adhd-alto-blog

[adhd-alto-blog]

-taking a really long time to respond back to texts because anxiety wants the response to be just right but then you take too long and forget it exists

-S P E N D I N G M O N E Y! and then feeling like shit and not buying anything for a month

-time is either "now" or "somewhere off in the crushing inevitibilty of the oncoming future"

-feeling stuck inside your head in social situations! and making a mental script to follow but forgetting it instantly because short term memory isn't about that

i mean they really just feed off of each other thanks brain!

Having both anxiety and adhd(pi) is wild

-bouncing! moving! literally all the time! is it nerves or just regular old energy? who knows!!

-procrastination plus perfectionism and occasionally forgetting how to read means no work gets done. ever.

-Impulsive brain and anxiety brain fight during literally every social interaction

-sometimes there’s no filter and I’m literally rolling around in the floor

-and other times someone will say hello and I’ll start shaking

-which one will it be??? No one knows

-Any time you bring up the possibility of adhd people tell you it’s just ur anxiety, love that

-zoning out and then getting really bad anxiety because of all the stuff you missed and than just eventually giving up

-adhd: “draw! move your hands!!” anxiety: “no no stop you’re going to do it wrong you cannnnn’t”

-being so indecisive because anxiety says you m u s t choose correctly so the only way to decide something is just BAM bad impulsive choice

-probably way more but im supposed to be studying for my sat tomorrow at 7:00 am so feel free to add anything else!

[adhd-alto-blog]

-blog intro!!-

there isn't really any point in me doing this, but it might be fun! and it's midnight and i have nothing better to do so! here we go!!

what is this blog for?

great question! right now, my intentions are to actually post content about my adhd experience, reblog relatable adhd content, and interact with other adhd blogs! not sure how consistently any of that will happen, but im here to at least try! there might be a bit of venting but I'll try and keep that to a minimum!

yeah, but why'd you make it?

i have another adhd blog, but I realized a lot of my friends from school were following it, and that was kinda keeping me from actually posting anything too personal. so! as someone who's currently hyperfixating on adhd (again) this seemed like a good idea! im actually hoping this will help me process adhd related stuff, so we'll see!

i thought this was an intro? who are you?

most of it's in my bio but hello! It's nice to meet you! i'm emma, a 17 year old from the midwest whose current interests include critical role, choir, dancing, musicals in general, and spending hours and hours googling things that i guess seem relevant at the time! uh i have 1 and 1/2 dogs, am a senior in high school (as of 2019), and once broke my wrist falling from a basketball hoop. also! my username is a lie- I'm actually just a soprano who wishes she was an alto, but really liked the alliteration and was so excited about making a new blog, didn't want to waste time coming up with something clever. whoops.

what about your adhd?

i was diagnosed with primarily inattentive adhd sometime in november of 2019 (so uh pretty recently), but I had suspected it since 2017, and was pretty much told my procrastination was only due to anxiety. luckily I convinced my parents to get me an evaluation and yup! I was right! no one in my immediate family had been diagnosed but apparently two of my cousins have it and no one bothered to tell me? oh well.

Okay I think that's everything? I really really like talking about adhd even if I'm horribly awkward at doing so in person, so if anyone has any questions don't hesitate to ask! okay, bye I guess!!

[adhd-alto-blog]

Just made a new blog impulsively at 11:30 pm the night before an extremely busy day because my old adhd blog is followed by all my friends, and there's no better feeling than just completely starting fresh so here we go! I'll make an intro post next, because even after all these years I don't quite know how to use tumblr

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That ADHD (or autism, I can't tell the difference) feel where you've just gotta climb the thing that it's probably dangerous to climb. You're also afraid of heights, but for some reason, you don't care when you just Want To Climb.