#try transition today

[glittergroovy]

I think everyone should try a few weeks of HRT as a treat

[cubbihue]

Who was Timmy's teacher at Pixie School? Was it Sanderson? I get the rivalry now.

His teacher was Fairy Mason! It's usually HP who teaches incoming Pixies, but Jorgen asked Fairy Mason to teach Timmy's class instead. Mainly because if anybody could help Timmy learn all the cultures and etiquette that comes with being a fairy, it'd be Fairy Mason.

He's one of the few fairies to be granted the honor of the "Fairy" title!! Wow!! Not even Jorgen has that honor!!!

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[beeduoo]

wonderful

[nekrosmos]

Putting off doing something for close to two years because it seemed scary only for said thing to end up not being that scary 😔​✌️​

[keepthemacramesecret]

theres also a cool time/clocks motif going on w raffles which i am predictably haunted by but we cant get into that today

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Anyway, personally, I have always thought that the best remedy for getting dumped is to go on another date with someone you're not emotionally invested in yet [this is probably the polyamory and borderline talking but stick with me I swear it makes sense for at least some of us]

So when you CARE about a person and the relationship dynamic shifts, now you're in mourning right because you started to imagine them in different places in your life and it's emotionally painful to uproot those. But like. If you temper that pain with a person you KNOW that you aren't emotionally invested in (yet) it's a lot easier to challenge the weird thoughts a post-break up funk puts in your head.

Do I feel like a freak of nature who will always be alone because that's reasonable or because Jean-Paul over there told me he's got too much going on right now to keep going out with me? When I'm crying alone in my room, the answer is way less helpful! When I'm on a date with Steve From Accounting Who's Fun But Not My Type it's a LOT easier to remember that lots of different kinds of people are attracted to me, and my boundaries/choices in interaction with others can have a lot to do with how I experience them. See, Steve From Accounting can say and do a lot of things that just Do Not Bother Me, because. Well, why should they? And the reminder that I'm capable of setting down frustration or hurt, the reminder that I can mark lines with people on a case by case basis that I don't want them to cross, and it can be different for different people and that can be a GOOD thing, all that stuff makes it easier the next time I'm alone and feeling shitty to say "hey, these are sensations in my body that I deserve to tend to, but they are not Truth Coming Out Of Her Well To Shame Me Specifically and I can chill about it."

Honestly it's also really validating to remember that there are MANY kinds of affection and connection from others in the world. The loss of affection/connection that often comes with a break up can rattle me, and it's helpful to have the PHYSICAL IN MY BODY reminder that this will pass as I reorient within the other systems of affection and care I participate in. A break up hurts less if you're not also wondering where you'll get your needs met in the meantime.

Anyway it's day two of post-"let's be friends" stabilization and the playlist evolves with me so today's song is Perfect with Sam Smith and Jessie Reyez

[fairytwles]

jackie my beloved 💕 {i will protect you gothic font}

[monster-noises]

Well two hours until the wrap of my 30th birthday

As a special gift i got myself a Single Chocolate Croissant, the first i've had in over a year, it was lovely.

I wanted to write a whole big thing reflecting on this time and the last decade but, like many of my original big celebratory plans i'm.. just not in a place for it.

But i also feel weird and bad not saying Anything so i'll just say this..

I want to hope my 30's will be better, I want to believe I can grow and change the ways i need to, and that i will stop stalling out and twiddling my thumbs and settling for whatever happens to be around me. I hope but i'm also afraid you know? Worried that it won't be... Better, that it will be the same the same the same

But you know 10 years is a long time

God know the last 10 years has been a fucking Eternity. Anything could happen, i'm just hoping i find it within me to believe it and act accordingly.

And so I become 30, the start of something new or just more of the same who knows, only time will tell. That's all I got really, and thank you everyone who wished me well, it would be a lot harder without out you all really and truly

[bogkeep]

complaining about gender clinic again

mid-may: coincidentally finds out that the gender clinic offers [resource] they never informed me or nearly anyone else about, gets help from one of the nurses to order [resource] except she's going to send me more info over email first :)

(late july: my GP can also order [resource] for me and does so, it's different than the one i ordered through gender clinic because i wasn't sure if gender clinic was going to send me the [resource i ordered] or not. GP order goes through immediately)

early august, back from travelling: well i haven't received any emails nor word about [resource] so i'll shoot them a message

mid-august: well i haven't received any replies to my message so i'll call them even though their call times are a scarce two hours every weekday. i'm told they'll call me back over the week

this monday: over a week has passed and i received no call. i will call them again! the lady on the phone says i should contact the regional centre because that's where they send [resource orders] :) and if i don't want to do that i should call [different number that has call times only twice a week]

today: "hello special gender clinic number i really want a follow up about this thing one of your nurses promised but i have been completely unable to get a single word about despite contacting you multiple times"

"oh no!! i see you sent us a message weeks ago and nobody answered it! this isn't supposed to happen!"

"one would think"

(and then she actually emailed me!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS TIME IT BETTER GO THROUGH I SWEAR TO GOD.)

[awkwardeccentric]

New Year, new me

[quietlyblooms-gone]

i might have been a lil loopy from the lack of sleep, but i stand by what i said: i need to make chiyo struggle more. i've been too nice to her for too long...

[incandescentflower]

Being on my first trip to Las Vegas and then realizing Jinyoung's new drama has two eps out, starting it, and finding the opening scene is in a casino is honestly throwing me quite a bit.

[whentherewerebicycles]

I seem to be fine most of the day and then I have a BIG mood dip around 8pm. I think I should just immediately go to bed instead of entertaining any thoughts at all about the future

[take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar]

@bricxbrac replied: Ros will pet~. She thinks he's a cutie pie.

There's a quiet grunt given from the man as she starts to pet him-- Minato slightly stunned for a moment, and in turn allowing the woman a short bit of petting… But, soon enough-- a hand comes up to smack hers away.

"Hey, that's enough--" He snaps, thin brows furrowed and gaze sharp. And while almost tempted to take a step back as well… In the end, he decided against it-- standing his ground with that grumpy expression still present across his features.

[calyptramoths]

I LOVE QUEER ELDERS

[truecorvid]

nooooooo i have work tomorrow cries and cries and cries and cries and cries forever