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Hey guys, I hate to be writing this- but I sadly have to leave the group. I'm taking 7 classes this upcoming semester and am about to pick up a 3rd job. I love everyone in this group so so dearly, but I simply don't have the time to dedicate to this group any longer and don't want to half-ass my commitment to you all. I'll keep these accounts open and pop in on them from time to time to read what you've written and see what's going on, and my Skype will always be open for you guys to message me on. I really feel as though I've gained a great group of friends, I love and care about you all so deeply and I hope we can stay in touch, and even more so I hope I can come back and rejoin you all someday soon. Thank you all for a remarkable experience. You're all incredible.

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[pm] A friend of mine gave me a beetle brooch and I thought of you. I can't wait for you to see it!

[pm] I look forward to seeing it! Is it made with a real beetle? 

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Left on Anita’s desk is a wrapped DVD of The Invention of Lying, an unopened package of popcorn. Ten resin blocks containing insects surround the gift with a note: ’Thought of you. Enjoy - Reed’. 

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[A box of assorted insect chocolates (yes, made with real insects) is left in Anita’s work locker with a small note that just says “Merry Christmas. R. K.”.]

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Who gave you your last kiss? Did it mean anything?

Sarah. No. Yes? No.

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Do you like to be dominant or submissive?

I prefer to be dominant, but there are some perks to being submissive. I typically let my partner take the lead and just go with the flow. 

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What color/type of underwear are you wearing?

Right now? I’m not wearing any underwear. 

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Have you ever been a stripper?

No, I have not. In retrospect that would probably have been an easier way to pay my way through school though. 

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Do you prefer for your partner to be silent, or do you like moans?

I prefer whatever makes them feel comfortable. Some women like being silent, others like being very vocal. As long as I know they’re enjoying themselves, that’s all I really care about 

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What is your strangest sexual fantasy?

Me, 1980s Molly Ringwald, 1990s Jennifer Connelly, and Modern-day Angelina Jolie. 

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How many times do you pee per day?

5? I don’t really count. 

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Who do you want to sleep with in Ashkent Creek?

It would be far easier to make a list of people I don’t want to sleep with. 

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themoral-dilemma:

[pm] Maybe you should give it some thought. Maybe you should go out with a girl just for drinks. Or by yourself. 

I told you death was easy, Heather No, that’s different. That’s dealing with the already dead, with bodies, cadavers. Most of the bodies you deal with aren’t people you knew, and especially not someone you slept with. Worrying won’t help you find what makes you happy, trust me. My sister used to worry all the time 

If you’re lucky enough to have the capability to feel happiness, in whatever form, you better damn well take it. Some of us people don’t have that capability. You’re right, though– not everyone gets a happy ending, but that doesn’t mean you can’t be happy some of the time.

[pm] I don’t think that’s really something I want to think about just yet. Drinks and girls are the two things I’m attempting to avoid. Though that really hasn’t been working out. 

I don’t really think worrying is the right word for what I’m trying to grapple with. I’ve been thinking of it more in terms of trying to figure out who I really am. I think when tragedy strikes we try to re-invent ourselves to cope with it, and at some point we need to stop and try to figure out if the reinvention is who we really are or if it’s just a facade. 

Do you believe in karma?

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themoral-dilemma replied to your post: What extra sense would you love to experience for...

No you wouldn’t.

Maybe not. I guess you never know until you’ve experienced it.

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sciencebanshee:

[pm] You moved from Mexico to Santa Barbara when you were 8. You may still have family in Mexico or California; almost definitely not local, since you’ve never mentioned them. You’re gay. You drink fairly frequently and sleep with a lot of women. You’re strangely open to hearing about cadavers “waking up” and attacking me, without expressing any doubt about the situation having really occurred. You eat an inordinate amount of meat and have expressed to me before that you have an unusual dietary requirement– and let’s not forget that I saw you eat a bug. You have an extensive insect collection. You’re loyal to those who you consider friends, even if those friends hardly know anything about you and you about them. You’re receptive to hearing about “the supernatural” and seem to know a lot more about it– or, well, folklore– than you try to let on. And you had a girlfriend named Priya at some point, who died. 

I’m nowhere near as good as Marley when it comes to forensic profiling– and I strongly feel it’s mostly spongy psychological guesswork anyways– but this all came from you.

[pm] Okay, so I open up to you slightly more than others. But you’ve told me plenty of things about yourself as well, and said even more through what you didn’t say or lied about. And I know you’re smart enough to know that those sprinkles of facts aren’t the whole picture of who I am, just as I am about you. 

I guess the point I was trying to make earlier was just that, I get it. I think you and I are more alike than we are different. 

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What extra sense would you love to experience for a day?

Well, I already have a few extra senses than humans do. 

I’d love to be able to read people’s emotions. Be able to just look at them and tell what sort of mood they are in.

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themoral-dilemma:

[pm] I can tell. Distractions can be good, but you’re right– if they take away from your main focus, then maybe you ought to reassess that. Do you want something more?

Why are you telling me this Death is hard. I would know. And I know it always makes people think they need to reevaluate their lives and change because life is short and you only live once– but if you spend too much of life worrying about not spending your life doing what makes you happy, then you’ll lose sight of it all, anyway. Damn my need to psychoanalyze everything

Huh, guess you can take the memory out of a girl, but not the psychologist.

[pm] Something more? No. I don’t think so. Maybe. I never gave it a ton of thought.

I deal with death every day at work, it may be hard to deal with sometimes, but it’s also one of the most straightforward things we ever do in life. Yeah, that makes sense. But if I’m not even sure about what makes me happy, maybe it’s time for some time-consuming worry. Besides, some of us aren’t meant to be happy. Sometimes that’s just how life goes.