#some mutuals deactivated recently and well...

[chocolate-cringymuffin]

Guess who has a new inconsistent style? :)

[livwritessometimes]

Ex Boyfriend Interview w/ Lando Norris

: Main Masterlist

: Author's Note - I remember reading this 'Ex boyfriend interview' thing a long time ago when I had a different account and recently I found a screenshot I had of that. I think the person who originally wrote it has deactivated their account because I couldn't find them anywhere but they wrote it for Seventeen. So I thought about making something similar for F1.

: Also do you guys want this for other drivers too?

...

[The video starts with a minimalist set. Two black stools sit a few feet apart, facing each other. Between them is a small table holding two water bottles and a box of tissues.]

[Two people enter from opposite sides, take a seat on the stools, exchanging a quick glance before looking away]

Interviewer: We understand you were both invited by a mutual friend, thank you for coming. We know this might feel a little uncomfortable, since we'll be discussing your past relationship. There's no pressure to answer everything, feel free to take a break in between if needed.

Shall we begin?

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Interviewer: How long were you guys together for?

"A little less than a year," says Y/n rubbing her arm in hopes to calm down her nerves.

"Seven months," Lando whispered, just barely audible all thanks to the mic.

Interviewer: And how long has it been since the break up?

"It'll be seven months next month," said Lando, answering the question this time.

Y/n nods at Lando's answer.

...

Interviewer: Who ended it?

"Um- I did," Lando said his voice laced with guilt.

Y/n didn't say anything, just nodded to Lando's answer.

Interviewer: Why?

"I thought I needed space," says Lando shifting a little on the stool which suddenly became a little uncomfortable. He continued, "The distance, our schedule difference, the season, it all became a bit too much. We could feel the distance."

Interviewer: Was it mutual?

"No," Y/n says quietly. "But I respected his decision," she finishes.

Lando finally looked at her and nodded.

"I didn't think you'd take it that well," He admitted, more to himself than the interviewer or even Y/n.

"Would you have preferred if I had begged you to stay?" Y/n said with a hollow smile.

Lando opened his mouth, then closed it. He had no idea how to answer this. Was there even a way he could?

...

Interviewer: What do you remember the most about your relationship?

Lando looked at Y/n, before saying, "Just how easy everything felt. Well...until I made things hard."

Y/n smiled at Lando, "Sunday nights," she says. "After every race we would cook dinner together and always end the night with a movie, no matter the race result," she finished.

Lando smiled at that, before letting out a soft chuckle, "even though both of us were shit at cooking," he said.

"Talk about yourself Norris, I made some killer pasta," Y/n scoffed, offended at the accusation.

"That you did," Lando said smiling softly at the girl in front of him.

...

Interviewer: Do you think you made the right choice?

Lando's smile fades at that question. He shifts slightly in his seat. "I thought the weight would eventually lift, but it never did," he said.

There's silence. No one says a word.

Lando quickly swipes his thumb under his eye, trying to play it off, hoping the camera won't catch the stray tear.

Y/n watches him, not reaching out but not looking away either.

...

Interviewer: Have you reached out since the breakup?

Lando shakes his head, slightly embarrassed. "I kept on writing messages but never had the guts to send them through," he said looking at Y/n.

Y/n looked at him and said, "I did see you typing this one time, then it disappeared."

"I was scared of how you'd react since I was one the who ended it," Lando said looking down.

Interviewer: What do you think went wrong?

"I thought I could handle everything but the race, the pressure, it all reached a point where I couldn't even recognize myself anymore," Lando said, running his hands through his curls.

"Instead of talking to me about this, you just left," Y/n says softly.

"I just didn't want to disappoint you," he says.

Y/n looked at him for a long time before saying, "You didn't. You just broke me a little."

...

Interviewer: Do you still love each other?

Lando doesn't speak up immediately, his gaze lingers just a little bit longer on Y/n before looking away. "I tried not to, I really did," he admitted.

"But?" Y/n asked, her voice barely audible

"But I think a part of me still does," Lando finished.

"I think," Y/n starts looking at lando, "there will always be a part of me that loves a part of you."

...

Interviewer: What did you learn from this relationship?

"That love isn't something you just feel," Y/n says, looking at Lando. "You have to be there through the good times and the bad. Especially the bad times," she finished.

He didn't say anything, just nods.

"I think, space isn't always the solution. Turns out going through things alone doesn't make you stronger, just lonelier," Lando admitted.

Interviewer: Would you like to stay in touch after this?

Y/n pauses for a moment, there is a look of hesitation in her eyes.

Lando took that as his sign, "More than anything," he said, looking straight into her eyes.

Her expression softens at his answer. "Yeah, I think I'd like that," she says finally.

"Yeah?" Lando questioned softly, unable to control the smile that spread across his face.

"Yeah!," Y/n answered, smiling softly at the boy

The camera lingers just a little bit longer focusing on the two before the screen faded to black.

...

Tags: @wobblymug | @evasmlp | @ln8118 | @piastri-fvx | @vannylen2144 | @freyathehuntress

[skyrigel]

Attention. I need help. Tw: Grooming

When I joined Tumblr as 15yr old back, my url @folkloregurl, this absolute asshole named Yasir Khan ( @old-school-romantics ) then in his twenties, pretended to be my friend, to be interested in my hobbies and life before gradually starting to engage me in his sick gutter acts.

He would send me explicit posts, thanks to Tumblr they were blurred because of my age, then forced me into disabling the option with his narcissism and would ask me “to sit on his lap” and roleplay with him as “his sister” and other times “as his student,”

Fifteen and no friends at all, to have the first few talks about my day before all those completely diminished and it was all about sexting.

One day he sent me his dick pic, to a fifteen year old who clearly didn't want to see it. Despite being pushed out of my limits, with an desperate plea I had told him not to send me anything explicit, he did it anyway.

To be noted, All this time, he knew i was fifteen. Infact he knew right from the start.

But still took great pleasure in everything above.

My online experience became so traumatic that I had to deactivate.

Only joined back with a new url after gaining some perspective and realising that what happened to me wasn't my fault, finding my solance in fanfictions and fandoms more than depending on anything else, especially these grown assholes who leech of little girls.

Now a month or so ago, he pretended to have found my handle again and tried to small talk. Being all so polite and thinking i hadn't grown up one bit.

Considering I was no longer naive I didn't immediately blocked him, and heard his petty lies.

He was coordinating the old bullshit again, trying to strike to small talk then making it back to about sex.

I didn't let him at all, but for the sake of my younger self i wanted to make him feel as much humiliated and ashamed as I felt in my own skin. Ofcourse the shame stayed with me, it doesn't go away just like that.

I wanted him to pay for his shameful acts.

What I learnt next was only that he is not only pedo, but fucking degraded misogynist. He compares his shitty acts with Palestine genocide. This asshole doesn't even measure up to any man. He is fucked in his head — his views about women are utterly disgusting.

Calling them stupid, dumb, whore, slut.

He has outright said, “a woman can be smarter than the whole town but she would ‘still’ be a woman”

When he realised he wouldn't be able to get me play little sister and any porn addicted fantasy, so he started to shame me for my fandom, for the fics i write or read, as if I should be the one feeling ashamed, as if I cornered and took advantage of 15 year old, as if I was a bloody pedo.

He has called me impure, bitch, dumb and other slurs because I didn't participate with his sexting.

I called him pedo and blocked him straight.

But a recent post of @romessence and similar experiences from @dumblr and other many blogs, I realised he is still harassing woman.

He has sent this to one of the users.

Abusing their families, abusing them with unimaginable slurs.

He talks about reposting while his posts are from pinterest. Adding misinformation — romantic madeup text over holocaust movies screencaps.

When I reblogged that post from @romessence with my harrasment experience, he filled my inbox with different different accounts.

I posted my experience in my safe community and guess what ?

@aahanna my mutual had similar experience with this creepo

To my horror, because this is heartbreaking, another user had similar experience when she was minor as well like me.

It is truly heartbreaking that Tumblr isn't a safe place anymore.

I am perceived for my fandom choices, exploitated when I was a literal child.

I can't see him out there pretending to be intellect when he has never ever read a single book in his life, has no respect for woman, innocent lives taken in genocide.

This sick pedo needs to put down. I am genuinely asking you to report him.

Here's the list of account and he has so so many. Please specifically report @melacholiacs which is his main account.

I am tagging some people who might understand me @iwillkeepyour-brittle-heart-warm @sunochanda @lilywalkers @dragonwithawolftattoo @mydarlingclaudia @sidollie @regulus-cannot-swim @herdarkangel @paapi @arun-armand-amadeo @monsterboyfriend @coolheadofficial @corvid007 @lxdymoon0357 @raine-ray @andreainlove @raindropsofloev @reticent-vampire @pleaseinsertwittyurl @bone-trash @rana-sentimental @mastikhor @chaliyaaa @thewisewill80sbyers

Skyrigel

I don't want much guys just if you're able to report him because I can't see this pedo pretending to be a victim, I just can't.

Edit: He deactivated,, thankyou folks <3

[aeyumicore]

EXPOSING MY IMPERSONATOR/HARASSER: @/IZUWUS.

edit: final update to this situation here

edit 2 (9/22): her new blog is @/clitfilms with an alias of naya. be wary interacting with her.

edit 3 (9/26): She has switched accounts and aliases/personas MANY times in the past. She was previously miguelism/startitties as ‘Stella’ (lots of issues associated with this one). 

edit: people have also come forward to let me know that she was 'albaedo' and 'reinaphoria' (two deleted blogs that were used to also harass other writers)

She had an account that she deleted recently, in light of the discourse that came about from me exposing her as my harasser, that was called “@/movedtoizuwus.” I don’t know what it was called before she named it that. 

She then moved to maimochies/izuwus as Mai/Lise/Lili.

She used minimimies, exposingaeyumicore, aeyumiicore, and aeyumicores to harass me.

And now she is on clitfilms as Naya.

Her past accounts have had a LOT of drama and harassment associated with them. Go search it up for yourself on Tumblr. A lot of it is EERILY similar to what happened to me, in terms of how she spoke, the anons she sent, etc.

Other creators have reached out to me with similar experiences being harassed by blogs LINKED TO izuwus & startitties, and believe she has MANY other active blogs as well as deactivated blogs (reinaphoria) that are linked to harassment. I will not name drop those as I cannot say with the same degree of certainty that these are 100% her (like I know startitties and clitfilms to be) but I implore everyone to be careful who they interact with.

--

I have decided to move forward with exposing the person I know to be behind the @/exposingaeyumicore + @/aeyumicores (these two are the same account, just renamed), @/aeyumiicore, and @/minimimies accounts.

That person is another large, probably larger than myself, writer in this space. That person is @/izuwus.

The reason I have decided to expose: Izuwus has still not left me alone, since she took down the impersonator blog last Thursday (evidence in doc confirming the blog was self-deleted and not deleted by Tumblr). Yesterday, she stalked my Twitter, saw a tweet I made with an idea I had for a Sylus fic, and proceeded to steal the idea as her own, posting it onto her main. That was my breaking point. (More details and screenshot evidence in the document below).

I have spoken to the Tumblr Abuse Support Staff and they have confirmed that I can post this, and it would not be considered harassment as I am defending myself from the harassment I endured for the last almost 2 weeks.

I do not feel safe on my platforms. I will always be paranoid that Izuwus is stalking me. She will never stop. I have given her MANY opportunities to leave me alone. I have given them opportunities to confess privately. You will see all of those in my document, as well as even on my blog I have warned them publicly to leave me alone.

CLICK FOR LINK: EVIDENCE THAT IZUWUS IS EXPOSINGAEYUMICORE, AEYUMICORES, AEYUMIICORE, AND MINIMIMIES.

Please be warned, this document is 55 pages (and counting should I need to add more evidence). It contains heavy mentions of cyber bullying, harassment, and impersonation. The document contains video screen recordings and lots of screenshot evidence. That is why it is so long. I will try not to edit the document, but should more evidence arise, I will be adding it.

Note, I am not asking you to harass Izuwus, to unfollow, or to spread the word. I could not care less if this person loses or gains followers from this. If you decide to continue following them, I honestly don't mind, I won't hold any animosity towards you. We can still be friends, mutuals, etc. I just want to get my truth out, before she continues to twist the narrative in her favor.

As a note, I have literally almost never spoken to this writer prior to the events of August 17, where @/exposingaeyumicore was released. I am aware Izuwus has told some people that she and I are close (again I have proof). This could not be further from the truth. She literally had me soft blocked prior to this happening on August 17, and then hard blocked me with no warning after I responded to her in our DMs that I did think her new layout was identical to mine.

I also have never had any issues with any readers, writers, anyone on Tumblr prior to this debacle. Not in my asks, not in my messages, not publicly. I absolutely did not start this. She started this, and brought it to Tumblr. So I am letting the people of Tumblr make their own decisions.

I will not be mass-messaging this post to anyone. I will not be commenting this post to any of her posts. I will not be going down her list of followers and sending it to them. I will post it here, and my Twitter, and that's it.

I am posting this on my main blog, and not making a burner, because I have nothing to hide. Should Izuwus refute this, or continue to make ANY claims about me, I will not be responding. It is very clear that nothing she says can be trusted, and I have provided ample legitimate proof (using HER OWN screenshots + taking screen recordings).

Especially after the @/exposingaeyumicore post, I have proven my innocence time and again. I have nothing to hide. No reason to lie.

If any other harassment targeting me happens (impersonation, vile claims, photoshopped screenshots), or any other creators in this space for that matter, I think we know who it is.

I apologize if I am not able to respond to all comments, messages, or asks. I am so exhausted.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and if you decide to read the entire document, thank you again. Please stay safe online everyone. You could mind your own business and still be targeted. Be careful what info you share about yourself. Just be a good person.

[unstable-and-horny]

Recently I've seen more and more deactivated accounts on my feed, but also messages. Some of whom were actual good mutuals of mine. It's sad to see so many deactivated accounts, but, it's also not hard to understand why.

Kinks, and especially this one, are a heavy subject. Not to mention post nut guilt is one hell of a drug. So is guilt and shame in general.

Which is why I wanted to say: It's okay, to take a break. It's okay to log off, or delete tumblr from your phone for a while. It's all completely fine.

And as a side note, since, again, it's sad to see so many people go... You can *always* hit me up for anything, including sfw work stuff. We can talk about videogames, arts, crafts, life, anything you want. My dm's are open for that stuff.

And again, take a break when necessary!

Wish y'all well now <3

[riality-check]

welcome to hell, everyone

I figured it was time for a new intro post after nearly two years with the last one. That, and I've got some new people following me due to the interest switch. So, here we go!

Me: I'm Ria, I'm 20, I use she/her pronouns, and I'm your friendly neighborhood fanfiction author!

Languages: English and Italian. I desperately need to practice my Italian, so if any Italian speakers want to strike up a conversation, please do! And if people are interested, I can start attempting to make posts in Italian as well.

Other places you can find me: ao3 (I used to have a Twitter, but I deactivated it after the US election.)

What I'm currently writing for: Arcane. It's eating my brain.

Most recent fic: "tenacity and other pain-won lessons" (ao3, tumblr)

Navigation (bear with me, it needs updating):

#ria writes for ficlets, snippets & links

#ria recommends for art and fic i find cool

#ria recs a friend for art and fic by my mutuals

#ria life for personal posts

#i wanna answer shit for ask games (always open, no matter how old)

#asked and answered for responses to said ask games

#in case you need it for general positivity

#save for later for reference stuff, feel free to reblog

#in the tags if you’d like to see commentary

and i use character & fandom specific tags for most other things (mostly character tags)

[ohprcr]

Hello! I've followed your art journey throughout the years on several social medias (though I tend to made and then deactivated accounts as often as breathing due to my impulsiveness haha). I want to start learning art seriously, inspired by you. And tbh I usually got motivation to keep going by putting my progress on the internet, even when no one is looking nor gives me validation, it just feels like I did something rather than keeping the progress to myself. Like, I need a visual tracker.

So I'd love to know your opinion on the pro and cons of the social medias you use to share your art? Especially instagram, twitter, and tumblr (Since I plan on making one each). What kind of culture and rules I must abide, what notice I should take. Which platform is the most comfortable for you? And do you always post the same artworks on all your platforms or you have your own classification on what kind of artwork you'll put on instagram, which one is for twitter, etc? Thanks in advance!

Hi!

First of all thanks for asking me! It's so nice to hear that you're planning to share your art ^^ This is probably gonna a bit long and mostly based on my personal experience, but I hope this helps!

The first socmed I use to mostly (and solely) post art was Instagram. My interactions there are mostly reconnecting with art mutuals from the deviantART days and some RL friends/family. I used to post regularly on Instagram but with how the algorithm works now that they're under Meta, I rarely participate in trends or post reels, and I mostly just post finished art and some speedpaint videos. But if you want you can def use the reels feature to create process video, etc. I like the carousel/stringed together image format and it can be utilized to post a lot of images in one post (up to 20 for now). I also use instagram as some kind of portfolio, with how it present a clean grid. I have RL friends and family following me there so I mostly just post general art, nothing too suggestive.

As for Tumblr, I've had it for quite a long time and it can be traced back to the ol'fandom days haha. I don't participate much in fandoms anymore, but I think it's always a good thing to post either original or fanart with proper tags on Tumblr. The comprehensive tagging method lets you scrounge and filter posts under the tag, so my older posts usually still circulate on other people's blogs even years after it was posted (which I'm grateful that they still enjoy my old stuff!). I mostly post finished art on Tumblr, sometimes multiple images in one post but it's a bit limited compared to Instagram. i don't post videos on here. I also use Tumblr as an archive bc it's much easier to track back my old posts.

The most recent socmed I use is Twitter. Maybe it's already a known fact how the site is kinda falling off after it changed to X :" but I still use it mainly to communicate with friends. I post more liberally on Twitter, from finished art, videos, animation, sketches and personal stuffs as well. It's also where my promotional posts get the most reach in terms of visibility (this includes commissions, merch catalogues, etc) and most clients I've had in the past found me there. I think the community is also more active on Twitter, but sometimes it can also lead to discourses/fighting that I don't rly wanna take part in :" I've seen people moving to Bluesky as well, though I personally haven't used it yet.

All in all I think I mostly crosspost my works across all of my socmed, with a few exceptions on each socmed. I hope this helps and happy posting!!

[atlabeth]

now that the dust has cleared from the chaos for me irl, i want to officially thank you all for 3000 followers!! because wow. where do i even start?

this isn't a milestone i thought i would ever reach. i made this blog during my junior year of high school when i was bored as hell in online school, not knowing what would come of it, and honestly not expecting anyone to read anything i’ve written. i exclusively wrote avatar fics (kind of embarrassing that a series i started at the beginning of my blog still isnt finished huh?) because it was what i had been watching most recently. i started to gain some recognition, made some friends, and slowly but surely i carved out my little corner of the internet. and now, 3 years, 3000 followers, and almost 500,000 words later, i’m going into my junior year of college with some of the best online friends a girl could ask for (shoutout to my day 1 @simplysolo for still being around and still being the best ever, and shoutout to all my other tumblr friends that have deactivated over the years</3 i miss you guys) a whole array of fandoms that i’ve dabbled in, and a newly discovered thing for middle aged men. cool 

i truly cannot thank you all enough. i’ve always been a writer, but this blog has given me a sorely needed creative outlet and made me more confident in my writing skills than ever. at the end of the day i’m just writing silly little x reader fics, but i’ve truly had so much fun doing it! every single fictional man im in love with is also in love with me isn’t that crazy!!!

a special, extended shoutout to the loveliest mutuals i’ve picked up over the years. i wouldn’t be half the writer i am and i wouldn’t have half as much fun on here without you all. @simplysolo for being around since the beginning and truly being the greatest person on this app, i love you intensely, @sokkadora for being another one of my ogs (we dont talk anymore but i see you every so often on my dash and you’re doing great!!) @mcallmestiles for being one of the first avatar fics i ever read, traitor encouraged me to be a better writer and i hope you’re doing well with your medical career!! @tangledinlove for being my most famous mutual, the kindest person in the world, and being brought together through the power of lockwood, @giyuji and @milkiane who are both inactive but who i have to tag because i love them and i hope they’re doing well; naomi you got me into the grishaverse and liane we were in the trenches of the stranger things revival together, @boneblushed for dealing with so much but still being phenomenal and lovely in every way, @tommymcartney for being so sweet all the time, my biggest cheerleader and encouraging my insanity in every fandom ive been a part of, @nghtwngs for being the only person who loses it over nikolai lantsov as much as i do, to all my new/more recent mutuals @hotchfiles @ma1dita @moowithmidnight @emiliehornby @supercutszns i can't wait to get to know or keep getting to know you!!! you're all so lovely!!! and all the mutuals i don’t talk to as much as i should, i love you all and cherish you in my heart regardless of if we talk every day or have never said a single word to each other!! i don’t want to tag you all because i don’t want to bother you, but if you’re looking at this and thinking am i talking about you, i am. i love you. it takes a village and im so lucky to have you all as mine 

i can’t believe it’s been 3 years, i can’t believe i’m halfway done with college, and i can’t believe we hit 3,000. truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for reading my fics and letting me be some small part of your lives. i can’t wait to write more for you all. keep a lookout for my 3k celebration post! 

[chwedout]

chwedout has finally reached 1k followers! thank you to everyone who decided to press the follow button, from those who followed me way back in the spiderstingle days to those who only followed me recently, i really appreciate it! to celebrate this milestone, i've decided to do a few things.

first of all, i've finally started a tracking tag — #chwedoutbox. you can find more about it in this post. i can't wait for you all to use it so i can see and share all the cool things you create.

secondly, i've decided to open up my ask box to requests! all you need to do is choose one of the following prompts and send a request through my ask box.

seventeen member + music video (e.g. vernon in rock with you)

seventeen member + going seventeen episode (e.g. mingyu in svt's kitchen for two)

this or that (e.g. left & right era wonwoo or 24h era wonwoo/ long haired jeonghan or short haired jeonghan)

there's no limit to how many requests you can send, go wild if you want to. i just ask that you be patient with me as sometimes i do like to go outside to breathe in fresh air and touch some grass. sending requests on anon is okay too! however, i won't be able to tag you when i do eventually post your request.

now i just want to say a massive thank you to all of my mutuals! being sappy lowkey makes me cringe but i couldn't have reached this milestone without any of you. to my og mutuals (i won't tag you dw) who were here way before i turned into a kpop blog, to my newest mutuals who i probably haven't spoken to, thank you! i hope you all know how much i appreciate you and that you all mean so much to me ♡

first of all my ride or dies- the hhu wives- sarah @vertiny, bec @storyoflight, and alex (idk if you deactivated </3) i literally would not be here without all of you. we've been through so much together and i just want to say that i love all of you so so much! let's all hope that we can one day go to that svt concert together.

j @vcrnons - my dolly in crime and my first ever caratual on tumblr! if i remember correctly, you followed me way back when i hadn't fully committed to being an svt blog yet. thank you so much for being so kind and supportive to me when i first started. i mean it when i say i don't think i'd be here if we didn't become mutuals since your work always inspired me to start creating myself.

ophelia @lee-sanghyeok - another one of my fave vernon stans! thank you for always being a joy to see on the dash! you're so incredibly sweet and i know i can always count on you to send me vernon content when i ask for it.

kashi @jeonsupershy - one of my fave wonwoo stans fr! seeing all of your wonwoo gifs always puts a smile on my face. every time he does something i just know that i'm going to be reblogging one of your stunning gifs later in the day. thank you for always being such an awesome presence on the dash. i'm so grateful to be mutuals with you!

max @scouped - you are so incredibly talented and i really hope you know that! i'm always in awe whenever i see one of your creations on my dash. you definitely inspire me to push the boundaries of my creativity when it comes to making content. i do miss your presence on tumblr but i'm always happy when i see you on the dash from time to time.

tiff @uservernon - my beloved dolly moot! thank you for always being so sweet. you always bring such a fun and bright presence to caratblr and i love seeing you on the dash or in my notifs especially when you're screaming about vernon. the url is still a powermove in my opinion!

maddie @jeonwon-wonwoo - you are genuinely one of the kindest and friendliest people i've met on tumblr. i've had so much fun talking to you about the most random things. i'll never forget our chats about the walking dead and teen wolf. i hope you're doing well!

yena @fairyhaos - my fave joshua stan! i hope you know that every time i see the couch shua pic i think of you lmao. i always love seeing you lose your mind over shua and you never fail to make me laugh with all the tags you leave on posts. thank you for bringing such a positive energy to caratblr! i'm so glad to have you as a mutual.

zaynab @galatariel - another one of my insanely talented mutuals! your gifs are always so gorgeous and always inspire me to go out of my comfort zone and create something new. i always enjoy seeing you make content for the things you love. thank you for being so kind and helpful.

nuri @jjunhui - again, another mutual who is extremely talented! everything you make is just stunning and your svt as text posts gifsets never fail to make me laugh. thank you for being so supportive and kind. i am so grateful to have you as a mutual.

nana @kyeomies - so glad to see that you're back! i've always enjoyed seeing your pretty gifs on my dash and can't wait to see more of your content. i hope you're doing well!

yo @redrcbin - literally one of my most beloved mutuals! i'm still not 100% sure when we became mutuals but i think it's pretty funny if it was because of the c-word game. i always love seeing you on the dash and in my notifs, especially when i see you losing your mind over wonwoo or mingyu. i'm so happy i get to call you a friend.

and to all the mutuals that i haven't talked to or interacted with that much - @jeongtokkie, @kimsmingyu, @wonboos, @leedonghun, and @soonhoonsol - thank you so much for being awesome! i really hope we do get to talk more in the future.

now i'm going to kick myself because tumblr won't let me tag anymore people and i'm pretty sure i've missed out on so many beloved mutuals of mine. i'm extremely sorry if i did, but please know that i appreciate every single one of you so much!

[beomsl]

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i know this is nobody's business and probably no one even cares in the first place, but i just wanted to use this space to rant a bit cause i need to get it off my chest.

i've been dealing with a lot lately. simple things like college, job, brother issues, friends issues too, money; but also more serious matters like health and loss. my cousin has been sick for a couple of weeks and recently he passed away, which was completely heartbreaking to everyone cause he was my age and it looked like he was just getting better. i'm destroyed, i'm really struggling and on top of that my birthday was just a few days ago and i felt so down. i feel lonely. thankfully i have a beautiful family, but still, i feel very left out, unwanted, unappreciated, unsupported, just so so lonely. i don't even feel well when i come here anymore, and i don't think it's a time where i should be adding more negativity into my life.

this being said, i think i'm going to take an undefined time away from tumblr. i don't want to go back to old habits to suppress my anxiety, and lately anxious is the only way i've been feeling when i open this app. all social media actually, but this one is the one i'm most attached to and people who's been following me for some years now know that cause i always end up coming back, so it really hurts me how sick this place makes me lately :( i won't deactivate cause i don't want to lose the good memories i made here, but honestly, i really would.

sorry for the ranting. i know this is too personal, but i just needed to let it out and after all, this is my blog. thank you to the mutuals that have been nice to me from the start, when i first made this silly blog :') i really love you and you'll be on my heart forever. hopefully, i'll come back later. if not, thank you for all the special moments <3 take care!

[arminthada]

tag game ✨

huge thank you to the lovely zey @thasorns for thinking of me. i love you too (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

1. why did you choose your url?

no one remembers her but claire dearing from jurassic world will always hold a special place in my heart.

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them.

poomphuripan - the bl sideblog that i started just because my main got deactivated for a bit but i guess for now, it's mostly uppoom and msi-focused. in december, it'll probably be torjj and spare me your mercy-focused. i think i'll probably just be using these for the ql series i have a crazy hyperfixation about.

huiyanan - a pentagon yanan/hui focus sideblog

coryjeacoma - my musical theatre sideblog for random audio bootlegs and sometimes musical gifs

ryuvachirawich - my unused (mostly lakorn) gifs blog for extra gifs i make but that doesn't make it into any main or sideblogs. at first i was trying to keep this sideblog lowkey but then i needed to tag the gifs w my gif tag anyway so i could search for them so disclosing is fine 🤣

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

2014... what do you mean it's been a decade since i started using tumblr.... time isn't real

4. do you have a queue tag?

i tried but i've given up on queue-ing in general so i don't. my tumblr is constantly in two modes: super active or going months without a single post lmaoooo.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

i wanted to be where all the gifmakers are but i have too much interests so this shall remains a multi-fandom blog or more like a "whatever media claire is consuming atm" blog 

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

dirk gently is the single most perfect holistic detective in existence. sometimes i'm too attached to my url and my icon, i don't think i can ever change them. headers i can but i haven't changed my url/icon for 3-4 years i think.

7. why did you choose your header?

i feel you linger in the air is THAT series for me. dethroned almost every other thai series on my all time fave list (i say almost because bad genius series is still holding its crown well)

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

i just checked and apparently it's my first and only merlin gifset 😅

9. how many mutuals do you have?

i have no idea but i love all my mutuals （づ￣3￣）づ╭❤️～

10. how many followers do you have?

i hit 1k recently. crazy to me because i've left this tumblr empty for months before starting being active again last october???

11. how many people do you follow?

4000+ but that's only because i'm too lazy to unfollow people. so yea i rarely see things on my dash. i just end up scrolling through my fave gifmakers tags to find things they make.

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

i don't think so????? i mean the closest is probably me saying super random things on this tag.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

it used to be once a week... but these days it's really a daily routine lmao. although i'm pretty sure i'll leave my tumblr dusting once my stand-in ends... who knows... we'll see...

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

how can i? i'm so non-confrontational, i reblog things in private to argue with op 😭 lmao (arguments that op will never see lmao, i'm saving them and me both the trouble really). just enfp things.

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts

huh why do i never get them on my dash (⊙x⊙;)

16. do you like tag games?

sometimes i forget but i love being tagged in them because i get to know about all the great mutuals i have on here, especially music tags because i always get incredible new music recommendations

17. do you like ask games?

apparently i had my asks closed without knowing for quite some time so i haven't received asks for so long. maybe one day i'll do them but i have bad records of answering asks so ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

i'm not sure if being THE certified way apologist/way gifmaker qualifies her as tumblr famous but maybe sasa @zhouxiangs is the most famous mutual i have

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

let's call this mutuals whose editing skills i wanna steal (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

lana @sherrymagic whenever you see me reblogging lana's joe sets every week, you'll see me gushing about the consistency in her coloring and that's because that's something i'm obsessed with, especially considering my stand-in's grim/dark cinematographic coloring. also i don't know how lana chooses the perfect lines from each eps to do her recap sets because most of the times i can't even choose between which scenes to gif.

eva @alienwlw eva makes the most beautiful lyrics set and is willing to do my most niche requests and i'm always looking forward to seeing her gifs because it's always so warm and grainy and crisp and i'm just like wahhhh *heart eyes emoji* every time

20. tags?

no pressure tagging anyone today ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪

[ayahimes]

updates : apart from school keeping me busy i've been feeling a bit uncomfortable across all my blogs . due to the nature of the content discussed i will keep it beneath a read more . thank you for understanding and taking the time to read if you so choose . please see tags below for trigger warnings .

within the last month i've been cyberstalked by two people across my blogs . its been multiple occasions , some even as recent as two hours ago here ( i have the timestamps ) . tbh , it's just made my experience here a bit uncomfortable and i feel like i'm constantly being watched and monitored even when i keep to my own space . apart from that , one of the people cyberstalking my blogs is also stalking my friends as well . i've gotten anons on my league blog and missed calls on my phone . i had resorted to deactivating a good chunk of my social media beyond here because of the incident .

as some of you may know i was cyberstalked a year ago by a former roleplayer here . after our falling out he was telling mutual friends anytime i updated anything ( photos , statuses , etc . ) or when i chose to unblock him on t/witter the day of . no joke there's a conversation he had with an old friend where my name was dropped 106 times . it got so bad that i had to close a lot of my socials . things have been relatively silent until recently but to know i'm being watched by not one but two people in such a short amount of time is very nauseating to say the least .

currently - i'm not sure of my plan for this blog . however , i am aware that an old friend and rp partner in the g/enshin rpc has another alias and is stalking my blog and my friends . i adore ayaka and enjoy writing her when i have the opportunity , but i may condense my time here for my own safety and comfort . i hope you can all understand . thank you .

[nalyra-dreaming]

Said it before, I think (and others also think that :P) that the show has been mapped out for at least 5 seasons with the way they are setting it up. - Oh! This is so smart. Something as intricate and complex as the Vampire Chronicles would have to be mapped out tbh. I just started Merrik so I am still new to the background but just reading the first one I got the feeling this saga was going to be one of the more convoluted (affectionate) stories I've read and I have read a lot of complex sagas. There is just so much background. I can't wait till we get to Lestat's story from his perspective. That is my favorite book so far. My mom read all of Anne Rice's books and I recently found out my brother also devoured The Vampire Chronicles in College. He says it can get a little weird when she goes through her religious spike but to stick to it because it is amazing.

BTW, I love your blog! Do you have recommendations for similar blogs? I want to just devour everything before the season starts but want to avoid any drama and I got a whiff of some drama a few months ago. I have been a fan of a certain pop singer since 2008 so suffice it to say, I can only handle so much inane shit in a fandom. My drama limit has already been reached for 2024 thanks to that fandom so I can take no more!😂

Hey!

Glad you like!

I also cannot wait to see all that on screen - for the very first time!!!!! It's just breathtaking! And the quality of it all is simply astounding.

The VC have everything and the kitchen sink in them, and they can get a bit... off topic and crazy, but there are arcs, and I hope you enjoy!!

(And yes, drama. I (hope I) am done with that as well, got my rants out of my system before the season^^ (and intentionally so). You can come into my DM if you like, but I won't rehash it all anymore on here, it's been done, and is now... in the archive^^.)

So - I can recommend following @virginiaisforvampires, @cbrownjc, @emeraldinerosefaedragon, @showmey0urfangs, @toriangeli, @kaelio for a variety of meta and opinions(*), both show and VC. I also follow and reblog a lot of gif makers and artists, and I have put some blogs on subscription.

(*) This is in NO WAY an exhaustive list, and I don't really want to single out any of my mutuals (Love y'all!!). I follow over 600 people (though a lot of them are deactivated as of the olden times *sniff*) ^^, so these are just some.

Maybe... start with them?^^

And welcome :))) *hugs*

[ffxiiiapologist]

Have attempted to draft like two or three different posts on recent shit but it all just feels like repeating myself from the things I'm already constantly complaining about

The main "new" thing is, perhaps I have become too "close" to all this and too liable to comment as an outsider due to my own gender issues and the different trans women whom I've been friends with or otherwise followed over the years, including some I no longer follow whose particular experiences and commentaries have continued to negatively affect my views of my own prospects and of certain community dynamics (not only trans women's but gay men's as well from their time attempting to navigate those spaces) that, again, are constantly vexing me. Obviously stopping following trans women isn't the solution here but I also don't know what is

During one of these incidents a few months ago about which I was drafting a post, someone brought up Caylee, and she is of course also part of why I feel so strongly about these things. She and other trans women (who have seemingly since deactivated) were very critical of the neo-separatist trends (ie people self-describing as ba*ddels and with urls based on the word) that frame these awful sexual politics and doomerism and violence as essential to their subjectivities and sexualities. Caylee and these others always emphasized that 1) these things are not inherent to transfemininity and that 2) the primary victims of this are younger trans girls seeking community who become roped into these circles and rhetoric and taught that having boundaries is fascist (to quote one post) and convinced that there’s no other means or place to find acceptance. So many of the women who were vocally critical of these things are no longer here for various reasons, and the quality of discussion has deeply suffered as a result of tme people failing to keep these points in focus

I feel the need to also bring up an ex-mutual from my old blog (whose own blog seems to have been terminated) who was verbally raked over the coals and smeared as a “traitor” by ratliker and her wife for refusing to cosign her racism. This sticks with me because this former mutual was open about having been in the original ba*ddel group, deeply regretting it, and giving no quarter to others reviving the same patterns, only to still be subjected to it upon running afoul of a popular blogger. As in, she drew a direct comparison to it

I don’t know what answer or conclusion I have for this, it’s all just deeply unfortunate and disheartening to see play out again and again

[saisons-en-enfer]

I spent an entire week clearing my head and thinking about things. Ultimately I felt really good and had another great therapy session. I’ve been happy so I thought “ok everything is ok now so maybe I should post on tumblr” as soon as I did I just immediately felt drained

I always knew tumblr disturbs my well being in some way but I could never explain what… maybe now I can

Perhaps it’s not wise to spend time on a space I most associate with my darkest time

Perhaps tumblr is just a comfort zone that I no longer find much joy in and instead it feels like a chore

Maybe tumblr is a substitute for the void I feel in my life socially, it’s good but it can never be a replacement of the real thing

Maybe tumblr is holding me back from realizing my full potential as a person; it’s something I always cling to when I could be spending my time actually putting myself out there… maybe it’s denying me actualizing the potential I know I have for my life to be what I want it to be

Maybe I put too much effort into tumblr only to feel (erroneously or not) that I’m not appreciated and seen

Perhaps I care way too much about strangers that I’ve never met and get emotionally attached to people I can never see in my life or never be able to change their circumstances no matter how much I yearn to

Perhaps tumblr much like other social media is a means for comparison and that kind of behaviour is so fucking poisonous to me, hence why deactivating my IG was such a blessing

Maybe I just want something more, something that I’ll never find here and will instead be left burning for it always

My 20’s are coming to an end, I suffered so much and for much of it I genuinely didn’t want to be alive, I’ve changed so fucking much but yet lost all that time anyways so maybe tumblr just naturally frustrates me; it’s furtively indicative of idleness something that I hate

I change so much and perhaps tumblr is the last remnant of cowardice left in my system that I need to remove

I had 3 accs and maybe for this acc im just exhausted with having to post to gain traction and besides im not even followed by half the people I was mutuals with in my old blog before I deleted and im not the type anymore to beg for things

I seriously can go on, it’s just not a good time for me anymore, much like Last.fm and RYM

So I’m going silent indefinitely… I wish I could just delete and move on with tumblr, something I’ve incessantly clung to forever, but unfortunately I do not have support systems in play when shit hits the fan, even though recently I’ve been so much better

But I’ll never forget the people showing me love and affection when I could never show myself any. Now that I can, it’s only right I use that momentum and move forward I want my life to be something I’m proud of it and unfortunately it’s nowhere near what I want it to be

I will just post one more song as an early celebration for New Years, again I suffered so much this year but I can finally say my suffering had purpose im just far more empathetic and compassionate towards myself, and I confessed the truth to myself and accept my nasty behaviours so that I can get rid of the forever

Anyways, see you around :)

[spoocys-glade-of-dreams]

Spoocy's Grand Return!

It has been a long time since I last touched this blog. A lot has happened that lead the blog stagnating. I had a fall out with a toxic friend who I would try to tell my Rayman ideas to, Had a complete rebrand to "Spoocy" (Thats meeee!!!) and I just fell out of the fandom for a bit and focused on other things, including dipping my toes into the roleplay/ask blog scene in 2 other fandoms.

When the recent DLC for Rabbids: Sparks of Hope launched with the grand return of Rayman, I assumed it was going to kickstart my hyperfixation into gear once again. I finally picked up a walkthrough of the Rayman DLC a couple days ago, just finished it yesterday and I've had Rayman brain rot for the past few days as I was watching it. My nostalgia for the fandom returned and the desire to engage with the community has returned. I've also found a way to properly balance multitasking with various blogs.

What happens from here?

First: Since the deletion of and old blog, and the rebrand of my personal blog, I just noticed a few of my posts completely broke. The keep reading sections do not work anymore for some, and some of the posts now have broken links.

First order of business is to scour my blog, and either fix the broken links, or completely re upload my old lore posts or head canon posts that are broken. I also have some stuff that has been sitting in my drafts for over a year or two. I am considering posting at least one of those. I will possibly be re uploading a lot of content over here and deleting the old versions of the post. Clean slate, and everything now located on this blog instead of being spread between the now deactivated old blog and my personal blog now located over at @spoocys-funhouse.

Second: I'm not only making this a blog for general Rayman Content and rebloggings, but also turning this into an ask blog, where you can send asks to either my fan characters, or my depictions of canon characters from my old Rayman Retold Project.

Rayman Retold was going to be a complete personal fan retelling of the Rayman continuity that inserted my fan characters into the major story plots. Pretty much the overall plots were the same, with inclusions of plot important fan characters, and other major storylines between the game events. This now includes the Rabbids: Sparks of Hope DLC.

At the time of this post going up, anything in relation to the DLC will have a spoiler warning.

Sadly, I've not been able to work on actually writing that stuff past head canons, lore dumps or general world building ideas. I've suffered from a special kind of writer's block. I try to type out a full fledged story that's not just some long draft/notes, and I just freeze. No motivation comes to me. I'm like a deer in headlights. I've found that using Asks or even roleplay formats help tell my stories more. Also I think some of you may enjoy being able to interact with our favorite big nosed hero and other characters from the games.

I want to get my ideas out there somehow since I can't manage to write an actual fan fiction.

I'm going to work on getting character sheet/bio's uploaded for the Cast of "Ask Rayman and friends" As well as a list of the crew available for asks. (Trust me there are going to be a few well known names that you can pop asks to, and I'll be featuring ask memes on the blog for the sake of throwing at our heroes and villains. Some of the cast will even have emote responses.)

It's good to be back and I am excited to interact with some old mutuals in the Rayman fandom if they are still here, as well as new faces in the community.