#why cant i have normal things in my inbox and not... this???

[krypticcafe]

i <3333 your work but why do you put sm text before the fic?? feels a lil clunky idk

y... you mean the info??? the list of characters??? the warnings??? author's note- summary??????? my bad op, sorry for idk, informing people?????

[d10nsaint]

HOW YOU COMFORT THEM WHEN THEY CRY | Kdj, Yjh, Lgy, Lys x fem! reader (platonic for the minor)

request: here !

saint, stfu?!; dtop my inbox id rotting I need to write fastar

KIM DOKJA

when Kim Dokja cries, its bound to be in an isolated place late at night, so nobody can find him. he wouldnt want to worry anybody with his ‘stupid’ feelings.

The sound of sniffling awoke you, making you step out of the tent that you slept in. When you fully stepped out and looked around, you saw Dokja sitting on a log by the fire.

“…Dokja? Are you alright? Why are you still awake?”

He jolts as he notices you, and quickly wipes his eyes. He turns around at you and smiles.

“..what are you doing awake, (y/n)? Is everything alright?” He asks, his eyes red, but heavy with confusion and comfort.

“I could ask you the same thing…” You say, walking towards him. You sit on the log next to him, and he watches. He thinks of a response to satiate your curiosity, but cant come up with a good enough excuse.He sighs and looks at the fire.

“It was nothing. I was just thinking.” He says, resting his head on one of his hands.

“I mean, you can talk to me if you want. I wouldnt mind,” You say, putting your head onto his shoulder.

He smiles at you and sighs attentively. He felt so lucky to have someone to talk to.

YOO JOONGHYUK

When Yoo Joonghyuk cries, he suppresses the tears, making them drop slowly like faint rain before a storm. He tries his hardest to hold his tears back, keeping his head down so nobody can see him cry.

As you finish a monster, you look over at Joonghyuk, ready to smile at him, but then you realize something.

Hes just standing there. In the rain.

He would usually usher you to get ready to move on and fight another monster for the benefits, but he just…wasnt saying anything.

“Are you alright, Joonghyuk?” You say, walking up to him with a hand out steadily, trying to reach his shoulder.

As your fingers slowly touch his coat that was soiled by the rain, you realize his broad shoulders were shaking and he flinches, then quickly swats your hand away. You sigh, pouting, watching him turn around and mutter a quiet “m’ fine.”

“If you ever need anything, you can talk to me. We’re friends, after all. Im here for you.” You say, as you pick up your equipment and look at his back.

“..we dont have time for this.” He says, walking away, expecting for you to follow. Little did you know, he wanted to take you up on the offer.

LEE GILYOUNG

when Lee Gilyoung cries, it’s bound to be after a tough encounter with a monster, or after a nightmare. He hyperventilates—unable to breathe or focus on anything.

You deliver the final blow on a monster, out of breath. You stand there for a few seconds, trying to atleast regain some of your stamina. It was a close fight.

You turn around to check on your crew, firstly checking on the youngest, Lee Gilyoung.

When you reach him, you quickly realize the little boy was shaking.

“Gilyoung?! Are you alright?” You say as you go down on your knees and look up at the boy. His eyes were red and his shoulders shook, with a quivering lip.

He tries to respond, but his words come out in hiccups, and he takes sullen breaths of air as he tries to breathe.

“slow down, its okay,” you say, rubbing his shoulders, trying to calm him down. You take a water out of your inventory, then look at him.

His breath slows down back to normal, and he drinks some of the water, as his lips stop quivering.

“..i think im feeling better now.” He says, looking up at you. His eyes were puffy and he sniffled. He looked downwards, ashamed.

You gave him a hug.

“Im so glad you’re alright, Gilyoung.” You say, as you rub his back. He reluctantly hugs you back, but then quickly melts into the hug.

“Thank you, Unnie.”

LEE HYUNSUNG

Lee Hyunsung’s tears are big droplets, flowing from his puppy eyes. His eyes get extremely watery, and he sniffles a lot when he cries.

After a tough day, Lee Hyunsung comes home to you and sulks, his big eyes watery and his mouth pouty.

You drag him to the bed, and he tells you about his day, all while sniffing. When he gets to the worst part of his day, he fully breaks down in your arms. You stroke his hair, telling him that everything is going to be okay.

As he slowly stops sobbing, he immediately apologizes—he says that “no man should cry to his wife,” and that “he should be comforting you, not the other way around”.

His eyes are red and puffy, and his lips are pouting as he looks down as if he’s disappointed in himself. You put a hand on his cheek and kiss it.

“Honey, it’s alright. There’s no reason to feel this way,” You say, smiling at him. “I’ll comfort you, and you’ll comfort me. Simple.” He smiles down at you, then wraps his arms around you, nuzzling into your chest as you two lay down.

“How did I get so lucky…?”

[todayisdeadinside]

Hii, I just thought I would share my opinion on all this closeting stuff. Maybe it’s not even accurate anymore because I just read a post from few days ago and I’m too lazy read all the post since that. I’m not even like a Larry fan or whatever, so it’s probably doesn’t even make sense that I’m saying something (I definitely think they had something going on when they were younger tho). Anyway, I think that people definitely don’t choose to stay closeted, but sometimes they are just not ready to open up yet. Like, like Lou said, love is only for the brave. They are both famous and when they would come out it would definitely like break the internet. Especially with what is going on now in the us. There are still so many people against the lgbt community (which is terrible btw) and I think they both just want privacy. Just imagine they would like come out and all the larries would go crazy. Also, I’m not even sure if Zara and Lou are stunt. I kinda think they look cute together. Also, English is not my first language so this might be totally weird. Next I’m just gonna point out that I love James cordon and Harry’s friendship. And personally hate kid harpoon. Hope this didn’t sound disrespectful or anything, just saying my opinion. And like I said, I just read a few days old post, so this might be already spoken about.

Have a great day<3 (or night in my time zone)

hi, i have some thoughts and since you sent this to my inbox im gonna explain my point of view.

when i, and many other queer people, say closeting isnt a choice, what that means is that there is never a situation in which closeting is a genuine decision somebody makes for intrinsic reasons. its always external- be it for safety, or out of fear, or because of politics in someone's area, or family pressure, ect. while they may make the literal "choice" to not come out, its not a REAL choice. the illusion of choice is either stay closeted, or put yourself in a difficult and very often unsafe position.

if the world wasnt so homophobic right now, coming out wouldnt even be a thing. thered be no such thing as closeting, because a man dating a man would be seen as normal. you dont ever see people keeping their heterosexuality or cisgenderness a secret, do you? its normal, which is why they dont have to "come out" or "stay closeted," they have the luxury to simply exist as they are. until the world reaches that point for queer people, closeting will exist, and it will never be a real choice.

a choice made to keep oneself safe is a coerced decision, not one made of organic intrinsinc intent. for example: if youre being chased by a dog and you start to run, you didnt "choose to run." you were forced to, for your safety. does that all make sense?

i cant expect to change your mind on louis and zara being "cute together" because thats an issue of you not seeing whats in front of you. louis is visibly uncomfortable in every single photo with zara, i feel like thats clear as day.

i dont like james corden as a person but i dont know enough about him to comment further. i agree with you wholeheartedly on hating kid harpoon- he literally groped harry at the 2023 grammys, and far too many people have moved on from that for some reason.

anyway, i really appreciate that you read and enjoy my blog (i saw your other ask!) and im glad you felt comfortable telling me your opinions even if we dont necessarily agree. i think its good to be able to have conversations with people who have opposing viewpoints, on anything. i hope you have a good day/night too!

[notiddygothgf]

OKAAAAY, finally, I have a moment to discuss.

(Although, I have a college exam tomorrow, so....)

This chapter made me simultaneously fall more in love with Aki, yet hate him even more at the same time.

The fact that he's so aware of his emotional unavailability was somewhat surprising to me. I didn't expect him to be that self-aware.

Realistically, they're in love, your honor.

The thing is, though, I feel like they BOTH know it, you know?

I don't think Aki's in a stage of "not knowing", he's in DENIAL. Lord knows sleepy Aki had me swooning.

I do enjoy the way that despite their dynamic, Aki kind of just let her yell at him and get her feelings out. He's a dominant, a lifestyle one (from what I've gathered), however, he doesn't exude control just because he has it or because it's what he prefers. He does it with her interests and care for her in mind.

I truly think that area is where BDSM as a whole receives it's negative reputation. A Dom/Sub relationship was never meant to be about controlling every aspect of someone's life just because you can. It's about trust and feeling comfortable with your partner.

Expressing your feelings, positive OR negative, isn't the "attitude" some people in the BDSM community think it is. I personally think that ideology is much too normalized, and goes against the very principles of BDSM.

In truth, I love the tension. (although, the unresolved sexual tension in the last chapter was thick enough to slice) It's just going to make it that much better when Aki gets over himself and just ADMITS IT.

Aki's getting bolder though, and I can appreciate that. He's not a situationship villain. (lord knows I've had my run-ins)

I want to leave this little tangent off by saying that this story has effectively healed me from my own shitty situationships, it feels so good to be able to relate and feel seen. (Even though Aki's situationship behavior beats the shit I deal with by a mile. It's okay, he can do whatever he wants. He's gorgeous.)

I'll be looking forward to the next chapter. (What I mean is i need it yesterday). SOOOOOO glad to have you back from the grasps of finals.

With love,

-Bae

omg i had so much fun responding to this one lol. pardon the long post! i wanted to address as many of your points as i could because you put sm time into it, and i want to reciprocate! i love love LOVE the long inboxes! ill talk about my works for hours lol.

IM SO LATE! good luck on your exam dearest, you’ll ace that shit.

Honestly i love to hate aki too, BUT I HATE THAT I CANT STAY MAD AT HIM IN THIS FANFIC UGHHHHHHHH

Yes, aki may be a toxic guy but that doesnt mean he isn’t very self aware about it! one of the things i liked about akis character going into this story is that he’s very in tune with his emotions. he knows he’s a complete trainwreck and THATS why he was so adamant about keeping y/n at bay. but, alas, what is y/n in my fanfics if not a little stupid at times. she doesnt care! she swears she can change him! can she??? (stay tuned ;)) (btw i do not condone this irl, if you’re thinking you can change your current situationship bc of this story, pls stop and abandon ship x)

I will not confirm or deny their feelings towards eachother, but there’s definitely something they both need to realize lol. 

DENIAL IS A RIVER IN EGYPT and they are both drowning in it. honestly i wish i could just push their heads together and make them smooch it out ( i totally can, but then that would take away the fun “Slow burn” aspect. i hope you all do know i was talking about an EMOTIONAL slow burn, obv not a sexual one lol (stares extra hard at chapter 5).

Sleepy aki is honestly my favorite genre of man. I personally wanted to illustrate the fact that, despite what he may say about not wanting commitment, he genuinely does feel very safe with her — in a way he hasn’t with anyone else. i think that this is the first time anyone’s ever seen through his armor, and he’s a little scared. i mean, hell, he lived his entire life raising himself.

Yes, aki took the verbal beating. Why? Because, deep down, he knows he’s a piece of shit lol. he hates the fact that he cannot be a good man (at least, he thinks he cants), so instead of hurting you, his idea is… well, also hurting you, but he can’t see that yet. it’s not about controlling her. he knows she’s a person with free will, hell he probably even WANTS her to leave and make it easier for him to walk away, but… this is a notiddygothgf fanfic after all. 

Yes, aki truly does care for the reader -- more than I think he knows what to do with. How much? Well, stay tuned.

i agree, i think that just because a character who plays the role of submissive might lash out at times, that doesn’t mean that it’s unjustified. aki knows that she’s coming from a place of care, and that’s why he’s content to listen to her rant. he knows shes right.

god, i have something great planned with the whole aki-admitting-it thing. Will he admit it? can’t confirm. what i can tell you is that it is going to be juicy.

I think that while aki has his shortcomings, he’s not a bad man (in spite of what he might think) and hes certainly not irredeemable. The question is simply — will he reedem himself?

As always, thank you for such an in depth analysis of my story! Omg it makes me feel so loved. I’m so glad to be back! I hope you love the direction i take the story in as much as i do, but again, your feedback helps me shape how i want it to go!!!!

for the record, though… aki’s pretty privilege is a bitch. cant stay mad at him for too long lol.

LOVE ALWAYS, LEO x

[smileymoth]

sorry to be insane in your inbox but. erm. im also insane abt tommy and schlatt lol im squishing them in my mind. autistic style :3 my sillies forever

LETS BE INSANE ABT THEM. TOGETHER. (I accidentally end up psychoanalyizing schlatt im so sorry so half of this is under cut now)

I see them and i start flapping my hands and physically shaking from joy and then youre gona tell me they also spend time together sometimes. Auqhquuquwhnjejwene

I find both of them so interesting like their personalities r so. Intriguing to me?!?!?!. Tommy is just a very charismatic and lovely bloke like how can you hate him. look at him. Hes full of joy and whimsy and love for the world and other people and hes doing what hes passionate about . Hes a little offputting and strange and makes uou wonder what the fuck is wrong with him but thats probably the got-famous-at-16 effect. But i think hes got a very kind heart . I mean bro he befriends squirrels. Okay disney princess!!!!!!!!! If you hate tommyinnit youre fundementally wrong. I also cant imagine the joy tommy must be experiencing rn touring w all these people like. He has the scripts right. Like yk he probably tweaks them for the people and very likely cowrites it with them but the sheer ego you could get from telling a person that you see as your equal or sb even higher than you are what to do .... insane .

And then Schlatts like a whole bucket of worms for me bc what the FUCK are you . Hes great at putting up a front about himself and he loooves roleplay and existing for the running bit (mhch like Tommy. Shocker. The guy who was obsessed w someone has similar behaviours to that person ?!?!?! Woawww do we need to call somebody) and i think he shld tone the incel bit down and grow a spine but i think hes just a very repressed individual as most cishet men so he doesnt know what to do with all that emotional discomfort regarding his fanbase or how to act normal infront of ppl withot coming off as weak. (Esp if he really is religious like he keeps mentining. Holy mother of repressed yk. But again it could be a bit. I cant claim anyrhing for or against him with the wya he presents himself. Its so confusing and uncertain its quite lovely. Keep them guessing) he sometimes genuinely seems so uninterested and dead inside but its probably just his personality. Just appearing uninterested and depressed despite claiming hes never been depressed. Hes seemingly a lovely bloke if you look under the 10 layers of irony but you do start to wonder whar his values are and *why* he does the things he does sometimes. Like maybe its the copium and i dont wanna admit that my favourite white boy is a weirdo but whwueqjwjdjwhdhjw. I think he should do more roleplay and skits. The hotel video was fucking insane if you discount the constant beating of a pregnant man because what was that about. But like hes got a knack for video and its so gorgeous to see .i personally fucking SUCK at video editing so whenever i see a nciely done video im like oooougghhhhhg make a 100 more. I cant wait for whatever vlog hes making rn with ted n tucker .

I love analysing people i think this is why i get attached to people who dont have the cleanest record bc im just so fascinated by how their brains works and how they think and how they tend to change over the years

Sorry for the schlatt psychoanalysis it will happen again

[t4tails]

i know its an older post but irt that incest post sometimes i feel like ppl just dont and cannot get it until it happens to them. i couldnt even comprehend it as a possibility until i was 14 staying at my uncles house for a while and i still cant comprehend it as a thing that happened to me sometimes. i think its bc ppl feel security with their families in that sense— even if theyre abused in other ways, its like, “well, i know them and they’d still never do THAT.”

perhaps its bc we are still not educated about the dangers of incest as children. ever. we are taught stranger danger. we’re taught what inappropriate touch is. and when we’re a little older we’re taught to recognize grooming behaviors, but we’re never taught about what its like when it comes from family members— and what’s more we’re taught to assume the best from family members, to think of them as the exception to inappropriate touch or behaviors, when they DO make us uncomfortable instead of recognizing those behaviors as red flags. then one day it becomes too late, like it did with me. and maybe that contributes to the idea that its a non-possibility in some people, that it only happens in fiction.

the most i’ve ever seen presented to children as a red flag irt incest is the idea of a mother’s boyfriend or a stepparent acting inappropriately, but that still comes from the angle of “you havent known them for as long so this means they could also be a predator.”

we still don’t fully address what the commonly cited statistic “most sexual abuse comes from someone the survivor knows” MEANS. its not just friends. not just partners. its your family, too. its people you’ve known all your life.

but ultimately— i’m finally making my point i promise— the reason we dont address those things is because the idea that children should be able to turn to their community when their family fails them is too controversial, and not just among families that support incestuous abuse. “if my child knows they can confide in a teacher/neighbor about anything, they might become rebellious. god forbid somebody other than me contributes to my child’s development!”

people prefer the heightened possibility of their child being subjected to incestuous abuse over their child having any semblance of autonomy.

sorry for the long ask i’d usually post this to my blog but this is not something i’d be okay publicly speaking about.

hi sorry this took a bit to answer that post IS from a while ago and i wasnt sure how to respond, because i have fortunately never experienced that type of abuse myself and dont have much to add beyond agreement. i didnt want to just leave this in my inbox though since its clear you put a lot of thought into it.

i think a lot of the opportunities for incestuous abuse stem from the traditional family structure not actually prioritizing protection or comfort, but control that feels threatened every time somebody tries to bring it up. nobody wants to actually prevent it because that would mean acknowledging family as a potential threat, as well as breaking down the ways the controlling of sex and ownership by said family is already normalized in culture (ex. fathers vigorously defending their daughters virginity, etc). this is all why imo discussions on this should go hand in hand with childrens rights and body autonomy, but even in these discussions its rare to see it actually brought up

its really something that needs to be talked about more, but people struggle to see past "alabama" jokes and fauxcest porn

[pr0blematic-h0unds]

A positive vent for once, lmao :3

I think finally fully blocking my ex and trying to actually remove him from my life the best I can was actually a really good call for myself.

Even if it hurts to have lost such a close friend, in the end I feel a lot better now.

I still get a sort of fight or flight sense of panic / a mini mostly internal panic attack everytime I see him or am at a place I know he will be too, but now that I've been actually staying away from him I feel happier in a sense.

Because I'm no longer trying to force myself to seem okay with what's happening around him, and feeling just really shitty with guilt in general.

I don't know, my mind just feels a lot more clearer now that I'm starting to actually let him go. Hell, even my OLD is starting to let him go, I dont think about him at random points in my day and wanna break down anymore.

When I do get moments I think about him, I just feel a bit sad but overall fine and quickly recover from it.

So, I think its a step in the right direction for me; and not gonna lie, I feel pretty happy about my progress. Even if it had really bad things throughout it, but I'm starting to think that maybe I'm glad those bad moments happened, because I think that if i didn't have those moments that I wouldn't have been able to come to terms with the fact I needed to just cut him off and finally move on.

So yk what, even if it caused me to have a horrible manic spiral, im glad my ex came into my inbox and called me out on my bullshit and fucking blasted my ass. Bc I think that's what I needed in order to get my shit together.

All that stuff combined, and also considering the fact my boyfriend, my best friends, and really sweet people online / moots & friends, have really been helping me out these past few days. Without yall I really wouldn't have the ability to keep going forward and not spiral further.

Thank you guys for sticking around, even though I'm a shitty dog who deserves to be put down at Claire's 💔, I wouldn't get rid of any of you if I was given the chance (sorry couldn't resist putting in a dark joke</3)

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Now for a more personal note for my bf <3

I cant put it into words how grateful i am for you being here with me Warden, for sticking around for the past 3 years and dealing with my shit. I don't deserve you, I really don't. You're too sweet for me and the fact you're comforting me during my sprials and outbursts and don't just leave me during or after them really helps more than you know.

Thank you for being patient with the stuff that was going on around me, thank you for communicating, thank you just for everything. You understand why I stopped talking to you for weeks due to my ex, you understood my family problems, my mental problems, etc.

You never judged me and you welcomed my struggles with open arms and helped me manage them in ways that were harmless and sweet, not sexual or physically harmful.

Im sorry that I keep resorting to my negative coping mechanisms no matter how many times you try and help me fix that, im trying to be good and lay back on a lot of stuff but things happen and it makes me wanna cry how sweet you are about it; you don't yell at me when I relapse and instead focus on what's important about it in the moment and try to not let it happen again.

You don't push me away when im clingy and need comfort, you happily accept it and let me seek the comfort I need. You respect my boundaries, you respect my mental issues and don't belittle or demonize me for them.. God you're just too perfect for me to put into words.

Not to mention you don't shame me for my Hypersexuality. it helps that you dont trigger it in general, but on times that it is triggered and I'm having those perverted thoughts and what not, you just treat me like normal. You dont encourage it, you don't discourage it, you just treat me like you always do; as if its not even there at all.

Thank you for more than I can put into words Warden, you mean the world to me and I wouldn't have it any other way without you <3

Cant wait to continue being silly with you and being chaotic evil trans gremlins together for as long as possible <3

[tixuctoad]

What is even happening in ur askbox recently??

Ignore how I'm IMMEDIATELY jumping on this ask I just happened to be looking at something here LMAO-- okay well maybe not immediately anymore bc i got distracted and kept finding the best way to word this w/o getting confusing + some stuff is left unmentioned because it just irritates me sm and its not worth getting into if its going to make me seethe so late at night--

Honestly I have no clue. It's not even just this blog it's also my side writing blog too--

Like okay this shit is insane I need to hop on my computer to type bc there's just sm tomfuckery that isnt all connected but oh my god i need to scream about this

OKAY COMPUTER TIME

so i have like. multiple blogs. this blog, a sfw writing blog, a nsft writing blog, a personal selfship blog thats kind of mostly become a random thought dump blog, and a f/o poll blog

the writing blogs and this one are the only real relevant ones here

a lot of the asks ive been getting, most of which im not even bothering to respond to, have mostly been from people mad that i blocked them on my nsft blog- only blocked bc they were either under 18 or an ageless blog, no other reason for blocking- some people throwing genuine fits over it in the inbox of my sfw writing blog, some outright telling me that they hope my meds stop working. i didnt post it but someone said they hoped i got jumped while on a walk. over. fucking. written. smut. insane shit

its mostly on the writing blog, but i have been getting some here. its not impossible for people to find this blog via my others and make the connection**, but i feel its worth nothing that they arent linked to each other and the last time ive shared something from here to the other blog was like. months ago, think it was the fake crp dating sim? idk. but like. yeah. not impossible to find this blog and start causing a fuss here- though thankfully for the most part for now it looks like its not people complaining about being denied access to my nsft. BUT most of it is people trying to urge me to work even harder on writing- not just that one anon that put my art down bc the quality/skill didnt match my writing, there were others- this is after me mentioning and showing several times over on that blog that im like. way too overworked to do anything. people sending in writing requests. people demanding i reopen writing requests. being told when and what i should write and post. people getting mad that im not doing something to let them get early access to october fics ive been working on for fluff/freaktober

its gotten worse recently and idk why. like ik some of it is from people being mad over the nsft blog but. ugh. i hate it because its killing my motivation to get work done- i still need to get 9 fics done for flufftober but i cant focus on work. im still a little BLUGH over the art anon so i dont feel like working on art either- which. btw. thanks anon, i was already feeling like ass over my art skills. ik i cant expect you to read minds and know that but god people are just. hmmm gguhuhghrrrgrr...

i mentioned once on the writing blog that id take a break once flufftober was done and a few people lost their minds (context that so far this year ive written like 52 fics for fluff/freaktober, a multichapter (3 so far) longfic thats currently 17k words, a series that so far has 16 chapters and 38k words, plus an additional 12 fics- on TOP of near constant hc requests while being very open that i run an art blog + do baking orders and stuff so like. times limited + physical health isnt the best). like i express im tired, people start losing it at the idea of me not creating. again im grateful that most of my followers here and there are normal and supportive but ooouuuuuuugh the jackasses are loud and my mental health has been on a spiral the past few months grrgrrgrr

sorry this turned into a vent but like. i think i kind of fucked myself over by making my entire thing being cheery and silly on the writing blog so while theres real issues going on there i feel i cant do anything to shatter that. like yeah sure me being silly and shit was genuine but so is my exhaustion but several have gotten on my case for not laying down and taking it

**i think ive mentioned it before but for context why i dont have them outwardly connected is bc

i wanted to prevent people from one blog from going to the other to give me flack for like. update/request stuff. clearly that... hasnt really stopped people. definitely think itd be worse if they were outwardly linked though

at the time i made the writing blog i was still really embarrassed ab making self ship content, even if it wasnt self ship stuff solely for me (canon x reader), so like. i kind of didnt announce that i made the blog here bc i didnt know what peoples thoughts were on selfshipping (cringe culture RUINED me) (im more open about selfshipping now but like. the writing blog is a few years old so ive had time to become more secure in the interest)

[joosthead]

Wow. That was... I think I have a new favorite.

My favorite part is Joosti giving commentary the whole time!!!! He's such a funny dude. I would be dying laughing the whole time. Plus it eases the tension. (If you are not laughing during sex is it even good sex??)

THE BICKERING!!!! I love the bickering so much. So teasing but also full of love. They really met each other's match and matched each other's freak. I wanna see their hard to get phase so bad after reading this.

Reader is messing with him and giving him such a challenge and he's so done with it. Then immediately getting upset at the thought of actually pissing him off!?!?! Awww she cares so much. (Also this is me any time I make a joke that is the slightest bit teasing or mean. Asking "are you mad at me" .5 seconds after the words leave my mouth and panicking for hours after)

Her lips and her name tattooed on his neck!!!! You are a genius!!!!

The vibrator is his mortal enemy. 🤣 I'm sure Reader feels the same way about the things he probably uses while on tour.

Also the slight breeding kink 👀👀👀👀 HELLO!!!!! 🥴

Poor Tantu 😂. Bro just saw his name and clicked play. Him and Ruby definitely know wayyyy to much about Reader and Joosti's sex life and all of it against their will. I would never me able to look at Tantu again after he heard that.

100/100 as always from you!!! Can't wait for the next installment in the normal au saga, but I'm also excited about virgin fic 👀. (Also part 3 of my normal au thoughts are in your inbox. No rush at all 😉. I loved the other 2 responses btw and I'm already writing more) - family anon

HEWWO FAMILY ANON MY BELOVED (i saw your part 3 and i cant wait to respond to it !!! life got so busy and overstim was draining my soul but im FREE NOW!!! YIPYIP)

slightly explicit rpf ahead, 18+ only, anti rpf dni

the commentary is so on purpose to help reader feel more relaxed about it all :''') they are nothing without being so silly he loves them so much... pulling out all the stops for his baby fr!!!

YESSSS i was so happy to explore how combative they are with each other in their normal dynamic (when its not jtsfaoi touch tank summer song emotional LOL) like this is who they are 24/7!! they are soulmates in every aspect of life and they realy do match each others freak so much....

THEY DO CARE SO MUCH cuz liike they were just doing this for fun and now all of a sudden he's being kinda mean and he definitely has good reason to be mean so :(( they love teasing so much and it's never that serious but he's liteally beein working himself to the bone for the album lol just say his name ... reader absolutely can dish it but cant take it (sometimes LOL)

there are so many reader related tattoos but that's my favorite one teehee <3 gotta let everyone know who owns him

it's his mortal enemy because he just uses his hand while he's away LOL like why cant you just use your hand???? but after trying it out,,,, he understands... he still hates it tho

SLIGHT BREEDING KINK !!! LEAD UP TO LAURENS IN 4 MONTHS! HASSKDFJKSD OOPSIE

poor ruby and tantu... ruby is really chill about it but tantu is distraught sometimes cuz wow these two are real freaks real eaters for each other... tantu and ruby defiitely are too but reader and joosti are certainly the more chaotic ones

VIRGIN FIC VIRGIN FIC VIRGIN FIC!! after it is hopefully a fic i can push out for valentines day?? or virgin fic will be the valentines day fic/? but after those two normal au will have another prequel installment :))

i love seeing you in my inbox family anon !!! kisses for you <333333 HEHE

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I'm gonna go ahead and post the rest of the binary/non-binary privilege stuff in my inbox without commentary because I honestly am running out of things to add to them in response lmao.

If you don't see yours here: I did answer it, but I didn't like my response and deleted it just now before realizing "oh, wait, if they didn't see it in the two hours it was up they're going to think I missed or ignored it." I totally did read it and reply though! I was just angrier at the kinna people you were talking about than I wanted to be.

The rest:

for me when i think about the binary/nonbinary thing, basically my thoughts are: if being binary isn't a privilege, then can the gender binary be called oppressive? like personally i think the gender binary itself is an oppressive force in society, like male/female being a form of societal categorization is oppression. so it makes sense to me that fitting into that categorization is a privilege, and not fitting into it is disprivilege. i think it's a good argument to have whether or not the gender binary is actually oppressive, you'll get a lot of different takes, but me personally i think it is because it hurts me a lot and that hurt makes the most sense for me to call oppression. those are just my 2 cents, not trying to argue that it's worse for anyone based on if you're binary or nonbinary, just kinda that to me the gender binary itself oppresses me so i feel disprivileged for not fitting it, if that makes sense! also i think binary trans people specifically often face disprivilege for not fitting into the gender binary because during transition they often dont, and if youre not able to transition at all that means you really dont fit into it. basically theyre hurt by the same stuff in the binary as us a lot of the time. i think it gets complicated though because theres a statistical pattern where binary trans peoples goals *BROADLY* (NOT TALKING ABOUT INDIVIDUAL CASES, just talking about statistics) are to look like a "normal" person of their gender, so if that cant be your goal because it would make you dysphoric or suicidal or anything like that, you think about it differently and youre less likely to think the gender binary is good. but if it is your goal and youre able to make steps toward it, like if youre looking more and more like a "normal" person of your gender over time and fitting into normal society more, or even if you dont fit in perfectly but youre using enough "signals" to show you want to fit in and are trying and the people around respect you trying, then you might think the gender binary is good because it helps you be gendered correctly and helps you be your true self. i think that's why a lot of us feel like binary trans people sometimes use privilege over us, whether thats true or not (i havent decided my opinion on that and i dont know if i ever will because its really loaded and a lot of people will be mad at me no matter what opinion i have so it doesnt seem worth it to have one): because its more likely that you like the binary and want to keep it around if it helps you, and that opinion feels like an attack if you're hurt by the binary. plus, statistically theres a lot more of the "normal" trans people out and about visibly in the world than "abnormal" ones, so it makes it *feel* like we're a minority within a minority even when that's not true.

Ngl this binary privilege discussion is driving me knuts. Binary trans people don't face exorsexism: is that privilege? Y'all pretty much agree that not facing transmisogyny doesn't give trans men privilege so if we were any type of consistent around here we'd say No. Personally I think not facing form of bigotry gives you A privilege. It's 1 less hurdle you have to jump over, not an additive system that negates any of the other bigotries you face as a binary trans person or gives you blanket Privilege over all nonbinary people! But that's how people use it in this discourse so maybe we need to put the word Privilege on the high shelf and just support other people when they face a bigotry we don't.

Wanna add something to the thing RE: binary privilege as a (close to binary) trans man who used to be non-binary. I won’t disagree that there’s situations where binary and close-to-binary trans people are treated better than non-binary and unaligned trans people, namely in medical settings and often also legal settings (depending on the country and laws, tho). But what I absolutely disagree with are inter-personal situations. I’m aware there’re non-binary people who have the experience that they are not accepted where binary trans people are accepted. But the opposite also happens. When I identified as non-binary, my family accepted and respected me, used my pronouns and gender-neutral terms, etc. and I was accepted in a trans group that was made up of only trans women and non-binary people. When I came out as a trans man, my family returned to using feminine terms for me started treating me like a stupid girl, and I was kicked out of the group I was in. I know multiple trans men who had the same thing happen to them (a lot of the ones I’m in a small group with now). And the way some people are using exorsexist binary trans people as proof that they have binary privilege is so weird, too. I know so many transmisogynist or transandrophobic non-binary people (esp. transandrophobic with the spaces I used to be in), but that doesn’t mean they have privilege over me? People can be bigoted assholes no matter who they are or what they identify as. Like. There are exorsexist non-binary people, too. So like. I’m open to discussion of binary "privilege" (tho privilege is a bit of a clunky word for that, it’s more like binary centrism/favouritism, but idrc) in relation to legal and medical stuff, but interpersonal stuff? Thats exorsexism—which should absolutely be discussed, too, just without acting like any group of trans people has privilege over another. It’s just like what I experience from my local trans community and family is transandrophobia / anti-transmasculinity, not the non-binary trans people having "non-binary privilege" and using that to kick me out of their spaces or whatever. I hope I’m making sense? I do think that discussion is important, but as someone who knows both sides, it’s lacking a lot of nuance currently. I’m definitely treated worse now as a trans man than I was a non-binary person (still experience the same transphobia from transphobic cis people, but now the queer+trans community is also slinging transphobia against me at any chance they have; while transphobes still want me to "go back" to being a girl without caring what words I use for myself now at all, there’s now also plenty of people who want me to "go back" to being non-binary, or really anything but a man.), and there’s plenty of non-binary people who have the exact opposite experience (used to id as binary trans, is now treated worse for being non-binary), and it’s important to keep in mind that a lot of the treatment is dependent entirely on the people around you, and that no experience is more important to discuss than another. This got long. English isn’t my first language, but I hope everything’s understandable.

(you worded it well!)

really enjoying the discussion about nuances of privilege vs advantage going on! I'd like to add that it's imo mainly caused by... medically and bureaucratically stratifying systems, for a lack of a better term? eg. in my country I can't go on HRT unless I want to "become" a transhet - that is, transition into a Fully Binary Man Wanting To Fuck Women. that's not something I want, as a nonbinary bisexual; I would be annoyed at being read as a Man the same way being read as a Woman is annoying, I only want some masculinizing changes, and the head of the board that decides if you can go on HRT does not believe in bisexuality (which is. ?????. HE'S A SEXOLOGIST.) But like. I don't think that others being willing to Be Seen As A Fully Binary Man Who Wants To Fuck Women (even if that's not the extent of how they want to live) is necessarily a privilege? It's just a slight advantage in a system that fucking sucks, you know? And you can at least lie about your sexuality (I have friends who are not straight and did lie), which, again, lying about that is not a privilege, but I'm too much of a contrarian bitch to even try and respect the opinion of someone who doesn't think bisexuality exists to even lie to them. I think a similar thing to this is compliance with psychiatric systems - I do well on medication and haven't had issues with any of my psychs (both therapists and prescribers), so I am in a circumstance where I'm going along with the system fine, making me have the advantage of less likelihood of being labeled a problem patient/disruptive/combative/etc. and being forcefully detained or such. People whose experiences with psych have been shit/are antipsych for whatever other reason/etc. do not have that advantage. That doesn't necessarily mean I'm privileged over them, but I do have a bureaucratic and medical advantage in a system that wants to binarize into Conforming To Expectations × Not Conforming To Expectations, even though both of us are having mental health issues.

[jyndor]

girl I still don't see your ask in my inbox so I can't answer it but I'm soooooo curious on why you think the sudden shift in messaging happened 👀

lmao and i still cant reply to comments but I think its because i just made this account like a few days ago

honestly sissi i think its damage control and nothing else. im pretty good at sniffing out a media narrative/ratfuck but. idk none of it makes sense.

at THIS point i dont have enough reason to suspect that there is actually anything really in the works, i dont think the baby is anything other than a potential unlocked door for if tony gilroy feels like playing in the sandbox again. but idk i think he is also kind of over working with star wars lol so i doubt he will ever want to again.

here is what i definitely do not think it is:

the even more unhinged and unlikely options are that lucasfilm is going to like idk flat out remake rogue one. no lol that would be an insane waste of money, and we are heading into very uncertain economic times. they can't even get the fucking films they've greenlit off the ground so the idea that they would remake rogue one just to make rebelcaptain less relevant seems extremely delusional and unlikely.

I also don't think diego would do it, he seems over it and i doubt he wants to commit to more years of star wars when that was the whole reason allegedly that we got the condensed milk ass version of s2 in the first place.

i don't think felicity would do it, not if it meant a diminished role for jyn, who she clearly has a lot of love for as a character. i have a feeling that some of the other actors involved who may or may not have wanted to commit to a tiny scene have their own side of what went down and so i think there are too many ruffled feathers for any of that to work. not that lucasfilm would give a shit about disrespecting actors but i just think that a remake is not on the cards in general.

that would be the only thing i think that would actually make it so that rebelcaptain is not even a thing anymore in any sense. which lbr you and i know they couldn't scrub OUR memories but literally the only thing they could do... i guess they could actually retcon the ending of rogue one, bring them or just cassian back to life and then have cassian go be the dutiful husband and father which ??? oh ewwww no that would be unhinged and so disrespectful to the work of everyone involved in that film and i imagine that would be again completely ridiculous and petty for no real payoff

and gareth edwards is the director, i do not know legally if lucasfilm could edit even more rebelcaptain out of the film which would probably be easier but again why bother? that is so petty lol

its possible there will be books to fill in the gaps but idk its not like tony gilroy is gonna write them lmfao but again, none of that makes any sense because rogue one exists and the dynamic exists and the footage exists and there is no world in which a ship that organically people enjoy because of the potential future that they gave up, they sacrificed for the greater good, is important enough to do more than maybe a bit of weird messaging in the media during promotion for a show that fumbled the leadup to rogue one, a film that most star wars fans really enjoyed from the jump but moved on from and sort of forgot about details like normal people tend to do

Id be curious to hear about other ideas for why they are doing the weird anti-rebelcaptain messaging. it was very very weird and suspicious the way that it escalated with like that variety stenographer not even quoting anyone, just flat out saying that jyn is NOT a love interest for cassian. even though HE would be the love interest since SHE is the protagonist

i think its just for the promo. i don't know every quote or every interview bc i don't read them or watch them unless one of you tells me to.

but what that tells me is that there were studio concerns ahead of time about how people would receive rogue one after watching andor s2, and how jarring it would be. but that isn't so much about rebelcaptain as it is about cassian jeron andor himself. idk it just feels off.

idk it remains to be seen if people start leaking. I mean gary whitta is an online motherfucker so if i had twitter id be looking at his account every once in a while. iirc he is the one who clapped back at tony gilroy for the narrative that rogue one is not gareth edwards' film. maybe not at tony but in that general vicinity. it may have been chris weitz but idk.

ultimately this whole mess is lucasfilm and disney's fault for rushing rogue one and not giving it time to breathe. they're lucky we got the film we did.

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[ladylaviniya]

My same time reactions (I wanna be butterfly emoji, is that chill? 🦋 or has someone already taken it, if that’s the case ill be worm boi 🪱)

Okay cute, we’re peeing on a stick, nothing to see here… normal stuff… WAIT WHAT IS THIS CDT THING OMG.

NOT THE POSITIVE RESULT. NOT THE PINK SYMBOL. NOT THE FULL BLOWN PANIC. I CAN’T BREATHE. HOLD ON.

She’s chanting “Alpha Alpha Alpha” like she can manifest it? Same…lmfao you are fucked babygirl.

Family lore dropping and it’s all “Omegas are weak” propaganda?? Mmm yes, society’s casual cruelty, love that. Its giving pro trump alt right pipeline. Andrew tate n ben Shapiro kinda shit

NO STOP SHE’S THINKING ABOUT THE BREEDING CENTRES. WHO WROTE THIS. LAVINIYA. WHO HURT YOU. 😭

“Better a criminal than an Omega.” me whispering bestie… girl… pls no���

NOT HER BFF BLOCKING HER. I BET THE GROUP PARTY FINNA BE WILD THAT NIGHT: ‘did you hear shes an omega.’ ITS LIKE HOMOPHOBIC FRIENDS FINDING OUT THEIR FRIEND IS GAY.

Mommy bloodhound. How good is their sense of smell in this universe? THE MOTHER THINKS THERE’S A BOY IN THE CLOSET??? GIRL IT’S JUST YOUR SCENT!! WHY AM I SCREAMING???

why is she at the hospital? WHO IS THIS OMEGA DAD CRADLING HIS PUP? WHY AM I CRYING OVER A RANDOM INFANT I DON’T KNOW??? I AM OVULATING WHY AM I READING THIS.

OH NO SHE WANTS A BABY. SHE YEARNS. SHE’S NEEDS BREED. ABORT MISSION.

Enter: Doctor Castillo. Tall. Long, Strong and mean, jk not mean. But hes so daddy teeheee. Am I supposed to be TURNED ON??

*Doctor growls once* *my soul leaves my body* *spreads legs wider*

"Is there something wrong with being an Omega?" HE ASKED. THAT’S A VALID QUESTION MKAY CAUSE HOW ABOUT WE DROP THE WHOLE OMEGAS ARE WEAK BS LIKE THE GIRLS WHO GET IT, GET IT.

Blood test confirmed. OMEGA POSITIVE. 🪦 RIP to my emotional stability.

“Good girl,” he said. PUT A BABY IN MEE

THE DOOR LITERALLY SAYS FAREWELL ROOM. FAREWELL TO MY WILL TO LIVE.

“Saint Selene’s School for Adolescent Omegas” — BABE THAT’S NOT A SCHOOL, THAT’S GOTTA BE A BREEDING CAMP. 🚨

SHE’S SOBBIN. I’M SOBBIN. WE’RE ALL SOBBIN.

DOCTOR CASTILLO JUST SEDATED HER. THE LITERAL AUDACITY.  FUCK YOU I CANT BELIEVE I WANTED YOU TO PUT A BABY IN ME. IM GETTING AN ABORTION. I CANT WITH YOU.

Brb setting up a GoFundMe for my emotional recovery.

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I’m legit CRYING at your live reactions🤣 it’s like watching someone slowly realize they’re on the worst rollercoaster of their life but still refusing to get off 😭✨ "Peeing on a stick, nothing to see here"... if only, bestie, if only...

You dragging the family’s anti-Omega propaganda like it’s a Fox News segment?? DECEASED. And not the Andrew Tate/Ben Shapiro slander being too real 💀💀

Also the breeding center panic spiral??? Look. I ask myself daily who hurt me. The answer is: me. I hurt me. You just had to come along for the ride 🫠

Your commentary on her mother sniffing out a “boy” like he’s hiding in the closet?? STOP IT I CAN’T BREATHE 💀 It’s just your scent, Karen.

AND LISTEN. Crying over the random omega dad and his pup??? Valid. 100% valid. Peak ovulation-core.

Dr. Castillo pulling the old growl and "good girl" move and you jumping from “breed me” to “abort mission” was so fucking hilarious to read. ICONIC BEHAVIOR BUTTERFLY QUEEN.

Honestly you talking about setting up a GoFundMe for emotional recovery??? Mood. We’re all just out here, broken, crying, vibrating, and questioning our life choices 🫡

Thank you for bringing your thoughts to my mail inbox 💌 my serotonin levels have never been higher. There’s so much more chaos to come (sorry not sorry 😌).

This first chapter is only the beginning...have fun... 🤣

[dazzlingqwq]

intro posts my beloathed.. alright, time to make this.

DAZ'S INTRO POST WOW WOOHOO!!! ☆

✧ Hi! As you can see, i'm Daz (masc, he/ae), but i also go by...

~ Cas! (masc, he/ae)

~ Jazz! (fem, she/they/ae)

~ Alex! (fem+masc, he/ae/any)

~ Flow! (fem, she/ae)

~ Shady! (masc/gn, ae/aem)

~ Saki! (masc/fem/gn, she/he/ae)

~ Zee! (gn, ae/any)

(theres more, but these are my mains!)

Now, you might be going "Daz, why is there pronouns and term thingys by names?" (or you might not idfk), and i have an answer for you!

My brain does this thing where, when i get called by a certain name, it also wants to be called by certain terms, and certain pronouns. No idea why, just please respect that.

Anyway, continuing on!!!

Current fandoms:

~ Coroika (Splatoon manga)

~ Splatoon

~ Owari no Seraph

~ Pokemon

~ Parkour Civilization

~ Object shows (mainly II and BFDI)

~ Zettai BL

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~ Omori, Undertale, FNAF, TD, umm.... ion remember...

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[ingydarwp]

I promised to bring questions about Gracie-goo and Sorrow-pie so I am back!!! with the questions and a gracie theory!! Firsttttt if your OC's were a sweet or a chocolate, what would they be? Gracie-Goo: This isn't much of a question, more of a theory, but I think Gracie dies at the end of GT. i think Bucky does it, dunno how, but i think he knows it's the only way to save her. really he probably knew from the first minute they met. i think he does it, to save her from herself, and she haunts him. Now a question!!! Does Gracie understand why Natasha treated her the way she did? Later in life, does older Gracie understand? Additionally, does Natasha haunt older Gracie? I've wondered this for a while, but i wasn't sure how to word it. why does bucky adore gracie? i thought it was a situational thing, bucky is in a place with rough hands and stern eyes, and gracie is soft and gentle like a lamb. but im not sure. if gracie was a song, what song would she be? Sorrow: Sorrow, i love you, please be safe and break the curse!! when sorrow dies, do they have to burn her body? i think it'd break Cas, but i think they do that in spn. are sorrow and cas bucky and gracie in another universe? i see all the parallels (big thief reference) if sorrow was a song, what song would she be? if sorrow lived in the normal world, what job would she have? we don't know much about sorrow so i cant ask many questions about her, but sorrow i love you very much!!! 😔 bye adrianne-not-lenker, dont hurt jackie or boots please!!!!

MY FAVOURITE QUESTION ASKER OF ALL TIME!! you make my day whenever i see you in my inbox thank you sosososo much!!

OCs as candy:

i’m gonna try and write these out as a block so this answer doesn’t become a trillion lines long but!! isabell is those magic star chocolates, cat is a lollipop (eli reference), gracie is a flying saucer (or the heart from the haribo packet), tiger is a fizzy strawberry lace, matty is a twizzler and sorrow is a cube of pink bubblegum.

gracie theory:

after reading this i had to open up messages and discuss it with my friend, bc while i have no intentions of gracie dying, your reasoning actually makes so much sense that i was flabbergasted and had to present it to the court (toby) for discussion.

i really do not want gracie to die. throughout the whole of GT, even when the ending was really different, i’ve never ever wanted to kill her off. she’s the only OC who i’ve never considered doing that to. HOWEVER. what you said is actually such a logical idea and it made me rethink myself for a minute.

i still do not want to kill of gracie-goo, but i fear you’ve planted seeds in my brain 😦

gracienat:

i think that, while gracie is too good and kind to ever fully understand nat’s mindset, she does learn to empathise with it as she grows. she’s still hurt and angry and she never does forgive nat, but when nat’s past is fully explained to her, she comes to understand why nat was like that. it doesn’t justify it, and it doesn’t make her feel any better, but at least it shows gracie that it wasn’t something that she did wrong.

and yes, nat very much haunts gracie. thunderbolts reveals a huge, horrifying part of that haunting. even after nat is dead and gone, she stills finds ways to get right into the crevices of gracie’s brain.

bucky and gracie:

the short explanation is: bucky adores gracie because she gave him life. not just gave him his life back, but she forced life and hope and love into him when he had nothing.

bucky in hydra was barely even human. he’d had his soul stripped right out. and then, there came a girl with long starlight hair and huge, understanding eyes and she didn’t even know him but she kept saying that she was going to save him. that he was loved. she protected him against all odds and when he finally got his broken mind back after the final fight in ca:tws, she gave him a reason to keep going.

gracie loved bucky more openly and determinedly and bravely than anyone had ever loved him before. she saved his life, and she saved what was left of him after hydra took it all.

how could he ever not adore her ☹️

gracie as a song:

this is really hard!! i think she’s a multitude of songs. some of the most important ones, however, are:

rabbit heart — florence + the machine

black rabbit — josephine illingworth

miss america — james blunt

mother — daughter (this song is so gracienat it kills me PLEASE listen to it!!)

sorrow’s death:

they do not burn sorrow’s body!! i debated over this for a long time, but in the end, i think they bury her. sorrow is a wild creature. she was born out of the woods, and so, she deserves to return to them. the soil and the forest have always owned her.

they bury her wrapped in blankets and surrounded by trinkets, and leave her grave unmarked by an old tree. she wouldn’t want a proper headstone, i don’t think. sorrow, like all birds, is a wild animal. she doesn’t need a fully human burial.

parallels:

this is a super awesome question!! i think yes, but also no?? idk it’s complex!! gracie’s saving of bucky was very deliberate, and she’s always been somewhat aware — even if not consciously — that she’s incredibly important to him. sorrow, on the other hand, is castiel’s saviour, but fails to realise the impact she has on him!! she knows he loves her, but she’ll never be able to comprehend how much :((

however, one similarity they both share is that bucky and cas are both keeping secrets from gracie and sorrow about their past, so i guess that is a pretty big parallel 😦

(PLS THAT EDIT HAUNTS ME THO BC I SPELT PARALLEL WRONG THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH AND DIDN’T EVEN REALISE)

sorrow song:

sorrow is bird song intro by florence and the machine. there are no lyrics but i feel it just represents her personality and soul so fucking well.

sorrow job:

sorrow would work in lush. i kid you not, that’s literally her. odd choice?? yes. but she would 100% work in lush 😭 that girl would love to help people find glittery bath bombs and body butter that perfectly matched them while breathing in rose water fumes. that’s her dream i swear.

thank you for the fabulous fabulous questions!! no promises on the jackie part, tho… 🫶🏻🫶🏻

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Ollooo!

I don't know if I'm using this correctly cause I'm pretty new to tumblr and I normally just scroll my few followed tags but i stumbled upon your blog and thought I'd give it a try?

I think i might have ADHD? But I've no idea how to figure out if im right. Cause i know lots of people these days think it's trendy or self-diagnose and im scared im just looking for excuses for why i don't do stuff or keep forgetting things(or people💀) or. Just. Lots of stuff. Wont go on a rant. Ur not here to diagnose me😅

Are u just supposed to go to a phychologist? Cause im going to see our school phychologist this week (for my anxiety, i had an appointment with my doctor - for sth totally unrelated, issues with my joints - and i won't go into details but i had a little breakdown over nothing and she was like you kinda have anxiety, don't u? and i was like i do? Cause i knew about anxiety but never thought it might relate to me but looking back i prolly should've noticed the signs lmao) myb i could ask her to give me some pointers where to get a diagnose cause she prolly cant diagnose me lmao(i just feel school phychologists arent qualified for that stuff? Altho myb she can at least guess?). But there's not really a lot of awareness about adhd in my country and that there's different types not just bouncing on a chair(although i do that too)? Like my mom graduated as a psychologist(works as a social worker now but nvm) and she doesnt think i have it and says i just have to try a little. And i dont want to go asking about getting a diagnose and then realizing i dont even have it and i made all these issues up?

Sorry i dont really know what im expecting from this. I just want to figure out if theres an actual reason for things i do or if its all in my head

Thanks for listening (?) to me rant

Hi there,

I’m not familiar with evaluations from different countries, so I’m not sure how the diagnosis would work. You can see a psychiatrist/psychologist. But I would look into the pros and cons of getting a diagnosis before you decide to pursue a diagnosis.

Maybe my followers can give some insight too. I know some who don’t live in America, so maybe they can offer some advice? I’m stumped when it comes to other countries.

I’m sorry if this doesn’t answer your question. Thank you for the inbox. I hope you have a wonderful day/night. ♥️