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Cato: let’s play a game

Glimmer: okay…?

Cato: it’s called did Clove say this to me or to her knives

Glimmer: this should be easy

Cato: “i love you more than life itself”

Glimmer: this was a mistake

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Cato: excuse me, have you ever been arrested? Clove: yes Cato: i was going to say “because it’s illegal to be that cute” but now i’m curious Clove: aggravated assault

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Clove: [banging a pen on the table out of frustration]

Cato: Stop that, how would you feel if I banged you on the table?

Clove: I- I don't know the correct answer to that question...

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omg my heart

“isabelle’s gonna be the one.” #clatoforever

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day 10

fresh off the boat (2015)

something about this feels comfortable and healing. i'm only on the first season (and i'm not sure i'll be bingeing the rest since i'm taking a break from sitcoms) but i was initially worried it'd turn out racist and handle stereotypes in the cheesy fashion which most products of hollywood emanate. while i don't relate to the specific asian-american experiences of cultural assimilation, it feels warm being able to see parts of my culture being shown to a broader audience. i read up on it a bit and found that this was the first asian-american sitcom in two decades (this being defined by how the sitcom revolves on an asian family-slash-household-slash-cast) and while i would have given it a lower rating (only because what exactly is new with sitcoms i guess?) this fact alone has made it feel more endearing so i'm at a 7/10. i struggle to put into words how exactly i feel about the show, only because i'm in a bit of a personal slump and words have not been coming easy these past few days, but i saw something from someone named yvonne su that said this about the show. so i'm borrwing it.

"the way we grew up is not shameful, it's just another way. asian parents are different, but not less."

i feel the same way, so strongly, in a different perspective which has somehow been amplified by the fact that i've come back home. being raised in poverty and seeing the huangs' comedic, tightfisted antics has made me feel somewhat seen.

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day 9

extraordinary (2023)

i don't know if it's because of trademark uk dry humor or how they color-grade their shows in a manner that mimics what i can only assume most of their days look like (with little to no sunshine) but extraordinary is so, so fleabag-coded. i'm in love with female protagonists that have no idea what they are doing. i want more shitty role models. more women that allow women to be human and make mistakes and be horrible, selfish creatures before getting it all together (or maybe even without that as the end goal!) we love to see representation. (and beyond that, it's just refreshing to have women as people instead of characters needing redemption arcs and happy endings. what if we are all just shitty and that is okay. not morally sound, perhaps, but okay. human.) an 8/10!

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day 8

only murders in the building: season 2 (2022)

this should count for multiple days as i did binge the entire season but i'm too lazy to figure out how the numbers work so who cares. i love this series, 10/10 as always. it has everything childhood me would have found comfort in: a good mystery, light-hearted comedy, a dash of chosen family and, most importantly, selena gomez.

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this but in the same breath, someone who listens so closely, overtime, they know you. just know you. and it becomes easier to be in tune with each other's internal monologues, almost like it's muscle memory.

i want to be loved so much, i am known.

Many relationships would be a lot healthier if we romanticized honest, open and direct communication instead of idealizing the idea of a partner who's intuitively in tune with your every need. You don't need someone who can read your mind, you just need someone who's willing to listen when you speak.

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day 7

the menu (2022)

this movie gave me anxiety. tyler reminded me of someone that hurts to remember, especially when he called margot a child. i read something earlier today. it said something along the lines of: if you're raised with an angry man in your house, there will always be an angry man in your house. you will find him even when he is not there. and if one day you find that there is no angry man in your house, well you will find one and go invite him in.

i don't think i'll be talking much about the movie at this point.

tyler reminds me of someone that made me feel small and looked down on. even if that might not be all there was to that person -- and while they were obviously not the psychopath tyler was -- even if they were also kind, and compassionate, and loving, and gave me more than i asked... all i can think about is my scorn.

i don't think i can rate this objectively as i'm typing this while only half-way through the movie and all i feel is a heaviness in my chest. it's good. but it is bringing back such bad memories. i don't think i can rate this objectively as i'm typing this while only half-way through the movie and all i feel is a heaviness in my chest. it's good. but it is bringing back such bad memories.

update (might contain spoilers): i got through the whole thing and it felt easier to breathe when tyler died. fuck all tylers. not that i dated one, because his character was a different plane of fucked up, but he was such a trigger i fucking hate that dude. anyway. good movie but something felt lacking i can't put my finger on it my nervous system is still reeling 9/10.

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day 6

triangle of sadness (2022)

i've been gone for a week because work has been stressful as fuck and i had been trying to finish this one film in the span of four days but i keep having to stop because i find myself running out of the capacity to absorb anything. those four days of shot time span aside, this was brilliantly made. my favorite scene is the banquet of vomit and diarrhea. undoubtedly a 10/10.

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Confidence comes from putting yourself out there and stepping outside of your comfort zone despite being scared. If you wait for confidence to precede the action, you’ll be waiting for ever. Moving from fear to faith is what is going to carry you through. Realizing that the fears created in your mind are there to protect you and keep you in your comfort zone, is how you change your perspective.

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day 5

glass onion: a knives out mystery (2022)

my god i love this franchise. what is reality?!?!?!?! a 10/10 compared to the first but honestly only because i've gotten used to the format (blend of anxiety-inducing yet kooky mystery and comedic relief in the form of benoit blanc) so i felt a lot more at ease watching the entire thing knowing (assuming) all would fall into place eventually. this feels like nancy drew for adults. the ending is so much better than i could have ever imagined. i'm obsessed.

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day 4

knives out (2019)

i initially wanted to rank it low because !!! this movie is insane !!! immediately as it begins there are so many things going on !!! but this is a 9/10. i felt very much like marta, in a constant state of wanting to puke (only mine was out of anxiety). it kept me on edge the entire time because i was constantly afraid she'd get caught and it was hard to bear that while also rooting for her. in the end, i felt relieved and stupefied at the twist. it seemed like an obvious alternative (not that obvious, but i mean?? switching vials??? please, i was raised on agatha christie) but i was so distracted by the knot in my stomach that i didn't have time to think about anything else. also, chris evans. a very good distraction. what a hot villain. from now on, all villains must be hot to make up for their moral turpitude.

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"But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for."

We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuit and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.

John Keating, Dead Poets Society - Nancy H. Kleinbaum

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day 3

pride and prejudice (2005)

this is a rewatch (obviously) but it counts because it is one of my absolute favorite movies as a jane austen girlie and i would never miss the chance to talk about it. immediate 10/10 i wouldn't even need to explain. if it's not mr. darcy confessing his love amid pouring rain and elizabeth bennet fiercely rebuking him, i don't want it. no one does slow burn enemies-to-lovers like jane austen anymore. no wonder i couldn't stand men in high school. they could barely string two coherent sentences together let alone be as eloquent. men written by women will forever have my heart. one can only dream of living up to darcy's integrity, and loyalty, and his breathy miss-elizabeth-i-have-struggled-in-vain-and-i-can-bear-it-no-longer-these-past-few-months-have-been-a-torment-i-came-to-rosings-with-the-single-object-of-seeing-you-i-had-to-see-you-i-have-fought-against-my-better-judgment-my-family's-expectations-the-inferiority-of-your-birth-my-rank-and-circumstance-all-these-things-i-am-willing-to-put-aside-and-ask-you-to-end-my-agony-i-love-you-most-ardently.

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day 2

just like heaven (2005)

very honestly this should be a 5/10 but i am generously giving it a 6. only because it's set in the early 2000s (and i am a sucker for nostalgia) plus it has mark ruffalo (who i am an even bigger sucker for). the winding misogynistic spiel against the next-door neighbor wearing workout clothes in the middle of the day and the slut-shaming absolutely turned me off. what a god-awful script. then again, this was filmed in 2004. and i guess mark's laura monologue semi-made up for it. but there are better romcoms out there and i feel i would have been better off skipping this.