#this is almost a spectrum

[flammedoudoune]

Ah, I see now. Severance, the Substance and Mickey 17 are all part of the Wanting to Throw Hands With Yourself, And Also, Fuck Capitalism cinematic universe.

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

sometimes when chronically ill/disabled/neurodivergent people say “I can’t do this thing” they really mean “I can technically do this thing I guess, but not without pretty significant repercussions” and I really need more fully-abled people to understand the validity of that

[syn0vial]

sure is interesting watching the internet grapple with the fact that there are more political persuasions out there than "alt-right" and "far-leftist"

[toffeesbabbles]

I did it.... cause I kinda... want to overwhelm him with love or something cringe like that

(Color by @/superyoumna Killer by @/Rahafwabas if they ever saw this though i would shoot myself in the foot out of embarrassment)

[autopsyfreak]

if i see one more ‘delulu’ im going to hurt someone

[skitkattl]

"dexter isn't autistic" then why does he act exactly like me. explain that liberal

[hanalyrata]

Stop infantalizing people who are neurodivergent. Stop treating people who are neurodivergent with the same rules as neurotypicals and expect them to "get" it. Stop pretending to be allies to neurodivergent people who when they show their actual symptoms that aren't just quirky "tee hee hee I'm so random" tiktok coded bullshit, turn on them when it displays as the actual mental health problem that it is.

It's exhausting, to be honest.

Also: It is not a flex to be more functioning than someone else who is ND either. It is not a flex to be further along in recovery from any mental health trauma. It is not a flex to have more understanding of your condition than someone else who is also ND because you've been able to access therapy and tools to work with it.

[ynonquail]

Recharging

[kagoutiss]

oot zelda doodle i liked :’-)))

[howlsofbloodhounds]

You know that quote from epic the musical?

The "I will love you over and over again" one?

I feel like that fits Color and Killer's relationship.

I didn’t know the quote, but I read this wiki, and not only do I think it could fit in the original context—but it also fits with how Color did love Killer, multiple Killers, over and over again, even as he lost them, or they were taken from him, or they left him.

Even as each new replacement Killer felt like reliving the pain of being forgotten and abandoned all over again.

[i-reblog-everything44]

Curly Mouthwashing is like catnip to autsitic people and brother, we are the cats

[onesidedradiostatic]

woah I can't believe it's almost alastor week

[thornsinpudding]

I can't advise people enough to literally just view and treat level 2 / 3 autistic people as actual people...

Although I'm only level 1, my brother is level 3, and he's only partially verbal + developmentally disabled. Seeing how people constantly diminish his emotions and feelings and behaviors and marks anything he experiences down to autism and makes it seem like a huge joke is actually disgusting.

For example, a huge issue I see is in regard to his boundaries and emotions. I see so many people purposefully overstep my brothers boundaries and toy with his emotions and literally manipulate him because he doesn't have the words to stand up for himself. And when he starts looking mad or acting out, they're able to easily twist the situation on him, and suddenly, he's just hysterical, and he needs to be reprimanded.

Another huge concern I see is just how people will blatantly ignore symptoms he experiences and chalk them down to autism. OCD runs in my family, and although I was able to advocate for my own diagnosis, my brother, despite presenting obvious symptoms of OCD, doesn't have that ability. My mom, instead of treating his symptoms with the care he deserves, chalks all of his anxious and compulsive behaviors down to his autism, despite many of these behaviors not even SEEMING like autism.

So much abelism towards higher level autistic people can literally be solved if we weren't taught that autistic people with higher support needs are different than us. Just because somebody can't advocate for themself doesn't mean you're allowed to freely play around with their feelings and target them, and it doesn't give you the right to ignore their struggles either.

It seems like such a silly and obvious thing to preach, yet some people genuinely don't understand it...

[meep-the-hamster]

No, but this is the funniest crap ever—

Too frickin' real LMHO. Σ(ノ `Д´)ノ(*´∇`)~

[sergle]

There's something about like. A certain genre of posts / Online Opinions about insecurity/depression/misery/complaints that are so unhelpful that they wrap right around to being straight up hilarious. and it's the ones that are more or less written to the tone of "Feeling bad? That's gross!" Like, just so you know, don't voice your insecurities/ have low self esteem, because that's offputting! You're gross and weird. Don't be insecure about that, though. That would be stupid if you felt insecure about people disliking you for being insecure. Not attractive. You should be thinking about being as attractive as possible. You shouldn't make comments about suicide, even if you're suicidal! Keep those thoughts entirely to yourself. Make sure nobody around you knows you're thinking about this. It would Make Them Uncomfortable. It's better to keep these thoughts in your head where they can fester. Don't post OR talk to friends with complaints about you feeling miserable or depressed. Tbh people who are sad/upset a lot? Kinda a red flag! You are probably miserable because you're a bad person and you've brought this on yourself. If you don't have friends, it's because you're awful to be around. Easy! Solved the problem for you. And no, there is no nuance to this, got it? So, make sure to feel bad about feeling bad, but don't feel bad about it, because, well, that's just gross. And annoying! You might've wanted your brain rotted thoughts to be Peer Reviewed, you might have just needed to vent- you might've been hoping for some comfort, to get things off your chest. Well, don't! Don't talk about thoughts or feelings that are negative with your friends, you'd be burdening them and that's only meant for THERAPY. #SponsoredbyBetterHelp #MentalHealth like, DAMN. that's so helpful. you're so good at helping. I um really liked the part where these are all hard and fast rules that encourage keeping feelings bottled up and keeping your friends at arm's length. That's really funny of you.