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Not to mention, not everyone who reads fics on ao3 is part of any fandom. I know I started reading everything bucktommy I could on ao3 before I finally migrated over here to join the fandom. There could be people who have zero clue about any sort of ship wars or any idea about any horrible online behaviour who just want to enjoy their buddie fics who stumble across these, and they don't deserve that. (Well, no one deserves that, but I'm sure you get my point.) And if they do decide to join the 911 fandom, they're going to join already with the idea that bt's are horrible people. We can't exactly go standing on any moral high ground about how terrible some buddies can be when there are bt's pulling the same shit - it doesn't matter if it's "in retaliation", you're still being a dick.

if you're a bucktommy and you're doing this?

what the fuck is wrong with you.

what are you hoping to achieve with this. whoever is posting csam in the bucktommy tag is not going to stop just because you are "retaliating" in this way so all you're going to do is trigger people who click on these falsely-tagged fics? and then what? is that gonna make you feel better? jesus fucking christ please reexamine your life choices. stop it. get some help.

and know that the rest of the bucktommy fandom does not condone your behaviour.

if there are buddies reading this: warn your friends, learn how to hide anonymous fics from your ao3 search results, and most importantly, leave me alone cos I'm not interested in your Discourse

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911 Episode Review: 1x07 Full Moon (Creepy AF)

This episode was like the writers decided, "You know what would be fun? Getting a whole bunch of ideas from horror movies and whacking them in one episode. Slasher film? Check. Zombies? Check. Something feeling like it's going to burst out of a stomach? Check. And what should be the cause of this... oh, I know, the full moon!" Now, I'm not saying this makes this a bad episode - it certainly wasn't. However, I am not a fan of the horror genre, so seeing a shadow standing outside a house or a guy getting his face EATEN by another man makes me shudder.

The stories they chose for this episode were very fitting, though - it gave that creepiness that was befitting for a full moon episode. (I mean, they literally had a woman hiding in a shower at one point - definite homage to Psycho there.) Because of the chaos, everyone had to be split up to deal with it all, so we got to cover a whole host of stories - Hen and Chim dealing with a potential home invasion victim and the "zombie man" along with Athena (and Abby), and Buck and Bobby dealing with... well, things in stomachs - a tapeworm and babies.

Another nightmare of mine that happened to be in this episode? It wasn't horror related; it had to do with said babies when the full moon triggered a bunch of women in a yoga class to go into labour. Now, I've never wanted kids, and having to give birth is one big part of that. Seeing the baby's umbilical cord be cut? I know, miracle of life and all that, but I was cringing. (To be fair, I'm not a fan of gore in general. That scene last episode where Abby cut into Buck's throat? Full body shudders.) It was kind of funny though, seeing Buck's mini bout of panic because he had no idea what to do, and then I the end suggesting either he or Bobby's name as potential names for the new baby boy - except he offers "Buck" instead of Evan. Oh, Buck. Great nickname, but not exactly a first choice for a given name.

One thing I did notice, which I hated to notice, was that this might be the very start of people underestimating Buck - not taking him seriously, calling him an idiot, and acting surprised whenever he comes out with anything remotely smart. Look, I'm not saying some of it is unwarranted - up to this point, Buck certainly has certainly acted before thinking on several occasions (taking an axe to a wall where a baby is trapped or contemplating using a floating pool toy to get a kid stuck in an electrified pool are some examples), but he's slowly learning, and that inpulsitivity is not his entire personality. In this episode, Bobby calls Buck an idiot because he's spouting out the theory that the full moon may have some influence on the strange calls they're having.

Now I don't think Bobby meant to be mean, and Buck was probably annoying him, but the thing is, this is the start of a trend where everyone in the 118 treats Buck like he's dumb. And the thing is, in regards to this episode? Buck was right. The yoga instructor says that the full moon at this time of year is documented at triggering births. The tape worm they pull out, Buck explains that the full moon is a part of a trigger in the life cycle of a tapeworm. So, while there may not have been anything... paranormal, or anything like that, in the end, Buck was RIGHT, the full moon DID bring out the crazy calls. He also spouted off a bunch of facts about tapeworms that he learned from a summer in South America - this was a SERIOUSLY impressive amount of facts that he could remember off the top of his head. The man is smart AND eager to learn, yet (and we'll see this more as the seasons progress) everyone discounts him as the 118 idiot. (I have a theory that his eternal, childlike enthusiasm may have something to do with that - as a result, everyone seems him as "the kid brother", even when he's in his 30's or not even the youngest member of the 118 anymore.)

Okay, away from my "defence of Evan Buckley" rant and onto my Hen rant. The first time I watched this episode, I HATED Hen's storyline. Watching it again, my attitude has not changed. It's almost like we're watching a different Hen - the normally kind, considerate Hen just callously going to sleep with her ex without a thought about her wife back home? Her wife, who was not only supportive but still very much sexually attracted to her? Hen's whole demeanour just seemed... off, compared to what we had seen in previous episodes. And I just don't get her motivations. A lot of the time, the excuse for cheating is "oh well, that's because they wouldn't have sex with me and I was desperate," but Hen can't exactly use that as an excuse here, as the episode starts with Karen trying to get her into bed! Yes, I get that Eva was apparently "some great love" of Hen's, but the fact that she chose Eva, a reformed drug addict who literally JUST got out of prison, over her loving, rocket scientist wife? Screw any "the heart wants what it wants" bullshit, BARE MINIMUM, she has a family, and CHILD, to think of at home. Look, I know I'm heavily biased here - I ABHOR cheating storylines, heavily influenced by the fact that my childhood was negatively impacted by a parental affair/s - so what Hen did to Karen is the reason that in my first watch of season 1 of 911, Hen was my least favourite character. I'm not saying that I didn't like her, just that when ranking my order of preference, she was down the bottom. (Well, maybe tied with Abby, but that's only because Abby kind of irks me.) And I'm sorry, and call me callous, but I just find it hard to feel sorry for Hen's tears at the end of the episode - she brought this on herself. Now, she's going to have to deal with the consequences.

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Ha ha yup. It was such a big conversation after the episode that I couldn't NOT mention it in the review.

Stargate SG-1 Review: Hathor

This episode has always frustrated me on several levels. Mainly over the fact that it seems that all of a sudden, smart people make stupid decisions. Yes, the men get dosed by Hathor to become susceptible to her will, so I can give them a pass there. However, that doesn't excuse how they act before they get dosed. They know the Goa'uld live for a long time, and a woman rocks up claiming to be Hathor (we know the Goa'uld take on the roles of gods), she knows about the Stargate and is asking about Ra - and that doesn't ring any alarms that she might be a Goa'uld? And then General Hammond leaves Daniel, someone who is NOT military, or trained in interrogation or self-defense, alone to question someone who, at best, they think is crazy. Wtf?!?

In contrast, this episode gives the ladies a chance to shine. We already know Sam and Janet are more than just pretty faces, but they really get to show off all facets of their smarts. Not only scientific, but with military strategy and even to the point of using their "feminine wiles" to dupe the male soldiers into allowing them to escape. (And since Junior protects Teal'c from all sorts of intoxicants, he's immune to Hathor's "love drug" and gets to join the girls along for the ride.) And seeing Janet, who says she hasn't handled a gun since basic training, going around all gung-ho with a weapon gave me a little burst of glee.

The dream team!

We get to see two interesting pieces of technology in this episode. First, we have the sarcophagus, last seen in the movie. This was the device that Ra used to bring Daniel back from the dead (another thing that maybe should have tipped off to the SGC that this Hathor chick who rocked up just might be a Goa'uld). This thing is like a miracle cure, and patches Jack up back to normal when Hathor turns him into a Jaffa. Which leads me to the second piece of technology. This little gizmo creates the cross-like wound/pouch that enables a Jaffa to carry a Goa'uld. See, this is the episode that raised questions for me, and linked with Bloodlines either causes confusion or creates a bit of a plot hole. The official Stargate site says that Jaffa are born with the pouch, but as far as I remember, I don't think that is actually confirmed within the show (who knows, I could be wrong later on down the track), so I don't know where this comes from. Teal'c mentions back in episode 2 that "creatures of this form" evolved on Earth, and that they became either hosts to Goa'uld, slaves, or the first Jaffa - ergo, Jaffa were once human. So either all Jaffa have to have the pouch created when they come of age, or somehow they evolved to being able to give birth to children who already have a pouch. The thing is, we see the Jaffa priest in Bloodlines using on Rya'c a similar sort of device to what Hathor used on Jack at the ceremony where he was supposed to get a larval Goa'uld. It COULD have been a healing device, except we learn later than Jaffa can't use them (and the priest using it is just something that basically gets retconned), and the way the camera pans down to show the pouch, it gives the impression that Teal'c, who had been racing to Chulak to prevent Rya'c from becoming a Jaffa, was too late (plus we know that without a symbiote the Jaffa have no immune system, so why would Teal'c be trying to stop it? Yes, it means he essentially becomes a slave as he must always rely on a symbiote to survive, but it means he's condemning his son to death without one). And wow, was that one hell of a ramble. I know I'm reading to much onto this - I should just sit back and enjoy the show, but tiny things like this always get me thinking. (I'm the type of person where I always try to make sense of things, even when I know it's not going to make sense.)

Ok, last thing in my review, and this part discusses rape, so I'll be putting it under the cut if people don't want to read it:

Yeah, so Stargate did it again - twice in one season! Although, unlike in Brief Candle, the show makes it a bit more obvious that this is rape. Hathor, using her "love drug" gets Daniel to sleep with her so she can create more Goa'uld. Now we know Daniel would never ordinarily agree to this - he has expressed on several occasions how much he despises the Goa'uld, and there is one point where you see him bring his arm up to stop her before she hits him with another dose and he relents. When Sam and Janet find him, he looks almost to be in shock, staring at the wall and sitting on a messy bed - the show makes it very obvious what has happened. But in the end, when they discuss the DNA they would get from the deceased larval Goa'uld that Hathor had produced, Daniel simply states "yeah, that'll most likely be mine" and he and everyone else kind of shrug it off. If he had been a woman, I doubt the trauma of it would have been shrugged off so easily. But at the same time, this is supposed to be a fun, PG show from the 90s - they're not exactly going to dwell on this sort of topic, and in this time period, let's face it, male rape was barely discussed. I'd hope that if this show was filmed now, this topic wouldn't have been treated so blasé (but then again, who knows), but even as a kid watching this, this scene never sit right with me back then, and even more so now.

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Next question, how will Buck and Tommy get married? 🎤

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911 Episode Review: 1x06 Heartbreaker

Chimney returns! Time to rejoice - how I have missed thee Chimney, and your wisecracks (good to see a near death experience hasn't brought him down, as he tells his team he needs them all like he needs a hole in the head. Can't really say "too soon?" when he's making the jokes I guess.)

It's really funny that only a few episodes ago, Bobby was telling Buck that he wasn't his dad and that they weren't family, and yet here he is dishing out fatherly advice to Buck on how to handle his date and helping him with his tie. It really is a sweet moment, and their banter is just so heart-warming - the Bobby and Buck dynamic is just such a wonderful part of the show (and if you didn't know about Buck's relationship with his parents which we learn about in later seasons, you do get a hint of it as this scene does raise the question as to why Bobby was having to tie Buck's tie - clearly he has had no other parental role model to show him how it's done.)

So, speaking of Buck's date, Buck and Abby finally decide to go on an actual date. Abby does look absolutely STUNNING here (I mean, she's a good looking woman, but the show kind of makes her look a bit tired and bedraggled, so when she comes out all glammed up, it is a jaw dropping moment. The power of make-up and outfit choice!) Buck is also looking mighty fine all dressed up too (and wow, his build in season 1 really accentuates how long his legs are. Ridiculous.) I mean, in typical 911 fashion (or is it typical Buck fashion?) the date goes awry and Buck ends up in the hospital. Oh dear - a sign perhaps?

One other thing in regards to Buck and Abby's relationship - apparently the writers at one point considered doing a Buck/Abby/Bobby love triangle. Thankfully they abandoned this plan, as it more than likely would have screwed up the dynamics of the team, especially the relationship between Buck and Bobby, but at the same time, I can see why they considered it. Whether Peter and Corrine were instructed to act like it was going to be the start of a love triangle before the idea was dropped or the pair have such natural chemistry that this was the episode that made the writers consider "should we do a love triangle?" I don't know, but damn it, the chemistry is THERE. I'm not saying that there is no chemistry between Abby and Buck, because there is, but its on a whole other level between Bobby and Abby - whether it's because they're both older and on a similar wavelength, who knows

You could definitely see a spark between these two at the firehouse early on in the episode, and again at the end at Buck's hospital bed.

And that's the thing that doesn't make me a fan of the Abby and Buck relationship - they're very clearly on different wavelengths in regards to the relationship. I said this in my live-blog, but this episode shows that they're both wanting different things. Buck is doing his best to curb his sex drive because he really likes Abby and wants something more than just sex, meanwhile Abby is talking to Carla about how she just wants a toy boy. For Buck, this is potentially the start of a serious relationship (his first); for Abby, it's all a bit of fun. There's nothing wrong with her feeling this way, except that she kind of leads Buck on - she never really tells him that that's all she expects from this relationship (not to mention what happens next season). And I don't like the way she talks about Buck either - it sounds like she's basically mocking him for wanting to be careful and considerate with her, which, considering what we saw with "sex addict" Buck earlier in the season, is a big deal and serious character growth for him, yet she's basically making fun and complaining about it? Yeah, not a fan.

The last bit that needs a mention from the episode is the psycho lady that Athena ends up dealing with. It was great to see Athena showing us the true badass that she is. A lot of the cop stuff in Athena's story throughout the season I haven't like so far, because a lot of it revolved around what happened with May, or at least you could see that the fallout from what happened with May affected her decision making/attitude on the job, which resulted in her making several questionable choices. It's nice to see none of that here - instead we see her using her smarts to get her way out of a very dangerous situation, escaping the clutches of a seriously deranged woman and saving lives. (Her racing across the city to get a transplant to the hospital in time was also fun to watch - those were some mad driving skills.)

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Stargate SG-1 Review: Hathor

This episode has always frustrated me on several levels. Mainly over the fact that it seems that all of a sudden, smart people make stupid decisions. Yes, the men get dosed by Hathor to become susceptible to her will, so I can give them a pass there. However, that doesn't excuse how they act before they get dosed. They know the Goa'uld live for a long time, and a woman rocks up claiming to be Hathor (we know the Goa'uld take on the roles of gods), she knows about the Stargate and is asking about Ra - and that doesn't ring any alarms that she might be a Goa'uld? And then General Hammond leaves Daniel, someone who is NOT military, or trained in interrogation or self-defense, alone to question someone who, at best, they think is crazy. Wtf?!?

In contrast, this episode gives the ladies a chance to shine. We already know Sam and Janet are more than just pretty faces, but they really get to show off all facets of their smarts. Not only scientific, but with military strategy and even to the point of using their "feminine wiles" to dupe the male soldiers into allowing them to escape. (And since Junior protects Teal'c from all sorts of intoxicants, he's immune to Hathor's "love drug" and gets to join the girls along for the ride.) And seeing Janet, who says she hasn't handled a gun since basic training, going around all gung-ho with a weapon gave me a little burst of glee.

The dream team!

We get to see two interesting pieces of technology in this episode. First, we have the sarcophagus, last seen in the movie. This was the device that Ra used to bring Daniel back from the dead (another thing that maybe should have tipped off to the SGC that this Hathor chick who rocked up just might be a Goa'uld). This thing is like a miracle cure, and patches Jack up back to normal when Hathor turns him into a Jaffa. Which leads me to the second piece of technology. This little gizmo creates the cross-like wound/pouch that enables a Jaffa to carry a Goa'uld. See, this is the episode that raised questions for me, and linked with Bloodlines either causes confusion or creates a bit of a plot hole. The official Stargate site says that Jaffa are born with the pouch, but as far as I remember, I don't think that is actually confirmed within the show (who knows, I could be wrong later on down the track), so I don't know where this comes from. Teal'c mentions back in episode 2 that "creatures of this form" evolved on Earth, and that they became either hosts to Goa'uld, slaves, or the first Jaffa - ergo, Jaffa were once human. So either all Jaffa have to have the pouch created when they come of age, or somehow they evolved to being able to give birth to children who already have a pouch. The thing is, we see the Jaffa priest in Bloodlines using on Rya'c a similar sort of device to what Hathor used on Jack at the ceremony where he was supposed to get a larval Goa'uld. It COULD have been a healing device, except we learn later than Jaffa can't use them (and the priest using it is just something that basically gets retconned), and the way the camera pans down to show the pouch, it gives the impression that Teal'c, who had been racing to Chulak to prevent Rya'c from becoming a Jaffa, was too late (plus we know that without a symbiote the Jaffa have no immune system, so why would Teal'c be trying to stop it? Yes, it means he essentially becomes a slave as he must always rely on a symbiote to survive, but it means he's condemning his son to death without one). And wow, was that one hell of a ramble. I know I'm reading to much onto this - I should just sit back and enjoy the show, but tiny things like this always get me thinking. (I'm the type of person where I always try to make sense of things, even when I know it's not going to make sense.)

Ok, last thing in my review, and this part discusses rape, so I'll be putting it under the cut if people don't want to read it:

Yeah, so Stargate did it again - twice in one season! Although, unlike in Brief Candle, the show makes it a bit more obvious that this is rape. Hathor, using her "love drug" gets Daniel to sleep with her so she can create more Goa'uld. Now we know Daniel would never ordinarily agree to this - he has expressed on several occasions how much he despises the Goa'uld, and there is one point where you see him bring his arm up to stop her before she hits him with another dose and he relents. When Sam and Janet find him, he looks almost to be in shock, staring at the wall and sitting on a messy bed - the show makes it very obvious what has happened. But in the end, when they discuss the DNA they would get from the deceased larval Goa'uld that Hathor had produced, Daniel simply states "yeah, that'll most likely be mine" and he and everyone else kind of shrug it off. If he had been a woman, I doubt the trauma of it would have been shrugged off so easily. But at the same time, this is supposed to be a fun, PG show from the 90s - they're not exactly going to dwell on this sort of topic, and in this time period, let's face it, male rape was barely discussed. I'd hope that if this show was filmed now, this topic wouldn't have been treated so blasé (but then again, who knows), but even as a kid watching this, this scene never sit right with me back then, and even more so now.

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Wow, season 1 really WAS raunchy compared to the following seasons. Two sex scenes (well, as close as you'll get with this show's rating) in one episode, one being a same sex couple, with lots of skin showing. When was the last time we had someone shirtless in an intimate scene? Eddie and Marisol in S7 maybe? I know there's at least one more coming up this season (with Athena) and obviously we had the Buck "the sex addict" scenes at the beginning of the season. Compared to everything we've seen in just 7 episodes, it's like, what happened that it just dramatically dropped off like that? I know this isn't HBO and we'll never get anything too graphic, but even seeing two people lying in bed together like Abby and Buck are is something you don't really see anymore, and that's TAME.

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Oh Hen, no.

I remember by the end of the first season, Hen was my least favourite character, and this story line was why. I HATED this shit with Eva. WHY would she do this to Karen, someone who is obviously still madly in love with her, and, as evidenced by earlier in the episode, seriously sexually attracted to her. I hate cheating storylines, and while up to this point I found Hen delightful, this put a serious dent in my love for her.

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HOW does Buck know so much about tapeworms?

Oh, never mind, Bobby just asked that question for me.

I love Buck's little smiles as he's dealing with it like he's having the time of his life and just rambling off all of these little facts. The people on this show are quick to call Buck an idiot (Bobby called him one earlier in this ep actually) and yes, he DOES do some stupid shit sometimes, but sometimes I think they just mistake his childlike enthusiasm for stupidity and that's just not it - when Bobby called him an idiot, Buck was going on about the effects of the full moon, but the thing is, a lot of the calls they dealt with people confirmed could be triggered by the moon (births and tapeworm cycles), so there was basis to his theories. Like I said, people are quick to call Buck stupid, but do they ever acknowledge how smart he actually is?

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Looool at Buck and the tapeworm guy discussing diets and body fat percentage. I wonder if tapeworm guy and his boyfriend clocked that Buck might not exactly be on the straight spectrum? Meanwhile Buck's happily chatting away, oblivious AF 😂

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Hen to Athena: Karen's not a bomb waiting to go off.

No, but EVA is. You shouldn't even be entertaining her

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First scenes straight from slasher films, and now a real life zombie. As someone who doesn't even LIKE horror movies, this episode is making me shudder

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The detective talking about how it was the husband who killed the woman, and he had a history of domestic abuse. And all I can think is that was so close to where Maddie could have ended up. Maddie was one of the lucky ones 😢

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All these women in labour - my worst fricking nightmare.

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Buck: Locust Pose. (Bobby gives him a surprised look.) I dated like 50 yoga instructors.

That... does not surprise me at all

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Oh shit, the dude was INSIDE the house?!? This really IS like a slasher film.

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The guy just standing in the shadows of the doorway, his face all obscured is, as the title of the ep suggests, creepy AF. That would be terrifying for anyone to see, even more so for this poor defenceless old lady.

And this is why I own a big dog.