#study rant

[study-diaries]

I'm in my "I don't know how but i will" era

[meowingbackatcats]

*gently puts my mental health in rice*

[obakanosandoitchi]

12-11-2023

the big day is getting closer and closer

idk what else to say

currently doing as well as i can but not sure it'll be enough

[starryaspirant]

Let’s keep on studying, studying and studying.

Reached till Secularism.

Didn’t get much done yesterday so now I’m off to a complete 3 hour study session without break to compensate for yesterday + have to complete re-reading my subject books.

Let’s meet after that!

P.S - I really need to go out and get my body active instead of sitting all day at my table but if I do, I’d be like I should use this time to study so yeah….a complex thought process with guilty emotions.

Idk what I’m gonna do 🤷‍♀️

[mandyying]

sometimes we have to find peace in being imperfect.

sitting in a room all by yourself and reading or studying might seem boring or difficult but this is something I feel worth doing rather than going out and partying. I only can speak for myself so I ain't saying that partying or sometimes doing something stupid is wrong or you shouldn't do. I've been there and done it all. nothing ever worked for me really well. but studying seems really easier for me now. I've spent so much of my energy on ppl who never given a shit about me and I've came a long way from that. Reading books, studying new topics, listening to music, drinking coffee, dancing alone and traveling.. that's all I enjoy doing now. I can't believe I'm saying this but I find studying really cool.

[crazyforchanel]

that time of the year guys i will kill myself

finals are coming boards are coming and work is killing me

[booksbluegurl]

A rant I sent to my friends a week ago to share my frustration :

How life can so easily turn into a barren road, where you don't see people, you only hear them. And these voices are all in your head. They could be real, they could be fake, they could be straightforward, they could be exaggerated. Its funny how your dreams of graduer, of success, of satisfaction, of happiness turn into a tiny stream of water that's ready to get out of your eyes at any moment someone asks you "kya hua?"

Who would I be without the completion of what I thought was always mine? It runs in my veins, it runs in my blood, it does a damn marathon in my mind. I know one thing for sure, I'm not like other kids, I'm worse. But I'm subtly worse, which is definitely the worst. Because when you're bad, loudly, you get attention, your pain has sympathy, your fears are relatable, your cries have people either wanting to soothe you or wanting to shut you up.

But good for others, I'm already shut up. I don't speak enough, coz all thats happened is not enough to speak about it. Once in a while, during a grand tragedy, I finally get a chance to weave my thoughts into tangible words. It sucks. But nothing is better I'm told. But my goodness, the grass does look greener on the other side. Perhaps because it's nourished with the tears of a loud cry. But I dont wanna break down. Do I think I'm strong because I try not to break down? Do you think I'm strong? I'm not, I'm fragile. I'm barely holding myself. My roots are strong though, I'm just a tiny blade of grass and what a lovely job my roots are doing while holding me upright. Though I do end up swaying. I hate that. I wanna be focused, I wanna be clear. And some would argue that I am. But not enough, some would argue that. There's never an argument that satisfies everybody. But really what do I wanna be?

There's so much self pity lounging in my mind that I think I'll need a month to sort through it. To clean it and discard it. But I dont have a month. Am I having pre exam anxiety? Like hundreds of people out there. I sometimes hate it when people mention that I'm not the only one. I know. That's the problem. That's the only problem. That my struggles aren't enough. I need to feel more pain. संघर्ष

To feel like I can stand up against them all in this fight. And its so easy and that's why its so brutal. And I've never worked hard enough to get whatever I want. But have I really not? Or have I just gaslighted myself? Am I really as terrible even after trying? Is it really just my mistake? Is there really a problem with my mind? Is it really me? Only me? Am I the only thing that's wrong with me?

Why am I not like others? I haven't given years to something and succeeded. But I have given years and failed. And I'm really on the verge of falling down, right when the marathon is about to end. Why am I not disciplined enough? Why am I not genius enough? I started working hard since day one but I haven't worked hard enough. Never enough, never enough, never enough. Wish this phrase was like the word impossible. The more you chant it, the more it says just the opposite.

I still have a lot bottled up but this is not the right time to share anymore. If you've reached here, don't reply to me, just share your favorite quote.

- Tanishka.

[letmesleep8]

I am panicking so hard cause I need to get into med school and I need to get the fuck away out of this town, I need to get accepted just so I can at least be away for most of the day

[craviue]

man im tearing up cuz of engineering

[study-diaries]

Things I do instead of studying...

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Watch study motivation

Read study motivation quotes

Think about studying

Worry about not studying

Lay in bed doing nothing

Daydream

Chat with friends

Have slight mental breakdowns because of studying

Wondering why i don't have time to study

[meowingbackatcats]

possible career options :

cloud

flower

[shieldagentnatasharomanoff]

Ooc:

Okay. I'm currently taking bets on how fast I can type out 15 pages worth of term paper because today is my last day and I gotta turn it in. I wrote 3 in four weeks and I'm exhausted ^^ once this is done I'll stop existing for a while

[sendnunes]

the hard part of university is not the studying. It's being nonbinary in a space in which everybody wants to change me into a sexy smart girl

[ghostie-lovesflowers]

I took a test so bad I had to reflect for a few days and reconsider my self-worth

[totally-not-your-babe]

Who failed her administrative law exam? Again? *it's me, hi, I'm the problem it's me*

But that's not what pissis me off. It happens. But I studied so much for this shit and it was for nothing. Not even a 2. Nada.

I give up.

[crazyforchanel]

no seriously guys HOW DO YOU STUDY DURING A RUT