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So I saw this clip on YouTube with the question what is a 25 year old to old for. I'm not 25 but 22 and turning 23 near the end of this year but it made me realize some things.

Now here's a bit about me first, I suffer from depression, social anxiety, a small speech impediment, hallucinations (auto able and visual) and seizures. Absence seizures if I remember correctly. That's my health and now for when I was little.

I often was bullied at school since I acted younger or older then I actually was since I grew up with people who were either older or younger then me. It was extremely hard to make friends since it was also pretty hard to understand me as my speech impediment was really noticable back then. The school also fought since they didn't believe I had any issues and my mom had to literally threaten to go to court many times just to make them do what they already were supposed to do ga my school life was really bad. I was a ticking time bomb which went off during 3rd grade.

I was mentally unstable, my hallucinations got worse in stressful situations which mess with me being able to focus and I was just struggling to be a normal kid. I would throw tantrums, fight, run off campus, I did a lot of dangerous things, I was a suicidal 9 year old. Jumping in front of cars, this lasted up until I was in 8th grade, my mom (she is so fucking amazing) had fought for me the entire time but the school did us dirty and my mom took me out and homeschooled me. Once I was out of school I actually started to mature, being out of that constant stressful situation helped me for the better.

Still I suffer from all of that and it affects my everyday living, my depression makes it difficult to even get out of bed to use the restroom some days. I do take medicine for all of this and if I didn't my depression would be 100 times worse but it's still there. However I have grown, I no longer get triggered by little things and I'm coping with stress and change well. (I can't thank my therapist enough.) I still have my moments when I fall back at times, yelling during a argument, losing my temper to the point I feel like braking somthing (though I don't anymore just have the urge to) and get really emotional when I get yelled at. (Being yelled at is one of my triggers.) All of this is a cause and a explanation why I have my moments but it isn't a excuse to how I negatively react to them.

I think what makes you a adult is how you respond to certain things, unlike some people (aka people like Karen's) and actually try to approve, seeing what you did wrong and accepting the consequences. The world isn't fair so even if you believe you're in the right you shouldn't lash out or bother others and accept the consequences you are given for what you believe was right. I'm happy with how much I approved and I hope to whoever sees this (if anyone does.) This helps you one way or another. Keep going, the trail is never smooth but your walk is what makes it worth it. Hold your head high, it's never to late to change.

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They love each other, Don't mind them

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He’s in a rodent tube sort of thing.

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Shhh u saw nuthin

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a little animated comic I made bc I still think about papyrus mistaking a rock for a person

Srsly, one of my silly headcanons for him is that he does have pupils like his bro. However, since birth(??) they have not worked very well, labeling him legally blind most of the time. He’s super used to it, so is kinda able to just forcefully blunder his way through life anyway. Dude probably invents things like 2 inches from his face. He can get them to light up sometimes, but it’s hit or miss. (“Old things” is a silly papyrus misnomer here; not only is he not old but they have always been this way lol)

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Love is somthing everyone wants, it's a part of human nature and it doesn't have to come from a romantic partner, it can be friends, family, somthing you enjoy. Love is somthing that makes you happy and smile, somthing that you can look back and and admire and appreciate, even if you didn't appreciate it back then. Feeling change and people grow, people have regrets and guilt, trust is somthing that any relationship needs. Like I don't trust myself but I'm trying, I'm trying to love myself and be happy with just myself. Be proud of what you accomplished then foucs on what you haven't. We are constantly changing, it's up to us to make that change noticeable. Get help if need be, love isn't going anywhere, it just needs the strength to grow.

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FUN FACT

Some people are home made.

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Ya know I'm sure if we could fly many people will fly over other people's houses and shit on them like birds.

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So I just realized have this thing I often do when some show becomes popular and I haven't watched it I refuse to even when my friends insist that I will like it but the reason why I do that is simple. During the time it popular I often hear alot of spoilers so to counter that I wait for so long until I forget about the show entirely and find it on YouTube or some fucking sight and watch it then. Then I remember my friends loved this show and tell them about how much I loved it just to piss them of. I now like this trait I just figured out about myself.

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Okay so its like 5 am and I haven't been able to sleep due to a mixture of excitement and my depression trying to find ways to fight my excitement. Im going to stay with my girlfriend this weekend, that's why I'm excited btw. Anyway I'm 19 and turning 20 this year, I don't have a GED and with this virus going around it has made it worse for me to just take the math portion of the test. Ill have to weae a mask and ill end up having a panic attack due to the stress and not being able to breath clearly. I've probably have gotten off track here but I'm typing this to try and feel better about myself and not like a failer. Also if I'm going threw this I'm sure other people are to so fight on. I'm fighting as hard as I can and continue to find the smallest things to be happy about. Trust me I have lost alot and I am far behind dispite being a adult. I'm not so smart and I have no ideal where I'm going to go but for now I'm going to continue this fight because if one person, one creature relies on me and likes me around then I have someone I wont want to leave behind. Good luck.

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I love my little shitters but I dont apresseate it when she attacks my ankles and makes me bleed.

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I wanna be a octopus. Those fuckers are like aliens.

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Hey can someone kill me? Like make it look like I was used in some ritual. I can't give you anything besides experience.

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My girlfriend has such a nice ass but since this corona shit I havent been able to slap it and now I have to restrain myself from slapping my moms or brothers ass out of instinct when they are looking in the fridge or have their backs turned.

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I have had this urge to scream for weeks now but I know if I scream my neighbors are going to think I'm crazy mainly because I'll sound like a Taridactal dying mix with a cat having a orgasm.