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I’ve never been much of one for journaling. It feels very self-indulgent, mainly because I have a tendency to dramatize things simply for the entertainment value. Flowery language that’s not explicitly necessary. Overdrawn explanations for simple things. But being that a journal is for me, in theory, I suppose it’s self-indulgent on basis alone. 

And Bella insists that I can say it’s for her, which considering she’s some subset of my inner monologue, I don’t know what to make of, but appreciate because it’s easier that way. I try writing something that would make Bella smirk or roll her eyes and oftentimes it’s the very same things that would do as much for me, but. The separation makes it easier, in a sense.

And it gives her something to focus on besides all of my bad choices. Both of us, really. A reprieve of sorts. So... the whole idea of philosophy is troubling to me. Because outside of my small world, it’s common. But here, in this tiny pocket of the dimension, it’s ridiculous. It’s crazy. It’s STUPID. And it’s very hard to enjoy debating with yourself. It’s maddening. 

Petty arguments with Bella aside, because she’s always being contrary.

But. The concept of reality, the interwoven natures of love, respect, and desperation-- what is love?

“Baby don’t hurt me”

...

But really. What is it? What defines it for ME? The definition isn’t the same for everyone. I often wonder if mine is even remotely similar to most? I can emphatically say I love two distinct people more than anything-- save my tiny relatives. Yet, there’s a distinction between the two that’s so vast that I don’t really know what to make of it. They would think themselves incomparable, the two. But the feeling of loss with one or both is too familiar. And...

What the fuck, actually?

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So like, not to be Alarming On Main, but I feel like this video represents my mental state. I play every role. Logical mind is Concerned adult. Emotional mind is the kid with a knife. I'm not sure what part of me is recording it, but that part exists and I appreciate it most of all.

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Like... when I first started reading, I thought this was going to be The Black Cat from Pluto's POV. This is fantastic I just. Want to read about this smug fucking cat and his 'depraved human' losing his shit. 'While I can not warn mistress of the axe, she should have rightfully known. His is human nature at its foulest. ' 'As the wall is sealed, resting upon the shoulder of my fallen mistress, I speak not. Foolish human though she was, she was my human. I need not wait long. His hubris will see to his end. The tapping of his cane only sealed his fate. A petulant mewl. The shock reverberating off of him in waves. Were my tongue not to slough her flesh, I would give my mistress a final goodbye. As it stands, if there is an afterlife as humans dream, I only hope she bears witness.'

By Czeck writer Karel Čapek, inventor of the term ‘robot’ as well!

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So I feel like if Dolan is unsatisfied with his treatment and feels the Salem Witch Trials were less egregious (which... ok is this real life)

But like ok.

If the Salem Witch Trials were more fair, like... forget the vote. Like. If he's tossed in a lake and doesn't immediately drown, for example, he is definitely a witch. Which means he can walk away and live with his riches...

JK he would get burned alive

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Me, when literally anyone approaches me in literally any capacity

AHH FUCK IM DYING

..المبادرة بين الطرفين هي أساس بقاء العلاقة..

“The initiative of both parties is the basis for the survival of the relationship”

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Yall

Yall...

Ok but where do they keep the monsterfuckers, real talk?

Tumblr University

Optional Uniform

ID

DORMS!!!!!

The Who/Sherlock dorms

Harry Potter/Narnia/LOTR Dorms

Pirates/History dorms

disney/disney princess dorms(you can put more posters,etc)

Directioner dorms(but put more ireland flags and more pics of the boys)

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Haunting her is the fucking worst my dudes she's always staring vacantly at the ceiling and crying. I was gonna possess her or something but at this point it's just fucking depressing. Like... do you know how much she talks about chicken wings and nachos? Jesus Christ... she's crying again, I'll brb. Just need to rattle my chains a bit... yes. I have chains. Rattling... ugh. I'll explain later.

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So like... I googled tulpas and a character of mine that has lingered in my mind for around 20 years was like yOOO and tbh won't shut up and

"If i was haunted they would be a proper douche"

"If you were haunted you'd be awkward about it"

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Bella wants you to know: lmao yIKES and also living in the deepest recesses of my mind is an utter hellscape and-- OF COURSE SHE'S DRAMATIC FOR FUCKS SAKE

Now im being surly because a figment of my imagination is kinkshaming me and i didn't sign up for this

A little story about ghosts, and roommates, and getting to know each other.

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Soup for me and my spoop is so pure... I teared up from joy upon seeing this follow up. I love them.

A little story about ghosts, and roommates, and getting to know each other.

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@spriteofwinter

Sirius Black, the world’s most dramatic boyfriend

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Tiny gasp

One week, one month, one year, two years!

I kind of disregarded my beard anniversary this year but I started letting it grow on Nov 1st, 2017! I was really fucking scared but honestly very suicidal at the time and needed to do something drastic to change my life.

It’s been ultimately a positive experience, and one I would never give back for anything. For those who don’t know, I’m a cis woman who was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 15. I started growing facial hair and stomach and chest hair at age 12, and shaved it DAILY until age 26.

PCOS affects one in five people with ovaries, and there are millions of people with ovaries who naturally can grow a beard and other body hair. We’re conditioned to believe that women do not grow body hair, and so we spend decades hiding it, pretending it’s not an issue we face.

People I know, myself included, have been terrified of anyone finding out. They refuse to let partners touch their face, their stomachs, they panic if they go on a trip and forget a razor.

This is BULLSHIT. There’s nothing wrong with your body hair. There’s nothing wrong with YOU. You’re not even uncommon!

Sorry I kinda rambled but seriously y’all, face your insecurities head on. It’s worth it.

Also this post is NOT for terfs and transphobes, and is trans inclusive. Trans men can and do have PCOS sometimes, and trans women are allowed to be as fucking hairy as me if they want. Who cares!

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One time I posted a pic of my fat puppy looking shocked after I called her a fat puppy and

Someone said it looked like she was saying

McScuse me?

And as a connoisseur of fat jokes--

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Attention, attention, get down on the floor

Don't reach for your pockets, don't run for the door

Attention, attention, it's urgent, it's real

The cameras are rolling, the envelopes sealed

Attention attention

By the way did I mention

The stories I hear are the stories I tell

Like jumping over buildings and sneaking outa hell

Intention, retention, it's all in your head

That greedy little mistress, they tied in in your bed

Attention attention, 

By the way did I mention

Nothing 'bout me is ordinary

My friends all say I'm going crazy

I don't hear a word that they say

'Cause the voices in my head are legendary

But I'll never tell 'em where the bodies are buried

Keeps them coming back every day

Oh no, oh no

They're just villains in my mind doin' time

Oh no, oh no

They're just matches burning holes in my soul

Attention attention 'cause this ain't a stunt

The judges are racist, the juries corrupt

The shelves are all empty but the seats are all filled

You're a shiny new penny, I'm a hundred Dollar bill

Attention attention, 

By the way did I mention

Nothing 'bout me is ordinary

My friends all say I'm going crazy

I don't hear a word that they say

'Cause the voices in my head are legendary

But I'll never tell 'em where the bodies are buried

Keeps them coming back every day

Oh no, oh no

They're just villains in my mind doin' time

Oh no, oh no

They're just matches burning holes in my soul

Attention, attention

Attention, attention

They're just villains in my mind doin' time

Nothing 'bout me is ordinary

My friends all say I'm going crazy

I don't hear a word that they say

'Cause the voices in my head are legendary

But I'll never tell 'em where the bodies are buried

Keeps them coming back every day

Oh no, oh no

They're just villains in my mind doin' time

Oh no, oh no, 

They're just matches burning holes in my soul

Oh no, oh no

They're just villains in my mind doin' time

Oh no, oh no, 

They're just matches burning holes in my soul

Attention, attention

Attention, attention

Shinedown// Attention Attention

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Parents: Wait a minute...

Me: *waits three seconds before the anxiety becomes unbearable*

Parent: ... Why are you like this?

Me: *staring at the lil lock nub* I'm so sorry

*friends car is locked*

Friend: stop pulling the handle

Me:

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Me: *blinks, far too weary to explain cousin once removed a million times* SO MY NIECE AND NEPHEW--

The cousin explainer

Source

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Same, random work van. Same.

Me: *fumbles to rip the clip off my phone* THE TRIALS OF BEING AN INTERNET CELEBRITY

No one:

Literally Not One Single Person:

Me: ... *mumbles* I mean I'm not a celebrity literally no one knows I exist but... *sadly snaps photo*

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