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Missing my pookie bear (the 8ft tall half spider god in a grimdark forest full of radiation that liked me and we ate a man together and got married and he made us a nest in the trees and we fucked hard)

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No no no Im fine Im fine I just. I need a moment (watched the Magicarp song and currently crying over how the song goes from "useless pokemon" "worthless pokemon" to "beloved pokemon") *sob*

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I have fucked up brain that refuses to see watching lectures, reading books and articles or listening to podcasts as studying and as such I have a really hard time doing any of those because they "dont count as studying". I AM IN UNIVERSITY. That is like 90% of what my studies consist of.

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I took Grizzly as a new villager bc he was fine enough and I ran out of tickets. I saw this man's house. Was so shocked I had to remodel his house to actually give him a good place.

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Playing ACNH again and Im trying to force Lionel to leave. This mf has survived like four move outs bc I got tired and let someone else leave. He will be forced to leave now. The bubble is jumping on literally everyone else and every time it just strengthens my resolve to send this mf away

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My least favorite thing about Baldur's Gate 3 reight now is that I play on custom explorer. I dont want hard combat. Why do all the bosses have legendary actions!!!!! There is no option to turn it off which is fucking awful. And the internet is lying to me claiming that legendary actions shouldnt be on in normal custom mode. Well they are and Im going to scream soon

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ArtFight is around the corner again and like a very casual reminder it is supposed to be for fun. I've seen a lot of people bring up how they'd like to participate but it's too stressful and it isnt supposed to be. The whole thing is just a backdrop for some fun art trades.

On that note I've seen some people genuinely stress about making reference sheets for all their characters and spend all their energy and enthusiasm on making ref sheets and then not have energy to make art when the Fight actually starts. You dont necessarily even need a ref sheet if you have any art that shows most of the character. Hell even using a base for that should be fine. You also dont need to list every oc you have, given that most people will only draw one character of yours, so having only a few is entirely fine.

Anyways! Youre doing it right if youre having fun ArtFighting! No need to stress about it!

I've also seen a lot of new people say they'd like to join but they only do traditional (totally fine!), worry they're not good enough (no need to worry about that, I and many others pick characters to draw based on design and not skill level), they feel like they will be failures if they dont make x amount of art (just one attack will brighten someone else's day, I made three drawings last year, you dont need to make more than you have time & energy for) or that they wont get any art (most people will at least try to attack back those who drew for them so if you draw for others you have a good chance to get art)

Also it helps to have different types of characters, such as animal & human, because not everyone can draw everything, variety can help (for example I have human/humanoid, animal/furry and mlp ocs listed for my page)

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Love the concept of Bad Thing that provides protection from Even Worse Thing. This villan has dibs on killing me someday, so they’re not going to let anyone else do it. Person has a permanent illness that’s super hostile to any other type of infection. Lawful evil tyrant absolutely PISSED at chaotic evil invader killing their subjects. Person has been cursed by the gods but the curse supersedes all other hexes and magical ills. This shit absolutely charges my batteries.

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It has just occurred to me that of all the characters in Winnie the Pooh, the only ones that lack both fingerless stuffing hands and faint seam lines (the indications that someone is a stuffed animal) are Rabbit and Owl. Which carries the possible implication that Rabbit and Owl are just a normal rabbit and owl living with a bunch of sentient stuffed animals.

And somehow this makes Rabbit’s constant consternation with all of his neighbors even funnier to me.

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Yeah I think that was it really

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Me recently: oh look this piece of media I was super super into as a kid! Wow let me check it out as an adult!

The Media: has hot women

My gay ass, now putting 2 and 2 together bc yeah I was so obviously into the women small me just didnt know it

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I need some of you mfs to start writing more fics for Wyll. I've read them all already. Give me more.

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Imagine youre in university. Your friend is stressing about their chemistry labs and math exams on medication they cannot make a single mistake on and you? You have a google search due on Friday

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yeah they dropped a new love language. yeah a sixth one. its biting

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I hate that Im making people in my life worry that Im going to kill myself because realistically I dont want to. I want to be alive and happy. Reasonably and legally I am entitled to the disability taxi service. I am! Ive had it for 4.5 years. So they should give it to me

But this is what I thought in my original application too. Ive had it for that long and have literally no other way of moving around. And they didnt give it to me bc Im not "disabled enough". Also my therapist told me its unlikely they are going to change their minds.

So like. I cant bare to think about whats going to happen if they dont give them to me. I have gotten so much worse in just two months I do not think I will survive a third. Especially given I would no longer have any hope.

Ive been decaying mind and body for nearly two months. I dont have it in me to keep going like this. I cant plan anything. I cant think of happy memories or good things because knowing I might never be able to do anything again makes me want to die so hard it becomes immediately dangerous. And at this point I cant. I cant do anything. Im scared.

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Me from six months ago is in raging and throwing things at the wall that the first time I had a good time living it was taken from me