. “Not here.”
You clamped your jaw shut, but your stomach groaned in betrayal.
The scent from the plate was thick and nauseating from your intense hunger. The meat smelled like it was cooked in its own fat, crisp at the edges, seasoned with something smoky and wild. It smelled like life. It smelled like care.
You didn’t move. Then suddenly, the mattress shifted beneath you.
Joel’s hand grabbed your face. And not gently.
His fingers dug into your cheeks, tilting your head back hard enough to make your neck pop. You squirmed, instinct kicking in, but your hands were tied, and his grip was firm.
You snarled, a sound more beast than girl.
Joel’s face was close now. Too close. His voice was rough and low and full of something tight.
“You wanna die here?” he snapped. “You think that’s gonna prove something?”
You tried in vain to shake your head out of his grasp, but he was stronger.
“I ain’t gonna let you waste away ‘cause you’re feelin’ proud. You hear me?”
He grabbed a piece of meat off the plate and God, it looked so juicy, still steaming, and shoved it toward your mouth.
You fought it. Lips closed, jaw locked.
“Open.”
You didn’t.
Then his voice broke, barely above a whisper.
“Don’t make me do this.”
It was the way he said it. Like he wasn’t angry anymore, just tired. Like he was pleading, but didn’t know how.
You went still.
Slowly, shaking and furious, you opened your mouth.
He slid the food between your lips.
You chewed as tears stung your eyes. The flavor hit your tongue and your body melted around it. It was good. It was so good it hurt.
You hated him for it. Hated him for making you want the next bite. But when he offered it, you took it, lips barely grazing the tips of his fingers. He released your face as you accepted more. He fed you in silence, one bite at a time. Like you were something fragile. Like you might break in his hands.
When the food was gone, he lifted the tin cup to your lips. You drank.
Then you leaned back against the wall, chest heaving like you’d outrun something you couldn’t see. The plate was empty, the ache in your belly softer now.
Joel wiped his hands on his jeans and sat back across from you.
He didn’t speak. There was no smirk, no gloating, just those unreadable eyes on you. And for the first time, you felt something in your chest uncoil. It might not have been warmth or safety, but it was a kind of stillness.
Like surrender. Like a storm just passed.
“I’m gonna boil some water for a bath, alright?” he said, voice low, softer than it had any right to be. He stood slowly, the plate now empty between you. He watched you for a beat longer than you liked, then turned toward the door.
Your eyes followed him as he moved, as he reached for the knob. And before you could stop yourself—before you could remind yourself not to care—you spoke.
“Why are you doing this?”
He paused.
Didn’t turn around. Just looked out the small window beside the old door frame, face lost in shadow.
For a moment, you thought he might answer. But then his hand fell to the knob, turned it, and he stepped out without a word. You sat there, silent. Drowsy.
The food in your belly settled heavy and slow, a warmth you despised your body for enjoying. It made your eyelids heavy, your thoughts fogged. You were still tied, still bruised—but your body was full for the first time in days. Maybe weeks, really.
By the time he came back, you couldn’t even summon the energy to fight. The bindings at your wrist tugged gently as he pulled you to your feet, his grip firm around your forearm.
“Come on now,” Joel murmured. “Nice and easy.”
The hallway was dim. The floor cold under your bare feet. He guided you with careful pressure, down a few steps and into a narrow bathroom—walls faded yellow, mirror cracked in the corner, clawfoot tub steaming gently in the center of the room.
That’s when your mind caught up. You realized what this meant.
You stiffened. Began to squirm, breath picking up fast. He caught your movement instantly, hands tightening just enough to still you.
“Hey.” His voice dropped low in warning.
“I’m gonna untie these, alright?” He nodded toward your wrists. “Don’t do anything stupid.”
You opened your mouth—panic sparking again—but he cut you off, though not unkindly.
“I’m leavin’ you in here. Alone. Against my better judgment.”
That made you pause.
Your eyes met his—wide, wary. And again, he looked so much bigger. You thought of how easily he’d thrown you over his shoulder. How quickly he’d knocked you down in the woods. How he could still do it now, even tired, even softened.
You swallowed, but eventually you nodded.
“You’ll be good?” he asked.
Your voice came out small. “I’ll be good.”
His gaze held yours for a second longer, like he was searching for the truth in it.
Then his hands softened and he began to untie you. The rope fell away from your wrists with a soft tug. Your skin stung where it had rubbed raw, but you didn’t look down. You could barely will your body to move.
Joel straightened.
“I’ll be right outside,” he said. “Don’t make me come in after you.”
And then he left.
The door shut behind him, and you stood there, breathing. Still.
Steam curled in the cold air, and the smell of the soap, old, sharp, something like cedar, lingered near the tub. Your fingers ached. Your knees were stiff. But the water…
It looked so inviting.
You stepped in slowly after you undressed, the warmth biting at your skin in the best way. It climbed up your calves, over your thighs, and then you sank into it—sighing before you could stop yourself. Like your body had given in before your heart could.
The soap was just a sliver, set beside the tub in an old chipped dish. You picked it up with shaky fingers and began to scrub—at the dirt, the blood, the sweat from days of fear.
You didn’t cry. You just kept washing. Kept breathing.
Kept wondering why it felt more like being forgiven than being cleaned.
The soap slipped from your fingers and clattered softly against the porcelain edge of the tub. It echoed in the small room like a slap.
That was when your shoulders started to shake.
At first, it was just a breath. A short, sharp inhale that caught in your throat like something you'd forgotten to swallow. Then another. And another. Until your chest was heaving, and the tears were falling before you could stop them.
You pressed your face into your hands. Tried to muffle the sound. But the sob escaped anyway—wet and broken, punched straight from your lungs like a wound torn back open.
You hated him.
God, you hated him.
You hated how he fed you, how he touched you gently like it made any of this okay. Yes, he’d been rough with you at first—grabbed too hard, snapped too fast, yanked you around like you were a problem to solve instead of a person. But that was before. Before you began to understand him better. Before his cruelty dulled into silence, into careful hands and fewer threats. Before the rhythm of the house made space for you. He let you bathe. Gave you warmth. Let you sleep on a mattress like you were some stray dog he’d half-decided to care for.
You hated how your body was starting to believe it was safe here.
You curled tighter into the water, forehead resting against your knees as the tub slowly cooled around you. Steam faded into the air. The silence pressed against your ears.
And in that silence, you made a promise.
The second he leaves you alone again, you’ll go. No plan, no food, no map—just go. Even if it kills you.
Better to die in the trees than stay in this house and forget what the outside felt like.Better to be free for one breath than trapped for the rest of your life.
You wiped at your eyes with the edge of your palm and sat up straighter.
No more crying.
You would play along. You’d dry off, let him lead you back to that corner, let him tie your wrists again if he had to. You’d nod. You’d keep your voice soft.
And the second he trusted you—
You’d run.
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Genuine question, why do think the people protesting Netanyahu aren't Israeli? You realize there are plenty of Israelis who despise and hate what Netanyahu and his government has done? Why do these people have to be socialist to get anything done? I don't get bashing normal people who are fed up and are trying to make their voices heard?
Was Netanyahu the Prime minister in 1948 when the Nakba happened? No. Was Netanyahu the PM in 1967 when “Israel” occupied even more territories? No. Was he the PM for the 62 years of occupation during which he was not the PM?
The majority of the settlers who are protesting against Netanyahu are not protesting for the liberation of Palestine but to go back to the previous status quo. They are not protesting because they care but because they are seeing that Netanyahu makes it impossible for them to pretend to be good guys like they used to.
82% of the Israelis are in favor of ethnic cleansing, they are okay with the forced expulsion of every single Palestinian from Gaza. Given the number of Palestinians with the Israeli citizenship (a second class citizenship) 82% means that pretty much EVERY SINGLE Israelis who is not actually a 1948 Palestinian is in favor of ethnic cleansing Gaza. More than half (56%) of the Israelis are in favor of the ethnic cleansing of ALL Palestinians including those who have the Israeli citizenship. Again if you take into account the number of Palestinians with the citizenship and remove them from the 44% who are against ethnic cleansing (because they obviously don’t want to be forced to leave Palestine), it goes from 56% to 70%. 70% of the Israelis who are not actually 1948 Palestinians are in favor of the ethnic cleansing of every single Palestinian from ALL of the territory.
Lastly, the very small minority of settlers who actually want change and want a free Palestine where they could live alongside Palestinians with equal rights for everyone, explained that they have no power and represent at most 0.1% of the population. They even freaking asked to NOT be used as a way to absolve all of Israel of its crimes since it was created by colonizers.
Netanyahu is not the problem. He is a piece of shit but he is only a symptom of the bigger problem that is a colonial society. The problem is settler colonialism. The problem is the fact that “Israel” exists on stolen land and required the forced dispossession and forced displacement of Palestinians since day one.
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another specific thing i love about mxtx's books is that they all have scenes that EASILY could've been romanticized rape if written by someone else, but she purposely avoids playing it straight.
we have the land of the tenders, a classic "aphrodisiac flowers" scenario. hua cheng (as hong'er) could've forced himself on xie lian in the name of "serving his prince." xie lian could've simply succumbed and forced himself on hong'er, or reluctantly asked him to "help." xie lian instead stabs himself and fights through the agonizing pain without touching hong'er at all, because hong'er was a teenage boy.
we have phoenix mountain, where wei wuxian is blindfolded and alone in a relatively deserted area, weakened unbeknownst to anyone else because he no longer has a golden core. and true enough, lan wangji pins wei wuxian down and forces a kiss on him. but lan wangji also immediately, viscerally regrets it. he runs away so furious with himself he starts punching trees. he never once does anything like it again until wei wuxian is resurrected and purposely, consensually provokes him into things like that.
finally, we have scum villain, and all its intricately twisted, overlapping power dynamics. i truly do mean the vast majority of the novel. there are SO many times where either shen qingqiu or luo binghe could've forced themselves on the other. and unlike mxtx's other books, scum villain does have a mutually nonconsensual sex scene where luo binghe is under the influence of dark, corrupt magic and shen qingqiu is unable to fight back because of system transmigration sci-fi shit.
however, unlike many other nonconsensual danmei sex scenes, this one is intentionally written to be extremely unsexy. the narration bluntly says it hurt for shen qingqiu. luo binghe, a fairly manipulative person, is sincerely distraught and in tears when he regains his senses. they both hated it equally and the story doesn't handwave that away. neither of them get horny over it. luo binghe especially loathes remembering it. after they get together, whenever shen qingqiu so much as furrows his brows during sex, luo binghe canonically stops.
the way mxtx plays around with and toes the line of consent tropes may not be comfortable for everyone to read, but i enjoyed her stories even more for it.
#consent issues are just so common in danmei novels. it's so easy to stumble upon stories where the gong rapes the shou in a prev life#or in their current life. or he forces smth on the shou when the shou is weakened. or forces smth when he himself is drunk/mind-controlled#and the stories just don't examine it! the gongs aren't disturbed at all. they just continue being in love/dealing w plot. romantic /s#oftentimes i'll find stories where gong & shou are both supposed to be strong but then the gong rapes the shou anyway (non or dubcon)#and the author treats the whole thing very dismissively or casually which is just. so jarring for me as a reader#anyway. mxtx Not doing that makes her novels great subversions + really painful to have as Baby's First Danmei since it's so rare and good#mxtx#bingqiu#svsss#scum villain's self saving system#wangxian#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#hualian#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#danmei#keri chats
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as an intersex trans wo/man, i've noticed that unfortunately it has become painfully obvious that not only do radfems and terfs try to abuse trans men into falling in line with their beliefs, but unfortunately, this happens to trans women and transfemmes as well. i've unfortunately seen several trans women fall down the the "men evil, women innocent, trans men have cis male privilege, trans men don't struggle, trans men aren't men or trans they're just confused butches," pipeline really quickly after transitioning or their eggs cracking, and it's not necessarily that transfem's fault, but rather an abusive person sweeping in to take advantage of someone who needs and wants validation in feeling like a woman. the person who put the terf ideals in their head during this crucial stage in development is to blame, it is not inherently the trans woman's fault.
vulnerable transfems and trans women become indoctrinated into these things. trans women and fems are not inherently bitter, shitty, hateful people. it's a select few who become groomed by radfems who push this belief, and push it hard, because that's what you do when youve been indoctrinated into a cult. it's not an issue inherent to trans women and transfeminism at all- it's vulnerable people being groomed. this is a serious issue of trans women and fems being groomed and brainwashed.
this is a huge deal and we have to stand up for each other, because the transfems getting groomed into this need support and help to get out of this cult. it is not okay for women who are just trying to find their footing to almost instantly get sucked up into a literal hate group. we have to help trans people who become indoctrinated into gender essentialism, antimasculism, and transandrophobia just as much as we help other trans people unlearn transmisogyny. these issues are both damaging our community on the whole.
radfems are aggressive and will try to indoctrinate anyone they can into antimasculism, transandrophobia, and gender essentialism. a lot of trans women in the early stages of transition really want to be validated as women and such, will become groomed by these groups of cis women who will gladly feed them toxic ideals like women can never be wrong, women are always innocent, men are always harmful and evil, it just benefits the radfems, not the trans woman. this behavior grooms yet another person into spreading radfeminism without realizing it. when one espouses these beliefs they become a spokesperson for radfeminism and terfism
i'm plain tired of seeing this argument, because it is nothing but gender essentialist binarist bullshit:
"transphobia is worse for trans women than trans men because of x, y, z."
its not worse. its different. but equal.
i understand that many folks have not lived the life a trans man leads, but whenever you try to speculate on what it's like, you will always be wrong, no matter what, because you weren't in that person's shoes. it's impossible to see the nitty gritty of how a specific group of people are treated unless you are that person or spend lots of time around large groups of those types of people. trans men face homelessness at a disproportionately high rate compared to other groups of queer folk. we also deal with forced detransition. we deal with being dehumanized by she/her pronouns. we deal with having lesbianism and butchness weaponized against us. we also deal with sexual violence. we also deal with physical, mental, and emotional abuse. we deal with gaslighting, lying, being robbed, abandoned, injured and killed. its virtually impossible to find support if you're a pregnant trans man.
trans men have a lot of unique struggles. this is not a comprehensive list, but rather to show you that ALL trans people struggle. we are united under the same banner of transphobic treatment. we are struggling, but we are struggling together, and we can uplift each other without tearing each other down. punching down on another trans person hurts us all.
belittling the trauma of other trans people is a form of queer infighting that terfs want you to do in order to fracture our community further. queer infighting doesn't help anyone whatsoever. trans men do not have it harder than trans women. trans women do not have it harder than trans men. amab and afab and intersex enbies don't have it worse than each other. these are all completely different and unique struggles that deserve to be acknowledged for what they are. you cannot use the same scale of severity for a totally different problem.
people love to completely gloss over the issues trans men face for the sake of believing that all men benefit from patriarchy. saying that trans men are not affected by specific kinds of transphobia is spreading the radfem belief that only women struggle under patriarchy. queer men, men of color, intersex men, gay men, bisexual men, trans men, polyamorous men, genderfluid men, bigender men, gender non conforming men, feminine men, men who crossdress, disabled men, neurodivergent men, mentally ill men, and other marginalized men suffer under patriarchy as well.
i'm not tolerating radfem gender essentialism being woven into queer ideals anymore. this behavior has to go. when you genuinely believe these things, we all lose.
#lgbtqia#lgbtq#lgbt#queer#trans#transgender#transfeminine#transmasculine#trans man#trans men#transfemme#transfem#trans woman#trans women#trans guy#trans community#ftm#non binary#nonbinary#enby#genderqueer#our writing
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If you don’t mind answering: why is it that when you talk to swedes about Finland it’s generally “that’s our weird little brother <3” but when finns talk about Sweden it’s a lot more hostile might be the wrong word but you probably know what I’m trying to get at?
I understand there’s a lot of history there and stuff but I’m not sure if I get it completely
One funny thing is that Swedish is still an official language in Finland. All public services are legally required to be equally possible to operate in both finnish and swedish, and there are still some older finn-swedes (born and raised finnish natives who speak swedish as a first language) who do not speak a lick of finnish and consider that a matter of pride. Finn-swedes make up about 5% of Finland's population, and while they are just as finnish as finnish-speaking finns, a lot of native finnish speakers who have never met one don't see them that way.
Learning swedish is mandatory in finnish-speaking schools, and it's famously in the top 5 of the most hated school subjects. Many refer to it as "pakkoruotsi", "forced swedish", and see it as a remnant of imperialism, either because the thought of swedish as an official language on its own feels degrading (the thought of swedish-speaking finns existing at all doesn't occur to them, because due to making up 5% of the population, many finnish-speaking finns have literally never met one), or they resent the finn-swedes themselves, grumbling about how the entire country has to learn an entire language just to accommodate such a tiny minority - most of whom speak fluent finnish anyway - like some kind of a slave race.
I had literally never met any swedish-speaking finns in my life before I moved into a town where they used to make up the majority of people just a few generations ago. None of them have ever thought of it odd that the entire country has to fluently speak both, because in their personal experience, everyone they know is bilingual anyway, so using both languages and fluently flipping between them is effortless to them.
There are small bubbles in the country where finnish and swedish are spoken 50-50%, because 5% of the population speak swedish as a first language.
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This year’s Trans Day of Visibility hits differently than in years past. This is a frightening time for trans people. I know many of you are scared. Truthfully, I am, too.
Since day one of this administration, they have pursued a crusade of cruelty against trans people – hurting us for the sake of hurting us. They’re requiring our forced outing on several identity documents. They’re summarily firing qualified federal workers who are disproportionately LGBTQ, Black, women, and veterans. They’re trying to purge patriotic transgender servicemembers. They’re trying to insert government between patients, parents, and providers to stop medically necessary care and support. They’re targeting students for bullying and invasive inspections. And they’re trying to make it harder for us to participate in public life by making it difficult and dangerous to use necessary facilities.
The stakes couldn’t be higher and, because of that, we need allies now more than ever before. We’re understandably worried and vigilant for any evidence that our defenders won’t be there when we need them. After a lifetime of pushing progress, from passing nondiscrimination protections in Delaware to helping to draft the Equality Act federally, I won’t stop fighting for the dignity of every person I represent, including my trans constituents. I've been trying to fight hard and smart since taking office in January. I won’t always be perfect. But from joining my trans constituents at rallies in Delaware to joining my colleagues in DC in opposition to this administration’s anti-equality actions, it’s going to take all of us speaking out publicly and speaking with people one-on-one to meet this moment.
Those conversations, sometimes uncomfortable, can lead to critical solidarity precisely when we need it most. In this Congress, nearly every House Democrat voted against the only anti-trans bill that has come before us – laying the foundation for the Senate Democrats to block its passage. I’m grateful for the allyship of my colleagues.
We must remain firm in our values and our vision in this moment – and, just as importantly, we should never give up on our ability to win over more people to more fully see our humanity and support our rights. It’s not always fair work, and it’s certainly not always easy work, but through the power of our proximity we can still open the hearts and change the minds of imperfect or unlikely allies.
It has been through the power of our proximity that we find our superpower. We exist in families and communities across every region and race, across every income and ideology. We are organic changemakers when we live lives of joy, humor, brilliance, and kindness in view of — and for some of us, in difficult conversation with — people who have more to learn. And while we won’t win everyone over, when we both build community among ourselves and forge a coalition beyond us, no amount of progress is impossible.
That’s what we celebrate on this Trans Day of Visibility. Our visibility not only has the ability to inspire one another. It also has the capacity to push past the caricatures to invite more people in, to grow the tent of allies, to defeat the hateful attacks, and to lay the foundation for freedom and safety for trans people in every corner of our country and every part of our globe.
-Congresswoman Sarah McBride Democrat, Delaware 3/31/2025
#sarah mcbride#trans day of visibility#TDOV#trans#trans rights#LGBT#LGBT rights#politics#political#US politics#American politics
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