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I just want some love, why is this so fucking difficult?

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✨get control again✨

I recently tried to recover so this post is just gonna be things to help me get control again

✨DIET✨

Mon:250cals

Tue:200cals

Wed:300cals

Thur:400cals

Fri:0-150cals

Sat:450cals

Sun450cals

Rules:

Drink 4 cups of water/very diluted squash for breakfast and 2 cups of tea

Only eat Lunch (at 11am-1pm)

Only have healthy foods.no chocolate even if it fits in the limit

The only cereal aloud is weetabix because you cannot measure the rest

Make most of your diet vegetables or high in protein quorn

Intermittent fasting!!!

Do a food log on tumblr every day to keep on track

✨reasons to restrict✨

To pass as a cisboy

To be attractive and get a boyfriend

So you look small against all of your friends, although you are taller than them

So people won’t stare at you when you’re out

So your family actually cares and worries about you for once

To look cute in all outfits

To be able to fit in your shorter friends clothes

So you’re not the fat sibling

So you’re not sweating all the time

So you feel light and empty again

To prove them wrong

To see the bones

To be cute again

✨Distractions✨

Write in your BoS

Write a story

Draw the story

Make characters

Draw yourself at your gw

Draw cute outfits you could wear

Watch a new show

Watch a marvel movie

Scroll through thinspo or some pro ana site

Watch shows like supersizevsuperskinny

Plan what you’re going to eat this week

Count to 100

Play on your DS

Play on apps

Watch YouTube

Watch Eugenia Cooney or clothes hauls

Make your siblings food

Paint

“Dance” to your favourite song

Think about going back to school skinny

Read a book

Study

Exercise

Watch a zombie movie.you won’t be hungry after that

Tidy your room

Pray

Go for a walk

Play with siblings

✨Exercise✨

Walk for an hour and a half every day (go to the beach or something)

Exercise for around 30 minutes a day

In the morning:

100 crunches

100 side leg lifts

100 bicycle crunches

2 minutes of laying cycling/wall sit/plank

Repeat for 5-10mins

After lunch

200 crunches

100 side leg lifts

59 front leg lifts

150 bicycle crunches

1 minutes of laying cycling/wall sit/plank

Repeat for 10-20mins

In the evening

150 crunches

150 side leg lifts

100 bicycle crunches

50 crunches

3 minutes of laying cycling/wall sit/plank

Repeat for 5-15mins

✨Things to remember✨

Chew your food until you can no longer

Drink water between bites

Use your not dominant hand to eat

Don’t watch anything when you eat

You don’t need to eat everything on the plate, leave some behind

Every calorie counts

So does every step

Nobody likes you for a reason

You have no friends for a reason

You won’t lose weight if you don’t drink

Stay safe💞

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i made this diet, which i’m gonna follow until christmas

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🌇My ED Playlist🌇

Breathe Me - Sia

Skinny Love - Bon Iver

Bleed Like Me - Garbage

Low - Coldplay

The Fear - Lily Allen

Bones - The Killers

Creep - Radiohead

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple

Self-Fulfilling Prophecy - Maria Mena

Alive Again - Marianas Trench

Skin and Bones - Marianas Trench

I’m Not a Vampire - Falling in Reverse

Mrs. Potato Head - Melanie Martinez

Camisado - Panic! At The Disco

Time To Dance - Panic! At The Disco

Teen Idle - Marina and the Diamonds

Obsessions - Marina and the Diamonds

Power & Control - Marina and the Diamonds

Valley of the Dolls - Marina and the Diamonds

Are You Satisfied? - Marina and the Diamonds

Live Happy, Live With Anorexia - Stage

Anorexia Nervosa - Mellow Melange

Skinny - Edith Backlund

Waiting to Be Weightless - ElsyianSoul

Ana’s Song (Open Fire) - Silverchair

Skeleton Song - Kate Nash

Starving For Attention - The Narrative

Ana & Mia - The Trews

Me and Mia - Ted Leo and the Pharmacists

Cars & Calories - Saves The Day

Lucy At The Gym - Jill Sobule

Just a Little Bit - Maria Mena

Annie’s Anorexic - Huntingtons

Coffee and Cigarettes - Augustana

Eyesore - Marina Mena

Sophie - Elenor McEvoy

Somebody I Once Knew - Dead Celebrity Status

Beauty From Pain - Superchick

a protest in lines too thin to read - Evaline

Cause and Effect - Maria Mena

Decadence and Disorder (The Voice of Anorexia) - ElysianSoul

Beautiful - Bethany Dillon

My Body Is a Cage - Sara Lov

Skin & Bones - Picture Me Broken

Movie Stars And Super Models - The Rocket Summer

Penny Is An Anorexic - Saturday Supercade

Binge And Purge - Lunachicks

Anorexic Beauty - Pulp

I Hate The way - Polly Scattergood

When She Cries - Britt Nicole

Skin - Sixx:A.M.

My Skin - Natalie Merchant

Bulimic Beats - Catatonia, Tommy D And Joe Gibb

Emotional Anorexic - Svavar Knútur

Please Eat - Nicole Dollanganger

Cut - Plumb

Dear Diary - Mikelwj

The Way She Feels - Between The Trees

Hunger - Florence + The Machine

Anorexia - Fakebestfriend

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i hope august will be THE month

REBLOG FOR A BINGE FREE AUGUST.

I need this month to be the significant one.

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You’re gonna sleep like a baby tonight.

🌖🌗🌘🌑🌒🌓🌔

In your dreams everything is all right.

- U2

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Everything you touch surely dies. 🥀🌘

Passenger - Let her go

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You’re the best thing about me. 💜

The best things are easy to destroy.🔪

- U2-

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I hope love finds you in 2018

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“I just gonna be myself to go to hell”

Marilyn Manson 🔮

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Better than Satan

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/Reverendo/

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2/18/93. 🔮

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"As a teenager I was so insecure. I was the type of guy that never fitted in because he never dared to choose. I was convinced I had absolutely no talent at all. For nothing. And that thought took away all my ambition too." _Johnny Depp_

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young and pale…