20142208

[20142208]

So, update on the GP: she doesn't believe me because I don't 'dress masculine enough' even though I was literally wearing my binder, men's pants, men's shirt, men's shoes and a men's hoodie? She also said I wear too much jewellery (two rings - one black one silver - a necklace and earrings) and that I would 'make more of an effort' if I truly wanted to be seen as male. Then when I told her I wasn't out to my mum and that's why I was still wearing jewellery (even though jewellery doesn't have a gender??) and she said that was no excuse? I mean, sure it's not like coming out to my mum could get me kicked out or anything NOOO not at ALLLLL. So that didn't go well. I cried. Talking about how shitty dysphoria makes me feel is always A+ insta-cry. She told me to talk to my psychiatrist because my schizophrenia complicates things, which I expected but I have also been feeling this way for way longer than I've had schizophrenia. Then because I was so sad afterwards my mum noticed and I wound up telling her all about it. Surprisingly she still is okay with me, though she has specified that she would only ever see me as androgynous rather than male but I'll take it for now. My mum also said she would help me set up getting a breast reduction. So there are some positives. Will update after my psychiatrist appointment.

[20142208]

So I’m finally going to talk to my GP about starting the assessment for Hormone Replacement Therapy, and talk to my psychiatrist about getting a formal diagnosis of gender dysphoria. I’m really nervous, but at the same time it could mean that I could get on testosterone in the next year or two? Maybe even sooner.

However, my question to the tag and my followers is: Which T should I be considering? Which is most effective? I mean, I really like the sounds of the gel but it’s expensive… I’ve also heard that they make a pill? Though it ‘isn’t as effective at stopping [female function]’ apparently. EDIT: Also apparently very hard on the liver. I don’t want to take the injections because I have been on a once-a-month injection before and the anxiety that it gave me was not worth the benefit. I couldn’t imagine doing my own shot or doing it every week or two. Ahhh I don’t know.

I talk to my GP tomorrow (and I’m probably going to cry tbh) and my psychiatrist on Thursday, so wish me luck!

Have a great day!

[20142208]

everday things

[20142208]

Muscle difference between pre-t and 1 year on T

[20142208]

i hope every transgender or nonbinary person in the world has a nice safe day

[20142208]

First and third are with binder, second and fourth are without. The binder (underworks 997) is comfortable to wear all day with minimal discomfort after taking it off (nothing that doesn't happen with a bra). It rolled a little but nothing major.

[20142208]

Will post comparison with bra on at the end of the day. Large underworks binder, H-ish bra cup. There is still a pretty noticeable bump on my chest, but clothes can hide it somewhat

[20142208]

dysphoria and friends alex reeder (2014)

[20142208]

No one really replied to my Penpal ad - though, on the bright side, it's probably because they perceived me as male! So I'm excited about that!

[20142208]

Binder Giveaway Information

Hello everyone!

Concerning the binder giveaway, I've found that the common size for the people that have messaged me is medium. I will be ordering three of these binders in a few weeks (once I have more money available). Feel free to keep messaging me about binders, because I would love to help more people in the future.

Hope everyone is having a great day!

[20142208]

Hi, I love what you're doing for everyone that's very nice of you! I kind of entered but i notice you kinda refer to the possible winners as "guys of the same size" which sort of makes me feel like i have less of a chance being non-binary. would it be too much trouble to ask that you use a neutral term?

Sorry! I just use 'guys' in my everyday speech for man, woman, child and everything in between!))) You have no less chance being non-binary, and I will try to use a different term, even though I do mean it as gender neutral, if that is something that makes people uncomfortable.Hope you have a great day!

[20142208]

Hello New Followers!

Hello! Also, sorry for the spam of questions, they'd been piling up since I left.

[20142208]

Hi, i think it is wonderful that you are doing a giveaway like this and i was wondering if i could enter? i dont know how you are choosing people out of everyone who wants to enter but um, i would like to. do you have any more information on how exactly you are going to do it?

Hello! Thank you! I'm trying to get three guys the same size together so I can bulk order, other than that it is literally just 'hm, I think this dude really needs it' which sounds really fickle.My only 'limitations' is that the person entering doesn't have the means to get a binder themselves, and they experience dysphoria. I'm more likely to choose guys that have either aged-out of the free binder giveaways or the centres that give away binders, because they really have no other options.

[20142208]

wait, are you having a binder giveaway or is it if someone asks ? ;;; because I'm in need of a binder (gender queer)

I guess it is technically a giveaway since I'm giving the binder away, but all you have to do to 'enter' is send me your underworks size off anon. I'm looking at ordering the tri-top or the 997 (which I just ordered and it is fantastic, I would recommend if you don't have a flat stomach)

[20142208]

do you have three people yet?

I do not! But I am keeping a list of the sizes people have sent in. There isn't three of the same size yet though.

[20142208]

Hey, have you ordered the binders yet? I'm in desperate need.

No I haven't! Please message me off anon and we can discuss.))))

[20142208]

Hey, I saw your post about probably getting trans guys in need a binder (if I didn't misunderstand it). Uhm, is that still up to date? I am a 16 year old FtM from Germany, I get little to no support from my parents and I can't get a binder via the internet (I can't pay online). Unfortunately I am so large chested that I can't bind with layering nor with sport bras :(

As a fellow large-chested guy I understand that pain. I will warn you that the binder will not get you completely flat, if that is what you are looking for, but it helped me with chest dysphoria.I don't mind sending the binder anywhere in the world, I don't think that it's that expensive anyway. The only thing is that maybe warn your parents that you are getting a 'compression garment' that will make you feel more comfortable, or something to that effect. That's how I got my parents used to the idea.I'd need your size and I'll write it down on my little list.