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can you tell i have like hypersonic propulsion aspergers yet? at this rate i think this is prolly what im gonna do even with my final year project. nice way to finish things off here lol.

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fellas is it gay to come out of your office wearing your coworker bestie's jacket that has YOUR COWORKER BESTIE'S NAME ON IT and not be aware of it when your students point out teasingly that your name changed overnight and then look down at your breast pocket and have a panicked realization you are in fact wearing his jacket?

because if you told me this happened irl, i'd tell you you read too much fic and to go touch some grass but instead this actually happened this morning between my two professors. yes, full-grown adult married-with-children men. my ao3 reading has caught up to me irl.

(i kid you not, my aircraft performance teacher looked like the personification of "oh. oh." as he tilted his head sideways in confusion and then it slowly dawned on him.)

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Day 23/100 of the 100 days of not so productivity

january 29th 2025

*because i never updated and i never really stayed productive. kinda hate myself for it but anyways*

made some lab reports and shit idky i js dont have energy at all this semester might be the lack of sunlight and foggy slash drab weather or smth but i just can't. on top of it all, my classmates are a bunch of cunts who make everything so uncertain i got super depressed. also winter means my eating disorder doesnt let me eat or study at all all im thinking is how much im eating and not actually focusing on studying

im several assignments behind and shit and never study enough.

i really need some help and signed up for therapy but i never got the call and im just really depressed. its probably the weather but also my mind is a mess.

im gonna try to turn things around this weekend *which im starting by going home tomorrow for a reset because nothing makes sense anymore*

i need to make myself proud and my parents and the few teachers who believed in me and believed i could be a successful adult no matter my behavioral issues because of what should've been obvious to everyone was adhd asf like.....

sorry for the rant. ill try to do better.

the weekend has gotta be for the following subjects:

aircraft stability and control

aircraft structures

aircraft propulsion and turbomachinery

*i have to deliver a powerpoint presentation in the last week of february aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

song for today: paris - the chainsmokers *heard it after sooooo long*

listened mostly to my liked songs *almost 4.3k songs lol*

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being good with language in the time of ai is so pathetic. like i have one thing going for me, i write technical stuff very well. and i recently had an assignment that i wrote every last word for all by myself, explaining every climate change graph or whatever in my own words. and then my teacher did an ai check on it. and idk if i should say i'm too cool to be human or something, but it said i had 13% ai content.

i felt humiliated and indignant because what do you mean your ai detector thinks that my 1800-ish words on electro aerodynamics and the battery powered vehicles vs. internal combustion engine debate were not my own when i fucked my ulnar-impaction-syndrome-riddled wrist typing each letter and reading and skimming every single research article myself and adding references using non-ai sources and all?

and it hurt more because propulsion and turbomachinery happens to be the subject that i absolutely live and breathe for.

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i fucking hate this subject (aircraft structures) with a passion

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new response for everything wrong in my life

(said this in my mid-semester teacher feedback about stability and control)

jan 7th '25: day 1/100 of my new year 100 days of productivity *because i was doing so much better with this in my life, because of the accountability*

*will update the rest of the day later, after rest of the day actually happens lol*

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state of affairs at the moment fellers

*recovering from wayyyyy too much shit to even go into detail about but it's the first round of exams this semester and im sick AGAIN*

*WHEN DO I EVER FUCKING GET BETTER*

upside is i got a propulsion and turbomachinery assignment on the electro-aerodynamic airframe version 2 by mit aeroastro and it's been super duper fun, especially considering teen me obsessively read and reread the issue of nature *the journal* that featured the ead airframe v2 on the cover

i love this teacher btw, istg he KNOWS how teaching works and makes his assignments super fun and makes me consider propulsion as my final choice for the final year project. since ive now got to think about specializing too. and maybe have him as my supervisor cause bitch is COMPETENT

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GLOW UP GUIDE FOR 2025⠀

READ: On average, it takes more than 2 months before a new behavior becomes automatic — 66 days to be exact. And considering that 2025 is precisely these many days away, why not start with our glow up plan already?

Physical Glow Up-

BODY

— 5-10K steps a day.

— 7-8 hours of sleep.

— workout everyday for 1 hr atleast- yoga/stretching/pilates/cardio. a workout may take one hour, but your mood will be boosted for the next 12 hours.

— posture training.

— sunlight exposure after waking up for at least 10 minutes.

NUTRITION

— 2-3 liters of water every day.

— limit your caffeine intake.

— avoid sugars as much as you can.

— high protein diet, pre and probiotics.

— more fruits and veggies (+ green smoothies if you like).

— no junk/processed food/trans fat.

— no eating after 8 pm.

SKINCARE

— be clear on your skin type (oily, dry, combination, sensitive).

— once you're clear, use these accordingly- cleanser, toner, targeted serum, eye cream, moisturizer, sunscreen (≥50 spf).

— keep your bedding clean as well.

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— remove makeup before you go to bed.

BODY CARE

— shower every day.

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HAIR CARE

— wash hair 2-3x a week

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HYGIENE

— brush your teeth 2x a day, clean tongue and the roof of the mouth daily.

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Mental Glow Up-

MINDSET

— set clear goals- define and breakdown your aspirations.

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difficult first: start your day with the most difficult task (cortisol and dopamine are high in the body meaning that your body/mind is primed to work).

rest your eyes: introduce a micro-pause after learning by resting/closing your eyes - will help retain information better.

tomorrow's worries: write tomorrow's to-do list before bed as it is proven to be effective in helping you fall asleep.

find time to play: engage in low-stake play. can be anything you find fun but where the outcome doesn't matter (induces neuroplasticity + reduces stress).

MIND

— meditation might take as low as ten minutes, but your focus will be improved for the rest of the day.

— no social media after waking up and at least an hour before bed.

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— journaling, gratitude.

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— limit unnecessary screentime, unfollow or cut off people you don't want to see.

JOURNALING

— choose a regular time each day to journal, making it a part of your routine.

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— set a timer for 5-10 minutes and write continuously during that time.

— reflect on both positive experiences and challenges.

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— a gratitude practice may take five minutes, but your mindset will be shifted for the rest of the day.

AFFIRMATIONS

— customise affirmations to your needs.

Personal Life-

WEEKLY TASKS

— initiate small changes: begin with small, manageable tasks such as making your bed or cleaning your room every sunday.

— celebrate your success: reward yourself when you achieve your goals or have a consistently productive week. consider treats like buying flowers for yourself or watching your favorite show.

DAILY WORK

— set achievable goals: establish realistic goals for the day, week, or month ahead.

— track your progress.

— organise your work space, declutter your shelves etc.

— embrace the power of lists: keep a list of tasks to be done and their deadlines. this way, you start each day with a clear plan. to make it visually appealing and motivating, consider using productivity apps like evernote, habit tracker, or notion.

PRODUCTIVITY TIPS

— wake up early.

— plan ahead everything, do scheduling. you can use:

google calendar / notion / tasks .

— if the task takes less than 2 minutes to finish, do it immediately.

— countdown rule, if you are procrastinating, count 1-2-3-4-5 and jump.

— start slow, don't rush and try to do everything at one time.

— follow a proper routine, use app locks based on screentime.

— pomodoro technique, 25 min work, and 5 min break.

— schedule longer break times as well e.g 30 min nap.

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YF-12 Blackbird.

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HELLO LOVELIESSSSSS

after nearly two months gone, guess whos back? that sem break was a much needed one. esp since my internship ended up being internshit.

imma start my new 100 days of productivity from tomorrow, which is the start of my fifth semester.

my sem iv gpa came out btw. its 3.17. it's unsexy asf. my wrist gave up in the finals and i didnt practise enough, but i'd be a bitch if i said it's not miles better than 2.03.

if anyone else is interested in starting it with me tomorrow lmk. accountability is sexy.

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day 26/100 of the 100 dop

zero productivity today is all the news i have about today. bc the rest of the days have been slightly less unproductive, but being sick is gross. i have lived thru stuff but colds are my breaking point.

i have a final on monday. i have to study. it's like... A FINAL.... and yet my blocked nose and pounding headache arent letting me focus at all. i hope the antihistamines work soon

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i have a course called compressible aerodynamics and some in academic circles call it high-speed aerodynamics

but true academicians *my library study sessions besties and i* call it high-speed mindfuck

*bc in all honesty i no longer have any idea what back pressure i need for a subsonic flow in the convergent divergent nozzle, and what back pressure range i need to generate a normal shockwave INSIDE the nozzle, and what back pressure will give me a normal shockwave at the nozzle EXIT, and WHAT THE FUCK EVENIS A BACK PRESSURE EVEN I AM LOSING IT I HAVE A PAPER TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!*

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so i have these two super sweet guy teachers who are both really accomplished bitches, each is a phd and each has like multiple degrees with really cool alma maters and they're so so sweet.

one of them teaches aerodynamics, the other teaches materials and mechanics, and they've been friends for nearly all their adult life, and they're so pookie and their friendship is like the sweetest purest thing in a place that has got to be the worst because i study at a military school and shit's pretty strict around here and so they're the freshest breath of air possible.

istg sometimes i js like wish my friendships would last through everything like theirs has. because they've always been rivals at work, esp when they had field jobs leading teams working planes and plane formations, but when they're outside their workplace, they're the sweetest.

idk why i decided to be real yappy ab them but they're so....

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things i'm manifesting for 2026 (yes i'm aware it's two years from now)

my aerospace degree being done

having a scholarship for europe for my masters in my pocket for spring of 27

a job and a dog

lestappen title fight down to the wire

ferrari rocketship

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sleep soon to this sound

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Day 13/100 of the 100 Days of Productivity

things i intend to do today *bc why are sundays so depressing*

compressible aerodynamics: in general but esp the quiz + assignment

heat transfer: assignment + open ended lab

numerical methods: quiz + assignment + open ended lab

thermodynamics-ii: quiz

viscous fluid flow: labs 13 and 14

mechanical behavior of materials: revise von mises theory

song of the day: rewind - stereophonics

and not your summer - the academic

album of the day: suck it and see - arctic monkeys

can't wait to go back to the only good thing ab college i.e. the library

*here's a cheapass quality photo from my laptop cause i can't openly use my phone here*

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i was a pleasure to have in class in that they liked what my brain was capable of.

but i was such a nuisance bc i had the classic adhd personality. i'd sit with anyone and make them awful, so the teacher sat me alone more than once, in a special seat right next to the teacher. my notebooks were always incomplete. i hated written homework where we essentially had to copy shit from the source material. i loved essays and math homework.

the “pleasure to have in class” to overly active tumblr user pipeline