#identity disorder

[tetsunabouquet]

Hey! Well, we know that realistically Akashi will have to live with his other self (Bokushi) for probably the rest of his life. Well, I'm wondering what that bokushi-oreshi dynamic would look like in a relationship? How would it affect the relationship? How would Bokushi behave in contrast to Oreshi? Would Bokushi only come out on certain triggers, and if so, what would trigger him to come out? Could you write a headcanon about it or just share your thoughts on it? I would be extremely interested in that.

If you will write this, thank you (in advance)!

A/N: Of course I will grant you your requests! I will write your second request after Basic Instinct Chapter 15. There's a bunch of requests I also want to write that have been waiting for me for some time, so…

-Well first of all, to clarify I have no IRL experience with people who have DID or OSDD or any form of identity disorder. But if my experience with people with personality disorders says anything: it is that now Oreshi has reached a state of healing, Bokushi will only come out when Oreshi has relapsed badly enough in his symptoms, and will only do so in moments when Oreshi is triggered. But for how long Bokushi is in control, that will be the question. There will be times when it's just an hour or two, but there will also be times where he'd be in control for days, if not weeks. -We know that his initial trigger was the pressure to be perfect, and we can safely assume it will remain a trigger because of his father. Any human mistake he makes during periods of stress will be his trigger. He will not allow himself to commit any epic failures. Bad bussiness decision? Bokushi time. Did workload make him act snippy towards his SO who's now avoiding him? Bokushi time. -With Bokushi, a common relationship theme is toxicity. He has Seijuro's worst flaws when it comes to his social skills after all. -Bokushi is a very domineering kind of boyfriend and he does have some yandere traits, I do agree with that side of the fandom. After all, Bokushi was born out of the trauma and grief of losing his mother. Already having lost someone he loves, Bokushi will not let this happen again. -Bokushi is annoyingly clingy towards his SO for that very reason. -As well as that it's why he has stalker issues. He's totally the kind of boyfriend who'd keep ringing his butler to check in on you and if you're not doing anything risky. Who'd install cameras around your neighborhood to monitor if there are any creeps in your area unaware he's being a giant creep himself, etc. -Whilst Oreshi, might do some of the things Bokushi would do, but never to such extreme extend, and he'd always ask for your permission whilst Bokushi simply wouldn't care if you're against his decisions. Because Oreshi takes your opinion seriously, whilst Bokushi believes he knows better then you do. (If you know the Vampire Diaries, I totally see Bokushi being the overprotective boyfriend who wouldn't allow his girlfriend to make decisions like Damon, whereas Oreshi is more like Stefan in that he honors his SO's choices). -If you're his crush instead of his SO, then you're in big trouble. -Because Oreshi is respectfull and keeps his distance. Perhaps he's too socially awkward to think of a good way to confess, but other then that Oreshi is like any other normal boy with a crush. Bokushi on the other hand, not as much. -Bokushi always comes off too strong when interacting with his crush. He believes he is the best after all, that he is absolute. So why wouldn't his crush want to be with him? -Whilst Oreshi disapproves of the way Bokushi approaches you, he does envies Bokushi for his ability to do so easily. Oreshi is more prone to overthinking his attempts to impress you and confess, whereas Bokushi just expects you'll say yes because it's THE Seijuro Akashi asking you out. -If you dare to tell Bokushi you already like someone else, he'll make your crush's life a living hell to prove he is superior to the boy you like. -Bokushi simply cannot stand losing, and losing you wether you're his crush or his actual partner, is something unacceptable to Bokushi. He will win you over, no matter what.

[solutionswithoutsolutions]

Well, that's the first note

I guess I should start with something specific, but I haven't had a single sensible thought in my head for the last few hours while I've been thinking about this step.

I was told that this should help a little and… motivation can be a first step too, right?

I had help creating a page and it seems to be not as easy as I think.

I just… it's hard to formulate. I just want to throw it out somewhere and maybe get some advice or something?

Hi everyone. I have a personality disorder that came out of psychological trauma. My condition has been called many things, so I can say that I am ready for anything. Nice to meet you.

[systemradio]

System songs: Identity Disorder by Of Mice and Men

"I question every part of who I am // It's hard to tell which side of me is in the right // With these two different people inside of me fighting for my life."

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Trigger warnings for this song and video:

The video contains a lot of flashing lights.

The lyrics deal with topics around identity confusion and abandonment.

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Why is this song featured on this blog:

This songs lyrics seem to be about someone with an unspecified 'identity disorder' which means they often say contradicting information, or simply lie about who they are.

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Additional links:

Spotify | Genius lyrics

[twodimentionalgenie16]

i made ponysonas of my alters.

[echoesofsobs]

My now-ex: 😮😍🥰 OMIGOSH ur so lucky 🤩 Having fictional characters in ur head?? 🤩😍🤩 I wish I had that omigosh 😢😭

Me: (Developed an identity disorder due to excessive CSA, abuse, trauma, neglect and isolation. And the disorder used fictional characters because I could understand and empathize with them more than actual humans) hahaha, yeah... Lucky.

Ex: 😄😁😄😄😄😄😄 I've read SO MUCH about this!! All about Tulpa! 🫨😮 I wasn't sure if I could manifest one but UR LIVING PROOF!! 😍🤩😍🤩🥰😍😍🥰

Me: W-wait what...? This was a survival and coping mechanism my brain developed.

Ex: OH MY GOSHH 🤩😍🤩😍 Like I'm feeling someone coming about in my headddd wowww I can't believe this is possible!! 🤩😍🤩😍🥰 I can finally talk to my favorite fictional characters!! 😘😍🤩

Me: ... Wow ok.

[havegaysex]

I kind of hate being a system and I kind of hate feeling like I never got to form a proper identity.

[lovezacblr]

[met4lwhore]

yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

[jirai-in-heavy-syrup]

Me: why do I have head people

Also me: has 2 clear memories in the house I lived in from age 0-6

[the-toybox-sys]

reading the symptoms of autism as a now grown adult after being bullied for no explainable reason all your life

[bixels]

me too, luna.

[caintooth]

seeing people my age talk about how scared they are of memory loss, which they only associate with old age, is so surreal to see as a 24 year old who has actively experienced memory loss for a long time now

there are causes for memory loss besides dementia and alzheimer’s, i hope y’all know that. dissociative disorders, trauma, brain injuries, thyroid problems, even just stress and lack of sleep can fuck up your ability to store, process, and access memory. and that’s just a few of the many causes i can think of off the top of my head right now.

please stop treating disabled people like some scary “other” that you might become only in the distant, decades-away future. we are your age, too. you may become one of us sooner than you know. stop acting like memory loss marks the end of a life, when so many of us have so much living left to do!

[solidwater05]

Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

[twodimentionalgenie16]

its 100% appropriate for someone to say “who are you wearing” when your identity lineup looks like this

[clutching-our-plurals]

Shout out to all the kids who always picked shape-shifting as their hypothetical power growing up and assumed it was for gender affirmation but now realize it was also a plurality thing.