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[anna-cute-049]

Yeah..

I don't look the same anymore

I feel like crap

I'm tired of everything

I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay

I haven't slept since june and I go to bed late

I don't sleep much

And I started publishing less posts

Bcs I have no ideas

I'm already thinking about bad things and thinking about how to hurt myself

I can't do this anymore

I'm trying to understand and help people, but it's useless

I'm some kind of fool who doesn't understand people's problems

I don't hate when I'm stupid

I hate myself

I hate everything I do

I don't want to be pitied

I just want to disappear into thin air

I want to be alone in the dark

First this incident in april, then my friend betrayed me on tumblr and blocked me, and now...

nevermind..

This may be the last post for today

I'm leaving

Not forever

Maybe I'll come back in the fall when I feel better, Idk

Well..

Bye

Love you all

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Summer sucks

Idk why, but summer turned out to be so boring and that's it

I expected something cool, but it all went to waste

And yes, I'm not in the mood

I need to be alone

Don't worry about me, everyone

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I want to tell you all about the 3 eye colors that my mother herself told me when I was younger

Yeah ( UwU)

So let's get started :3

Brown eyes 👁🤎

Brown eyes mean they are cunning (that's what my mom told me about them, that's all)

Blue eyes 👁💙

Blue eyes mean that it is the color of the sky and love (my sister has gray-blue eyes)

Hey Nastya!! (my sister) @nastyablossomsworldxclover4 :33

And green eyes 👁💚

As my mother told me, green eyes mean that once upon a time girls with green eyes were born, they were witches and they were burned alive at the stake (btw, I have grey-green eyes)

It turns out... 🤔

I'm a witch >:3

HEHEHEHHEHEHE 😈✨️😈✨️

My history teacher once told me that I have some kind of cunning eyes, okay

Now it's not about my eyes, it's about my hands

When I massage someone, they feel better

And the teacher said that my hands are healing, like a healer's, Idk why (and they are also soft to the touch)

So yeah :3 ✨️✨️

That's all I told you all

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Guys, I'm fine, but I'm all nervous

I can't read the news anymore about what's happening in my country

I just want to run away from Russia with my suitcases in my hands

I can't do this anymore

I just want to run away

Or at least have someone take me away from Russia, that's all

I don't want to live here anymore

This country has no future

I hope you all understand me

I just want to run away and never come back

I will stay in touch with you all until the internet is turned off

I'm scared..

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I am.still here!

Yippee!! :33

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It's me :3

And I soooooo happy!!

Yippee!! :33

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HI GUYS!! :3

Don't worry, I'm still alive XD

Sorry everyone, I was gone for so long, I needed to rest

But the main thing is that I'm okay ^^

Aaaaaand

I'll leave this here

Enjoy my art :3

Yes, I am a jester, and Yana is my shadow

And plus this is my mask (the ears on the mask are very soft, you can touch them)

:33

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I am feeling more aggressively with everyday

It's ok.

Don't worry.

I have bad things too, but I try to control myself.

I try to somehow lift my spirits so that I don't go around sad or in a bad mood. (•^• )👉👈

But don't worry.

If anything, I'm nearby.

If you want to talk to me, let's talk. I'm in a good mood today. 🫂🫂✨️💕✨️💕✨️

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I love her very much.

She will always come to my aid.

When I feel bad because of some problems or hate myself, she is right there.

She always comes to me and lies down on my bed. She always purrs and licks my hand (it even hurts me a little from her prickly tongue, but I endure it).

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Ok.

Never mind.

Does anyone want to talk to me?

I just have no one to talk to.

And my mood is somehow not right.

As if my life is in shit and that's it.

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Does anyone want to talk to me?

I just have no one to talk to.

And my mood is somehow not right.

As if my life is in shit and that's it.

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I think Russia is dying.

I'm tired of listening to these stupid laws.

They block all applications.

They even want to block messengers and even google at the same time.

I'm already scared to live here.

I don't want to live in this shithole anymore.

I hate my country.

To hell with the president, to hell with the deputies, to hell with the government.

I don't want to sit locked up.

I want to live freely.

I want to leave this country forever.

This is no longer Russia, it will soon become North Korea 2.0.

I am not proud of my country, I am disappointed in it.

I would leave, but I'm not 18 yet.

And besides, I'm starting college soon in the fall.

I don't want them to block google.

Because I don't want to lose you all.

I have no one but you all.

Sorry for telling you all this, but it's just awful.

And I'm not in the mood.

I was tormented not by this topic, but by something else (don't ask).

I hope you all understand what's going on with this world.

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July 1st.

Time flies quickly.

Very quickly.

Yeah ( =w=)

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I decided to draw myself and I think it turned out very well. I like it. :3

And mini me.

Damn, I can't admire these cute little paws of mine. ( =w=) hehehe

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Jesus..

What time is it? ( =~=)

Oh.. (•^•)

It's already 6 pm (I was sleeping, by the way. I felt a bit tired, but it's good now).

Yeah.. ( =3=)👉👈

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Am I the only one who likes watching this shit?

Idk, I just like it and that's it.

Even this cartoon became popular on tiktok.

If I see this on tiktok again, I'll be watching it for the third time. XDD

There's also some cool rap from this guy.

So yes, I advise you all. 👍✨️✨️

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I don't know whether to tell you all or not, but I will.

After that incident in April, I began to talk to someone less often. Before, I always talked to someone every day, but now not so much. I understand people, that they are busy and they have their own work, and I have nothing to do. Only lie with the phone in my hands and be bored.

It’s just that if some time passes, then I’ll become an introvert and that’s it.

But for now I can communicate with you all.

Because I'm just hoping in vain. Of course, I don't have any friends in the city and so on. But I don't know. I'll probably be boring and that's it.

It's just that my soul hurts and that's it.

Once again, I'm sorry that I'm telling you all this.

I guess I'm broken. "\( =^=)/"