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sit . stay . fetch . come .

getting walked like a dog ? yeah , i do that . i'll follow you around obediently and i'll even wait for orders .

sit . stay . fetch . come .

i've learned to stop barking when you say " quiet ; " my loud mouth is incompatible with your distracted ears . you don't realize mine have always been more sensitive than yours . you don't appreciate what i sacrifice when i ask for your attention .

speak . now , quiet . quiet ! quiet , you damn dog ! i said ' shut up ! '

i'll muzzle myself , so you never see the violence that pumps through every piece of my flesh . i'll lick my own wounds to not be a bother . i'll be of service to you until it kills me , and you'll never know when i'm sick ; i have been trained since i was born . i hate the yelling . i hate the guilt . i hate the way you fill me with shame . i will be obedient .

i will be obedient .

speak . quiet . i said ' shut up ! ' sit . stay . fetch . come .

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I love you pookie <3

I love you too 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

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THESE ARE SO CUTE OMGGG I NEED

Misc. Fox (Mainly Plushies) Items

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THOUGHT GAINED: INFERNAL ENGINES

PROBLEM

The world is ending. You know it, your neighbor knows it, the dealer knows it, the jailer knows it, the king and all his men know it. All one has to do is look around to see it— the future is curdling into something pale and incorporeal. The infernal machine that is this stupid world is going to blow, sooner rather than later. So what are you doing? Why are you still here? Why is anyone still here?

SOLUTION

You are doing the only thing worth doing. You are living. *Why,* you ask? Try and remember now. Remember your mother’s hand on your shoulder. Remember the taste of a fresh catch. Remember the times when you were kind to the dogs in the valley and they did not bare their teeth. Remember the weight of a child on your shoulders. Remember the stars throwing their light against the wall of sodium and smog. Remember singing until your throat was raw. Remember crying just as loudly and publicly, and the gentleness with which someone opened your curled fist and pressed a handkerchief into your palm. Crying, laughing, running, eating, screaming, haunting, loving, fighting, fighting, fighting. The fight fuels you, and you fuel the fight. You run yourself ragged just for a chance to keep running. You never stop. You cannot stop. The world depends on it. *You* are the infernal engine. You are the world. And, simply put: you want to live.

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Your mom.

Respectfully.

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Hhhhhajjjhhh yeah... I fucking hate this schoolllll....

Side note, this is way more poetic than it should be I'm in love with it.

The school has been discriminating against me since i came out as a lesbian. It started off Minor, understandable issues and concerns. But over time there have been more calls to my parents over Minor things, more meetings, more little problems with me and my behavior. What I say and my "intention behind it". I just want to like girls in peace. I have done what they asked. I've kept my head low, I've not been loud about it, but this has been building for too long, and this is the last straw.

I swear, they are so scared that the gay is contagious. They think I'm going to cough and infect you with the gay. I just want te be left alone, yet they treat my like a threat. They bring guns and tanks, to a battlefield that was never a battle to begin with. They point their fingers and make their accusations against me. They watch me from every angle, expecting me to lunge at them like a feral animal. They watch me with bated breath, awaiting my next move. Awaiting the next thing I do slightly wrong that they can leap at. They lay in wait, traps at the ready, foaming at the mouth with rabid hatred for me, and yet they expect me to be the villain.

I am not the villain to your story. The only difference between me and the people around me, is our preference in partners, but yet you hold me under the guillotine, waiting for me to commit a crime you can execute me for. You make yourselves the hero, looking upon the child you have made your villain.

You will rejoice upon making a system in which children will be discriminated against and made to keep silent. But when one child dares to defy you, dares to speak up against the tyrannical reign you have created for yourself, you fear as you feel your fragile throne tremble.

It's truly disappointing to watch adults prepare their troops and ready their cannons, against a foe that never even existed.

I do not want war.

I am not a threat to you.

I want to be left alone.

But you despise and you discriminate against me. You tell the world that I am a threat. That I will terrorize you and your children. That I will be the ruin of this place.

it's pathetic.

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me after 3 days of progesterone

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Guys I think tumblr is having a stroke

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i thought mspec lesbians removed the meaning from both labels? because it's hard to be a woman attracted to women AND someone who is attracted to two or more genders. if it's about including nonbinary people in lesbianism then that's not needed because they are (and always have been) included.

hi anon, thanks for the ask! as always, i’m going to take this in good-faith and answer as thoughtfully as i can. i don't personally identify as an mspec lesbian, so i can't give an explanation about what it means to use that specific label. what i can explain is that fringe* labels—like mspec lesbian—will always have a place in the queer community. i’ll explain why:

to me, being queer is about rejecting the dominant, rigid views of gender and sexuality.

i've seen a troubling exclusionary trend of folks arguing that some labels are ‘unnecessary’ or ‘cringey’ because they're supposedly redundant, contradictory, or already ‘covered’ by other labels; i've heard these arguments about pansexuality, asexuality, mspec identities, neo-pronouns, etc. and maybe those labels aren't necessary for you, but they are necessary for the people who use them.

words are powerful—being able to put a name to something makes it real. fringe labels can help queer people conceptualize complicated experiences of attraction and gender we’ve always felt but couldn’t articulate before. and this isn’t new! the queer community has forever been making up words and identities to describe our experiences because mainstream society refused to do it for us in a way that didn’t medicalize, condemn, or criminalize. as a community, we have picked up, put down, and reinvented our labels so many times you could spend an entire afternoon (or longer) just tracing the history of queer linguistics.

i understand the instinct to draw lines and build fences around words and identities—i've been there—but it is a mistake to renounce cishet, amatonormative society just to cling to a new set of rigid definitions. telling people to fit themselves into preexisting, popular boxes only reinforces dominant views of gender and sexuality.

so, yeah, especially if you have a controversial label, you will always be welcome in the queer spaces i occupy.

*identities outside of the widely recognized Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender in LGBT

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Well, folks, it may be May 29, but we’re going ahead and jumping the gun and we're doing June early. Hello, June! We’re going to celebrate our local artists, have some fun with some polls, tickle some frogs, and try to escape the grim out there. Stay safe and be kind, Tumblr <3

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It's been 6 years, huh?

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Brynjolf: I think we should get a divorce.

Vex: What are you doing?

Brynjolf: Just practicing.

Vex: Why are you already planning your hypothetical divorce?

Brynjolf: I don't know. I'm 42, I think I'm having a mid-life crisis.

Vex: You don't even have a partner.

Brynjolf: Hypothetically divorce me.

Vex: Okay, then I'm hypothetically taking half your assets.

Brynjolf: Well you didn't sign the hypothetical prenup.

Brynjolf, to Delvin Mallory: It's called a prenup, right?

Delvin, hypothetically looking out for Vex's best hypothetical interest: Yeah, it's a prenup and you DID hypothetically sign one.

Vex, Not Having It: Who the Oblivion is this guy?

Delvin: I'm his hypothetical lawyer in this divorce case.

Vex: Well then, I'm taking the hypothetical kids.

Vex, to Mercer Frey: Right? We can get those, right?

Mercer, done AF: Are you actually involving me in this.

Vex: Yes, now play along.

Mercer: *eye roll* Whatever. Yes, we can definitely get the hypothetical kids, don't worry about it.

Brynjolf: By Novturnal, who is this hypothetical nerd? Sodding idiot glasses-wearing nerd.

Mercer: Wow, that is a lot of hypothetical insults. I need to keep these on for continuity because I look like the other lawyer.

Vex: This is MY hypothetical lawyer and we have been hypothetically sleeping with each other.

Mercer: What.

Delvin: What. 💔

Brynjolf: How could you hypothetically do this to me?!

Vex: Because you hypothetically are an alcoholic!

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