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13 Reasons Why

I always liked to think true justice existed

The kind the universe best serves cold

So cold that sometimes you miss it 

We all like to believe that we’ll be around for it

That we’ll be able to bear witness

Most times we aren’t so lucky

But every once in a while we get a chance

I almost didn’t start 13 Reasons Why

Now I’ll be done with the series before dawn 

This is my true justice

Those who suffer at the hands of others

Those of us who will never be able to run away

We are the misunderstood

No one ever understood my decision

On October 26th to end my life

Not even the people who pushed me to do it

There was never any justice for me

Although my mom tried and I love her for that

But I see a movement creeping on the horizon

This show is justice for me

For every person who has killed themselves

Every person who has attempted to kill themselves

Every person who will spend their life

Crying into their empty soul

Over something someone else did to them

And I could never be more grateful for that

So I hope this sparks inspiration for you

Be a voice for others

Even if it’s just encouraging others to listen

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I’m literally doing my best but I’m not gonna beg anyone to understand that

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I’m Sorry

I’m sorry I’m not good enough

that my smile doesn’t make your day

and that my laugh is so loud 

you can’t even hear yourself think

I’m sorry I can’t stop scratching

that I can’t stop tapping my feet

and that I feel so uncomfortable

we always have to leave

I’m sorry I like the dark

that I’m asleep when you need me

and that I always cry so much

I hit myself until I bleed

I’m sorry I don’t listen well

that I can never hold a conversation

and that talk to much

or that I never have good reasons

I’m sorry I’m here

I should have never come

I’m sorry I exist

I’m sorry

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I smoked and listened to the same song over and over again until I could no longer feel a thing.

Numb (via love-sex-n-cigarettes)

THIS

(via ew-sadness)

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I’m glad she was everything you were looking for

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sometimes getting out of bed is just too hard

so I sleep on the couch

and lock the bedroom door

sometimes living this life is just too much

so I threw away the scissors

and only eat with spoons

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what doesn’t kill you leaves you lying awake at 2am wishing it had

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tired of feeling

i want to be numb

but then when i’m numb

i’d rather be feeling

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how do you explain to someone that you don’t want to die but existing is just a little too hard for you right now

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College

Professor: I just want you to succeed

Professor: *talks so fast you can't take notes*

Professor: *doesn't post lecture powerpoint online*

Professor: *sells book for $100 that is the lecture powerpoint fill in the blank style*

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