#or is it anger

[zjofierose]

i appreciate that i saw both of these on my dash within about five posts of each other. we’re gonna need both moods going forward, tbh.

[puroroggo]

and tonight.. ill ache.. with undefined longing..

..i don really have any updates, i've not done much more msq. though so far Endwalker in between has been interesting. Zero is pretty neat, and honestly endearing, watching ?her? slowly come to understand what humans are all about. from their confusion with food, to admitting their own inability to understand the concept of a good time.. its been fun, watching ?her? come to feel as a comrade adn not just one end of a bargain.

this goal is months in the making but I'm getting closer everyday..

current milestone is getting White Mage to 80, it hit 70 today which means I'm roughly 3/4 of the way there to getting my Amaro mount for getting all SHB jobs to 80. having only the little bit left on WHM, PLD, 60-80 on GNB and DRK. then its literally just the melee's. god I'm fucking miserable playing them..

no gposes. just a small checkpoint...

..ive been feeling frankly fucking w e i r d the lasat week.. this weird constant sensation that shifts across my body, seeping into my head and then back out again. if i could just.. identify it... i'd be happy but no.. it keeps moving.. hiding..aggravating me.. getting these stitches i n my chest like the ones i get with heavy emotion.. and yet. i feel so fucking empty every time it happens.. can i just not process it? do i not know what emotion it is? is it foreign? .. i don't know.. maybe it's my schizophrenia acting up.. but there's no voice attached to it.. so i doubt it.. its in the back of my mind .. rolling through my veins... Hiding in my fuckin nerves and its just.......b o t h e r i n g me ..

an electric feeling that never seems to never leave me be... its been fading.. and i still have no answers..

..i wish.. i wish i could fucking continue Lost Lessons... i swear, it had so much potential.. i had.. potential.. and im fucking squandering it.. i cant bring my mind into focus.. like im wading through of bog of thoughts.. each one murky and vile.. then.. theres this little glimmer. In the water .. for just a split second... and i get the inspiration.. then its gone before i ever conceive the concept itself.. i have so many drafts.. so many ideas.. and i can't bring myself to consolidate them .. consider them.. even look at them... I want to ... Am i scared.. did i give up without knowing.?? ..im tired of wanting.. im tired boss..

[tezriaetho]

fuck it we ball (malnourished, heavy eve bags, dehydrated, and on the verge of insanity)

[shopwitchvamp]

[cspcrashing]

fool's hope

[an-ant-hill]

i'm on my period and this video made me weep with joy so here u go

[dionysian-mystery]

Are you becoming what you've always hated?

Isle of Dogs / Game of Thrones / Painting by Jenn Mazza / Unknown / Ancestral Memory by Hari Alluri / Unknown / Venetta Octavia / Emma Tranter / Unknown / Ninth House by Leigh Bardugo / @ machineryangel

[naehilisms]

something something three high guardsmen and a mentally unwell emo kid walk into an abandoned energon depot

inspired by this and this

[chloesimaginationthings]

The ending of FNAF sister location

[clara-scintilla]

This feeling inside

[10001gecs]

i think there’s something to be said about how the gig economy makes things ostensibly more convenient but also worse. and not just like, doordash guys take too long to get to you so your food is cold. but because the business model is centered around a million people doing work without any familiarity with what theyre doing and decentralized from the businesses they’re working with, you get service that’s being reinvented from scratch every time it’s purchased.

it happens all the time that I’ll order an uber and when they pick me up, they’ll just stop in the middle of the street with their hazards on, making me dodge traffic to get to them and pissing off the cars around them. and then I’ll get in the car and chat with the driver and find out they’re actually from two counties over and they’ve never driven here before, so they don’t know where parking is or whether they’re heading to a wide open parking lot or a busy downtown. and then you start to realize that they’re not being a dick, they’re just given as little information as possible every time they pick up a ride so they have to just guess how and where to pick up a passenger. and since they’re paid by ride, they’re incentivized to pick you up as fast as possible. and all the people who cared about finding a safe place to pick you up quit the app or stopped doing that so all you’re left with is the pissed off cockroach motherfuckers.

and then you see that this happens with every fucking app. doordash sucks because you pay 8 million dollars for delivery and you still have to hike half a mile to find the guy because he got lost in your apartment complex. Instacart sucks because the guy picking your groceries couldn’t care less about getting ripe fruit and replaces your heavy cream with shaving cream. customer support for all this sucks because the guy helping you can’t do anything more than offer you $5 credit, beg for your forgiveness, and hope you get out of the queue fast enough for him to go to the bathroom. because all of them aren’t given enough time to do a good job or enough money to care.

and every time a gig worker makes the experience suck for you, it’s a rational decision. they’re evaluating the money they’re being paid and if it’s worth getting paid less to do a good job, and correctly deciding that it isn’t. so you can’t even get mad, because you’d do it too. and so the company manages to pass on its race to the bottom to its lowest-paid employees.

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

why did i do that?

[dcxdpdabbles]

Alfred: I'm afraid I don't have any open positions right now available

Danny: There isn't? But what about the ad on Gotham Job Connects saying a nanny was needed at Wayne Manor?

Alfred: I am unsure how that go on there but I can assure you, no one here put up that-

Damian: Excuse me, are you Daniel Fenton?

Danny: *Blinks down at child* Oh um yes I am.

Damian: Excellent. You're right on time for your interview. Please follow me.

Alfred: Master Damian? You put up a ad for a nanny?

Damian: That's right.

Alfred: You....want someone to care for you?

Damian: Heavens no. I'm searching for a nanny for the real child of the house. I know you're overwhelmed with the day to day duties running the household and didn't want you to have a heart attack from the stress. A professional nanny would lift the load off your shoulders.

Danny: That's so sweet that you care so much for your staff. Who's the child you want someone to help take care of? You're baby brother or sister?

Damian: My father.

Danny: .....

Alfred embarrassed: Master Damian....why would you-?

Damian: Richard says Father acts like a child, and children need minding if they make idiotic decisions too often.

Danny: .....

Alfred: I'm terrible sorry about this young man. I'll reimburse any millage you wasted driving out here.

Danny: No, it's okay. I-

Damian: The pay is fifty dollars a hour. Eighty hours every two weeks. We cover all benefits such as medical, dental, vision and auto insurance, and lodging can be provided if needed. Depending on how long we need your services I'll set up a retirement fund for you matching your bi-weekly pay.

Danny: So I would be like a in home caregiver? Most of my experience is with children but I'm sure I could handle your father.

Alfred: Master Damian!

Damian: *Hands Alfred a piece of paper*

Alfred after reading it: How soon can you start sir?

[re-bogwitch]

Marvel women, written by men: 🧍‍♀️I can’t have babies 👶🏻😫😢 I’m a monster 😢😢 yes this is the deepest my backstory can get btw 😉😨 isn’t it harrowing 😱

Marvel women, written by women: I will subject an entire town to my will if it means the chance to see you again. I will drink my grief, knowing I am damned and that I cannot protect you, and will still sing out my heart to crowds of thousands in the hopes they will keep you safe when I’m gone. I crave power so intensely that it has overpowered any sense of loyalty to anyone, and I will betray again and again and again, but I will still be wounded when you betray me because it was you. It was you.

[luminesick]

Tim, at Dick's house in his room: I should ask Dick when dinner's ready. Hey Dick-

*Distant Romani cursing from 2 rooms down*

Tim, now content to go hungry: Okay! Nevermind.