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a soft summer day, held gently in bloom

today felt like an exhale.

not loud.

not life-changing.

just tender.

i wandered beneath cherry blossom spells—petals pink like sugar and secrets—brushing my aura with whispers from another realm.

i reached out to touch one.

time softened. the wind paused. the world let me be.

i laughed with friends—real laughter, the kind that cracks you open in the best way.

i wore my favourite hoodie and my nails looked like spells—sweet, sacred, shimmering.

my body is tired. my spirit’s been heavy.

but today felt like the universe took my hand and said: “look, you’re still blooming too.”

and maybe that’s all i need.

a flower in my hand,

a memory in my pocket,

and a promise that even the softest days can hold magic.

sending you so much love and light,

jingles

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sick soft girl diaries

i woke up feeling like my bones were made of ikea furniture and several different versions of spite. my legs? twigs. hollow. trembling. one sneeze away from snapping like cursed kindling in a fairytale forest.

thermoregulation? out of the window.

my body was like a mixture of the sahara desert in the inside and the antartic on the outside.

but i still… somehow… forced myself to do the laundry. like a tragic little housewife in a victorian fever dream. folding shirts while emotionally dissociating to lo-fi anime music and the sound of my own sniffles and coughs.

and then? i promptly returned to my throne (aka mybed) where i resumed my role as sleeping beauty, minus the beauty and plus a deeply unsettling cough.

no one told me healing would feel like both character development and full regression.

please consider this my formal request for soup, affection, and a new immune system.

-jingles <3

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📝 "a letter to the girl i used to be"

i wasn’t the easy child. i was loud. sensitive. emotional. i talked back. i cried a lot. i shut down even more. and somehow, people still expected me to grow up fast.

i wasn’t the “good kid.” i struggled with structure, with habits, with just… showing up. most days, i didn’t want to go to school. my parents bribed me with sweets to get homework done. i couldn’t explain what i was feeling — because i didn’t know. so i got labeled: lazy. difficult. dramatic. and eventually… i believed it.

in school, i acted out. i couldn’t sit still. couldn’t focus. couldn’t make friends. i got bullied. hard. the kind that sinks into your bones and makes you question why you exist. my grades dropped. my mental health spiraled. and no one really knew how bad it got — not even me.

uni didn’t fix me. but it gave me space. and that space was the start of everything.

i’m learning how to show up now — not for grades or gold stars. but for me. healing looks like studying without fear. it looks like going to the gym because it feels good. like moving my body and drinking water and taking my meds. not because someone told me to. but because i want to feel better.

it’s not perfect. i still mess up. i still procrastinate. i still lose track of time. but now... i have people who love me through it. my flatmates? they feel like home. they wake me up when i don’t want to move. they drag me outside — gently. they root for me. and it’s changing me.

i go on runs now. my younger self would’ve rolled her eyes at the idea. i stretch. i eat. i try. and somewhere in all this trying… i found something that feels like peace.

so if you’re reading this — if you were the “problematic kid” or the “lazy girl” or the one who couldn’t keep it together — this is your sign.

you weren’t broken. you were overwhelmed. and now, you get to rewrite what being “functional” looks like.

this version of me? she’s not perfect. but she’s showing up. for herself. and for the little girl who didn’t know how to ask for help.

and the best part?

i’m just getting started.

sending you so much love and light, jingles ♡

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Becoming my Highest Self

Recently, I joined in Jun Yuh's Summer You 2025 challenge, as I felt like I had been in a rut for long enough now, and that I need to fully step into my highest self, to embody the magical, radiant, soft and elegant woman I know I am destined to become.

Why am I Reaching for My Highest Self?

I am reaching for my highest self as I deserve the life of my dreams, a pink house, car and everything being so cute and feminine, and the only way that I can reach my ultimate dream is to step up, for my future self, meaning that I must be uncomfortable now to be able to slowly become my future self that I dreamed off, that means no apologies, no shrinking and most importantly; NO EXCUSES! Jun Yuh bases the principles of a successful life on the 4 pillars: Mental, Physical, Spiritual, and Honest Accountability. Just an hour a day split between each part, making sure to hit these four wins, and you will be guaranteed to be able to become disciplined and be closer to the ultimate goal of reaching your highest self.

For me, that means reducing my screen time and engaging in more online courses to indulge my love for knowledge, doing home workouts to build a slim, feminine figure, and working on my craft, implementing it into my daily life. These are simplified versions of course, but these actions have been helping me a lot!

This journey to my highest self will be filled with fairy lights, crystals, journaling sessions, enchanting spells, cosy anime nights and mindful rituals. I choose every day to nurture the magickal "it girl" inside of me, becoming my most radiant self, not for others, but because I owe it to myself and my inner child to bloom fully.

I now invite you, to embark on your own magickal journey of self discovery and improvement alongside with me. Remember that your highest self is waiting patiently for you.

Sending you so much magic, love and light,

Jingles

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All About Me

Welcome, precious soul, to my enchanted corner of the interweb!

I am a magical creature who lives a whimsical, dreamy life, blending cottagecore homebody cosiness with loads of pink vibes and a touch of witchy energy! I am in love with Kawaii Sanrio aesthetics, witchcraft as a whole and maximalist comfort, living life as I love <3

In the day I am exploring various forms of academia from my uni courses to online courses for further certification which nurtures my love for knowledge (and gives me an excuse to indulge into my cute stationary collection) and in the evening you'll find me immsering myself in anime, making cute whimsical scrapbooks or indulging myself in cosy selfcare rituals surrounded by candles, crystals and endless cups of coffee (in fine china of course).

I am passionate about mental health, medicine, and technology, and I spread my gentle magic wherever I go, whether it's cooking nourishing meals, enjoying leisurely swims on my own or with friends, or simply vibing in my room under my fairy lights. I strive to live my life with intention and authenticity, as life should be lived to the fullest and in service to our highest purpose.

This blog is my haven —a cosy sanctuary, my digital diary where my practice in Witchcraft meets my whimsical self-love rituals. Stay as long as you'd like and get comfortable with a cup of herbal tea, sharing in the magic with me!

Sending you so much love and light,

Jingles <3

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The Highest Version Of Me

Physical Appearance

She's skinny and has long thick hair.

She has learned how to accentuate her features with makeup.

She is hot, she looks like the ultimate IT girl

She has a very cute sense of style, dressing up to be a doll in most occasions.

Mindset

She has an abundance mindset.

She has a mental diet.

She has alot of dicipline and uses manifestation to help her achieve her wants.

Attributes

She is classy, elegant and stylish.

She is kind and caring.

Lifestyle

She has financial abundance.

She has the best student life, getting 100% in every subject.

She has alot of hobbies which enrich her acedemics

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‎◌ 🦋 ⠀ׅ⠀⠀ׁ⠀ 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝗆𝗈𝗇𝗍𝗁

‎◌ 🫧 ⠀ׅ⠀⠀ׁ⠀ 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝗏𝗂𝖻𝖾𝗌

‎◌ 🪻 ⠀ׅ⠀⠀ׁ⠀ 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝗆𝖺𝗀𝗂𝖼

‎◌ ✨ ⠀ׅ⠀⠀ׁ⠀ 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝖾𝗇𝖾𝗋𝗀𝗒

‎◌ 🌸 ⠀ׅ⠀⠀ׁ⠀ 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝖻𝖾𝗀𝗂𝗇𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌

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Only my dream keeps me alive.

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de-stressing

introduction:

the first step to handling how you feel is finding the root of it. these can be things that're in your control- things you can change to solve the problem, or things that're outside of your control and that you can't affect. the first step is making a list of what's in your control and outside of it so that you can approach your feelings.

in your control:

accept how you feel. acknowledge that you feel stressed, and instead of trying to force happiness on yourself, try to think about how you can deal with your stress in a productive way. (getting to the root of the problem).

make a to-do list. make a to-do list of everything you need to get done, and a list of everything stressing you out. once you know what to do you need to then think about how you're going to do it.

break it up into daily steps. the next step is making little changes in your daily routine to get things done. when i was stressed about my permit test i just scheduled it a few weeks an advance and spent 20 minutes every night studying for it.

clean your room. another good thing to do is just cleaning up your environment. it really does make a difference for how you feel, and also i find it feels really good once your room is cleaned up.

developing new habits. i've started sewing a little bit each day as well as studying everyday. these habits make me feel good- i don't get as stressed about school or stressed about not sewing.

outside of your control:

vent journal. when there's nothing you can do about a situation just write down all your negative thoughts.

support. after you've written down all your negative feelings and understand how you feel, talk to someone that you trust. make sure that it's the right time though, like ask them if it's a good time to vent.

find people who feel the same way. this is sort of the same as the point above, but for example, i was really upset just thinking about the world and how so much suffering is always going on- and i found article after article with tips on how to be happy even when things in the world are bad. sometimes it feels good just to know that there's so many people in the world who feel the way you do.

conclusion:

stress is a normal part of everyone's life, it's an emotion we all feel time to time, and something we all go through. the key is knowing how to deal with it, and how to feel better despite the things that're stressing you. if you feel like your stress/anxiety is something that you can' manage on your own then i hope you can get the help that you need :)

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dreamy quotes to live by ✧˚₊‧

"Dwell on the beauty of life. Watch the stars and see yourself running with them."

"Compliment recklessly! Say the nice things 5that come to your mind! We've got better things to do than resist the urge to be kind."

"Her world was the colour of perles: White, pink, and softly glowing."

"In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different."

"I like nonsense; it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living."

"My goal in life is just to be a very warm person. I want to be as loving and kind as I possibly can be."

"Sometimes you have to create your own sunshine."

"It's part of her beauty, this quality of being not quite there, dreamlike."

"A girl should be two things: who she wants and what she wants.

"They say love is the best investment; the more you give, the more you get in return."

"Elegance is the only beauty that never fades. A woman can be beautiful as well as intellectual."

"Imagination is everything. It's the preview of life's coming attractions."

"Treat yourself like the princess you are and make Aphrodite proud."

"I Love soft-spoken and loving. There is so much power in femininity; don't ever look at it as being weak."

"Luxury must be comfortable; otherwise, it's not luxury."

As always, please feel free to share your own favourite quotes in the comments!! ♡*̩̩͙❆ ͙͛

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