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these photos describe how i feel rn

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i truly think it’s funny how i will always find a way to intentionally sabotage anything. i won’t even be that angry about a certain thing but i’ll push and push and it’ll just erupt out and be blown fully out of proportion and then any time that happens, and when it *actually* happens, because the one time i think i can get away with letting my emotions slip just once, everything turns to shit. i’m never allowed to mess up or make a mistake because i have absolutely no bounds of restraint upon myself and i say the most fucked shit if it ever does slip up. my lack of empathy is astounding and i am such a terrible fucking person lmao.

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i am going to paint the wall with my brains i swear to fucking god!! ^_^

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hashtag bpd things lol relatable omg bpd aesthetic core

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dying on my birthday would be nice

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11:11 make a wish

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i’m a sober drunk

and by drunk, i mean i’m drunk on the philosophical idea that there might be something good that isn’t temporary if i suffer long enough. because that’s what everyone says in regard to “god”. in every story, these people suffer till they’re brittle to the bone and then a sadistic, twisted god grants them salvation. if i’m lucky, if i get beaten hard enough, broken for long enough, maybe i’ll find it.

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i am machine, i am air

i am the shadow lurking behind

dents cave into me

and they are the very markings i inflict into myself

i want to be in my bedroom

not this home, this home is not mine

i only had one home

encaged in loving arms was that bed

a bed i felt no reluctance to waking up in

kill me, sweetly

i want to die in my home

let my marks consume my body and release me

release it

i am it

it is i

tattered and worn is my machine

it has needed new parts for awhile

it has not been cared for properly

and has not been used for it’s intended purpose

was there a purpose

i don’t know

it doesn’t know

i’m sorry

forgive me, you were not meant to see it

see what it really is, see the unbridled uncensored life it lives

cover it up, throw up the tarp

pin it down

let it rot

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erotica

source: obvizz | edited by me

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adam parker smith - shibari heart

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at MY fight club you can get boners you can even cum

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International figure skating competitions in the Yusupov Garden,Saint Petersburg (1910s)

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i 100% would have been diagnosed with hysteria back in the day

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fangz