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Weeks after.

I finally moved from the incident happened last time. Though, I didn’t told it still to my mother simply because it might give her additional stress. The fact that I turned the drama to a joke with my friends were maybe a sign that I slowly appreciate what really happened.

A lot of oppurtunities kept coming and I learned to rationalized and choose the right one. One advise that I received was something deserve me better, just wait patiently. I am open to all directions as long as it well direct me to the path of success. Besides, my age is no joke anymore to simply chill and laid back. I’m 26 years old and needs to plan ahead well.

I’m typing this where I typed my last heartbreaking post and it feels nostalgic already, knowing it did just happen weeks ago. Crazy. But those time give me an experience of a lifetime that makes me think that did I learned something new? Because honestly, I don’t think I need to went that experience because I know already what is the lesson all about. But maybe, being in that actual position is more learning experience than just theorizing things. Get it? Well, what has done is done.

I am just blessed that I am sorrounded with friends that has right advises. I can say they were only few but the best of the batches. I mean I have still other good friends but they were not available for that moment but if they do, I know they are helpful too. But those with me last time are also the best. They just not made me feel well but they also encouraged me to do move forward. That is what the best, they give me hope and I truly appreciated that. I didn’t touched depression becaused of them. I have selected few but best friends. thank you.

One opportunity right now that is I’m anticipating is the one that will make me go out of my comfort zone. Like it will change me big time. So I’ll look forward to it until it will come true. Well...

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Shocking Day.

A summary. I received today a text saying I was fired due to boss not happy with my work. I am an accoutant, and my job is pretty boring. Sitting whole day in front of computer is what I do so don’t expect entertainment, really.

Yes, I was kicked out thru text by an outside person who referred me the job. The day was fine and I had no clue of sudden expulsion. The heartbreak was so tensed to the point that I wanted to cry but no tears were falling. It was plain shocking moment to me.

Questions on mind kept coming. What did I do wrong? Why was she dissatisfied? What she wanted me to do that I didn’t done? Because actually, I done everything she asked for. Even non accounting tasks were performed. So I vented out this to my co employee and boom, eureka!

Politics. Real and fatal. Deadly.

Today I was set free. Not to my responsibility because I wanted to do that, I wanted to do the job. But not with toxicity of environment. My core value is my outmost pride to my existence. That is positivity and humility to work, to friends, to people and to myself. Almost everyone. And if my place is filled with negativity and I can not change it even a little, then I would choose to move away from it. Start a fresh and new beggining. Moving forward always.

This is an eventful day. I am downed and stressed. Luckily I have friends so Advice and cheering is a little handy for the moment. I hope one day I figure out what path I should take. I deserve better. We of course. :)

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Rejections

How will I start? Not on my opening paragraph but in this journey, finding job to move forward. You see, it may sound childish or ignorant rant or something but hey, what i am feeling right now is truly miserable, heartbreaking. I shared my rejections stories to my friends like “I am not accepted and I will try again next time” like it was normal. But genuinely, it kills me inside. I want to cry but there’s no tears to wipe. I want to blame someone or something about how am I feeling but the problem is it boils to one who really messed up. Yah, me!

Story is I had 3 job interviews this week. Different companies, location, position, work and even offer but none of them contacted me, until yesterday. The first one that interviewed me sent an email, a long encouraging message, a good one, but the end still poked my heart, that says someone else is better fit in my job I was applying. Rejection is now my enemy, or isn’t?

Like what I said, I had 3 interviews. I went to this second company, an audit bpo firm, with highest offer among the three but the farthest of them. I had a 4 hour test and interview until I reached the final one. Nervously, I answered her inquiries. Asked me if I was interviewed by others I said Yes, True. Then she asked me what if the other company contact me too for their offer, will I chose those companies? I said no, I will choose where I am, Lies. Then I explained because they the the nearest one, another lie. After the discussion process, she told me that the firm will sending me a message day after the interview if I am hired. Today is the third day after the promised interview, should I still wait? I think rejection and false hope are my true enemies now.

The third company said the same thing that they will send me a message. This time, no date when they will notify me. Now I am lost. Really. Disappointed to myself is the last thing I want to feel this time of looking-a-job journey. My confidence just washed away by them. I need to bring it back. Please pull me up, life. Don’t give up on me yet, I want to fight. I need another chance. Rawr.

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Aftermath

Didn’t I tell last time that my daily routine after months of no work is waking up really late. As a result, I didn’t woke up or better say I had no sleep at all earlier for my interview. Haha. My call time is 8 in the morning and ended about past 10am.

I scheduled for an interview in a Construction Company. According to the company’s overview, they are at the top 10 Construction Company of the country. I applied for Internal Audit Staff and went there before the call time. You know, impression lasts. Haha.

Then later on, we were instructed to go inside an office and take their examination. It was composed of three part exam for verbal, logic and values tests with time limits each so imagine the pressure. When the tests were over, I passed the papers and waited for next level of the process.

After a short period, a lady asked me to attend the interview. Later on, I found out that she is the company’s HR head. She asked me the very infamous question “Tell me about yourself”. Haha. So the interview went on. I am nervous but I controlled my nerves so I do think I handle the situation. Or don’t I?

When we were at the expected salary part, thats is where I felt that the proper interview was over. Like we are just chatting casually. Then she gave me her insights where she pinpointed me that my answers were not coherent. She said she knew what I was talking about but the way I deliver the message is somehow derailed. And I like that brutal feedback cause I can use that at my next interview. Right?

So when I told her my expected salary, she did not mouthed a word but I felt as if that the atmosphere had turned dark. Haha. Btw, I had worked for 3 years in the same field so my expectation is not too picky in my defense, okay? haha. So I stepped back a lil and told her that my expected salary is negotiable. Then she said that my expecatation is a bit higher to what they offer. So I knew that they will not hire me in that position. Then she countered offer me another job. A project accountant where the salary is bit higher than the first one but is still lower than my expected salary. She said that she will discussed it with her bosses if they can give my expected salary then she will let me know on friday if I am hired or not.

Finally, it was over. We said our thanks and goodbyes. I went home and passed out.

So what will be the result of my no sleep interview? Haha. I hope I get this one because I really don’t like interviews. I am not confident enough. We’ll see. Rawr.

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Wazzup

I am nervous, even typing this, for tomorrow or I should say for later’s job interview. I just tried last month to look for one but I didn’t succeed. The good thing is that because I’m still free from work, I had a chance to visit the close to public Boracay, no foreigners whatsoever so I enjoyed it last month. Everything has a purpose, right? Hehe.

Tonight, I studied my basic audit knowledge just to prepare my interview. What I learned from my past interview is that they tend to ask me a lot about audit related questions, so better to come prepare later.

Let’s see if how’s the interview gonna happen. What we will discuss and should I accept or reject offers. Haha. You know, the real deal about looking for a job is if it can support your finances. Like, everyday is money. You can’t go out without spending moneeey. Haha.

Wish me luck. I’ll give updates. Rawr.

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Wala na, Finish na.

Okay, I’m not prepared. That’s my bad on my side. I didn’t intend not to communicate in english with them. I just prefer to speak in my native language so I can express my thoughts accurately. But you know, we need to follow proper procedure in an interview and I failed big time. They didn’t even bothered to say it to me but maybe, it’s my responsibility to know how to answer back. So, wala na, finish na.

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Is tumblr still relevant? Anyone still alive here?

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Back to this. Hope no one can see this. haha.

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totally ..|..

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all about him- auburn

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sheamnessy:

yung mga oras ba na seryoso yung topic nyo tapos side comment sya ng side comment? yung bawat sabihin ng teacher may sagot kahit hindi naman tinatanong.

Ganito din ako- side comment ng side comment, nagmamagaling. :D

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Can't Nobody

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My Butas Pa by Dello of FlipTop

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my summer tattoo. decode mo. hint: nasa paligid lang ang sagot. :)

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WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Dahil first question sa akin to, sasagutin ko na lang. Since bata ko pa to pangarap, hanggang ngayon- NIAGARA FALLS.