#trying to learn how to build cool things rn

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some work in progress buildings from my town :D

[ohmigoshiloveu]

Okay so like. I still haven't managed to get myself to finish episode 9, so I don't fully know how Theo's glow up finishes, but regardless I fucking love relistening to Emizel's section of episode 1 and like. Fuck man Theo does a lot of growing. Like he's a little bit pathetic at the beginning of the series. He's so, so brave during the alleyway fight, but he sounds shaky and scared and like a sopping wet pathetic baby the entire time. Charlie specifically describes him as not very alert, not a great fighter, and gives him this little moment where it takes him a second to manage to crush a soda can. He botches the check to beat Emizel in Smash Bros so there's a chance he sucks at the related skills (dexterity and computers I think?), but also after he loses Charlie specifically has him sound super frustrated and conclude that he should've 'stayed in his lane'. When Emizel says 'We'll do what we do best,' and Theo immediately responds with 'drink soda?' so fast that the other players notice it. Charlie might've had that as a predetermined character thing. Theo drinks soda. There's not much else to him.

Which creates this interesting dynamic between him and Emizel, because Emizel is so much better at him at all of these skills that the people around them (a FUCKING GANG) value. Emizel's perceptive, and agile, and strong, and a great fucking fighter irl and in videogames AND he always sounds badass. He's the top dog, the apex predator in their social circle. And I think that colors their relationship a lot? Like Theo has to look up to Emizel. I bet that Theo's looked up to Emizel since they first met, maybe Emizel came crashing into his life doing something epic and Theo thought it was the greatest shit ever.

On the flip side, I was getting a few hints of resentment? Hear me out! It's that 'should have just stayed in my lane' line. He's painfully aware how great Emizel is, compared to how much he's (from his perspective!) just a one trick pony. He's here to drink soda and say funny things, that's all most people want from him and he fucks up whenever he tries to do anything else!

And later in the segment Theo snarkily brings up a medicine check that Emizel had just fucked up in like this super backhanded, super passive aggressive way. That could be him wanting to rub Emizel's one singular fuck up in his face (especially because Theo was having a Moment about how he feels like people only see him as the soda guy, so any feelings of inadequacy would've been dialed up to eleven, so if there was any time for him to resent Emizel it'd be then), but it could also be that he was frustrated with Emizel being an ass (Emizel had just guessed that Theo's dream was to be a nurse, which was flat out wrong, and that's literally what set up the backhanded comment. Theo was saying something like 'thank fuck you don't wanna be a nurse cuz you sure fucked up with nursing that guy earlier.' It could also be that Emizel literally almost forgot Theo's name. Theo literally gave him the 'th' sound, it might've just been a bit Charlie was doing or it could've been Theo being AWARE that Emizel almost forgot his name. Or! It could be that in this moment, where Theo was confiding in Emizel about feeling like being the soda guy was all anyone ever saw in him, Emizel said something to the affect of 'well yeah Soda's the fun one.' Emizel doesn't think before he speaks and literally has a 1 in empathy. Just because he loves Theo doesn't mean he's not gonna blunder into being a complete and utter asshole to him. I'd hazard to say Emizel accidentally being an ass to people he cares about is a running theme).

But also all of that might come down to Charlie still getting the character down. Or, because I've theorized before that Theo might not've been supposed to survive the first Gabriel fight, the little hints of bitterness might've been intentional (even if they were completely improvved and Charlie didn't mean to add that to Theo's character) because Charlie was trying to shove as much character into this character before he was gone, but once it became clear that Theo was going to stick around longer he dropped it. As far as I remember, that bitterness is completely gone in all later interactions we see with Theo. OR! It could be that the bitterness drops because they've both got bigger fish to fry from that point onward, what with Theo's Shilo Incident TM, Emizel's vampirism, the Weylin twins. He doesn't have time to be bitter, he's too busy worrying about losing a cornerstone of his identity or helping his best friend adjust to being a fucking vampire now. And then after he learns to live without soda that basically negates his feelings of inadequacy- like, getting over the idea that he's nothing if he's not the soda guy would be required for him to give up on being the soda guy. And then Emizel would drift back into JUST being a guy to aspire to instead of also being a reminder of Theo's short comings, and then drift even further down into being 'guy who is actually going through it and has to overcome his own demons just like I had to overcome mine'. Like, I think we got to watch Theo slowly start to take Emizel off this pedestal in real time (he still definitely thinks Emizel's hot shit tho. Emizel's his boy, after all.)

Regardless, even if Theo did resent Emizel a little in the beginning, it's so fucking clearly overshadowed by how much he fucking loved him. And like, how could he not? Imagine you're Theo, critically low self esteem, and the literal coolest guy you know fucking LOVES you. Like, Emizel keeps consistently going out of his way to pull Theo up to his level and to treat him as an equal (mostly. Sometimes protectiveness bleeds through, like in his hypothetical fang scenario in ep 1 where he predicts there being five Fangs to fight and he says he can take three and Theo can take two (which in itself is still incredibly kind to Theo. Like, boy, you thought Theo was gonna be able to take out two whole guys? Hell no.) But that could also be chalked up to Emizel just being a cocky ass who wants to show off). Like dude, c'mon. Emizel might be a reminder of everything that Theo's not, but he's also probably Theo's biggest cheerleader. He wholeheartedly thought he was being supportive when he said he thought Theo'd make a great nurse! In all seriousness, though, even if it ultimately discourages him, Theo playing that Smash game against Emizel was at least a little bit of proof of him decidedly not 'staying in his lane,' and Emizel seems to inspire that! Later in that segment he challenges Theo to see which of them can break one of the Fangs kneecaps first! I bet Emizel challenged him to stupid competitions a lot, and that got Theo fired up and competitive in return!

And even when Emizel's not building Theo up, he's still giving Theo special attention, or readily receiving any attention Theo gives him. If nothing else, even at his lowest points that might've made Theo feel cool by association.

On Emizel's part, I think he's like, possibly completely oblivious to any turmoil Theo's going through? Like he thinks Theo's the shit and genuinely sees him as an equal. I'm 99% sure that Theo being his right hand man happened because Theo would've put himself into the role (in episode one before he gets all of his character development he's pretty much always looking to Emizel for what to do, and still more or less does whatever he says up to where I'm at in the series, with refusing to leave the alleyway being the only exception I remember). I think if Theo'd had higher self esteem or been less eager to defer to Emizel, Emizel would've happily gone about his business slotting Theo into more of a partner role. He tells Theo to run from that alleyway because Theo'd taken a fucking devastating hit and Emizel was sure he could handle himself, not because he knows Theo sucks at fighting. He tries to turn Theo into a cool vampire. He convinces Shilo that Theo'll be a valuable asset to raiding the Weylin warehouse and they take Theo with them instead of having him stay behind with the car like Grefgore, despite Theo being the one who actually knows how to drive. He tells Theo about being a vampire even though he keeps it a secret from everyone else, confides in Theo that 'yeah he might absolutely be susceptible to going into a frenzy like Shilo did.'

When you get down to it, Emizel pretty much tells Theo everything he would think is relevant, with two notable exceptions. Maybe three if you count him not telling Theo he has nine lives like a cat but tbh I think he might've just forgot. Or maybe he gets to it later, or maybe he did tell him and I forgot! idk man! But! Those other two things. First off, he like. Pointedly does not tell Theo that he's a prince. Like when they were doing the recap on the way to the Weylin warehouse, there's like. Charlie gives Condi an opening to say it, a little 'is there anything else?' and Emizel just. Doesn't. And the second one is that (at least where I'm at) Emizel never comes clean about bloodbonding Theo. Maybe it just hasn't come up yet, but still. It fits a pattern of Emizel not wanting to admit something that makes him, like, ABOVE Theo somehow. He sees Theo as an equal, and a precious one at that, he doesn't want things to get weird between them because he's literal royalty, and he doesn't want Theo's life to literally revolve around him like it would under a level three blood bond- and doesn't want to admit that he even considered it, even if he did it without really understanding what it was.

And Emizel backing off from ghoulifying Theo after Arthur explains what it actually entails kinda leads into a far more headcanon-y relationship analysis thing so um. Feel free to skip the next paragraph.

So! Like. Why the fuck was Emizel so attached to Theo being Soda. Like he gets over it decently quick, cuz that's his buddy and it's what Theo wants, so like. Whatever. But like, if I'm right about Theo always looking up to Emizel from the moment they met, there might've been some wiggle room between when they first became friends and when Theo became Soda. And like, before Theo became Soda, being Emizel's buddy would probably be the only thing he'd feel he had going for him? Which would've made it even harder for Emizel to get them both on equal footing, and I think that's just... really unappealing to him. Like! Don't get me wrong, I'm sure Emizel loves having people kiss up to him and respect him and blah blah blah, I just think Theo being his boy and Emizel treating him like a partner go hand in hand. Either they weren't best friends yet or Emizel was just. Kind of uncomfortable and eager to push Theo into growing into something more than a hypeman. And then the soda incident occurs, and it gives Theo SOMETHING to define himself by, something people like him and know him for that's got nothing to do with Emizel, and maybe the initial soda incident was bad, but having that sense of identity and falling into what kind've feels like a class clown kinda role might've helped get Theo over his self esteem issues long enough for Emizel to go 'oh you're actually super cool. sweet.' and then blah blah blah they get super close like they are in canon. And then whenever Theo seems like he's backsliding into what he was before the soda incident, Emizel tries to course correct not because he doesn't think Theo's any fun without soda, but because he's made the mental connection that Soda without soda turns into less of a best friend and more of a follower, which as stated before he probably really doesn't want from Theo specifically. but idk. pure conjecture here.

Anyways, above all else, Theo's important to Emizel. I really, really like the idea that Theo was supposed to be like a brother to him (which. Again pointing at my 'Theo was supposed to die in episode 1' theory, can you IMAGINE the angst Emizel could've had about that? Lose one brother and then someone else claiming to be your brother shows up? It would've felt like some hellish, not-worth-it trade. Like a betrayal, like accepting Shilo might mean replacing Theo, and how could he ever?)

And Emizel's important to Theo! But unlike Emizel (who I'm 99% sure is gonna have some kinda moment with Theo but I genuinely cannot see him loving Theo in any other way than the way he does now), Theo has the bonus of having his view of Emizel have a clear trajectory to evolve over the course of the campaign. Like I said, he seems to be getting more confidence in himself and like, not gonna get into the stuff I've had spoiled beyond episode 9 but it seems like Theo's gonna get a lot more comfortable being a proper leader and not just a number two. He's gonna have an easier time seeing Emizel as an equal, and I think that's fucking awesome!

I could be completely off base, but if I never watch another episode then I'll never be proven wrong. So. Ya know.

[milfbrainrot]

i know other people are tired of female characters having stories revolving motherhood but god it is so nice to get stories about it that are actually... written with care? i imagine some of the fatigue around these stories is bc of how it's done with the assumption that all women must be or want to be mothers or it's done without any actual examination of the woman's characterization--and i also get tired of those! but there are so many female characters who specifically do not have or want kids as well these days, so i am glad that we can have a balance of ones who are fine without kids but also ones who are well-written as mothers??? idk. it makes me happy that we can have both, because parenthood will always be a thing, even if some people... equate their own preference of avoiding those stories altogether with automatic misogyny when a story does include it at all.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I'm in the middle of a knitting project right fucking now, and I'm already looking at other projects to do. I'm not even close to finishing the current project and I'm looking at like three others. It's a real problem

[lionhanie]

boynextdoor playing minecraft! (ot6 hc)

what happens when boynextdoor starts a minecraft server?

word count: 1.2k i think

genre + warnings: crack LOL, cursing, written in lowercase, typos

a/n: this is so stupid LMAO. (i was playing mc earlier whos gonna match my freak)

reblogs ↺ + feedback always appreciated!

featuring… sungho as numberonecatdad! riwoo as LeeSanghyeok! (he didn’t know he was making his username when he made the account. literal full government name out there)  jaehyun as myungj4e! taesan as GiantMountain! leehan as 212121_! woonhak as xxBlockBeastxx2006! (he made it in 4th grade. says he keeps the name for the nostalgia he doesnt know how to change it)  

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☆ sungho: the builder

i feel like sungho wouldn’t really be interested in playing mc “seriously” but BOYYYY get him into creative and he’s locking the hell in. ik he does NOT play when it comes to building The Ultimate Spruce Wood Base

he got sick of seeing jaehyun build dirt huts as shelter in their worlds so he took on the role of being the MAIN BUILDER… main vocal? yeah. main builder is his TRUE calling. but i genuinely think he’d be good at it LOL his attention to detail is insane

making entire mansions in survival except he doesn’t even collect the blocks himself. he just waits til people come home with them and he steals them for his builds

In the chat… numberonecatdad: who made this farm by my house 212121_: me and riwoo 212121_: y???? numberonecatdad: … LeeSanghyeok: wjats wrong with it :( numberonecatdad: it’s … so bad LeeSanghyeok: it took us 2 hrs to make btw 212121_: okay but it works numberonecatdad: HALF THE CROPS ARE TRAMPLED numberonecatdad: stay away. leave this to me

the next day its a full fledged farm. windmill in the background. beautiful fields of potatoes and wheat surrounded by a pretty fence. flowers adorning the whole thing. true masterpiece 

☆ riwoo: the noob

i think he’s not really the type to play games like mc. like give him tiny tower or something and he’s at like 400 floors.. neko atsume? he got all the cats unlocked. but MINECRAFT? idk i feel like he’s just 🙂 when he plays bc he has no idea what’s going on

everyone will be off adventuring on their own.. minding their business.. and then there's a death message in the chat saying riwoo died to something so incredibly random. everyone is just like ??? bc wdym you died to a berry bush

the members think its so cute how he’s just… there for the ride! but they can’t help but mess around with riwoo because he is truly lost  & blindly trusts everything they tell him bc he doesn’t know any better

In the chat… 212121_: riwoo stand right there LeeSanghyeok: why 212121_: ima show u a cool easter egg LeeSanghyeok: okie ^_^ LeeSanghyeok was squashed by a falling anvil. LeeSanghyeok: wat was the easter egg LeeSanghyeok: i dont get it xxBlockBeastxx2006: LKSJKJFHKJSnfd;sf GiantMountain: oh riwoo GiantMountain: if u left click u can pet the bees and they heal u LeeSanghyeok: rlly? thats cool i wanna try myungj4e: DONT DO IT LeeSanghyeok was stung to death. numberonecatdad: leave that poor boy ALONE

after that, riwoo learns to be cautious of the maknae line.... he just stays with sungho collecting flowers for his builds or lighting up the caves jaehyun explores and running from the mobs :,)

☆ jaehyun: the miner

jaehyun is definitely the type to go straight to mining when you start up a new world. the second everyone sees "myungj4e has just earned the achievement [Acquire Hardware]" they KNOW he's clocking into his full time job in the mines bye

it’s 30 mins in and he has half a set of diamond armor to his name and they’re like ?? bro we just started can you be fr rn… if any of the members ask for materials he won’t do it unless he’s getting something out of it (don’t tell anyone but he made riwoo a set of diamond tools when everyone is still using iron 😍 true romance i think)

lowkey everyone is convinced he has x-ray installed or something bc of how good he is at mining

In the chat… numberonecatdad: can i get three diamonds for a new pickaxe myungj4e: lmao NO  myungj4e: wat do i get in return numberonecatdad: how do you live in a dirt shack and have diamond armor GiantMountain: embarrassing.... myungj4e: okay making fun of the less fortunate now??? numberonecatdad: ill build u a house if u give me diamonds myungj4e: k fine  xxBlockBeastxx2006: OH BUT WHEN I ASK FOR DIAMONDS I DONT GET ANY

at the end of the day tho... he's lowkey a blessing bc if he's feeling nice enough he will hook u up with ANYTHING u need. the boys are spoiled w the way jae's chests are FULL of iron whenever they need it

☆ taesan: the fighter

unironically i think taesan would just be . oddly good at pvp. it’s like one of his random talents LOOOL "good at mc pvp" on his resume LOUD AND PROUD

like you load up into bedwars or something and he’s wiping out teams before you can even get yourself a proper set of armor. its lowkey attractive idk

in your survival world, he’s always instigating fights with the other members in hopes that they’ll want to fight. literally no one can kill him. he can probably 1v5 and still win

In the chat... myungj4e: WHO TOOK THE DIAMONDS FROM MY CHEST WHILE I WAS OFFLINE LeeSanghyeok: it was taesan GiantMountain: …what are u gonna do about it bro. huh. they’re mine now.  myungj4e: bro that was like a full stack. it took me like 3 hours to get them. where the hell are you  GiantMountain: why? you wanna fight for it? GiantMountain: whoever wins keeps the diamonds xxBlockBeastxx2006: oh ur cooked hyung myungj4e: OK DEAL myungj4e was slain by GiantMountain using Diamond Sword.

the way u can hear jaehyun RAGE through the dorm walls brings a smile to taesan's face bc he KNOWS he stays undefeated when it comes to pvp

☆ leehan: the troll

i think he’s similar to riwoo in the sense that he doesn’t rlly know whats going on but once they start their server you know DAMN well he’s looking up Top 15 BEST Ways To ANNOY Your FRIENDS in Minecraft! on youtube.,.. fucking loser (hearts in my eyes as i write this)

they’re usually harmless ones, like filling up jaehyun's chests with junk or renaming sungho's cat to something stupid like “Poopy Fart” or moving all of woonhak's cows from their pen

but ohh… if you piss him awf BADDD i think he would do some DIABOLICAL damage to the world. like imagine taesan is Also Trolling and he kills leehan before taking all of his stuff and running away into the distance. things would be quiet… too quiet…. until next thing u kno theres a whole trap waiting for taesan the second he walks into his house 

In the chat… 212121_: taesan do u still have my fishing rod GiantMountain: ye lol 212121_: can i have it back GiantMountain: LMAO GiantMountain: no 212121_: i think theres a creeper in ur house  GiantMountain: WHAT  GiantMountain was killed by magic while trying to escape 212121_.  numberonecatdad: LOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLL GiantMountain: when the hell did you set that up 212121_: >:)

OKAY YES he spent 46 minutes following a tutorial on how to set up a death chamber full of the WORST potion effects ever ... but it worked so he's sitting at his monitor feelijng like an evil mastermind

☆ woonhak: the sweat

he is like the only one i imagined actually PLAYED minecraft growing up. he unironically enjoys watching minecraft streams too LMAO much like jaehyun, i think woonhak goes straight to mining in survival. except rather than /just/ mining, he’s literally trying to beat the game 

he's usually off on his own doing something but ngl .. i bet he's a backseat gamer when he see's someone doing smth wrong. let's say he's out exploring w riwoo and he's falling SO FAR BEHIND he doesn't know how to sprint he will literally walk into his room to show him how to run

bro probably watched Ender Dragon Speedruns growing up idk i feel like he’s determined to beat the world record (he won’t, but he will definitely try) 

In the chat... xxBlockBeastxx2006 has just earned the achievement [The End?] numberonecatdad: ? 212121_: ?? 212121_: is that what i think it is myungj4e: ../?//???? ?  ??? LeeSanghyeok: wat is that LeeSanghyeok: whys the achievement purple GiantMountain: r u fr rn 212121z: LMAO tryhard alert... xxBlockBeastxx2006: yooo chill we can always respawn it dw myungj4e: HOW DARE U KILL THE ENDERDRAGON WITHOUT US myungj4e: UR FAKE AS HELL xxBlockBeastxx2006 has been banned from the server by myungj4e

woonhak doesn't talk to jaehyun for the rest of the night (he's unbanned the next day, but they force him to restart so he isn't absolutely STACKED)

taglist: @onedoornet @dongminz (ty saki for supporting me with my bonedo mc thoughts LMFAO) @gluion @icyminghao

© lionhanie 2024 ; all rights reserved!

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My Top 24 Screenshots Renders of 2024!

I was tagged by the so many lovely mutuals and creators! Thank you @elderwisp, @savagemagician3, @sikoi, @blvckentropy, @mosneakers, & @azeterna! I love yall so much!

I'm so sorry, despite my very best efforts I couldn't choose just 24, so have 30 instead 😅

Looking at all these together, I'm worried I may have plateau'd just a bit 😅 No but in reality, it's really cool to see that I've refined my style and methods over the year, starting in January and continuing it all through 2024. Seeing progress and improvement is one of my favorite things about this process, so doing these recaps is always enjoyable.

January:

Looking back, I'm still so proud of the first dancing set of renders for Ariss & Vasily, and who could forget the first Alice sighting?? I can't, look at her.

February:

February was a bit of a slow month for me but I still love how this A+tM album cover came out!

March:

March was a bit slower, but I love this set of Ariss (:

April:

April was a goood month, I'm still so in love with all three of these.

May:

MerMay was lacking for me a bit this year, but I really love how my contribution turned out (: & this spicy render of Ariss & Vasily is one of my favorites, if for no other reason than his little fang peek.

June:

June was all about Alice + the Madness! & like LEGIT? I still can't believe I made this Rolling Stone cover? I have a secret, I've tried to make another one for Alice, but nothing has or probably will ever look as good as this one so I've given up lmfaoooo

& this render of Erisande was such a labor of love. I sat down and said it'd be really quick and then spent hours editing meshes and adjusting the lighting... but then, that always happens with me and "quick" renders 😅

July:

Bit of a slow month, but I'm still so floored (& happy!) about the love Millie has gotten! This isn't even a completed render and it's one of my most well-received posts to date haha, but I can't blame anyone, look how cute she is.

August:

Ramping up into spooky season we have two of my favorite renders of all time, my "bog demon" and mothwoman! As obsessed as I am with Ariss and Vasily, it's really nice to do creative one-off renders and these were both SO FUN to do. I hope to do more in the new year too (:

September:

This iconic portrait of Ariss will always be one of my favorites (& is actually my computer's wallpaper rn, but a version updated with her 'new' tattoos), & this render of Kai could definitely be improved on (maybe in the new year...) but it was a really fun challenge! I do see flaws in it now but that's growing and learning!

October:

October was (not surprisingly) a very busy month for me! The idea for the render of Theo & Millie had been rolling around in my head since I first created them, & while the end result wasn't exactly what I was envisioning, I still really love how it turned out.

& though this set of renders for Ariss & Vasily took me FOR-FUCKING-EVER, and I see a lot of flaws even now (after trying my damnedest to have NONE), I still really love it. The end result/edit/colorway was NOT what I planned but I really fell in love with it.

November:

November, the month of ambitious scene-building, pose-making, and upping my skin shader game in a BIG way. I spent literal hours perfecting Ariss' new tattoo, and literal days building the scene for that gorgeous render of Kai.

& I'm so glad yall love that pose set! It was definitely a learning experience and a labor of love.

December:

Looking at this overview, December has been dark and spicy lmfao but I actually love it. Once again, all of these took wayyyy longer than I thought they would when I sat down to start them, but I'm genuinely in love with all three!

& that's a wrap (so far) on 2024! I'm having surgery tomorrow so not sure I'll be able to create/post anything else this year, but I have big plans for 2025! So stay tuned (:

I'm tagginggggggg @kuroashims, @a-m-pyra. @acidheaddd, @gothoffspring, @pralinesims, @thebramblewood, @moonfromearth, @nepotisim, & YOU, I want to see all your creations!

(There were a LOT more creators I wanted to tag but I saw yall have already done this!)

[flamboyant-king]

Time for another King Ramble!

I need to be more, idk, proud of the things I do. Give myself more credit for the things I accomplish, despite NEVER completing anything. So, here I go--

I like my comic, despite it just starting ("starting," story-wise it has barely begun, but bro, it's almost a year since I first started. I've taken so many breaks that I am not go--positive, I have to be positive). It's a simple story, no giant world building or a multitude of characters I need to create depth for. It's a simple story on growth, characterization, and healing. Building a connection with other people and doing everything you can to improve as a person. Setting boundaries yet also going with the flow. Just a story about living life and making it the best possible. It doesn't have the most drama, the most action, the most exciting moments, but it's just life. It's cozy, its uncomfortable, it has its moments.

I'm happy with how long I stuck to it. I usually give up within a month, but look, I stuck it out a whole SIX months. And I learned quite a bit, by asking questions to other creators, but also by just pushing myself to learn a bit. Forcing perspectives, effects, and trying out new brushes. I'm even asking for help, I never ask for help. That's a fucking huge improvement. What kind of stinks is I took on this project in the middle of me trying to fix myself as a person, getting therapy and various diagnoses and whatnot. I thought creating a comic would help me improve, but there are other issues that adding more stress on won't fix.

But it's freaking cool. I've got hundreds of folks who like what I have so far. I don't want to disappoint them by making them wait longer, but this is my story I want to tell. It will be told, one way or other, and it's gonna be perfect because it's going to be MINE. I mustn't be so scared of trying or failing, I just need to DO. I'm failing already if I don't try. I won't fail if I'm TRYING. I just need to DO IT.

COME ON KING

GET UP

AND DON'T BE AFRAID

JUST WORK ON IT

JUST DRAW

JUST HAVE FUN BRO

(My mind is kind of a bungled mess right now thanks to all my health concerns. Stuff with insurance, biopsies, tests, and my weight. Agh lots on my mind. Getting off topic oogh agh I'm at work rn and it feels nice to type on this crusty ass keyboard haha)

Thinking about winning that webtoon contest. or even just placing in the genre categories puts a smile on my face. Just thinking that something I made is worth money makes me smile. Like someone buying a commission or ordering something off my etsy. It makes me smile. My comic isn't the most polished, most consistent, or most intriguing, but it has so much heart to it. Not to say the other THOUSANDS of entries don't have heart, but knowing the stuff I've been going through, I know I put my heart into it. There is so much turmoil surrounding it. So much stress. So much struggle put into it. Personal, mental struggles. I know folks are in it for the prizes, the contracts, the notoriety. I'm in it for the HOPES of awakening my passion to make art again.

It's been gone for the last few months. All these MINOR, literally minor, like its not cancer, im not dying, HEALTH problems really taking their toll on my psyche. Eating at my motivation and my focus. I will cherish the pages I already made for the comic, but I super-di-duper want to make more pages. But there is something there blocking my ability to just DO IT. I want to so bad, but my body refuses.

If you're curious, my health issues are like a bunch of small things, like teeth fillings, sleep apnea, i got a fuckin lump in my boob, they want to test me for autism, ive gained so much weight thanks to my bipolar medication, they DONT BELIEVE i have adhd because i dont show SYMPTOMS when i TALK to them. It's a focus thing bro, what you want me to focus on? your luscious lips?? i want to draw bro and i cant do it??? i want to finish projects but i cant bring myself to do it because i cant find the right background noise?? or i havent SPICED up my energy gauge to get that momentum rolling??

speaking of unfinished projects, how's that LING PICREW going KING!? Well, I was able to finish drawing/coloring all the hair options. But its uploading the 2000+ files onto picrew is too much tedium for me. IT WOULDNT BE, IF I HAD THE RIGHT BACKGROUND NOISE!!!???????? It would have been so much easier if i uploaded the files in proper labelled format and sorted them differently into folders, but noooooooooo, that's too confusing. AND IT IS FOR ME BECAUSE THERE'S ADHD IN MY BRAIN

BUT APPARENTLY THATS NOT SO!?!?!??!?!?!

I am proud of myself for the things I did do before, like the uquiz, the toyhouse profiles i was able to finish, the visual novel that GOT NUKED FROM THE FACE OF THE INTERNET, the UI for projects I did in university, the game demos I had a hand in making, the 3D model of a beach I did, I graduated high school with cum laude, I was offered a half-ride scholarship to the art college I wanted to go to, I got a few art scholarships despite it all, got a couple associate's degrees, I got my bachelor's degree in compsci with a minor in finearts, I'm even proud of getting fanart of characters I made.

Seems like a steep difference in the things I'm proud of, but my perception of success and achievements have been distorted by high expectations and my POSSIBLE AUTISM. I remember telling my english/composition professor in community college how I didn't feel proud of graduating high school. I forgot what he said, but he said he can see how bleak my outlook on life was.

Idk how a therapist could help me fix that. I want to be proud of things, but I'm proud of things people arent proud of me for. I'm proud to finish a painting I spent 80 hours on, but I don't care that I barely scraped by to get a degree I didn't want in the first place. HMMM MAKES YOU THINK

What's done is done. The damage is all done. Now I need to fix how I view the world and myself. I tried a year of therapy but see no difference on my brain chemistry. I do, however, have new ways of coping, such as going on a walk, playing with legos, time to myself, hanging with friends, and whatnot. So that's something. A lot of money spent, but who gives a shit. When I'm dead what am I gonna do with that money?

Oop, work is almost done in 6 minutes. If you actually read this, leave a comment that says "hehoo"

[midnight---hollow]

Im probably gonna go into more detail on this in the future but its been tisming in my mind and i cant draw rn cus im waiting for my new drawing tablet so imma just drop this know and maybe sketch some cute designs when i can

So ive been think of after nrc cus i saw abunch of cute fanart of azul and floyd (weirdly not much of jade) and i started thinking of what my interpretation of after nrc would be and here are my thoughts

This includes abunch if my own headcanons but i try to stay close to the actual game and my hcs are based off of ingame quotes and implications

Jade 100% is gonna be the twin to take over the family business. I think jade and floyd would have equal power but floyds not gonna help unless he feels like it leading jade to do most of the work. Im my version of the coral sea the leech family owns the largest territory in the deep sea area so most days would be doing daily care for it and bossing people. I do think he would work extremely close to azul but that will be talked apon in azuls bit

Floyd is floyd. He does what he wants and goes where he wants. He helps jade then he gets bored and annoys azul. He disappears for a week and hes traveled the world in that time span and learned how to do the cha cha slide. He is literally floyd he can do and be whatever he wants though usually thats around azul cus azul is azul

I love mafia aus with octivenelle they are so good so yummy i eat that shit up, but in trying to keep this more ingame logical based and not completely biased (its still heavily biased) i dont think after book 3 azul would make a mafia. There is a quiet but still present shift in how azul handles business before and after book 3. We literally see him tear his own contracts in glomas and while yes he is very stingy and smart and conniving, he is not like how he once was.

This might be silly but its my favorite idea and makes me giggle and kick me feet alot. I like the idea of azul just buying an island and making his own tourism town from the ground up. There is a mostro lounge x his moms restaurant collab there, a classic tourism dock, a club owned by the leech family, and those cool shop towns. I imagine there would be shady back deals (hed build it in the leech family’s territory) but i think the general idea of it is more genuine with a bonus of fish mafia black market if it should so be. Idk i like the idea of him making something that ties humanity (the thing he clings to since its probably still a bitch hard for him to truly be comfortable in his mer form) with his merside (something he loves but was ruined for him because of the bullying). Maybe its cheesy but i really like the idea of it

Like i said the island would be build in the leech territory. I dont think they are gonna split up, i dont think im being delusional because i hold them all close to heart no i think they are all oblivious liars, they can not fool me with the “well drop him so fast” shit if that was the case they would have dropped him when he overblotted or threw his tantrum or during his dream. The twins are not the type of people to give three chances to someone azul is just built different in their eyes and i think they would still stew and plan together cus you know azul cares for them and wants them to stay. You heard the “floyd jade! You came back to me” these are some of the only people to give him a chance and show him affection (even if they 100% made him worse) they are sticking together.

In my other post i mentioned how i think the leech family business would be about giving into your desires based on how the twins both act, i think they would run a casino and or club on the island. Its a way to siphon money in their pockets, pour unfortunate souls who just need a bit more money to azul (who would still do contracts obviously just not as crazily impossible to win against as before) and entertainment for them. I think a successful tourist island would kinda be like a flex on the other territories because not that many have proper human connections. Its a power boost and the start of potential more leech family properties in the future if it takes off well.

Bonus round is my oc veeyuu (im prob changing the name but it makes me laugh which is why i havent yet). They would continue to stay by azuls side. Even with the contract being destroyed back in book three and veeyuus debt to the ashengrottos being paid off, they wouldnt want to leave him. I think they would work on the island with the more brighter peaceful side of things, helping shop owners, bringing in tourists, maybe even making their own crafts and pastries to sell though they would be bad at the money aspect of owning a business. They give azul all of the information he needs from around the island and doesnt mind getting their hands dirty again but i think veeyuu enjoys finally being at peace

These are just my thoughts from today cus it’s become my obsession immediately. I need to rework it and rethink it and make sure its accurate but thats my take and i want to draw them how I think they would look in 10 years to cus it makes me happy and i think jade would go a bit more punk and vee would have a cute hat and floyd would have tattoos and azul would have a more peaceful face. No more tightened eyebrows (he has them when floyd comes back from his trips)

[munamarvel14]

Goi to sleep rn (10.52 pm for me) but what do yoe thunk makes a good story? A good plot?

I want to make one but i cant :'[

I uusually do js short stories and poetey

Hey sorry for the late reply!

I don't think there's such a thing as a good story or even a bad one. A bad story is when an idea, no matter how cool it is, is poorly written or just didn't have that affect on you to like it. A good story is when the blood, sweat and passion into coming up, developing and writing an idea. It doesn't matter if a majority likes or dislikes a story, that's doesn't make a book good or bad, though it is definitely a sign. Hunger Games is considered one of the best dystopian books written but I don't like it, so there's that.

It all depends on personal preference (and by that I mean YOUR preference since it's not good to write what's 'trendy' or what other people want to read) but I tend to like more stories that are character driven. Characters that I relate to or root for or love to hate, either way. There are character driven stories, plot heavy or lore (setting). Like said before, character driven stories focus on characters, like Percy Jackson. Plot heavy focuses on plot and how characters play their roles in a way, the best example I can think of is Alex Rider. Lore heavy more focuses on world building like all those classic high fantasy books like Lord of the Rings or something.

Or you can do all three, like Harry Potter, though it's more of a mix of character driven and setting based.

Again, it all depends on personal preference. Don't focus on what makes a story 'good'. If you have any idea, write them down. Your favorite ones, work on them. If you do get a good one to work on, try to not share too much about it. Whenever I tell someone all about my story, it halts me from adding more changes cuz I think it has already been told. One of my moots made fan art for my show and I felt seriously guilty because I had made so many changes to it.

All in all, don't focus on what's good. Focus on what you like and work on it.

(Bear in mind that though I've been writing for a while but I'm still young and learning so take this advice with a grain of salt. Every writer is different!)

[yellowhollyhock]

I was thinking since Donny likes robots what if he joined a secret underground robot fighting club Raph is the first to noticed Donny is always tired so one night he follows him. Does Raph try to stop him or join in that’s up to you. lol

ooh fun scenario! hmm I think any Raph would notice a brother acting odd and follow except maybe 87 (because they'd all three follow together), but which Donatellos would join a robot fight club

2012 I can see this for sure, and in that case Raph's reaction is most likely 'this is stupid, I can't believe you're losing sleep over this, you're cringe come home and btw your robot sucks.' But then maybe the robot wins and Donnie persuades him the money is worth it? Or loses badly and Raph sees his brother sad and completely changes his tune. Or this h. hh. happens during. mutant apocalypse and. Well that's a bit much to wrap my head around rn fjshajdjaj

2003 I don't really see Donny doing this? He seems to favor mech suits more than remote control robots compared to other Donatellos, and maybe that's why I can't picture this because he couldn't go wear it and fight himself, and I don't see him purposely sending someone else (not even Casey ahsgah). Unless it happens in the future but given the prevalent issue of robots rights in fast forward and the fact that he's busy with fixing the time window, probably not. In general Donny is not the turtle to go out looking for a fight, very adventurous yes but confrontational, no not really. Actually this is a plot I'd see more with Angel! Maybe still a bit of a character stretch but I could see it. Which means Casey would be the one to notice and go to Raph for help, and Donny would be tagging along because obviously he wants to see those robots and steal any parts that get knocked off in the fights. And that's very funny to imagine because Raph will have to be the responsible one herding those three like cats just trying to get through the contest and back home safely. I'm sure he'd enjoy himself too, though, he likes watching fights and all the 03 turtles know enough mechanics to be at least a bit interested

rise - I mean this is the episode where Shelldon sneaks off to join the PDs team on a robot fight. Already canonically Donnie is against it and Raph isn't in that episode iirc. Would be fun to see his and Leo's reaction to the story though!

Next Mutation - now see what would happen is, Donnie builds a cool fighter robot, Raph and Mikey get the idea to enter it into some kind of competition they happen to have just heard about, Splinter says Absolutely Not, and then they do it. Probably lose for the sake of learning a lesson by the end of the episode. Or they win but can't get the prize because of being turtles? Or something

2007 - maybe? for moneys? if Raph found out I think he'd be very much on on board, but it depends how the conversation goes-- wait no I know he's Nightwatcher when he finds it. Goes to crash the party because it's an illegal thing and a place where he's likely to find criminals, interrupts a fight Donnie was winning, finds the broken pieces at the lair later and realizes he broke Donnie's bot. But he can't say anything because no one's supposed to know he's the Nightwatcher. And part of him is definitely like 'why is he wasting time with this random stuff instead of fighting crime' and another part of him is like 'ok cool good so Donnie and Mikey do have lives outside of the lair and moping that Leo is gone.' Maybe he'd offer to help with the robot but at that point Donnie (who knows he's the Nightwatcher) is like 'oh no that was just a stupid side project trying to earn some extra cash, dumb idea waste of money I should just stay focused on work' and Raph. Hates that

I don't feel like I know a lot about Mutant Mayhem yet, but this is definitely something I could see them bonding over! And like with 12 I feel like it would start with 'ok my weird little brother and his freaky anime hobbies' but soon turn into 'ROBOT FIGHT ROBOT FIGHT GO DONNIE GO.' Which is funny, I wouldn't have said 12 and mm Raphs were generally that similar

Also. tmnt az turtles this absolutely would happen. Except Raph would catch Donnie sneaking out to just watch the robot fights and then persuade him to join and they'd build their fighter bot together

that's what comes to mind atm. Very fun thought, thanks for sharing!

[midnight1nk]

Hi Ink!! I’m newer to the SMG4 fandom (less than a year) but man when I saw that you’re a theorist I’d (first of all) want to be your friend, tell you about my idea that the 2025 arc is going to be centering around Tari and Meggy as Puzzles undermines the Silence of the Cats; That, and my idea because Mr. Puzzles has so many plushies and popularity— that he’s going to get his own asset!! (knowing he’s the one who caused the old castle to get destroyed)

His own Puzzlevision Studio— it’d make sense won’t it!! Having his dimensionally sized set pieces for his grand adventures or something. I also imagine that maybe he’ll make Goomba Puzzles real— Blue Doofus’s AU, since it was in one of the episodes before to replace Leggy.

My third theory is that Puzzles will use his abilities more that I imagine he’d use from his songs, duplicating himself, changing his voice, and of course the brainwashing/puppet strings/simulations. Tying that— it’ll be a Tari centered arc (Maybe they’ll try to continue the western spaghetti feel and choose someone like Meggy’s rival the blue haired inkling— I havent watched that arc but I know her and Desti were important)

Makes me wonder what world Desti would want, her vengeance against Meggy and the smg4 crew. (My favorite characters rn are Shroomy and Mr. Puzzles, Luigi and Tari)

This is a long post but— last thing— I’m one of the face creators for JustSomeDrone’s modded pack!! I’ve made faces such as Hypnosis 2 and 3! (The third one being a newer one I call [Side eye, this is what you picked? Judging you.]

Creator of a recent AU called Daydreamer Puzzles ☁️📺⭐️

Hello and welcome to my mind palace ^^

Yep, local theorist here, and I would love to hear you out on the theories you've got. Let's start with the first one about Meggy and Tari, shall we? I'm assuming that you mean the WOTFI 2025 arc, unless I'm completely wrong then please do correct me on that. It would be cool to have another arc with Meggy and Tari in the spotlight again, though I would throw in Mario in there just so it counts as a WOTFI (like yeah, apparently some judge for that smh). Let the girlies have another arc in general!!

Second, I think it's totally possible for Puzzles to have a whole "building" asset. After all, the mystery of the Showgrounds listing on Zillow is still ongoing and the fact that Puzzles was the one behind it, it has to mean something. As I always said, everything's going to come back full circle and it only makes sense that, if 4 had his Castle on the property Puzzles was involved with, then Puzzles is going to have his asset. Besides that, the previous instances had Puzzles hiding out in the woods/abandoned office building. This is the final stage (ngl it would be a good location for Puzzlevision Plus).

Third, Puzzles would definitely go all out with his abilities; there's simply so much potential in it. I mean, how can they not? It would raise the stakes for than ever for future stuff. And I would absolutely LOVE a Tari-centered arc, and I do believe I'm not the only one. Anyway, while I do want to say more, I don't want to accidentally spoil something you don't want to learn about rn, so totally recommend watching the arc first!!

Nice list of favorite characters btw (bc I certainly can't pick a favorites out of everyone....except for 4 ofc for the people who know me hehe). Well, it's a pleasure to meet you as a Puzzles face fancreator and for sharing some of your work with me!!

thanks for the ask!

[slightly-warmer-hibiscus-tea]

I am obsessed with your painting technique, and I would probably sacrifice my first born to know how it is that you choose colors?? I love how none of your colors are “flat” or “basic”, and even though you use a variety, everything is so cohesive.

HELLO THANK YOU SM! no need for the sacrifice tho! I’m on a limited baby consumption diet rn😮‍💨

I’ll be honest I spent all this morning trying to figure out how to explain, other then “Oh, I spent a year scrolling through Pinterest consuming as much art as possible till it clicked!” Because for obvious reasons that’s not that helpful, but at the same time I have no idea how to explain what exactly “clicked” … I swear I wasn’t built for teaching (unfortunate because I want to share!!) but I’ll try and describe the process as best as I can!

The quickest run down is, it’s all about values and “the mood” ... Kinda…???

I work a lot in B&W to help memorize where most of my values need to go. The light vs darks, and what complements that.. easiest thing I can do is show-

This as an example of the process…

Getting a feel for how you want to balance your flat colors so that once you lay down your shadows and lighting, you’re just going to color pick the rest by eye to go in for the details. That way, everything is still in your set values while still building the shapes and form coherently. In practice it should give you results like this-

A self portrait to use as in example 😌

Once you have your set values you can feel free to change up the color as long as it’s in the same hue as your values. Color relativity plays a silent but important part in this, but I don’t think I’m the right person to explain that… my only tip is, if in doubt trust grey... most the time it’s correct.

Another thing is about what happens when picking your colors… again, not the best to describe this but what I find that helps is going in an arch, that we shall call “The Round About” way-

When I’m not color picking by eye, I use this method. Your kinda just going in an arch from whatever base color you have.

Star of the arch - Shadow

Middle - Base

End of the arch - Lighting

Is good for starting out in my opinion. Doesn’t really matter the direction, just make sure you’re our picking from the curve.

Last thing I think I do is about “the mood” … a lot of the time I tend to make the shadows lighter or just grey. I feel like this contrasts with more vibrant colors, and also works as a cooling effect. It’s something I do absentmindedly now but I noticed this detail a lot in works I admire. It really boils down to slowly developing an eye for color as you go. It’s a slow process, but pays off well. Always learn rules so you can find your own ways to break them! Stack and layer! And don’t be afraid to get messy with your colors! There are a lot of great tutorials on YouTube that can explain better then me though lol… but I hope that made sense!

[alien-til-i-stage]

TBH ID LVOE TO SEE U. LIKE. DO A FULL ANALYSIS ON ROUND 3 FOR IVAN?? if not thats okay ur js so cool bro...

AHHH I LOVE THIS QUESTION ROUND 3 IS ONE OF TOP FAVORITES RIFHT BEHIND EOUND 6

and even better yet I already did a pretty in depth analysis that i will break down for you rn. I wont analyze the song this post but if you want id be willing to in a later post heheh

(Ok so, this wouldve been done like yesterday but when i finished this analysis i forgot to save it and went to do smth else and when i came back IT WAS ALL GONE soooo there thats…..)

Round three starts off with Ivan and an unnamed character going on stage, from this episode we can see Ivan’s character being displayed throughout the song.

Some things that are displayed clearly is Ivan’s love for Till and his lack of rebellious spirit. However even this has layers of complexity I think needs to be explored.

Above, we see Ivan hanging off the building by an alien, while the other kids walking away or turning their backs to them. While he hangs off the cliff he looks up at the sky, staring at the stars instead of the alien himself. Next we see a closeup of his face as a shadow passes over him, however the stars still reflecting in his eyes.

Because it seems like Ivan is the only kid being hung off the building, we can assume this is because he did something that the aliens considered wrong. Perhaps either disobeying them aggressively or just not listening, this results in him being punished.

We can also see the other kids standing away from Ivan, almost as if trying to seperate themselves and turning their backs to him. Perhaps out of the guilt that they cannot help him.

This all leads Ivan to the lesson he learns this day. Rebellion will get him punished, he will be hurt if he doesn’t listen. In fact, this is the only time we see him being punished in his youth, showing how Ivan was able to escape punishment and physical abuse by listening to what the aliens wanted of him.

Another detail to point out is the way the shadow falls over his face. We see him bruised and crying, most likely to previous physical abuse we did not see, implying that this isn’t the only time he’s been punished.

I believe the shadow falling over his face is supposed to represent the mask Ivan wears his entire life. After this scene we constantly see Ivan being “perfect” and up to the alien’s standards. The shadow represents the mask he put on and the lesson he learned, in order to survive he must obey.

However he continues to look at the stars, something that is correlated with freedom to Ivan. I believe this is supposed to represent Ivan’s inner desires of freedom. How, despite putting on the mask and valuing his life over desires, he still has the want for freedom. He doesn’t want to be chained and masked his entire life, the desire is never taken out of him, despite him losing his own person by putting on the mask, the desire to be free is never lost.

After this scene, we continue onto these four shots that happen right after the other. He stands in the same position in each scene and doesn’t move unless he must do something. I believe this isn’t literal but rather metaphorical, instead representing his mask. He stands there, dull, and adapting to whatever sitaution he’s in, sitting at the table if needed, holding a trophy when he must, singing with everyone else, this scene is supposed to show how he does not do anything other then what he must.

Its hard to read him because he stands there with the same look on his face, as if his face itself is the mask as it never changes. This would also go to show how well this mask is for Ivan, how good he is at masking himself. He does not express his inner thoughts, he does not do what he wants, he does not move however he desires, instead he only does what the aliens want, shown by his unmoving stance in all of scenes above, he does not make any unnecessary moves, standing in place instead.

It can also be noted that despite the location changing in each picture, Ivan still holds the same position no matter what. I believe this is supposed to represent how, again, he believes no matter what he cannot take off his mask. In the auction, after he’s been bought, after he’s in Anakt Garden, he has banned himself from taking off the mask, continuing to be the perfect person that is demanded of him in order to survive, even if he won’t be punished for simply living in Anakt Garden, seen by Mizi and Sua. This shows how deeply the scene of him hanging off the building has impacted him, it influenced his entire life.

Right after this, we see Ivan standing alone in Anakt Garden, he is standing in the same position as always and he is alone. Next the red flowers pass by his face and Till runs past him. Till continues to chase the flowers into the dark corridor and Ivan watches, before following Till into the corridor.

This scene can perfectly describe their relationship and dynamic. Ivan, as we can, is alone and standing still. As already stated, him standing still is symbolic of his mask. Him standing alone is also symbolic of how alone Ivan truly is. Because of his mask he is unable to make those connections, as there will always be a wall seperating him from that.

However the only to get close to Ivan is Till. He brushes past him and that’s when he suddenly moves. He only looks at him at first, standing from afar, before following him. This is most likely symbolic of how the only person that was able to get the mask off of Ivan was Till. We know this because it was stated before that he seems to become immature and childish around Till, showing how it’s only around Till that he is able to remove said mask. He moves from his position and follows Till, something he never had to do, but something he chose to do. A decision that was finally his. I also think Ivan first watching Till from afar, then following is supposed to mirror how, later, Ivan watches both Till and Mizi stand against the guard dog. How he just simply watches first.

We commonly see Till with red flowers. These red flowers are representative of Till’s love and admiration for Mizi. When we see Till brushing past Ivan and chasing the flowers, not even paying attention to Ivan, this represents how Till continues to follow and chase after Mizi, ignoring the others around him, even if they are right next to him.

Till following the flowers to the corridor, ignoring the darkness of the path, is symbolic of how far he is willing to go for Mizi. It’s similar to the scene of Till rejecting Ivan and running back to Anakt Garden, despite it being the darkest route he could go. He continues to follow Mizi no matter where she is, even if it’s dangerous. And while Till follows Mizi, Ivan will follow Till. He also follows Till down the hall, similar to how, despite not having to, he goes back to Anakt Garden.

Right after this scene, we cut to a room thats assumed to be where the hallway lead them to. We see Mizi and Till in front of what looks to be a massive guard dog like alien. Ivan stands far away, where he isn’t seen as he watches on. Mizi is scared, seen by how she holds herself and stands in shock and Till looks hurt. He’s sitting on the ground as if he was just struck and Ivan continues to watch on.

As Till stands up, we see flashes of falling stars suddenly appearing while Ivan continues to watch Till, and once he fully stands up we can see as Ivan’s pupils dilate.

We can see, in later offical art, that this alien might not be a guard dog but rather a pet or companion given to Ivan. While it isn’t clear, we commonly see pictures of Ivan getting close to the alien or even in its mouth. The relationship between Ivan and this alien is unclear, in fact the entire existence of this alien is unclear. Such as, why is the alien attacking or scaring both Mizi and Till? If it’s supposed to be something related to Ivan, why is it hurting other humans?

The existence of this alien dog cannot be disputed, because this is the moment Ivan fell in love with Till. But it is curious about the entire situation. So let me try and break it down.

I mentioned before that Ivan seems to have a relationship with the guard dog, but I don’t think it’s a literal relationship. The guard dog is most likely trying to keep the kids out of something, however it is unclear what. If thats the case, then it would be strange that Ivan is friendly with this guard dog. I think, instead, Ivan sees himself in this guard dog.

He sees Till fighting, or trying to at least, against the dog. Something that *does* happen between him and Till during this point. The two of them get into fights because Ivan instigates to grab Till’s attention to him. He sees Till being hostile with this alien, something he believes Till is with him. Not to mention, this alien must be alone often. It’s job is to guard something, meaning it must be kept seperate from other aliens and humans and it must keep it up. It’s job is to keep others away. Ivan can relate to this as to him, his job is surviving, which indirectly results in him being alone. I believe the art of Ivan with the alien is not to say he has a relationship with the alien, but because he sees himself in him.

I also think that this is also symbolic of their relationship. How Ivan is there watching and observing Till, just seeing him in general, however Till does not notice him. He doesn’t look back at where Ivan is, because he doesn’t know he’s there. Instead he’s focused on whats in front of him right now. An alien and Mizi, similar to him focusing on his hatred for aliens and his love for Mizi.

I believe after Ivan sees this with Till and falls in love with him, he recreates this scene in his mind. We can see this with the scene above where Ivan looks at whats happening, instead this time he looks different. Before he looked with a curious gaze and intrigue, not too worried or emotionally invested. However now he’s shown with a gripped hand on the wall, with the wall showing obvious signs of damage due to someone gripping it repeatedly. We also see the eyes of Ivan, how it’s focused and this looking much more crazed then last time.

While this could also be literal, showing Ivan might be leading Till here and watching him, replaying the scene in reality, but I believe this is more then likely a scene he replays in his head, for multiple reasons.

Till would stop believing what Ivan says after a while, in fact its most likely that it was Mizi who got him in that corridor. Perhaps he followed her in there and got in that situation. Unless it was about Mizi, its more then likely that Till wouldn’t have even listened to anything Ivan says. I think the change in looks, like the hand gripping the wall and his eyes are supposed to represent how much he repeats this scene in his mind.

And as always, for every Ivan analysis we must talk about this scene.

We see as Ivan takes Till out of his restrains, showing him out of Anakt Garden. The two of them are shown running away from the building, getting far away from Anakt Garden. Yet, Till stops. He lets go of Ivan’s hand and stops in his tracks, suddenly he is scared and realizing that by leaving, he is leaving Mizi. Ivan is hurt as he watches Till running back to Anakt Garden, and he smiles. His smile is full of hurt but he is still smiling. We cut back to the stage where we see Ivan, now he is taking off his mask and finally showing his true feelings, the memories are making him emotional. However he quickly put the mask back on and finishes his song.

This whole scene is very literal, but it’s still worth analysizing. This goes back to the idea Till would follow Mizi anywhere. Just as he follows the red flowers down a dark corridor, he follows Mizi in Anakt Garden. This is a very confliciting for Till to do, it’s not as easy as it seems for him. In that moment when he lets go of Ivan’s hands, thats when the realiziation of everything suddenly hits him. He realizes that by leaving Anakt Garden, he is leaving Mizi. He looks up at Ivan in fear and guilt as he turns around and leaves him, not looking back. This shows that Till is aware of the weight of the decision he made. He knows what he lost, you can see him debating and struggling with this as he stands away from Ivan.

In the scene above, we can see both Ivan and Till running away together, they are holding hands and laughing together. This shows that while Till did reject Ivan and being free with him, the problem was never being with Ivan, in fact it seems he was excited for it. But the problem was leaving Mizi.

Speaking of this, we can see as the two of them are leaving, it’s important to note what they are specifically doing. Till is watching the skys, rushing forward in order to reach freedom, while Ivan watches Till, he is not looking towards the skies but focusing on Till and his reaction, this shows their priorities.

Till would’ve loved to be free, if it was with Mizi and not Ivan. Ivan would’ve loved to be with Till, even if it meant to be enslaved.

We see this pan out as Till runs back to be with Mizi. He wanted freedom, just not with Ivan. This hurts Ivan, now fully knowing his love is unrequited and as he watches Till leave him, he continues back. He is fully aware at this point that he is not loved back, and most likely will never be. But that isn’t what matters to Ivan, what matters to him is Till. He would be willing to be enslaved if it meant to be with him.

[autisticlalna]

less fun shitpost, more on the emotional side of things:

i dunno man. i think i personally am taking it super hard bc yellow was one of my favorites. like, a lot of people in the dominion fandom favored blue, but i really liked yellow and included a "i think he's neat" joke in the og version of the powerpoint (which i guess i get to write a conclusion to the sbk section of now)

the whole thing with me writing Yellow In Limbo was "nobody talks about this guy except for aces sometimes, i have a lot of emotions about him and how he died, what if he got to meet avoid". and literally while i was writing the first two chapters, when i hadnt even told anybody outside dnerds about it yet, we get the end of episode 12. the first ever canonical on-screen appearance of yellow.

(and even with a tiny snippet of crossing the rubicon eeeee ok i am still not over that. i was actually considering including that moment in the finished pmv but i had so much trouble trying to get the clip and decided it wouldnt work tonally/visually unless i reanimated it, and then my laptop died right after rendering and uploading, so. o7)

point is, i was thrilled for yellow to be here, and super into the mystery of How he got here. i dont remember if i really talked about my theories much bc they were very scattered, but ive been constantly trying to figure out What Happened To Summertime. bc the original thought i had after the reveal was that summertime was yellow's reincarnation somehow, but yellow had none of his memories and summertime seems to be completely Gone, and we still dont know why the gold farm caused it or what was the deal with the design of it (bc viking did hint the design was for a reason and related to it somehow!!)

we finally get to see a recap of the finale-that-never-was, we get the flash of "you're broken it didn't work you're broken", and then we got the book! holy fuck, the Book! volm just.. had the Book! and gave it to yellow! and egged him into trying the ritual! and like.. obviously the ritual wasn't going to work. it was never going to work, or if it did it was going to herald the death of the server. that was how it was in dominion, that was how it was here. of course olm was co-opting it for himself.

the fact that yellow doesnt get his memories back is something im undecided if im okay with or not. it wouldve been cool to at least get a hint of who dviking used to be, but mostly im stuck on trying to figure out if i think this is narratively satisfying or not. bc again, i knew the ritual was going to fail from how it was set up in both series. but i think the reason why im undecided is because dominion was going to be open-ended, and this is... very final. yellow doesn't get his memories back. blue is gone, never mentioned past yellow's recap. we dont learn anything more about the book, or how he got it. yellow has a whole-ass breakdown before being buried, and then the world is erased.

(and like, ive already talked abt how i dont like the joke abt the world being erased. those emotions are still very much present. but im trying to focus on the Rest of the ending rn)

there's this finality to it. yellow is gone. we finally got to see him after two years, and then he dies with no fanfare. book snaps shut. questions remain unanswered. there was over half a season's worth of build-up, starting from summertime's weird flashbacks, and then he's gone and that's it.

i don't know, maybe viking does intend to still do things with blue. whatever it is, it's not going to be sbk season 2 - he's confirmed a few times that it's gonna be somebody entirely new. which im excited for! i like new vikings. i like summertime. but this is an ending without an ending. its not a cliffhanger, like dominion's intended end, its not an answer to two years' worth of speculation, it is literally "rocks fall, yellow dies".

again, there is a bias here. i started writing yellow in limbo with the goal of making people care about yellow bc i only ever saw people talk about or draw blue. i found yellow, and what he represents, compelling-- dviking is a character that has always been paradoxical in nature and behavior, and examining that through the lens of his halves only works if you analyze both halves.

i just wish we'd gotten something. some kind of closure. or, at least, that yellow's final breakdown hadn't been followed up with a joke about how all of it was pointless.

[isa-ghost]

Uhhhhh maybe qphil building/terraforming things? Idk man I like boosh boosh and that's all I can think of rn lol

Ooh that's a tough one at first glance. Lemme *thinks so hard brain starts smoking*

qPhil headcanons masterlist

See, at least in the past, he wasn't so much building as he was restoring. Those weren't his builds, they were the builds of the gods. He simply fixed and added to them.

On QI however, he builds obv. He does it mostly for the enjoyment of others. Chayanne, Lullah, Missa, maybe others. He tries not to build a lot bc he doesn't want to give The Federation more of his time or effort than necessary, but those closest to him are desperate to convince him to make smth cool bc they know he's capable of it. He just doesn't wanna put his whole crowussy into a build for the Feds

He tries to think of terraforming as a painting. Blend the colors, highlights, pops of other colors for accents, make sure to keep things random and natural looking, just follow what your heart is saying. And as always, step back from the canvas to see your work at a distance.

His favorite thing to do is greenery and stone. It just comes to him the most naturally, no pun intended. Rose is of course very thrilled by this.

The boosh boosh is vocal stimming. Makes the process of collecting or placing down resources less monotonous. And the crows like it so *shrug* He boosh. At this point he doesn't even realize when he's doing it half the time.

Nothing annoys him more than building at night. Fuck off mobs he's trying to make a masterpiece here >:/

He's much easier to jumpscare while he's focused on building btw, esp terraforming (Fit & Etoiles take advantage of this often)

He prefers teaching the kids and giving them tips so they can enjoy building themselves. He does get that itch to build though, it's why he helps out with a lot of it.

Btw he can't figure out why he has that innate itch to build ;) (wiped memory go brrrr)

He's joked that if he ever actually builds smth on the island it'll be a massive dirt middle finger aimed at the nearest Fed building.

Sometimes the murder helps him with stuff :D They bring him stacks of blocks, snacks to make him take a break (it only works if they offer avocado toast), fresh tools if he doesn't have Mending, etc. They like being handy little guys trying to get a good grade in crow

When he's super invested in building, he'll pop in headphones and then Nothing can stop him. He jam, he boosh, he make big cool thing.

He used to hate interiors but building stuff for and with the kids has kinda changed that. He still thinks he's mostly shit at it but he's not bad.

He wants to learn how to build like Chayanne so badly. Chayanne can make these amazing cozy little spots that Phil for the life of him can't create quite the same way. He can terraform like a motherfucker but there's something about the way Chayanne can make such a cute place that Phil just can't get the hang of. (He is very proud of his boy)

And Lullah. God, he loves her visions. The way she too is incredibly talented with greenery and flowers. She can make the most breathtaking gardens. He loves helping her bring her ideas to life, and using his macro-scale build skills to make them larger than life.

[raeii-of-sunshine]

Infodump about Will, please?

OMG ANON U HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY U JUST MADE ME. I PROMISE U MY FIRSTBORN FOR THIS GREAT OPPORTUNITY

okok so first of all he’s a gemini (05/31/1994) which is crazy cuz i don’t think this man is capable of wearing a mask. he wears everything right on his face even if he’s not yapping about it. not very gemini of him tbh

SECOND also getting basic info out of the way he’s puerto rican and he has a lot of tattoos to pay homage to his heritage!! including the frog (a coqui) and hibiscus (amapola) tattoo on his neck, as well as i BELIEVE the aztec-style mural on his back!!!!

before he got into harder music like lamb of god, white chapel, etc, he listened to pretty tame rock like AC/DC. he actually played the guitar and the saxophone! he was in band in hs!! fun fact, his parents were NOT excited about him going from his “normal person music” to deathcore and other metal genres. one time when he was first learning how to scream (in the shower), his mom knocked on the door to ask if he was okay lmaooo. nowadays they’re all very proud of him tho!!

he has a tattoo of a goblin with his curly pink hair and gauges on one of his legs, eating ramen out of a skull bc he fuckin LOVES ramen. he’s also really big into anime and manga

he appeared several times on the youtube channel “the charismatic voice” to discuss his and other people’s vocal techniques, AS WELL AS letting them put a camera up his nose and down his throat to record him while he did all of his insane vocal techniques!! ANDDDD also did another video with them where they put needles in his neck to get an even more accurate recording of everything!! i couldn’t watch that one bc i can’t do needles ‘:D but it was probably pretty fuckin cool.

he is a really big fan of opera and is friends with one of the people from the charismatic voice named elizabeth, who is a vocal specialist and (used to be(?)) an opera singer. he made a whole video reacting to one of her very old opera performances and said that he really likes opera bc it’s like deathcore in the sense that there are SOOOO many vocal techniques used in every performance, much like the best deathcore vocalists out there !

elizabeth said in the putting-a-camera-down-his-throat video that one of the first things that she noticed about him when they met in the airport was that his hair was super animated and kinda flips around on his head like it’s got a personality of its own!!

example:: (him playing ping pong with elizabeth)

getting back into music, he’s said that he actually doesn’t listen to a ton of deathcore or metal music anymore, he’s more of an indie guy!! if he wasn’t in a deathcore band, he’d apparently be making indie music. and one of the main reasons he doesn’t listen to a lot of metal is so that any ideas for songs that he comes up with won’t be accidentally pulling from other songs so they’re more original. he also doesn’t usually try to force lyrics out of himself, he just kind of writes down things whenever he thinks of them (and it works quite well!!)

his first gig was in an old vaulted church building in new jersey (BECAUSE OF COURSE THIS MAN IF FROM NEW JERSEY) that no longer hosts gigs, and the acoustics were TERRIBLE bc of all the reverb from the vaulted ceilings. his first gig was fucking NERVE WRECKING but nowadays after the first couple of days of tour the pre-show jitters just go away??

ALSO he brings tea and an entire tea set to every venue!! and says shit like and i quote, “where am i gonna set up my tea party today?” he’s VERY serious about his vocal care! he drinks his tea, he has a bunch of fancy serums and other vocal products, and has a handheld nebulizer that he swears up and down by. <333 better self care routine than any of us out here tbh

he’s apparently always late to rehearsal lol. and he’s a cat person!! he’s literally so perfect <3

that is all that i have rn!! thank you so much anon you seriously made my fuckin day!!!!