#redux!Lollipop

[bfdiredux]

Absolutely loving this blog. Do you fw the head cannon that Leafy would hate the taste / smell of yoyelberries after being forced to eat them for years?

Also your opinion on having any romantic relations in redux! since the og series doesn't have any romance at all.

Sorry if this sounds a bit awkward I wasn't sure how to phrase everything.

No need to apologize Anon!! It's all fine, I understood !

I do fw that headcanon. I can imagine--

Months/years in isolation destroyed Leafy.

She hated herself. She punished herself. She pushed everyone who tried to help away. She told herself that she deserved it.

Yoyleland had very little food sources. She turned to yoylebushes and their budding fruit: yoyleberries.

Fresh, ripe, unprocessed yoyleberries.

The cool smell of the leaves, like mint, while the fruit was balmy. The initial sweet flavor on the tongue, followed by sour the longer it sat in her mouth. The metallic aftertaste.

Sometimes, she can still smell and taste it. Nobody will bring it up and she can feel it on her tongue, in her nostrils.. she HATES it.

-

Now, in the romance department!!

I am not that much of a romantic myself,,, but I know a thing or two about writing it!! And I've confirmed romantic attractions for several characters.

I think it's a wonderful idea!! Part of the redux is presenting different dynamics and relationships. Healthy, unhealthy, or otherwise.

I think Match had feelings for Pencil around BFDIA-IDFB. It began to die down in BFB, especially after both of their eliminations. They suddenly had problems. (Six years of trauma) Doomed toxic one-sided yuri!

I also considered Needle and Pencil, which would also be toxic and probably doomed because of the way Pencil was with Needle in BFDIA and how she is with her whole team in IDFB. (inspired by this tiktok)

I toyed with Golf Ball and Tennis Ball but I find it didn't go anywhere, I didn't like it. I ended up giving the flirtiness between them in BFB to Lollipop. The old character proposal I made for them is getting a huge overhaul!

Lollipop flirts with every friend she makes but she is a lesbian!! If Teardrop stuck around after BFB ended, the two of them would've kissed. TD is demiromantic!!

Pen, Blocky, and Eraser as a polycule mayhaps? With Blocky splitting off following BFB post-split and maybe doing something with Woody. I like queer relationships I am queer

Price Tag and Book could be worth something. They're both in a good headspace for it in TPOT!

If the audience has any suggestions, I am all ears!! They do not have to be healthy. They can be toxic and doomed.

[retiredcultistredux]

I might be obsessed, but nit as much as u. Ur so obsessed. Also I hear sth abt some guy. What guy. What are you hiding Ester? -Lollipop anon

Ester: "I haven't seen him in years, and I doubt he even knows where I am. Not that it's any of your business..."

[Ester seemed to really dislike talking about this particular subject.]

[posttexasstressdisorder]

Tuesday, 12-17-24, 2pm Pacific

Aaaaaaaaaand good afternoon everybody, Mr. Baggins here with our Afternoon Stack of Classic Wax! Today the dial on my Wayback Machine is going all the way back to 1941, but will then be literally all over the map. We're having another installment in our series on Herb Alpert and The TJB! This time we are going to hear tunes that they made cover versions of; first by the original artist, and then by The TJB. Why, you may ask? Because their cover versions were never just straight covers! They radically re-imagined almost every cover tune they did and made unforgettable arrangements out of them. Case in point? The ancient (1941) song "Flamingo", originally sung by Herb Jeffries with The Duke Ellington orchestra, and re-imagined on the TJB's "SRO" album.

And now, from 1966, the TJB's version!

Another song that received an amazing re-imagining at the hands of Herb and the TJB was the Gene Pitney-sung theme to the movie 'A Town Without Pity". Here's the original Gene Pitney version from 1961:

Now let's hear the absolute polar opposite version of it by The TJB, which drummer Nick Ceroli provided the vocal ad-libs on, giving it the flavor of a Mexican cattle-drive!

And we've heard this next pair already, but it's another textbook example of the complete redux that the TJB gave it. We went from this lament of lost love at the beginning of the week, by the Mamas and the Papas from '66...

Herb and Crew turn it into an upbeat little ditty, complete with sleigh-bells and chimes!

And this pair is also a textbook example: The song that took Jack Jones into the limelight in 1962, Lollipops and Roses. Here's Jack's original:

And here is Herb's version, again a complete re-imagining from top to bottom, including yes, those Sleigh Bells. Fitting, since it became the song that they played as they gave out the prizes on The Newlywed Game!

And this last pair I've saved because it was the very first song by the TJB that I ever heard when I was six, and as I have said before, this was a very important song in my musical education! Here is the original version of "A Taste of Honey". It was written as a film theme for a 1960 adaptation of a British play:

And here...HERE is the TJB's magnificent re-imagining of the tune. The arrangment...the way it starts and drops off, and then those bass-drum kicks...ALL of it! It's just sheer fucking GENIUS!

There are many other examples I'd love to play for y'all, but this is all the room I have today! I hope you've enjoyed our little "Compare and Contrast" episode in the saga of Herb Alpert and The TJB! This is Mr. Baggins signing off for now, but I'll be back at 7pm with a set to soothe your achin' nerves and help ease us all into a good night.

Until then, be kind, babies, be kind.

Baggins out.

[adjusted-karma]

SMALL SIMBLR SATURDAY ❤

(listen i know this was supposed to be last week but i was busy so you're getting it this week)

First, thank you to @tau1tvec for organizing this! This is a wonderful idea ❤ I've listed a few favourite free CC makers but there are sooooo many incredible people that I could go on forever. Thank you all for bringing little bits of joy to my game!

@nucrests - ALLLLL my sims wear nucrests cc, its so versatile and lovely! ❤ Some faves: Comfy collection redux + Bloom underwear set

@simkoos - soooo many incredible clutter pieces AND gorgeous CAS items ❤ Some faves: the morning routine collection + the stamina collection

@surely-sims - I simply adore everything anne releases!! ❤ Some faves: Kitchen of Tomorrow + Unpacked Chicken plushies (+ extra love to the testpa which I've made 8573958 poses with)

@herecirm-warcry - Whimsical and fun poses (and some misery) that I download IMMEDIATELY when I see them released ❤ Some faves: Plant Magic + Against The Wall

@simmireen - queen of romance poses!! ❤ Some faves: The Ultimate Romance Pack III + Little Love

@beebeedee - CAS CC for tots and infants, I love the pieces they've released so far! ❤ Some faves: Short ruffled jumpsuit + triptails for infants

@powluna - sooo many lovely CAS items for tots and infants!! ❤ Some faves: Lulu Pacifier + Mischa Overalls

@laeska - absolutely gorgeous hairs and also some of my fav earrings!! ❤ Some faves: Sirella hair + Vivika set

@bayfier - I LOVE her posters!! It's so nice for my sims to not have bland walls ❤ Some faves: Josie and The Pussycats Poster + Lollipop Poster

[hemanuely]

Blusas E Tops Femininos Maxis Match Para The Sims 4 (Parte 10)

1# Victoria corset [viivarium]

viivarium: victoria; idk if this counts as a... — Ridgeport's CC Finds. (tumblr.com)

2# ‘Alma Cardigan’

‘Alma Cardigan’ | Patreon

3# paloma shirt + sonnet top in love bomb

an0nymousghost: @ridgeport paloma shirt + sonnet... — Ridgeport's CC Finds. (tumblr.com)

4# Lollipop Crop Top

Lollipop Crop Top | Solistair no Patreon

5# ella top

ella top · | Patreon

6# Two Tone Top

Two Tone Top | simcelebrity00 no Patreon

7# SAKURA KIMONO JACKET - 2021 REDUX

SAKURA KIMONO JACKET - 2021 REDUX | Patreon

8# baby [viivarium]

viivarium: baby; baby’s first mesh! inspired by... — Ridgeport's CC Finds. (tumblr.com)

9# Delicate Weapon Bodysuit by Joliebean

Delicate Weapon Bodysuit by Joliebean | Joliebean no Patreon

10# Mircalla | Corset

bloodmooncc: Mircalla | Corset if u noticed that... — Ridgeport's CC Finds. (tumblr.com)

[gamerspine]

December 2024 game releases

More info on Gamerspine Base Defense - STEAM - 2024/12/02 LOLLIPOP CHAINSAW RePOP - PS4 XONE - 2024/12/02 ANTONBLAST - NSW STEAM - 2024/12/03 Celestia's Light - STEAM - 2024/12/03 Diesel Legacy: The Brazen Age - STEAM - 2024/12/03 Jigsaw Puzzles - STEAM - 2024/12/03 Minestrone - STEAM - 2024/12/03 Warhammer 40,000: Darktide - PS5 - 2024/12/03 Delta Force: Hawk Ops - STEAM EGS - 2024/12/04 Help The Dog - STEAM - 2024/12/04 Maze Master - STEAM - 2024/12/04 Ocean Goal - STEAM - 2024/12/04 Retrowave 2 - STEAM - 2024/12/04 The Edge of Allegoria - STEAM - 2024/12/04 [Bober Bros] The Hole - STEAM - 2024/12/05 FANTASIAN Neo Dimension - XS STEAM PS5 PS4 - 2024/12/05 Fitness Boxing 3 - NSW - 2024/12/05 Honor Bound - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Infinity Nikki - EGS AND PS5 IOS - 2024/12/05 Magenta Horizon - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Mahjong Tiles - STEAM - 2024/12/05 MALL MANAGER SIMULATOR - PROLOGUE - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Marvel Rivals - EGS XS PS5 STEAM - 2024/12/05 Mythwrecked: Ambrosia Island - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Nikoderiko: The Magical World - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Overthrown - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Quick coin run away - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Skydance's BEHEMOTH - PS5 - 2024/12/05 Supersize My Heart - STEAM - 2024/12/05 Colorfire Redux - STEAM - 2024/12/06 Édgimon - STEAM - 2024/12/06 Inside The Forest - STEAM - 2024/12/06 NIGHT STORE SIMULATOR - STEAM - 2024/12/06 Path of Exile 2 - PS5 XS - 2024/12/06 Westild's Law - STEAM - 2024/12/06 全城追缉3 (Wanted 3) - STEAM - 2024/12/06 Indiana Jones and the Great Circle - XS STEAM - 2024/12/08 Among Ashes - STEAM - 2024/12/09 Undead West - STEAM - 2024/12/09 Cake Space Shooter - STEAM - 2024/12/10 Go Home Annie - STEAM - 2024/12/10 Legacy of Kain™ Soul Reaver 1&2 Remastered - PS4 XS STEAM NSW PS5 XONE - 2024/12/10 Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: Rita's Rewind - NSW XS PS4 XONE PS5 STEAM - 2024/12/10 Monument Valley 3 - Netflix - 2024/12/10 Tilebreaker Next Level - STEAM - 2024/12/10 VOIN - STEAM - 2024/12/10 FAIRY TAIL 2 - STEAM - 2024/12/11 Anzu - STEAM - 2024/12/12 Café Keeper - STEAM - 2024/12/12 KLETKA - STEAM - 2024/12/12 The Spirit of the Samurai - STEAM - 2024/12/12 10 Dead Doves - STEAM - 2024/12/13 Christmas Infinity - STEAM - 2024/12/13 Heritage - STEAM - 2024/12/13 Vigaro Runner 2: Return - STEAM - 2024/12/13 Watermelon Simulator - STEAM - 2024/12/13 CyberTaxi: Lunatic Nights - STEAM - 2024/12/16 Lift/Shift - STEAM - 2024/12/16 Neko Odyssey - STEAM - 2024/12/16 On Your Tail™ - NSW STEAM - 2024/12/16 Pew Pew Gaem 3 - STEAM - 2024/12/17 Rocket Rats - STEAM - 2024/12/17 DREDGE - IOS MAC AND - 2024/12/18 MALL MANAGER SIMULATOR - STEAM - 2024/12/19 Memories Of BUST - STEAM - 2024/12/19 Proxyma - STEAM - 2024/12/19 Guns, Blocks, and Steel - STEAM - 2024/12/20 The Midnight Crimes - STEAM - 2024/12/20 My Aquarium - STEAM - 2024/12/22 Dichotomy - STEAM - 2024/12/23 Sheep Quest - STEAM - 2024/12/25 Rogue Rhythm - STEAM - 2024/12/26 Apocalypse Shop Simulator - STEAM - 2024/12/27 On Air - STEAM - 2024/12/27

[zootycutieart]

Been a while since I've touched Moshi Monsters stuff, hasn't it! I got the itch to draw my Sweet Tooth humanization again, and here we go! They're still a great character in general, and just really fun. X3

[day0fnight]

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GHOST OF TSUSHIMA - IKI ISLAND DLC

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LAYERS OF FEAR

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[read-write-sleep-repeat]

Spoilers for Working THROUGH Intrusive Thoughts, bc apparently I'm live-blogging this shit now

"Remus, you couldn't turn anything on if you tried." HOLY FUCK LOGAN. My hand was to my mouth in excitement so far this episode, but that... that... OMG

Did Logan just pour wine into his coffee cup holy crap

"Logan, I'm a grown man... I would love to color." FELT. Maybe I should color. I've been overthinking. Maybe it's what I need instead of eating my feelings. (That got dark real fast, my bad)

The fucking bratwurst. I let out an actual laugh

Did Logan just intimidate the masked murder? Help I'm crying

THE PADDLE, NO. I knew the "I'll be good" was foreplay but THE PADDLE

Oh my god I was very worried Logan wasn't going to intervene

But then the music Logan put on (the orchestra), right before I paused to write this... very enemies to lovers, dancing in a ballroom together vibes. Idk. I'm weird. But come on... dagger to the throat, anyone?

"Shake what your mama gave ya" pls the way it's on a notecard and everything

Not Remus scratching his own butt and shaking his leg like a dog, goodness

Oh, tongue lollipop.🤮 It moved🤮 Why did I think it would be a good idea to have a snack during this episode? I should've known. Intrusive thoughts is literally in the name

I'm pausing this right before Logan snaps (it looks like he's gonna, anyway). Ooh, it'll be GOOD

HIS EYES FLASHED ORANGE HIS EYES FLASHED ORANGE CODE ORANGE

Y'all, what if the "the orange side is a fed-up Logan" theories were correct??

Logan, no. Logan, you're not allowed to scream at Thomas or Nico. No. Let them have this happy video call. Please, I beg. You're my favorite character (alongside Janus), is that worth anything to you?

Logan sunk out, and I am SOBBING. I thought he was gonna actually be listened to in this episode. It's what he deserves. BUT NO.

Not the segway into the ad. Haha. No offense to Logan, but I feel better

PATTON in the endcard

And Nico and Thomas on a date awwwwww

AND ROMAN

VIRGIL

Logan looks kinda mad... I don't like this...

"Oh, thank goodness, you're giving him permission." "...Of course I would." I don't like this either. Very... SVS Redux vibes...

What was that moment of contemplation then a sigh, Thomas? I don't like that either.

I think it's my overthinking plus my love of angst rn. Not a good combo.

JANUS!!!!!

No no no no no no no

Snake in a tree (in the Garden of Eden) eating an apple, telling a lie

Oh no no no no no

ORANGE EYES IN THE ENDCARD AHHHH

AHHHHH my theory brain wants to go into overdrive

[bfdiredux]

SPOILERS FOR BFDI:TPOT 18.

I repeat, SPOILERS FOR TPOT 18.

DISCUSSION UNDER CUT!!

Last warning, SPOILERS FOR BFDI:TPOT 18!! Read ahead at your own risk.

HOLY FUCK this episode was FUN. I was lost but enjoyed it anyways-- I don't consider it a top tier TPOT episode.

I'll admit, it was different than I was expecting! I thought we would see the post-splitters living their life-- instead they were put into a challenge for a credit card.

I also expected to see the characters changed in some way. I mean, we haven't seen them in four years.,, they dDID change but?? I don't know tbh,,

Lollipop got a lot meaner than I remember her being. Match was less relevant than I was hoping for.

I completely adore Loser still trying to put on his Loser-Cake act and deciding to visit Winner at the end of the episode. Also

THE END OF THE EPISODE.?? MY HEART. TWO IS GETTING WORSE. PLEASAS

AND THIS??

THAT IS THE FACE OF SOMEONE WHO KNOWS SOMETHING.

This is JUICY!!! What are you hiding dude ??? What do you know??

For the redux, this episode has to be overhauled. Like,, no challenge we are chilling. There will be plot of course!! Loser deciding to finally visit Winner! Maybe after so many failed stunts Loser finds himself growing tired. Or I do find a reason for him to go into Winner's memories. Mmm angst

Gelatin's just recently come back from college, Ruby just recently came back from an acting thing, Taco and Blocky have a rivalry. That jazz!! There's a lot of space to fill out.

[retiredcultistredux]

Lollipop anon: I accidentally started smth oops. But Anyways. Is hyness here? I want to give em a overly expensive lollipop. (Also I might rb with lollipop anon design)

[He's not quite sure what to do with the lollipop, but he appreciates it.]

((also yes if you have an actual design rather than just 'bronto burt with anon colors' pls show me and make sure it's fully colored so i know what colors to use when drawing))

[poorlydrawnmoriocs]

“Okay! Bye! I’ll come visit if I don’t get turned into a horse!”

Touma waves before his other hand is grabbed.

“Awh- Brooooooo-!” He smiles. He’ll hold these guys’s hands all they want! Even if it burns!

Back in the lobby, Touma does take a lollipop- And an extra for Laurence, of course.

“Yuribro can probably hear if we wanna go back, right? You think?”

@daily-rubbersoul-redux

A specific boy in white is out of the hospital and currently on the move to somewhere. Surely this isn’t where plot happens. - Adam Saishi

“Dude! Dude! Duuuude!!!” Touma runs up from nowhere, waving one of his arms around wildly. “I got good news!!!”

@dive-into-shadows

[greekowl87]

Fic: False Flags Redux (1/13)

Author’s Note:  Let me start by stating this work was a grand experiment for me. I have never written a mystery or case file before, this the longest thing I have written and completed (besides a 22-page graduate research paper on William Shakespeare), and for the most part, I have this almost completed before I started posting it. This started its life as a drabble written for @txf-prompt-box back in early September. It kept growing and I created a Frankenstein fic. I hold this little creation very close to my heart and I hope you all enjoy it as I have enjoyed writing it.

Lastly, a massive, million thanks to @mulders-boyish-enthousiasm and @scully-loves-ruthie for the constant hand-holding, criticism, feedback, and overall being the awesome of the most awesome people and helping me get through this. Seriously, these two deserve a medal.

Tagging @today-in-fic

Timeline: Season 6. Making me pick episodes? Before ‘How the Ghost Stole Christmas.’ Before they got the X-Files back and before ‘Tithonaeous’. Use your headcanon imagination.

1/13

It was taken from me. Plain and simple. This is a story of revenge. Plain and simple. 

You see, I remember everything. Sure, they don’t but I do. They don’t matter. I remember how my heart was ripped out. He stole it and she ripped it out. Stamped it on the ground. Burned it. Neither party is innocent. Both are guilty. I am the judge, jury, and executor. And the kicker? I remember everything. And I am willing to kill to get it back.

The betrayal. The heartbreak. I want revenge. I have been wanting revenge for 135 years. I had it once. I will have it again.

I did not realize how much I wanted it until I saw her again.

I did not realize why I was doing it to begin with. I just felt this need…this anger. I was always angry. I always wanted to lash out. That’s how it started. One girl here. It felt good. Another random guy there. Even better. I had no agenda. Another random person there. I just needed to do it. I did not discriminate or plan. I just did it to do it. Like a smoker smokes a cigarette to smoke. I killed just to kill. I got no physical satisfaction than knowing I did it.

But then they caught me. I saw her.

And then, I remembered everything.

… .

Federal Building Norfolk, Virginia December 12, 1998

It was cold. Not bitterly cold but enough to send a chill to your bone. The sky was overcast; so grey it looked heavy and ready to release some sort of precipitation, and the cold was always snapping, freezing, ready to make any rain turn to snow. The weird thing is that it would never snow. Norfolk, Virginia, was a conundrum. A city steeped in history but unsure where to go between the historic district and the hodge-podge of Victorian, Art Deco, and modern architecture. The weather seemed to fit right in.

On the corner of Charlotte Street and Brambleton Avenue, a four-story building dominated. It was built with a nod to the art deco style, with its boxy shape, antiqued lamps, and boxy fanned out styles. The Walter E. Hoffman courthouse appeared just as much out of place as the rest of the buildings in the city.

Outside art deco courthouse, two FBI agents huddled near each other to try and escape the biting cold. Agent Dana Scully looked pointedly at the sign marked ‘U.S. Marshal Parking Only’ in bright right and white letters and then towards their rental 1997 Chevy Impala. “Mulder,” she mused, “are you sure we can park there?”

Special Agent Fox Mulder blew into his gloved hands and gazed at the parking sign ominously. “We’re FBI. They’re U.S. Marshals,” he shrugged. “We’re both federal agents in law enforcement. What’s the difference?”

Scully licked her chapped lips, choosing not to argue the point. “Can we at least get out of the cold? I want to get this over with.”

“What?” her partner teased. “Looking forward to more background checks?”

“No. And no. I hate the cold. And Kersh’s background cheeks. I just want to get home,” she shivered. “Something about the cold makes me want to become a hermit.”

Mulder rubbed her arms slightly trying to generate heat. “I don’t blame you,” he shrugged. “The Vineyard is way worse. At least it decides if it wants to snow or not.”

“Shut up about the snow. I hate the snow. You know that.”

“You could always move to Miami.” She gave him a withering glance and he smiled lightly. “Then let’s get out of this cold. If you behave, I’ll buy you a lollipop after all this.”

“Shut up, Mulder.”

Even through the thick layers of her suit and heavy wool coat, the pressure of his touched seared itself into her lower back right above her ouroboros tattoo. She straightened her back unconsciously, her back cracking, and stretched her neck. “I wish we could have stayed at the hotel across the street,” she mumbled, nodding to the large 12 story v-shaped hotel across the street. “Looks a lot nicer than where we’re staying at. And closer.”

“Hey, Kersh’s dollars at least gets us a step up from a motel. We’re staying by the airport.”

“There’s nothing by the airport.”

Mulder frowned and teased her. “Well, there’s the beach. The hotel is supposed to be really nice.”

“Virginia Beach,” she specified, “which we aren’t exactly on the oceanfront, are we?”

He gestured eastwards. “The river?”

“Mulder, the ocean and the river are not the same things.” She shook her head slightly in an effort be rid of the chill the creeping into her bone. “Regardless, can we get out of this cold? I really don’t understand why even drove down here, Mulder. We just have to testify at a sentencing hearing.” She held up a finger for dramatic pause. “Sentencing hearing.”

“Well, maybe I don’t want us sitting behind the desk doing background checks?”

She arched an eyebrow and shook her head. “How is that a step up? Okay, okay,” she sighed. “But can we at least get out of this cold? I’m freezing.”

Mulder ushered her into the courthouse through the main entrance on Monticello Avenue. They shed their coats, showed their badges, went through the security checkpoint, took the required elevator, and walked the required amount of steps to courtroom B. They slid in among the shuffling of journalists, cops, lawyers, and other courtroom witnesses. Scully saw the judge enter unceremoniously from the left as the bailiff rose and called for order.

She watched from afar as the male judge looked briefly over the day’s docket and then towards the defendant, the serial killer her and Mulder had caught the year previously

“Well,” the judge sighed, opening. “This should be fairly straightforward. Francis Buckley, rise please.”

The defense lawyer jumped up. “Aren’t you going to hear testimony in defense of my client?”

“Sir,” the judge answered, “I see no one jumping to defend your client for brutally murdering three people. The only people here to testify are the two FBI agents that caught him and I sincerely doubt that will cast any light on your client’s…good grace and he has already been convicted by a court of three murders. How much longer do you want me to drag this through the mud?” The lawyer’s mouth flapped uselessly and the judge looked pointedly at him. “Rise, Mr. Buckley.”

Scully watched as a large man in his mid-thirties rose, dressed in the classic orange jail jumpsuit and chained. She felt something in the air shift and glanced towards Mulder to see if he noticed. The defendant, Francis Buckley, turned to look over his shoulder slightly. He grinned when his brown eyes zeroed in on her. She felt cold, like icicles dropping down her back in sharp pain. She physically jumped and felt Mulder’s hand instantly squeeze her knee in reassurance. She glanced at her partner as his hazel eyes gazed at her quizzically. She nodded quickly before regaining her composure. Buckley smiled, even more, when he noticed Mulder before turning back to the judge.

It was a whirlwind. Before she even knew it, Mulder was gently ushering her out the door with his familiar hand on the small of her back. She could hear him talking. Something about lunch.

“Scully,” he called gently, “are you even listening to me?”

She sucked in a quick breath and blinked as if coming out of a revere. “Yeah.” She blinked a few more times to clear her eyes. “Yeah. Sorry about that, Mulder. Must have of dazed off there for a second.”

He studied her for a moment and nodded. “Well, we don’t have to be back in Washington until tomorrow. You want to play hooky this afternoon in the wonderful city of Norfolk, Virginia? The Chrysler Museum is nearby.”

She nodded again, more quickly than her body would let her. She was eager for the distraction to take her focus away from the building uneasiness that was in the back of her mind.

… .

I saw her today. I was hoping to see her today. And he was there too. This will be so easy.

… .

Norfolk, Virginia February 1, 1862

The young lieutenant pulled his gray kepi down over his ears and buried his face into his own greatcoat bemoaning the cold. Even in the beginning of February, it was bitingly cold. The snow crunched under the wagon’s wheels as it drove slowly among Freemason street. He shifted uncomfortably as he surveyed on what would be his new home for an undetermined amount of time.

Polished and affluent homes combed the streets on either side of him. He felt uneasy being out and about here. He much preferred to be with the other marines at the barracks at the naval yard where they awaited the completion of the navy’s newest ironclad, CSS Virginia, previously known as the USS Merrimac.

Honestly, he never knew why God had intended him to be the butt of some cruel, universal joke. He was an army man, a graduate of Virginia Military Institute. Hell, he was supposed to be a part of blossoming community of military intelligence. But no. He was stuck on a boat and surrounded by navy men. He got seasick easily too.

God, how he had wished his mother had not intervened with his career.

As the carriage trotted down the cobbled road, he spied an old man, wearing the insignia of a navy captain, and a woman, who was much too young to be his wife, wearing a pale green dress and a black overcoat, holding the captain’s arm weakly as they stood at the doorway of one of the polished homes. She looked bored. She glanced at her husband as he talked fondly to a man standing inside and let her eyes wander from place to place on the street.

Somehow, they caught each other’s gazes.

The first thing that he noticed was her blue eyes. Then the small smattering of freckles across her face. And her red hair peeking out beneath the bonnet. He felt warm to his soul like he finally belonged somewhere after searching a lifetime. She seemed just as taken with him and their gazes lingered as his carriage continued on its way and until she faded from sight.

… .

Holiday Inn by the Airport Norfolk,Virginia December 13, 1998

3:08 AM.

Scully rubbed her face in a weak effort to erase the fatigue that she had. Her eyes were tired. Her body felt heavy. Everything just felt off. It had ever since that morning in the courtroom. She lay beneath the white, artificial sheets and quilt (only a few steps up from creepy, crappy by the hour motel sheets) and absently clicked the television remote, the changing the flickering screen repeatedly. She heard a quick knock on the door joining her and Mulder’s rooms. He opened it slightly and gave a weak smile. “I thought I heard the TV,” he said softly.

She sighed and cast the remote aside. Sitting up in bed taller, she turned on the nightstand lamp. “No,” she admitted with a shrug. “I tossed and turned a bit. There’s nothing on TV.”

“There never is. Want some company?”

“Do you ever sleep, Mulder?” she teased, patting the bed beside her.

“Once in awhile.”

Her partner shut the door and sat on the edge of the bed, taking a moment to examine Scully. “You look…distracted. You okay, Scully?” She shrugged, rolling her neck as she did, hearing a distinct pop. “Oh, I heard that one. Turn around.”

“Mulder,” she admonished. “I’m fine.”

“Just…turn around, Scully,” he instructed with a small smile.

She shook her head, a small smile playing on her lips.

She loved his rare shoulder massages. Although she would tell him repeatedly she was okay, he would always ignore her. It was all professionally platonic, of course. Scully turned slightly and rolled her shoulder. “You don’t have to.”

“I know,” he said. He squeezed her shoulders tentatively. God, she was tense. He felt the knotted muscles beneath her silken green pajama set. “I’ve been worried since this morning.”

“How so?” she grunted, instantly straightening her spine, feeling the pressure of Mulder’s thumbs.

“I could say you’re distracted but that is just stating the obvious. Even at the museum today this afternoon, you were distant. Every since Buckley noticed you this morning,” he said thoughtfully. “You weren’t like that during the case.”

“I don’t know,” she confessed absently, sitting up straighter as his hands centered in on her spine. Her back cracked more. “Did you see the way he looked at us? At me?”

“Hm. What about it?”

“I don’t know, Mulder,” she whispered. “He smiled at me. Like, just me. Mulder, it creeped me out.”

He paused. “How so, Scully?”

She shook her hand, unconsciously rubbing her left arm. “Not that bad. I’m fine,” she answered quickly. She felt vulnerable. He already knew where his mind was going towards. “Not Pfaster or the abduction bad. It was probably nothing.”

“Then what?”

She paused, wishing he could hug her in this moment of vulnerability, but of course, she would never admit that out loud. “I didn’t feel like myself,” she replied after a long moment. “Like I was me, and someone else, but at the same time. I don’t know. Maybe I’m losing my mind.”

“Out of place, out of time?”

“Something like that.”

Scully shook her head and her entire body followed, shrugging out of Mulder’s grasp. He hesitated before gently grasping her hand that had been repeatedly trying to console herself. “Easy, Scully. I gotcha.”

She closed her eyes and tried to center herself. “What was it like?” she asked after a long moment. “In Tennessee?”

He was silent, his hand instinctively seeking out the small of her back, his place. He drew in a deep breath. “How else would you explain it?”

“You’ll think I’m crazy.”

“Try me.”

Scully hugged herself tightly and faced him. Mulder wished that he could just take her in his arms and make all right with the world but simply settled for squeezing her hand again.  “I had a strange dream tonight,” she started reluctantly. She pointed towards the floor loosely. “Here. In Norfolk.” She closed her eyes again. “Snow. Cold. Like this morning It needed to snow but hadn’t recently.”

“How do you know it was here?”

Her right hand flung wildly in a circle. “I just…know.” She took a deep breath, steadying herself. “It wasn’t this time–older. Mulder, I don’t know.” She buried her face in her hands. “This is stupid. Just ignore it.”

He grasped her other hand tightly. “Scully, come on. Stop thinking.”

Her head was spinning. She remembered the gaze from the dream. His gaze. She could not remember his face but she could feel his staring. “Mulder,” she murmured, squeezing his hands. “I think I need a vacation.”

He let out a hoarse laugh. “We both do.”

She brought her knees close, crossing them under her. “Mulder, I’ve never felt like this before. I have never felt so out of time and out of space. This isn’t like the abduction. This isn’t missing time. I feel like I’m experiencing something I forgot long ago. It scares me.”

He pushed a stray piece of hair behind her ear. “I know,” he whispered. Was she experiencing a past life? Who knew. But he was curious. “If you want to talk…”

She shrugged noncommittally as his cell phone rang. She raised an eyebrow as he mouthed ‘Sorry.’ “Mulder,” he answered crisply.

While he had freed one hand to answer his cell, his other hand still clasped hers. He was quiet as he finished the call and put it away. There was trouble in his eyes. “That was the sheriff. Buckley mentioned he wanted to talk to Starbuck.” He felt her stiffen. “Then he mentioned your name.”

“Do you think,” she paused. “This could be like Boggs?”

He never let go of her hand. “I don’t know. Maybe.” He looked down at the bed, surprised that she was even entertaining such ideas. “Good thing we have nowhere to be, right?”

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A dig in the vault this week, back to July 2013 for a resurrected Transmission 97.

Thee songs -

Celestial Empire – Dragonfly

Old Man – Londons

Troubled Mind – Buff Medways

Religious Experience (Singing a Song in the Morning) – Kevin Ayers featuring Syd Barrett

Jet Set – Dave Pike

Woke Up in a Police Car – Oblivians

Turquoise Hotel – Fungi Girls

Cheeseburger and Fries – King Lollipop

Temptation Inside Your Heart – Velvet Underground

Goodbye Johnny – Primal Scream

Taking Off – The Fall

No Come Down – Brian Jonestown Massacre

Spirit or Spell - Plantman

Fuzzy – Grant Lee Buffalo

California Über Alles – Disposable Heroes of Hiphoprisy

CIA Man – Fugs

Tosta Mista – Hooded Fang

Libras and Zebras = Jacuzzi Boys

Stoned and Starving – Parquet Courts

Vile Cranian (Circles) – Sun Araw

Drugs – Talking Heads

Sunrise – New Order

Hard Act to Follow – 21st Century

I Want My Woody Back –The Barracudas

Is It Raining in Your Mouth – The Fat White Family

Black Potato – The Rabble

Pick A Dub – Keith Hudson

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DAPHNE BLAKE: A STUDY IN POETRY. 

( part one: a mouthful of forevers, by clementine von radics. ) 

“You keep trying to turn your body bulletproof. You keep trying to turn your heart bomb shelter.”      –––– there is the worst and then there is more. 

“This morning I wrote your name in the steam on my mirror, knowing full well it would fade within minutes.”       –––– things I do when I cannot hold you. 

“I feed it raw meat so it does not hurt me. It is a strange thing to nourish what could kill you in the hopes it does not kill you.”      –––– there is a lion in my living room. 

“When he says you love too deeply, remind him he was warned.”      –––– untitled 1. 

“Women are told to keep their legs shut. Women are told to keep their mouths shut. Some women are kept silent for so long they become experts in the silent theft of power.”       –––– salome redux. 

“This is how we heal. I will kiss you like forgiveness. You will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms will bandage and we will press promises between us like flowers in a book.      –––– mouthful of forevers. 

“Little girls playing at women, red lipstick clacking like a lollipop against their teeth.”     –––– lolita addresses her author. 

“Inside me are a lot of people, most of them good. Somewhere inside me is the girl that loved you. You did things to me you should not have done. Because of that I was less a girl. Because of that I called what you did love. That is what children often do. The needle that goes through leaves behind a thread. And maybe that is love, in the sense that love has too many definitions.”    –––– needle.