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“Sunlight on gold caught his eye” for @lucienweekofficial

This is my first Lucien portrait and I love it so much! I wanted to portray Lucien in the way that I see him and I got inspired by that scene in ACOWAR where he sees Elain and his breathing stops when she faces him.

See the timelapse video below (cause I love those)

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new sweatshirt felt fitting for my account tbh

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Hello everyone!

Thank you for all the messages I’m continuing to receive. I wish I had good news…I have recently become quite sick and have been undergoing testing and treatment.

I have been trying my best to not dwell on the negative and the risks, and have gotten back to some reading (as a coping mechanism, really). This past weekend my partner forced me to write something because he knows that it brings me a lot of joy, in hopes that it would help with my mental and physical health.

I’m happy to say that this did result in plotting out a very different Elucien fic that I hope I am able to start working on eventually once my health concerns are in the clear.

I am sorry to all the messages, comments and tags that I haven’t responded to yet…but please know that I appreciated each and every one and I really hope to be back to posting regularly very soon xx

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I hope uk you are a misogynistic piece of shit and i hope u get forced to marry someone and die

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The risks of marriage, everyone. Please stay safe out there unmarried people.

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Where have ya been?

Hi Anon!

Thank you for checking in, and my apologies for my disappearance.

In short, the past few months have been chaotic for me. A few unpredictable events happened at an inconvenient time, and when I finally returned to work this past week after my leave to sort out all these issues, I was flooded with several unmanageable tasks that have me extremely stressed at the moment.

I have so much writing sitting on the back burner waiting for me to get back to, and I can’t wait to update my existing WIPs, but my life is unforgiving right now. I wish I had a better update and a more definitive idea of when I’ll be able to return to being fully active again, because I miss this community on a daily basis 😢

Here’s hoping it won’t be too long until I’m updating regularly again, but thank you in the meantime to all who have left comments and kudos on my existing work/posts. I will respond as soon as all my chaos settles 💕

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So a lot of people have talked about the weird sexual punishment and embarrassment utilized against team green and I wanted to weigh in because I think it’s the perfect example of the hypocrisy of this show’s messaging.

Because on the surface, HOTD takes a very sex positive stance. They champion Rhaenyra for being very open with her sexuality and for being sexually liberated in a very conservative society. They act as if she is an impressive beacon of feminism for this. And that would be great…if it weren’t for the fact that this sex positive outlook lives and dies with Rhaenyra’s and team black’s sexual experiences only.

Outside of Rhaenyra’s perspective, sex scenes are often degrading, predatory, abusive, and meant to embarrass the character to others in universe and/or the audience.

Criston is seen saying no and trying to leave when being coerced into sex with Rhaenyra which she promptly ignores by kissing him and blocking the door. Then that sex he consistently has with Rhaenyra is used as a joke for how pathetic he is for not accepting her offer to be nothing more than a personal “whore”. And his consensual sex with Alicent is seen as hypocrisy but also interrupted by Helaena after blood and cheese so that he can be blamed for this atrocity because of his “immorality”.

Aemond is seen cuddling in the lap like a young child of the woman who raped him when he was young, then being served milk, and then walking out of the brothel naked. With the whole scene being painted uncomfortable and rather degenerate.

Aegon has a scene of him being a rapist to ensure he is known as a bad and evil man. And then he has a scene where he explicitly states how his genitalia have been damaged. As if his disability from his attack is embarrassing and disgusting.

Larys one of the few disabled characters in the show, has a fetish that surrounds his disability that he uses to degrade Alicent. Thereby making him seem disgusting and pathetic.

And of course. Alicent. Her first sexual encounter we see her have is her looking dead inside while being raped by her pedophilic husband, a scene that seems to have the connotation of deserved assault because “she asked for this” by “seducing” Viserys. She is fetishized for information and thus makes her seem degraded and gross. Her sex with Criston is interrupted by Helaena after blood and cheese so that she, too, is blamed for the atrocity of the murder of her grandchild because she was “immoral” for…having consensual sex with someone after her rapist husband finally dies.

Every scene that any team green character experiences is painted in a way that portrays them as disgusting, perverted, and immoral; or is painted in a way that is meant to humiliate these characters to others in and out of universe.

How is this sexually positive? How is this an appropriate way to portray your “villains”, by painting them negatively and embarrassing them through their sexual encounters?

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The worst part is that they’ve used these sexually degrading scenes specifically to “humble” a rape victim and child bride. Humbling her because they believe that she is power hungry and desperate for the throne and so she uses and betrays Viserys and Rhaenyra. And aside from that being a major mischaracterization (Alicent didn’t want the throne as a teenage girl forced to marry the king, and she doesn’t betray Viserys and Rhaenyra out of personal ambition but protection for her family), you know who that description fits? DAEMON TARGARYEN.

Daemon wanted the throne more than anything. Groomed his teenage niece to have a chance to marry her to get closer to the title of king. Betrayed, humiliated, and hurt his brother and niece wife to make himself a better candidate as heir. Choked his niece wife when she didn’t listen to him. And consistently asserted himself as king, a position to be viewed as higher than his wife the queen.

And similar to Alicent, he was “humbled” this season. But how was he humbled? By having private visions that are unknown to (almost) everyone. And these visions are mostly just him being shown the people he hurt in the process of seeking his power. Except for the one with his mother, which is sexually inclined, but not presented in the same depraved and humiliating way that the scenes with Alicent or any of team green are.

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This whole show just has such a gross way of depicting the people they see as villains. And it shows how hypocritical their messaging is. HOTD is not a feminist, sex positive show. It’s far too obsessed with sexual violence and humiliation against people they dislike to be one. This show believes that sexual positivity and liberty is good. But only for those who deserve it. That it’s not a right but rather a privilege. And anyone they deem as immoral, evil, bad, or “unfeminist” doesn’t deserve it. They deserve to be ridiculed, humiliated, and humbled by their failures as people. And I can’t stand it.

This show isn’t sex positive and feminist. It’s Rhaenyra positive. That’s it.

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He did try to warn us (GRRM, May 24)

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I need this on a t-shirt.

in conclusion

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Team Aemond to the very end.

Me @ Aemond after that shit show of a HOTD season finale:

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Well done Ewan Mitchell…your 4 minutes of screen time this season was phenomenal.

Ewan Mitchell as “Aemond Targaryen” in House of the Dragon.

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You are not morally superior because you were not disappointed in a series.

You are not morally superior because you defend a series against those who are critical and expected more of it.

You are not morally superior because you didn’t find fault in a series which has deviated from the original source. Nor are you morally superior over those who wish the series more accurately represented the book.

It goes without saying, but no one is morally superior for their perspective of this show or the book.

If you were lucky enough to love the loosely adapted version of Fire & Blood, take your win and grant those who were disappointed the right to criticise the things they didn’t like.

There is nothing wrong with critical commentary and discourse over any form of media or text, especially if one is disappointed in the outcome of something of which they are passionate. In fact, it shows a form of intelligence that you’re able to view media through a critical lens and not simply love everything fed to you.

This book was specifically written to result in various interpretations and perspectives of the text, so it was always going to have contrasting opinions and opposing views. Allow it.

Don’t shame others for their disappointment and criticism because it’s entirely valid.

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"helaena? she does not ride, she has no taste for it."

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It's really insane that they had Aemond burn a city in s2 just because they want him evil, I guess they were really really mad that he got so popular and was seen as sympathetic in s1. They reduced his screen time to one minute each episode and toned down his character leaving him with almost no lines so he wouldn't overshadow anyone even accidentally like he did in s1. They hate him so much.

The choices surrounding Aemond this season were certainly... choices. All intended to paint him as an irredeemable villain with little nuance.

In the books, Aemond is burning settlements in the Riverlands once the Greens have lost the throne, Otto and Gwayne are killed, Alicent and Heleana are captives at the mercy of the Blacks, and Aegon, Jaehaera, and Maelor are lost to the wind. Cole is elsewhere with his host and Daeron and Tessarion are with the Hightower host. It's now that Aemond decides to use Vhagar to burn Black-allied settlements with the goal of drawing out a Black dragonrider to defend them and even the advantage. It's also his perceived vengeance for what happened to the Greens and how the Riverlords helped the Black cause to hurt the Greens.

By moving this plot point to when the Greens hold the throne and capital, its purpose just becomes showing that Aemond is a tyrannical maniac choosing to unnecessarily burn a city as he seeks to rule with fire, blood, and fear. It's now a moment of "see? He and the Greens are unfit to rule. Rhaenyra NEEDS to save people from them."

The bias in the writing is so transparent that it's made the show unwatchable for me.