#memory gaps

[tony-stark-official]

Formal reminder that Bucky Barnes and Bruce Banner both canonically have dissociative symptoms <3

AND Banner has canonically had DID since his debut.

[alex-strike-is-transgender]

I just want to confirm something

Just to clarify "yes" = yes I have less memories from around them "no" = no I don't

[bittyfromquotev]

So along with that “Recently Closed Tabs” thing, last night I felt like the body was not mine.

I mean obviously it’s not. It’s OUR body, but last night it felt different. It felt weird.

Also I’m starting to realize that I have random, weird memory gaps or memories that don’t seem real/right.

Switching, we guess.

So unless someone has a better idea, any time someone “co-fronts”, we’re just gonna put their proxy and not mine along with it.

Rah.

[the-bisexual-bitch]

Y'all, being so certain that something simple is true, (eg. This thing goes in the fridge), certain that the people in charge have told you that this is how it's supposed to be, and then doing it that way... and being told that that’s the wrong way to do it. So, you argue, this is how I've been told to do it over and over again- but when you finally ask the people in charge? You're wrong. It's never been like that, they've never told you that, that has literally never been the case. And you're clearly upset and you're laughed at and told that you're just upset that you're wrong. No, I'm scared, because my ability to parse reality has never been all that great and I thought I was getting better. Anyway, how are y'all?

[bernnotice]

don't remember 2 of the last 3 days, despite my twitter showing we were actively posting & chatting with people

would really like to know who in our system was fronting, and why they aren't sharing memories

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

Personally, I think the most devastating tragedy in Gravity Falls was Stan losing his freckles and tooth gap from when he was younger

[logibit]

What is normal when you live your OWN life? :)

Im not sure who needs to hear this validation today, but,

You do not need to experience blackouts to prove/affirm you're truly a system--greyouts also do count! It's only a different intensity of amnesia, which is still real and valid.

- j

[hima-matta04]

Can I request hcs about what the homicipher boys would be like if you had a significant other who didn't treat you well in the human world?

Why yes of course 😘💍

Comfort After a Bad Memory

(characters mentioned: Mr. Crawling, Mr. Scarletella, Mr. Silvair, Mr. Chopped, Mr. Gap, Mr. Hood)

𝕄𝕣. ℂ𝕣𝕒𝕨𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘

He picked up on every little change in you. It started when he noticed how sometimes you would daze off. Lost in thought, you didnt even hear Mr. Crawling creeping his way towards you.

The gasp that left your throat as he suddenly placed his hand over yours, breaking your train of thought, confirmed his concern. “You sad.”

when you lowered your chin he tilted his head. “Why sad?” He lovingly placed his cheek on your knee.

He couldn’t quite understand what you were trying to say. The only words you knew to say were “they hurt me, make me sad. Been long time, still sad.”, he wrapped his arms around you, not knowing the concept of being mistreated in a relationship, but still supportive.

your eyes welled from tears of the past, but they were accompanied by a warm feeling. Mr. Crawling would never leave you alone and sad. “no sad anymore. Me make happy. Me like you. Me care you. No make sad.” He cheered innocent, not knowing even how someone could hurt such a beautiful creature like yourself.

𝕄𝕣. 𝕊𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕒

He can practically read your mind. He studied you for so long, not only your physical appearance, but also your manners and body language.

he would 100% already know whats wrong when he first see the look in your eyes. Depending on the mood he’s in, he’ll either comfort you first, sweeping you into his arms and letting you cry into him, then find the person that hurt you, or vice-versa.

let’s say got you to give a detailed description of the heartbreaker. He would find himself in the human world, searching, lerking, stalking. Scarletella would eventually return litarally with blood on his hands. he would waste not a single second to lift you up and hold you sweetly with your arms and legs wrapped around him. His words were sweet as he reassured you that tou are worth more to him than any diamond or treasure that could ever be discovered.

his hands softly stroke your hair as you cry, hushing you softly and doing what you deserved in the first place. Loving you unconditionally without question.

𝕄𝕣. 𝕊𝕚𝕝𝕧𝕒𝕚𝕣

You’re his darling. And i firmly believe that he would 1000% call you that if you taught him.

you came to him, with teary eyes and your lip quivering. He rushed towards you, crouching to your height to get a good look at you. “What wrong?” He would ask as he uses his finger to wipe your tears.

He understands a little better than most. No time gets wasted on him lifting you up and setting you gently on a couch while he scavenges for something to cheer you up. He returns with something to eat that doesn’t exactly look edible, but it didnt taste half bad.

he holds you in his lap while you rant and ramble. Fingers gently brushing through your hair as he listens. The lights in the room are just dim enough for you to get sleepy. As you rest your head on his chest, he gently rubs your arm and wispers love affirming words to you.

this was the most perfect way to fall asleep.

𝕄𝕣. ℂ𝕙𝕠𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕕

He’s a personal, portable therapist for all of your problems. He could listen to you all day if you coyld speak for that long. Naturally, when you rushed to him for the daily ramble, he caught how your normal ranting turned a little quiet.

your mood was off when you began to speak of the pain you went through in a past relationship. He conforted you, telling you that you are amazing and worth way better than that trash.

Once you were reassured, he felt himself being hoisted into the air like a teddy bear. He enjoyed being there for you. Especially when you cradled him liks a support animal.

𝕄𝕣. 𝔾𝕒𝕡

It all started when you sunk back against the wall behind you, not noticing the hole that your ear was now right right to. That was until you heard that eerie, grating voice.

“want heart…you give?” You looked over and saw that stupid shit eating grin. At that point you let him have it.

yoy rambled on and on about every issue and thought that lingered on your mind, pouring your heart out to him. He said he wanted your heart but not like this!

his smile quickly faded once you said a few words that he could just barely understand, making him feel bad for you. He reached his hand out to place it on your shoulder, now invested in the story.

maybe he wasnt so annoying after all. He still wanted your actual heart though.

𝕄𝕣. ℍ𝕠𝕠𝕕

(idk why the ‘H’ looks like that wtf)

He finds you crying in a room all by yourself. When he rushes over towards you, his heart practically melts at your pitiful expression, quickly scooping you up in his arms and cradling you.

“you hurt? What wrong? Tell me.” He’s very worried about you, gently checking for injuries. A soft, relieved sigh leaves his mouth as you confirm no physical damage.

He’s very patient and caring while you try to explain what happened in his language, occasionally slipping up which he catches and gently corrects earning a displeased stare from your teary eyes each time.

He places sweet kisses on your face after drying your tears. At this point you’re all cried out and tired. He totes you around with him as you sleep gebtly in his protective arms before he places one last kiss on your forehead.

[sewstarry]

meet gamma! he's a palm-sized green korbat plushie (from neopets), designed, patterned, and sewn by me.

[the-bisexual-bitch]

A bit more personal than usual today-

TW for physical assault (mentioned)

I have recently discovered that my memory holes are memory holes and not just me being really good at gaslighting myself, and recently, I was violent during one of these episodes. I am going to talk to my therapist about this, and am deeply concerned about it. I want to throw up. My partner knows, and is convinced that I'm actually not a bad person and am just fine and Normal, and everyone else I've confided in is pretty sure I have DID or something.

Right now I'm struggling to stay present, but I'm thinking I shouldn't go to work/school tomorrow and should probably break up with my partner just so I don't get violent with them. I'm scared, I feel sick, and I have to wait til Tuesday to see anyone, and I just want to become a total hermit atm.

I want advice, any kind, I'm sorry for bothering y'all 😅

[strawlessandbraless]

Do you even Christo bro?

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

Me, to my new date: doctor who thinks it's a sci-fi story because the Doctor thinks it's a sci-fi story and because the companions think it's a sci-fi story, but it's really just a story about ghosts. a story about an ancient creature carrying the ghosts of everyone they have ever loved, meeting new people, and seeing them only as future ghosts. they are haunted by the future and the past and the present because they are the only constant in a world constantly in flux, and they are running as fast as they can to things before they burn and fade to dust but everything will always end, you understand, because this is the only thing the Doctor understands and yet they keep going. they love too much to stop. doctor who is not science-fiction, it's horror and optimism and spiritual more than anything else, it's religious unto itself, the TARDIS is a haunted house and a church and a graveyard and a hospital and the Doctor is the most haunted being in the universe but more than anything, this is a love story, because how can you love something without being haunted by it- hey, what are you doing?

My date, shoving breadsticks in their purse: I have to go-

[k3nnjamin]

Creeper Tim Drake who refers to his time stalking Batman and Robin as "hanging out" with them. Either in passing or in like a super secret diary. He does it offhandedly, but family members notice that some of the facts don't match (dates, times, ages, locations, etc) and they're all very unsettled when they figure it out.

[ninjacreature]

in my personal opinion, lloyd being aged up by the tomorrow’s tea is less of a “child mind stuck in a teenager body” situation and more of a “going from child to teenager in an instant to the point where it feels like there is a huge gap of time where you don’t remember your development”

like. rather than being only aged up physically he’s also been aged up mentally. he remembers being a kid and the other ninja taking care of him and he remembers being a child and being younger than them and he remembers the moments before the tomorrow’s tea. but then there’s an instant where it’s almost like time has passed and he’s forgotten it. but this is directly contradicted by the ninja being the same age as his memories- but he can’t help but feel like he lost years of his memory (in the same way he lost years of his childhood) because he’s older now and it’s not just physical and he’s thinking differently and he’s acting different and his child self is far away in the same way a distant memory is. but he knows it’s not distant. just a few hours ago, he was in doomsday comix, as a child, in a competition with other children who were his age. and yet it feels like a lifetime ago.

this was his choice, though- and now he has to live with it.

[0vergrowngraveyard]

Mayhaps u can help a newcomer like me and explain your villain au? With a little summary? 🥹

one info dump coming right up! (below the cut because i accidentally made it really long)

starting with everyone’s favorite blue hedgehog: sonic was taken in by dr robotnik when he was around seven and stayed with him for several years. now, eggman was not a good father figure at all (i’m not really a fan of wholesome eggdad stories lmao). he only took sonic in because of his super speed and the energy he generated with it. little sonic was none the wiser that eggman was just using him to power his machines and run tests to study his power. he was honestly just having a blast running on treadmills and hanging out with the guy who gave him a place to stay.

however, when sonic was ten, disaster struck.

when sonic was powering up a larger bot, he accidentally overloaded it and the thing exploded. he lost both of his legs and his right arm, all of which received robotic replacements. he lost his natural super speed, but the legs eggman made him were capable of letting him reach those speeds, they just had to be charged (he doesn’t run with them. it’s more like a shadow situation where he skates/kinda hovers? idk how to describe it).

after the accident, sonic was no longer powering the weapons, he became the weapon. eggman would put him through rigorous training and different kinds of tests to try and make the kid unstoppable. it was when this all started that sonic began to realize why eggman kept him around. it wasn’t because the doctor actually gave a shit about it, it was because sonic was useful.

sonic started acting out, making robotnik’s life as much as a living hell as he possibly could. he’d fight him, hide from him, break things, he wouldn’t corporate. he’d rebel in anyway way he could think of, even going as far as refusing to eat.

eventually, he started getting gaps in his memory. one second he’d be hiding in his room and the next he was in the testing chamber with eggman talking about how much he’s improved. the gaps became more and more frequent and it became to drive him crazy.

when sonic turned thirteen, he ran away. he ran as far as his half powered legs would take him; and when they ran out of juice, he just kept jogging and walking as far as he could. he knew that the doctor probably installed a tracker on him, but he didn’t care. he just wanted out, he wanted his freedom.

his aimlessly wandering led him to a richer looking neighborhood near a city. and it was there that he met a certain fox kit.

———

miles wasn’t abandoned by his parents when he was a baby. the prowers were a somewhat wealthy family. they mostly kept the kit around to gain sympathy from their friends and the media, playing the part of the kind parents who loved their youngest son despite his deformities and disabilities. miles was paraded around at parties and social events to garner sympathy, then ignored and neglected when the camera weren’t around.

he had two older brothers. a pair of twins who bullied him relentlessly. miles’s parents would turn a blind eye to the cruelty he suffered at the hands of them. they’d pull his fur, threaten to cut off his extra tail, lock him in closets for hours, etc.

because if everything around him, something was brewing inside of miles, but his biological family wouldn’t be the ones who suffered from it.

one day, miles had been kicked out of the house for several hours after accidentally breaking a plate. the six year old sat on the doorstep, heavy raining pelting him as he waited for his parents to let him back inside, if they even remembered to.

suddenly, someone was in front of him, asking if he was okay. looking up, a blue hedgehog with robotic limbs was staring down at him.

———

anyway there are the backstories! they make me so sad!

little facts about them

- sonic did just kidnap tails the night they met. king of impulsive decisions right here

- the brothers started commiting crimes in desperation for money and food, but they ended up having a lot of fun with it so they just decided to become criminals

- tails painted sonic’s limbs blue (they were red before) when sonic was upset one day to cheer him up (it worked)

- those gaps in memory sonic used to get with robotnik make a come back with tails (hmm i wonder what that’s about…)

- tails eventually becomes eggman 2.0 in terms of how he treats sonic (the only difference being that tails does care for and love sonic, he’s just the actual worst at showing it)

- sonic doesn’t know that tails is manipulating him the same way eggman did. tails can do nothing wrong in his eyes

- their bond actually started out as sonic being kinda mean to tails. the hedgehog deals with rapid mood swings and he’d snap over the smallest things. eventually, tails started taking advantage of his unstable behavior. they both suck

- sonic fully believes he’s the leader of their operations. he is not but tails plays along with it

- tails is terrified of sonic leaving him behind so he makes it so the hedgehog is dependent on him (he also does it because it gives him control). the kit is the only one other than eggman who knows how to power his limbs. if he doesn’t want to go back to the doctor, he better stick with tails

aaaaand i think that pretty much everything. at least the main points. i hate them both so much my stupid ass sons

[jamandjazz]

My personal headcanon is that Pony got his love for reading from Darry. When Darry was in high school he’d read the books he got in class out loud to Ponyboy and straight up just handed him some of the easier ones so they could talk about it later. In my brain the reason Ponyboy clings onto it so much is because it’s one of the things he and Darry REALLY bonded over when he was a kid and it just brings back good memories of when they got along better.