#realizing idk how the hell to tag this

[howwnowbrowncoww]

I've been playing dqm3 today and @vidramon and I were joking about Psaro and Toilen throwing hands because Psaro's curse says nothing about harming humans and what better place to duke it out than a denny's?

[pangyham]

GAH LONG POST..

xingqiu and chongyun have insanely good potential for angst my god. xingqiu in particular is so fun to think about in the context of chongyun. what do YOU know about chivalry boy

thinking about how he and hu tao kinda operate on similar notions of justice and all that shmick except hu tao is more strictly averse to disrupting the Natural Order (incredibly vague and generalized concept rn sorry) whilst xingqiu sets his principles more arbitrarily. chongyun's presence somehow foils a lot of his notable character traits. gestures hands vaguely in the air but sth sth hu tao would not approve of xq's moral infractions

perhaps im just reading too deep into this but shrugs ill admit something's changed in Me the last 2 years and coming back to xq and cy has me like. scratches head now hold on im not entirely sure if i even like the way xq treats cy. its kinda one of the main points of their dynamic- the whole.. pranking this oblivious guy who i really adore etc. but its deeper implications leave me a little unsatisfied and a little troubled (?).. in the long run i personally dont really see anything substantially appealing about their (leaning towards romantic in this context) relationship other than like ?? the tropes that mhy imposed upon them. they were created as a compatible Duo ykwim. they reference each other a lot in their lore and even in-game but.. idk maybe i just view them separately instead of a joint unit that anaylzing them individually revealed a lot of crevices and cracks in their ship that's built upon their mainstream appeal

but anyway i've thought a lot about them as a duo and is it nuts to say i like them as a romantic ship but if they were unrequited. i can see them working out but it necessitates a complete subversion and reconstruction of xingqiu (chara development basically LOL) on my part that i would totally invest myself in but im not entirely sure how to execute it

i like xingqiu a LOT as a flawed character. i wouldnt go as far as to say hes toxic, just very conflicted and insecure. hes a fun character to think about. re: the hu tao bit i mentioned above, i think they would have a really fun, witty, and transformative friendship

but anyway. yes i like xq and i still like xy. theyre just a bit more complicated now aha. im still capable of enjoying fluffy ship dynamics but lately ive been in a Character Study Mood ... mmm.. ive yet to organize my chongming thoughts

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

Jason's obsession with Dick and Tim is something I'm thinking about

[quietplaceinthestars]

I wish people who write lotr fanfic didn’t inevitably end up writing low key constant emotional abuse to their blorbo.

[bluejayblueskies]

turns out i'm still mad at how everyone in t/ma treated jon actually

[snapewives-supremacy]

you think you were depressed as a kid? pshh, my dad just said julien baker was “happier than the music you used to listen to”

[piningpercussionist]

(ooc)

Btw if anyone has any like... SIMPLE requests throughout the duration of Pride, I may consider them. I'm already working on one for someone in the discord, so I wouldn't start any others til that's finished probably, but. I do enjoy hearing what the people crave, so...

[irregularbillcipher]

going over old fic notes and outlines and character talks with friends and it's always really funny when i get to the stuff i was developing early-mid 2019 where bill just literally kept kryptos around to rag on, and he genuinely just. did not like the man. like was just completely annoyed with his general existence. boy have things changed

[byanyan]

being friends with byan is so weird bc they say they want you to have the balls to be bluntly honest with them, but then the very moment you're honest about something they don't like, they're peacing out, all "lmao ok friendship ended byeeeee"

[hedgehog-cynder]

dont know if this is a reach or has been said before or if it even makes sense.

but something about will surrounded by tigers in s4 and how tigers are apex predators and also something about how will is mainly presented as gay to the audience through how others see him based on stereotypes. something about how queer people are seen as predators and perverts out to get the poor straights. something about will being surrounded by images of a predator therefore being painted as a predator himself

[aerinamis]

hello i present my enstars faves tierlist except it devolved into a tierlist of how much i want to study them/how much they live in my head

[noumios]

so, that's my 2022 art process. i've been inconsistent with art, so some are from the same month and others have large gaps in between.

i need to start coloring more... i don't really feel comfortable with my art as is, and that just gets worse with coloring. but perhaps that's a thing for 2023.

i'm not even sure if the art clearly improved, but i'm more confident and my style has grown, and i'm less reliant on 'lucky guesses'. also, i way prefer my current art from the stuff i had to sift through for this, so that's something.

[bumbleblurr]

I can enjoy sh0ckblur but like in the way that they're divorced from the start. I mean that they meet for the first time and they're already so done with each other

[neverendingford]

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[waywardsalt]

very freeing to actually own up (to myself) abt post-ph being an au. now i can make a little list of the little ways it deviates from leading to st

[ghastbutlikegay]

ouhhh the time loop......