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disclaimer post

Hi everyone! Welcome to my blog, I hope you're having a good day. In an effort to make sure your day continues to be a good day, I just thought I should take a post to explain what this blog is so you don't stumble across something you wanted to avoid.

This is a mostly personal blog with a dash of lifestyle, but for the most part, this is a digital diary, I'm going to try to post biweekly at the very least. Anyways , in short, this is basically the anonymous diary of a twenty-something-year-old trying to survive in the world, along with my thoughts on life, life lessons, the world, and my place in it.

For the most part in an effort to not make this blog a sad and sulky space for myself and others, I probably won't be talking about really dark topics, if that changes I'll put a warning in the header. But more often than not that won't be the case. However, this is still my raw thoughts on life and sometimes I may mention something not so cheery that I once thought when I while was growing in myself that may be mentioned to say "this is what I used to think" but will be followed up with my present day thoughts that have evolved since. In short, some parts of growing up are not so fun and I think it's still important to talk about so that all of us growing up know that we weren't alone in those thoughts and experiences, but we also grew from them.

If this sounds like your cup of tea, I hope you enjoy it here and feel understood. If not, that cool too, and I hope you find you're special space. And for everyone, eat, drink some water, take your vitamins, rest, and take care of yourself🩷

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don’t delay your healing by keeping tabs on them. live your life. let them live theirs. let yourself move on, and don’t waste your energy on them.

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Entry 1?

I think that every new season in your life is marked by taking a risk or doing something that you’ve never done before. When you were a kid, you had to go to school for the first time and that was a big change for you at the time, some of us even cried.

Now that we’re older the stakes are higher. We’re actually at an age where we have something to lose and no one is forcing us or telling us what to do and we don’t know what’s expected of us by default bc there is no default picture of adulthood outside of trying to be financially stable I guess (really long run on sentence there I’m sure lol). Because of that change is spooky, scary even.

But it’s a natural part of life that must occur.

Without it we never grow, we never progress, we never get better, we never have new experiences. Everyday doesn’t need to be extraordinary, but everyday should not be the exact same mundane thing back to back.

For me, this means trying to get a new job. I’ve been working at the same job since high school with the exception of the on campus job I had in uni. Every summer, I’ve always gone back to that job because I knew it like the back of my hand, it’s comfortable. But now that I’ve finished uni I’ve realized that I don’t have to go back to that job. I can actually do something in my field before I go to law school. And this isn’t really about pay because I have to admit that my state’s minimum wage is great compared to the federal minimum wage and there’s nothing wrong with that job, it’s not fun but it’s decent work. It’s about needing to move on. It’s about wanting to create the life I want for myself. Life is full of choices, you can choose to be sad and stagnant or you can choose change and have the possibility of a life you love.

Life is about taking risks. We will all live and die. Wouldn’t it be better to go feeling content with what you’ve done with your time here? When we’re young like this, we have a lot less responsibilities, i.e kids, spouses, mortgages, so we have less to lose by taking a gamble. That doesn’t mean pull a Trish at every job from Austin and Ally but it does mean you should consider your happiness your wants, your desires, your future, and make a good attempt at aligning yourself with what you want your life to be alongside the actual hard work. And those things don’t have to be what everyone else is doing, you don’t need to compare your life to everyone else’s. Do what you want to do. Do what you think will make you happy. In every part of your life you should chase long term joy, something that brings you peace, something that you can look back and be grateful you did.

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go watch Barbie

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My Long Term Plans/Goals

Apply and go to Law School + study Public Policy (I can explain why if y’all want), right now I’m trying to study for my LSAT exam and I won’t lie to you guys, it’s not a fun or easy experience, it’s actually very humbling and requires you to put in a lot of time and effort, but this is the only career field I can see myself in and I really don’t wanna die broke AND in student loan debt so…gots to see it through my boy

Spend my gap year bringing peace to my life, trying to bring happiness to it. Idk if that makes sense to you guys but that’s the best way to describe my gap year plan outside of applying for LS

Finish 12 books by the end of the year, though I did start late I think I can do it. So far I’ve read 4. Let me know if you guys want my rating/review on the ones I’ve read so far and future books.

Save up for my first car.

Save up to go on my first solo trip, though that depends start working again, how much money I’m able to save, put towards bills, my car, etc, but I just want to go at least out of the state and plan some stuff that I want to do and have fun you know, explore, not everything can be done at home if that makes sense, feel free to give me travel/excursion recs, I’d love some ideas!

Lastly, I wanna grow stronger in my faith. I’ve recently got back into my faith of Christian I after being lukewarm for a couple years but after a lot of stuff that happened I found my way back. This is totally still a welcome space for everybody, because my God loves everyone and teaches us to love everyone and also because idk I don’t really understand disliking someone for their faith yk, at most u might see a scripture that I thought was really enlightening but that’ll probably be sporadic, this is still a space for everyone Christian or not.

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My Coming of Age Show/Movie

This blog is really just the random thoughts and experiences of a 20 something year old. Imagine your average 90s/2000s family sitcom or a cute coming of age movie where the characters just wanna go out and have a fun time. Sometimes you’ll see something mundane and typical, sometimes you might see something cool or inspiring, but it’s always going to be a regular semi introverted person trying to live life to the fullest. That’s why I call it a show or a movie. Romanticizing my average life is fun when I see it like a cute little sitcom. It doesn’t have to be extraordinary, it just has to be and that’s enough. And I hope that through documenting my experiences, maybe I can just idk have something cool to look back on, to keep me inspired to keep going, like a scrapbook that lives on after me showing that whatever I become, all I am is a person, a girl, who has likes and dislikes and dreams and loves and favorite foods and shows and experiences and did things everyone had done and no one has done bc ig this page is just meant to show humanity, that’s all we are. I guess that’s what this page is, showing humanity, showing that we’re all different and alike all at the same time. Whatever we’ve been or done, someone before us has been through or done already. We aren’t the only one or an odd one, and I guess this page is just meant to highlight that.

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A Long Overdue Update

since I literally just came back to my account after idk 4 years and it’s actually refreshing to be back, I missed it. I read through my old drafts, changed my bio, etc so guess I’ll give you guys all the updates.

I’m not a teenager anymore, the last time I was on this account I was 17 and a high school senior...now I’m 20 (though I turn 21 in abt a week so let’s round up ig) and I’ll be done with uni in a week!

I don’t write anymore, though I did read one of my old drafts and it made me realize that I used to be able to write really well actually so who knows maybe that will change.

I don’t read nearly as much anymore either, I’ve recently gotten back into it but I read nowhere near as much as I used to and I don’t enjoy the same kinds of books that I used to. I’ve recently finished (and loved) the main Selection trilogy? (idk if it counts as a trilogy bc the author gave us two more books that feature the 2 main character but the best way to describe it is a spin off ig bc they aren’t the focus anymore) and right now I’m reading Game of Thrones because I need more content with those characters that I’ve missed since the show ended.

I don’t watch half the things I used to watch, in part because I grew out of them or they ended, so Voltron, Jane the Virgin, Steven Universe, KOTLC, PJO, She-Ra all that stuff, you probably wont see here very often since I don’t really watch/read them anymore, YJ is a special case though, I might get into that another day but don’t expect me to post much if at all on that (plus didn’t it just get cancelled again?) KOTLC is also a special case, I’ll read it only when a new book comes out because at this point I just need to know how this all ends, but I doubt I’ll be active in the fandom.

If you were wondering what I do now, I’m into GoT, AWAE (though those shows are finished so) HotD, Arcane, Euphoria, Bridgerton, Attack on Titan, Spy x Family, Sanditon, however I’m not really “in” the fandom for any of these, and probably more that I just don’t remember, but feel free to give me recs bc I’ll still watch them and maybe give a hot take abt it occasionally lol

Finally, I’m not sure what I gonna do with this account to be quite honest. I’m not deleting it but I don’t think I’ll have a clear theme. I think the best way to describe my plan is like a coming of age sort/lifestyle sort of blog. I’ve grown up now, and to a degree, I’m just now finding myself, in part due to the fact that we were in a pandemic for like 2 years and because of a lot of other stuff. But I hope you’ll join me for the ride, and all the funny stuff in between, just think of this as a place where I document my joys and experiences, the cool stuff, the mundane stuff, and even the quirky stuff in between.

I know that my account wasn’t big before I practically abandoned it but feel free to ask me anything regardless or if you were here way before or if your new lol.

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Dr. Fate joined the League a few months after the bus disappeared. Makes sense it would be news to the driver

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What was the Legion DOING if they didn't save Conner? 🤨

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Season 1 tingz

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there is nothing deader than a dead love

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Look at where we are…

Look at where we started…

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OMG! I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!! THIS IS THE BEST EVER! EM’REE AND M’GANN ARE BONDING! Em’ree is beginning to help M’gann heal. It’s just so beautiful.

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i can't believe season 4 went and established that m'gann doing eternal marie logan cosplay is completely normal behavior on mars because EVERYONE'S out here cosplaying tv characters in their daily life. instead of picking an outfit for the day you spend an hour deciding if you'd rather go to school as bill nye the science guy or squidward. you come downstairs for breakfast and see your mom is being bill clinton today. incredible

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We better see Kaldur when they inevitably travel to Xebel to find this magic crown thing.

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something i've been thinkin about: yj!nightwing showing up on infinity island demanding his brother, but not specifying which one, and finding out that the one he wasn't trying to track down either exists or is still alive?

dick, rolling up to infinity island after losing tim at the park: hey, i'm looking for my brother? black hair, blue eyes, kind of annoying, answers to "robin"?

ra's: oh yeah i got you *brings out an amnesiac jason todd with a baby leash* here you go

dick: ...............ok thanks