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i'm reading the phantom of the opera book and i'm only two chapters in and I get why people hate raoul in this.

"lover though he was, he did not even think of stealing a ribbon that would have given him the perfume of the woman he loved" BLEEEERRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH

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My one gripe about Miitopia (rant)

MIITOPIA SPOILERS

(for reference, i'm playing the 3ds version on emulator so i can't speak on switch remake version)

the one thing i hate with miitopia is, i'm not sure if it's just bias or increasing difficulty, but i feel like as the game goes on, my teams just keep getting worse, specifically with the healers.

my first team? my cleric did a fantastic job. they got shit done and always did the right move

second team? i was the healer in which i did good but i wasn't as good as my cleric

third team? the fucking flower keeps trying to attack and only heals when in dire need of it so we use hp bananas and hp sprinkles a lot of the time.

in fact, in general, i hate how i kept losing my teams. i used my favourite blorbos for my initial team thinking i would have them the entire time, but nope. i lost them like a third of the way in and i couldn't do anything about it. yes, i know that i could technically just create them again and just have clones, but that would sort of mess up the story and the "who is it" quiz + is that really what i have to be resorting to?

and yes, i know they had all these ideas for jobs/roles but they probably didn't want to have them all available at the same time and this was their solution to it. but honestly? i just think there were better ways of going about it, ESPECIALLY when you also lose your role each time too.

i HATED i lost my role as a mage and (as far as i'm aware---i'm only at the part where you save the fae village) i couldn't have it again because game said so. if i knew i was going to be locked out of it, i would've just picked a job i didn't care about much so i didn't have to worry.

and look, maybe if you're someone with fomo and you constantly felt like you missed out on playing certain jobs and didn't get to have certain people in your party and the constantly losing your party was more of a benefit to you, great. but guess what, that's what a replay can do too!

honestly, i wish at the very least that i kept my original party members but they also lost their powers with me. it makes sense from a story perspective, because, how the hell did the dark lord not kidnap me TWICE when i was sleeping BOTH TIMES???? like, once you had my party members, you could then take me! why did you stop at them?? how am i supposed to take them seriously after he fails both times??? at least if my other party members were with me, i could excuse it as they fought him off from succeeding in kidnapping any of us, but he took our powers as a cost.

and it's a shame i have this gripe because, otherwise, i love this game and got hooked onto it. i love the battle mechanics, i love how the team can have a dynamic and their dynamic gets intergrated in the battles, i love the gameplay, i love the story, i love just about anything about it. JUST NOT THIS BIT OF THE GAME

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after learning that technically-not-siblings romance is commonplace in Japan and by extension other east-asian countries e.g caleb in love and deepspace, any harem anime with a little sister character, brothers conflict, etc. i now know why natsu having a crush on aki was a thing

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my throat :(

(for ref, dae-jung on the left / serena on the right. please consider sharing for further reach, and even if you’re not in this fandom feel free to vote!!)

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btw if dae ends up losing this but whatever poll ye-jun ends up in and he wins, i will actually kms

ALSO VOTE FOR DAE-JUNG PAK

my throat :(

(for ref, dae-jung on the left / serena on the right. please consider sharing for further reach, and even if you’re not in this fandom feel free to vote!!)

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arley is me with tests

source: Just Kiss Him Already!

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Aki Maeno's outfit dissection

i screenshotted from my docs bc i don't have the effort to write out an essay.

ZENO SPOILERS

I will eventually get to writing up some notes for Haru and Fuyu

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forcing every character into romance or found family ruins character discussion imo

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I want that twink obliterated - Mizi

The raging mizi in the background is killing me... kill him 👌

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Kinda thought that was the point. At first, it seems like a fashion statement but you later realise it's done because it reminds him of Natsu.

Even Fuyu braids his hair in his true ending for Natsu.

What if maeno had that braid on the side of his hair not for a fashion statement but because he remembers natsu and wears it to remind himself of her ...... ahaha what if ......

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And now for something completely different.

This is the ADHD Teapot. I made it in a ceramics class a few years ago. I use it to explain executive dysfunction to people who haven’t come across the term before (and those who think of ADHD mostly as Hyperactive Eight Year Old Boy Syndrome).

So, most people’s brains are like a regular shaped teapot with a single spout. Let’s say that your time, energy, focus etc is the liquid you have in the teapot. Your executive function is the spout, that directs the tea into the specific cup you want to fill-aka the task that you’re meant to be doing. Spills happen occasionally, but generally most of the tea goes in the right cup.

If you have executive dysfunction, (a symptom of ADHD, trauma, autism, schizophrenia etc.) you have multiple spouts going in different directions. You can try pointing one of them at your chosen cup and you will probably get some liquid in there, perhaps you will even fill it right up (finish the task). But meanwhile, tea is also pouring out of several other places and not going where you want it. If you have another container nearby, perhaps some of it will end up in there. But quite a lot of it is going to end up on the floor and accomplish nothing.

And at the end of the day you’ll have filled one or two cups ( or sometimes not even one) compared to the five or six that somebody with the same sized teapot (but only one spout) has filled, and everyone wonders why you’re so bad at getting tea poured, and why you make such a mess in the process.

One day I’d like to spend more time learning pottery and create a really technically good fucked up little adhd teapot. But that’s a long way off since i currently live in the outback and the nearest pottery workshop is some 400km away. But I figure that for now, it might be a useful or interesting metaphor to somebody even in its rough draft form.

This post is the cup I filled instead of cleaning my house btw.

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Talking about this for a moment

ZENO SPOILERS

I know this art is 100% going under the pretenses that Kuro is Aki and Aka is Haru but honestly, if the fact their names were swapped wasn't an actual thing, I do think the sin ending would honestly be an interesting way of flipping the dynamics.

Granted, it might be a thing that sounds nice on paper but not in practice, it would really depend on how it's written.

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I can take the suffering from you!

Merm au! In the wild?? Ft pirates 🏴‍☠️

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Why…? There are people that can be kind to others but not to their families…

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My thoughts on ZENO: daily life after officially playing it

THERE WILL BE SPOILERS

I initially was very weary of ZENO's sequel because of extra stuff like Fuyu and Natsu being revealed to be inbred and Tsugino being part of the Ushirono family, etc. which made it seem like the sequel was jumping the shark.

While I do still hold my belief that Tsugino did not need to be Kanrai's child because Maeno still got ZENO and he's not related to Kanrai at all, I will concede, I turned around a lot of my opinions about this sequel.

This sequel very much feels like 'Charlie and the Glass Elevator' in that a lot of it feels like it's trying to explain how ZENO happened and getting into the history of each character that wasn't Tsugino which I'm not even sure was needed.

I do feel like there was something of an emotional core in there with Tsugino being anxious about how long his time with Maeno will last and how long his daily life will exist. While there's no concrete answer aside from Fuyu telling him that it will end someday and to not think about it too much but still remember it will happen (thus, treasure the time he still has) which might be the point because it's something everyone will face at one point or another.

I also enjoyed Fuyu's moment of standing up to Kanrai, it was nice seeing him do that especially because I had made an analysis that dissected the relationships of Fuyu (including Kanrai).

However, I do feel there were some logic jumps like Kochi broadcasting his message while addressing Tsugino without even having any confirmation that he was watching or even getting Maeno to his cult when he knocked him out at a cafeteria. Also, it was wayyyy too hard to figure out how to get into Kochi's cult.

I do forgive the sequel for existing because it did hit me hard with Tsugino's crisis and I cheered for Fuyu's awesome moments. But overall, I think the first game is better in a lot of ways because I felt more immersed in it than I did with daily life (e.g I literally spent one day playing the ZENO remake and just binge playing it because I was so hooked while it took me over 3 months to complete daily life because it wasn't as interesting and it was a lot more counter-intuitive on how to solve the puzzle sections).

I feel like there's a better emotional core in the first game, the gameplay is more immersive and a better overall story. (I'm not talking about graphics, first game is remade, second one is not. It would be unfair.) However, considering my expectations for the sequel were in hell, I was pleasantly surprised by it. It's a serviceable game for me but you're probably not going to catch me playing it again.

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GETTEM FUYU!!!!!!!

LET THAT MF BURNNNNNNNNNN

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Playing through ZENO: daily life and I just had a thought with Kochi.

ZENO: daily life SPOILERS

It's funny to me how Boku embraces ZENO, says that everyone should have ZENO and his cult is centred around worshipping ZENO and wanting to have it.

However, Watashi says that he wishes he could be friends with Boku but could never be because they're in the same body and cannot interact with each other. However, Watashi is the one with ZENO.

Seems they both wanted to be friends with each other in some way or another.