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Where do you belong?

"You feel like you don't belong. You act out and your parents send you to a different school. In fact, you switch schools 5 times in 6 years. You become verbally, emotionally and sexually abused and they do nothing. You keep acting out and they don't know what to do so they send you to me. They send you to boarding school. They become separated from you and they don't have the role as parents in your life anymore... No wonder you feel like you don't belong anywhere" -my therapist

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I can honestly say i’ve never seen a more entertaining ladle.

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1. your middle school best friend, the one you share all your laughs with and can’t imagine not being friends with, will only be a familiar face that you’ll share a smile with across the room during high school graduation 2. popularity doesn’t matter. at all. be nice to everyone, don’t be stuck up in who you talk to, stay down to earth. high school isn’t just about climbing to the top and building contacts. one day you’re going to look back and wonder who your true friends were and what motives others had in gaining your friendship. take the time to get to know those who you normally wouldn’t, and you’ll be very surprised 3. the loneliness you feel right now is not permanent. there will be a moment, maybe months or years from now, where you will feel this overwhelming warmness, and you will look around at the people surrounding you and think, hey maybe all that sadness and loneliness was worth getting to this point. and you will smile and everything will be ok 4. don’t get sucked into the “I’m too cool to study” phase. stop glorifying netflix, going to sleep late, and barely getting your work done. find your motivation and don’t let anyone hold you back. there will be kids at school who will love to brag “I didn’t study for this test” and “oh dude I stayed up till 1am last night.” I promise that doesn’t make them cool or bad ass. in fact, most people who claim they haven’t cracked a book open, have actually studied more than you think. hold your own, be productive. you don’t want to look back on a test, a quarter, a semester, a year and think “damn, I wish I had done more.” give it your all and you will reap the benefits 5. don’t lose your spontaneity - don’t get sucked into the same rigid routine. regularity is great but you can’t lose your spark. it will crush you, years down the line, when you realize you’ve forgotten what it’s like to do something without overly planning it, without worrying about homework, without a million other items on your to-do list creeping into the back of your mind 6. when you’re having a shitty night, just go to sleep. seriously turn your phone off, close the computer, and get into bed. I promise that is the only solution. 7. when someone invites you to plans, always say yes. even if you’re exhausted, curled up watching a movie in pajamas. even if you feel like you want some alone time, or if you don’t feel 100 percent comfortable in the social situation (not in a dangerous way but a meeting new people way) - say yes. you won’t regret the experiences. 8. make yourself painfully aware of the compartmentalized characteristics and cookie-cutter personas you put on and that others put on. be conscious of the characters the media has ingrained in our society, and remind yourself that being the “cool girl” doesn’t mean drinking beer and eating burgers and letting guys step all over you so you can seem chill. reading and writing doesn’t make you “nerdy” just like playing sports doesn’t make you cool. these are associations we have been taught by movie scripts and novels. you don’t have to be one thing or the other - you can wake up early one morning, make yourself a smoothie, and be that “yoga” girl. then the next day you can stay out all night and live recklessly. you don’t have to feel like you need to fit into a persona 9. not everyone will like you, and that’s okay. stop trying to please everyone - it’s impossible. radiate confidence - even if it’s fake confidence, eventually it will become real. once you can do this, you will be untouchable 10. it’s not weird to go places alone - you don’t always need to find a friend to enjoy yourself. go for a walk, a bike ride. read at a coffee shop, take yourself out to lunch, drive somewhere interesting. don’t spend your whole day in a big ole box - you are alive, you are full of life and energy and so much potential. use it, move around, feel restless and don’t settle for staying idle

advice for high schoolers (s-un-rise)

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That awkward moment when you’re talking and your gum falls out of your mouth.

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NYC

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this is a amazingly written poem. @lorazepxm @sorry @poemparts @poetrysociety

Enough is Enough -original

Sometimes someone hurts you so bad, But you don’t feel mad, sad, or glad, You don’t feel anything anymore, You start to believe him when he calls you a whore.

The textbooks they give you in school don’t say, What the polite victim should do that day, The day your innocence is taken from you, When monsters try to blow their cold silver dew on you.

As he makes a piñata of my body, I can see his face image reflect in my morning coffee, My mind screams for someone to give me a city, Where my body is not public property.

It’s scary when ‘private parts’ aren’t private anymore, It feels like you are in a sea storm and can’t see shore, A body that you don’t recognize as yours, A feeling as if you are falling through the floors.

Guidance counsellors blaming, “Well what were you wearing?”, But all I think about is how he didn’t know, How to keep his hands off as he calls me a Hoe.

Once, my friend and I where catcalled, On a street where such actions snowballed, And she said 'f%#@ you’, While I said 'thank you’ like I was trained to.

I wonder what it shows when I feel pretty in a dress, But powerful in a suit with no bareness, As I felt the scruff of his face where no man should touch, Then my heart cried for the millionth time  'Enough is Enough’.

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this is so true to me. i just like black.

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A mistake repeated more than once is a decision.

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I know you want to save the world and be the modern day hero,“ I sigh, "but maybe it’s okay if you don’t save the world.” He look over at me, trying to decide what to say, but before he can get a word out, I continue. “No, it’s absolutely okay if you don’t become the hero for everyone else.” “No!” He whines, “You don’t-” “Understand?” I raise an eyebrow while finishing his sentence, “I probably don’t, you’re right, but what if you aren’t here to save lives and be known as someone everyone needs? It’s okay if you just save one person. It’s okay if you, you know, just save yourself.

E. Grin (via written-in-pen)

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Everything you’re sure is right can be wrong in another place.

Barbara Kingsolver (via travel-quotes)

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snowy new york city

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I know right from wrong. Wrong is the fun one.

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I’m constantly surrounded by unfamiliar faces, and I often find myself wondering if I am the reason they remain strangers.

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Radio City, New York City / Find travel tips for NYC at A Globe Well Travelled