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01.28.2020

I’m glad I got a damn raise first!!

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01.17.2020

What is there to even say.

Life; it’s real fucking interesting sometimes.

People; they’re real fucking fake most times.

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01.11.2020

I miss having a bond with somebody I could fall asleep next to. I wish I felt safe with somebody.

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01.11.2020

I’m so tired; mentally exhausted.

I don’t think people are ever truly prepared for someone like me.

So damn nice but so damn broken.

Fuck ‘em all. I will rise up from these ashes & bitch I will fly.

The pain was only supposed to be temporary

You weren’t supposed to decide to live there forever.

You can’t build you’re bed on hot embers; it’ll bring down the entire house.

You can’t be everyone’s, everything, all of the time; especially when they forget to be yours.

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01.10.2020

Terrified if I do

& terrified if I don’t...

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01.09.2020

I kinda wish I hadn’t done this update.

#eyerollemoji

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01.08.2020

Funny how everybody just ‘want somebody who stay in the house’... until they find somebody that stay in the house.

Then it’s:

damnnn you really just be staying in the house?!

Yesss bitchhh, my stuff is here.

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01.04.2020

It’s like the new year brought on a full body purge. After being so sick, unable to eat for 2 days - vomiting any fluids I dared to drink... I strangely feel a different kind of better.

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...because sometimes you just have to indulge your inner five year old...

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12.31.2019

I’m excited for 2o2o.

It’s going to be an amazing year, full of self love; focus & clarity; blessings & gratitude; happiness & success; good vibes, new adventures & experiences.

I will thrive.

I will be brave.

I will be determined & resilient.

I will be unfazed.

I will be the strongest me I have ever seen.

2o2o; I’m finding me.

Hey beautiful, don’t forget to love yourfuckingself!

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12.05.2019

Is the universe testing me, or am I testing the universe...?

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12.03.2019

Starting to focus more. I need to touch my life, instead of just coasting through it.

I started a planner, I’m going to track my spendings & behaviors. Create a new system for myself that will hopefully help me focus on what’s real & tangible.

Plan for the future? Maybe I’ll try...?

Create goals...? This is goal number 1.

Who am I? What do I want? 🤷🏻��♀️

It’s so easy to say ‘well I know I DONT want’... but who am I bruh? & wtf do I want...?

I want to create a budget for myself & one of the most helpful hints I have learned in my research - Budget BY PAY CYCLE. Whether it be weekly or bi-weekly budgeting; using a four week plan (unless you get paid monthly...) well it just sounds kind of illogical, and there’s much more room for error.

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12.01.2019

• took my first vitamin.

• said something nice to myself.

• created a blog to mark this day.

• got ideas for my first meal prep.

I’ve done a good job adjusting my vibe internally, taking my self to a more positive light mentally - but I often forget that though I’m wonderful at taking care of others, I often forget about my A-1 priority: myself.

I need to do better & I will do better. Have got to set this goodness in motion. I am the only one that can drive my force.