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Happy New Years you funky ‘lil system, remember that your trauma doesn’t define you!

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*doesn’t show affection* oh no, I’m making things awkward!!

*shows affection* oh no, I’m making things awkward!!

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No two systems will be the same, and that's an amazing thing. Just because your system is different from someone else's, doesn't mean you are fake or any less valid than them.

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Brain: *has many times where there is no memory, is aware of distinctly different alters who share my body, and has plenty of proof to back up this fact*

Brain: *has one (1) shared memory*

Me, the host: “ah, this is evidence I am faking my illness, even if I have no reason to, and no one can convince me otherwise”

Everyone else in the system:

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we’re trying to fill our dash up again, so if you’re a system (DID/OSDD, diagnosed or not ❤️) like or reblog this so we can follow you! - jade & the rest of the flux/black lavender system

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What People Think Dissociative Disorders are Like: my alter…he….he is so…evil he….they…they voices…they’re all…….telling me to kill

What Having a Dissociative Disorder is Actually Like: which one of you fucks put my phone in the underwear drawer and why am I holding two cans of soda

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What society perceives DID to be-split like, unstable, hot and cold crazies who are scary out casts.

What DID really is- who am I?, why did I come in to this room?, who wore my shirt?, what day is?

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When you look away from the wall after 10 minutes just to stare at another wall.

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Our Brain: Can form alter identities to cope with trauma.

Also Our Brain: Cannot spell Wednesday without pronouncing it as wed-ness-day in our head.

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When someone starts talking to you and you immediately dissociate: *Robot voice* “Hello, we’re not available at this moment. Please leave a message after the tone.”

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Don't know who out there needs to hear it tonight but you are not your parents. You are not doomed to be just like them. You aren't going to continue the cycle. You're already doing better than them by realizing that you don't want to be like them.

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A meme before bed, don’t lie, you’ve either been the alter or the one popping in at some point.

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help?

so last night i went out with my boyfriend and a friend last night. at first it was going great like everything was good but then later into the night we got to a bowling alley which since it was late at night there were some people that were a trigger for me. well i started dissociating but i didn’t completely switch. i felt one of my protectors there and he was close so some of his accent started coming through in my voice slightly. i was really foggy the rest of the night until we got out of the bowling alley. once we dropped the friend off and we’re on our way home my boyfriend asked if i had a good time and i said yes i did (because i did). he was silent for a minute and asked if i was sure. i said yeah why wouldn’t i be. to which he responded with “i don’t know it just seems like we can’t really do anything without it not being you the entire time. anything we do it’s like someone gets their feelings hurt.” (he didn’t mean this is a mean way) and i didn’t know how to respond it it. i only recently told him about my DID. should i have not done that? i don’t want him to think that everything we do is gonna trigger me and i don’t want to upset him. he tells me constantly that it doesn’t bother him but i feel like it does. i don’t know what to do. i want to talk with my alters and ask them if they could just like go back to acting just like me. (because they did as much as they could before i told him but i thought he was okay with them being them) but that’s not fair to them. i just. i don’t know what to do. any advice or help would be nice.

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Dissociation fucking sucks and I hate that people think it’s cool or quirky to have “multiple personalities” or to be “more than one person”. 

I haven’t been sure of who I am for at least a day now. I keep forgetting basic stuff (e.g. things that people just told me, my plans for the day, which day it is). I feel floaty and unreal. I’m feeling lots of emotions and absolutely nothing at the same time. I’ll have a thought, realize it’s important - and immediately be unable to remember what it was. I’ll be talking with a friend and lose my train of thought mid-sentence. I zone out of conversations in the midst of it, coming across as uninterested and rude. I feel about 5 ages at once, ranging from about 4 to almost 30.

Dissociation sucks. It’s awful. It’s not fun and it’s not cool.

People saying they have multiple personalities without trauma are completely ignoring and passing by the reason people with DID/OSDD have alters: repeated/prolonged childhood trauma. It’s not just having alters. It’s all trauma symptoms no one wants to have.

And this is why I can’t handle dealing with “endogenics” or any order form, shape, or size of people believing they have ‘multiple people in one body’. I get that maybe it’s something spiritual. I get that maybe these people are experiencing something else or misplacing their symptoms. I just can’t deal with it.

For people with DID/OSDD, a lot of the work is about dealing with trauma and trying to get the alters to cooperate. I don’t want to see end0 posts about forcibly separating (what they experience to be) parts even further. No!!! A really important thing for people with DID/OSDD is bringing the parts closer together. Alters are dissociated parts of one whole and all the end0 shit just brings a LOT of misinformation and bullshit into the community.

And I can’t fucking deal with that. Dissociation drains me of all my energy. I struggle so, so much trying to live/work/exist with myself and all other parts, the trauma symptoms, everything. I want to be able to check DID/OSDD tags without coming across posts about “headmates without trauma”, “multiplicity inclusive places”, end0′s, blatant anti-DID/OSDD shit and whatnot. 

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they are completely their own people. they just share a body.

Can anyone who thinks alters are people like/reblog this post? Please?

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Me, two minutes ago:*intense feelings*

Me, now: *no feelings present. unsure if there were ever feelings*