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"Upon your altar, cold as stone,

I lay down all I thought my own.

This golden wreath, once bound to me,

Now bends before eternity.

No law of mine, no scepter’s might,

Can weave the stars or birth the light.

No throne endures, no walls remain,

Where time and dust make kings the same.

O Starweaver, thread the sky,

And weave my soul where truth won’t die.

No sovereign hand but Yours commands,

No justice flows but through Your hands.

I held the world, yet held but sand,

A fleeting crown, a trembling hand.

But You, O Weaver, vast and high,

Have stitched the dawn, have named the sky.

Let kingdoms fall and banners break,

Let all I built dissolve and wake—

For greater still, Your law shall be,

The only throne, eternity."

Written by my good friend Etherial who I made Sed a cultist of. Her sona is a deity.

Thanks for working on this, Vi!

Thank you @allw3doisadvert1se for the comm! 💜

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The dollar seeks to be worth less and less every day, yeah …

Your sketches cost too much. I'm just from Russia, and they're too expensive for me.

Well I’m just an artist trying to live in todays economy so, you’re welcome to go elsewhere :) 💜

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There’s a sharp, biting sort of sensation under my chest. A suffocating grip that’s thrown my mental state into complete hell since I turned 18 earlier this year.

For the longest time in my life, I believed I was aroace, which I eventually learned was only half true. I was asexual, and I do actually need a romantic relationship. Figuring that out was mostly because of a wave of loneliness I had experienced at the time that humbled me, showed me how much I had actually been denying myself human connection. After I made this discovery about myself, I figured I might as well be patient with getting a partner. For a time, this mindset worked fine enough for me. But … then things just kept getting worse after a bit of a pause (maybe over a few month timespan).

This leads me to where I am today … The things I’ve commissioned have more and more frequently been about acts of physical affection or gentle intimacy, and I thought it would satisfy me, but it only made my loneliness worse. Because, as much as I love the art I’ve gotten, it’s just simply not real … It’s not me. I remain alone, stuck lying to myself that things will be okay. As … pathetic as it feels to admit, I’ve also more and more frequently begun hugging my pillow when I do eventually go to sleep, often around 2 AM on most nights.

My problems are amplified by where I live. Seattle is a lonely, gray, depressing city. The mental toll of winter has already played its part on making my mood horrible. There’s no sunlight through the clouds, nor the comfort of people around me. Everyone keeps to themselves, me included. In some ways, as an introvert, I can appreciate that. But I’ve been stretched beyond my breaking point by it I think …

I don’t like crying for attention, I don’t like being a problem to people, but I physically cannot handle the strain both mentally and physically loneliness has put on me. I have become more lethargic, I hardly eat anymore, and paradoxically I’ve been closing myself off more from my friends, as if that’ll make me feel less alone … Fucking idiot …

I don’t know why I felt the need to make this a post here, I think I just … don’t know where to go. I need these emotions out, even if no one will see it.

I’m sorry if I managed to upset anyone with this … somehow. I just don’t want to hurt from this anymore. I’m done

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Thank you for making this, Vi! And I’m happy I could get your name out there to a few of my friends in the process :3

Thank you @allw3doisadvert1se for the comm!!! 💜💜💜

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Made by my good friend Qin lol

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Thank you for making them, Vi. I apologize for Isman’s complexity lmao

Thank you @allw3doisadvert1se for the sticker comms!! I hope you enjoy them!

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And it was a pretty substantial one too, given it’s my first sort of shot commissioning for something like a sona. Like, it’s not like making a ref for a pre-established character.

Granted, I only discovered that I was a furry somewhat recently, so that’s the reason for it. In any case, I love the piece, and it turned out great. Thank you so much, Vi! ^^

Someone else go commission them for something! It’s more than worth the money!

Thank you @allw3doisadvert1se for the refrence sheet commission!!!

(I’ve had these available for over a year and this was my first one :)) happy to have provided!!!)

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Furry

Hello to you too, Etherial lmao

Fuckin’ bitch- /j

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A sticker/emote commission for @allw3doisadvert1se

(You can get them now on my Ko-fi!)

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Glad to hear, Violet! Trust me when I say that even just the mere understatement of whether or not you’re on the spectrum will really open your eyes to a lot of the little quirks you have when it comes to how your brain processes information.

When I was diagnosed, I learned shortly after that I actually experience the world louder than it is in reality, which causes my own voice to be loud because I feel like everything is talking over me lmao

But yeah, it’s a whole fun discovery process, and I wish you luck on that

If you’re comfortable sharing, did you end up choosing to get a diagnosis on whether or not you have autism? If so, how did it go? Mental health has sort of been a hyperfixation of mine since I made friends with a therapist in training lol

It’s totally fine if you don’t want to comment on the matter

hihi! I think mental health is so interesting too!!!

I think I've decided to get diagnosed, I spoke with my therapist and they think it could be beneficial for me, and wouldn't cause limitations.

I might get an appointment in January if I'm lucky, fingers crossed!! <3

(keep in mind I am doing this 100% behind my parents back now that I'm 18. I was tested when I was younger and they were so convinced I didn't have autism they swayed the test. I think they were just mad that the psychiatrist wanted to diagnose me with autism when a HUGE amount of other stuff was going on and they were aggrivated with the treatment. I plan on telling them later, when I have said diagnosis, they will love me regardless, that I know for sure.)

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Ough

guh (this is ds maker btw I can’t change the account waaaa)

It's the de lta maker themselves !!! <33

(it's embarrassing of me researching "guh" meaning on Internet, like wth am I doing that)

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When I first got my diagnosis, I was in sixth grade. My parents didn’t tell me for a bit because they wanted to make sure I was mentally in the right state of mind. I think at that time I would’ve seen autism as something that was wrong with me, so they definitely waited for a good reason. In any case, when I learned about it after freshman year of high school, I personally was not upset with that. I kind of just took it as an explanation for why I think the way I think and immediately took to understanding the little quirks I had to learning. It was honestly the closest thing I could call to an enlightening experience tbh, as I’ve never really used that much introspection previously.

All this to say, I cannot recommend getting yourself diagnosed more. If there are people in your life who will ostracize you for having autism, then frankly, I don’t think they deserved you anyway. Getting a diagnosis will ultimately only help you be able to find the help you need from the people who understand this most. And besides, this is the internet. Everyone’s a little neurodivergent, to say the least lol.

I hope you do what you feel is right, Purple. And good luck.

Hi my loves! Please take the time to read!!

I’m thinking of getting an autism diagnosis, but I’m not sure if I should.

On one hand I think it will help me when I need help with certain things because I feel I won’t be taken seriously without a diagnosis.

On another hand, I don’t want it to hold me back, close options for me, or ostracize me any more from my peers/community.

If you have autism, did a diagnosis help or hurt you? What would you suggest?

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Hey bud, idk if you know, but The Static Show arg is over. You can back normal now

I know, trust me. I just haven’t been using Tumblr for a while and I honestly find it hard to be motivated to change much of anything. But yeah, after what Petra showed me what Static was saying, I’ve felt like taking a hiatus from the site in general.

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Guilt free, grass fed, organic souls. Delicious lol

Hey Chara the human soul expert human soul come in difference colors do they also come in difference flavors like skittles

You might be confusing this blog for another. We don't eat souls here. Just moss.

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Now, now, sibling, don’t lose your temper.

If Static is, in fact, on a downward spiral into oblivion in the name of perfection, all there is to really do is watch the fireworks.

Static doesn’t need a savior, and even if he did, that savior would not need to be us.

… You, asker, @climaxstriker, if you care so much go do what it is you and your entire pathetic kind always do.

Scramble around in the dark, desperately grasping for anything that could save just one more life …

But you must realize that sometimes, a life isn’t worth all the fuss.

Now, enjoy the show. I hear the finale is going to be something truly spectacular, hehehe.

Static origins.

[ Nobody will get in my way. NO ONE ]

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Him is box cat in disguise

CK is whatever hyperactive thing most fits the props in the room lol

Day 252 of drawing Junior Secret Squad until Chapter 3

CK in a box

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It’s all going to be perfect … Just wait and see

And if that damn Signal Jammer gets in the way, well

I shouldn’t spoil the fun now, should I?

Hehehe.

COMING SOON TO THESTATICSHOW. THE UNDEAD BRICKS OF BRICKSVILLE HAS BEEN RESSURECTED FROM THE DEAD. AND NOW LITTLE GIRL. @halloweengirl1225 MUST SURVIVE UNTIL THE DAY RETURNS.

[ and just like her there all my puppets on strings ]

Static: [ GODDAMN PROGRAMING BUGS. it doesn't matter . COMING SOON. please someone help me with this ]