#light vent post

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

*lying face down on my bed* Need to torture Barry :((

[mutual-obsession]

Let me take you away.

Take you from your troubles Your life All of it.

It's been too hard lately Hasn't it? People not treating you the way you deserve. You being hurt Repeatedly.

i can't stand it You deserve so much more You deserve the world The sky The sea And the stars. You deserve love. And care, And adoration, And to be appreciated in your efforts and what you do.

But they can't see that. They are blind And so oblivious to what they have. It disgusts me Seeing you so hurt Seeing you negatively impacted so heavily.

I wanna scream and shake them I wanna take you away from there. From them. Keep you safe. I wanna make a little place for you here and give you everything you deserve. I won't ask for much in return. How could I? Just being in your life is enough for me. just… let me help.

[nico-the-overlord]

Can my thighs and legs stop ruining good pairs of jeans and pants. It’s so annoying. Please.

[nightmareevara]

I'm like a girl who wants to be loved but can't believe in anyone's words and actions

[disformer]

ITS BEEN SO LONG!!! Posting what I’ve finished from the Texaid comic I’d been chipping away at in my free time :,)

Atm i’m not sure if id be comfortable finishing this or posting the unfinished pages, and i’ll go into why a bit more under the cut, but for everyone who waited… thank you, you are so patient like the cobra 🥺🫶

Texaid is so beloved and important to me, and i don’t think that’s news to anyone who’s followed me for any length of time. I always come back to them, and even leaving a project like this on hiatus for so long I still felt pretty comfortable leaving this on the burner bc I knew I’d be back.

And with my work sometimes I do have to take fandom hiatus breaks! But I got a slightly confused dm from a friend at one point that said ‘hey man, did you know everyone’s crediting your designs to someone else in the fandom’ and ???? it was true!

And I know how obnoxious it is to see an artist get on their diva shit and claim design elements, but it’s important to know that, at the time, I was one of like three people posting texaid, and the other two were Japanese artists on twitter.

My redesign has my fingerprints all over it; those big circular rotaries on his shoulders? A mistake! I got my references mixed up at one point and just kept rolling with it because it was funny! His pointy teeth and nose and boots and fingers and eyebrows? I’m bad at squares! I was doing everything in my power to avoid drawing squares!

And people have asked if they can use my redesigns in their own au’s in the past, and i’ve always said no (especially in regards to texaid) and that’s because they’re personal to me. My vision of Texaid is something I projected a lot of my own personal romantic past onto, they were my first nsfw art, my first real emotional outlet after getting kicked out of home for being trans and was starving in a flop basement. Vortex’s design was cooked up out of the primordial soup of my brain at a time when I was at my most raw. Texaid doesn’t belong to me, but i redesigned them for a reason, and that was to distinguish the fact I was representing something personal.

So to come back to the fandom and see my boys and the dynamic i drew with the serial numbers filed off, with zero acknowledgement of my influence or even crediting another artist entirely… I feel really bloody hurt. Especially after watching the way this fandom viciously ran off an artist of colour for much less prolific art theft.

It kind of feels like y’all don’t care as long as you like the content. And idk if i want to keep posting in a space like that, where my niche vent art gets repackaged into something more marketable, and I go unacknowledged.

So yeah, might be the last time I post my texaid stuff publicly! If they’re that important to me and I get this upset when theyre cribbed, and if i feel like yall can’t rly be trusted, then Im just gonna keep it in dms with besties. Thanks for hearing me out xoxox

[star-riding-through-clouds]

It always hurts me to see people on here call 200kcals worth of food a “binge” because it’s not. A binge it’s a large (and I mean large by general social standards) amount of food that you eat in an uncontrollable way. Not a bit over your limit. We should bring more awareness to the effects of binging and what it actually is because stuff like this can be very alienating to those of us who actually struggle with this

[thecommunalfoolboy]

It’s crazy how many people just don’t understand why a lot of aro and or ace people don’t like that Alaster gets shipped. It’s not that hard to understand we don’t have a lot to let ourselves lose. I mean can you name 10 asexual characters? 5? Can you name two aro characters. There’s the guy from Archie who they made have a sex scene in a movie version. There’s a few books. I think a background character in Heartstopper? Do you see the theme here??? You’re all queer people, do you not get it? How it feels to have nothing? Is it so wrong to be upset that there’s finally an outwardly aroace person in popular media and instead of people embracing that they’re fighting on the internet about why it’s ok to ignore it? And I will never in my fucking life have anything against the people who are aro and or ace and portray him in THEIR experiences, even if it is a romance or sex favorable experience, but it is obvious that way too many of you guys are allo and it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I don’t even like him as a character that much, he isn’t even made by an aroace artist. The show isn’t even that fucking good, I just want to keep someone like me for once in my life. If there were a million other aroace characters I wouldn’t care, but it just hurts seeing erasure coming from my own community. It just sucks, man, I don’t know. It just sucks

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

Dear gods this is so annoying. I can’t write and I can’t draw. Meaning I can’t whump Barry and I can’t kill Barry!

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!

[eternal-sunflowers]

i don't think that people really understand how mentally fucking draining it is to live with chronic illness. like, people talk about it a lot, sure. but i feel like it is constantly kind of a shrugged off thing that people don't understand the weight off.

how exhausting it is to have your body not be able to do things, while your brain carries on as if it can.

how exhausting and painful it is to try to do things and not fully be accommodated for your needs.

how exhausting goddamn brain fog is. it gets me every day it feels like and i'm still surprised.

how exhausting and frustrating it is to be ill and to think you're having a good day, but SURPRISE, here's a flare, or a bunch of symptoms, or whatever, and now you're in pain and can't do anything. you can't make the pain stop. you just have to feel it.

how exhausting it is to know that nothing will take the pain away. that you literally just have to live with it. and that people won't get it. they won't understand that you are constantly in pain, all the time, and just have to act like you aren't.

how exhausting it is to be exhausted. the fatigue is awful. it just catches me and i can't do anything. i can't move or speak or anything. i just have to exist in it.

it's so annoying and exhausting to see my body give up and to know that i can't really do anything to stop it or cure it. it's so exhausting. it makes me want to cry constantly. i feel so tired and worn down and angry and depressed.

and yet, i have to continue on, like a normal functioning member of society. i have people look at me like an imposition. i see people talk down on chronically ill or disabled people online all the time and complain about us ruining society or taking away resources or whatever the fuck bullshit.

and it makes me feel so shitty that society perceives my only worth as my physical ability to contribute to a fucked up system.

and yet, we carry on, day after day, in hopes it will get better.

[star-riding-through-clouds]

Do you guys have like a specific water bottle you like to drink from?

mine is this strawberry shaped cup that holds almost as much as a bottle

It’s fallen so many times I broke some of the leaves

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

IT’S SO HOT OUTSIDE WTF

[o-mellowy]

Post sob-session glow 🌟

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

Painpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpain

[juliettecalling]

When I was younger, I loved to color, the way a blank page could become anything I wanted. The sky could be pink, the grass violet, the sun a bleeding red. Then they handed me a coloring book and told me to stay inside the lines. Suddenly, the sky was blue, the grass forever green and my wonder became a task to complete Then came dancing, wild, breathless, like falling in love with the wind. But soon, the lessons followed. "Point your toes. Count your beats. No, not like that, like this. Move like how I showed you." They taught me how to be wild… correctly Later, even my words weren’t safe. I hid my tales and strings of ink, but they too, began to bleed red. “You missed a punctuation here. This is not how stories are told. Stick to the given material.” Ironic, isn’t it? How everything I ever loved for its boundlessness, eventually came with a manual? ~Aashi

[beclight]

my take at a "mod bec"!!<3