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Almost 1 year and 6 months on Testosterone

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TRANS PEOPLE ARE EVERYWHERE- Capitol Hill, Seattle, WA

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What people don’t understand about being a transgender boy is

What people don’t understand about being transgender boy is

When we look in the mirror,we don’t see ourselves magically appear as the gender we were supposed to be born as When we take off our binders,we don’t see a flat chest and scar tissue When we remove all our clothes,we don’t see the body parts we were supposed to be born with.

Whenever I take off my binder,I see these balls of fat on my chest and think “I’m a boy,I’m not supposed to have these.”

Whenever I look in the mirror,I see myself as myself.It’s a reflection,not a time machine.

Whenever I remove my clothes,I see the opposite of what I am.I see a girl,when I know I’m a boy.

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(Over) 11 months on T😏😏😄

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Being trans isn’t fun

I once considered cutting my chest off

With a pair of scissors

And trembling hands

Being trans isn’t fun

It was training my bladder for 8 hours

That saved the last bit of pride I had

By keeping me out of the bathrooms

Being trans isn’t fun

It’s clutching your chest

And choking on your breath

That the dysphoria has now taken

Being trans isn’t fun

It’s not being able to look anyone in the eyes

Because you can’t even look inside your own

Without seeing yourself screaming for help

You genuinely believe

That no one can love you

Because how could you love you

Being trans isn’t fun

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Basically 7 months on T 🤘🏼

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I haven't posted anything on here since month 4 of testosterone cause I've been working a lottttt. But this is about 6 months and 1 week on Testosterone and I've seen some huge body changes in the last 2 months and I'm diggin it

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*strums guitar* stop portraying trans men binding their chests with ace bandages *strum* it’s an extremely harmful method and portraying it may influence young trans men to do the same *strum* just portray them using binders or sports bras its not that fucking hard *smashes guitar on floor*

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T day to 4 months on Testosterone 😛

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Left-4 months T // right-preT

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4 months on Testosterone 9/26/17 😛

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1st picture is pre testosterone and the other 2 are 3 months on T 🤙🏼

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Top left: pre testosterone/ top right: 1 month/ bottom: 2 months

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August 1st was my 2 months on T 😛 I've been seeing a lot of new hairs everywhere. My girlfriend even commented on how she can see my lip hair from basically across the room. Leg hair is significantly darker, and my arm hairs are getting thicker. My voice has been dropping, everyone I haven't seen in a couple weeks comments on how deep it's getting. My face is a bit more defined, a friend I haven't seen in a month commented on how my jaw looks more defined. My eyebrows are getting out of control- but I love it, I've also noticed so peach fuzz below my lip and under my chin I have a legit thick brown hair that my gf pointed out. My happy trail has also gotten considerably darker. I've noticed my arms seem like they've gained a bit of muscle and my neck and shoulders seem a little broader but not enough to really notice by just looking. I'm still getting misgendered by strangers... which is upsetting because some days I will feel SO masculine and I'll get misgendered by someone and it just kills me.. but besides the still getting misgendered I'm beyond happy with the changes I've been seeing

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Left:pre T /right: 1 month T

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Today is my 1 month on T (July 4th 2017) What I’ve noticed:
Hair- leg and arm hair is getting darker on my upper thighs and upper arm. Hair around my belly button is getting darker. My girlfriend commented on how the hair on my lip looks darker but idk. Eyebrows are definitely getting thicker 
Voice- my girlfriend and her mom commented on my voice being deeper the other day. My gf also said I sound all raspy and deep when I wake up. My laugh has also started to sound more masculine. 
Body/face- haven’t noticed any big changes to body or face shape except for my neck seems to be a little thicker and my jaw is /slightly/ more defined I guess 😂

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6/30/17

I got my first “your voice sounds deeper” comment 😛😊 (1 month on T July 4th)