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[andimlonely]

in my experience, even my little nsfw ramblings tend to get more/more immediate attention than my actual drafted sfw fics. Also, it definitely depends on the fandom but I feel like fluff is very common and smut - even if common- is pretty easy to avoid.

“all i see is smut” “why can’t i find fluff and angst and not smut” “how come fluff isn’t—”

yet when nonsmut fics come across your dash you don’t support it by circulating it with a reblog. smut is pushed because it’s the smut audience that tends to be more supportive when it comes to boosting the fics they read 💗

[andimlonely]

I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?

Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.

I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.

[andimlonely]

Fundraising Campaigns for Palestine 🇵🇸

Hello, I've received many messages from people who need our help. I've tried to make sure there is some verification for each one. Please reblog even if you can't donate, it can save lives.

@monagaza1 ⭐️ Campaign: $18,800 / $92,000 - Vetted #164.

@mahmoudjsy ⭐️ Campaign: $3,368 / $25,000 - Vetted #190.

@mohammedaldeeb ⭐️ Campaign: €41,408 / €55,000 - Vetted #212.

@ahmadwaleed55 ⭐️ Campaign: $9,140 / $25,000 - Vetted #167.

@khalid-sisters ⭐️ Campaign: $2,368 / $15,000 - Vetted by association.

@palestinegazafree ⭐️ Campaign: $8,125 / $50,000 - Vetted by 90-ghost.

@hazemsuhail ⭐️ Campaign: €8,323 / €50,000 - Vetted by association.

@mohammednasr ⭐️ Campaign: £95 / £50,000 - Clean reverse image search.

@eyad-alanqar255 ⭐️ Campaign: €1,157 / €40,000 - Vetted by association.

@mahdimoh ⭐️ Campaign: kr770 SEK / kr200,000 - Clean reverse image search.

@ahmed-al-anqar ⭐️ Campaign: £317 / £60,000 - Clean reverse image search.

@anasalshrofa ⭐️ Campaign: €2,181 / €50,000 - Vetted #913.

@mariam2013y ⭐️ Campaign: $581 / $30,000 - Vetted by association.

@mahmoud-1995 ⭐️ Campaign: $15,006 / $50,000 - Vetted by 90-ghost.

@ahmad1988 ⭐️ Campaign: kr1,617 NOK / kr500,000 - Clean reverse image search.

@noorabd-1992 ⭐️ Campaign: $16,745 / $45,000 - Vetted by association + 90-ghost.

@abedalhdihesham ⭐️ Campaign: $5,533 CAD / $65,000 - Vetted #2 by @gazavetters.

@samialkhalili ⭐️ Campaign: €155 / €50,000 - Clean reverse image search.

@esraayyad14 ⭐️ Campaign: €20,165 / €45,000 - Vetted by 90-ghost.

@khaled-eltaban ⭐️ Campaign: £2,798 / £10,000 - Vetted by 90-ghost.

@farahmohanad2 ⭐️ Campaign: $2,308 / $35,000 - Vetted by association.

@mariam-gaza ⭐️ Campaign: $738 / $20,000 - Vetted by association.

+ I would appreciate being informed of any mistakes I may have made.

Updated as of September 14th, 2024.

[andimlonely]

I noticed that masterlists of campaigns tend to get more traction than single asks, so I'm compiling the campaigns of people below who have reached out to me. I don't have the funds to help them all, but I want to spread awareness and potentially get them to reach people who do. I will likely continue to update this as more people reach out.

keensaladbanana - Julieat is raising funds for her family to escape Gaza. vetted by association, VERY low on funds (kr5,694/kr350,000). campaign link

karamalmadhoun0 - Karam is trying to escape to Egypt with his family of 5. vetted by multiple sources. (€16,176/€20,000). campaign link

farohablogsworld - Mohanad and Farah are a married couple trying to rebuild their lives in the war. vetted by association. (€1,318/€35,000). campaign link. note that they had to change their link due to a problem with currency, this is the new one!

asmaayyad - Asmaa is a daughter in a family of 8 trying to evacuate. vetted. (€16,450/€45,000). campaign link

rehabsh98 - Rehab and Hussein and their two children are trying to evacuate Gaza. vetted. ($34,869/$40,000). campaign link

nevinalser - Nevin has a young child and is trying to evacuate Gaza with her family. vetted. VERY low on funds (€1,263/€50,000). campaign link

helpamalm - Amal is trying to escape Gaza with her family. not vetted, but seems legitimate, as this fundraiser has been up since May! VERY low on funds! (€579/€53,000). campaign link

ahmadwaleed5 - Ahmed and his family are trying to rebuild their lives in the war. vetted. ($8,346/$25,000). campaign link

please share and donate if you can!

[andimlonely]

who up blurring the lines between shameful fascination and perverse desire

[andimlonely]

not arguing w a girl who likes cnc somno play whatever you say princess by the way drink this for me please yes all of it

[andimlonely]

"youve already written that trope" yesss. i like it a lots. i will be writing it again. 1000 stories of the same trope over and over again for ten million years

[andimlonely]

Palestinian tiktoker Medo Halimy was martyred yesterday. He was growing a garden and making "a day in the life" tiktoks while in Gaza. He was just 19 years old and now he's gone, but y'all wanna pretend that people wanting hard stances against genocide is some kind of moral superiority issue and not the fact that people are literally dying.

This is his family's gofundme that's still linked to his tiktok. Please send some help their way so they no longer have to lose more of their family.

https://gofund.me/c22e7fed

[andimlonely]

so.. dark content tumblr got me into degrees of lewdity and I've been playing it all weekend. it's filling my brain with so many ideas.. but what I really want is to be filled by kylar and robin

[andimlonely]

hhh.. dogboy! Mickbell and how he would be especially clingy and possessive. licking your face when he's kissing you while he has you pinned to the ground beneath him. he would nuzzle into your neck, licking and nipping, enticed by his proximity to your scent. grinding down on your body and whining your name.

TW: possessiveness, hybrid x human, breeding, knotting

and if he was rutting..

"you're mine, you're mine, you're mine," he would chant as his hips bucked into you from behind, your face pressed into your pillow.

"my baby. no one else can have you."

he would bite at your shoulders and neck, holding you tight while he slams into you, your moans and squeals from below leaving him unable to keep from knotting you any longer.

"hh-! gonna cum soon. want me to fill you up, baby?"

You whine out a string of yes and please and Mick. You're so close to the edge and Mickbell knows just how to push you over.

"gonna put my puppies in your tummy. make you all full, because you're all mine-! mine, mine, mine- hah"

His possessive words and relentless pace have you coming undone, squeezing so tight around him.

Mickbell fucks you through your release, rhythm breaking into stuttering, desperate thrusts, until finally warmth floods your insides, and you both cry out.

You would stay tangled together, tethered by Mickbell's knot and his tight embrace until it goes down, or until he wants to pump you full again.

[andimlonely]

Hi, I hope you're doing well. I'm writing to you with a heavy heart and an urgent request for help. My family is in a very danger situation due to the ongoing war, and I've launched a GoFundMe campaign to save them. Could you please share my campaign post from my profile? Each share could be a lifeline for my family. 🙏 Feel free to share it in any other social media platform if you would like. Our campaign has been verified ⭐️ by operation olive branch, and is entry number 26 on their spreadsheet. Also with ⭐️ Project watermelon,line 249/(212) on their spreadsheet. From the bottom of my heart I want to thank you in advance for all of your support and kindness.

I wish you and your loved ones safety and happiness <3

[andimlonely]

no “carrd.” you learn things about me based on what you can piece together from the vague details of my life I disclose in rare moments of vulnerability

[andimlonely]

omg them,,

Ahh, yes, I see.

[andimlonely]

having a hand kink while in a party with Chilchuck.. I would be fed and also starving

imagine everyone waiting for him to disarm a trap or pick a lock or something and you try not to watch too intently. maybe you even try not to watch him at all after a certain point because it keeps conjuring thoughts you shouldn't be having, especially about someone strictly against inter-party relations

[andimlonely]

I am thinking about siscon Mickbell..

TW: incest ofc, possessiveness, size difference, unhealthy attachments/codependency, a tiny bit yandere?

////spoilers for Mickbell's backstory, fem reader

considering how attached he is to Kuro, who is basically his only family, I can only imagine how protective and clingy Mickbell would be if he had a pretty girl for a companion. So instead of finding Kuro alone, you're already by his side when Kuro joins your small- now a little less small- family.

Although he canonically has a sister, I kind of like the idea of found family tall-man! reader who is a little younger than Mick and also was left to fend for herself as a child. He probably meets you in a similarly dire situation to how he found Kuro, and though he got by on the principle of 'every man for himself' up until then, he's swayed by your endless stream of tears, the way you tug desperately at his shirt and plead him to help you, the way your position mirrored his own.

Since you're not a half-foot, you end up far outgrowing Mickbell, but he still takes to his role as your big brother, never letting you out of his or Kuro's sight, eating less when necessary to make sure you have plenty of food, snatching pretty things he thinks you'll like, fussing over you, discouraging your naturally trusting nature and reminding you the only one you can really count on is him (and Kuro, but him first). On the battlefield, Mick lacks the ability to properly protect you, but he makes sure to always at least hide where he can always see you, and orders Kuro to prioritize your safety. You, in turn, remain vigilant over the other two, and since you're proficient with a bow, you take it upon yourself to compensate for your brother's lack of self defense.

I like to think that growing up with you by his side has made him a little more considerate and courageous, but he's largely still stubborn and petulant, and in some ways less mature than you despite the age difference. That said, he's still more street smart than you are, and insists you stay close at all times. You trust Mickbell more than anyone, so you always do as you're told - mostly.

You know that you can't just trust anyone, but you also don't want to believe that everyone is out to get you either. You know that your brother is only looking out for you, but you think he's being overdramatic by insisting you don't get close to anyone else, and you want to show him that it's okay to rely on others too. And while his reluctance to trust anyone else is a major reason he dissuades you being friendly with others, it's not the only one. In reality, he's just as anxious about the possibility of you taking a liking to someone else and leaving him to join them instead.

Though he doesn't admit it to you, Mickbell is hyperaware of how ill-equipped he is to protect you, how you would be better off with someone of a different race. He's especially paranoid that you'd prefer a tall-man for a companion, and is especially insecure around any competent and good looking tall-man your party encounters. It doesn't help that other people make snide comments about the two of you, about how for a "big" brother, Mickbell is far less mature and dependable than you are (and yes, smaller than you). You always wave off their comments, reminding everyone that he saved you, and Kuro, and that even if you aren't actually related, he's a great brother, and an important member of the team. Your defenses always have Mickbell grinning smugly or sticking his tongue out at his detractors. Likewise, if anyone ever has a problem with you or even suggests anything negative about you, he'll defend you really fervently - even if the criticism was valid and put gently.

When you first joined Kabru's party, it was a bit of an adjustment for both of you. You weren't used to being around anyone but Mick and Kuro regularly, so you were a little nervous about making a good impression. Thankfully, everyone gets along well and before long, you could even say you're friends with everyone, growing particularly close to Daya and Holm. You're relieved that Mickbell also transitions into the party pretty easily. Still, the decrease in time with only each other is difficult at first, and means you have to find any opportunity to spend time together. Any time you aren't in battle, you're always at each other's side, your hand in his when you walk. Whenever you're sitting around the campfire, one of you is usually wrapped around the other - Mickbell's favorite is when he sits on something that elevates him enough so that when you're sitting on the floor in front of him, he can drape his arms around your shoulders while your party converses.

It's something your party has taken note of. Your closeness was of course expected, but sometimes it surpasses what most people would expect from siblings. Technically, they reason, it's not really that strange since you aren't actually related, but it still has your party members exchanging fleeting glances or avoiding eye contact at times.

Eventually Mickbell realizes it would be easier if he just didn't refer to you as his sister. Maybe if he called you his childhood friend or just a companion, no one would think twice when they saw you sharing a bed roll. But to call you anything less than his family would just feel.. insufficient. More than that, it wouldn't change the way you feel about each other when you're alone. You're everything to him, it's only ever been you and him. You're each other's first companions, first protectors, first kiss. And while you two are mindful to not be too affectionate around the others, when it's just you two, he reminds you just how much he adores you. Just how much it doesn't matter if you're taller or bigger than him, how much you've grown - he's still your big brother and he still knows how to take care of you best. And of course, he needs to make sure he's still your favorite.

[andimlonely]

YES SIR

I'M SAT 🧎🏻‍♀️

I AM CRAWLING 🐕

I AM COMINGGGGGG😩😩😩😩😩😩

[andimlonely]

one thing about me, I will write the "subbiest" characters as doms. there is no character pathetic or gentle enough to escape it. If I like them, I will find a way to make them a dom while keeping them in character