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hi it's been a while :) life's been a bit busy lately and i guess it's safe to say that it's better than rotting in my room all day. hope your day goes well today :)

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it's ghosting szn, makes me want to ghost my life too

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we were too exhausted to care that we didn't notice those pretty little things until they're gone

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but where would I go when the world turn its back on me?

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looking back, I saw old photos of myself saved in a folder I created one summer night; there are photos of you, too and we were happy.

some things I forgot I still have; things I could do nothing but reminisce.

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in my twenties; burning bridges, building walls, and constructing things I was deprived of as a child.

I still have a long way to go, don't I?

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rain came pouring, splattering on the tin roof; resonating my tears, echoing my suppressed cries.

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one day, you're taking a step forward and suddenly, you fall into the same deep pit again; helpless, crying for help, reaching your hands to the sky wondering what the hell went wrong this time.

another day, waking up with the same heavy heart.

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we all longed for a love that cannot be, haven't we?

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yes, I still have your picture in my wallet, but I don't use that anymore.

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and I looked up at the windows and noticed the orange hues. so I went outside and saw the clouds scattered like waves in the sky. I thought the waves were only meant for the sea, but it could be anywhere; it can even go to your heart.

surging, basking, crashing.

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november felt like a long forgotten book you used to read over and over again when you were sixteen.

as you flipped through the pages, memories came rushing back in golden hues as if telling you to look at the sunset peeking through the autumn leaves and realized that somehow, a part of you were still there, inked between the pages.

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long weekends passed by in a minute...

in a heartbeat, reality came like a storm knocking on your window on a perfectly sunny day, and you've got no choice but to let the things you can't escape from rain on you.

can we snooze long weekends for a couple of weeks? (i'm not yet ready to go back to uni bcs tasks are piling up and i'm so drained)

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did it ever occur to you how life would have been if it was a straight path and not a bumpy one? will your heart still beat like it used to today or not?

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I think about it all the time, clasping my palms whenever I have the chance to because the last time I didn't,

love loosened up in my grasp — like a minute passing by, a pappus blown by the wind, and a meteor in the dark sky.

of fleeting 11:11 wishes, dandelion yearnings, and shooting star dreams...

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hey, how are you?

how have you been coping lately? life gets tougher each day and I hope you all have something to hold on to. it doesn't matter if it's one of those worn-out pages in a book, someone's cardigan whom they left their scent lingers, a random quote, or an old recipe from your grandmother. as long as you're moving forward and you're okay even if you're not fine, I'm glad because you're here.

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it's me and my toxic relationship with my academics against the world :)

this made me cry more than a guy could ever have and it's way better than the other way around.

becauseeee how could you stay for more than a decade after all the crying and breakdown it caused??? If it were a real relationship, we'd have broken up the first year.