#there is SO MUCH bullshit going on that we cannot reasonably expect to keep up with it normally

[phoenixyfriend]

Tossing on:

the Harvard Lawsuits

Kilmar Abrego Garcia has been returned to the US but is getting arrested and sent to criminal trial

Ukraine's missile strikes on Russia and how that changes the US approach to negotiation of peace talks

Court battles over tariffs

Investigations unveiling how non-fraud-ridden the Social Security system is

Trump trying to tax foreigners (Section 899)

The bond yields situation

National Brain Drain

And certainly more!

What's frustrating about the Musk and Trump thing is that. Like.

It's a distraction.

Trump cancelling the subsidies to electric cars was a campaign promise. That was basically announced months ago, I think Musk just didn't expect Trump to go through with it

And Musk saying Trump is in the Epstein files, is like. We knew. The files are everyone that Epstein associated with, and Trump has photos with the guy. We all knew.

I mean, it's a lot of flash, but to me it does feel like a bit of a nothingburger?

It feels like a distraction.

Even if the emotions are genuine, Trump might be getting encouragement to blow up the relationship so that people are distracted from the many real problems of the Big Beautiful Bill. And also so that the Left feels like there's momentum on Damaging The Right As A Cohesive Block.

So we're distracted, instead of:

Noticing how many Republicans are saying "I wouldn't have voted yes if I'd actually read the BBB"

Paying attention to the new travel ban

Recognizing that this isn't really moving anything

Calling our senators about the insanely stupid tax breaks in the BBB

And any number of other government actions that are shaping up to have real and lasting impacts on us

[kyri45]

Not me abusing the asks to both share my love for the bioparents AU AND rant about the panels because none of my friends are in the LMK fandom and I'm suffering here so TAKE MY LOVE AND APPRECIATION ABOUT YOUR ART I guess x)

So first of all

I am a SUCKER for that kind of leaning in frames I'm going to print that and plaster it on my wall THEY ARE EVERYTHING /hj

I almost jumped of my chair when this one popped up YOU FED US GOOD its so worth the angst train incoming. Of course the panels before and after were equally as amazing but if I start going about every single panel we're still here in three days AT THE VERY LEAST LOL

Of course this one made me laugh like please their little faces

Using that to point out how much I love ALLLLLLL the silly faces you put in your comics I'm munching on them every single time they're crushy like chips or something just. Nom nom. Yummy.

Poor Nesha (Nesha? Nezha? Neja? I have no idea on how to write his name I already forgor LMAO) needs to be payed more. He tries to save MK and ends up dealing with two lovesick teenagers demons who have no concept of time/place/occasion apparently. Poor him. He gets a pat on the head for his troubles

And of course just the "NOPE I'M KEEPING HIM" mode and honestly we should have seen it coming- Red son was planning to courtnap him and didn't sleep in the past 5 days so he's not having any bullshit YOU'RE NOT TAKING HIS NOODLE BOY AWAY-

Could bet he spent so long thinking about the cournapping in the 5 past days his brain just cannot process that yeah maybe you need to let him down you're just going to drag him in more troubles- Either that or he's just going full protective mode. Both options are good anyways sooooo :)

We stan a protective boyfriend in this house.

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And finally I'm SOOOOO hyped about whatever is coming next like I know that technically we're supposed to suffer but please I climbed up the angst train so many times now I'm just enjoying it by that point lol. It'll just make the following fluff even more worth it

Also I cannot wait to see MK's plan about the contract I'm so curious I'm dying I love you boys but I really want the plot to progress you can go back to kissing later lol

Finally, thank you for creating this AU. It's stumbling randomly upon it on my tik tok fyp that dragged me into watching Lego Monkie Kid and really THANK YOU FOR THAT. It's such an amazing show I CANNOT BELIEVE I didn't discovered it sooner so really thank for having created this comic because else I could have missed LMK and that would be just saaaad

Fun fact: since I had never interacted with LMK the first time I read your comic, I for some reason thought Macaque was a female (and I probably would have thought the same of Wukong if he wasn't called... well, Wukong because I randomly stumbled upon the myth's Wikipedia page at some point in my life XD). The shock I felt when I heard Macaque for the first time in the show because his voice was soooooo not what I expected x) I'm still laughing at myself to this day

So yeah, from the bottom of my heart, thank you, and I can't wait to see what you're going to pull next :D Wish you allllll the best <3

(I can totally wait, of course, it's just a figure of speech. Take your time, I could wait forever for the next chapter)

ahaha thank you for such a lovely comment!! Glad the scene gived "MINE" vibes as I was planning ahah.

Youu're welcome! It's an honor to serve this fandom. *bows*

[trickstarbrave]

Why do you dislike a lot of the Nord stuff?

argggg okay fine i will talk about it again. bc i am absolutely certain i have discussed it before

for starters, i am from a family that is at least partially norwegian. i have a norwegian prayer in the kitchen from my great-great grandmother who visited and brought it back. i worship norse gods, and because of this read a lot of history papers and academic sources (because a lot of people will just Fucking Lie about this shit) to get a better understanding of my gods and various other spirits and religious systems that would have been in place in antiquity, as well as tracking how these folk stories have evolved.

but the nords. the nords are just terrible pop culture vikings by and large. they barely resemble any actual norse people, but its very clear they are based on that. and there is a lot of Bad implications of it, as well as it just not making any fucking sense.

a lot of the shitty violent pop culture viking bullshit is based heavily on conan the barbarian. which is weird because conan is not norse at all. why he became conflated with viking shit is beyond me, but i am not an expert on pulp fiction novels or bad 80's fantasy movies. perhaps it is because of the connotations of "barbarian" being given to northern europeans by the greeks (and i believe romans). maybe he is conflated with vikings in the novels or movies. idk.

"well why does that even matter? can't people take inspiration from old fantasy stories and give it a new spin?" it is a problem because of a few reasons.

a lot of these mythologized, false tales of "the great white viking warriors of the superior aryan race" were made up by nazis. crafted whole cloth by white supremacists and used to further fuel white supremacy in nazi germany and commit all the violence in the name of white supremacy. thats why old futhark runes were co-opted by them. thats why white supremacists today keep an iron grip on this false belief and aesthetics. you cannot divorce the "fantasy" story from the fact this "fantasy" was originally created in the name of furthering white supremacy.

we get a double dose of racism in that the "barbarian" aesthetic is just a bunch of non white "tribal" clothes and customs and aesthetics all shoved into a blender, pureed, and then poured all over white people. with a heavy dash of violence added on top, because why not conflate all "barbaric" cultures with warmongering and violence. the only reason pop culture "vikings" are exalted for this violence is because they are white. but other cultures get conflated with a hyper specific northern european raiding culture, and then are treated with violence because of it.

also, i find this kind of militant violence to be frankly fucking stupid and makes no god damn sense. vikings were a specific profession that existed in a specific period of time. most norse people were farmers, fucking obviously. but with this conflation of purely war mongering barbarians with nothing else to their culture besides war and violence means you get the majority of their people being people dying in war.

who is growing food? making clothes? crafting weapons? raising animals? spinning thread? doing the wood working on all these boats and houses? these things are the backbones of society, but are treated as an unimportant after thought or given no acknowledgement whatsoever. instead everyone is obsessed with fucking dying in battle it seems.

the esteemed halls of the dead in norse mythos were not the pinnacle of honor people were expected to strive for, but instead stories told to grieving families who couldn't even bury their loved ones properly, as taking a dead body back across the sea in a boat wasn't really feasible. but now those stories have become equated to the goals in life the norse people had the same way christians want to go to heaven. the norse people weren't even a culture that focused on the afterlife all that much! it was more so concerned with living a good life for the sake of having a good life. the afterlife most people went to would just be a continuation of their life on earth. but again, there is one big nord afterlife in TES, based on valhalla, where people strive to go to after death so they can be ready to fight a big battle with shor at the end of time.

the nord lore and pantheon is likewise irritating to me because i keep getting the vibe they are trying to fit the norse pantheon and stories into a very christian framework. kirkbride's work slightly less so but its instead trying to put the norse pantheon in a different framework, one i don't fully know. but when you know most of the moving parts of old norse religion, you begin to see that its quite difficult to rip parts out and shove it into something else and have it all work right.

so basically i think the nords are a confusing amalgamation of pop culture nonsense, christianity, and bullshit that is seeped in real world racism regardless of how much people want to just. not think about it. it annoys me at best and royally pisses me off at worst. even today there are still white supremacists eating skyrim slop up and racist skyrim content used to further radicalize people to white supremacist ideology. this wasnt even intentional on bethesda's part, but that doesn't mean its not painfully obvious.

[nothorses]

(cw: suicide mention, domestic abuse mention)

hey, you're in the teaching world, yeah?

do you mind if I ask how you decided to go into education, and how you're finding it as a job? I'm considering going into teaching (high school, English, which I think puts me a bit to the side of your specific area of expertise). but I'm thinking about the emotional toll of it. about having to balance legal bullshit like transphobic legislation and controlling bureaucracy with the respect and care that all students deserve but often don't get.

I'm also thinking about the stuff that scares me, the worst case scenarios of "what if one of my students kills themselves" or "what if I have to report domestic abuse, even if I know it'll make my student's life worse" and others along those lines.

how do you deal with that? how do any teachers? I'm gaining a new level of respect for the good teachers I've had throughout my life. this shit is so hard.

Honestly I'm going to answer your last question first because I think this is a really good question, and it's one I have a real answer for from personal experience! I will answer the rest under the cut, too.

"What if I have to report domestic abuse, even if I know it'll make my student's life worse?"

First, and most importantly: you should always be upfront with your students about your mandated reporter status. This is 100% within your rights to do, and it's important that they know you aren't able to keep secrets before they divulge any to you.

Typically, I like to frame this as: "I want you to know that I'm here for you, and I want to listen and help. I also cannot promise that everything you tell me will stay between us, especially if it's about your or someone else's safety." You don't need to announce this to the whole class all at once, but when students start to confide things to me, I make sure to tell them this so they can make an informed choice.

Second: If you know you need to make a report, talk to the student you are making the report on behalf of first. Giving them this warning can be invaluable, even if the report isn't going to be dangerous for them.

Third: you don't need to make the report right away! You need to make the report in a reasonable amount of time, but you can work with the student in question on this.

As an example: when a student confided in me and I knew I needed to make a report, I told them right away that I would have to report it, and had a conversation with them about it. We talked about whether they would be safe, and what would make them safer. We determined that while they weren't unsafe either way, they would feel better and have an overall easier experience if they could talk to their family about the situation first. I followed up with them about a week later, and when they confirmed that they'd been able to talk to their parents and it was okay to go ahead with the report, I told them when I would make the report, and then did so.

You should also be sure to mention in your report that you feel the student might be in greater danger if their family knows about the report. Give them as many details as you can: what kinds of things would endanger the student? What is the specific nature of that danger? If the person who acts on that report has these details, they might be able to adjust their follow-up and response accordingly to help protect the student as much as possible.

Alright, CPS stuff out of the way, I want to answer the rest of this as well. Thank you for the great question!

I decided to go into education because it's a thing I loved doing in some related jobs, and honestly, it just felt right for me.

I also ended up choosing not to go into classroom teaching specifically after my student teaching internship, because I felt that while I could be happy as a classroom teacher, it just wasn't really where I thought I'd be happiest. I didn't like the hours, I didn't like the expectation to police attendance, and I honestly had really enjoyed a lot of education-related work that wasn't classroom teaching a lot more.

I ended up getting my master's in education to expand my options, and I've landed in my dream job (except for the fact that it's part time.... for now. lol) which has been fantastic. I am also really glad I got my teaching certification regardless- it's made subbing a better option in terms of pay and just, like, the ability to work with public schools at all, and just about every single other grad from my master's program wishes they had gotten theirs for the same reason (and they're finding it really, really hard to do that post-graduation).

The emotional side is... well, honestly, it's definitely emotional work, but I find that really works both ways. I'm not one of those (incredibly special and admirable) teachers who would do and give anything just to work with their students, and I am definitely tired after work! But it's a good kind of tired, usually. I feel fulfilled. My work feels meaningful, and even when it's hard, it feels worth it; I never feel like I'm struggling for nothing, or for the benefit of someone who doesn't deserve it (like a CEO, or a shitty manager). I can't understate the value of that.

The part of the work that I think is dangerous isn't that it's emotionally involved-- it's burnout. It's being overworked and underappreciated for too long, and becoming emotionally detached because you have nothing left to give at all. And that is going to depend on your workplace, what they're demanding of you, and the support they do or do not give you.

The best defense for this, imo, is being picky and sticking up for yourself and your needs. Learn to identify the signs of burnout in yourself, and get the fuck out of there as soon as you can when you notice them. Do not hesitate. Burnout will make you hate your job, it'll make you feel like a bad teacher, it'll make you detach, and it can definitely cause you to lose the patience and compassion you need to be a good teacher for your students.

Also: do not ever give in to the teachers who bitch about their students. Ever. Don't let them drag you down into that bitter, burnt out, resentful mindset with them. Don't gossip about students. Don't blame them for how you feel. Sit with someone else at lunch, even if those are your friends. This is one of the best pieces of advice my professors ever gave me; trust me on this one.

As for the other things...

I really encourage you to get your teaching certification through a college degree program, and try out classroom teaching for yourself. If you don't like it, if the bureaucracy is too much or you can't do the emotional side of it or it's just not for you, now you know! That teaching cert will serve you in a multitude of other ways, though, and if you end up in education regardless, you'll be glad you did it.

Transphobic laws and tendencies are going to come through most in school administration, and you won't feel them nearly as much if your school's admin is on your side. I really encourage you to be picky about the schools you work for. There are schools out there that will have your back, though; you might just have to look for, and even relocate for them. You know your circumstances best, and you'll have to determine if that's reasonable for yourself.

And.... if a student kills themselves, or something else terrible happens to them: you will grieve. You will hurt, you will be angry, you will be sad, you will wish it didn't happen, you will want to blame yourself, and you will grieve. Eventually, you will also process and heal and accept. And you will also continue to grieve. It's hard. It won't ever not be hard. Unfortunately, though, you won't escape grief no matter what you do for work. It's up to you to decide how you need to handle that risk.

Sorry for how rambly all of this is-- and best of luck! The world needs more teachers who are trying to do right by their students, and if you do choose to go into education, your students will be lucky for it. I hope you take care of yourself at least as much as you take care of them.

[postcardsfromheapside]

So I finished my DA2 replay, and I had wondered if I would feel differently after taking my time with it, and with the perspective of Veilguard. And yes, in small ways I do, but about the series and about Anders, I don't. That is to say: I think Veilguard is a fucking fantastic capper to the series (I mean, pray there is more, "hope for the best, expect the worst" as the Mel Brooks song goes), and Anders is relatably angry, even if the "betrayal" is frustrating and heart-breaking.

Also, there's just too much Dragon Age just the same way there's too much Tolkien, it's just that I can relisten to Tolkien via audiobook while I work and don't have time to constantly replay Dragon Age to absorb every little detail that my broken brain forgets (and I'm pretty good with lore) and I wish parts of this fandom were more curious than scathing about things they've obviously forgotten. Or skipped through, according to some of them, because I guess the context of dialogue and a cut scene isn't necessary for some of them to weigh in on things.

Word vomit of notes below the break:

First of all.

Can these two just fuck already. Watching Cassandra go from throwing him around to absolutely ENTHRALLED by Varric's complete bullshit is just going to make it so much better when I hit the "Guilty Pleasures" quest again in DA:I. This woman is SEDUCED by his story-telling, and you *cannot* convince me he wasn't gagging on his power trip.

Second.

I never played Mark of the Assassin before, and had completely forgotten Felicia Day was in DA2, and laughed like hell. I really enjoyed it. I haven't really used a stealth option in a game since leaving Skyrim for other stuff (do we ever really leave Skyrim?) and it was really fun, but I think the wyvern at the end of the DLC was actually the best fight in the entire game, even more than Corypheus. It hinted at the dragon battles to come in Veilguard. Also, I loved how Anders' dialogue got more relaxed outside of Kirkwall, like shedding the city let him loosen up. The back and forth with Hawke about his fantasy for being rescued was completely unhinged - after I accused Hawke of being feral and lacking social graces, I've decided the two of them match each other's freak and they're fine.

Third.

All the people who were losing their minds about the line "A crow never abandons a contract" and acting like the devs forgot Zevran.

He literally addresses it in the game. I keep having these moments where shit that people bitched about regarding Veilguard is addressed right *there.*

"The crows do like saying that, but I am living proof it's a lie."

No one actually forgot, but I'm sure the Dellamorte's wish to the Maker a motherfucker could.

When people complain the writing in Veilguard is too modern, I'm going to remember Hawke complaining exactly like this. She sounds like I do when I'm side-eyeing my friends in the year of our Maker 2025.

Fourth.

I had planned on romancing Blackwall this DA:I run, finally, because I'm a little obsessed with this Warden throughline from Anders to Blackwall to Davrin. From a cage, to hope/redemption, to a more meaningful path of positive change and impact.

They both haunt Veilguard's narrative and dialogue.

And then of course:

hrm.

Fifth.

I do hope we get another DA. Or supplementary material. Because I want to know what the fuck is going on with this story I had forgotten the details of, especially with the decision regarding the Nadas Dirthalen.

These two fucking idiots. I can't believe in different lives I've schtupped them both. (I can absolutely believe it)

Sixth.

The worst part of Meredith is she sounds like conservative family members of mine. 'Better to punish the innocent than risk even one guilty person go free', rather than the opposite. To them it sounds so reasonable. To us, it's abhorrent to punish everyone else for other people's crimes.

I couldn't bring myself to feel betrayed by Anders, even though I tried to play my Hawke as I think she would have felt: betrayed by the secret-keeping, if nothing else. The shock and hurt at the innocent lives. But it's hard not to feel an understanding when I sit here in a political situation with - maybe not less fraught, but at least less fantastical - implications and certainly still feel like violence is inevitable and we are way past the point of compromise and words.

Anyway.

This dwarf.

[evelynpr]

bakugou for the character ask game?

Truly the teenage boy, shonen deuteragonist, love interest coded, gay asshole, of all time.

My first impression - Woah I did not understand why people were so into this guy. Like I get it, he's a flawed and loud pretty boy, he gets character development, and probably gay, but seriously him??? His mouth is so fucking foul and he is so up his ass. - I was meh with this character, enjoyed him in fan content, but just did not get why people were sooo into this guy.

My impression now - I cried in "Light Fades To Rain". Twice. - My god his growth...his will, his persistence, and by god his love for Izuku is so ridiculous and powerful I just cannot help but admire the little shithead. - He is also a lot more to me than I expected, with the whole "foul mouth shit", "high expectations bullshit", "violent urges", and "dedicating your whole life and love to someone you love and admire" and that...that makes me feel quite conflicted.

Favorite thing about that character - The thing about Bakugou is that...you just cannot help but wish you had the same kind of persistence, strength, will, and power that he does. I love how all this is initially so shallow and selfish, then grows to wanting to be a better and truer hero. He really learns and changes and is just an unstoppable force of nature, it's genuinely incredible and beautiful to watch.

Least favorite thing - I wished that the overall writing did go harder in making him stop bad-mouthing people and...everything so much. You can tell he did grow to respect and care for people around him more, but by gods he is sooo bad at communicating his feelings right now. (tbf, he is so fucking young and traumatized) - Also, really please stop hitting people. I get a knee-jerk reaction to that kind of physical violence sometimes ngl.

Favorite line/scene - There are so many. I already mentioned his death in "Light Fades to Rain" so I'll mention a different one - Team Bakugou in Class A vs B was so goddamn good, for being a monumental milestone of his character. How much he trusted his teammates and put himself in danger to save others, winning in the end. No injuries, no failures, truly a perfect beautiful victory. How he also pushes Deku to keep getting better afterwards in his usual constipated-ass language too. Man I just love that battle to death.

Favorite interaction that character has with another - (me pulling out scenes that aren't bkdk centered here hahaha) - I fucking LOVED the Bakugou vs Ochako fight. It made me love Ochako so so much as a kid. I really wished we had a follow-up to that battle, and it genuinely changed my life. - I love how it really shows just how focused and rational he is in battle. How he truly respects his opponents, Ochako in this case, and the sports festival really establishes so much about him.

A character that I wish that character would interact with more - Speaking of which...OCHAKO VS BAKUGO 2 COME ONNNN - There is SO MUCH these two need to talk about. How to save people, who they want to save, who saved them, never underestimating each other, how they changed and grew. I just love these two characters to bits, that's why I need them to FIGHT AND TALK SO BADDDD - Additional: Also Toga (see my post on Toga right before this one lmao), Shoto (because I still don't really get their friendship but its hilarious, and I love Shoto)

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character - I legit cannot think of anything here...like for Toga...I am so sorry my brain is blanking T__T - It's hard to be a massive anger-issue filled, victory-focused, die for their lover (twice), amazing chef, all at once, kinda guy...you know?

A headcanon about that character - I am a believer in trans!fem Bakugo in the future. He's so ridiculously angry for some reason, voice always cracking, and just on-edge for some reason. Idk I just think its hilarious and satisfying if he transed his gender in the future and became happier and more comfortable.

A song that reminds of that character - I also have a Bkdk playlist in the making! Here's some bkg focused songs in character development order: - Boys will be Bugs, President Perfect, Top of my School, Oh No!, I'm Gonna Win, The Last of the Real Ones, Skyfall, Die For You, Set Fire to the Rain

An unpopular opinion about that character - Like Toga, he actually isn't possessive. I think he quite well understands and accepts that Izuku is a very loving person that many people are easily drawn to (I mean, he'd be a hypocrite if he didn't understand that). - He is protective instead of possessive. He keeps an eye out for anything and anyone who could possibly actually hurt Izuku, but he doesn't hold him back at all in hanging around with others, and when other people fall for Izuku either. - He is actually quite skinny, and doesn't have the big thick buff guy build. Those go to Izuku and Iida more imo.

Favorite picture - I never really thought of this much??? I love art of him being softer, more solemn, quiet and contemplative even. I guess I'll go pick out some favs right now...

Here they are! Hope you enjoy the post lmao

[super-hero-confessions]

Homelander only treats Firecracker badly cause she LETS him do so???

Holup.

Nah...naaaaaaahhhhhh...fucks sake y'all tell me there ain't actually people THAT delusional?! FOR REAL??? COME ON!!

Aight let's clear the air. First. Nobody 'LETS' someone mistreat them. Saying they do is straight up victim blaming PLEASE do not do that? PLEASE?

Second. Homelander's a misogynist.

Point blank and it may not be conscious or as overt. Systemic or whatever you want to call it but THAT'S why he's treating Firecracker like shit and it don't matter what she does for him as a matter a fact it grew old in like 2 seconds after. He straight up put the breast milk DOWN (wow that's a sentence) when she told him the meds were making her sick like 'ew gross medicines and sick person yuck' (he ableist as fuck too like brooooooo). I don't even think we saw him pick it back up after that?? On top of that she couldn't really calm him down after the first time either. Like he might be completely done with this shit and she's the last straw. It was more like she distracted him once but now the magic is gone. Like 'ooh yeah something I want shiney and new!' and then 'nah I'm over it not that great'. He gets BORED so quick it's insane and I can't with y'all.

That's been happening since the beginning too! He rejects Stillwell when she invites him for dinner (legit the only time she offers him any form of consent) and again (Doppelganger as Stillwell but still) when 'she' is trying to calm him down with a glass of milk but he's just not having it and totally disgusted by the sight of her (this is after Stormfront manipulated him but also still). He puts a hand up to pull away and it's honestly kinda bad how done he is?? Yeah I mean DUH Stillwell was also his groomer and abuser and exploited the brainwashing Vought did to forcibly infantilize and make him regress so she could control him (which Stormfront pretty much ruined with her 'needing everyone to love you kinda pathetic' speech) and that big reveal that Stillwell was afraid and always lying to him is gonna change his whole outlook on what she ever was to him but like that's also the whole reason Doppelganger turns into him and (which could arguably have had a greater affect if we go by Mirrolander's affect on him) it still doesn't work!! Just makes it worse???

I mean the boi is evolving into something worse but he was ALWAYS a misogynist who looked down on women and humans and idk how much clearer that can get from back when he RAPED Becca?? Was that something she 'LET' happen too (really hope that outlines how fucked up it is to say Firecracker is only abused because he 'LETS' it happen?? Like pretty please? Y'all that so fucked like super not over it please never say that again???)?????????

EVEN BECCA has tried to play on the whole feelings and mommy thing with him when she tries to appeal to him not having one and convince him that Ryan needs her and IT STILL DIDN'T WORK?! HE STRAIGHT UP STOLE HER BABY FOR IT WITH NO INTENTION TO RETURN HIM!!!

I'm sorry y'all but I just I can't like I really really can't. How ya gonna see a man huffing this much bullshit and treating women WORSE than a crushed Termite under his boot and think 'yeah he totally listens to women and mommies he could NEVER kill me if I just pulled the same abusive manipulative shit he is growing out of and showing how tired of it he is! they all tried to do the same thing but it'll TOTALLY work if I do it!!' LIKE WHAT???

"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuuuuuuuuck...

If he's a 'baby'...he's a fucking DEMON baby that cannot be contained or controlled cause people keep trying the same shit over and over and guess what?? Every fucking time it fucking FAILS spectacularly. And listen cause that don't mean that 'baby' don't deserve your sympathy or anything but it does mean PROCEED WITH SOME DAMN CAUTION cause LOOOOORRRD like that 'baby' has some SHARP TEETH and he WILL BITE YOUR TIT CLEAN OFF if he just gets...a little pissy...and then go find a shiney new 'mommy'.

Cause he's a MISOGYNIST.

Women are a completely replaceable convenience for him even if or when they do have a momentary affect on him there is a reason that shit never lasts and given it hasn't changed regardless on who was behind it (been like a runaway train since he killed Stillwell) it's pretty doubtful it ever will just cause it's a new lady. Man goes through that 'honeymoon' phase like a goddamn bee through a flowerfield??? LIKE ITS JUST NOT GONNA STICK.

Like y'all...y'all for real. Like damn for sure enjoy the kink or whatever fantasize but like also have some sense of reason here please (and please don't victim blame)?

Homie a misogynist. Just. Y'know. Keep that in the back of the mind (for canon at least cause I know y'all will come up with whatever for fanon and I know that and that's great and all but just try to understand that canon ain't fanon and fanon ain't canon and not everybody has the same fanon and y'know just maybe we shouldn't try to force that fanon onto canon if ya get what I mean? Know the difference between canon and fanon and don't try to conflate the 2 is what I'm trying to say. Canon Homelander is a misogynist who does not give a fuck about these women but your fanon Homelander can be whatever you want just don't try to say he's canon. Also don't victim blame. Please.).

And please don't victim blame.

[alpaca-clouds]

Why the Patriarchy hates Queer Folks

Let's continue with our journey through the effects of the Patriarchy and why we need intersectionality in feminism to combat it. And today we are going to talk about queerness and why queerness is such a problem for the modern patriarchy. Again: the specific patriarchy that we have today. There were historically different patriarchies, including some in which (especially male) homosexuality specifically was favored by the logic of: "If you have sex and do not need to touch a dirty horrible woman-thing, that is way better!" But this is not the conclusion on which the patriarchy we are living under right now has ended. No. This patriarchy hates any flavor of queerness, and that because of one specific reason.

The patriarchal system we are living under right now is very much defined by genderoles. As talked about yesterday, these gender roles are defined very narrowly defined mostly thanks to colonialism's drive to differentiate the western culture (and its gender roles) very clearly from the colonized cultures. (Schismogenesis.)

The important aspect in this is that the modern patriarchy is very much constructed around heteronormativity. Now, obviously, patriarchy exists because of heterosexual procreation - as noted before, the reason patriarchy is so much more oppressive than matriarchy is that it tries to uphold the patrilinear inheritance. But we absolutely know of cultures, that were patriarchal, but basically went at it like: "Well, real relationships happen between men, who will have each others back in battle. Women are there to pop out kids." Which, yeah, is not any better for women, but has a very different approach to homosexuality.

After all, technically speaking, homosexual affairs do not do anything in general in regards of endangering the patrilinear inheritence line. In general two women are as incapable of biologically creating a child, as two men (with the exception of some inter and trans people, obviosuly). Technically it is absolutely feasible to imagine a patriarchal society that controls women in relation to their sexual relation with men outside their husband, but is chill with women having sex with one another (and the same being true for men, duh).

But once more there is this issue that especially our patriarchy runs into.

See, gender roles are as limited in their definition because of trying to distinguish them from those in other cultures. But they also try to distinguish themselves from one another.

I personally think the "emotion" thing is a very clear example of this. Technically speaking emoitions do not have a gender - and yet we gendered emotions. Anger is manly, sadness is feminine. Lust is male, love is female. Does it make sense? No, but patriarchy does not make a whole lot of sense at all.

And so we happen to live in this specific formation of the patriarchy in which not only men and women are made out to be completely different - but also only always are seen in relation to one another. Because the system is established around the idea of heterosexual marriage and of course procreation.

But this does not only mean, that heterosexuality is expected (heteronormativity), but that also it cannot be broken out of in terms of those firmly assigned roles. And anything queer is doing this.

This is obviously the most clear in regards to both trans identities (about which I will talk tomorrow) and homosexuality. As the patriarchal thought in regards to homosexuality is that obviously once homosexuality happens one partner needs to take up the role of the man in a lesbian relationship, or the woman in a gay relationship. Every queer person knows the "who is the man/woman in your relationship?" question. lol

But the patriarchy is inherently based around the need to keep men and women as concept as far apart from one another as possible to uphold this artificial hierarchy between the two. And while, yes, the stupid "who is the man/woman" question is bullshit heteronormativity, it still betrays how queerness inherently already starts to blur the lines.

This is also true for bisexual people - especially those who have queer partners. Again, it questions the narrative and the roles assigned by society.

It becomes more interesting once we look at the aroace spectrum, though. Because at first you might wonder how this specifically is questioning those roles.

It might be more obvious in regards to men and asexuality. Because the gender role of the man is someone who always wants to have sex and just is very defined for his need for sex. An asexual man does go against this role in society - and also questions the normalization of constant sexuality.

Meanwhile the typical female gender role is however that a woman actually is not supposed to want sex. Which is also why asexual woman often get told that they just want a label - as they dare to call out the fact that... yeah, actually woman do want sex. Women are interested in sex. So, yeah, a woman who is asexual and has a much lower interest (if any at all) is outside of the average.

In some regards aromanticism is kinda the same, just the other way around.

Queer people obviously realized this very early on. Which is why as long as queer people have been living under systems with strong gender roles, a lot of queer people have actually put in an effort to break with those roles in one way or another. While everyone can easily realize that gender roles are bullshit, this tends to become a lot clearer when you are queer.

Even among those cultures that excepted male on male homosexuality in some regards, it would often be somehow regulated in how this was allowed to happen. So many patriarchies have issues about male penetrative sex, because a man being penetrated it already breaks one gender role, which makes the entire "men > women" thing already soften.

In general, the any form of hierarchy needs strong differntiations between the "classes" that form the hierarchy. In the case of patriarchy the main classes are "male" and "female". So everyone who breaks with those roles will get repremented, as the hierarchy will enforce itself.

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One thing this situation makes me want to critique is how in general when ccs are called out and apologize there is always express criticism about those who do not like the apology. This is not to say everyone who dislikes an apology is reasonable always 1000% of the time obviously but what I am saying we need to stop having celebrities and ccs just apologizing being enough because as repeated behavior comes out its always "erm well they apologized in the past!" As if that just apologizing in itself is enough and thst the content of the words doesn't matter at all.

Content of an apology does in fact matter. Between not being able to say "hey I did x action and it was wrong" and instead saying "I did some meh accidental vague stuff I won't say. Sorry you were offended" 1000% makes a difference and one of which is a terrible apology. It happened in the past is a common excuse people use for things and I'm also sick of that. Firstly 2-3 years ago isn't a long time ago and secondly "erm the early 2000s bigotry was normalized" or "insert year insert action was normalized" isn't isn't excuse either. Harm is and was never okay and it did and always still does cause harm. Just because it was "normalized" and people got away with harn does not mean that harm was just like alright to do 😭. We cannot keep allowing harm to happen just for 5 years later to go "welp it was okay then so no one can be held accountable" as a means of you ignoring the uncomfortability you have with holding people and yourself accountable for those actions. It isn't t9 say time cannot be a factor in showing the length of someone's effort to become a better person and grow on fact I think that time can be really valuable and i believe in growth.

Lastly I feel like with cc and celebrities there's an expectation for forgive them amongst fans. You're either a fan thst defends them or you're an anti that hates them. You can't of course be a fan that critiques them or any other gray area because to be a fan or supporter of their art or adjacent projects you have to in fact forgive them even if they harmed you. They're of course Owed this because Applogy was made regardless of how bad the apology was. And that's bullshit.

And again this is not to say I think we should go far in the other direction and doxx every celebrity and cc and hope we find something that clearly is fucked up and terrible and it's not to say people can't be unreasonable in their expectations of the person they follow for content (often people are unreasonable a lot). It's to say that apologies are much more than just doing it and people are allowed to be harmed by past and current behavior and are allowed to want accountability for that and are allowed to critique an apology and not want to support them. The end.

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☆The star's rabbit☆

Writer-Billy Loomis x actress- @yourgraveisnothere

Warnings➛: Nothing in particular. It's pretty appropriate besides a few mentions of death and murder/Written in third person

Author's note: this is specifically written for the tagged blogger above, but feel free to read it anyway. This is only a bit of a drabble as I'm having a slight break down. That being said, this may go somewhere further with a part two depending on what my mental state does.

"This script is fucking ridiculous." Ray slams the stack of paper on the coffee table, folding her arms and leaning back into the rolling office chair, sassily letting it spin the other way.

"Ray, darlin', you CANNOT keep throwin' hissy fits every time ya see somethin' in the writing you don't like," her manager, Keith, explains, scratching his goatee as he speaks in a flamboyant Australian accent.

"Well, I can't necessarily focus if he keeps rewriting it." She rolls her eyes. "Listen, honey, you are an ACT-O-RESS. You don't write. You act. Miller makes the characters, you just play them." "Keith, they don't care about Miller or his stupid movies. His last good film was 'WEREWOLF', and he didn't even put in the effort to give it a meaningful name. The only reason people even watch the shit he makes is to see ME." She spins back around, her brown-eyed gaze locking onto Keith.

"Let's just be honest. The people don't want Miller. They want me. My face is on all of the movie cases. I'm the one that brings in all the cash in this establishment, and I expect to be treated as such." She pouts, prompting Keith to release an exaggerated sigh of annoyance.

Every day, he asked himself how much more of her bullshit he could take, and everyday, he took more.

"What. What do you want." He throws his hand up, the question coming out flat like old soda. "I want Miller to use at least a penny of his brain and think of something a little more creative. My brain cannot handle another thousand rewrites before he settles on the same stupid damsel story. Why do I always have to play some needlessly ignorant stuck up bitch who spends half the movie screaming?"

"Ray, you know the gimmick. They're not going to give someone with a face like yours a meaningful story or personality." "That's because people keep letting all these old and disgusting perverts become successful writers." Ray takes another spin in her chair, giving Keith attitude he was already too irritated to deal with.

"On the contrary, Ray. I'm a very desirable and young pervert." Both Ray and Keith turn towards the direction of the shady voice, eyes landing on the beholder standing in the doorway of the lounge. He was definitely desirable. There was something mysterious about him.

He looked about 6'0" with dark eagle eyes complimented by his sharp brows. He had thin, perfectly shaped lips, almost like a doll, hiding a set of killer teeth that could ruin self esteem with even the laziest smile.

He looks like the type of guy your parents tell you to avoid, but you don't because you're simply too drawn in by his crow-like beauty to do so.

"Ah, Forgive me for my vulgar behavior. I'm William Loomis, Co-director and writer. But, please, call me Billy." He circles in on them, hands behind his back as he stares Ray down with his manic, sleepy eyes like a vulture. They look big, almost excited, if not for the dark edges underneath that gave him an eerie glare.

Without breaking eye contact, he smirks, letting that smirk turn into a devilish grin as his eyebrows raised. He leans in on her.

"You must be Ray. I've seen your movies before. Astonishing, really." He reaches out to shake her hand, in which she squints and complies, giving him her freshly manicured hand as a sign of low hostility, even though her heart was beating out of her chest.

"And your hands. They're remarkable." He compliments, to which she snatches her hand away.

"So, you're also responsible for this stupid fifth rewrite of 'STAB'? How the hell are we gonna get this damn movie out there if a group of idiots can't even finish writing it?" She yammers, now visibly maddened by the mere sight of his handsome face. Now Ray was finally face to face with one of her tormentors.

"Fifth rewrite? What? You still think we're doing that mess of a movie?" He yanks the 'STAB' script of the table, carefully ripping it to shreds in front of them, Keith looking absolutely leveled by this new turn of events.

"The fuck are you doing?" Keith asks with audible frustration. " 'STAB' is out of the picture. It was a trash movie and now it's finally going where it belongs?" Billy throws it in the garbage bin.

"After a bit of persuasion, Miller has decided to let me take matters into my own hands. We're making a new movie," Billy leans in uncomfortably close to Ray, his eyes bouncing between her and Keith. "A better movie." He chuckles, pulling back.

Ray and Keith shoot each other a look, both undeniably confused by everything.

"You're sick and tired of being the same basic ass damsel in distress. Sick of being the frightened little girl they make you pretend you are. Don't you want change, Ray? Don't you want... a twist?" He gestures with his hands, knuckles clenching with excitement, Ray raising an eyebrow at the question.

"What if, for once, you get to fight? You're a strong woman, arent you? Playing in all these movies can only make you crave a certain... violence. You start to imagine yourself in the eyes of your attacker." He walks behind her chair, tucking her black and blonde split hair behind her ear before grabbing a handful.

"You see, when you imagine this...you see yourself when you're in your attackers eyes...." he lets go of her hair, crouching down," You imagine what all these fake killers see when they chase you....." He pokes her nose. "A rabbit. A fast bunny with a cute face and quick feet.... You see the appeal. You want to feel what they feel. You want a bunny to chase, don't you? You're sick of being the prey." He pulls out a hunting knife, placing it in her hand before pressing her knuckles down to ensure she gripped it.

"You want to be a predator....don't you, Ray?" Billy asked, looking Ray dead in the eyes as he holds dearly onto her hands, making sure she can't reject the weapon that was quite obviously not one of the props. Her face heats, eyes struggling to focus on his.

Keith looks between them, standing up in a ready stance to break up anything that happens.

"That's enough." Keith says firmly. "No, no. It's fine, Keith. Tell me more about the rabbit. About my rabbit. " Ray is enamored by the look of chaos in his eyes. She knows simply by his anxious glare that shes in for some wild ideas. He gives a hearty chuckle, flashing her with his perfect set of ivory chompers.

"Let me tell you about a woman by the name of Sidney Prescott."

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I'd love to hear about your thoughts on Tywin x Joanna!

So like I said, someone once compared Tywin and Joanna to two historical figures who were married that I like a lot (Philippe le Bel and Jeanne of Navarre my absolute beloveds, no one was doing it like you do, Hollywood needs to scrap all their bullshit MQOS treatments and let me do something about Jeanne cuz she did it first and did it better) so I was already predisposed to like them. But they just tickle me.

As a Tywin enjoyer, the fact that she's one of those select few that got through his layers of Asshole, as well as being the only one who wasn't immediate family (since the only others Tywin shows genuine affection and love for are his siblings) bears merit. Especially when you add in Tywin's misogyny and his general disdain for people who aren't him, Joanna, a woman who is bound to him through marriage and a lesser blood relation, worming past the walls that have been in place for so long is fascinating. I think it speaks to a definite intelligence and shrewdness on her part, since I don't think Tywin can really interact with people who aren't on his intellectual level. He doesn't have time for people he considers lesser in any respect, so Joanna was obviously able to keep up, likely in administration based on her role as the Lady of Casterly Rock. I think that's also what helped her push past his defenses, because Tywin's defenses exist for a very specific reason. Some of it is just who he is as a person, yes, but Tywin was very intimately shaped by what he viewed as his father's failings, and developed a lot of his traits in order to be a stark opposite to Tytos, which doesn't breed someone who is going to open his heart to anyone at all, least of all a wife. But they managed to forge a partnership, and a genuine connection, in spite of Tywin's myriad issues.

The love between them was real, and it was true, and considering who Tywin is, that's fascinating. There was an actual and genuine affection between them, a love that we might expect to see from a much softer and more openly affectionate character that eminates from Tywin fucking Lannister. And the fact that he did consider Joanna as much an equal as he could, within the confines of Westerosi gender roles and his own sexism, that she held such an influence over him and his home (a home he fought so hard to restore to glory after Tytos and clearly valued more than almost any actual person) does hold a significant amount of weight. It's kind of like a dark mirror to Ned and Catelyn, in a way. Ned clearly values Catelyn as not just a lover and romantic interest, but also as a partner with equal value and stake in the marriage and in his life, which appears to be how Tywin felt about Joanna, and with that we can assume that Catelyn's devotion to Ned could be mirrored with Joanna having a similar devotion to Tywin. But whereas Ned clearly pulled rank on Catelyn a few times (especially where Jon was concerned) it doesn't seem like Tywin ever did it with Joanna, though I think that was also part of Joanna shrewdness in that she intrinsically knew to keep to "her role" and not necessarily try to counsel Tywin on things regarding, like, statecraft unless he specifically asked. It's kind of like that post about how a villain's love is always gonna be more intense and all encompassing because villainy operates in extremes in a way heroism cannot, Tywin being the kind of person that he is offers a far more encompassing and devoted love as well, provided he considers you worthy of it, which Joanna was (and is part of why he reacted so strongly when she died).

This is all very disjointed because I don't actively think of these two a lot, but their relationship says a lot about who they were as people, both for Tywin and for Joanna (tho it is a shame we have to rely so much on her husband to know about her, George stop killing mothers challenge). It was clearly mutual and very loving, and clearly as close to a relationship between equals as could happen in Westeros,a dn certainly to someone like Tywin. And I love them. Hate that both Joanna and Jeanne had to predecease their icy husbands by so many years, it's tragic.

[mimikoflamemaker]

Faerunian Writing Challenge - Day 7

7. A heated argument with a companion/LI

(Certainly heated from one side for sure)

Elminster and Gale departed her side at the same time almost, one disappearing into the blinking light of a portal, while the other retreated towards his tent without so much as a glance at her. Neve was left in the middle of the camp, feeling her muscles nearly cramp beneath the weight of anger that begged to be directed somewhere. Githyanki, Vlaakith, whatever bullshit their dream guardian was spinning, Karlach complaining about the rising discomfort from her engine and now this. Right now she wouldn’t be surprised if she woke up to a mindflayer staring down ay her.

She could tell others were watching her, likely itching to hear the details of the conversation they tried to keep private.

Well, she was about to indulge them she supposed, though not in the way they expected, probably.

A wave of warmth alerted her to the approaching tiefling in question. She bounded over to her, nearly vibrating with excitement.

‘Aww… was that Gale’s granddad?!’

Neve closed her eyes, resisting the urge to pinch the bridge of her nose.

‘No’ she huffed, before catching herself and continuing in a kinder tone. ‘That was Elminster Aumar, arguably the greatest wizard of our time. He knew Gale before the tadpole and now he came to him with a… request. I’ll explain better once I’ll speak with Gale, okay?’

‘Sure soldier! Though you two don’t look all that good after talking to that Ele… Elminster if I am to be honest with you.’

‘You don’t have to tell me that’ the elleth sighed, mustering a parody of a smile that would fool no one. ‘I’ll talk to you later…’

She turned on her heel and stalked off towards the tent where the wizard disappeared, hoping that no one else would stop her. And they seem to know better than to try, even though she could feel at least one set of eyes trailing her movement across the camp.

She didn’t bother with courtesy, pushing the tent flap away and stepping inside without announcing her presence first.

It was her own fault then, that she was greeted with a full magical reflection of Gale as he examined the new addition to the orb’s imprint, the magic seal still glowing lightly upon his skin. Neve felt her fingers curl into fists at the sight of it.

‘What the fuck was that?’ she spat, the words tasting like bile on tongue.

‘Elminster brought me a message from Mystra’ the wizard replied, pulling his shirt closed and dissipating his reflection with a flick of his fingers. His tone was measured, not rising to her obvious anger, though she could tell his shoulders were taut enough to snap. ‘And she provided us with a resolution to our problem…’

‘I was standing right there’ she interrupted him. ‘I heard the same words. And I still have the same question for you – what the fuck was that?! You cannot tell me you are seriously considering…?!’

‘Why not?’ Gale’s tone grew defensive as if he was trying to shield himself from her words. ‘All I need to do was find myself at the right place and the right time… and let go. That shouldn’t be any harder than loosening an arrow, if you think about it…’

Neve let out a frustrated sound. She  wasn’t expecting for half a second that this is going to be easy, but they seemed to have accelerated towards catastrophe over the course of last three days and she felt like she was grasping at straws.

‘Spare me’ her hands were itching to throw something, but she chose to fold them over her chest and dug her fingers into her forearms. ‘Especially if you’re going to come up with such piss-poor comparisons… You are a smart man Gale, but in case it didn’t sink in… Mystra, your goddess, just requested… no. She ordered you to kill yourself. And she didn’t even bother to make that request in person. She should have, mind you, if only for the sake of what was allegedly between the two of you once…’

‘Allegedly?!’ the wizard exclaimed, incensed for all the wrong reasons. ‘Excuse…’

‘We are not discussing your love life again’ she cut in. ‘Certainly not now, when she had turned you into a time bomb…’

‘Well, I was a bomb before and you didn’t seem to mind’ Gale cut in, his frown only growing deeper. ‘Now at the very least we get to decide when it will detonate.’

She walked into that one, she had to own it. Even if the clipped words hurt. She was standing here exactly because it bothered her, ever since she first learned he had that problem. Ever since she saw him in pain because of it, not to mention since she started to consider him a friend.

‘Hells, Gale! Consider it for five fucking seconds! There must be another way!’

‘Oh, I did, trust me. If the greatest wizard and the goddess of magic herself offered us only that, this must be the only way…

‘Fuck me…!’ Neve felt her arms flying outward, the desperate need to release some of the tension overriding her mental restraints. ‘This right here tells me exactly that you are not thinking! You’re one of the smartest men I’ve ever met… and this is what you are going to do?! Roll over and follow through, because the old man in a fancy hat and your former lover said so?!’

The wizard’s gaze darkened visibly and she felt the tiny pinpricks of… was it the weave? Sliding across her skin. It felt decidedly less pleasant than when he allowed her to taste it for the first time.

‘I would consider your next word very carefully’ it was probably the first time she had heard the threat, underlying his voice.

She wouldn’t be herself however, if she didn’t go and poke the enraged owlbear in the eye.

‘Why? Because you don’t want to hear that your goddess is a bitch? She is – demanding the ultimate sacrifice because you went a little too far in trying to prove your devotion to her? Hardly a fitting punishment if you ask me…’

‘I don’t. And I’m beginning to wonder if you had paid any attention to what I have told you. I crossed the line and…’

‘She is still a bitch!’ she wouldn’t be listening to him blaming himself again, especially not now. ‘You were young and in love and… did you act like a fool? Maybe! That’s no reason for such a… All I’m hearing is bullshit, is what I’m saying! And we’ve been defying the odds rather splendidly so far. I won’t hear it anymore! There is another way to destroy the Absolute, and we are going to find it!’

Something she said had dissipated the anger in an instant and Gale offered her a tired smile. In the dimmed light of the tent, he looked very drawn and very tired.

‘Thank you. You might think differently though, when we finally arrive at that point…’

She was fairly certain that she somehow picked the sound that left her mouth from Lae’zel.

Gale, if anything , appeared even further amused. Whatever stopped him from moping she supposed.

‘I won’t!’ she repeated and she had little idea of where she suddenly gained so much conviction. She wasn’t going to complain about it though. ‘You are not blowing yourself up!’

‘You know, there is a difference between resolve and stubbornness’ it was a clear attempt to lighten the mood. ‘One is admirable and the other can quickly turn into stupidity…’

‘For fuck’s…!’ Neve rubbed the tense spot between her eyebrows. ‘You were supposed to say you will at least try to look at it from another angle…’

‘If it’ll make you feel better than I will…’

‘Don’t make this about me! Find some of that hubris you supposedly had once and think about yourself! Gods! Do you really want to die?!’

The silence sounded a fraction too long. Neve felt it like a punch in the gut.

‘Well I’m not letting you’ she barely managed to push the words past her lips. ‘Now I need some air’ she turned on her heel and bolted.

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hiiiiiiii we havent sent you any asks for some time. mostly because kanra didnt front much

[idk if you can recognize us after all the url changes]

ereyesterday our their of pissed suggested getting into an outpatient psychward and told us to think about it. and silver[headmate] made a post on the tumbler saying that this could be a bad idea because somewhat recently i made a hole in a wall and less than a week ago Lyra messed up a cupboard. as if we're the only ones who on occasion damage stuff when angered. this is literally so mean for no reason.

also. a few months ago shinra had an accident with a knife. and we got a fun new 1 inch long scar and possibly a little bit of nerve damage or something. and we were supposed to get some reminder tetanus shot around a month after that since i had no idea when was my previous tetanus shot. and i uhhhhhhh didn't get it since i'm scared of doctors, and it would probably seem quite weird if i went to a doctor about this now

also im sorta balding but. scared of doctors so cant do anything about that

last sunday i was in some social studies class or some other shit. and the teacher said something about how lgbt people were never oppressed in this country. which is a very bold thing to say as someone living in a country in which like a quarter of the area declared itself a "lgbt free zone" and only calmed down a little when the european onion told them that that's probably illegal. and i decided to argue with the teacher a bit. one of the things she said was that sometimes there's dudes in pup masks on pride parades, which invokes disgust and thus should be banned, and. idk why but i kinda expected teachers to have a bit more common sense than 14 year old twitter users. also i came to school wearing a spiked dog collar on a regular basis. [for reasons unrelated to kink.]

well. good thing i'm failing every single one of my classes lmao. at least i won't be invoking disgust in fragile old ladies

also. i just met a doggy and he was very niceys. very soft and friendly. and polite also.

- toby

HOW COULD I NOT RECOGNIZE U MY BESTIE IN CHRIST <3 u changed ur url a binch of times but ur icon remained the same sdlfndnfkjsnsdf so i was able to keep track!

i however do not understand a single word of that first paragraph. if u want my advice, DO NOT. FUCKING GO. TO A PSYCH WARD!!!!! idfc Who it helped, it hurts a lot more than it helps, theres NO WAY to tell which psych wards are good and which are shit. no really let me go thru them all rn:

REFERRALS: most professionals that work in different offices do not know each other on a personal level and may never hear of their bad stories. a doctor that was the chillest coolest doctor id ever met referred me to a psychiatrist that sucked fucking ass shit. there is no way to know for sure

GOOGLE REVIEWS: im gonna b real i dont trust some of those mfs. you seen the guys that go into psych wards? a lot of mentally ill people r internalizers and just accept whatever happens to them, and even if they arent, society looks down on the mentally ill SO MUCH that they could b told "you deserve this bc ur crazy" and due to all this societal gaslighting, theyd agree

REVIEWS ON OTHER WEBSITES: same thing lol

why is this so important? because you cannot Fucking leave a psych ward. an outpatient ward yeah you can leave, but ive been to both in and outpatient and they excert the same level of bullshit control over their patients. in outpatient, one of the therapist told me "you are not mentally ill" and made me cry lol. she MEANT to mean it in a "you're not mentally ill, you're ~suffering from a mental illness~ uwu dont let ur disorder define you" kinda way, but that concept was introduced in therapy..... two days after she told me this. like hello? and then she tried to spin it as like, it was a problem with Me i.e. My PTSD Was Triggered and not She Is Dog Shit At Timing The Explaining Of Concepts.

this place also invited my abuser into group therapy even after me incessantly telling them "this is my abuser, she will use all this against me" and yeah guess what she did immidiatley after lol

dont go to wards.

WRT THE KNIFE: damn :0 thats insane dude, hopefully the nerve damage will heal but from experience its gonna take like, a few years at minimum lmao. i had a Knife Incident involving my pinky and the nerve damage was so bad that i couldnt hold scissors w my pinky in the scissor loop thing but evenchually it got better but it took like 4 years. if the knife was clean and not rusty ur risk of tetanus is pretty low i THINK, do not quote me on this. if ur scared of doctors, look into if ur pharmacy offers tetanus shots! some pharmacies have vaccinations other than flu and covid (which i need 2 get lol rip) so u might be able to get one THERE and not see A Doctor about it!

u dont need a doctor for the balding. minoxidil my dear boy, its at walmart, its the stuff thats in rogaine. you want "minoxidil 5%" thats whats in rogaine, theres "minoxidil 3%" thats For Girls but idk ive never heard of anyone having a problem w it. IT IS TOXIC TO CATS THOUGH IT IS VERY VERY TOXIC TO CATS IF YOU HAVE A CAT DO NOT LET THEM FUCKING TOUCH YOU OR RUB ON YOU UNTIL IT DRIES ok? :) id google more if i were u but boom. problem solved. i am the doctor now

"dog masks invoke disgust and should be banned" babygirl disgust is subjective and like, someone could use that logic to ban whatever YOU like, or Are. maybe someone is really disgusted by lil old ladies bc the wrinkles look gross as fuck to them. should we quarrantine the grandmas?

also lol at the dig against 14 year old internet puritans and then surprise surprise guess what happened on This Very Blog while this ask was sitting n collecting dust!! i gotta b on my best behavior bc theres a nonzero chance that The Feds will be looking at this blog (did u know u dont report cybercrime to local police and instead theres a form on the fbi's website? Well Now You Know!) and that goes 4 all of u too. bart please be good..... for the love of GOD please be good....... please tell me yall know that simpsons scene

also also yay doggy!! was it a regular dog or a dude in a pup mask? either way very fun n cool!!!

[sleepy-achilles]

Protector x Sunshine x Grumpy Guard Dog

I'll make this a thing if it's the last thing I do.

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Don't ask them how it started, they couldn't tell you.

It was supposed to be a one night stand after a taping of heartbreak hotel.

But Shawn got conflicted as he didn't want his relationship with Kevin and taker to be impacted by his dumb urges. He has a kid who's attached to them that he has to think about when making these decisions.

It infact makes their relationship stronger.

Taker and Kevin become more of a figure in John's life and shawn falls even harder for them both.

They work well. Kevin is the protector, he's able to protect both taker and shawn. Both are vulnerable and both struggle with that and yet he can help. He's also able to stand takers full strength whilst shawn can't.

Shawns the sunshine. He's able to ground both men and keep them calm. He's also able to rile them up if it benefits him. But he is a brat so it's expected from him.

Taker? Takers the grump guard dog who will hurt anyone who hurts his boys. You don't fuck with takers boys or his kids. Mess with him all you want, but not them.

Also, plus is, the family of destruction still works because the kids have always seen Kevin as a third dad, so yeah, Leon and cassie can still chill.

It's basically the same, John and Leon get teased for having three dads instead of two.

Taker is the firm dad, kevins the firm but fun dad and shawns the mama bear, he's the caring and most likely to freak out if something happens.

Anyways. Shawn is the cook, kevins the dish washer and taker puts them away. Takers the main driver, kevins the back up driver and shawns a passenger princess. Taker does DIY, shawn cannot and neither can Kevin.

Kevin and shawn love pda and takers a bit iffy about it.

Shawn loves nicknames and so does aba taker.

Kevin is quick to correct Shawn on any of his bullshit whilst taker will just store it away for a later, much kinkier, time.

Shawn is quick to scold Kevin and taker for ignoring medical advice despite them not allowing him too.

Taker is quick to put both of them in time out, because let's face it, Kevin and shawn are the class clowns. The shit stirrers, the troublemakers and well taker is the lockeroom leader so either way he has to put up with it.

Kevin leaves. And it does cause some problems at home. Cassies lucky she's not existing at this time.

Taker watches as it destroys Shawn. And when Shawn becomes a wreck the whole family falls apart. Taker understands both sides but for once, he has to be the protector. He has to ground Shawn and reassure Kevin its whats best. He has to promise John and Leon that Pops (idk if imma stick with pops or go with pater which is Latin for dad) isn't leaving them, that he will still come home to them, he's just moved companies for a reason that will benefit them more.

John and Leon understand a lot more than their parents think. But they help their father as much as they can with papa and how destroyed he's become.

Kevin, because we know his medical history, ends up becoming the stay at home dad eventually, so he does school runs and all that. He doesn't mind it, he enjoys it. A lot more than he thought he would.

Takers multiple deaths.

Interesting convo starter. Shawn is obviously always destroyed by them and Kevin? Kevin is aswell, but he always keeps a strong face on for his family because they need a rock.

It's important to note this isnt shawns relationship. Kevin and taker do love each other too.

Shawns back injury.

Not gonna lie, Kevin was angry at taker at first. Furious. But then when he came home he realised how bad Shawn had gotten with his drug problem. He knew it was probably for the best. And then he sees how badly taker is being on himself.

It becomes clear to him, its an accident. Its beating taker up. He sees how much Shawn forgives him. So Kevin apologies to taker and decides that they all need to heal.

That's the main, important points I can think of.

Yes I'm taking asks for them.

Yes I know I still have asks to answer but I got the world's hottest writers block so I'm trying new things rn.

[lowlylux]

I am a Sinner (You are a Saint)

Chapter Thirteen | White Lies

Ship: HeiKazuScara

Rating: E

Status: In Progress

Word Count: 2.1k words

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“You shall be cast out of the heavenly realm indefinitely.”

Kunikuzushi feels arms grab his own as he is forced to his feet. He struggles, keeping his eyes on his mother only. “Mother! Don’t let them do this!” The guards continue to drag him away, even if it is a struggle. “Mother!” He knows the gate to the human realm is growing closer to him. The more time passes, the less chance he has to escape. But the divine never back out of their decisions…never. He looks to his mother one last time, hoping that she at least looks at him. But her gaze refuses to meet his own.

When he is finally cast out, the air rushing past his entire body, he could only visualize his mother’s pained expression.

He has never felt so alone…

Ao3 Link

“This is not as fun as I had imagined,” Heizou says, disliking the fact that Scaramouche has to grip onto his arms to keep Heizou upright.  Not to mention, it just feels weird looking down and seeing the ground so far below him without anything for him to step onto.  Don’t get him wrong, flying is awesome, but probably not for him.

Scaramouche lowers him, still hovering above the ground.  “I told you that it might be weird.”

“Kazuha looked like he was having a blast though!”

“Because I was,” Kazuha says softly, sitting on a blanket they had laid out.  How a nice picnic in the woods behind their house turned into Scaramouche showing them what it is like to fly is something beyond Heizou’s comprehension.  It was offhandley mentioned and then became a reality.  But it was glorious to see Kazuha having fun, so Heizou will ignore how much he disliked it.

Heizou glances up at Scaramouche, who truly looks like he is in his element.  He’s just gliding around, low enough to be in earshot, but high enough where he goes past the trees consistently.  Sometimes, Heizou cannot help but compare Scaramouche to a bird, and he occasionally wonders if that comparison is cruel or far closer to the truth than any of them realize.

As Scaramouche glides throughout the air, Heizou cannot help it when thoughts harass his mind, a pit growing in his stomach faster than expected.  So it’s not even surprising to him when he turns toward Kazuha.  “Can we talk inside?”

Kazuha, who was intently watching Scaramouche up until that point, looks at him in confusion.  “What?”

“I need to talk to you in the kitchen.”

Kazuha obviously is confused, and the look he is sending Heizou confirms it.  However, he does agree to go so that is truly something.  “Scara!” Kazuha yells out, and Heizou can’t tell if the angel can even hear him, “we’re going inside for a second!”

Scaramouche doesn’t respond.

Upon getting into the kitchen, Heizou feels as if he has lost every ability to speak.  His mind goes blank on how to word things as if he hadn’t been thinking about the conversation mere moments prior.

“Heizou?”

“Give me a minute…”

“Heizou,” Kazuha says, letting out an annoyed breath.  “If you were cold, you didn’t need to drag me in here.”

“I’m not cold…”

“Then what do you need to talk about?” Kazuha asks, pressing harder to get the answers he so desperately craves.  

“Do you think Scaramouche is happy right now?”

Kazuha pauses, obviously attempting to make sense of the question.  “What on earth are you talking about?”

“Look at him out there,” Heizou says, gesturing toward the window.  Scaramouche is gliding around with a smile on his face.  When the angel notices both of them looking at him he waves.  “He loves flying.”

“He hasn’t flown since he fell,” Kazuha attempts to reason.  “He’s clearly happy with us.”

“What happens if they want him back?  Do you think Scaramouche would turn down being able to be with his family again for us?”

This time, Kazuha doesn’t have an answer, but his silence already tells Heizou all he needs to know.

“Is it cruel that even if he figures out and stops all the bullshit happening right now, I don’t want heaven to offer him a spot.  I want them to ignore it, so he will stay.”

“It’s not cruel,” Kazuha mutters, gripping onto the side of a table.  “Scara is amazing, and honestly the thought of losing him terrifies me.  But we can’t speculate on what decisions he would make in hypothetical scenarios.  Most we can do is hope he makes the right decision for him, and talk to him about our own fears.”

Heizou pulls Kazuha closer, kissing the top of his head.  “You are so smart.”

“I try,” Kazuha says with a soft smile before pulling away, intentionally taking a step back.  “We should get back outside.”

And they do go outside.  The stark temperature difference between the outside world and inside is quite stark, but Heizou cannot help but enjoy it slightly.  

Kazuha looks around confused, glancing at Heizou.  “Where did Scara go?”

Heizou knew it was too quiet.

●•·•●

Scaramouche noticed it immediately.  The air around the property shifted, a suffocating atmosphere settling in and digging its heels into the ground.  He almost celebrated when Heizou and Kazuha went into the house, as he wanted to investigate but not worry them.

So he flies toward the source, every few flaps of his wings seemingly becoming harder to accomplish.  Every inch of his body is telling him to run, that the beings who are visiting are not to be trifled with.  But he already knows them, so what is the harm really?

He lands, his wings disappearing at once as he stands tall, staring directly at the newcomers.

“What are you two doing here?”

“Well that’s not very nice,” Dottore says, practically grinning.  Scaramouche’s skin crawls at the expression, forcing him to suppress a grimace.  “I thought it was established that sooner or later we would be back.”

“No that was obvious,” Scaramouche says with a scoff.  “But why you think I would just let you kill me is baffling.  Are you that stupid?”

Pantalone snorts at Scaramouche’s words.  “Interesting words coming from an angel who fainted.”

“Interesting words coming from a witch’s lapdog.”

“Says the one who’s wrapped around two human’s fingers.”

“Jealous that I actually get what I want instead of pining over someone more focused on summoning a being leagues more powerful then I am?”

“Not that it would be difficult.”

Scaramouche raises a brow at the demon’s words, yet his feet stay firmly planted on the ground.  He glances at where the two stand, noting it just to prepare if either were to lash out suddenly.  “Just because I’m an angel doesn’t mean there aren’t any other angelic beings below me.”

“I’m well aware of how your hierarchies work,” Pantalone says.  He brushes off Dottore, who is staring at him as if he had said something wrong.  “The queen makes sure we know about the enemy.”

“Likewise, Celestia made sure to tell us as much as they could.”

“Your assumption over knowing the truth will be your downfall,” Pantalone says coldly, looking back to Dottore for a moment before glancing back at Scaramouche intently.  “Unfortunately, you won’t be able to verify if I’m telling the truth about that.”

“Oh?” Scaramouche questions, taking a step forward.  He once again glances at their position in comparison to where potential areas in which he can escape are.  “I knew that overusing magical energy could deplete brain cells but I didn’t know it would harm both of you this much.  Because what makes you think I’m just going to go with you?”

Dottore sends him a glare, as if challenging Scaramouche to continue, which he gladly does.

“Because you need me to physically go wherever your spell is, don’t you?” Scaramouche questions, a cocky grin plastered on his face.  “Angel blood is nothing if it’s not fresh.  But what makes you think I’d go willingly?”

“We had hoped that you would at least think of the well-being of your humans.”

“Oh but I already did,” Scaramouche says confidently.  “I’ve already made all the precautions and, simply put, since I’m sure you two wouldn’t catch on without me explaining, you can’t touch them.  So once again, I’m desperately wondering how you two expect me to go with you?”

“Fairly confident for an angel who lost the last battle,” Dottore hisses out, his arms crossed.

“Strong words for someone who immediately retreated after one gunshot wound.”

Dottore opens his mouth before closing it with a groan.  “Why can’t you just be useful for a moment? This isn’t us personally only targeting you.  We just need angel blood and you’re the only one in the area.”

“Oh in that case…” Scaramouche mutters, stepping forward with a fake smile.  His smile drops immediately.  “Fuck off and find another.  I’m sure the queen can wait a few more hundred years.”

“This isn’t going anywhere,” Dottore mutters looking toward Pantalone in annoyance.  “Are you actually going to do anything useful or are you going to just stand there?”

Pantalone takes the hint, stepping forward.  Scaramouche stands tall, staring at him intently.  His feet do not move from the spot in which they are planted.  Pantalone reaches out, his hand getting dangerously close to Scaramouche but it never touches him.

Pantalone gasps in shock as the skin on his hand begins to bubble before physically melting, the practically liquid skin falling onto the grass below.  Next is the bones, crumbling until they are nothing but ash, blowing away in the wind.  He steps back, grasping his arm as it bleeds black goop.  He visibly attempts to form a new hand, but every time the goop begins to form, it pops, splattering its contents onto the grass.

“Did you really think I wouldn’t prepare for you?” Scaramouche questions, relishing in the fact that he can look down upon Pantalone for the first time.  “Do you think I was naïve enough to believe that neither of you would come back.”

Dottore looks to Pantalone in concern, his eyes going over the wound before snapping back to Scaramouche.  “What’s the cure?” And to that, Scaramouche merely shrugs in response.  “How do I reverse it?”

“You can figure it out yourself I think.  But I’m afraid you’ll need angelic energy for it,” Scaramouche says with a grin, adoring this moment.  “I’m happy to give you some…but you need to enter the threshold first.  Think you can guarantee your own safety without your demon?” Scaramouche doesn’t see it, but his eyes are glinting in the light, looking slightly terrifying.  “You’re welcome to try.”

Dottore stares at him, as if sizing up his words and analyzing whether or not he’s telling the truth.  And based on the fact that he tugs at Pantalone’s sleeve, Scaramouche realizes that he believes him.  “We’ll be back.”

“Looking forward to it.”

As Dottore and Pantalone disappear in an instant, Scaramouche feels his knees give way.  His heart races, his breath getting caught in his throat as his mind goes over what just happened, over what could have happened.  He was too cocky, too confident that the spell would work.  That could have easily turned into a nightmare and he didn't even flinch.  He stared down the barrel of a gun and mocked the man holding it.  Scaramouche believes himself to be rather intelligent, but occasionally he has his doubts.

This is one of those moments.

Sudden sounds of twigs breaking as two people audibly running towards him cause the angel to snap out of it.  He looks toward the individuals in a panic, only to calm down when he realizes that it is merely Kazuha and Heizou.

Kazuha is the first one at his side, holding his hand instantly.  “Are you alright?” Scaramouche doesn’t verbally respond, only nodding.  “Why did you run off like that?”

“There was something I needed to take care of,” Scaramouche says quickly, internally cringing at how he is a terrible liar.  He doubts Kazuha even believes him.  Heizou is even less likely, especially considering he is far closer to the truth.

“And what would that be?” Heizou asks, his eyes narrowed in suspicion.

“I was attempting to observe my wings to find two suitable feathers,” Scaramouche says, thinking on his feet.  “In the angelic realm, we have an entire ritual, but since I can’t do that, I thought I should do the best I can.”

Kazuha glances at Heizou quickly before going back to Scaramouche.  “Why did you need to look at your wings?  Are you hurt?  Did we overdo it when having you fly around.”

“No,” Scaramouche says quickly, grasping Kazuha’s hands in his own.  His cheeks burn as he remembers that humans do not have the same customs as angels do, but then again, why would they?  “When angels…court others, we present them with the best feather from our wings.  The other party, if accepting the courting, crafts the feather into a piece of jewelry and wears it.”

“So like an engagement ring?”

Scaramouche looks at Heizou in confusion.  “A what?”

‘Nevermind.”

Kazuha grabs Scaramouche’s face softly, a soft smile on his face.  “Why run off though?  Were you embarrassed?”

“It’s a private affair…I thought I should respect that part at least.”

Kazuha nods thoughtfully, placing a soft kiss onto Scaramouche’s forehead.  “Don’t run off like that again, alright?  At least not without telling us where you’re going.”

Scaramouche, mind sort of stuttering at the affection from Kazuha.  Sure, it has happened before, but every time he finds himself in these situations, his mind goes blank the moment any affection happens.

But Scaramouche looks up, and his mind clears.  Heizou is still staring at him with a suspicious glint in his eyes, and Scaramouche realizes that he might have to be careful dealing with Dottore and Pantalone next time.

Because there is no doubt in his mind that there will be a next time.

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