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[amalia-writes]

could you write a Jeremiah fic? Angsty but fluff at the end?

Finally Yours (Jeremiah Fisher x Reader)

Summary: You are talking to another boy and Jeremiah realizes his feelings for you. You go to a party and things go downhill and feelings are hurt.

Warnings: Swearing, Underage drinking, arguments/yelling, make out session, implied fight, grammar errors.

Here you go! Also I might not post for the next couple of weeks because I’ll be going on vacation! Thank you so much for reading my Conrad x reader one shot!

Jeremiah had no idea what happened, how it happened. How he had started to look at you in a new light, like you were the prettiest girl in the world. He didn’t even know why he started to like you. But he realized he was more aware of how you smiled, or when you’d touch him. He was more aware of all of you.

He knew you had a crush on him, everyone knew you had a crush on him. In fact his mom encouraged him to ask you out on a date but he refused. At the time he didn’t like you like that and he didn’t want to hurt you. He knew you had liked him forever, since you met him back in 3rd grade. But he refused to make any move on you because he didn’t want to lead you on.

But Jeremiah realized he should have. Because there you were, in the pool kissing a guy. Kissing a guy that wasn’t Jeremiah. Jeremiah was watching you and that guy, Ryan or Will. He never remembered and he never cared to remember. He felt an uncomfortable feeling when he looked at the two of you. He was so insanely jealous. But he refused to tell you how he felt, especially after all the people he had been with in front of you. He didn’t want to take away your happiness.

Jeremiah couldn’t look at the two of you being that affectionate in the pool anymore. He had to admit he was watching the two of you for about 10 minutes and those 10 minutes were the most horrible minutes of his life. He wanted to look away but for some reason he was just stuck.

“Oh hey Jere! Do you want to play Mario Kart with me? I’ll definitely beat your ass this time.” Steven said, walking into the kitchen.

Jeremiah cleared his head of his thoughts and ran a hand through his hair. He turned to look at Steven who was staring at him, probably waiting for an answer.

“Maybe later tonight, I think I’m gonna take a nap. I have a major hangover from last nights party.” Jeremiah responded, making up an excuse.

He didn’t even drink last night, in fact he barely even partied because he was too focused on you flirting with that guy. He hated feeling like this. He hated seeing you with a guy.

“Oh no worries man. It’s for the best anyways, I didn’t want to embarrass you.” Steven snickered.

Jeremiah smiled at him mockingly. Before swatting him in the head, causing Steven to mumble a ‘ouch’. Jeremiah laughed at Steven rubbing his head mumbling curses at him. He decided to walk up to his room and lay down for a little bit.

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You were currently in the pool with a guy named Will. You had met will at the country club and you guys got along almost immediately. You had met will a few weeks ago and since then the two of you had been hanging out almost every day. You both had liked each other romantically and had been slowly getting familiar with each other. But Will hadn’t asked you to be his girlfriend yet. You were a little confused but you didn’t make it a big deal and you were kind of relieved because you weren’t sure you wanted to be in a relationship.

“Y/n are you listening?” Wills voice brought you back to you surroundings.

“Sorry, I zoned out for a minute.” You laughed blushing a little from embarrassment.

Will laughed too and moved closer to you, if that was even possible. He was already so close that your noses were touching. His hand moved to touch your lips and you heard him take a breath in. You noticed him staring at your lips and you couldn’t help but stare at his too. He was a good kisser and he was always so gentle and polite with you. Will moved his head so his lips were just an inch away from yours. This time you were the one who took a breath in.

He was about to kiss you but paused. “Can I kiss you right now?” He asked, his voice barley above a whisper.

You melted, he was so sweet and so kind. You nodded and moved to connect his lips with yours. It was sweet and simple but it was nice. You didn’t have much kissing experience, in fact your first kiss was from Jeremiah who wanted to do the chapstick challenge with you. You only kissed him once because you chickened out after the first kiss.

Will picked you up causing you to wrap your legs around his waist. He had one hand on you waist and the other was on your face. You moved your hands to his neck and tried kissing him deeper, which made Will moan into your mouth. You smiled at that and moved to have one hand run a hand through his hair.

“Oh my god, you guys are literally making out in the middle of the fucking pool! Get a room!” Belly yelled.

You quickly shoved Will away and turned to look at Belly. Belly was standing in her swimsuit next to Conrad who wouldn’t look you in the eye. Which was understandable considering they both just caught you making out with Will.

“Sorry Bells.” You mumbled.

Belly smiled at you finding the situation funny and turned to whisper something in Conrad’s ear. You tried to listen but only heard Jeremiah’s name. Conrad must have found what she said funny because he was laughing too. You tilted your head looking at the two of them but they were too busy laughing so you shrugged it off.

“I actually should go now. Are you gonna go to the party at Shayla’s tonight?” Will turned to you.

“Probably not, I have to do a few things tonight.” You answered.

You weren’t a big party person and tonight you definitely did not want to party. You had a book and a nice cup of hot chocolate waiting for you. Will nodded at you and came over to you to give you a kiss on the cheek before he hopped out of the pool. You also got out of the pool and walk over to the chair where your towel sat.

Belly and Conrad must have been waiting for you before going inside because they were talking with each other while you were drying yourself off. After you had finished drying off you put your towel in the laundry bin outside and walked over to Belly and Conrad.

“Are you guys gonna go to the party tonight?” You asked.

The three of you guys started walking into the house.

Belly answered, “Yeah we are, Steven and Jeremiah are coming along too. You should come it’d be fun.”

You guys had made it into the living room where Steven was playing Mario Kart and all sat down to watch him while he played.

“I don’t know, I mean I already told Will I wasn’t going to go.”

Steven turned to look at you, trying to figure out what was going on.

“Who cares! You can surprise him, plus the both of us can get ready together, it’ll be so much fun!” Belly said. You sighed thinking about it

“Okay, maybe I will go.”

Belly jumped out of her seat and moved over to hug you. You let out a laugh and hugged her back. You looked at the other two boys who had also laughed at Belly’s actions.

“Don’t make me regret this Conklin. You know how much I hate parties.” You warned her still hugging her.

“You won’t regret it. You’ll have such a fun time!” Belly murmured in your shoulder.

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You were currently getting ready with Belly, you had decided to go to the party because pretty much everyone was going and Belly really wanted you to come along.

Belly was already dressed and was just finishing up her make up, but you had started with make up first, which you were already done with. You were decided on wearing a short red dress that had lace or if you wanted to wear shorts and a white crop top that had flower designs.

“Belly what should I wear?” You asked her pointing to the two outfits. Belly looked at the both of them and then looked back at you.

“Definitely the dress, red looks so good on you!” Belly decided.

You nodded at her and moved to put the dress on. As you were putting the dress on Belly looked at you through the mirror.

“Can i help you, or do you just want to look at this sexy body.” You smirked at her and then let out a laugh.

She smiled and laughed at your joke before looking at you again.

“Can I ask you something?” You nodded at her still changing.

“Do you still have feelings for Jere? I mean now that you’re dating Will.”

“We aren’t dating, he hasn’t even asked me out yet. And I don’t know what to feel about Jere, I mean I’ve liked him forever but I know those feelings will never be reciprocated so I just don’t think it’s worth it.” You mumbled.

“Don’t say that, Jere has a way of surprising people you know.”

You looked at her confused as to why she would say that and right as you were about to say something there was a knock on the door.

“Girls hurry up! Jere already left 30 minutes ago and Conrad’s getting impatient.” Steven yelled through the door.

The two of you looked at each other and giggled. “Okay, we’ll be down in just a second!” The both of you yelled.

You both hurriedly finished putting on your make up and outfits before walking out the door.

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Jeremiah was at the party getting drunk. He was taking shot after shot. He realized that it probably wasn’t the best thing to but he continued to do it anyways. He wanted one night without you in his head.

He had left earlier than the rest of the group because it gave him a head start and he also wouldn’t be in the same car as you.

He was starting to feel the affect of the alcohol, stumbling around and slurring his speech. Jeremiah was currently playing cup pong with a few people he didn’t know. He had his arm lazily around a girl who he assumed liked him and his other arm was attempting to throw the ping pong ball in the cup.

Jeremiah turned his head and saw you and the others walking over to where he was. And to him you were the prettiest girl he’d ever seen. His eyes traveled up your body and you were wearing the sexiest red dress he had ever seen. It had hugged your body in all the perfect places and it stood a little above your thighs, it was perfect. You were perfect. You noticed him looking at you and you gave him a smile and you were to wave but then saw the girl he was with and turned away.

“S’kcute.” Jeremiah mumbled into the girls ear.

He had attempted to say ‘so cute’ but it came out all jumbled. The girl blushed and smiled at Jeremiah, assuming it was said about her but really, it was about you.

“Should we get out of here?” She responded, a small blue on her cheek.

Jeremiah had thought about it for a second. He wanted to say no but he hadn’t been with anyone in weeks and this was the perfect opportunity for him. Too drunk to say anything Jeremiah just nodded his head. The girl took his hand and lead him away from where they were playing cup pong.

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You had walked into the party and immediately tried to find Will. After looking around for about 2 minutes you couldn’t find him, but you did find Jeremiah. You saw him and gave him a smile and that’s when you noticed the girl that he was with. He looked so comfortable around her and she was gorgeous. You decided to look away from the two and focus on the party around you. But from the glimpse of your eye you had noticed that Jeremiah was walking with the girl up the stairs.

You turned to Belly and Conrad. Steven had already left to go find Shayla.

“I’m gonna go find Will!” You yelled because the music was a bit too loud.

The two of them nodded and you started to walk away. You decided to check upstairs first because it was quieter up there. You made your way up the stairs and noticed that there were only a few rooms. You checked the first room but it was just a bathroom. Then you checked the other room and noticed it was a bedroom. It was dark in the bedroom and hard for you two see but you could make out 2 silhouettes on the bed, and to you it looked like they were kissing.

You had become flustered after realizing what was going on and stood there in shock for a second. Right as you were about to leave the two people turned.

“Yo dude there’s this thing called knocking!” The guy yelled.

You perked up at the sound of his voice. His voice was familiar to you but you couldn’t quite place where you knew him from. And then it dawned on you. That was Will, no wonder his voice sounded so familiar. Your heart beat a little quicker and your palms became a little sweatier.

“Will?” Your voice quivered. You prayed to god that it wasn’t him. He was so sweet, so nice, there’s no way he’d do that to you.

“Y/n?” The voice responded.

Your heart dropped.

You couldn’t breathe. Everything hurt. You weren’t even dating but he had been one of the first guys to like you, to actually like you. You felt tears forming in your eyes and couldn’t help but let out a small sob.

Realizing you were still in the bedroom with Will and the girl, you ran out.

“Y/n! Please, please wait!” Will yelled as you were running away.

He grabbed you before you were able to get too far.

“Y/n please.”

You pulled away from him, slapping him on the cheek.

“Don’t, I hate you and I cannot talk to you right now.” You yelled anger in your voice.

You walked away as Will stood there not following you.

You were sobbing now, aware of the people staring as you shoved pass them. But you were too hurt to care. You wanted to find Jeremiah. Jeremiah was the one who’d cheer you up all the time.

You were still crying but it wasn’t as intense as before and you were still looking for Jeremiah. You made your way outside, people still looking your way. You ignored the whispers and the looks and walk over to the sitting area outside. You had searched for Jeremiah in the sea of people, before realizing he was right in front of you. Three feet away from you.

And somehow, some fucking how. Your night had become ten times worse. There he was, kissing a girl, his hand on her thigh, hers in his hair. The tears came back, stronger than before. How did this hurt more than Will kissing that girl?

You knew the answer, but you refused to admit it. You hadn’t realized but you were sobbing, loudly. Jeremiah broke the kiss with the girl. His head moving to the side where you stood crying. You noticed his eyes widened and he stood up ignoring the girl completely.

Now everyone was watching you. How could they not? You were crying in front of everyone but all you could focus on was Jeremiah. The Jeremiah who you had always had feelings for. You knew it wasn’t out of character for him to kiss someone. In fact it was so normal for him to go off with people all the time. But for some reason, it stung so much more in this moment.

“Y/n, what’s wrong?” Jeremiah softly spoke. Stepping closer to you. He was completely sober now.

You stepped back. Him asking you that made you cry hard. But you didn’t want to be near him, to look at him, or for him to see you cry. You were embarrassed but the tears wouldn’t stop. You closed your eyes in frustration, trying to find your voice.

“N-nothing is wrong.” Your voice cracked, of course it did.

Jeremiah’s eyebrows furrowed, eyes full of concern for the girl crying in front of him. “Don’t lie to me.”

You scoffed, you were more angry than upset now. The weight of the things that have happened in the span of 10 minutes all coming down on you.

“I’m not lying, I’m just gonna go home. Sorry for interrupting your fuck session.” You spat.

You turned around walking off. People whispering about your little outburst. You didn’t look at them, you were too ashamed, too embarrassed. You made your way out to the front yard, realizing that you had to find Belly, Conrad, and Steven. Because they were your ride home.

You yelled in frustration, throwing a rock into the green lawn in front of you. How had everything gone to shit in one night? You swore the world was against you.

“Y/n?” You heard a voice behind you. And you immediately knew whose voice it was. You didn’t turn around. You didn’t want to turn around.

“What do you want Jeremiah?” You whispered, voice shaky.

“Are you okay?” You heard his foot steps move closer from behind you.

You wrapped your arms around yourself. “I already told you I’m fine.”

Jeremiah scoffed. “No you’re not, and I already told you not to lie to me.”

You turned eyes narrowing at him. “Well maybe I just don’t want to talk to you right now!”

His eyes widened in shock and you immediately felt bad.

“Seriously, what’s up with you? Why are you acting like this? You’re acting like a-” Jeremiah snapped his mouth shut before finishing his sentence. Eyes widened again.

Your stomach twisted. You knew what he was about to say. You knew that were acting like one, but you never thought he’d say that to you. You glared at him.

“Like a what Jeremiah? Why don’t you just finish that sentence?“ you spoke bitterly, your voice still shaky. “We both knew what you were about to say! If that’s what you think about me, say it!”

“Stop yelling at me!” His eyes softened, “I-I didn’t mean it.”

He stepped closer, causing you to step back. You were so upset at him. You were so upset at everything. You were hurting so bad right now, but you didn’t know how to not turn it into anger.

“Sure you didn’t.”

“Y/n talk to me.” He whispered.

You had contemplated and were about to say something, but you looked at the front door and saw Jeremiah’s fuck buddy leaning against the door. She was looking at you and when she had noticed you looking at her she walked down, next to Jeremiah.

“Jere, let’s continue what we started, she obviously wants to be left alone.”

Her arms wrapped around his neck, her whole front side pressed against his backside. You glared at them and felt your stomach twist again. You focused on Jeremiah, and he hadn’t even pushed her away.

“Yes Jeremiah, why don’t you go fuck her right now? I’m fine alone.” Jealousy built up in you.

You looked him in the eye and your heart broke. He was upset. You wanted to apologize, but your pride was too strong. Jeremiah pushed the girl off of him and walked away from the two of you.

“Hey! What the hell was that for!” The girl yelled at him throwing her arms in the air.

You were frozen, you had been horrible to Jeremiah. You were so angry at Will and Jeremiah and you had taken it out on him. You didn’t even have the right to be angry over Jeremiah. He had never liked you, your feelings were never reciprocated.

You felt the tears come back again. You were sure Jeremiah could never forgive you. You fell to the ground, torn and upset.

Belly and Conrad came outside. Belly had immediately sat down with you and hugged you, allowing you to cry in her shoulder while she whispered things to you. Conrad had gone back inside to get the keys from Steven. Tonight was a horrible night. The conclusion that you came to was that you were a terrible person. You never acted this way. Especially not towards Jeremiah, you never even had a serious fight with him.

Conrad eventually came out of the house with the keys. He had to pick you up and take you to the car because you were that sad.

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Light streamed through your open window. Your eyes had opened up and you had immediately closed them. Your head was pounding and your eyes were probably red and swollen. You turned to your side and checked the time to see that it was 12:00 pm. You closed your eyes and sighed. You didn’t want to leave your room. You were sure everyone would be incredibly concerned for you and you didn’t want to face them, face him.

You heard a knock on the door and a second later it opened. You glanced at who it was and it was Laurel. She had a glass of water and a pill in hand. She had given you a soft smile and walked into your room, sitting on your bed.

“Hey sweetie, take this.” She handed you the pill and water.

You sat up and quickly swallowed the pill and had some water. Laurels hand came over your face to move a strand of hair out of your face.

“How are you doing? I heard you had a rough night.”

You didn’t answer her verbally, and instead gave her a shrug looking away from her. In your peripheral vision you saw her frown. You were so scared for the consequences of your actions. You had fucked up.

“Jeremiah told us what happened, do you want to talk about it?” She murmured.

You wanted to cry but tears wouldn’t come out. You were sure it was because you used up all the tears you had last night and the fact you were probably dehydrated. Laurel gave you a hug and a tight squeeze with it.

“I messed up, Jere is never going to forgive me.” You whispered.

Laurel pulled away from your hug and frowned, rubbing your shoulders. “No sweetie, you were hurt, we all make mistakes. Belly told us what caused you to act that way. They’re all worried for you. Even Jeremiah.”

“I was so mean to him, I-I treated him like shit. I was jealous and angry and- and I was so so hurt.” Your voice cracked and Laurel gave you another hug.

“He’s going to forgive you. You’re y/n and he’s Jeremiah. He has a soft spot for you.”

You shook your head, even though tears weren’t coming out your body wracked with sobs. You hated this feeling. Hated how you treated your best friend like shit.

Laurel pet your hair in a soothing manner. Humming to you until you calmed down. You were so thankful for her.

“How about you come down for lunch hm?” Laurel spoke grabbing both of your shoulders.

“I’d rather stay up here and mope.”

Laurel let out a small laugh and you along with her. She understood and didn’t push you or anything. She gave you a kiss on the head before standing up and walking to the door. She opened the door but didn’t walk out of it.

“It’s going to be okay y/n, I’ll save you some extra food in case you decide to come down.” Laurel smiled softly before walking out.

You had felt better, but you wanted to delay talking to Jeremiah for as long as possible. You knew you’d talk to him sometime today but you didn’t want to right at this moment. You needed time for yourself, to think and regret your actions.

You laid in bed, staring at your ceiling for about fifteen minutes before another knock came from your door. You sat up ninety percent sure that it was Belly or Conrad. You pat your hair down and made sure you looked halfway decent.

“Come in!” You yelled.

The door opened slowly and you saw who it was. You sat up a little straighter and became nervous almost instantly.

Jeremiah walked in, looking down at the floor. He closed the door behind him, took a deep breathe, and made the decision to look at you. You noticed he had eye bags and a little cut and bruise on his face. He looked nervous, almost as nervous as you.

“Hi.” He said, still staring at you.

“Hi.” You responded giving him a small smile.

He didn’t smile back but he seemed a little relieved. He made his way to the chair next to your bed. You didn’t know what to say and from the look on his face neither did he.

“Jere, I-I’m so so sorry. The way I acted towards you last night was not okay in the slightest.” You breathed out.

Jeremiah stared at you for a minute, probably processing your words.

“Y/n I forgive you, but why? Why did you act so hostile towards me, what did I do?” Jeremiah whispered, he sounded upset.

“It’s nothing you did, it was Will and then when I saw you with that girl, I don’t know I guess I was just jealous or something and took it all out on you.” You rambled.

Your eyes widened when you realized what you said. You had noticed that Jeremiah’s head perked up.

“Jealous, why would you be jealous?” He questioned leaning forward a bit.

“You know why.” You mumbled avoiding eye contact.

“Y/n, do you,” he paused. “do you still like me?”

You looked at him again, flustered and embarrassed. Jeremiah tilted his head to the side waiting for your answer.

“That’s not the point of this conversation. I’m really sorry Jeremiah. I should have taken my feelings towards Will out on you, it was childish and stupid.” You changed the subject.

Jeremiah stared at you frowning. You didn’t want to look at him. His gaze was so intense and you had no intention of confessing your feelings out loud to him.

“What if I told you, that I was jealous too.”

Your heart dropped and your stomach had butterflies. You turned to look at him, wanting to make sure he was real, this conversation was real.

“Whenever you were with Will, I was so jealous and I hated seeing you with him. I was only with that girl to stop thinking about you. So please, please say it for me.” Jeremiah had gotten up and was standing a foot away from you.

Your heart was beating so quickly. Jeremiah has feelings for you. The Jeremiah who you’ve been pinning for, for years. Jeremiah now sat on your bed. He was waiting for your response.

“You make me crazy Jeremiah. Everything you do and everything about you makes me crazy. When it comes to you logic goes out the window. And it’s because I love you, I’ve loved you since the moment I met you.” You told him, playing with your hands.

Jeremiah’s eyes lit up and gave you a big smile. You let out a small laugh because he was so cute. Jeremiah moved closer to you so now he was sitting next to you on the bed. You turned to look at him both of you smiling big. His hand moved to cup your cheek rubbing it with his thumb.

“I love you.”

You started to tear up, overwhelmed by the fact that your feelings were reciprocated. Jeremiah loved you, you y/n l/n. Jeremiah leaned his head against yours. He looked at your lips and back at your eyes, almost asking for approval to kiss you. You nodded and he didn’t have a chance to react because you had already moved to kiss him. And it was everything you had wanted and more. It was soft and it was sweet.

Jeremiah pulled away and moved to kiss your cheeks.“I love you, I love you, I love you.” was all he was saying to you as he kissed your head, your nose, and your mouth.

You pulled away from him and the both of you laid down. You leaned your head on his chest and he had wrapped his arm around your waist. You craned your neck to look at him.

“How did you get that cut and bruise?” You asked pointing to it.

He blushed and looked a way from you.

“I beat up will.”

You gasped. “You’re lying!”

He shook his head no. You flung your arms around him.

“Thank you for that. Even though I don’t promote violence, I appreciate it.” You mumbled into his neck.

He wrapped his arms around you and kissed you on the head.

“I’ll do anything for you.”

You smiled in his neck and hummed in delight.

“We should go down so you can eat. You haven’t eaten since before the party.” He stated.

“I want to stay like this for a few minutes.” You muttered.

He laughed but didn’t make a move to get up. You were happy with the way things turned out. You were happy that Jeremiah was finally yours and you his.

[amalia-writes]

Complicated (Conrad Fisher x Reader)

Summary: Y/n is belly’s best friend and goes to cousins with her every summer, this summer Conrad seems to be ignoring Y/n and paying attention to Belly.

Pretty much just confessions at night and bad communication skills

Warnings: underage smoking, mentioned underage drinking, make out session, and slight swearing.

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"Belly, Y/n!! Conrad, Jer, and I are heading down to the beach!" Steven yelled from across the house.

Both you and Belly were currently fangirling over Andrew Garfield because well... it's Andrew Garfield.  You had been sitting in the living room watching Spider-Man when Belly, who was walking past you, saw Andrew on the screen and started gushing over him. Which was totally understandable because Andrew Garfield was a sight for sore eyes.

But you knew the moment that Steven had yelled that Conrad was going Belly would immediately go with them. And you were right because the second that Steven said his name Belly jumped off the couch and scrambled up the stairs to change.

"I'll meet you guys down there!" Belly yelled as she was running up the stairs.

You, the moms, Steven, and Jeremiah all knew about her crush on Conrad that she's had since forever. In fact you're pretty sure the only person who didn't know was Conrad. Although, to be fair, you thought Conrad liked her back.

You spent a lot of time watching the two of their interactions and you could tell he has a soft spot for her. Who wouldn't thought? Belly was one of the sweetest girls you met. You also watched them a lot because Conrad barely interacted with you anymore.

You were Belly's best friend and you had been Belly's best friend since the fourth grade. It all started when Taylor asked you to hang out with them because Belly thought you looked lonely. Since then the three of you had been incredibly close. You were sure you had gotten a little closer with Belly than you had Taylor because in the 7th grade Belly asked you if you wanted to spend the summer in Cousins with her and family friends. Ever since then you've been spending your summer in Cousins with the Fishers and Conklin's.

You were pulled out of your thoughts by Jeremiah, who decided that sitting on and suffocating you was a good idea. You screamed and smacked his back multiple times in hopes that he'd get off of you.

"Jeremiah I swear to God if you don't get your fat ass off of me I will murder you!" You yelled struggling to breathe as you continued to smack him.

"That's funny Y/n because if anything I'm the one killing you right now." He laughed and you could feel the vibrations from his back.

You attempted to take a deep breath and gathered all the strength you had (which wasn't a lot) and pushed him off causing him to fall to the ground.

"I just wanted to ask if you were going to the beach. You were so deep in thought my only option was to sit on you." You heard him mumble.

You rolled your eyes and then peered over at the ground where he was laying and couldn't help but giggle when you saw him laying face flat on the floor.  He sat himself up and looked at you probably waiting for a response.

You sat up straight, "I'm not sure. I'm kind of tired today, so I think I'm gonna stay here."

Jeremiah stared at you, his eyes narrowing. You shrunk in the couch because you never were one for eye contact.

"You're lying." He said. "You just don't want to go because of Belly and Conrad."

Your eyes widened and you jumped of the couch to cover his mouth, quickly taking a look at your surroundings. Your eyes moved back to his and you narrowed your eyes this time.

"Jer, you can't just say that in the living room, someone could have heard! Plus it's not because of that." You responded, realizing you still had your hand on his mouth you took it off and wiped it on the couch.

You had a secret. A secret that no one knew besides Jeremiah. You had also liked Conrad along with Belly. You didn't develop a crush on him until last year. The reason you developed said crush was because your mom had been diagnosed with cancer and even though they caught it early, it was still hard to deal with. But, Conrad was one of the first people you told and he had really been there for you that whole summer. Luckily, your mom was doing chemo now and the doctors said that if she continues with chemo she'll beat cancer.

You refused to tell anyone though because you knew that Belly had a huge crush on him and you were pretty sure he liked her back or well at least this summer. But Jeremiah had found out after you had gotten drunk and decided that telling Jeremiah how miserable you were was a good idea. That was two weeks ago. And since then Jeremiah had been teasing you every chance he got.

"No one's here and I'm pretty sure it is because of them. I've noticed they've gotten a little more friendlier with each other too." Jeremiah stated.

You cringed at Jeremiah's words. You hugged yourself trying to get rid of the dread you felt in your stomach. You assumed Jeremiah had noticed as he put a hand on your shoulder. You tried to think of an excuse to stay inside but couldn't think of anything.

"I think Conrad's ignoring me, I haven't really talked to him in forever and it feels like he's distancing himself from me." You whispered. Jeremiah's face softened.

"Y/n, im sure that's not the case, Conrad's been like that all summer, I'm sure it's okay. But, you need to get out there and have fun. You've been cooped up in the house since you got here."

Jeremiah was right. In fact he was right a lot. You knew that sitting around and overthinking over a boy wasn't how you wanted to spend your summer. You smacked Jeremiah's hand off of you before standing up and walking away.

"Ow! What was that for?" Jeremiah yelled as you walked up the stairs.

You stopped and turned to look at him. "That was for almost suffocating me." You told him before spinning around and walking to your room.

You heard him mutter something along the lines of 'you being mean' and you couldn't help but snicker at his childishness.

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You were currently walking incredibly slowly to the beach. It was less than a one minute walk but you wanted to delay getting there as long as possible. You didn't really want to see Belly and Conrad together.

You had noticed that this summer Conrad had started to pay more attention to Belly and less attention to you. Since you had a crush on him you were paying attention to his interactions with her and you always noticed that he would brush his hand against hers or take something out of her hair. Almost like it was an excuse just to touch her. But he never did that with you.

You sighed as you continued to walk looking at your surroundings. You had made your way down to where everyone's towels were and set yours down with theirs. You noticed everyone playing in the water together and smiled. You guys never really hung out as much as you used to.

You watched as Conrad threw Belly into the water. His arms were on her waist and the both of them were laughing. Your stomach twisted in jealousy. You didn't know the Fishers as long as Belly did and you didn't have the same relationship that they had with Belly. And it made you upset.You knew you had no right to be jealous and whenever you felt jealous you'd feel terrible.

Jeremiah must have noticed you standing there because he was waving his hand to call you over. You smiled and ran over jumping straight into the water.

You tensed up feeling the cold water as you tried walking to everyone else.

"Holy shit the water is so cold." You said.

Jeremiah laughed as he made his way over to you. And let's just say you know what that meant. You tried to run away from him but with his long legs and your not so long ones he was easily catching up to you.

"Somebody help me, get this madman away from me!" You screamed continuing to run away.

The rest of the group laughed and watched the ordeal unfold and you glared at them every chance you got. Jeremiah finally reached you and picked you up just to drop you face first in the water again.

You stood up in the water pushing your hair out of your face and splashed Jeremiah. Jeremiah splashed you back and the two of you started laughing with the rest of the group. You turned to look at belly and noticed Conrad looking between you and Jeremiah. You heart beat a little fast because Conrad's jaw was clenched and all you could think about was how hot he looked. Conrad made eye contact with you but you looked straight at Belly instead.

You made your way over to him and Belly while Steven went to talk to Jer. Conrads eyes stayed on you the whole time. His eyes roamed your body and you wanted to cover yourself immediately. Although you knew it was a good idea to wear the two piece that Susannah had given you. She always did have good taste.

"Hey Bels, hey Con." You said to them trying to look only at Belly.

"I thought you weren't going to come, what changed your mind?" Belly asked.

You laughed. "Jer forced me into coming. Told me 'I was too cooped up in the house'."

Belly laughed alongside you but Conrad just stared at you. You felt a little uncomfortable with him staring and you noticed Belly staring at you too. You realized that Belly was hinting toward you leaving so she could talk to Conrad.

"I actually have to go clean my room. So I'll talk to you guys later." Belly smiled at you mouthing a 'thank you'

You smiled back and started to walk away. You were upset, Conrad didn't even say hi to you. He never really talks to you anymore. He doesn't pay any attention to you.

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It was currently 9:30 at night. You had just woken up from a nap that you had decided to take after dinner. You were still a little drowsy as you made your way down the stairs, careful not to trip.

You peeked your head into the living room and noticed Belly and the moms watching a movie. You decided to go into the kitchen and see if there were any snacks.

You noticed a plate of brownies and decided to take one. Standing next to the counter while eating your brownie, you looked outside and noticed Conrad sitting by the pool. You looked to see if any of the others were out there with him but he was sitting out there alone.  You had decided you might as well talk to him.

You finished your brownie and walked to the sliding door, careful to make sure you didn't disturb Belly and the moms. Successfully opening the door you walked over to Conrad. Conrad looked to see who it was and gave you muttered a 'hi' when he noticed it was you.

"Hey Con, can I sit?" You asked not wanting to invade his space.

He nodded is head and you moved to sit next to him, dipping your feet into the water. The two of you sat in awkward silence and as you looked at him to say something you saw him lighting a cigarette.

"Since when do you smoke?" You raised your eyebrow and tilted your head to the side.

"Since this summer." Conrad answered, his voice raspy and a little deep.

You nodded, mainly toward yourself. Con had never liked smoking before, he always told you that it was harmful and bad for you.

"Can I take a hit?"

you were sure he'd say no but it was worth a shot. You had smoked before, obviously not that often but you still had done it. Conrad moved his head to look at you, shock clear on his face.

"No, you're only 16. You shouldn't be smoking."

You stared at him, eyebrow raising again. He stared back and you could feel yourself getting a little flustered so you made the decision to look away.

"I could say the same for you, you're only 17. Let me just take one hit." You asked again. Hoping he'd change his mind.

Conrad rolled his eyes before giving in. You knew that he knew you wouldn't give up until he let you smoke it. He handed you the cigarette, your hands brushing during the interaction. He watched as you brought it to your mouth inhaling and then exhaling. You tried not to cough and to push the burning you felt building in your throat. A second later you felt relaxed as the buzz hit you.

"I'm surprised you didn't cough. I thought for sure you would."

You looked at Conrad a big smile of pride on your face. Conrad couldn't help but chuckle at the excitement you had when he told you that. You didn't know how you were functioning, because Conrad's laugh was too much for you. He was too much for you.

"Where's Jer and Steven?" You changed the subject, genuinely curious as to where they were.

"Probably out partying right now. You know how they are."

Your eyebrows furrowed. Normally Conrad spends most of his time partying too. Although you had noticed that he wasn't really going out that much this summer.

"Don't you like to party Conrad? I've noticed that you've been staying in the house more often. Is something wrong?"

"No. Nothing's wrong, just got more important things to focus on." He mumbled.

You didn't say anything but you had notice how his eyes had become saddened when you asked when something was wrong. You wanted to respect his privacy and not push him.

"Con, can I ask you something?"

He nodded his head instead of answering because of the cigarette he was currently smoking. You started to fiddle with your fingers. You were going to ask him about Belly.

"You don't have to answer or anything but I was just curious and I noticed how you interact with Belly. But like I said if you feel uncomfortable at all then just tell me and it's totally okay." You were rambling, you did that when you were nervous and to make it worse Conrad was staring at you in confusion. "But I was just wondering if you had feelings for Belly?"

Conrad looked fully shocked now. You felt a little embarrassed and awkward, but his answer would be worth it.  But you were not expecting his response, or the smirk that formed on his face.

"Why? is my little y/n...." He paused and moved into your space, where you could feel his breathe against your ear, "....Jealous?"

He finished his sentence and if you weren't blushing and a nervous wreck before you were now. You could smell his breath and it smelled of cigarettes and alcohol.

"W-what? I don't know what you're talking about Conrad. I was just curious." You breathed out.

You were nervous-no nervous was an understatement. He was still in your personal space but he had moved back so he could look at you. You had never seen him look at you like that. Like he was really looking at you.

"To answer your question. I don't know." He sighed turning away from you to run a hand through his hair.

You felt your heart drop. What does 'I don't know' even mean? You couldn't tell if you were sad or relieved; maybe it was a mix of both?

"Oh." You tried you hardest not to make your voice crack. But you’re pretty sure it did.

Conrad turned to look at you again. But you refused to look at him. Why would he assume you were jealous? Unless... He knew, knew that you like him. After his little comment you'd be more surprised if he didn't. It would also make sense that he'd be ignoring you if he knew.

"Do you know?" You whispered. Too embarrassed to look at him. But you felt his stare burning holes through your head.

"Do I know what?" Conrad whispered back.

Conrad wasn't answering and you knew that he knew what you were talking about.

"Don't play games with me Conrad." You snapped. Upset, you had a feeling he knew what you were talking about.

Conrad let out another sigh. "Yes I know." 

All of the sudden you felt cold. You wrapped your arms around yourself and took a deep breath in. You felt like you were going to cry. You didn't even know why you were about to cry. Maybe it's because you felt embarrassed he knew?

"How long?"

"Since you told Jer." He said.

"Did Jer tell you? Is this why you've been ignoring me all summer?" You had hoped not. Because you would've been so disappointed in him. Jer knew how much you liked him.

"Jer didn't tell me, I was walking by when you admitted it to him." Conrad's head hung low as if he were ashamed.

You sighed in relief. At least Jer didn't say anything. But Conrad knew. He knew that you liked him.

"Is that why you've been distancing yourself from me? Because I like you?"

He nodded in response and your heart broke. He knew and he ignored you and you're sure he knew that you were watching him. Watching him interact with Belly. Your best friend and the girl he might like.

"You didn't even have the decency to tell me? You just thought ignoring me was the best decision?" You voice broke. You weren't crying but your voice was betraying you.

"Y/n I-" you cut him off.

"No Conrad. You were off flirting with Belly in front of me when you knew I liked you. I understand that you don't feel the same way but were you really that repulsed by me liking you that you decided to ignore me?" You felt a tear drop from your eyes.

"I can't be around you right now." You scoffed and stood up to walk away.

Conrad was still sitting but he grabbed your wrist. "Y/n wait." You turned to face him tears flowing freely now. His facial features softened at you crying.  You attempted to wipe the tears away.

He let go of you and you let out another scoff and walked away from him.

You walked into the house and straight up to your room. Sitting on your bed, you wiped away the tears that were on your face. You weren't going to sit around and mope over a boy. Deciding to call your mom you picked up your phone and clicked on her number.

The phone rang for a few times before the line went through.

"Hey mom! How are you? I miss you."

"Hey sweetie, I'm good. Tired but good."

"That's good, how's Chemo?"

You bit your tongue nervous for her response.

"It's good, the doctors are telling me that in a few months I should be good to go! But enough about me, how's Laurel, Susannah, and the kids?"

"That's good that chemos going well. And everyone here is good! We're all having a really fun time here in Cousins."

"That's good baby, I have to go, but I promise to call you tomorrow. I love you. Stay safe"

"I love you too mom."

You end the call with your mom and lie down on your bed. You just stare at ceiling where your glow up stars are.  You don't know how long you were laying there when all of the sudden you heard a knock on your door.

"Come in!" You yelled not moving from your spot.

The door slowly opened and you looked to see who your visitor was. And of course, it's Conrad.

"Actually never mind, don't come in." You mumbled.

Conrad rolled his eyes and continued to make his way in, sitting down on your bed in the process. You turned to your side so you wouldn't have to look at him.

"What do you want?" You grumbled not in the mood to be around him.

You felt his hand play with your hair. He always did that to you when he felt nervous, although he hadn't done it this summer because, well, he hadn't been talking to you. You still felt yourself shiver, it was Conrad after all, and you still did have feelings for him.

"I'm sorry Y/n. I just didn't want to hurt you." He finally spoke after a minute of silence. His fingers still playing with your soft hair.

"Well you did end up hurting me." You bit your lip and you could feel his gaze on you but you refused to look at him.

"I don't like Belly."

Those four words gave you hope. And you felt terrible for thinking that but it did. You felt your heart beat a little faster and your palms got a little sweaty.

"I don't need to know that information. Even then if you don't like her, don't string her along. She deserves someone better than you." You told him. Angry about his little interactions with Belly.

"I know. Look y/n, the reason I acted that way with Belly was because I was trying to like her. I wanted to like her. But," he paused unsure if he should continue.

Your interest was peaked. You had caved and turned to your other side so you were facing him. You looked at him with curiosity about what he would say next. He was refusing to make eye contact with you.

"But I couldn't..." he paused again, taking a deep breath before continuing, "...because of you."

Your eyes widened and you sat up, now directly facing him. You saw a hint of red on his cheeks and you definitely felt your heart beat spike and your stomach was doing somersaults.

"What? What do you mean because of me?" You questioned, wanting to get it out of him.

He moved a strand of hair out of your face, his fingers brushing against your cheek and tingles followed behind him.

“What I mean is that, I like you, y/n." He whispered his eyes never leaving yours.

You sat there staring back at him too shocked to say anything. After a moment of silence, you cleared your throat.

"Why were you ignoring me then? Why didn't you tell me?" His eyes held guilt.

"I didn't want to hurt Belly by confessing to you."

You stomach dropped. You had forgotten about Belly for a second. Forgotten  about her feelings for him. If you and him started to date, she would be crushed.

"I can't do this with you, Conrad we would crush her. She's my best friend I could never do that to her." You spoke, you were upset but you couldn't choose Conrad over her.

"I understand that, but just know it'll always be you. I've had feelings for you since I first met you." Conrad responded.

His hand cupped your cheek, thumb slowly moving back and forth. You leaned into his touch enjoying the moment. He had started to lean forward, until your foreheads touched. The both of you stared at each other. Your breathing the only thing heard.

"We can't do this Conrad." You had tried to convince yourself more than him. But your head inched closer towards his.

Finally after what felt like a decade, but was probably only 1 second. Your lips touched. It was soft and sweet. It only lasted two seconds before you had pulled away breaking the kiss.

"I really can't do this." You shook your head and Conrad nodded in understanding.

Your foreheads were still connected and right as Conrad was about to give you space, you had grabbed him by the shirt to connect his lips with yours. This kiss was passionate and more intense. His lips were just as soft as they were before but this kiss? Oh god this kiss was so much better. You had let out a small moan giving Conrad a chance to find your mouth with his tongue. Your hands moved from the collar of his shirt to his hair. Conrad's hands were all over you body, from your back, to your hair, to your neck, and to your face. It's like he couldn't get enough of you. You had gently tugged a handful of his hair causing the two of you to bump noses.

The both of you broke from the kiss and let out goofy smiles. Conrad gave you a quick kiss before pulling away completely. You looked at his lips and noticed they had become swollen. You were breathing a little heavily as was he.

“That was…nice.” You said sheepishly, becoming more flustered than you already were.

Connie smiled and laughed at your response to the kiss causing you to swat him in the chest telling him it wasn’t funny. He caressed your cheek and gave you a kiss on the forehead.

“I really like you Y/n and i understand you not wanting to hurt Belly, I don’t want to hurt her either. But I won’t give up on this. On us.”

You gave him the biggest smile you had.

“Thank you Conrad. But for now I think we should just enjoy the moment. I don’t want to think about anyone else but you.” You kissed him on the cheek.

He nodded before kissing you once more. This one more slow. You knew that the both of you had a lot to work out. But right now you were focused only on him. Everything else could come later.

[amalia-writes]

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